did I just binge all of heartstopper vol 2 in one sitting? yes. yes i did.

Randomly thinking about “tolerate it” (narrator voice: it was not random) and how under the cloak of fiction it is ostensibly inspired by works like “Rebecca” (which Taylor said she read during the 2020 lockdowns I believe?), with the line of “you’re so much older and wiser” indicating that the speaker is significantly younger and inexperienced compared to the person she’s speaking to and a pretty direct reference to the plot of the book.

But I saw something somewhere once that stuck with me about how it might not be referring to relative age between the characters but chronological age as in the passage of time in a relationship. And that made me think about how in a contemporary context, it might not necessarily be referencing an actual age gap between the two characters, but rather a sarcastic or cynical response to the man’s claims that he has matured (“you’re so much older and wiser [than you were before/than you were when we met/etc.]”), which then made me think about that line in relation to the woman. And that it could be taken like, “you act like you’ve matured so much in our time together and like you know everything, while I’m supposedly still stuck as the girl I was when we first met.”

Which then made me think of the “right where you left me” of it all and did you ever hear about the girl who got frozen time went on for everyone else she won’t know it and the bit in Miss Americana where she talks about how celebrities get frozen at the age at which they got famous, and how she’s had to play catch up in a lot of ways not just in her emotional growth but kind of in general. (Which also made me wonder if she’s ever been called out for immaturity/lack of curiosity/lack of education about things in her life…)

Which then made me think about the rest of the song, and @taylortruther’s posts yesterday about “seven” and “Daylight” and the way Taylor idealizes her youth yet contrasts it with an almost sinister reality in its wake, and the line, “I sit by the door like I’m just a kid,” because the discussion raised that her relationship let her recapture some of the childlike joy and wonder she’d lost. So this line is a double-edged sword: the speaker sits by the door with childlike hope that the person will come home and cherish her, but on the darker side, feels like the child dealing with the monsters she doesn’t have names for yet and the feelings of isolation she felt as she aged.

I’m not saying the song is necessarily autobiographical; like most of the songs on folkmore, it’s clearly a fictionalized story based on media she’d consumed and created, but we know a lot of the fictional songs were infused with her own feelings and experiences and… This idea swirling in my head picked up steam and now I kind of can’t stop thinking about it. Sorry but I’m a little obsessed now.

Like maybe it might start to shed light on why she identified so strongly with the novel in the first place…

me when they're doomed from the beginning... me when the ending is prophesized and it's sad... me when i know the ending at the start but read it anyway

on undying friendships for @fightingdragonswithwho​ <3

graceland too - phoebe bridgers / daisy jones and the six / leonard cohen - boygenius / a league of their own (2022) / a little life - hanya yanagihara / ladybird (2017) / the seven husbands of evelyn hugo - taylor jenkins reid

i don't ever want to come down from this west coast rush and summer high and easy, peaceful sense of time i feel so alive at the moment any place i go is beautiful because in my mind i, i am miles and miles away

the maine; miles away

I want a girl who gets up early - I want a girl who stays up late I want a girl with uninterrupted prosperity Who uses a machete to cut through red tape.

Merthur Season 2 vs Season 5. you have been warned.

the roads are my home, horizon’s my target…

daffodils are symbols of uncertainty, but also of hope.

“since i saw vienna” || ‘your city gave me asthma’

my friends are asleep post gizzard opinions that will get me burned at the stake. i think nonagon infinity is kind of overrated. SORRY

trouble will find me by the national is such a deeply jimmy and greg coded album for no apparent reason

been laying here listening to Lucky by Dermot Kennedy on loop for half an hour while thinking about Everything Stays and crying

tell me this isn't Tina and Jimmy Jr., especially this bridge

and I've been meaning to tell you I think your house is haunted, your dad is always mad and that must be why, and I think you should come live with me and we can be pirates, than you won't have to cry or hide in the closet...

I got so excited last night bc of bottom growth 8'). Like, I've known for YEARS I've wanted that more than like anything from T but to see it ACTUALLY happening is so.

And yet, I truly never thought I'd be on T. I've had a very particular mindset about a certain age where I just knew in my heart that'd be my end. It was a mix of coping (badly), and how I grew up and what I had to endure and so much more. And it became a clutch that, well, my pain wouldn't matter in just a few more years because it was my end.

But, for the first time in a LONG time? That age limit doesn't seem so strong. I can make it past it, and it's gonna be good.

Everyone talks about how T can help you mentally and like, I get it I do.

To think something so small as my starting off bottom growth got me so happy I was beaming coming out of the bathroom last night... I'm changing! And it really is for the better 8). And I like this. I want this to stay. This is what I needed

asuna has such huge seven by taylor swift energy. thank you.

sicko edition

hurt&comfort/codependency/monsterfucking/sun&moon imagery/lord&vassel dynamics/accidental vouyerism

stop making love to me while i'm trying to fuck you/generational trauma

their love language is gaslighting

unreliable narrator

From this trope sorter page that @laufire did and I just HAD to check out wereraw