Man, you ever just... You ever just start pacing and then stop and sit down to write and what comes out is the most raw villain monologue you've ever heard?

Aspd culture is your favored person telling you you can't have it because you're too loving

(Like yes i am but only with you)

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I was feeling particularly hopeless about my undiagnosed chronic illness tonight so I did a bunch of research and went down avenues I haven’t before and I’m freaking out bc I think I may have found it!!! I really think I found a causative diagnosis it feels true

ASPD culture is needing to put all the cards out on the table with a possible romantic partner or none at all, no in between. Either they know everything about my ASPD and how it affects me or they know nothing

aspd-culture is

my new shameful fixation since getting sick this week is house md. there’s something about a pathetic man with big beautiful brown eyes full of the sadness only found in men who’ve gone through three marriages before age 40 and have a homoerotic bestfriendship to keep them going that is like crack to me…dr. wilson please save me

seeing something list “Guilt and shame at not being able to keep clean” as an ADHD symptom...bitch what if i dont feel anything about it? Certified to not have ADHD because I revel in the chaos. I leave something on the floor and forget about it and when it finally renders in my vision later I’m like “Fuck yeah!!! Environmental Storytelling!!!!!”

it's been a long day pass me toccata and fuge in d minor.

top 10 funniest mental illness bits in my life is getting into arguments with my therapist repeatedly over not getting a diagnosis for something debilitating me and then going to college and taking an online test (with her encouragement, and on a zoom call WITH HER talking over every question and its accuracy to the condition etc) that says You kind of have this condition. and she was like yeah you might have tendencies. and despite literally insulting her over this very topic before i just go Oh okay that makes sense ^_^ and then i no longer believe i have these tendencies at all. girl WHAT ?

I probably have a personality disorder but also the diagnostic criteria for cluster b personality disorders are fucking bullshit, so like, nah.

well friends I have officially joined the Chronic Pain Club, it’s not great to be here, there’s a chance it’s only temporary but my gut says ‘hmm many doubts’ and I won’t really know for a couple of weeks anyway until my doctors appointment. So. Been navigating that for four days and well we’re navigating at least

my christ, so this morning i had a nice walk/run with my dog….. and then a much less fun walk duringthe hottest part of the day, coming home with my dad after the car started smoking and broke down on a major thoroughfare

it was stupid lucky that we were already turning into a lot and there was a pep boys there but it turns out the several repairs needed are expensive and also can’t occur until like wednesday so we took the bus for the first time in forever — the nicer bus doesn’t go to our side of the neighborhood but it’s a better experience and the rest of the way was downhill so we chose that one

Not gonna lie guys I feel pretty depressed right now so I don’t feel like coming back soon 😭 I am not deleting this account it’s never gonna happen, but I need a break right now, even tho I miss you all so much 🥲 Ily all and I hope you are happy and healthy 💕

Please use my tag for your content so I can reblog them all whenever I come here for like 5 minutes bfksbd -> #Korimilook!

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the unbelievable gall of the stief telling anyone else including her own fictional characters to get help. pot kettle motherfucker!!!!

Love having to plan out and psych myself up before going to my gp to try and convince her to do her job properly (actually bother to try and diagnose what’s wrong instead of throwing meds at the symptoms and/or dismissing me outright)

dont feel the need to publish this if you dont want to, but mayhaps consider an autism evaluation?

Technically, I could argue I already have an autism diagnosis bc last time I was assessed for dyslexia my results came back marking me with: anxiety and aspergers, along with my inability to read lol

My PC crashed while I was playing The Sims 3 and it turns out I have mega RAM issues (not sure if caused by that stupidly unoptimised game (would be very on brand) or something else I didn't notice because I have four 16GB sticks and haven't done any resource-intense work with the PC in a while) and I'm currently trying to figure out what's wrong, how it happened, how I can fix it and how I can prevent it happening again.

Shout out to EVERY article telling me to test my RAM sticks in another PC, like I just HAVE ONE hanging around. To be fair, I am a massive hoarder and have many old devices but surely the POINT of having a PC is that you just replace components? Who HOARDS PCs? Whoever they are, I guess I need to get on their level.

And NO I am absolutely NOT going to hit up my few local friends who have PCs and ask them to dismantle their work tools so I can shove in my possibly fucked up components and see if anything explodes (exaggeration, obviously, but still).