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daz4i · 4 months

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actually i AM gonna post abt this again. sorry

like when i say they make me feel like i'm in a story. i mean it

we started talking and immediately clicked. talked nonstop for days really

we both had relationships like that years before, but then paused that behavior bc we were young and it wasn't the healthiest, but now we were adults and knew better. it was the first one after that break for both of us

i avoided this behavior for awhile bc i knew it's not the healthiest but it felt so good when it happened. i (rightfully) feared the crash but at the time, the high was so worth it. and everything was going so smoothly too. things kept aligning just right all the time

every time i thought something is gonna come up or that i did something wrong and now it's all gonna blow up, they proved that i had no reason to worry, bc they let it slide immediately, even liked it

we kind of completed each other in every way. liked the same things and had a lot in common, but were opposites in enough things that we weren't TOO similar

i stopped worrying abt annoying them relatively early into the whole thing (usually it takes me months or even years, or i never stop at all. here it was maybe 2-3 weeks)

we became actually close right on their birthday. a small thing but you gotta admit if this was a story it'd be poetic as hell

every time they had a problem and i jokingly said i'm sending a spell their way to fix it, it passed after like 2 minutes. absolutely insane coincidence stuff

i mentioned this before. and this is gonna be embarrassing but. we met through, well, kin stuff lol. they kin chuuya, i kin dazai, we joked abt kindating etc. anyway my mental health was shit but they genuinely uplifted me a lot. they made me want to live for the first time in who knows how long, maybe ever. i think you can tell why i prefaced this story with that fact 🥲 embarrassing but real

and now this shit? 😭 another small thing but like. i make a post abt them bc now is generally around the time we started talking, and someone i follow queued a post from their blog and it posts right now?? they've been decativated for nearly a year HOW did this line up like that 😭

they unfortunately made me believe in the concept of soulmates :/ but as my friends (and mom. bc she saw me cry over the whole thing for days) said. if they cut me off and hurt me like that, they weren't ~the one~

and another thing that made me feel more like i'm in a teen movie is. i legit spent a day and a half in bed crying and barely doing anything else, after they cut me off. truly cliche stuff. actually that's a good way to put it - they made me feel like a cliche. still do when i think abt it a year later. it was a good thing at first, bad when it ended. i could make a movie abt this barely changing any detail and it'll be an average teen romantic comedy (except i'll have to add some happy ending there)

anyway let me finish all that by saying. who the fuck blocks someone on spotify 😭 dude...

(it's been a year and i got burned so badly from this whole thing that i seriously doubt i'll be able to love someone this much again. i need it to be an instant obsession to actually feel good about love, but i'll never be able to confidently go into any new relationship with that purpose because i'm just too scared things will hurt this much again. it's honestly so depressing lol 🥲 but what can ya do)

(i also became the most suicidal i've ever been since lol. probably bc of how big the drop was. it still hasn't gone away. part of why i see no point in life is bc of that previous paragraph. so.)

#vent #but it's me being obsessive and weird probably #(trust me when i say i can be way worse tho! 😎)

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cosmicstoner · 1 year

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Hi friends! I have missed Tumblr so much! I am so sorry I have been very inactive on this blog. I blame working full time and having the body of a 70-year-old. Today is 420 and honestly should be at work but my body decided to push a hernia through my stomach to the point everything I do is painful as fuck. Doctors think I will need surgery but I really want that to be the last resort.

I definitely learned the lesson of not putting my health in 2nd place... 🥲 I also got a new tattoo! Before my health started to decline. My love wanted me to do a get what you get tattoo with him. You put a quarter in bubble gum machine and whatever comes out is what you are supposed to get unless you wanna pay extra money. He got a cool moon with a skull face. I was a little scared I was going to get something I would regret (oh like a few I have on my body) but the universe had my back and I got something that I actually already have tattooed! I got a ghost! I already have a ghost on my ankle which I chose a few years back on a Friday the 13th to represent my fear of ghosts. Since I gotten my first ghost tattoo I for sure became a lot more comfortable with ghosts. Less fearful but more intrigued by them and what happens after we pass so I actually was very happy with my first get what you get tattoo!

I also paid for my first ever vacation! My bf & I are going to be going back to Las Vegas for my 27th. But now with these health problems arising I am slightly afraid I will have to put it off....but crossing my fingers. I loveeeeeeeee Las Vegas! If anyone has any fun ideas on what to do in Vegas please feel free to comment!

I really miss being active on here, I feel Tumblr has always been a place where I can be free to be myself! I am not going to make any promises to be more active on here cause I feel I'll just forget it! Stoner brain... Opps. But I am going to try to find time to get on here :) I try to post on my Instagram more.... Omg I hit a 1000 followers on Instagram too! If you wanna follow me please click here my Instagram

#stoned #cannabis #kush #medical marijuana #budtender #sativa #marijuana #pothead #weed #420 #florida stoner #mmemberville #cosmicstoner #mine #personal #update #journal

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twogyuu · 2 years

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The new chapter was really good! I actually thought we wouldn’t see jeonghan but…

Vernon kinda acted stupid not checking on her but 🤷‍♀️

I’m worried for Chan ngl I hope he is doing ok!

I hope your doing alright as well ❤️ that post really scared me!

Don’t forget to drink water, eat and sleep well <3

@sonje78!!!

My dear friend! These messages are long overdue - please forgive me for getting back to you so late T^T I'm just going to compile them all into one long post here lol, so be prepared! As always, thank you for the reminders to drink water and just take care of my health in general hehehe - I need that . . . A LOT LOL.

Without further ado!!!

P.S. Tumblr has been really glitchy 😭 I wanted to screenshot and C&P your asks on here, but it won't let me do it anymore, unless, I upload it to my laptop picture profiles, so I resorted to just C&P the text message! Apologies if the formatting is weird.

^^ replying to the message above!

Wdym you thought you'd never see Jeonghan again?! 🤡 Lol jokes, jokes - I didn't think a lot of people would expect it either hahaha. I wanted to reflect the reality of the situation though because IRL (or from my experience at least lol), no matter how hard you try to let go of these kinds of people, they always come back to haunt you some way, some how when you think you're finally over them :') Vernon isn't stupid . . . he's just . . . oblivious and assumes the best 😭 We'll see Chan x OC again :) It'll be okay!! I promise :) I'm sorry for having worried you 😭 Not to toot my horn, but I would like to think I have fairly good judgement on people - if I don't feel safe, I get out of the situation ASAP. Please don't worry about me too much! I'll be okay and I had friends with me who had my back :)

OH MY GOD ARE YOU TRYING TO KILL ME!!!

This was an amazing chapter!! You’re so good at writing <3

I feel so bad for Chan 😭 he deserves better!

But I didn’t understand a line. It was “Vernon has crush on Charlie XCX more than you did Woozi” English isn’t my first language so… can you explain please?

And something I found really funny was when I read the last line it reminded me of a svt lyric 😂

[Picture: Lyrics from Lie Again - 'Because I love you, because the words 'I love you' isn't enough/so I let you go']

Chan deserves the world, but I only hurt him :') Idk why I keep doing this 😭 TMO aside, all I ever outline for Chan are angsty stories, it's kind of disturbing LOL. I blame Yoon Jeonghan just cuz 😂 I'm not sure if you know, but Vernon is actually a HUGE simp fanboy of the artist Charli XCX! It got to the point where she finally found out about him hahaha and they did a recent collab, remixing her song, Beg For You! In the context of the story, if you remember OC is a huge fan of Woozi. Similarly, Vernon is a huge fan of Charli XCX, except he may love her more than OC loves Woozi 😂🤣 I hope this makes sense! If not, lmk and I can try to expalin better YO!!!! I'm SHOOK!! I'm not sure if people notice, but my chapter titles are lyrics from Seventeen songs that I feel suit the theme of the chapter. I was actually looking at 'Lie Again' when searching for a title chapter - I can't believe I missed it! I took something from 'Light A Flame' instead 🤣

The new chapters were amazing!!!

I don’t have a lot of thoughts about terrifyingly innocent but the bonus of tmo was great, Chan should get y/n but just my opinion 🙂 Vernon is really cute though 🥲

Anyway I’m having the same problem with studying, my brain just does not want to…

I’m going out breakfast tomorrow so hopefully I can clear my head a bit 😮‍💨

I hope both of our exams go well ❤️

PLEASE SHARE YOUR THOUGHTS ON WHY CHAN SHOULD GET OC?!?!?! Not many people tell me this directly, but I get the vibe that most people are rooting for Vernon x OC! I hope you had a good breakfast and your exams this week go well!!! Thankfully, I passed my final last week, so I won't have to worry about exams for awhile, which will be nice! That said lots of other life changes coming for me 😪 It'll be tough, but we'll get through it together :)

OKAY YOU HAD A MESSAGE HERE ASKING ABOUT SVT'S ENGLISH SINGLE AND TUMBLR DELETED IT. SO I WILL JUST REPLY WITH MY THOUGHTS 😭 IM SO SORRY TUMBLR BE HELLA GLITCHY AND BLOGGY THESE DAYS

I'm pretty indifferent about the English single 😂 I'm just happy to see music from them again! They are a very active group on social media, but I still miss them a lot :( Tbh, it's no surprise to me that they're doing this though, especially since they've joined HYBE, which is notorious for pushing the Western agenda (I have thoughts on this, but we will save it for another time LMAO) I've actually been a fan of BTS longer than SVT, just not super involved the fandom because . . . well you know how some of their fans can get 😅 Anyways, I've seen this whole process with BTS, then with TXT, and now, I guess, SVT - I figured the English single was coming soon. Especially with English songs being better accepted in the Kpop community (thinking about Ten's Paint Me Naked, Loona's Dancing On My Own, etc.), it was only a matter of time! Mingyu also mentioned wanting to do an OT13 English song and Vernon was spotted working with one of HYBE's American producers, Melanie Fontana too. I don't think there's anything wrong with it per se - if anything, it'll just open more doors for them in terms of creativity and opportunities. I'm excited to see where it can take them, and what this leads up to in regards to the new FULL album. Hbu? What are your thoughts?

Btw you put Chan’s face when Vernon was talking with y/n in the newest chapter and I didn’t get a notification for the new chapter of tmo but I got it for terrifyingly innocent

Just thought I should let you know ❤️

I'm aware 😭 It's the app I use - it's glitchy sometimes. I've tried to see if I could fix it, but it just stays that way, mixing up names and photos. Hopefully, it doesn't cause too much confusion in the story . . .? I know notifications has been an issue for a lot of people as of late, and for that I apologize too :( I'm poking around and seeing if there are more efficient and reliable ways of tagging other than C&P vs typing out everyone's user . . . Hopefully, I find something soon!

Hello! I’m back and ready to review 🥰

Terrifyingly innocent

I liked the new chapters a lot! I like the dynamic with y/n and seungcheol a lot!

Two minus one

I am loving two minus one a lot! I felt like y/n and vernon were getting closer but now vernon is going on a date I-

AND WE ARE ASKING CHAN ON A “DATE”

Sorry about that I needed to scream my frustration for y/n

Seungcheol drabble

It was adorable!!!! I don’t have a lot of thoughts about it but 😫🥰

I’m going to send another ask about red velvet b-side ranking I’ll talk more there because this is long

I don't really have anything to say here other than I'm glad you're enjoying the story as it progresses!!! Any thoughts on RV's Japanese release, Wildside? They really went from pretty ballerinas to bada$$ thieves in the span of a week ahahaha

#sonje78 #whew!!!#glad that went through this time!!!#no rush in replying!#i know this was a lot in one go!#take your time~#looking forward to hearing from you always 💙#btw i realized i never really asked . . .#who's your bias in svt??? LOL

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