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did i see you mentioned a teen wolf wip 👀
yes i did (￣ω￣) the one-sided beef i had with jeff davis as an easily influenced 13yo still lasts to this day jsfjsjsf. i have a "wip" drafted in the style of a tv show ("episodes" instead of chapters) and it's more inspired than a direct 1-1 rewrite of the show. teenage drama! angst! violence! extremely self indulgent! not seeing the light of day any time soon
#anon#putting that out of our minds#ksfjsjfs#sorry i keep baiting you guys with all these wips#if only i had a clone TAT#but i got veryyyyy attached to the bff#so i can't give it up entirely
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Burnt out
#initially this was meant to be something else entirely#but i wasn't really liking how it was going so I scrapped the idea and opted out for something a bit more personal#ive been really suffering from burn out for the last few years and just barely keeping my head above water#there are times where i seriously feel like ive failed in every aspect of my career#like if i were good enough i wouldn't have burnt out#i love my job and i love my trade i love every skill ive gain up until this point#but its been hard not to take it personally when all the effort you've put into honing those skills#are abused or exploited#life is difficult enough already and and time is fleeting#taking time for yourself is above all the most important thing you can do to help your work flourish#taking a break isn't failure#its health#we aren't machines despite our industries treating us as such#just waiting and hoping that itll pay off#ive certainly learned my lesson#and im looking forward to brighter horizons#and healthier more respectful ones#ill be okay ive learned how to love my art in my personal time again#but i certainly need to let my mind rest and my body to recover#these tags are lengthy anyways#unionize and dont work for nothing from large companies#be gay do drugs love your friends make art for yourself too#my art#scuttles out of here#i hope these long ass images actually show up in full resolution#i did draw them fucking TOLL as hell
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i have come up with a new, extremely self indulgent AU for tfrb:
basically what happens is each individual character in tfp accidentally finds out about the rescue bots, whether it's through a ground bridge mishap, an intel scouting mission, even a situation where they get rescued.
this starts out with mostly autobots, because i assume griffin rock is either in autobot territory or a neutral/unclaimed area (or it's off the grid and nobody knows about it) (i think the last one is the funniest), but the decepticons also learn about them eventually.
now. here's where the funny/self indulgent part begins. none of them know anyone else knows. the autobots AND decepticons all assume they're the only one who knows about these bots, and that the team has been trying to live a normal, calm life away from the war.
team prime doesn't know optimus and bumblebee already know, and the decepticons don't know that these guys have connections to the war. and of course, the rescue bots always manage to worm their way into every. single. bot's. spark. all of them individually grow to care about the rescue bots, and independently decide to keep them secret. nobody wants their new friends to get hurt!
anyways shenanigans of course ensue because it's very hard to keep a previously extinct group a secret from all of your friends, and since everybody knows but doesn't know everybody knows it becomes a lot of ridiculous sneaking around and badly lying to everyone.
the rescue bots are SUPER confused by all these bots who keep showing up, but they pretty much just assume that someone spilled their secret and everyone after are all showing up to meet them. eventually i think they would start to figure everything out, but they don't fully comprehend that everyone has been trying to hide them from each other until some big reveal happens.
the way this pans out is probably the end of the war honestly, because again; no one wants these guys to get hurt, physically or emotionally, and if that means having a ceasefire so be it.
#tfrb#rescue bots#transformers rescue bots#transformers aligned#tf aligned continuity#aligned continuity#tfp#transformers prime#i just think it would be funny#in my mind everyone would be trying to internally justify keeping this secret bc all the war bots are kinda out of touch w their feelings#and don't want to admit they're soft for the rescue bots#so it leads to many identity crises#they're all like “oh they could be useful in the future i don't wanna reveal this info to quickly”#or “maybe they can give our side an upper hand and if i spill they could get found and persuaded to the other side”#some specific cases i like to imagine:#shockwave would have a rly hard time trying to logic his way into keeping their secret#he can't admit he wants to help them so he just pretends he wants to experiment on them and study their abilities#which he does want but he also cares abt them#ratchet isn't the softie type so the feelings he has towards the rescue bots really off put him#he also feels bad about not telling optimus but really doesn't want to involve the rescue bots#megatron is completely in denial#he claims to want the rescue bots as a tool to eventually win the war and rebuild cybertron#but he never can bring himself to actually use them#soundwave. just any interaction between the guy who doesn't talk and a team full of the biggest gossips ever.#i love the rescue bots so much and since it's canon that everyone who knows them does as well i've decided they have irresistible charm
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#shitposting brought to you by mind flayer tadpoles#BG3 fandom critical#this applies to any fandom really#but this post is about Astarion's fandom™#at this point Larian just needs to delete him from the game#put us all out of our miseries of dealing with some of these fans™#do the right thing Larian#save us all please because every day it's something#I am so very tired#BG3#fandom critical
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If five pebbles was ever built for zephyr the same way he was built for moon, would he ever see her as a mentor?
i imagine that he'd!!! be more open with her than he is with Moon, because their personalities match better. Zephyr isn't really the doting, overprotective kind. She didn't have the chance to learn how to be affectionate and warm even though she wishes she could be and she needs to watch her own systems like a hawk 24/7 so she ain't got the attention to spare to nag at him even if she wanted to. they'd end up bonding over their anger at the injustice of the Iterators' fate, though
Pebs would probably take someone else as Mentor™ (she wouldn't be capable of fullfilling the expectations of that role), but he'd probably still look up to her a lot. she'd be like. a not-the-title mentor in the specific field of being angry at their situation and doing Something about it
#Spot says stuff#rain world#rw#oc tag#oc: abet zephyr#this scenario is such a headscratcher cuz like- zephyr is kept a secret from the public out of shame of the higher ups of her condition#not as a Person mind you but as a waste of resources. girl cant even Iterate because shes so broken. she cant do the One thing shes made-#-to do. oh what a shame. what a stain on our maps. the ancients never put Any effort into fixing her so making an entire Iterator right-#-next to her whos secondary goal is to Help her? unimaginable in canon. shed hate it because she thinks of herself as a lost cause#and now this poor kid has to deal with being Made for this lost cause. no matter what he does he will never be able to help her enough#it will be forever an itch and a heartbreak that cannot be mended#born directly into constant trauma just like her. instead of fixing Her they brought another life into this. she hates it so so much.#but pebbles himself shed fucking Love. hes her little perfectly self-sufficient boy and shed fucking throw hands with Suns for him#srry for the rambling these two combo'd together live rent free in me brain
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send me a character and I'll list:
favourite thing about them: Clarke's tenacity! Her first scene? She fights off two armed guards and LOCKS THEM IN HER CELL BEHIND HER. Then how she handles herself at the dropship ("You think we care who's in charge!?"). Her commitment to getting her people out of MW (despite every other leader before her failing to do so). Praimfaya. AFTER Praimfaya... When Clarke sets her mind on something, she's a force! 💥
least favourite thing about them: I hated seeing how much crap she put up with in S6 (and even some of the earlier seasons!) I wish she'd value herself enough to apply that tenacity to her own well-being 😅
favourite line: my answer always changes, but today it's this one from 512. It was refreshing to see Clarke own that 'Wanheda' part of herself after so many years. Loved that energy for her ⤵️
"What if I never see you again? No, not possible. How can you be sure? It's simple. You may be the Commander, but I'm the Commander of Death..."
brOTP: MURPHY! Their dynamic is sm fun!!
OTP: Bellarke. For sure 100% I'm always rooting for those two wonderful fools.
nOTP: I still think the Clarke x Gaia vibes felt really... off? I wasn't a fan. And Cillian definitely wasn't my fave either, but I guess he's actually not meant to be 😅
random headcanon: Eventually, earthkru has settled peacefully and trained a team of medics: so Clarke decides, after some convincing, to take up life as an artist.
(Though sometimes, when she can't sleep, Bellamy and Madi still find her helping patients in the med tent...)
unpopular opinion: she wasn't completely wrong with all her S5 decisions. Some of them, like shock-collaring her daughter? YES! But feeling obligated to get a 12 year old girl tf away from Wonkru and Blodrenia? Maybe not a bad call 🤷♀️ Her method was lousy, but her intentions not completely un-understandable.
...and her red hair was COOL! 🤣
song i associate with them: I'm gonna be predictable again bc ofc it's this one!
favourite picture of them: so many to choose from, but here's an adorable gif! ✨
#the 100#clarke griffin#clurphy#bellarke#i love her your honor#nobody likes the red hair but I was 🤩 at my TV lol#tysm for asking!!#ask away!#ask game#the Griffin family#our fearless leaders#I was also a BIG clxa fan and it drew me back into checking out the show#but tbh after watching it through i kinda put them in the same column as flarke?#i liked the chapter of her story but was always rooting for a b/c endgame#i actually thought 512 was a GREAT tie-in to bridge clxa with bellarke when we got the 'don't make the same mistake she did' scene in 5x12#but anyway don't mind me#rambling more in the tags bc this is what these characters do to me 🤣
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head in hands like "maybe i should have realized this about myself sooner" as i am surrounded by neon flashing signs that Very Clearly Indicate the thing i should have realized about myself sooner
#anyway i'm just mulling about the 'tism skdjfhgljhdfg#thinking about how i've been having a hard time on site with my internship because i struggle to make small talk with my superiors#and everything is uncomfortable and terrible all of the time and i feel so so out of my depth#but talking with my university superior about the methodology of our profession#has me feeling like i'm playing just dance on extreme and i'm nailing every single beat w#like quite literally is like one of those rhythm games where when you get a combo it plays a cool sound effect#and i'm playing so well the sound effects are overlapping and the screen is just an explosion of stars w#so yeah i am. very comfortable talking academics and theory and things but. shit in social situations.#when i don't have that to rely on whoops#anyway it's just another thing on the incredibly long list of things i have building in my mind of#'why i should have realized i'm probably on the spectrum sooner'#the thrilling sequel to 'how did i go 20+ years without realizing i have ADHD' w#(speaking of)#(the way my ADHD has been leaping into the spotlight this week)#(biggest highlight was being jumpscared not once)#(not twice!!)#(but THREE times by food i had bought for myself)#(put down briefly)#(and then forgotten about for upwards of 30 minutes to 5 hours)#(like the other day i bought myself a little pastry on the way home as a congrats for surviving another week)#(and i put it on the table when i came inside)#(but i. forgot i did that. and went like 4 hours without even thinking about it)#(until i got up and left my room and saw the bag and went '! ! ! ! ! ! ! OH MY GO D MY PASTRY NOOOOOOO')#(the adhd and the autism . . . . they are attacking my ass . . . . . )
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still thinking about them
#zere did the fic and i went into a yakuoli tailspin#sorry but i had to make this i couldn't stop seeing it in my mind 😂😂#during the tag tailspin i was reminded of that massive yakuoli fic where eiden never openly states the poly nature of the clan#and yakumo freaks out about sexy oli dreams#yakumo self esteem so real in that fic. i can feel it. i can TASTE THE SELF DOUBT#anyone who's read that fic put ur hand up so i can high five u#i consider myself very lucky to stumble upon those massive slowburn establishing relationship fics that give me all the bg behind a pair#WHICH COINCIDENTALLY SEEM TO BE AT THE BEGINNING OF THE AO3 PAGES... IN EARLY 2022#SO. DURING THE STARTING FANDOM PHASE. THEY SLAPPED DOWN SOME LORE AND FOUNDATION FOR EACH PAIRING#and later we all filter in with PWPs and other tasty lil tidbits . like we're all working together. chronologically#a wiki of rarepair porn. building upon the fic blocks of our ancestors (2 years old)#olivine#yakumo#yakuoli
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ramblings on Li Ming (and Heart) and homosexuality
moonlight chicken has so many things to offer in terms of technical beauty and interesting themes but what i cannot stop thinking about is the different ways they approach homosexuality in the story.
we have Wen who has a rainbow flag on his desk and pictures of him and Alan on the wall. Wen, who openly flirts with Jim and has no qualms talking openly about his one night stand. Wen, whose step father knows about his sexuality and is close enough with him to discuss his love life.
Kaipa we don’t know too much about. But his mom knows and is supportive and some of the vendors and the chicken family seem to know. But if anyone was questioning in what reality this show is set with all the class discussion and corona featuring, his part of the story shows that homophobia exists and he is worried about how he fits in with his own family, the expectations of his mother and possible the awareness that he makes the family he has “different”.
Jim is arguably even more visibly gay than Wen in terms of what we see throughout the show. He opened the shop with his ex, they prayed at the temple together and even though he objected due to proprities sake eventually they loudly declared their love to each other and the whole neighbourhood knows. Wen somehow feels like he is living in the remnants of a bubble: his circle of friends seems very queer, his closest friend and the whole gym seem to be all part of that as well. This only might change now with him questioning his work and breaking up with Alan: some gatherings he won’t attend anymore apparently.
And finally, we have Li Ming. At school he doesn’t seem to open up to his classmates on most things and additionally is in the closet. While there wasn’t anything alluding to homophobic rethoric being spread at school we can see how the heteronormativity gets to him and feel that there must be good reason as to why no one knows. And it could just be how Li Ming is judging the situation based on vibes, we don’t know. His mother is or at least was homophobic but at the same time he is raised by his gay uncle who is surrounded by other gay people. And I love how it feels like this might have given him enough security to be comfortable with his own sexuality but how it also isn’t enough to shield him from the world at large.
With so many great shows coming out of Thailand and most of them getting more and more political it just feels so real and 2023 to me that Li Ming is part of a generation that knows who they are but still have to battle with the shadow that homophobia has cast way before they were born.
#moonlight chicken#i had this in my draft for a week now thinking if i'd get the time i could put this more leloquently but that was a lie as it turns out#might edit some stuff later#but for now i just have to write about how fantastic this show is for giving these varied realities of queer life#which are all influenced by their environment but also in the way the characters connect across generations#we don't know if him had a gay mentor who could've guided him#whereas li ming technically has him and his neighbourhood friends to reference#but li ming - understandibly so - seems more closeted than anyone else (minus Heart possigly)#in middle school everyone around me proclaimed how supportive they were of lgbt+ rights#but as soon as one guy came out he become the TALK of the school for weeks#he got reduced to his sexuality#and when he dated a girls some months after he got called attention seeking for coming out as gay before#and most people thought they were doing an open-minded thing#and despite knowing that i know that i am not the only queer kid who decided to not come out lest we'd become that talk of the whole school#and our dating lives scrutinized#even though all of us were super comfortable with who we are#and for me that was mostly the case because i had adult lesbian role models close to my family#so i knew i was good and that nothing strange was going on#but still - this othering made the school environment hostile enough to keep me in the closet#so yes - i am extremely delighted with how they depict this dynamic with li ming
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Kiss Me in Komorebi+ 🌸
[Episode Five] One Last Push!
Is our Bachelor tuckering out? Seems like all the energy of the night is finally getting to him! What better way to blow off some steam than some uber-competitive rounds of ping pong? (Julian won every single game, I'm not kidding!) Daniel feels calm and less "in the spotlight" around Julian, and though our Mr. Vance is still learning to relax into the performance anxiety of national television, I think he really appreciated these deep conversations with Dan!
@mattodore
[ Part 20/?? ] 🌹
included below: dan was actually and legitimately a sore loser djkhffg
#ts4#ts4 edit#ts4 screenshots#ts4 gameplay#ts4 challenge#ts4 bachelor challenge#;kmik#sim: daniel#julian vance by mattodore#||#dan is A CAT. you heard it here first folks...#he is all about platonic physical affection its like 'oh we waved at each other??? i'm puttin my arm around ur shoulders we're bros now'#some of our contestants haven't minded (i literally use their reaction to a bro bump/hip bump to gauge their receptiveness dkfdh bc DAN ...#(... dan does a lot of autonomous hip bumps its so embarrassing)#but julian is always down!!#the moment i gathered the guys together for gameplay for the night (to get an idea of what they'd do back at the manor)#daniel invited julian to a game of ping pong and NOBODY went upstairs with them it was... honestly a genuine one-on-one it was kinda awesom#dan wanted deep conversations out the ass and so i obliged kdhskdj#julian is a professional lawyer and his vibe is very much that he's presenting himself first and being himself second... not that he's not#genuine or putting on a face per se... but there is a safety to being “on” and aware 24/7#and dan (he's an ~*empath*~ dfjkhfd) senses that off of people like a bloodhound#he's like HMM... you're not... you're not being 100% urself what's wrong are u uncomfortable how can i help hm???#dan : absolutely nobody is allowed in my business farther than i let them swim but bitch i am#DIVING in the water if it means i can save you from drowning broh#(but also like if i'm drowning let me handle it i got this dont bother urself with saving me i wouldnt want you to worry :D)#(infuriating... I DIGRESS)#i hope he comes through here ;u; julian genuinely has my whole heart#and i love how comfortable he makes my dan feel~#also yes julian won every single match idk how he does it but this man KILLS at ping pong/beer pong#the only person who matches him is abhi i'm not kidding
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it's so significant that they meet when one of them is slowly dying
Stede uses his ostentatious wardrobe as a defense mechanism, he buries himself under layers of lace and bright colours, uses it to dazzle and distract, to appear confident and invulnerable. If you are hurt, over and over, there are two ways to deal with it: become invisible, try to blend in to make them forget you're even there. Or do the exact opposite, become extremely visible, become so flashy it's off-putting. Don't eat me I'm poisonous, the language of bullied kids everywhere. Confidence is practice, so practice.
It's a shield for him to hide behind. He is clamped up and closed-off, he is very guarded around others, around himself. He doesn't share his feelings and he keeps his physical body wrapped up and out of view - even in his nightclothes he's dressed in layers. He never willingly shows more than his face and hands (except once, right at the end). Hide yourself for long enough, and you believe it is imperative. There's something rotten at his core that he must take great care to conceal from the world; there is something wrong about his body that no one may ever see.
Ed though. Ed sees him like no one else has before. Sees him bared and more vulnerable than he has ever been, physically, emotionally. Sees him delirious with fever, speaking without any control over what he says, sees him unclothed and unguarded.
Nobody was ever suppose to see Stede like that. And had he had any say in that, this isn't how he would have met Ed the Pirate, and certainly not how he would have presented himself to Blackbeard.
He doesn't get any say in it this time, though. He's forced to let his guard down, something he can only do when he's unconscious; he's too terrified of the horrible, repulsive truth that will surely jump out at the first opportunity.
And then - nothing happens. Because here's the truth: There's nothing wrong with him. There's no great, terrible secret for Ed to uncover.
He's just a guy.
#I LOVE THIS SHOW#ppl r reblogging that post abt this scene i wrote a while back & it reminded me how absolutely perfect it was because#its the perfect way for them to meet!! no pretenses! no walls to put up no performances to maintain#OF COURSE stede immediately shows ed the auxiliary closet; the cats already out of the bag#because here's the truth: he's fine. he's absolutely fine. there's nothing to hide.#& of course this isnt the point where he realizes this but its the start#& OH GOD this was written for me like. tailored to my tastes specifically i love it soso so much#anyway dont mind me#our flag means death#stede bonnet#thoughts
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I know multiple of these are likely important to people, but I'm asking in terms of like - which of these do you tend to focus on the MOST, enjoy the most, that is most essential for you to actually care about the media, etc.?
(For example: someone finding "Relatability" most important would likely not enjoy a show much if they have trouble empathizing with the characters/relating to it, even if it were good otherwise. Or, someone might be able to overlook bad acting and ugly costumes, as long as the Character Dynamics are fun to them, because they value that more than Aesthetics- while for others, bad costumes would be a dealbreaker.)
Also feel free to reblog and explain your answer or more information in the tags- I've always been curious about people's relationships to media, how they conceptualize it/what they get out of it, how some people value some parts more than others, how that informs their overall taste and genres they may be more inclined towards, etc. :0c
#I was having a conversation with a friend about our favorite type of media and they said the reason they DON'T like historical or fantasy#media or etc. is because they can't imagine themselves being in those situations like it's too detached from anything that they can relate#to personally. they put themselves in the shoes of the characters and apparently like feel emotions while watching stuff and actually#get into the way the characters are feeling so they kind of judge how 'good' or 'bad' a show's writing/setting/etc. are by how it makes#them feel and if they think the characters reacted realistically based on what they were feeling in the moment/what in their head they#would be feeling if they were in the postion of the character. SO apparently the distance of it being in an unrelatable setting or too#detached from our reality makes it harder for them to relate to and less able to really engage with it on that level. WHEREAS I watch#things exclusively in a very like.. detached way?? I'm INTERESTED.. it's like im intellectually analyzing everyhting that's happening and#can be intrigued by events but it's not in an emotional way? More of like a distant 'intellectual curiosity'. Maybe the premise or the#aesthetics or something about it has piqued an interest for me to observe it. to see what it's like or how it plays out. how the idea#is executed or etc. But like.. I cannot remember EVER really relating to any character or situation or projecting onto a character#or having those sorts of feelings or investment in it. That is just not a central part of why/how I watch things or what I care about#BUT after this I was thinking maybe this is my disconnect? I do not seem to conceptualize media the way some other people do and I often#walk away with an entirely different take on things. etc. So I wonder if maybe it's part of how everyone values different things probably?#maybe I literally just watch stuff and percieve it from a different frame of mind that others. More of a like detached curiosity#vaguely bemused analysis mode. Instead of a 'I am deeply emotionally invested in this and am feeling for all the characters' mode#And also I bet people who care more about plot/story are also the people who mind spoilers. Whereas for me I literally seek out spoilers#intentionally because that element of 'suprise ooh what will happen next!' is not central at all to my enjoyment. I could know literally#everything that will happen and still can find it interesting to observe - since for me#that's not the point. I'd rather know the ending so I can determine whether I want to invest the time in it in the first place. etc.#ANYWAY!! If I had to choose - I would say I'm usually heavily focused on world details and aesthetics. With only a slight preference#towards characters individually being interesting. Group dynamics can sometimes be okay but I get tired of everything being about relations#hips and romance - especially when sometimes it seems to be like. people who could not stand on their own as a character/are fundamentally#boring otherwise lol. I would watch a series of just one guy locked in a closet talking to himself as long as he was interesting and saying#things that were amusing or notable for some reason lol. I actually tend to dislike plot because most 'plot heavy' things like action focus#ed shows ALWAYS feel to me like they're moving so fast just to get from one thing to another that I'm not getting enough details. Part of#why I tend to not like movies. the time limit makes them too quick. I need a 95 hour expostion dump of the history of the entire world#and a series of 17 episodes straight where a guy is trapped in a room & the audience is just psychoanalyzing him. hghj.. Maybe I find all#characters annoying/unrelatable bc people w my personality type make bad characters/are not often represented (or are done BADLY). so then#I'm just picking 'who is the LEAST insufferable? who could i study like a lab rat?' whilst my main focus is the worldbuilding&costumes lol
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with the year coming to a close, i hope that anyone who's reflecting about how the year went remembers to be kind and fair to themselves with how you evaluate the year as a whole.
i think there are definitely times when life throws things that are... Not So Great at you. whether if it's some external circumstance that surprised you, or maybe your mentality wasn't at it's best. i wish for anyone who's encountered those kinds of challenges to be able to triumph over them and be able to say that they got through it.
heck, it might still be a work in progress even though you've kept chipping away at it, and that's ok! the results will show themselves eventually as you work through it! and i hope that we can all remember to be patient with ourselves as we go through these processes (learning, healing, etc.), because damn, it can be frustrating when you feel like you're "not there yet."
knowing that life can be rough at times, i think it's unfair to yourself (and others) to discount and downplay any progress you've made this year- whether if it's something that you did for the first time, or maybe you came to a new understanding and insight that you didn't have in the previous year.
it's not to say that you should undermine the validity of your experience with hardship, but to take the time to remind yourself what makes life worth living. to recall what moments were the most satisfying to you- and use it to strengthen your resolve for the next year and beyond. no amount of hardship will ever take away from the fact that you deserve to have hope that things will get better.
i hope that looking back on the year, you don't leave out the things you cherish. that you can remember the good that came this year. whether if the small victories are things like meeting someone new, trying something out for the first time, or making some strides in a long-term project/obligation...!
i wish everyone a happy new year! may it be prosperous, and that your life can move in a direction that's close to what you want out of life. you're all going to do great! remember to congratulate yourself for what you did well! despite everything, you're still here, and that's wonderful. never forget that!
#lizzy speaks#hello everyone. i know that there are *checks calendar* still 20 days left of december and 2023#but i've had a lot of strong emotions and feelings i've had to sort through as i've been thinking about how 2023 went for me#so a lot of what i've written here comes from the perspective of someone in their early 20s#it's like... a crash and burn from when you were a teenager thinking that you know everything#and realizing how big the world is and how many responsibilities there are#all while a feeling of overwhelm looms over as you try to sift your way through the world and adjust your understanding of it#for me i've definitely had an underlying thought that 'you should have your shit together by now why aren't you there yet'#and it's! not motivating! at all! to think that way. and it's made me more than ever want to be a friend to myself. to extend a patient-#kind voice to myself that reminds me that others are also trying to navigate these feelings and to accept that i'm not going to have an-#instantaneous understanding of how one goes about adulthood. and neither will they. even if they look 'put together.'#like... these people have also undergone similar stresses and along the way figured out how to navigate through that space#and personally i've found peace in knowing that there are people who are older than me. trusting that they've dealt with these things too i#some shape or form and that them living... being here.. is proof that we shall be fine in the end and that we will move past what plagues-#our mind. there's definitely been some... anger i've had this year that. school didnt teach me these things or skills!! i was so mad lol#but hey if we are little guys who are living on planet earth for the first time we shouldn't condemn ourselves to an unrealistic standard-#of going through life and being able to instantly do everything 'correctly' and know how everything works#i'm still working on improving that patience... and also trying to put in the work to understand these things.#in the midst of a very tough week for me i was tempted to say that 'nothing happened this year it was not productive'#but then i was like. that's. objectively not true if you just look at other things. also theres worth in life outside of 'productivity'#...i think i passed 20 tags at this point. but like. my favorite thing about 2023 was meeting so many cool awesome people!#who would've known that funny lil squid game could bring so many connections and friendships i cherish!#thank you so much! for being a part of my life and changing me for the better! for giving me many fond memories!#and i'm very grateful to anyone who supported me and my art this year... for sticking around even though i wished i could do more#it means the world to me knowing that there's proof that i exist and have touched someone's life in a positive way! thank you! truly!#ANYWAY. happy early new year. i hope everyone can nourish a friend in their head that extends acceptance and patience to themselves#as we try and make sense of the world together. there will be things that we don't understand yet! but one day we will! and it'll be like#wow! look how far i came! i'm okay! i'm alive! yipee! thank you for reading this post i made to get my feelings out! have a nice day!
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#random personal stuff#I sent a picture of the latest addition to our bulletin board to the VP of Academic Affairs#and she emailed me back tonight saying that she has an email set to go out Monday that addresses this#and I am very grateful and this should be addressed and I'm impressed that she's doing something about it#I should not feel guilty about this but...that's what's going on right now#it's the same feeling I'd get as a kid after telling on someone and seeing them get in trouble#you feel like scum and you can feel them hating you#I can imagine the comments I'm going to (over)hear on Monday#and what happens if the person responsible puts two and two together#and then I become The Enemy and whatever p o l i t i c a l label he wants to slap on me?#anyway that's a Monday problem#and I guess the best I can do is act like I know nothing about anything and mind my own business
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When we talk about nostalgia we generally talk about our childhood, but what’s something fairly recent-ish you’re somehow already nostalgic for? 🌈
#in 2021 I started watching Game of Thrones with a friend/guy I was kind of seeing. I don't miss him or the rest of the friend group#but I get nostalgic for the drive to the city where he lived and how we'd drive around lisening to music and finding some place cool to eat#and then sit on the couch watching a show that was absolutely blowing my dragon-loving mind#also when animal crossing new horizons first came out in 2020 and I was off work and stuck in the apartment and would play AC and watch#old shows for hours#slightly further back but I get nostalgic for when I was like 20 and would stay up until like 3am playing Fallout 4#because it was the best thing I had in my life#additionally unrelated but the other day my BF and I were sitting on our patio feeding the geese and he put his arm around me and said#''we'll miss this one day''#and it made me smile because I say/think that all the time and he didn't know that
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I am meant to be in bed rn because I have work tomorrow and have been at work all day today and am going to regret being awake but I could not get this out of my head. After reading and re-reading the amazing analysis by @lemonisntreal I’ve decided my new mini project is getting a canon height for all the Sing 1 & 2 characters. Going off Lemon’s post, I set the guy’s height for an average 5′10″. Supposing he is of average height and not extra tall or small, I then adjusted the picture of him so that it fit the 5′10″ scale. Then I lined up the Sing characters who appear with him, adjusting their positions so that their feet are equal with his and everyone is starting off from 0, as perspective can make characters look taller or shorter depending on where they stand relative to him. They are already scaled to the same size as him. Then measuring their height from their feet up to the heads - not counting things like Miss Crawly’s hat or Ash’s quills. I did two measurements for Johnny because it’s a bit more unclear where his hair ends and head begins. This is still not perfect as the chart leaves me interpreting the numbers a little, but as best as I can read:
Ash is slightly below halfway between 2′5″ and 2′11″ (the difference is 6 inches, half of 6 is 3, so just under half would be +2 inches from the minimum). So I put her at 2 feet 7 inches.
Miss Crawly is slightly below halfway between 2′11″ and 3′5″. So I put her at 3 feet 1 inch. However she is hunched over most of the time so she probably appears shorter.
Gunter is just over halfway between 3′11″ and 4′5″ (the difference is again 6 inches, half is 3, so just over half would be +4 inches from the minimum). So I put him at 4 feet 3 inches.
Buster is just over halfway between 1′11″ and 2′5″. So I put him at 2 feet 3 inches.
Johnny, up to the top of his hair, is 5′5″ almost exactly. Maybe like 5′4.9″ if you want to be precise. Up to his brow ridge, he’s just under 4′11″. So I put Johnny between 5 feet 5 inches and 4 feet 10 inches, depending on how much of his head is just tuft.
@lemonisntreal you eyeballed it pretty damn accurately!! Also full credit for this post goes to Lemon because this is just piggybacking off their brilliant idea, they thought of it first!!
Oh and I absolutely WILL be doing all the named characters. It’s going to be a long process making sure the characters are scaled correctly but I‘ll do it tomorrow and just add to this post.
#illumination puts out a 10second clip and we all lose our collective minds I LOVE it#when the adrenaline hits at midnight and u have to be up at 7 but u have sing analysis to make#can't wait to get started on the other characters but I already predict it will be a pain in the bum#sing#sing 2#sing 2016#sing movie#buster moon#sing ash#sing gunter#miss crawly#sing johnny#sing headcanons#or sing canon in this case??#sing buster#sing fandom
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