#or maybe i'll just write an incoherent ramble and post it at 4 am who knows
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Yay here we go...for the THATW song ask game, Battle Cries for questions 1, 2, and 8?
What was your first impression of this song (and has it changed)?
oooo god I really really wish I could remember! I was listening to the album on shuffle when I first listened to TAD (blasphemous, really, I have to tell everyone I recommend this band to now to listen in order sdfdsfds), so I don't remember when exactly I heard it first or what I thought about it. I know that I heard it before I heard Pruning Shears, so it was my first exposure to the brilliant double vocals. I think, like a lot of THATW songs, it took a moment to grow on me, but now it's one of my top 3 on the album. Battle Cries my beloved 馃挏
2. How does this song make you feel?
Is "everything" a viable answer? 馃槄 Tbh, I think it's hard for me to pin down a specific feeling for this song, cause I've yet to truly process all of it. I feel fatigued alongside Madeleine's character as she sings "I'm dolled up love, don't I deserve to just walk away?" but also invigorated by "this isn't a break up, dear heart, it's a season finale," yet also fond and nostalgic over "We were gods, we were kids," and every time Joey whispers "I'm doing fine" at the end, I feel like all the tension in my body is gone. In general, this song just makes me feel some kind of positive.
8. Do you visualize any colors, images, or scenes when listening to this song?
Oooohhh... the most prominent visualization for this song for me is probably an art gallery鈥攂oth just in the lyric "from the back of the gallery," but also because one of the strongest trains of thought I've had about this song is how it talks about performance (applause, plays, fictions, "sing your notes, play your part, then we'll leave). The idea of being looked at by people, growing up on the "stage of life" and never really being able to duck behind the curtain. I see the characters in this song both as people in the crowd at this art showing (idk why I see Madeleine as the artist and Joey as a friend coming to support her? "You've a knack for applause from the back of the stalls" maybe), and also as the people inside of the paintings. They're like mirrors of a sort that allow the characters to reflect on who they've been, who they are now, and who they have the potential to be.
#i have soooo much more i could say abt battle cries based on that one visual alone but this is getting Long#i still wanna write smth breaking down tad songs through the lens of performance and external expectation so. maybe i'll include more dsfsd#or maybe i'll just write an incoherent ramble and post it at 4 am who knows#lmaooo i missed tad rambling tysm for sending these questions and making the ask game!!#love having tad brainrot#ask#battle cries
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this is a athousandbyeol appreciation post.
you make me feel emotions that I've deep down locked up and buried your writings brings out the raw and pure ethereal even human emotions in me and for someone who has gone numb for years now I feel so completed and (I am not so good with words I donot how to express shit beautifully) you know like I've been given a second chance at life after giving up
Weeks back when I discovered your work i read all your works in a day (FB realted) I even read them inbetween while rewatching abaab to give me a much more heavier side of the series in words and not in thoughts
Every paragraph is just soo beautifully constructed that I shed my demons with every line I read it holds so many emotions and feelings and rawness and pureness and love and heartbreak and happiness and literally every little and big human feelings
You know like how gold doesn't dissolve in anything but aqua regia you are one of my aqua regia your writings melt me and make me feel emotions that I thought I'd lost forever all these years
I am so in love with your writings and I am also proud of you and I hope you have all the best things in the world and hope you keep and grow your writing thank you thank you for all of it
#my rambling doesn't do justice to what I want to appreciate about you
#I woke up and chose feeling things today
#hope you have a lovely day week month year
#hi its me again that one rambling cute op
#susu na
it's almost 4 am here and i'm fighting back the smile and tears.
i'm sorry for every experience you went through in life that hindered your ability to feel. reading this, i'm grateful my words helped you experience the wonders of feeling again. maybe not much. maybe not that profoundly. but i'm glad it could help. i'm always insecure about my writing style. i've received some comments saying it's too much. doesn't make sense most of the time. overwhelming. yet, i'm thankful that my stories work differently on you. i'm happy to know you could feel.
oh, my... why did you read my stories ahh :( and going as far as to read everything forcebook-related works i published? i'm digging a hole as i speak. i'll sink into that dungeon for life. i get nervous whenever people read my stories because i'm not a native english speaker and i write in lapslock (which can be discomforting to many). so... i'm overwhelmed i'm happy. and undeserving. to know this. to know someone like you read my works and enjoy them. to receive kind words and a very long comment which i don't get often. it feels weird. almost.
You know like how gold doesn't dissolve in anything but aqua regia you are one of my aqua regia your writings melt me and make me feel emotions that I thought I'd lost forever all these years
i'm shedding tears... i don't know what else to say. i'm happy. i'm thankful. i'm elated. every good feeling there is out there for you.
oh. please, don't be too in love with my stories though because, at one point, i'll disappoint you :( it happens all the time and i'm just scared to feel attached to your praises. but for now, i'll embrace your love for my stories by trying to write with sincerity and (lots of incoherent) feelings.
this is one of the best things i've ever heard as a writer;
I am also proud of you and I hope you have all the best things in the world and hope you keep and grow your writing thank you thank you for all of it.
thank you. this means more than the world to me.
i'm proud of you too. thank you for being you. <3
#op... i hope one day i can formally show my gratitude to you#i'm thankful to receive such kind words from someone like you#thank you for everything#i hope my stories can be beneficial to you in one way or another#have a lovely day week month year too <3#god bless.#su su!#thanks for the ask ^^#personal#na answers
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A Window to the Past pt. 2
Thoughtful Thursday
Today is another dip into the well of my Drafts folder, pulling up a post I had started working on in 2013 I think. I like the idea so much that I'll even include an updated version of this particular game afterward.
2013 Pabulum wrote:
(Inspired by Parsifal, today I bring you this look into the female experience.)
You're a straight guy on OkCupid, and you see a picture of a cute girl. Score! You look at her pictures, read through her profile (optional), maybe skim a few match questions (optional), and attempt to write a message that you're sure will get a response. But what happens after that? Once you hit that dreaded SEND button and your carefully-planned words go streaming across the interwebs to her computer or mobile device? Let's go on a little journey of the imagination.
The scene opens on your lovely protagonist, who is absently tooling around the internet, more than likely bored. "Hmm. I haven't checked OkCupid in a couple of days. I wonder how that's going..."
A few clicks, and there's that welcoming blue page, with it's insistent little pink numbers along the side. 5 new messages. "Well damn," she thinks, "I guess I should see what they say."
Message #1
Hey how r u?
Seriously?
Message #2
I know I have been sitting on your profile for a while, I was trying to think of something witty but I am blank. I want to meet you but have no idea what to say to make that happen! I read your answers and I would love to see if you are at all interested. I know you are young but you are beautiful and smart and we don't pick what attracts us! I can think better when I am face to face and able to look in a persons eyes. I'm rambling but just know that you aren't going to find anyone on this site that is a better man or person than me and I want you! I lost my leg on Oct 5th so you need to know that. I do have pics but have to send them.
I'm puzzled as to why he would think that this type of message is effective. It is almost desperately hopeful, yet somehow still self-deprecating.
He is 53 years old, lives in the next state, and is a 75% match. He has no pictures (a Cardinal sin of online dating), and his profile sections are all one sentence each. Under the Six things I could never live without section, he lists "a woman's warm body". The age range of girls that he is looking for extends 28 years below - but only 7 above - his own.
Message #3
Good evening beautiful!
Oh good. It's that guy who messages me in a strangely familiar way 3 or 4 times a month, in spite of the fact that I've never communicated with him except perhaps to politely turn him down. I decide to take a look at his profile, to see if maybe I can get a clue as to why he persists.
He's 15 years older than me, only a 65% match (23% enemy, which is the part that concerns me). His profile pictures all involve him fishing, golfing, shooting, or at least wearing athletic apparel - all chosen to make him look more youthful and active.
His profile itself is rambling and sometimes incoherent with its lack of punctuation and formatting. The first line has him claiming that he's "not your typical guy", which is my second least-favorite thing to hear. He lists off a lot of sports that he enjoys, and uses the phrase "on like Donkey Kong".聽 He misspells the names of several actors and bands that he claims to enjoy, and finds a way to mention golf in every single section of his profile.
He has answered no more than 50 questions, so it is nearly impossible to tell if the Match Percentage is even accurate. The age range of girls that he's looking for extends 11 years below - but only 5 years above - his own. He claims to be looking for "active fun adventures", but every single one of the eight similar users that OkCupid recommends to me as I'm viewing his profile is listed as more adventurous.
I close his profile, knowing he'll send another message next week.
Message #4
Hi :) My names Jacob. You're really gorgeous. I'd love to talk and get to know each other. Sorry for not having a photo up, I'm just not up for putting my personal life out there for all to see. I'll gladly send you a photo or two if you would like. Let me hear from you.
Scoff. It bothers me when people don't have pictures, and moreso when they say it's because they're not comfortable putting it out there.
2022 Pabulum writes:
We'll do some matches.
Profile #1
25 years old. Lists his astrological signs first (Leo, Taurus, Aries), then his MTBI type (INTJ-T). Calls himself spiritual.
I can't.
Profile #2
26. In an ENM relationship with "a cool guy". His profile is short, but presents him as laid-back and open to new things. He has a picture of himself wearing a bow tie.
Dammit, okay. Swipe Right.
No match (yet).
Profile #3
39. "Fun easy going guy with a great sense of humor. Up for adventure and excitement!"
This is literally all his profile says. 1 car selfie, and 3 selfies at interesting places. Supposedly 83% match but he's only answered 16 match questions so that doesn't mean much. The ones he has answered indicate he's only looking for hookups, no interest in an emotional connection, and describes himself as a "Centrist".
Pass.
Profile #4:
36. Under self-summary, he's written "take a fukn walk 馃枙" so uh. Don't mind if I do.
Profile #5:
29. Describes himself as "laid-back". His pictures are almost all identical and they don't look very recent. Lots of match questions but a really narrow profile.
Meh.
What are messages up to?
Message #1
"Hi! Welcome back to singledom, I'll be your tour guide."
31, dirty hippie vibes. For the question "How long do you want your next relationship to last?" He's answered "The rest of my life". Also that he thinks video games/computer games are "childish" but enjoys watching sports on television. Lists Mondrian's Composition #2 with Red, Blue, and Yellow as his favorite work of art -
an automatic disqualification.
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