don’t kill me for this but:

Alastor, to me, is polyamorous demisexual/demiromantic. I understand the loveless and sex repulsed folks wanting rep, but I do too! Just. Be respectful. 𐂂 ₊⛧⊹ 

EDIT: FOR FUCK’S SAKE KEEP YOUR PISSY BULLSHIT OFF THIS POST. PLEASE.

need my boyfriend to fuck me and call me a good puppy until I’m a whining, whimpering mess against the bed, completely unable to walk and barely even coherent. Is that so much to ask? I just wanna be a cumdump

Absolutely happy that Warrior Nun rose from the dead. Great effort all around. (Really hope they bring back Shotgun Mary because I miss her energy.)

As this development bolsters my hope for Willow, there's work to be done. There's no secret that the Warrior Nun campaign got crazy attention and buy-in, and not just from queer folks - who led the charge.

Willow has the base to grow from the og fans who loved that campy ass film and love this show (it me!) and the young folks who fell in love with the whole Willow gang. That's a great loud and lovely base and it needs to be bigger and louder.

But how does one do that without the damn show! Warrior Nun grew because we had a whole season to rewatch, and then folks picked it up. And petty-ass Disney has taken the show off the platform. (Like f*ck them forever for that. Seriously.)

As always the fanfic and the art and the edits keep this whole thing going. Social media fans those flames. Keep up the word of mouth. Sign petitions and harass your friends. Also, harass Disney. Let's get Kasdan and the crew back on board.

Finally, to the youth, piracy is your friend! 🏴‍☠️ I still have all my burned dvds and cds from college. Yes, there are sites (with spamware, blerg), but torrenting is a good way to go. There are good torrent sites and programs like Utorrent.

Download the whole season. Put it on your drive. Share that drive. Burn it to a dvd. Maybe make copies and just hand them out. Whatever it takes. This show needs eyeballs! I truly believe that Disney et al are choosing to deplatform shows because of the WGA strike and residuals, however, the fact that the majority of the canceled/deplatformed shows are Queer-led, Black/POC led, and often have female leads or focused on women is no coincidence. (Male-centered queer shows are not only being renewed, but if they are canceled, they are easily finding new homes. NPH's show is a prime example.) So, yes, the data suggests that there is a bias against shows about queer/lesbian women and nb folks.

Anywho, mount up Team One Braincell aka Questies, and let's do the thing. Maybe Kasdan can stop his placating approach and get pissed off. It worked for Simon Barry, so who knows.

Let's go storm a castle and whatnot!

The way every lieutenant in Legacy of Kain has a different colour for each of their clans except Raziel, who shares red along with Kain...

"You were a wonderful experience"

"You were... everything"

except I'm a complete liar and that's not even remotely them, but listen anyways

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Spreaver, except it's Sparrow who's in the mindset of "it physically pains me to admit how much I'm intrigued and tempted by the idea of chasing desire, but considering how I've devoted my entire life to saving Albion- and now that I've got 2 kids and a kingdom to carry the responsibility of- I could never disregard the sacrifices I've made in the name of the greater good. Especially to someone like you. As Theresa has said to me countless times, my destiny is to become something for the people. That is my burden to carry, and something that I will live by indefinitely. Me and you both understand that weight, despite how we refuse to acknowledge that. We are both heros, after all- And we are the only ones left of our little quartet. I do take such comfort in the knowledge that I am human, and that I can't always be my image- That even you, as deplorable as you are, can, too, be human (as imperfect and needlessly complicated as they come). It is something that's become unfamiliar to me as of late. I never regretted whatever it was we had, despite how little it actually meant in the moment. Typically as just another way to deal with your presence without just killing you right then and there- but nonetheless gave me the same level of emotional release. We were both equals, and knew the others limits, I suppose. How far to push- what spots were sore- and just which buttons to press. We both knew the game, and we played- and it was the most mindless, yet instinctive thing I did for quite a few years. It was one of the few things that still made me feel as though I was living a life I could've had... But that will never happen. The only way I know how to make up for the countless lives lost since that fateful day, is to repay them with my own. I still can't shake the feeling of selfishness in my actions in acknowledging you. A Hero- and especially a Monarch- should not be one to indulge, after all. For that, I could never choose a life like yours- nor you. You were never meant to be apart of this; not for long."

And Reaver, who's currently like "You have been quite possibly one of the only conquests of mine that has made me feel alive in the past 200 or so years. There was always the knowledge with us that either one could end the other, which was a feeling I had not known from any other noticeable person (except Lucien, maybe). However, you still wouldn't actively turn your back on me whenever you had the chance. Why ever you did that, I found it of the utmost excitement. Whether it was your power; status; place in society; reputation; or some other grandiose factor that made you so alluring (as many other countless material items have been to me over my life), I still feel as though you were perhaps an equal to me. I'll admit how much potential I saw in utilizing that- I am an opportunist, after all- and yet I still didn't... why I let you become such an obstacle to me, I'll never know. I upped my typical antics in the hopes you'd take an issue with them- I did love our petty banter- but your refusal to respond beyond small petty gestures just made it more of a challenge. And even despite how you so unkindly usurped me, I still made an effort to prove that it meant nothing to me; that'd I was still as glorious as ever. I was Reaver; and no matter how much of a problem it posed to your kingdom, I'd still be right here; unscathed. You were an irritating- unpredictable- and such an unlikely source of such inconvenience to my plans. Perhaps that is why I was so prepared to see you fail... Perhaps that's why I still think of you from time to time, knowing that didn't happen. Not that I'll ever admit such a fact, knowing what you know about me. Still, in the wake of your passing, I feel as though it was all for nothing. That reoccurring thought, that all my countless endeavors somehow didn't make my sacrifices worth the life I gave up so much to live for, resurfaced, just then. I mean- if I couldn't even get back at you for having such an impact on me (my reputation, my empire, my house!! Need I even go on?), why did I ever spend that much effort on you in the first place? Why on earth I let you become something in my mind, I'll never forgive myself for. No... I'd never do that. I'll never forgive you. And for that crime, you will never be a name I bring up again; Stripped of any illusion of significance. In order to completely forget such troubling revelations, I've decided to once again indulge in the short-lived highs of excitement and exploits. In fact, I'll take advantage of this new era and make a name for myself- A proper one. The only way to drive those dreadful thoughts away is to prove them wrong, after all. Meaning: I'll build a new empire for myself. A far grander one. Perhaps, reaching the status you once possessed will finally erase you from such universal importance."

They're so toxic, they've started to rot my brain

I'm a 'petty, stubborn, shallow (masking his deep intellectualism and the torment) bitch' reaver x 'unbothered, "fuck it we ball" (deeply traumatized and not coping as well as they thought they were), throws chairs indiana jones style; sparrow' preacher

Alright, fellas. I've got a task to complete this summer, which is my Reaver animatic.

I'm going to rely on others to make sure I keep on track, I need to start planning all over again. SO! If I annoyingly go on about this at any point, just know it's to keep interest up, including my own.

(Drawings are from November 2022 - so don't think I'll draw it all like this)

hi i saw the words reaver!mahanon and blacked out, i would love to hear you talk about that if you want to

😈 hi.

So Reaver!Mahanon is an intentional choice by me to help tie into his themes of blood and the ritual consumption thereof. There’s these themes where Mahanon is concerned where, it’s like… “oh I’ve consumed this cup at the joining and now my blood is tainted? It always was” in regards to a lot of misogyny regarding menstrual blood and how it’s considered taboo just as the Joining is and there’s this gendering that he does to the darkspawn and—

Anyways 😌 so when he’s given the offer to drink dragon blood and defile the urn to give himself another edge against the Archdemon, he does it. (This is another point of Mahanon’s death to himself; the loss of faith. He doesn’t necessarily consider him a true Andrastian past this point). It’s also important to note that he also drinks the blood potion from the Warden’s Keep… which unlocks another layer to his talents with tainted blood.

It’s ironic because he’s so wary of blood mages, where he’s kind of doing something similar in using the taint of his blood to ward against his foes. He’s not bloodthirsty but he’s letting his own blood to give himself an edge in battle and causing significantly more harm to others. He’s so insane for it TBH.

There’s this whole question in origins where someone asks your warden what it feels like to come into contact with darkspawn blood and Mahanon describes it like a burning. So in my canon and in my fic, Mahanon’s blood is always this burning in his veins. It ties into the idea of the dragon cult later on—he’s drank dragon blood, of course it’s going to burn. It’s tainted it’s going to burn. It’s holy (subvert the condemnation of femininity) it’s going to burn.

He’s willing to coat his own weapons in it, he’s willing to let his own blood to burn others, he’s willing to spill it and go into a crazed battle-rage while greatly subtracting from his own health—

He gets to this point when he goes to battle the Archdemon, with all of these decisions weighing on him and his burning blood singing in his veins, and he looks at Urthemiel and it’s this moment of… “you and I are made of the same filth”.

I might do some doodles of the heroes with piercings I think would suit them, so if anyone has any ideas I'd love to hear

It would be really cool to get Will line tattoos. Not any on the face, cus ouch, but it would be super cool. I like, have so many ideas for tattoos to get one day and they’re split between quotes, Fable, Zelda, HP, LOTR, and general fantasy.

I’d be most likely to get Fable, and Zelda, with some general fantasy and quotes in between. Fable and Zelda kinda contrast though, which sucks. I’d have to figure out which one to do more of.

I’d probably get the Guild Seal, and the Hero Sigils. Maybe something for Theresa too, and maybe something to commemorate Rose, and then mostly just Zelda and assorted fantasy and quotes.🤩

Oh, and an American McGee’s Alice tattoo, or maybe a lot, would be really great too.

CK questions LoK Ancients

So I went on a one sided tangent today while working on crafting/house chores and having LoK cutscene videos playing as background noise.

Makes me just, more and more, want Amy Hennig to answer certain questions about the Ancient Vampires because the more I sit and listen, even after all these goddamn years, my brain is like HEY WAIT A MINUTE!

Cut for reasons.

“-inflicting us with a predatory blood thirst, but then came our enemies true revenge: immortality."

So did the A.Vamps eat like normal people? What DID they eat? Did the Hylden basically make them do a 180 when they cursed them? Were they vegan and mortal and then suddenly BAM now you're the beasts of the night?

"Curse or blessing, it is the price we pay to keep the Hylden banished from the land."

This just, my god this is such shit from Janos. From close up and only siding with one race, you only see a portrait of holiness, right? Janos in this halo of gold doing "good" waiting for the messiah, but if you actually step back and look at the whole picture, there is nothing but genocide, xenophobia and other horrible shit within the panoramic view of it all.

We think at first, aw Janos what a good bean, he's just a soft priest man but then if you actually remember the entire reason he's there is to literally gate-keep a race of people sent to suffer for eternity only because of their opposite opinion of religious following?? FUCKIN YIKES.

It makes me realize that these games came out, especially Defiance right after 9/11 and well, IT'S FUNNY THAT I'M WRITING THIS NOW ON SAID DATE.

Speaking of religions, did each sect of A. Vamps look/dress differently?

I bring this up because going back into SR2, the temple forges all follow different types of early human irl religions. Light reaver leaning towards Egyptian, Air reaver with Aztec, Dark reaver seems very Norse? I could be wrong please someone correct me, and then we have the fire reaver which looks like it's in a gothic catholic church and given Janos' attire and accent? That checks out.

To add to this: They all worship the same God, but they all gave praise to him differently. Thus me speculating about the different sects.

With different looks of dress and possible different ways of worshiping the same God, did their skin tone also change if say they didn't live in the immediate location of Nosgoth? Like, they're apart of "a world" right? Nosgoth can't be their entire world. It's certainly a pangaea of "Europe" but I'm wondering if say the different forges for the reaver scattered about Nosgoth are like emissaries for the different sects that don't reside in Nosgoth? The Air and Light A. Vamps being prime examples.

And if so, are they a possible darker shade of blue? Like how human skin tones change depending on where they live on the planet and their melanin levels?

How in the Hell did their community/society work?

I mean we get a taste of it with the Pillar Guardians being regarded highly but like, were they that heavily religious where say, we’ll use Janos as an example (because the man DID make the first Human into a Vampire), he’s gotta have some sort of high status?

Would he be considered a High Priest? Or a Pope?  Cardinal? Like, he was also at the last minute was given the role as the 10th Guardian I’m sure it wasn’t for shits and giggles, Janos definitely kept the pot stirred while in their post-war recovery.

Speaking of Priestly-ness, what would their religion be called?

No seriously I’m wondering about this constantly...

I also bring all these questions up because Amy and whoever else made up this stuff for this series basically gave us the core, one dimensional concept of the A.Vamps and was like :) That’s it.

“What about A, B, or C?”

“Just Janos.”

“But there’s gotta be more, right?“

“Hahah no.”

Like even with Raziel resurrecting Janos and the shit he tells us, IT’S STILL NOT ENOUGH. You can’t do all of this IN A STORY BASED GAME and be like yeah, that’s enough :D we don’t need to know about the literal details on how THE LITERAL VAMPIRE HYLDEN HOLY CRUSADES STARTED

I HATE TO USE A TEMPLAR MEME BUT IT FUCKING WORKS. WHAT A SHIT CYCLE HOW THE ANCIENT VAMPIRES PULLED A HOLY-WAR TEMPLAR MOVE ON THE HYLDEN TO THEN GET SNUFFED OUT BY THEIR OWN BULLSHIT TEMPLAR WAYS WITH HUMANS BY HUMANS.

And I think that’s enough I seriously needed to get this OUT of my head, JFA.

the body is tired but I can’t sleep. Today has just sucked. (had a breakdown that triggered a switch. and another one that gave me some suicidal thoughts)

the profile picture is off center.

realizing i’m gravitating more and more toward ‘protagonist gets cosmic eldritch powers by getting their hands dirty and drinking blood‘ instead of like, having a secret angel lineage or whatever

Local idiot just finished LoK:Defiance in 3 days after postponing it for so long because he knew he would get hurt. He got hurt.

Those last couple of hours!

And you know even though I knew the series just kinda stopped... that ending was oddly satisfying in a way. There's a lingering sadness that there isn’t one more game to wrap everything up, for sure, but there's contentment too. Kain's last speech *muah!*

dont get me wrong- I dabble in spreaver as much as the next chode, but I'm not like... super into some of the ooc content? Not getting into specifics, because who am I to judge, but we need some more toxic spreaver rep. Like... the potential there. Two imperfect and arguably unchangeable individuals who somehow view the other as an equal- despite various conflicting and borderline disastrous combinations of character- and use them in order to both humble them self and also get back at the other person???? Who mutually just write it off as "this doesn't mean anything", but for different reasons??? One who simply indulges in conquest and pleasure, marking this as another notable person off the checklist- and the other, who just needed a little break from the responsibilities and consequences they have to live with? AND THE POTENTIALLY UNSPOKEN FEELINGS AN THOUGHTS THEY HAVE- SPECIFICALLY ABOUT HOW THEY FIND THEIR... whatever it is- SOMETHING THEY DON'T REGRET, AS IT'S THE ONLY TIME THEY FEEL AS THOUGH THEY FONT HAVE TO BULLSHIT??? Like, yeah no they hate each other and actively find themselves annoyed with the very presence of the other, but they also understand them for what they are better than ANYONE else. They are two sides of the same coin, and possess the ability to murder the other if they decided to- and yet choose not to. Why? They don't even know. But it's just... wild, that they know things about the other that no one else probably ever will, and the fear from knowing that they see right through them just kind of shuts them up about trivial things that don't exist within or beyond this moment. They just couldn't care.

Ok but in general: They literally do not care. It's... weird, but it's not like a super emotionally investing prospect beyond the greater scheme of "huh... this is kind of a fucked up situation when you really think about it. But low key I don't want to put in more than what I already have into this, so fuck no I'm not getting into it"

-I do think that if they were different people under different circumstances, they could've maybe been happy together, though. Maybe as simple villagers- or adventurers, seeing how skilled they are in that field. But defiantly without the added impact from lifetimes worth of burdens, trauma, terrors, destruction, expectations, and sacrifice. Without all that, I think the free-spirited yet determined Sparrow would've been content with the articulate and skillful "Reaver". One, a mute who commits them self to whatever they set their mind on, often to the benefit of those around them- and the other, a well-versed man with ambitious goals, but who settles for living everyday to the fullest via the experiences he gains in daily life. Different people. Different story. Y'know what? I'm just gonna pretend like every spreaver fic I read that isn't as needlessly complex as the image I've got in my head is just an au version of the story. Saves me a few braincells.

Thank you fable writers for leaving a gaping middle chunk between fable 2 and fable 3 so that I could write delusional half-assed thoughts about a bunch of polygons who I think had, like- 3 conversations? Whatever. Fuck you.

I have to exist knowing one of the artists who made Reaver follows me on Instagram now.

He is bearing witness to my god damn simping and obsession of him oh my god- I'm honoured but terrified!