hehe gay ppl on the whiteboard 👀

sunflowers for mia fey

i wish i had what it took to make popular good smaus

should’ve placed my bets higher!

uh oh i designed a character and now i have no idea what to do with them bc they dont fit into the universe with my main ocs

not rlly sunday related but unfun fact: being involved with tanba means eventually having to face the fact that he’s never going to marry you, and worse yet, that it will take him an incredibly long time to tell you he loves you, if he ever says it at all.

Honestly though I really am in such a weird spot with my mental health that I know at least a few others are in where I have a grasp on systemhood and sharing my body strong enough that I am not going to do anything to seriously hurt it

But it's like if I were alone in here I know I would be very much high risk of shit like I don't hurt myself because it would hurt the people i love in a very physical sense and also because I would just have control taken from me by someone else I don't have a choice in the matter really.

But when I reassure everyone that I won't do anything drastic it sounds like I'm telling them I'm okay and that my mental health is doing alright and that would be a lie my mental health is really bad frankly and though I am in some ways in a better place than I was as a teenager when I didn't have the experience I do now in other ways I'm a lot worse.

It's frustrating like I tell people that suicide doesn't trigger me because it doesn't and they assume that it's because I don't struggle with suicidal ideation but really it's because it's a constant influence on me it's always in the back of my brain.

Just a lot of stuff like that? It's because of the way neurotypicals organize psychiatric help and how they define a crisis only as it effects others. Like yeah I sure am palatable to society I sure am non-threatening. I am also in a perpetual state of emotional crisis that makes me always feel a little too close to death for my own comfort though but like haha it's fine I'm not going to hurt myself and that's the only thing that matters to "pro recovery" people really/s

A very frustrating project, a roadkill Javelina

be that body image issues leading to a deep-rooted conviction that I'm unlovable and undesirable, extreme detachment from my body and sexuality due to self-hatred and homophobic environment or self-consciousness caused by relentless bullying, but I am utterly petrified and at the same time fascinated at the thought that people around me routinely have sex. I see a couple walking by and think, wow, they probably have sex from time to time...parents with children, and I'm like oh they surely fucked at least twice, as many times as there are the children....a friend mentions her boyfriend, and I'm immediately like, wow, they probably sleep together....it's not a voyeuristic sort of thought, I'm not getting off on it in a slightest, it's rather....I have put sex on such a high pedestal for me, always believing that there wouldn't be anyone willing to have sex with me, that I cannot even fathom people for whom it's a regular and normal activity

any tips to stop making impulsive purchases?? im so so awful with money god help me

i had a bts dream again 😌

Hahaha brooo,,, what if i told u i just contracted this deadly disease 👀👀😥😥,,,, and bro the only cure is 😳😳,,, the only cure is you playing with my hair,,,,,, BUT BRO 😳😳🥵🥵 NO HOMO THO,,, no homo bro ahahaha,,,

I'm so broken rn but I can't stop listening to it??? It's so good and just.....😭😭😭😭

*points to them* :)

I want to be loved by a person who doesn’t think I’m a pain in the ass, thinks I’m beautiful, wants to cuddle me but doesn’t want to fuck me, wouldn’t make snide comments about my dog, someone who thinks I’m good at stuff. Maybe the person would think I’m a good cook but they like to cook as well. Maybe they’d go see phantom with me (perhaps spend a bunch of time watching me watch the show lol). I have so much love to give and I want someone who wants to accept it but won’t make me feel like they’re doing me a favor by accepting it. Maybe that’s too much to ask.

double trouble/catra

Omgg tbh i dont see it happening at all in canon because of. Yknow. How things ended between them xjjxkx BUT. Everytime i see art of them together im like 👀👀👀

I just think theyre interesting together!! I liked their dynamic in s4 for a while because it was kind of like double trouble was trying to bring out catra's fun and chaotic side out when she was trying to put on her shadow weaver impression Serious And Intimidating Villain act (tho their motives were... questionable zkgskzjd).

I just like them together cause double trouble is a performer and they were able to recognize that catra was one too even if she didnt realise it herself. Its interesting to me that they were able to pick that apart even though someone like adora, who had known catra for all her life, wasnt able to see through her act while they were growing up (re: promise).

Romantic or not, i like how they bounce off each other and i think if they met earlier on in the series they'd probably have got upto so much chaos together