we keep quiet, cause we're dead if they knew
(aka the one where loki finds out about freyja and fandral.)
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Freyja knows the garden maze like the back of her hand. Every step through it is intuitive, every flower and thorn and blade of grass feels like a part of herself. She's grown up in the weeds–even when her brothers outgrew their games of hide and seek, she has always found solace in the solitude of the maze. Maybe because she was never quite allowed to train in combat the way they were, she had to find ways to occupy herself somewhere. Her familiarity of it has been hard-won, minute by minute, day by day, every footstep creating more muscle memory.
So of course, when she began this…whatever it is, with Fandral, the maze was where she brought him. She knows the quiet places, the turns nobody ever takes but her. She knows where they won't be found.
Their trysts are not always physical; sometimes they just talk for hours, or just enjoy each other’s company in the silence.
This is not one of these nights.
Freyja knows that her body is political territory; she has been acutely aware of it for centuries. As a seidr, as a daughter of Fensalir, her indiscretions will not be politely ignored the way that of her brothers are. (Loki, as a magic user, is on thin ice himself). After all, there's a reason she and Fandral are relegated to stolen moments in hiding spots. If House Valdi learned their heir was cavorting with her, the stability of the realm could be in danger of succumbing to a second civil war.
It's an objective her father instilled in her from birth: the cold civil war Asgard has harbored since Odin married a Seidr from Fensalir cannot, under any circumstances, be allowed to thaw. Freyja was born the emblem of a union that nearly split the realm, and it now falls to her to hold it together.
All of this to say: Freyja is already playing with fire in a powder keg. Having sex with Fandral anywhere, but particularly outside in the garden, would be a de facto declaration of war if word got out.
It doesn't mean that some nights, she's not tempted. It doesn't mean that some nights, part of her thinks it might be worth it.
The further his lips drift down her neck, the closer their bodies press together, the further the concept of diplomacy flies from her mind, replaced by the desire, the need to know what Fandral looks like undressed and on his knees before her–
“Ahem.”
The problem, of course, is that Loki knows the garden maze nearly as well as she does.
Fandral all but jumps away from her, at the other side of the corridor from her in less than a moment, and he’s all movement, straightening his clothes, changing his posture, like he thinks if he looks casual enough, it’ll rewind the clock. Freyja turns to her brother, standing at the junction at the end of the corridor, face impassive but eyes unbearably amused.
I will never hear the end of this.
“Sorry to interrupt,” Loki says sarcastically.
“You’re forgiven,” Fandral replies, equally sarcastic, and she doesn’t need to look at him to know that he regrets it instantly. She pinches the bridge of her nose.
“And you’re dismissed,” Loki replies easily. “I need a word with my sister.”
Fandral looks to her for instruction. She nods. He leaves, and she can see in his posture that he’s making a point of not walking any faster than he ordinarily does; it is taking extra effort for him to not look like he is actively trying to escape the situation. A pang of fondness hits her; she bites her lip to keep from smiling.
Loki watches Fandral carefully as he leaves, his eyes following him until several moments after he’s left Freyja’s line of sight, and then he turns his gaze on Freyja. A staring contest ensues as she waits for him to say the first word.
“Apologies for the interruption, again, little sister,” he says finally, smiling. It’s that smile he uses whenever his sixth sense for mayhem lights up.
“Why are you here, Loki?” she asks, exasperated.
“Mother wanted to speak to you about the coronation and asked me to find you. She told me you’d been spending a lot of time in the labyrinth lately.” He grins. “I don’t suppose she knows why.”
Freyja sighs, walking to his end of the corridor to meet him. “No one knows, and if you know what’s good for your health, you’ll keep it that way.”
“Good for my health? Or yours?”
“All of ours,” she says, indulging his hypothetical for the lack of anything else to say. “Yours, mine, his, everyone’s. You should be furious with me right now.”
“Furious? I’m proud.” He slings an arm around her and starts walking her out. “My little sister has grown up and started reaching important milestones, like compromising realm stability. Soon you’ll be committing your first treason.”
She rolls her eyes. “I feel like what I’m doing counts as de facto treason, actually.”
“There’s the spirit.” He grins down at her. “Honestly, Freyja, I wasn’t certain you had that capacity.”
“I’m the goddess of love, Loki,” she says flatly.
He rolls his eyes, looking mildly disgusted. “Not that. I mean, I didn’t know you had that kind of capacity for chaos. This is a tinderbox, you realize.”
“Oh, is it?” she says. “I hadn’t realized, thank you so much for your guidance.”
“I mean, really,” he continues, just to be annoying. “The potential for this to go wrong for you, him, and everyone else we know is truly astounding. The scope of the damage this could do is immeasurable. It usually takes me decades to put together something of that magnitude.” He pauses. “Have you been at this for decades?” He shakes his head at himself. “No, of course not. I would’ve figured it out sooner.”
“You’re enjoying this a little too much.”
“If you didn’t want me to, you were welcome to involve yourself with any other member of nobility. There’s no shortage of suitors for the princess of Asgard, you realize.”
“No, I hadn’t noticed that either, thank you.” She pauses, grabbing his arm so that he does, too, and he turns to face her.
“This isn’t a jest, Loki. I need to know that you’ll be discreet about this,” she says. “There are lives at stake.” She always hates to acknowledge that part; it’s one thing to think that it could cause a war. It’s another to acknowledge what war entails. When she does, the overwhelming selfishness of her actions hits her like a wave.
But she can’t ignore the potential ramifications of her actions and then ask Loki not to.
“As loathsome as Lord Valdi, I don’t think he’ll risk another war over a single indiscretion, Little One.”
Freyja stares at him. “Right. About that…”
His eyebrows raise. “This…isn’t a single indiscretion, though,” he realizes out loud.
“No.”
He studies her for a long moment, and there’s something new in his eyes–he’s looking at her like he’s never seen her before, like this is a facet of her that he hadn’t anticipated.
“Do you love him?” he asks finally, seriously.
“Yes,” she says, and for all the wrestling she’s done with the question in her mind and soul, she’s surprised at how easily the confirmation rolls off her tongue.
“Is he good to you?”
She can’t help but smile at that, just a little–both at her brother’s concern, and at the thoughts it conjures of the man she loves. “The best.”
He nods. “Very well. Your secret is safe with me.”
Her shoulders relax. “Thank you.”
“You’ve certainly kept enough secrets for me over the centuries; it’s only fair.” With that, he slings his arm back around her and starts guiding her back to the palace again.
“I will have to threaten to end his life should he damage your heart in any way, of course,” he adds.
“Please refrain from doing that, actually.”
“I will not.”
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making this post before i forget
hello this is a character-run blog for sakura haruno from naruto, except it's a modern-day-but-they-are-still-shinobi au, except sakura is also secretly a magical girl because it's FUCKING funny. like she's still a shinobi she's just also a magical girl. u know.
this is her secret blog where she posts about her secret magical girl life. which is mostly pretty mundane actually. except for the horrors one would reasonably expect by virtue of being a magical girl. again, u know.
anyway here is a basic lowdown before getting into the rest of the pages
written by kris
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mun and muse are adults
18+ only please. there probably will be no nsfw on here it is just a personal preference. i am going to be 24 in like exactly a month. i am getting old
MUSES who are minors are fine though
also no personals please. again nothing against y'all it's preference
don't be weird. last time i roleplayed sakura 10 years ago i dealt with weirdos. i am now no longer taking any weirdo shit.
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