#oh you're so going to regret this
Note
>:33333
OH MY GOD HELLO???
4 notes
·
View notes
Text
Imagine wasting your time making 15 FAKE ACCOUNTS JUST TO DO THIS HELPPPP
This is literally the definition of harassment but ok continue being obsessed Panda or like one of your friends or something
"You are becoming a bully" dawg you are a racial eugenicist
#WHAT#Potaxiepower#I'm never deactivating this account so good luck wasting your time on me#I don't regret being mean to panda at all and never will :)#She's a racial eugenicist#Victim blamer of a child#And doxxed personal information about us#Hope this helps#Panda if you're going#To make people's sensitive family history a spectacle for people to gossip about#Be prepared for me to call you greasy at the very least !#Panda literally used the fact that I've been abused as a male to call me a feminazi to her friends#But oh I should feel sorry for her now that she's facing the consequences of her actions#*abused by a male#Can't believe I came back from work to see this pathetic attempt at silencing me#Maybe don't be a pussy about it and use your actual account#Hope Panda saw those messages I senr6#Sent her#Those messages#Don't amount to ANYTHING she did to us
23 notes
·
View notes
Text
okay. see. the thing is. the cricketing gear isn't just a silly set of clothes the tardis picked out. it's to clue you in that we're dealing with posh edwardian man levels of repression here. that's who five is.
#and you gotta keep this in mind for every emotional moment in his era. calling tegan's departure unsentimental... like sure. ok.#bleak might be a better descriptor tho.#like they're literally standing in a room full of dead bodies. that's what they're stepping over.#it's quick yeah bc tegan's on the verge of tears and handling it like ripping off a bandaid.#bc if she lets the doctor speak she'll be convinced to stay and she can't bear it anymore!#the way five oh so slowly raises his hand to take hers and the look on his face?#the way he runs after her and says 'no no don't leave not like this!'#that's crazy!!! and then he compares it to the circumstances that made him leave gallifrey!!#an ep later he describes himself as 'obsessed and depressed' over it!!#there's a reason it goes [tegan's departure] -> [turlough's departure] -> [five dies] in the course of three serials!#donna voice it's like you're staggering along. once tegan leaves he's hurtling towards his end.#and tegan hasn't changed her mind when she turns back around the corner. she's watching the tardis dematerialize as a final goodbye.#'brave heart tegan' (the thing he always says to you) isn't what you say when you made a rash decision & are regretting it.#it's to steel yourself bc you know you made the right decision despite how hard it is.#and yes he takes her at her word bc five sees everyone on a countdown clock to the day they're going to leave him. he expects it.#:(#dw
22 notes
·
View notes
Text
One thing I love about Ashton and Fearne is that Ashton very aggressively projects onto her all the things they want to be; blasé, confident, effortlessly loved, capable of shaking off anything. They see the best, brightest parts of her but it's an admiration that often obscures her real fears and sensitivities! She's not just the impulsive, flirty fae, she's really scared for her friends. She's a sheltered young woman who's never truly lost someone they loved before. Ashton connects instinctively with her whimsy, her need for challenge, the bouts of spite, the urge to shake things up, the "level of crazy that I'm kind of into" but he can't grasp the degree to which she'd be messed up if he died in front of her. Coming off of so many years of nihilistic self-pity, it's hard to recognize that your actions impact other people, and I think part of the reason they wanted Fearne is because they thought that exploding in front of her wouldn't be as bad as doing so in front of the others. Just take his stuff, it's fine!
(It's not fine.)
#critical role spoilers#ashton greymoore#fearne calloway#it's not quite manic pixie dream girl but it's in the same clade#both ashton and fearne have very maladjusted senses of each other!#they both think the other one is a little more down and cool than they are#so the entire dynamic is this one-upsmanship of playful teasing that only rarely breaks the surface#two people who are both going 'oh you're insane i need to step up my game!' is not a recipe for good choices#but in ashton's case he's genuinely bottled up his vulnerabilities under seven layers of redirection#because after the first couple of life-ruining horrors you have to have some fortifications#whereas fearne is for the first time in her life being confronted by the possibility of losing everything#and is having new real boy prime material plane feelings like grief and regret and guilt#so ashton's 'hey want to do something crazy this afternoon?' *explodes*#is hugely damaging for her
29 notes
·
View notes
Text
ugly maths.
i hate maths, right. i don't usually like numbers, and if i do like numbers it's gotta be an 8 or a 48 and nothing else.
thing is, i've recently caught myself doing maths again. ugly maths. the kind of maths that, really, i've been trying to avoid as much as possible because, well, it's ugly!
you... wanna see?
okay, fine... but don't say i didn't warn you!
ugly, see? look at all those numbers! not a 48 in sight!
huh? what's that? you don't see what i'm on about? oh... oh! hang on, lemme just—
better? yes? no? no? okay, what if i—
mmh, yes. ugly numbers. see it now? can you see why they're ugly?
here, i can make it worse.
these numbers are ugly. the maths they make me do is ugly.
now i'll level with you: the worst ones by far are the yellow numbers. the maths they make me do it the ugliest.
why ugly?
because it makes me ugly.
those numbers turn me into not only a suddenly number-obsessed fool, but a fool who also cannot understand these numbers and what they mean and why i feel like they reflect on me and my ability.
87, 75.
the thoughts are as follows:
• the orange numbers are big, so why are you being ugly about the yellow ones? you should be happy with what you have. so many nice big numbers! not everyone receives that.
• is it that there are two different audiences for these two different fics? perhaps. they are quite different works, with different appeals, and different themes. maybe you are reading too much into it.
• why are you obsessing over numbers anyway? you don't like maths! you left maths behind when you were 16, put it down!
okay, okay, fine! i'll put the maths down. right here, in fact!:
that 87 was an 83 at the start of the year. the 6161 it is attached to was a 5453.
4, 708.
ugly maths.
the 75 is a nice number. in fact, compared to 87, it is beautiful, radiant, enchanting. at the start of the year, 75 was 48. wow. now that is one sexy number!
27.
mmmm.
6161, 1061.
5100.
87, 75.
12.
mmmm.
you know, my most favourite comment left recently on a fic of mine was 2 characters long: :(
it made me :)
well, actually, it made me >:) because it was left in response, presumably, to one of the key scenes in a new chapter which left the exact impression on someone that i hoped it would.
they must be the only one who reacted like that, though.
1.
have i mentioned that that 87 and 75 include author responses?
i won't try to do more maths, there. it might not end well for me. the maths is making me tired enough as it is, and i have an early start tomorrow.
oh! but, that being said, i have another set of ugly numbers to show you, so keep 87 and 75 in mind.
ready?
838, 245.
(want a hint? the green numbers!)
838, 87. 245, 75.
9.6, 3.3.
ugly maths. it's ugly again, see? i don't like it. i'm seeing numbers within numbers within numbers, and i can't seem to stop!
the numbers make me ask new questions:
• why is it not good enough?
• people seem to engage more with one fic over the other, so shouldn't you prioritise?
• is all this maths this really good for you?
no, it isn't.
i want to avoid ugly maths. ugly maths makes me want to tear my hair out. it makes me want to start from scratch. it makes me want to grab someone and scream. it makes me want to cry and press a button that has tempted me many times before when the numbers become too ugly to bear.
ugly maths turn me into an ugly person.
ugly maths make me obsessive, paranoid, anxious, regretful, vindictive, spiteful, alone.
i hate maths. i hate numbers, just like, it feels, the numbers hate me.
#helia rants#cw vent#i'm okay but i'm not#this has been playing on my mind over the last couple of weeks#it's aimed at the sky rather than anyone here#i know i'm not the best myself as commenting. i justify it to myself by affirming i don't read much. which i don't.#since the start of the year i have tried to comment on everything i have read#bearing in mind i may also dm someone rather than comment because i want to scream and ramble about their fic more personally#that being said. i know i'm not the only one who finds themselves doing ugly maths#and in turn starting to feel uglier too#i don't like looking at the numbers#i was doing well at the start of the year#but as i open my drafts and look to a new chapter and at the notes i wrote#i can't stop myself from opening the fic. from seeing where it's at. from seeing if it's changed. from checking my inbox to see if...#if only...#what it's meant is that i've come to a point where a fic i loved has become exactly that: a fic i loved. past tense#the other fic is still a fic i love. but i know deep down that that is tied to the numbers too#i hate that this is what i've become#because i have tiny fics. fics with 50 hits and maybe 1 comment. and i love them. i still love them#but when it comes to the big ones. the multi-chapters. the hefty fics. after a point all i see are numbers#and those numbers have come to determine both my happiness and fulfilment as a writer#and so i am ugly. i am sad. i am pathetic.#and i don't know how to stop.#helia's stuff#this was meant to save back into my drafts. i was editing tags. tumblr decided it should post. so... so be it.#also this is not an attention thing if anyone dares go 'oh but you're a good writer uwu' i might do something we'll all regret#this is also not a 'ffs comment on my fics will you 😒' hell no#it's just about me. and my issue. and my unhealthy relationship with these fucking numbers.#gotta get this shit out of my head somehow :)
4 notes
·
View notes
Text
sometimes you miss your ex bestie and then you remember they hetsplained your queerness to you and then friend-dumped you almost as soon as they got a serious partner and it's like.
yeah nah. missing them? wanting to try and patch things up? that's the devil talking.
#tbh my only *real* regret at this point is not calling them the fuck out for the hetsplaining bullshit#i was planning to and then as we were talking i realized i had zero investment in the friendship anymore and it wasn't worth the argument#i can't remember the convo that well bc i was so thrown but they made a comment about me being asexual and uh. buddy i'm not?#you were literally there for me going through five different labels in two years? we've had multiple conversations about this??#in retrospect we were just absolutely talking past each other for a while before the formal friend breakup#i do not know why ppl get so combative about when you're saying literally the same thing but diff wording but only THEIR wording is right#also: main character energy so off the charts that idk how they get through life like that#not everything has to be Something. things can just be.#feels weird to keep getting annoyed about this bc i don't miss *them* but i do miss having a best friend#i do feel pretty fucking betrayed by getting told that they thought of me as a pseudo romantic partner even if unintentional#to claim the friend breakup had nothing to do with their new partner and then say THAT? oh fuck all the way right off.
7 notes
·
View notes
Note
MICKEY HI THANK U FOR UR TAGS ON MY TOJI FIC THE SUBTOP READER ONE!! ILY BACK BTW!! AND I HAVE A MESSAGE TO PASS ON TOJI SAID HE'S WAITING IN BED FOR ROUND 2 <333
- @minnaci
(also feel free not to answer this publicly if u don't want to AGSJDKDKFJ I'M SENDING U A HUG!)
HIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!! PLEASE LISTEN I NEED YOU TO KNOW THAT THAT FUCKING FIC WAS LIFE-CHANGING OKAY!!! PLEAAAAAASEEEE I HAD TO TAKE A PAUSE AFTER EVERY FEW SENTENCES BC I WAS JUST GETTING FLUSTERED OVER IT LMAOOOO I GENUINELY GENUINELY LOVED IT SOOOOOOO MUCH THANK YOU FOR WRITING THATTT MWAH MWAH MWAH<33333
#OH WAIT AND TOJI MY BABY MY SWEET I AM SO READY FOR ROUND TWO#OPEN WIDE!!!#SAY “AAAAAAAAH”!!!!#i regret answering this rn#just as i'm going to sleep#i'm kinda#....#bonering up just by thinking about it what the fuck#but yeah i hope you're having such a sexy day!!!!#ily#never stop#or do stop bc yk no pressure#i will always be here for you#and i will always love you#stay hard!#friends!!
5 notes
·
View notes
Note
I'm mad at my best friend bc she made fun of me when I fangirling overenthusiastically about a fixation. she likes the thing too, sometimes she just likes to bully me for fun. and it is all in good fun like 98% of the time, but this time I've decided to be offended
may I have some bad advice on how I should get my revenge please?
poison. that's option 1.
option 2 is next time you see her, just move your lips like you're talking but don't actually say anything. i think that would actually be meaner.
#oh you disdain my thoughts and feelings so much? okay well you can just not have them then.#this works best if you're in a group of people and you talk normally to everyone but her. otherwise she might think she's going crazy#which is not what we're going for. we're above that. we're here for the noble art of Passive Aggressively Making You Regret#That One Specific Thing That You Did To Me#it only works if she knows what you're doing and why#if there's any concern that she might not get it just default to option 1.#asks#anon#dear imprudence
5 notes
·
View notes
Photo
“Forget a footnote or a chapter— I want the whole fucking history book!”
A moodboard for my @infamous-if mc Rorie Rose, she/her, lead singer of electronic/synth rock band rising//sinking.
#i need to make a playlist but the bands vibes are very much in line with infected mushroom's cover of black velvet#no but genuinely infamous is the funnest if demo i've read in a long time & i'm super excited for more#think i'm gonna go for seven's route first ft not realizing you're in love until it's too late#or maybe g... or august... idk yet actually i love every single ro so far *sobs*#misc facts abt rorie: Knows she's one of the best singers around you can't tell her otherwise.#says shit like 'oh come on i was /born/ to be a rock star it's basically written on my birth certificate'#but is actually really nice & polite lmao she's just very self assured#def told seven they'd be bigger than the beatles & was only half kidding#the r & s in the band name is the name is absolutely a reference to rorie & seven & she voted to keep it a duet#always ends up taking her shoes off on stage b/c she always wears heels & regrets it afterward b/c she's a jump all over the stage singer#loves to be a pest to orion but really respects him & his opinion deep down#low-key a flirt but doesn't really realize it + is very physically affectionate. Will sit on nearly anybody's lap if no chair is available#(she doesn't sit in chairs properly anyway lol. always wants to be on the counter or something)#(*kitty foreman voice* she likes to feel tall)#toes the fashion line between bohemian & whimsigoth- if it's got a skirt & looks like something a 70s era groupie would have worn? she's in#has multiple ear piercings mirrored nostrils a septum & a vertical labret. silver girlie.#idk just random little bits! slowly fleshing her out & obvi more will come as the story progresses ^^#if: infamous
9 notes
·
View notes
Text
Just remembering when I was waiting for bf to get his tatt done and looking at the magazines, they had one of those extreme body mods magazines which was interesting. I have never understood why people get this kind of body mod, but I'm trying to work on being more open minded. And from this magazine I can see clearly that the ethos is 'my body is mine and I should be allowed to choose to do these things to it', which resonates. And as a trans person I would hope I wouldn't forget that transphobes call transition 'irrepairable damage' and self harm. (I can remember watching those early 2000s documentaries where surgery for transition was basically framed as an extreme body mod to be looked at for shock value.)
So I'm looking at this magazine, all open minded like, and then suddenly one of the models (who was being interviewed for something else, like he had his dick split in two or something) just casually is like oh yeah I have tonnes of different types of swastika tattooed on my arm. And sure enough, then there's a pic of like...20 swastikas done in different ways all on one area of his arm.
:[
#....i don't even know what i'm trying to say really#i think maybe just that scenes where being extreme is celebrated tend to go in bad ways very quickly#to be clear this was like a back issue. I think it was from the mid-late 2000s. Things were 'edgier' then.#i can imagine perhaps in the circles this guy was in the swastikas were probably celebrated as being oh so daring and taboo!#i hope that extreme body mod circles (which cannot be that large let's face it) are not like this any more but who knows#i just think it is much harder to know what lines to cross and which not to cross if you are celebrating line crossing#see also: when it turned out marilyn manson actually was abusing women#like 'i'm so shocking and edgy!!!' 'I'm shockingly and edgily abusing people!' they go together so well#i'm being facetious in my wording but i find this really hard to articulate.....i found the marilyn manson revelations very upsetting#to be clear i always hated him as an artist but like everyone i assumed it ws just a costume he put on#even more noodling: i was thinking about extreme kink (edgeplay i guess they call it?) and tbh i don't understand that either#but while i don't want to judge or kinkshame i do wonder if places where extremes are celebrated can ever be SSS#the risks skyrocket of harming your partner in ways they later hugely regret#also are they even following SSS? I saw someone who had been accused of causing harm to their partners during edgeplay being like#'i will take steps to learn how to do kink' um.....you didn't already know????????????#surely if you're engaging in the most extreme stuff you should know THE MOST and not apparently the least?????#uggggggggghhhhh anyway fuck 'edginess' and fuck extreme and fuck sexscalation
1 note
·
View note
Text
GUESS WHO JUST DISCOVERED ZENITH
OH MY FUCK
#why isn't this shit on spotify#tobblerone fudge you are a goddamn genius#shit took my breath away fr#TOBBE I LOVE YOU#AKJEBGHAERIUPSZBLFEIA#it's zoo sobbing hours#oh god#KJVBASHEIOSFJDC#if you're a dumbass spotify user like me. go look up zenith on youtube you won't regret it I promise#sobbing sobbing sobbing#THE GODDAMN PIANO#i'm having so many feelings don't mind me#AASFKBFVOASAPVWVBCIX#thank you for reading my unhinged tags#sobs into hands#the band ghost#shitghosting#zenith#ghost zenith
9 notes
·
View notes
Text
Bitches on here be like "haha! I read this callout about you and i told everyone around me to ostracize you and ignore you and the reason you're alone is divinely orchestrated karma, of course, surely not me and my hand in manipulating people to hate you, surely this is some sort of divine intervention and not a smear campaign that i try to justify my actions with "its gods will" with"
#do yall ever consider the karma *YOU* will acquire for treating me this way over someone elses lies about me?#bc something tells me whatever im going through rn. that you think i shoulda killed myself over... well babe.#i got some bad news for you and how karma works. lmao#and oh baby it hurtsm oh mam am i just suffering so hard.#my body aches all the time. i dissociate constantly.#well. when it happens to you and you're all alone with no support yknow.... hope you figure it out :/#hope the karma doesnt hit you too hard :/#at least im strong enough to not let all of this shit make me go fully insane. doubtful for yall tho lmao#and im going to give just as little fucks about yall writhing in your mental agony as you have for me :)!#oh and uh. dont think karma will be light on you just because 'you didnt know you were being lied to 🥺'#aww.. poor you... but anyways yeah when you fuck w someones life even if you realize you did it over someone elses lie... kinda feel like#you're not gonna get out of hurting someone else so much that easily. kinda feel like thats not gonna happen for you.#kinda feel like the energy is eye for an eye not eye for an acknowledgement of your actions and regretting them.#but who knows. i guess it really depends on who you are. how sorry you actually am. how much you understand what you did and how you hurt#someone. all of that sorta stuff will decide how bad your karma is.#so ig. hopefully its nothing too bad !
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
Vivian might not make a habit of drinking, but I feel like if she was ever asked to buy alcohol for a party and then later end up not being invited to said party, she will definitely be petty enough to leave with all the alcohol before proceeding to drink all of it by herself.
Like, hangover be damned - she will down every last can like a champ and then end up passing the fuck out, because her feelings happened to have been hurt over being excluded.
#║▌ ⧼ ⸢ ʚɞ ⸣︳h̲e̲a̲d̲c̲a̲n̲o̲n̲s̲. ⧽ ― LET’S PRETEND I AM A FICTIONAL CHARACTER.#⸾ ❖︎ ⸾ ( ABOUT ) ⤹ •• 𝕧𝕚𝕧𝕚𝕒𝕟 𝕚𝕤𝕞𝕤.#⸾ ❖︎ ⸾ ( QUEUED ) ⤹ •• 𝕗𝕠𝕣 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕝𝕚𝕓𝕣𝕒𝕣𝕪.#[ if it's one thing vivian dislikes ]#[ IT'S BEING LEFT OUT ]#[ so she may or not retaliate depending on how used/taken for granted she feels ]#[ but yeah ]#[ you do not wanna go 'oh actually you're not invited' to vivian ]#[ ESPECIALLY after she has already purchased drinks for an event ]#[ because she will make you regret it ]
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
not sure if this is a hot take but Squishmallows are the plush version of Funko Pops
#you pay 30 dollars and for what#a boring uninspired plush you can get on aliexpress for 5 bucks#'oh but they're so soft you don't understand'#i regret to inform you there's plushies out there with the same level of quality and WAY better designs for a fraction of the price#no shade to people who like them. you do you. but honestly??#some of y'all think they're the second coming of christ when they're literally just some generic ass plushes#Luke rants#idk why they annoy me so much#maybe bc the designs are so damn lazy like bro if you're going to spend that much on a glorified stuffed egg#at least choose an Interesting Looking egg jfc
4 notes
·
View notes
Text
Some random aphobe to an ace person who just told them their sexuality: So are you a fucking playing card or some shit?
The ace person who also happens to be nb: fuck yeah. exactly.
#fucking nonsense#but OH WELL#sleep deprived thoughts#random thoughts#I couldn't sleep until I wrote or posted this somewhere so#here you go!#ignore my rambling tags#please#I'll probably regret these tags in the morning when I'm slightly less sleep deprived but. WHATEVER.#I've just realized that this post has a shit ton of tags#I should probably shut up#but no.#I will not.#I refuse.#someone: shut up#me: make me bitch#me: I'll ramble incoherently in my tags all I want#it's MY post I'll do what I want with it#i just learned a thing#You're only allowed 30 tags apparently#did not know that#i just hit return until it stopped me#i think i still have a few left after this though#my brain is. not working#i feel high#but for legal reasons#I'M NOT HIGH#JUST SLEEP DEPRIVED#one more after this. then no nore bc it won't let me.#bye people. sadly i must stop my rambling. 😭
1 note
·
View note
Text
I find the "don't do something you'll regret!" response about suicide/someone actively wanting to end their life so funny (not haha funny but like. Yk) like dude how exactly am I gonna "regret it" if I'm dead
#also like idk even aside from that it seems so????#if regret about being dead was genuinely *that* compelling of a reason in the moment to not do it would it really be this much of an Option#like I guess it could snap someone out of it a bit especially if they're hesitant already but it's just so#like how do you think that's gonna go? ''don't do something you'll regret'' ''oh damn you're right I didn't think of that. thanks#suicide mention#suicide tw#suicide
1 note
·
View note
Last Seen Blogs
fyescaptaincobra
I had a great teacher
fyescaptaincobra
I had a great teacher
s7nnyflowers
I defy you with my strength
athanmis
athanmis
humansxzzb
The impressive blog 6405