girl, i'm ngl i've always gotten this vibe yk... that the girl behind deluluriddhi was a minor. like i hadn't read her fics back then, it was just from one of her other posts. you see, i'm a south indian. and her way of speaking english (or writing, should i say) was exactly how you find sixth grade kids speak here. like it was kinda hard to believe that she was 21 but i just accepted it because i thought "why would someone lie about their age?"

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like damn, when i was 11-12, i had just found out that "sex" (under quotes because i didn't know how it worked, just that it was wrong to know about it at that age) was how kids were born, and god does not magically bless a woman with a child after he sees her getting married. to be 12 and doing all that she did is crazy tbh. lying about her age and interacting with nsfw posts of author, yet claiming that said authors were sending her hate by blocking her, like of course they're gonna block you miss mam!!

and the way she didn't understand the seriousness of the situation... like i read smuts when i was a minor too, when i was 17 (because, yohoo! i was "almost an adult")... and i regret it so much because it fucked my brain up a bit, because back then i read it in wattpad (yikes, i know) and i didn't know what was ok and what was not, and in most of cases i saw, it was like porn, demeaning and dehumanising the female and glorifying the male... you don't get to know what is right and wrong until you're educated like i was by my parents when i finally turned 18.

i hope minors realise the importance of following the mdni, because it is not just respecting their boundaries but for their own good too. also this is not hate towards riddhi (not that she's gonna see it, i just saw she deactivated) but more like an older sister being mad because she cares.

To be honest, before Riddhi told me about her actual age, I, too got that slight feeling that she maybe a minor. Look I'm not saying that her writing is bad or anything, but the way she used her punctuation and everything just gave me an off feeling. But yeah as you said I accepted it, because I though what kind of a child would actively interact with NSFW content right?

You're so real for the God magically blessing women with children after marriage, indian sex ed does NOT exist at all, and definitely not in South India (I'm from Hyderabad). But yeah, even I didn't know about it other than biology classes as a child. And I get it, nowadays, children have more access to technology and more resources and they may end up seeing something accidentally too because the internet holds a lot of shit. But, to choose to actually interact more with said shit? Nah that's just plain wrong.

I feel like 17 is an alright age to just get started with NSFW. You may not be legal age, but you're nearing that area so it's fine. Of course if a blog says mdni even if you're 17 you should respect the wishes of the blog owner. But for a 12 year old? 6 years younger than legal age? That's too much of an age gap to justify.

I hope Riddhi understands that I did this for her own good and not because I'm against her or anything. I mean, no harm to her, I want her to live her childhood out. Because there's a lot of time to be an adult and it's much worse than being a child.

hi, hello!! i know y'all are probably getting sick of seeing me in all the tags, BUT i kinda want to be selfish here for a moment.

i was sitting here writing that steve smut piece that i've was ranting about for what felt like a whole damn week, lol, and i was thinking about all the fics that i've written (sans always the babysitter 'cause i'm still posting, hahaa).

i decided to make a post about all the fics i've written and have absolutely loved. aka; my babies, my pride and joy's.

below the cut, you'll see the banners for characters, as well as the linked fics. so, just think of this as a masterlist of sorts, hahaa. not sure what order they'll be in, so just go with it, hahaa

okay, enough rambling. let's go;

It’s A Date 💋

That’s A Bet 💋

Don’t Let It End 

Stop Stealing Mine!

Watergate Pt1 Pt2

Master of Puppets

…Ready For It? (Eddie’s Version) 💋

I’m Your Idiot

14, 18, 22 💋

Are You Serious?

Falling For You

Texting Mitch

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this was so much going through my old fics!! <3

feel free to reblog this!!

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tagging some moots from main; @stiles-o-dylan24 @ageofevermore @goldenretriever-nicknelson @logangarfield @musicxlover97 @websterss @crescentwolf @obriengf @lettersofwrittencollective @duskholland

Tbf and this is an unpopular opinion in the fandom and I get why, I've thought since my second watch (I always focus more on the main plot or characters the first go, then do a second watch for the details, side characters, etc) that if anyone was decently set up for a redemption arc it was Gabriel.

Okay let me explain that lol.

Gabriel is kinda different from the other archangels. Sure, he's still distanced, still mocks Aziraphale's hobbies... But he's also the only one who also has not one but two earthly hobbies. I think he doesn't eat because he's kinda scared it's Gluttony since he doesn't need it. But he also doesn't need jogging or clothes, and to me that looks like the Well Actually excuses of a very very early Aziraphale. He's not a hypocrite and a liar like Michael, who wants to kill Aziraphale for a crime she's guilty of. Not sadistic like Sandalphon. And he can be cruel, but more in an oblivious way than deliberately like Uriel does. Beelzebub did way more harm than him -both were pissed at the airbase but Bee told Satan about it while Gabriel just huffed and puffed.

During the execution he just wants to get it over with and more importantly, I think, when Crowley spits hellfire at them, Gabriel yanks Uriel and Sandalphon behind him and shields them with his body even though it's just as lethal to him. His first instinct is to protect his siblings.

Besides the fact that he can be obnoxious and rude, I think the real problem is that he's way too convinced that he's doing the right thing. He's genuinely flabbergasted when Crowley suggests that She may have different plans and I think the 'God doesn't play games with the universe' 'Where have you been??' exchange is very revealing. (God Herself admits She does lol). God hasn't talked to the angels for ages, and Gabriel is the Messenger. He's still operating on a very old plan because he thinks if it had changed he would be the first to know. But nobody is because God has fucked off the premises and only left the equivalent of a voicemail machine. Gabriel didn't have a Crowley to help him shake off Heaven's programming, and I think a lot of people forget Gabriel is programmed too. He's higher on the hierarchy but he's been taught the same rote and he believes it wholeheartedly (Michael doesn't, see back channels).

So even though I enjoy villain! Gabriel stories because there's a great setup for them, precisely because aside from a few details he's a blank sheet, I love redemption arc stories because that setup is there too. What if he gets to discover and enjoy more of Earth, rediscover himself outside of his role, rebuild his life now that the plan he followed blindly is moot? What if he feels lost, unmoored, and trying to recover he becomes better? Idk I just feel like out of all the others, he has the most potential for that kind of thing. So even though he did worse things in Myosotis than in canon, I'm like 👀 at his pain and where this goes.

Wow sorry for the rant haha

Interesting 👀 Did he really pull Sandalphon and Uriel behind him? Neat little detail.

It’s not impossible that Gabriel will receive his redemption arc in canon (or maybe an arc where he gets kinda redeemed but he’s still kind of an asshole and no one rly wants to spend much time with him lol), based on the stuff we know about him so far. I agree with some of your points!

But my opinion for canon may not necessarily reflect within this Myosotis: Falter, I keep these two separated!

(The Gabriel in my GoodGardenerAU actually does get sorta redeemed (in the way I mentioned above) but I've barely shown him so far so I won’t open that box for now,,,,)

hiii! here is a little "looking for tumblr moots" post 💗

my name is anshi ☆ (star is optional ofc LOL i luv stars) and i'm looking for some friends on here! some of my interests:

i love to read but i am looking to broaden my taste — my favourite authors are albert camus, franz kafka, virginia woolf (mrs dalloway changed me), and clarice lispector!

i am a die-hard fan of junji ito and hirohiko araki - though i'm kind of out of my jojo's phase, i will forever appreciate the art :) looking for more horror manga to read, recs are SO welcome

i want to write more (wips and poetry) and i like to appreciate the beauty of the everyday ! that sounded like a tinder profile HELP do i pose with a fish now. swipe right on me fr though...

speaking of fish(ermen), i am currently rewatching nbc hannibal and loving every second. HANNIBAL PEOPLE PLEASE HMU i'm meaning to read the script soon

some tv shows i've loved: strangers from hell, breaking bad, better call saul, hannibal, saiki k + more i can't remember

i'm into fashion too and generally cool art. cool art people are my shit

finally, i occasionally like to watch films. really am just defined by the media i consume oh god

to summarise, i just want to make friends with people who are nice and will listen to me rant about whatever happens to strike me at that moment. because i know my irls are SICK😭

reblogs are very appreciated ♡

hope 2 meet u soon ! :)

SINCE ITS TETSUREIII SZN!!!! I AM HEREEE WITHHHH TEH A LITTOL Q/A EHEHEH

WHERE DID ALL THIS BEGINNN FROMMM !!! TEH FRIST PAGE OF TETSUREIII STORYYY <33

TELLL MEEEEEEEE EVERYTHINGGG!!!!!!!!

For how it all began:

It was love at first sight for the both of us. Like you see a person and you just fit like missing puzzle pieces. We talked like it wasn't our first time seeing each other. The crowd just faded and it seemed like it's just the two of us. We knew we would never forget that moment but we have to part ways. Days or months passed maybe even a year and it became just a distant memory. Maybe something I drew an inspiration from for my story, until we met again at a different circumstance. This time it's no longer a one time thing and he won't allow it to be a one-time thing either. We just picked up where we left off and we both knew that this was it. It might be an ordinary story for some but it was serendipitous for us, knowing that all the heartaches, loneliness and solitude we endured are what led us to each other. Finally, we're at the right place and right time with the right person.

We're friends first, because I came off a little detached he knew it would take time but he was patient. Started with sending funny memes and reels until he gauged what I liked. Scheduled phone calls bc I dont do well in chats until it became a habit for us to call each other at that specific time and day. We talked about anything that we could expand, our theories, our day, rant abt officemates. He debated with me for fun throwing what ifs scenarios. Then he began being more physically present. Going to my office to pick me up. Taking me out on a friendly date. He wasn't flirty at first until he smoothly transitioned being INTJ x ENTP friendship to lovers bc the chemistry and the hidden tension can't be denied anyway. He made me feel secured to be with him. Like I'm free. Free to fall, to love and to be myself.

below the cut is how I ended up simping for him teheee

I was really into Oikawa. He's my first love which I learned to get over just now bc I miss Kuroo in a way I don't miss Oikawa. (Why does this sound so real?) Ngl, it's Kuroo I found to be most attractive but he seemed so unattainable for me that I did a pass. At first, I just love writing for him because a mutual loves him very much and my readers always fangirl for him in my fics and all the requests I'm getting are for Kuroo Kuroo Kuroo even if I even voluntarily write for Oikawa. Lol. I was like okaaay. Until I asked for match ups and ask games and I ended up getting him over and over again too. Tell me about it. Haha. Then I posted some selfship stuff abt Oikawa and I got nothing. I posted that I got Kuroo for an ask game and everyone just idk interacted and I was like uhmm what? Even my moots from other fandom are into the tetsurei agenda. What are these people seeing that I'm not seeing? Like yeah he's handsome and he wears suit and tie which I love but...anyway lol just lol hahaha. (Gosh, I sounded so in denial on this) It's funny that we even work in the same field. A follower even pointed it out. Tbh I still can't understand where they are coming from. As time passed by, I enjoyed our ship more than anything else. He's all I can think to write about. TBH IDK! Hahaha! This made me reread all my kuroo fics and wondered howww? I reread the oldest one back in Dec 2020. It didn't do things for me then but it gave me the feels now. I even forgot what it was but the way I wrote for him never changed. I realized that in all the Y/Ns I wrote for all the characters, I've been writing myself whenever it's with Kuroo. I just realized it now. Maybe that's why it's easier for ppl to associate him with me too bc it shows. I still dk! But whatever I love him. I'd love to have a Kuroo just for me.

I think I'm oblivious like real life oblivious. Oh well. (Good luck to all the intj simps out there: I'm talkin for Rin, Tsukki, Akaashi, Geto, Niko) We're dense af and in denial. Good luck.

Here's an emotional rant (haven't done one for some time so it's overdue <3)

Rn I genuinely feel the "call me biodegradable because I break down so easily" SO MUCH rn, cause I have GCSEs rn and so far this week I've been ok. Like I've been stressed but I'm also too tired to be stressed?? If that makes sense. But honestly my parents and I have been getting along really well this week and I thought everything was great until I just cried cause my parents wanted to go on a walk but at first wasn't too interested and then they said they would buy me a costa drink (I'm like half Frappuccino at this point lol) and so I was like ok fine (I'm not a huge walker, like don't get me wrong romantic walks in a field romanticised looks amazing but I really struggle with weight and body image and idk it's some complicated shit) But I also asked if I could stay longer in my room cause I had too exams today (1 was really hard) and so I wanted a little more break. Eventually I come downstairs and they say they're not getting the drink anymore cause it's too late in the evening which was fine I got it, until I told my dad I sent him an email about something and when he checked he couldn't find my email and so I was trying to tell him to search my email on the search bar to find my email cause I was sure it sent. But he refused to do that and said my email would just come up at the top of his emails if it sent. Eventually he found the email in spam but he got annoyed at me for telling him what to do and said "I know my stuff better than you do". That made me sad and put me off going on a walk so I said I wasn't interest I apologised and they said it was fine until my dad almost stormed off saying how annoying it was that I didn't say earlier I wasn't interested and I held him back from going on a walk and that we should never go on a walk together ever again otherwise we'd stop him from getting exercise (he was sorta yelling at my mom too which made me sad cause she didn't do anything) So I cried while blending my own frapp at home and now I'm ready to watch comfort and drink and watch videos and distract myself pretty much but I wanted to rant on here cause honestly Tumblr is like a journal to me <3

Love all my moots, and jeez that's a long para, have an amazing day all of u

Heeey moot! Just woke up! Even though I'm late, I just wanted to say that you deserve to write whatever tf you want and I'm sorry some peeps were harassing you about The Pact. I don't think folks know how hard it is to not only write, but then to post it for others to see. So, for them to criticize you when it's just a fun fic that they can ignore or filter out (tags on ao3 are meant to be used geez) its wild to me. You're doing something very unique with the characters and including a lot of different subgroups of the queer community splendidly while keeping them flawed like real teens - all in 1 fic. As a demi ace myself, I was so happy to see you incorporate that in your fic respectively and a lot of my queer Sex Ed came from detailed, researched fics bc even though my parents and school system talked to me about sex, there was nothing for the queer kids, let alone ace kids to get guidance on. So, for fic readers/writers like me, using fics to explore sexuality was a godsend.

Can't help but also think it's the biphobia kicking in again, specifically for characters like Mike. No one has a problem hc Max as bi even though it seems like lumax is clearly endgame over elmax or elumax, but when it comes to Mike being bi it's like the world is ending despite it clearly being byler endgame. I personally ship all hcs of Mike's sexuality cuz only Robin and Will have been confirmed queer. Everyone else in ST to me is undisclosed until stated straight or queer. But again that's me.

Also love your poly rep cuz my sib is poly and so were some of my grandma's cousins from 1950s-now. So, again, all or most sexualities explored in fics is a must, regardless if you ship it. I've always been a polypartycule shipper and enjoy how you include all party members and mention Duzie sometimes cuz too many times I found fics/hcs excluding the fact Dustin has a stable relationship with Suzie in favor of just highlighting byler and elumax as the romantic ones of the party.

Sorry for the rant but I had to let it out. I hated scrolling through my feed and seeing that post you made of folks getting heated over fiction like you're gonna convince the Duffers to change the whole script. Anyways I hope my support is felt. This is still me typing in a sleep daze and yeah. I'll continue reading your work cuz I enjoy good writers first and foremost and omg lol you made it having some harrassers cuz the greatest books were on the banned book list. Not saying you deserve the irrational hate, but that's how I'm framing it - this is giving "banned book energy" just cuz The Pact is exploring romantic madwheeler when no one cares about byclair or henderhop or henclair (despite folks labeling El as a lesbian). Anyways, you do you moot be blessed out here

Hello deer moot!!!! <33

Thanks so much for the positive vibes!!! I truly appreciate it. I guess I was just feeling a little let down that a select few people made it so far into a fic and then were angry about the way things were going and/or felt the need for me to tell them the ending. At first it didn't bother me, but after answering the same questions 1,000 times and trying to sort of reassure everyone it got to a point of being exhausting! I want to talk about the fic, but I don't really want to have to defend my writing/story/ship choices every chapter. It's kind of exhausting and was bringing me down a little bit. But anyway, enough about that.

I am SO GLAD that you are like...really vibing with some of the choices in that story? Especially with your unique pov being demi ace and having poly family. I think that fanfiction can be a very important tool for a lot of teen when it comes to exploring sex, especially if it's not a cis het-normative type or even just....dealing with sex from a young person's pov and all of the obstacles that everyone faces in that regard. Also, I think it can just open up a conversation or make a person think about things that maybe they might not of before etc etc. Or! They can just enjoy those scenes for the writing/good time. I'm here for all of it.

I'm not sure if it's a biphobia thing? It honestly hadn't occurred to me, but you may possibly be right. I know a lot of people headcanon Mike as gay, which I fully support. I wouldn't be surprised if that is the case. I think if Byler happens in canon, he'll be unlabeled. BUT I do like to write Mike as bi, I personally think that there were feelings for El at some point. I personally headcanon him as a bi-romantic, and sexually leaning towards men. But that's just me....

But anyway, as that pertains to madwheeler, I also really enjoy the bi for bi Max and Mike dynamic, specifically because it's fun to write, and secondly it's another thing to add to their already similar personalities. And yea. I agree... unless a character's sexuality is specifically stated like El and Will's, there is room for exploration for most characters and that's what fanfic and art is for.

I do think there is this strange thought process regarding bi characters, that if they have a relationship with a person of the opposite sex it's like they're not "queer enough" for other people. Like it's somehow lesser than if Mike has a relationship with a woman, even though he already, in canon, is well, with a woman. And that people tend to forget that people are still bi, still queer, even if they are in the most outwardly straight presenting relationship, cause let's face it....you can't really help who you're attracted to and who you fall in love with. it just is.

And when it comes to the madwheeler in this fic, I am fully aware it is one of the least popular ships out there, but again, that is one of the reasons I wanted to explore it. And a a bi, poly person my self it was really interesting putting these characters in a dynamic where they were both involved with people of differing genders and orientations. It gives you a lot to work with when it comes to having things to write about! シ

And as you said, it also allows for some messy, realistic teenage angst! Which I am always a fan of! ;)

Anyway, thank you for the rant. I appreciate it so much, and am honestly still blown away by the positive responses to this story. Even if it's not everyone's cup of tea!

INDEFINITE HIATUS ANNOUNCEMENT. — 09112022

i'll be turning my semi-hiatus to a indefinite hiatus. if i'm being completely honest, i haven't been feeling my best mentally, especially upon entering this app. though the amount of love that i have gotten from my lovely followers and amazing moots, i can't help but feel extremely lonely on here. i know you all have lives, i give you my upmost respect for that, life isn't easy but honestly, i just don't feel like i fit in on here.

i truly love writing and want to continue but as time goes on, i've noticed little, to no change even after speaking about how lonely it gets on this app sometimes. never will i ever take the love, support, and followers that i have gained within the months that i've been on here for granted. you truly are the main reasons why i pushed myself to be my best possible writer on this app so from the bottom of my heart, thank you.

this may seem sudden, or not even at all due to my previous rants, but i've been thinking about fully going on hiatus for awhile now. writing isn't the same for me as it was back then and it's hard to keep wanting to post content when i get nothing in return. i know i might sound shitty, maybe even snobby for wanting more than i already have (which is quite a lot imo) and i'm sorry for that, i'm just tired. tired of not getting any likes, or comments, or any feedback and it's been taking a toll on me and my writing.

i hope you all can understand why i'll be stepping back and all i ask for in return is that i get some respect for my decision. it truly hurts me to leave this app on such a bad note so to diminish that, let me just rephrase how extremely thankful i am for each and every one of you. i hope you all continue to spread lots of love throughout this app. never forget how special you are to me and many other people. also, sorry for the typos lol

lots of love,

jaydi.

i was tagged by emily @freakwiththeknifecollection <33

Rules: Answer the questions and tag 20 blogs you are contractually obligated to get to know better!

Name: moogs

Star sign: leo

Height: 5'6

Time: 9:15pm est

Birthday: august 9th

Favorite bands/artists: way too many to list because i like all kinds of music but right now i'm listening to a lot of lord huron!

Last movie: clueless a year ago which was for a watch party for a friend's birthday because she'd never seen it... lol i don't watch movies that much sorry

Last show: do i even need to say it (last ep was 4x02)

When did I create this blog: i thought it was 2009 but apparently it was may 2010

What I post: 99.9% spn (mostly dean, samwena, and destiel though i try to post about lots of other ships/chars/etc too!)

Last thing I Googled: dream a little dream of me (was trying to find which version of the song plays in 3x10 because it was stuck in my head lol)

Other blogs: just my post limit blog @crossroadsdirt

Do I get asks?: yes and i love them, nice messages make my day of course!!! and messages asking me to rant and rave about the blorbos make my day even more aalsjfjklkls

Following: 339 but not entirely accurately at the moment since tumblr nuked some of my moots today >:/

Average hours of sleep: i'm lucky if i get my four hours 😞 i cannot escape the deancoding

Instruments: is a computer keyboard an instrument

What I'm wearing: pajamas always (#workfromhomelife)

Dream job: not working <3

Dream trip: anywhere, i've only ever got to go on one trip to new york city a few years ago and it was so fun just to see somewhere else that wasn't georgia lmao so i would be happy going anywhere else honestly

Nationality: american

Favorite songs: couldn't possibly choose but songs of the moment are when the night is over by lord huron or bury a friend by billie eilish (heard it off a spn amv like most of my "new" music!)

Last book I’ve read: uhhh you mean fanfic? alskkdkd haven't read any in a few days because the last thing i read made me annoyed... but before that there was an interesting s15 rewrite (destiel/samwena) called final season: home is where one starts from

Top 3 fictional universes I’d like to live in: i don't have three answers but the main (and cringy one) is spn :/ i wanna meet my beloveds <3 even though i would die in that world immediately because i have no survival skills and i'm a giant chicken lmao

Tagging: whoever wants to do this!!! (always too chicken to tag people sorry alskkfll)

hihi :D. i'm back to do some crazy rants ig since i can't sleep :,). ig i'll just pick up where we left last time?

which is the hair colours! so i saw they dyed yunhos hair blue... AND THEY DID A MESSY JOB AT IT TOO? like in the idol radio pic you could still see a line of like blond hair?? i just know his hair is fried.. they should've kept it blonde urgh. also my neobong... apparently he told at a fansign his hair isn't finished yet? now, i have my theories! like 2 years ago yeo said he wanted to split dye his hair mint and pink. so that's what a lot of people are thinking, and that could be possible ig? but yk what i would love to see? GREEN AND BLACK!! like yk the billie eilish hairstyle with the green roots? OORRRR like the 'hidden' hairstyle where the top is like black and the 'hidden' part of his hair is green and he has like green bangs/fore pieces. i think they're gonna let the green fade tho. TALKING ABOUT NEO...

I'M PICKING UP WHERE I LEFT TALKING ABT GETTING INTO NCT. i am in love with taeyong!! LIKE OBSESSED!! DELUSIONAL OVER THIS MAN!! he's so so so fine!!! like tyong pls come home the kids miss you :(!!! my faves have not changed from last time ig, but i'll say my biases from each unit just bcs i can ig? nct 127 is obv taeyong!!! my nct dream bias is haechan and for wayv it's xiaojun. i'm not rlly counting in nct u bcs the line up is different each cb yk. and if u wanna count in djj it jaehyun, that man is so fine AHDHS. that's all i had to say abt kpop. i haven't rlly been keeping up with a lot of kpop content these days tbh, i've been watching criminal minds :)!

and since ik you have a blog for criminal minds etc i'll rant a bit abt cm here too? i'm at ssn 13 right now so i'm almost done :,). i just finished the eps where that annoying ass lady split up the bau and tried making changes and they secretly team up to catch this serial killer that kills these women and sells like the pics of it and they end up saving the daughter of this dude with a lot of power and he ends up funding the bau etc. i'm so excited to finish cm soon but also not? but i feel like it's kinda time too since i've been watching it for so long. i had to take breaks watching it bcs school and struggles with paranoia so it took me a long time to get back into it again. but now that i'm watching it again i'm so happy bcs i missed the show so much. i think that was my rant since i have nothing else going on rn, i'm a homebody who does nothing more than to sit in their room and watch kpop content, tv shows and read 😭 thank you for listening <3 — 🎧

hello !! you know i love the rants babe !!

i completely agree that they should have kept the blonde. i was excited when i thought they could have a new color but after concert pics with the blonde and the not so great dye job for the blue i'm wishing we could have kept the blonde too :,) but no for sure, he said something like being on the third bleach round or something like i'm crying for him rn akfhakjf

and YEAH NO BECAUSE I WAS TALKING ABT THIS WITH OTHER MOOTS AND- i really really like the idea of the mint green and pink bc like thats so fairy coded and hes so fairy coded and like i also def prefer a mint green to whats going on right now (tho its growing on me mostly bc yeosang just always looks so freaking good). and like i dont think i'd like the idea of the green and pink if it were the split dye like one side pink one side green but i feel like it was supposed to be the top of his hair being pink and the bottom green which could look so freaking good and adorable. BUT UHHH NOW THAT YOU MENTION THE GREEN AND BLACK, BABES THAT IS TOO GOOD you're a literal genius. they probably will just have it fade but i'm praying they do something like that with it sorry to your hair yeo LOL

I SEE I SEE taeyong is definitely a very easy man to simp over. yeah i never count nct u LOL fahfkjsdf but i see you ! i'm understanding, my sister is a haechan stan HAH i just love making fun of him its in my nature as a renjun lover. honestly i'm barely an nctzen anymore BUT i still enjoy dabbling in their content and convos about them like this from time to time it feels nostalgic and nice. i've always been more of a dreamie so i've been passing through neotown more lately with their comeback approaching.

oH MY GOD CRIMINAL MINDSSS my comfort show fr AHAHAH i'm a little crazy. fun fact emily prentiss is my gay awakening !! i'm actually rewatching it rn i'm still on ssn 10 tho lol. ngl i only vaguely remember that ep rn i will be reminded when i get to it LOL. i get you tho omg like it's so long and it's exciting to get through esp if you've had to take breaks like that so valid !! but also i never want my favorite things to end LOL but i mean here i am rewatching it so it's not a huge deal anymore khfkajsd i'm glad you've felt happy watching it tho !! that's awesome.

but babe you are literally me that is legit also the only thing i do, we are twinsies fr. you're welcome for listening and ty for sending it in !! you know i love to hear from you <333

Colours of the Moots // Ruby, Jade, Orange, Goldenrod

Ruby - you are such a gem, you deserve so much better <3 Goldenrod - i really wanna sit next to you and watch a sunset/sunrise. or maybe just look at you.

I am truly curious why so far everyone wants to watch a sunset/sunrise together, BUT I am 100% down. Get a nice blanket, some snacks, music on a phone or whatever and just vibe. Sounds like a good time to me, and also YOU deserve better as well. How do I know?... Because you are on this hellsite, and part of the Role playing community.

Jade - honestly you have some of the best takes on this hellsite.

Ahhhh wait to say that until you hear more of my rants about Cassandra Cain, or any of my other canon muses I've had in the past. I can give some real spicy takes on Moira O'deorain lol. I'm happy you think so though.

Orange - if you were a fruit you'd be a orange. no explanation.

WOah that review from that moot of yours that basically jaemin was some asshole that just wanted to get his dick wet made me laugh so much lol like i never though of jaemin like that because he doesn't feel like that type of guy like sure the arrangement and his issues and whatever but mc was also looking for pleasure with someone without risks or attachments, and the thing about him not knowing anything about here is mostly brought because he hasn't asked but also she hasn't mentioned it? or even in the actual story isn't put to too much importance apart from the whole writing trip thing, which she tells him about and he actually finds good, idk i don't think that jaemin deserves to be put in that much of a bad light, yes he's a man and all men do is lie but he's a sweet troubled man, just mc is a sweet troubled woman.

@thetypingpup comes with the best points. please, her rant yesterday on discord made my night LMAO. i was trying so hard to defend jaemin (i think its bc i write him so like.. i know whats happening) but i couldn't help but be like "yk...you're making some solid points. they're kinda true" LMAO. but its true!!! she hasn't mentioned much of it, but jaemin knows a lot more than i've written in the story!!! mc and jaemin are both lack communication skills... we need to change that hehe

WAAAAH i just realized i never responded 😭😭 i’m sorry. i too wish i had know about kpop in high school, i was very much into 1D and bieber 🙃 i transitioned from CNCO and reggaeton to kpop….that was a ride going from spanish to korean 😂 but anyway i agree about 3rd gen music being so timeless, i do love it very much.

about 4th gen they really are getting younger and younger. every time i see their ages i audibly gasp, they’re younger than my sister (she’s 03). i personally think they shouldn’t be debuting any younger than 19 but i’m considered ancient to kpop stans so who am i to have an opinion lol but i keep thinking of all the discourse over shohei, the new sm rookie and ppl complaining about him being 96 line. personally I AM ALL for him debuting!

anyway i do hope ppl migrate back to tumbly bc twt is so ehhhh. i mean i use it a lot but i barely follow anyone except the groups i stan. though it would be nice to have more moots lol but only good ones

HI AGAIN LINA !!!! i hope u have been doing well these past few weeks we didn't talk!!! ITS TOTALLY OKAY !!!! i've been a bit busy so absolutely no worries, you just take your time <3 but LSDKFJ STOP i was such a hard core directioner in high school it's not even funny ;____; listened to all their albums kept up w everything they did all that jazz lsdkfj :') but ooooooh spanish music too!!! that's cool that you have experienced a lot of fandoms tho skldfjs it's always interesting :) and YEAH i don't want to sound stuck in my ways all the time and ofc i think there is talent all over the place, 3rd gen will always just have a special place in my heart <3

and yes 4th gen just keeps on getting younger and younger and like, i do think that it's cool that ppl are recognizing talent at a young age! but i agree with you in that there has to be some sort of system behind this stuff lol like, i think i've heard somewhere that nct has some new SM rookies and one of them is a 98 liner or something (which is my age lmao) and like !!! fans are getting mad that this is considered 'old' like,,,,,,,how messed up is that?? sorry i don't think children should be exposed to the crippling industry that is entertainment where you are basically being stripped from your core under the eyes of millions of ppl SLDKFJ ;____; i'm sure i'm considered ancient for kpop fans standards (i turn 24 this december hhh) but it's literally crazy how the younger generation has such a warped idea of what is "old" and in kpop it's no different,,,,, like did anyone give other ppl crap for liking one direction at literally any stage of life ?? i don't think so !!!! i am ranting at this point i am SORRY SLDFKJ but i just think it's getting really toxic that so many younger fans are putting like, an "age limit" on how to enjoy things that genuinely make us happy and that the younger you debut is the better when it's like no you need to become a resilient older individual i think !!! AND THOSE ARE MY THOUGHTS LOL i completely agree w you lina !!!!!

and PLS DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THATTT after wonho left there was such a huge migration from monbebe tumblr to twt because of hashtagging and stuff but i was surprised mbb never migrated back here :( tumblr although is a hellsite LMAO gives you much more creative freedom not to mention the algorithm just makes SENSE. i hate twt besides being updated on stuff as well kdsjf <3

use this as a rant ask :)

ive got lots of papers and presentations due before my semester ends and i know i have enough time to finish them all and that i will finish them well enough to get a good grade but the work load is still stressing me out. i still don't know if my friend group (which is primarily my boyfriend's friend group) accept me or not. some days it feels like i've finally passed their vibe check and other days, like today, it feels like im not good enough for them. i see all my friends from london meeting up and having so much fun together and i'm literally having fomo about it lmao 😭. tumblr feels very lackluster nowadays. idk how to explain it but im just like "meh" every time i log on. idk what's going on with my online friends lol. am having many strong emotions in that department. maybe its a sign that i need new friends but i don't wanna make the effort to make new friends. sometimes you just have to ignore shit and move on cause at the end of the day those friends have been there when i've needed them and it's better to be grateful rather than being spiteful. i have a love hate relationship with enhablr and i wanted to leave it but then i realised that a good majority of my moots are from enhablr and so i cant really leave it without leaving them and i don't wanna leave them so ig im not leaving enhablr lmao.

Anyway I'm tired of ranting I'm just grateful for moots I still have 😂

and for anyone who takes the time to tell me they agree with me I have bad anxiety so putting posts out there can be hard but sometimes I just have to get it all out because I'm here to escape stress and hate I'm here for Jared and Jensen and Sam and Dean and all my fave shows and things that make me smile. Tumblr should be my happy place not somewhere I have to get my sword out and constantly feel like I'm battling a sea of hate and immaturity (I'm by no means perfect far from it but I think I'm at least aware of my behaviour when some think being hateful is a personality trait that's cute and makes them better fans💀) because even though I have lovely moots on Twitter too I can barely be there long everything is so toxic and complicated and not just with the awful hellers (I can't count how many I've had to block and report they're disgusting but tbh these Jensen haters aren't far from being like them) I love my boys and spn and everything on my blogs that's what matters to me about being here so anyone who's ever been kind ily and try and enjoy your blog and if you need to step away do I often feel so much better just binge watching my fave shows without fandom and reading my fave posts from here or looking at amazing GIFs and art etc or actually going outside for a walk 💜I don't know what this is lol

This is strange asks anon

I have gotten a bunch but I delete most so here are two recent ones. I Made a post about intimate piercings (basically a MLT post) and someone ranted about *the germs* even followed it up with another ask that I didn’t publish where they tried to guilt trip me because I said something like “aren’t there more bacterial cells in your body right now than there are you cells?”, saying that I find them weird and made fun of them? Idk it was odd. Like, this was totally hypocritical but they took it why to serious 😔

Then someone send an ask announcing that they will no longer follow me bc I made realize that they are a sex repulsed Ace person and this was on anon so I have no idea why they would tell me?? My blog has like 450+ followers how would I know who unfollowed?? ^^;;;;

To answer some questions. We are not moots but we both share a moot so I see your posts on my dashboard sometimes.

As for audience and content, I write for stray kids and some of my stories did do pretty well (two of them even have like 500 notes with is a insane number for someone like me who used to write for smaller fandoms). I’m at university so I have time and do hang out on here (probably more than I should lol).

Last year I posted something every week but now I have a bit less time but more stress :( the other thing is most of my stories are pretty long (usually over 3k words) so they take a lot of time to edit. I keep track of my wips and I have like 80 k of unpublished, unfinished wips. rip me lol

Haha strange asks anon! I'll tag you as that then.

Tell you what, those people sound like some tumblr trolls. My policy with everything is: 1. Don't kinkshame 2. don't be abusive 3. don't be moral police over people's fantasies because what gives you the right over somebody else and 4. if you don't like something then don't read it and move on. I haven't experienced weird asks like that, just occasional hate ones that make no sense, usually when I've stood up for someone who's written something controversial and is getting kinkshamed or abused.

You have so much content waiting to go!! That's insane! That's a very different writing process to what I have, I post a finished fic maybe once or twice a month and usually only have one or two things in WIPs. I keep saying this, I don't believe I'm that creative as a person really, and if I had that many fics all going at once they would just get crappier.

I'm not being very useful again, I just don't know what the actual secret is to good content. I just do what I know, which is put out fics, do some ask games (like confessional monday) but not too often, read other people's stories and share what I like about them.

I'm curious who you are now, I might have read your stuff! If you feel like it, send me a message and we can talk some more. Or anon asks are also fine if you don't feel comfortable ❤