saying angel is the wrong kind of traumatized and is too sexual and offensive is a spit in the face of trauma victims who see some of their behaviors reflected in him. Just FYI. your way of dealing with your trauma is not universal and people's hatred of hypersexual trauma victims is fucking disgusting and your purity culture origins are showing. You're apparently only allowed to never want anything to do with sex if you're traumatized by a sexual event. (:

This is like the biggest gotcha point people who rabidly hate the show use and god is it retraumatizing to see how you think of victims who don't behave how you think they should.

New therapist was like ‘Jeff bezos and mark zuckerberg started their companies in their garages! You can do that too!’ 😬😬 is it time to switch therapists or time to tell her about generational wealth

....I have to see the dentist tomorrow and I can't tell if imagining I'm seeing @taliscat 's scarecrow is making me less or MORE anxious....probably more...if you can't tell I'm mortified

I'm worried that they're gonna tell me I'm gonna have to have surgery for this wisdom tooth coming in and hnnggg if y'all don't hear from me just know that I love you all...

The Apollo Nendo has removable hair and specifically his disheveled/sad hair.

refreshing the page on a new fic you posted like comment? kudos? as if its a fuckin parcel. pakïge? bøx?

hey peace & love, i mean this as kindly as possible-- some of y'all rly gotta unclench abt takin up space in the world by existin

like if a jerk in line behind u at the store is huffin n puffin bc yr self check is givin u fits & makin the process longer, that's their problem to deal with like an adult. is there some kinda giant glitterbomb behind the counter that's gonna blow if u don't get yr bags packed & get gone before the jerk's internal timer reaches zero? is anyone gonna blast u with literal red eye laser death rays? naw? then let the pissbaby pitch their lil fit that u can't ring yr groceries at lightspeed

or like. doctor stuff for fucken real. it's not illegal to be a pain in the healthcare system's ass until u get the relief u need. i'm not sayin be ugly abt it or anything, but yr allowed to put yr foot down with yr doctor. they said u needed to lose weight for an unrelated issue, or wrote yr symptoms off as anxiety/stress when u know damn well somethin else is wrong? make another appointment. message the office again. go to a different doc who will take u seriously if yr able. ask for every test yr insurance will pay for (if u got it). if they refuse to test or treat u for an issue, insist that their refusal is noted in yr file. don't mask yr symptoms to try & save face at the clinic. if they don't believe u until yr at yr worst, show up at yr worst. yr the best advocate u have, & idk abt y'all but i'm not catholic & i refuse to suffer any way i ain't gotta

other ppl don't like how u dress (too weird, too goth, too bright, etc.)? well good thing they're not wearin yr clothes then huh!!! maybe they oughta get glad in the same pants they got mad in while u strut yr funky stuff the hell away from that bullshit

any unsolicited negative opinion on anything u do that hurts no one & makes u happy? just be like ok loser thanks for the garbage input, i will not be considerin any of that, i'm happy for u or sorry that happened, goodbye

anyway. all this kinda stuff mattered So Much to me in my teens-twenties that i stressed myself sick abt it all & now i'm 31 & simply cannot find many more fux to give. i'm alive on this gay earth same as anyone else, & so are u, & we have a right to be here & take up space by existin. this world was made for us to explore, how u gonna do that when u keep makin yrself so small? take my hand. we're gonna get thru all this together :)

i have an almost finished like, full drabble that isn't just bullet points and i never finished or posted it???? what was the thought process there

I'm still torn and when I am torn about something I over explain to try to get out of it so here we go.

Astarion

Pros: My poor little meow meow. I like the idea of this snob who likes evil things falling in love with my character who is always a goody two shoes but also a complete gremlin who uses barbarian options constantly because they're amazing. my ego hurts from the rejection.

Cons: Shilo herself probably wouldn't be into him, I'd have to reload a few saves back to undo my original choice, I have to get his approval up and that will probably be annoying, I may have to go back even further to long rest without the scene asking me to choose one (I'm sure there are other times to rechoose or choose but I kinda want it as soon as I could ig)

Karlach

Pros: Shilo and her have so much in common without me even intending it. Both barbarians, both very emotional, both enthusiastic about fighting but want to help innocents, but still have pretty big tempers. Already flirted with her. Don't need to reload anything. Would be more in character.

Cons: I'm not as into her tho I think she's really cute. I really like Astarion. i kinda wanted to see the dicks in the game.

misc: I have another character concept who would probably fit Astarion more so maybe I can just have him next playthrough, but I would want to at least finish act 1 before doing it over since everything feels recent.

hhhhh wat do. it would be so funny if it were astarion.

I realize after writing this that my only real con about karlach is "but I wanna fuck the twink"

I have for my entire life been too shy to ask my own grandmother what our tribe thinks about haircuts. It's ridiculous. I have cobbled together knowledge about other tribes but my relatives write books and such about our tribe and it hasn't been in any of those that I've read but also, even since I was a child, it's always felt like one of those pieces of cultural knowledge that my grandmother probably thinks I know already. That, somehow, my dad probably thinks I know already too. I don't think I'm the only one. I don't think any of my siblings know (though this is an invitation for one of you two to message me if you do). I also don't think either of them would have minded the question at any point and they won't mind it now, when I finally do ask soon. As a kid, though, and then again as a teen and again as a young adult, I think I kept inventing the idea that someone would laugh or be really offended if I didn't know. My grandmother has never made me feel less for cultural knowledge questions. She is always down. I asked her how to pronounce her full name in our language and there's a word we still need to ask her sister how to pronounce, it's fine to ask.

In any case. I know that at least in some other tribes you do it in mourning and at least in some other tribes still, you do it when nothing will ever be the same again. And I've developed a lot of OCD around my hair through the years, for reasons primarily unrelated to this, and so in recent years as I've been thinking about this more every now and then I've tried to grow it longer, for cobbled-together reasons that I'm wondering might exist instead of asking my own grandmother because she thinks I already know, and it's been meaningful sometimes but ultimately right now I cut it whenever there is no going back/life will never be the same, which is always, because I'm always mourning something. Some piece of me I always feel like I'm losing I'm always mourning it.

A quarter inch of hair all around looks okay on me. I'm not sure yet if I'll document it. I like that it looks more femme than my previous haircut. Not that I wanted my previous haircut to look more femme, but if the really short hair looked masc, I was probably going to be upset.

Okay that's all. Diary entry. Thank you, Tumblr

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Genuine question. Have you people ever actually seen hazbin or helluva or do you just fucking bitch about it because it's the trend to do. Like. Helluva has kinda shit first few episodes that are way over the top with sex jokes, but it gets better when it gets to the actual story and they cool it. I bet no on complaining has seen it

I tried

Whelp guess who is turning 25 today 🥳💚

Watching the Percy Jackson show will fix me.

When a lawyer is disbarred for evidence forging, all their cases would be called into question. Every criminal put away by said lawyer would probably be able to file appeals, claiming forged evidence was used in theirs too. Do you think anyone Phoenix put away got out when he was disbarred? People who we know are legitimate murderers. How awful would Phoenix feel if just one got out after bringing his evidence into question, knowing he was framed, but no one with power believes him anymore. Do you think anyone got acquitted of all charges because of all this? Even when Phoenix comes back, they can't be recharged. Not only are these dangerous murderers out now, they're dangerous murderers with a grudge against Phoenix.