eaJ - sober go away

[Verse 1] Sober resurface Pills they stop working And stomach is churning (From the alcohol, from the alcohol) Hoping is hopeless When ceilings are falling Hospital calling (Who the fck you call? Who the fck you call?)

[Chorus] When the sober stays Lie me in my grave By soft highs, all of them chalk lines Them green stop signs They, (They) they, they, they (They) Keep me in my lane, keep me so embraced by high priced Boxes of hot cries, end of the night sighs American hot pies Fck [Verse 2] 'Cause nothing's consequential When the law is run by the law So when they do wrong, wrong, wrong (Who the fck you call? Who the fck you call?) Something's consequential The world is on fire, run by intelligent liars Shit, am I tired? Popped all my tires Someone call Myres

[Chorus] When the sober stays Lie me in my grave By soft highs, all of them chalk lines Them green stop signs They, (They) they, they, they (They) Keep me in my lane, keep me so embraced by high priced Boxes of hot cries, end of the night sighs American hot pies Fck

[Outro] Tell me that I'm special, but what does all that mean? Everyone is someone to somebody (Fck) Tell me that I'm special, but what does all that mean? Everyone is someone to somebody (Fck)

WHO THE FUCK YOU CALL. WHO THE FUCK YOU CALL.

... it's just hit me that lister describes the bathroom kiss as assault and even when jimmy reassures him that he doesn't see it that way and doesn't have a problem with it, lister refuses to accept that it was anything other than objectively assault

while two days earlier jimmy insisted that a 32-yr-old having sex with lister at age 16 was wrong, despite lister not seeing it that way and not having a problem with it

does that mean that lister took that conversation on board but only as far as "the person on the receiving end of an advance can't accurately assess whether or not it was wrong" and is now equating himself to the woman that took advantage of him . because i will weep

I also read and crafted and got a lil wine drunk at a party for my aunt's bday + end of her chemo treatments and it's like??? Maybe sometimes things are good and I can spend a few hours without wanting to murder my family and without them saying something egregiously offensive or hurtful and it can be a decent conclusion to a weirdly emotional but kinda healing week?? Or at least. Peaceful? Tentatively????

conan gray wrote sirius black the way taylor swift wrote lily evans

being sober actually kinda fucking rules

my favorite pieces of ben trivia:

left-handed (i forget this fact every five business days and then it comes back to me randomly)

please do not touch him if he doesn't know you like that. it will not be a small freakout. it will be a very big scene.

Hey yall gonna very intentionally take a break from social media rn, so ill see you in a bit

more shitty sketches from a shitty artist (term used loosely, and it's me, I did this)

Synez and I agree that characters smoking is hot, even though neither of us smoke or really like it all that much in reality. it's an ~aesthetic~ don't question it

I have such a strong urge to draw Gordon Freeman in either a pink or orange sweet Lolita coord and Barney in either EGL or cat maid outfit lmaooo

on a related note I desperately need a pre-meteor au where the team somehow are already friends and get their paws on some prescription-grade gummies and it goes just about as poorly as you can imagine

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risky text except the risky text is actually a massive string of texts in obsessive detail full of spiritual ramblings about how inhumanly perfect and amazing my sweet god is

I've officially stoped smoking cigarettes!!

Almost a week clean and I've only had 1 rage freakout out work

In my diffence my coworker was intentionally pressing my buttons and didn't know I was coming down from nicotine

Cut down on smoking in general too, only on the weekends and only 1 hit off a bowl unless its a social circle

Almost 1 year clean off pills too!!

Slowly but surley getting my life back!! Already feeling tons better, fingers crossed my heart recovers and I don't need to go on permanent meds 🤞🤞🤞

Wish me luck babes! 🩵 If you're struggling with addiction remember to be kind and patient with yourself, don't be afraid to reach out if you need some advice and encouragment! Its never too late to get clean and its 100% okay to mourn the life you had before but don't let it stop you from moving forward, as always, love you babes and we got this!!

i'm not saying v would fix his alcoholism. she could, however, sway him towards other hedonistic outlets exponentially healthier, which is really a win for everyone involved (especially the helpless collinsport pedestrians)

there are shirtless drunk ppl outside my window blasting california girls. it is 5:40 pm