I have broken up with Bakugou.

It's hard to think about him as I once did but the fact that my ex was so Katsuki coded makes it hard for me to look at him that way...at least for now

I miss him like crazy

The Psychonauts 2 first anniversary is coming up and I’m back on the brain rot🧠💥

am i the only one who misses the 2021 anime fandom?? Like i CANT BE THE ONLY ONE RIGHT?? Bcs everything back then was so iconic 😭,, like the anime pfps with the glitters, the kurapika memes, the anime VR videos, HOW INSANE THE CHROLLO SIMPS WERE, everyone waiting for AoT s4, that one 7 mins in heaven Eren x Reader on Ao3, the bald kurapika worshipers, when we would all stay up all night watching anime, the anime characters dancing to a tiktok song animations, literally everything. I cant help but reminisce about how fun the anime fandom was back in 2021,, id like to think that its the anime fandoms prime.

(its literally the definition of “you just have to be there to feel how fun it was”)

My housemate is moving out in January

She told us this a week or two ago, when she sat down and, after sitting with us watching TV for over an hour, said "hey so I bought a house and I'm moving out. We agreed on 2 months notice so I won't move until the end of January."

The last time she talked in the immediate terms about buying a house was in 2021, when the sale she was working on fell though and she was unemployed so it was a "when I'm back in a position to look I'll start looking again." Since then I've occasionally asked her how she's doing on the house buying front and she's been like "oh I'm getting there financially" but hasn't mentioned anything concrete.

She didn't tell us she was looking at places. She didn't tell us she had put in an offer. She told us when the offer was finalised. A week AFTER she emailed the letting agent about getting out of her part of the lease. And, it increasingly feels like, only because the letting agent's response was that we had to agree to change the lease.

The letting agent's response (which our housemate obviously didn't copy us into; we had to follow up separately and they copied us into the email chain) also includes that when we change the lease, they're empowered to change the rent, quote, "no cap". Rent was already going up in January - there's no possibility of Sam and I paying her share of the rent.

The really fucking upsetting thing is we're not strangers. This isn't a casual "housemate we found on flatshare" thing. She and Sam have lived together literally their entire adult lives. Me and her have known each other well over a decade. I lived in her and Sam's flat when I was homeless. We were the first people she came out to as trans. We're not super close but I thought we were fucking friends. And she's literally gone out of her way to not talk to us about this for what must have been months while the sale completed - which means she's lied to my face at least once cause I've asked her about her finances in that time (cause she's in a job she hates that she only took to get the house money, so it's like. when we've been commiserating about work stuff I'm often asking 'are you almost free?'). she literally went out of her way to talk to the letting agents before talking to us about putting us in a situation where we could lose our fucking home.

And she keeps. trying. to pretend nothing's happened. Every time I've seen her since then she's not mentioned anything or apologised or anything, she just keeps chatting away and offering hugs and fistbumps like nothing's happened. Like we're still fucking friends.

All it would take for us to still be friends and to be happy for her would have been one fucking sentence in the groupchat like "hey, just put an offer in on a house" or "I'm looking at properties, just so you know, that might happen in the next few months". Like nobody begrudges her for buying a house! It's very cool for her! She's 31 she's worked really hard to get the money I would love to be happy for her! Unfortunately she decided avoiding conflict is more important than giving the people she fucking LIVES WITH (who btw fronted her a month on the rent here while she was unemployed and agreed to take on a larger proportion of the move-in cost back in 2021, if we're still holding ourselves to shit we said 2.5 years ago), so no, you are not entitled to our friendship or to going back to normal.

like if she'd been honest with us it would have been something to process but we'd have had time to figure out our next steps. instead she's left us in a position where we have to find a new roommate before she gives her one month notice, which means finding someone by the end of December, which oh look that's the middle of the fucking Christmas holidays. and she didn't tell us anything until the START of December, or copy us into her conversation with the letting agent, meaning we still don't know what the rent on that space will be so we aren't yet in a position to advertise it. Has she offered to help find a roommate? Has she fuck. Has she offered to help out by moving her move-out date? Nah, she's moving as soon as she gets the keys because, quote, "that means her finances won't have to change". SOUNDS LOVELY. NOT HAVING YOUR FINANCES SUDDENLY CHANGE. I THINK THAT SOUNDS LIKE A REALLY REASONABLE FUCKING GOAL.

Thirteen fucking years she's lived with Sam. Four fucking weeks over Christmas she's left us to figure out a way to not turbofuck our living situation. And she's got the fucking nerve to try and pretend we should be interacting like nothing's changed. Jesus Christ. What a fucking unhinged way to treat...anybody, honestly. never mind the friends-your-entire-adult-life part. literally cannot imagine a scenario in which I would buy a house without telling the people I lived with.

(haha actually this is what my parents divorced over so apparently it's not unusual. although at least my dad had the decency to tell the woman he shared finances with at the point he put in an offer not the point the fucking sale went through.)

Like we'll be fine. It's a huge city centre flat with decent rent and queer housemates, hopefully even when the rent goes up it'll be an easy sell in a city with a huge housing shortage and big queer community. We've got a couple of people interested already, sight unseen - worst case scenario we have to live with someone we don't get on with. And it's given Sam and me a push to look at our own finances and as of today, we've got a mortgage decision in principle and can start looking at flats in the area - mind, we'll be transparent upfront and tell any prospective housemates that yeah, we're looking to buy and move out in the next 6-12 months, and we'll tell them if we put an offer in, because we're decent fucking people who aren't going to spring that on someone out of the blue.

But it's been I think 2 weeks and I'm so fucking angry I could spit. It's such a fucking betrayal. And frankly you know selfishly like. I just had a breakup a couple of months ago, I'm in the middle of moving jobs, both me and Sam have a history of housing instability and this has been the first decent, stable, safe, not-mouldy not-freezing home I think any of us have had, and this is so fucking triggering and upscuttling I could just start biting. like I was talking to my friend about it last week and it's just like. Can I have One Fucking Thing of the three main tentpoles of survival - home, work, relationships - that are fucking stable right now? because shit has been In Flux lately. and at least the work and relationship stuff has changed because of my decisions. going through all that work to make myself short-term unstable to gain long-term stability has been really hard and draining and then just as I was reaching the crisis point with work stuff BOOM, IT'S HOUSING INSTABILITY WITH A STEEL CHAIR. fuck. seriously fuck this and fuck her. we're going to make something good come of it but what a deeply, unbelievably shitty thing to do.

no u don't understand,,, when i'm back in atinyville chicago, i feel it

would u try

this is also why i stopped using my tracked tag for a while tbh

hope you're all liking the epilogue and that you enjoyed the whole series in general. thank you for giving it so much love and support. can't wait to share more 🤍

If someone was going off of ONLY my camera roll to judge me like in those weird videos yk the ones, I would be literally so embarrassed. like I promise I have friends and we hang out more than once a year I PROMISE please just trust me on this one .⁠·⁠´⁠¯⁠`⁠(⁠>⁠▂⁠<⁠)⁠´⁠¯⁠`⁠·⁠.

me whenever something irl inconveniences me: ok time to change up everything online. 

anyway making another long post because i’ve realised it’s coming up to 2023 and even though im a month early, im still plagued by the idea that a lot of my mutuals and i have been sitting just staring at each other across the dash like the li who’s route your on and the otome protag when you’re in the early stages without saying so much of a word to each other.

1.) ive been ... lowkey worried that the muse list i have is extremely long and therefore has made it difficult for people to reach out or simply pick the muses they want to write for the common fear that grips people when it comes down to it: picking a muse that they worry the multi didnt want to write with them. truthfully, know that whatever muse you’d pick, you’d never upset me. its the main reason why i have never, ever really picked any ‘primary’ / ‘main’ muses for this blog. however, in hopes that it does encourage people to pick the muses they want, or more importantly, don’t want to interact with at this moment in time. i’ve come up with a list of two muses who i will now try my best to default to if my mutuals pick to a fandom level, in hopes that if there is another(!) muse a mutual are far more interested in, they may feel more confident to pick so! these are as follows:

amnesia: shin & ikki. 

the arcana: asra & muriel

collar x malice: aiji & shiraishi

diabolik lovers: ayato & shu

obey me!: barbatos & lucifer

piofiore: nicola & dante. 

2.) i really need to be more open to giving out more in general. it’s probably my biggest flaw when it comes to rp, but i get caught up in my own fear of picking the wrong muse, thinking that i’m replying too late to people or simply just burying myself in drafts without thinking that people would like to plot / discuss / develop things out of whatever we’ve written together. to try my best(!) to conquer that, i’m implementing the way i’ve gone about things with my other blog. where if i do see a meme i think is suitable, i’ll send one in from a muse or two. no qualms if you’re not feeling up to replying about it or just don’t want to write with that particular muse. i’ll try sending one or two, but if recieving no reply will stop until because i don’t want to bombard anyone at all. i’m also going to take my time to reply to a lot of outstanding messages i have, unless the blogs archived / inactive. i’ve left a lot of people on read for a long time, so if you’re not feeling up to replying or continuing either, don’t feel pressured to. this includes discord, which means if you do wish to add me and continue something there, you can add me under: jupiter!#5567

3.) which ... the last point leads me into the big hole i find myself stuck in the most with this blog. this year i told myself would be the year i would be more proactive with confirming / asking if people wanted to pursue a ship ... but i def feel i have a couple of dynamics ive left in the entire will they / wont they bucket. and they’re ships i think i could definitely settle for as per my rules. if you do want to ship something, dont be afraid to let me know because i think, looking at it clearly, i probably ship it too ... otherwise, i am going to try my best to handle that fear of overstepping my boundaries where questioning where appropriate. the not knowing is fun but i am also so nervous in it if my muses become too flirtatious / interested in the process.

I think I might treat myself to the rest of the gg rewatch at least for s3, I neeeeeeed to look at the incentive convo 😋🍣🍶👀🙊😱🙏🥢

“Horoscope,” Moon Knight (Vol. 9/2021), #5.

Writer: Jed MacKay; Penciler and Inker: Alessandro Cappuccio; Colorist: Rachelle Rosenberg; Letterer: Cory Petit

kanté will ALWAYS be able to walk a mile in those louboutins !!!!! he'd spark this midfield,, we need our roadrunner back🥺 traumatise teams again king!

king kanté was really the scariest midfielder in the prem all the while just walking onto the pitch looking like this

NG we miss you so much please come back soon and healthy and fuck it up for us 😔🫡💙

anyway i hate parents youll be like “hey here’s a pattern of behavior where my sibling does [thing] and it deeply upsets me, in part because its built up over time. because i know youll ask for examples, she [recent example] just yesterday. this is really hurtful to me” and then theyll go “lol why are you so worked up over [recent example] its just a little thing youre so dramatic” while refusing to recognize the pattern of behavior

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Chapter 16 of discacc was by far my least favorite chapter to write bc of several reasons & thus every time I reach it in my rereads I'm like "ughhh do I have to" bc rereading it just reminds me of that lol

Last reread tho I remember being like "ykno what this is actually pretty good" so maybe it won't be so bad