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What type of 'me' do you like? I'll stick to that~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY @amugoffandoms!!!!!!!

(james a. janisse voice) aww, that's nice!

"To dream the impossible dream, that is my quest." - Prince Fernando of Asturias

+ Seb not getting what he ordered

+ the usual

Hello yes, look! It's baby Renault Fernando, isn't he so cute??? Who wouldn't want to force him into an arranged marriage, like cmon man be real. Here is the progress as usual, as well as his suit without the design, cause I'm pretty proud of it just blank even!

Okay so this is pure Fernando, innocent Fernando, before he had his apirations ripped way from him. Well not fully ripped away tbf, because that's the crux of his character: is it more humiliating to never succeed or to only succeed because someone handed it to you with concessions? I guess that's up for him to decide though ;;;

The thing I love about this drawing and young Fernando in general is how much easier it is to see his and Seb's similarities. Look how similar they look! Seb is just a bit more evil.

I think that's a big part as to why his feelings about Seb are so complicated. He both loves and hates how similar they are. From an egotistical point, he can appreciate and respect the familiar traits in Seb, the hunger, the exuberance, the pride, the ego. But also we hate seeing our own traits in other people, it's almost like turning a mirror on your worst traits and suddenly being able to see yourself from a new perspective. The biggest point here though is that Fernando turns that resentment onto Seb, as a way to clamp down on self hatred.

He becomes more bitter and resentful as he grows older, and loses a lot of his whimsy and joy. So it hurts him to see Seb, who in addition to getting everything he's ever wanted, also retain his whimsy. He, wrongly, just sees it as something that had to happen in order for him to grow up fully. It's more of a survival tactic, it started becoming unbefitting for him to have that level of unfounded confidence. That's the main reason he sees Seb as childish, immature and undeserving. He hasn't fully grown out of his capacity for whimsy and joy, and thus is below Fernando.

Well that was depressing oops! As the chibi art represents, this is probably a painting Seb got sent in the early days of planning their marriage. This is the Fernando who is still prideful, the Fernando who is still confident, the Fernando Seb vaguely remembers meeting his youth. Seeing this definitely pushes him even further towards the marriage(though tbf it's not like he even has a choice either.) Though when the time to actually start courting comes around, Fernando looks very uh different. This is both a joke about how different Fernando was in his first renault stint vs his second. But also I think he does show up very moody and disheveled, as a sort of last chance way to try and turn everyone on Seb's side, including Seb, off from the marriage. However, it's pretty much a done deal by that point.

Seb is uh, definitely confused, but I think he would be drawn to Fernando regardless. Actually, this might make Fernando even more appealing. Seb gets to push him all the time, try to break down his walls and get a glimpse at the real Fernando, if even just for a moment. Seb wishes he had more that just a blurry, vague recollection of Fernando at his peak confidence. Fernando definitely grows into something resembling his past self, after recovering from all the hurt, but there's just something about youthful exuberance that can't really be fully replicated.

Okay so about the quote. I went with Don Quixote this time instead of the typical Napoleon, because I thought it'd be funny. Fernando picks up the book at some point during his youth, and it inspires him a lot. He doesn't really see the satire in it, and comes to really admire Don Quixote's mentality, he's like "wow he never gives up! That's so admirable!" It definitely helps him through dark times to aspire to never give up no matter what. Though later Seb definitely rags on him for not knowing it was satire, and Fernando is like "wh-what do you mean satire?" But he's mentally strong enough atp for it to not cause his whole worldview collapse. About the quote specifically, there's definitely some part of him, even when young, that knows his aspirations are borderline impossible. I wonder if that part of him feels weirdly safe and comforted about the marriage. Yes, it's not ideal, but it's safe and secure. He gets what he wants, and there's no chance of anyone taking it away from him, no matter what.

I think his title would be Prince of Asturias? It was either that or duke, and I think prince fits him bettee(Machiavelli reference?) That title is currently the title for the heir to the Spanish throne. In this time period, it's also commonly used for the heir, but for Fernando it's a bit unsure. Like in real life, he's not directly the offspring, but he's still the most obvious choice for heir. But there's still enough room for Seb and his house to try to vie for the throne themselves, so it makes it all complicated.

i have no idea if you look at these, but i love your art (specicallg mp100) sososoosi much and it brings me so much joy to see ur headcanons and aus and stuff on my twt and tumblr feed :)) if its possible, id love to see a time-lapse of ur art and how u make it ^^ the way u draw is an actual inspiration and the way you. color and line and everything is just so cool , i can't tell you how many times ive been stuck in art block for a few days and then get inspired once ive seen ur art pop up !! thank u for ur amazing creativity and just overall vibe ^^

omg that's sooo sweet !!!! this means sooo much to me !!! LIKE OMGGG !!!!!! Aaaaaaaa !!!!

It's my first time-lapse I post here so hope u like this ! And I need to say thanks to u and ur support ! I am honored to inspire people with my art and silly ideas !!!

[ID: A drawing of Kou and the suits from Ajin, holding guns in various positions. Kou is at the center of the piece, aiming a handgun with a serious expression; the handgun has a red target/sight over the muzzle. Manabe is in the top left, aiming a sniper rifle; Kuroki's hand is in the top right; a portrait of Hirasawa is in the bottom left; and Suzumura is holding a handgun in the bottom right. They are divided by bold lines and text that repeats the sound effects (in Japanese) "Pan" and "Baki". The drawing has a green and red palette. End ID]

Day 4: パン・バキ・ブシュ (Pan/Baki/Pushu)

Kou and the suits! LOVE these guys

another year with you. x

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Whatever’s wrong with Leo, it has to do with that necklace. He’s sure of it. He ruminates over that for the rest of the morning as they sift through the stolen items.

If there is a heaven, then I can assure you that every adult or older person in a fandom or online community who is kind, supportive, friendly, and helpful to teens and younger members WITHOUT being weird about it is going to be there

Not really a question, but you're literally so funny, I love your posts and your takes on smiling friends!

THANK U SO MUCH im not good withcompliments but thank u for enjoying my aimless screaming about those critters

thinking about friendship and community as concepts vs reality thinking abt how I have less friends now than I did last year but I'm way more social and open with people now and I'm also more inclined to ask ppl around me for help with certain things and repaying them i.e. someone asks me to help clean up their new apartment and in exchange I get to keep whatever junk I like that I found in the process or someone cuts/styles my hair and I bake them sth etc. and it's weird bc I don't consider these people friends yet if I describe my relationship with them it ends up sounding way too transactional and impersonal than it actually is. and I sometimes also feel bad that I'm "using" ppl while not thinking of them as friends or wanting to deepen our bonds but I also know that im NOT using them? I think? im just finding myself in a strange place bc of my dynamic w ppl around me lately

lambda with hsien ko palettes i like

So ... is Ze in Denmark??? Or did Andriy randomly travel alone there??? Since when is Andriy traveling alone?!? And why??? 👀

Why did Ze suddenly mention Kyrylo from time to time visiting him in his office??? Since when are they telling us how and where he's having the secret meetings with the kids???

What is going on??? 😄😄😄 First, the book fair date, then whatever that was in Russia, now all of this today. What a strange week. 😅😅😅

honestly at this rate, i’m considering going back to fic writing/drawing fan works full swing