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get him back!

pairing: jj maybank x fem!reader

summary: after breaking up with jj you weren't sure if you would like to burn his house down or heavily make out with him

warnings: fighting, break up, toxic relatinship

a/n: the ending is a bit serious, but i wanted them to do it the right was :)

poguelandia, summer of 2022, bonfire night

the night was warm and you were wearing your favorite dress, one your mother had gifted you, as you were watching the ocean with your red solo cup in hand. you had lost your friends a few minutes ago, but you weren't as drunk, so you didn't worry.

"beautiful, isn't it?" a voice next to you asked. you turned your head to look at the blonde boy.

you just shrugged. "it becomes boring after all those years"

he smirked. "you from around here?"

you just nodded, not really interested in a conversation with a stranger, hoping he would get the hint

"weird" he said "normally i know the people from here"

"cool" you took a sip from your cup

"not really interested in a conversation, huh?" the boy leaned forward to catch a glimpse of your face "what's your name?"

"at this point you purposefully ignore my desinterest, right?" you turned your body to look at him. he was handsome, you had to give him that. his hair was a bit too long and would occassionaly fall before his eyes, then he would push it back with a quick gesture. his eyes were even bluer than the ocean and under different circumstances you had probably found him cute, but now you were only annoyed.

"i'm jj" he didn't even acknowledge what you had said "and you are surely not a pogue"

"bye, jj!" you smiled at him sarcastically

"i bet i can guess your name" jj looked you up and down and you crossed you arms "you kooks only have those fancy names. is it abigail? or chicago? ashlynn? it's often something with lynn at the end"

you shook your head at each of his guesses. "listen" you said, finally having enough of this game "will you leave me alone if i tell you my name?"

he smirked, proud of his success, and nodded

"it's y/n"

jj's smile grew even bigger "what a truly beautiful name"

"bye, jj!" you repeated your words from earlier and gently pushed him in the direction of the singing crowd

"my last name is maybank, that would go so well with y/n, don't you think?"

and that was the end of the story, well.. not quiet. jj did leave you alone after you had just rolled your eyes at him once again, but you had found each other later in the evening, and you weren't sure what it was, but somehow he was charming and drunk enough to convinve you to go on a date with him and the rest was history.

poguelandia, 15 months later...

"at this point you're just disagreeing to disagree with me!" your screams rolled over the island and made the rest of the pogues turn their heads in your direction

"do you even hear yourself?" jj screamed back in the same volume "what you say doesn't even make sense"

"you well understand what i'm saying, you asshole"

"i'm literally not!" he raised his arms, a hint of innocence flying over his face, before it returned back to anger "do you ever not want to fight with me?"

"i want to fight?" you repeated angrily "you are the one that never voices what he wants!"

you saw him open his mouth to say something in protest, but didn't let him lose a word

"you get jealous as hell just to stare at some girl's ass half a second later!"

"come on, baby" he said, a lot calmer now "don't blow this out of proportion"

"don't call me baby, right now, jj" you freed your arms from his hold "don't call me in general, we're done"

"what the fuck, y/n?" jj looked between you and his friends. you did not react to his calling and just continued your way off the beach

"i think she said everything" said pope and kie, sarah and john b nodded as well. "you're not good for each other, jj"

"fuck" jj kicked the nearest thing he could find. making the beer can fly throught the air and empty over the sand

once you had left the beach behind you, you had walked to your car, getting in quickly and driving off to meet with your best friend. you searched through the list of contacts that your car displayed, until you could click on her name.

"y/n?" she asked confused "are you alright? i thought you were with jj? did something happen?"

you dragged your hand through your face, wiping away the streak of tears. "we broke up"

"oh, sweetheart!" amanda breathed

"i'm on my way to you, are you free?"

"of course" you could hear her walk through the room "drew is here, but i'll tell him to leave"

"it's fine" you said "he doesn't have to leave because of me"

"are you sure?"

"can i still come?"

"of course, as long as you don't mind him being there, i don't want you to be even sadder"

"i'm not sad" you shook your head "i'm so fucking angry"

"o-okay" she said quickly

"i'll see you in ten" with that you ended the call, turning at the nearest street. "and he always picks fights with me, just because he wants to disagree on something"

drew and amanda were sitting on the couch while you paced in front of them. drew was your best friends long term boyfriend (long term as in almost five years) and had grown to be like your brother.

"he's amazing when we don't fight, but apart from that it's just.." you stopped, not sure how to call it

"toxic?" drew raised his hand

"yes, thank you" you pointed at him "he exactly knows which buttons to push"

"yeah alright and what do you want to do now?" amanda asked

"huh?"

"i say you have two options for tonight: either we can stay here, watch a few movies and eat ice cream or we go to the beach party, get wasted and find someone you can make out with"

"ha!" drew called "i'm in favour of the second option!"

"me too" you smiled "but i need something to wear"

"amanda" drew turned to his girlfriend "get the slutty emerald dress you got last year"

amanda smiled brightly and quickly left the room to fetch the dress. "it's amazing" drew smiled "and it'll fit good with your hair"

amanda walked back into the room, presenting the dress to you, smiling. drew watched her attentively. it was in these moments that your friends reminded you of lily and marshall from how i met your mother. "go put it on" amanda encouraged and you did as you were told

the dress was gorgeous, was the first thing you thought. it was pretty short and looked fancy, but at the same time casual enough to wear to a beach party. apart from that it emphasized your figure and gave you a beautiful cleavage.

"wow" both of your friends said, once you had returned. "look at you" amanda touched your hip and quickly pulled her hand back, as if she had just burned herself

"that's what i was thinking" drew nodded and the couple high fived. he turned around to grab a bottle from the shelve "time for you two to get drunk, i'll drive"

"thanks drew" amanda and you chorused, while she grabbed the bottle to fill both of your glasses "let's turn up some taylor swift and get ready"

it was two hours later, when you and your friends arrived at the beach. amanda and you were pretty tipsy, but not totally drunk yet. it didn't take you long to catch sight of the group of pogues you knew all too well. jj was standing with his back in your direction, until pope nudged him at the arm, which caused him to turn around and look at you.

it looked like he wanted to talk to you, but john b held him back. you were thankful. it wasn't the first time jj and you had fought and he often made it hard for you to keep being angry at him.

"what are you looking--oh" amanda notice the sad look on your face. she knew that you loved him, in your own way, just like he loved you. but she knew even better that you weren't good for each other. this back and forth was only breaking you more day to day and she couldn't bear and watch it anymore. "you have to let him go. get him out of your head, make out with some boys, just-" she paused and you regonized the sincerity in her eyes "do something, please"

"i can't help it" you said, turning your head back to look at him "i hate and love him so much. i think he ruined me for anyone else" "and you think that is healthy?"

"far from it" you shook your head

"it's not always easy" amanda said softly, trying to cheer you up

"i know"

"can you promise me something, y/n?" amanda asked and you nodded "when you go back to him, and i know you will, try to work on it, for the sake of the both of you" she smiled gently "jj is a good guy, and neither of you deserves this"

"i know" you said once again, catching jj's eyes over the fire "i promise"

"good" amanda nodded in contentment and waved you off.

"hi" you held your cup in jj's direction "can you fill it up?"

"hey" he said, nodding "of course"

"can we talk?"

he nodded once again, leading you away from the crowd.

"i'm sorry" you said "this is the last time"

"what are you talking about?"

"do you want to get back together?" you put your hands around his neck and he nodded. "okay, me too. but this is the last time i'm coming back"

"what does that mean?"

"that means that if we break up again it's over" you explained

"it will only take a week, you know that, y/n" jj sighed

"no" you shook your head "if we're doing this again, we will do it right"

"we can never do it right" jj shook his head "we tried"

"i know" you nodded "but we need to try harder. i can't keep doing this and i know that you can't either"

"so what's the plan?"

"we fix it" you assured "we talk. we did way too less of that all those times. i want to make this work, jj"

"i want too"

"we need to be honest to each other" you smiled "we have to promise that to each other. i don't want to lose you. i love you"

"i love you too" he sighed "but sometimes you drive me crazy"

"i know" you admitted "you drive me crazy too. but we can't keep running away from our problems. in the future we need to discuss them"

"okay" jj breathed and then after a second "can i kiss you now?"

"you can"

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