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liquidstar · 3 years

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hi this is evilmario666 anon. im ok now and i realized that despite the misogyny that does exist on account of genre and perspective re:zero actually understands the subaru archetype of guy very well and i was jumping to conclusions too quickly based on what i was seeing. it was impolite and unfair of me and id like to apologize both to re;zero and you, i am no longer on the verge of a blood rage. thanks once more because i am genuinely having a ball of a time . lost track of arc numbers but im on the one where subaru accidentally SPOILERS kills emilia becaus he tries to reveal return by death

NO YEA ANON ITS OK sorry i didnt respond to ur first ask last night i was too tired to read long things lol

but i TOTALLY get how you feel like subaru early on legit annoyed me with his behavior, and it was completely intentional. not that he didnt have his endearing traits, i think the first thing that made me really like him was the fact that he got to know the names of the village kids and legit cared about them a lot because before getting to know them he just considered them and everyone around him as "npcs", and the village kids in particular arent "important" characters. (also dont take all of what im about to say as subaru hate, having read most of the story now i legit love the guy but im just talking abt his portrayal in the show in the early arcs)

basically arc 1 just served to introduce us to characters and concepts so there wasnt all too much of an arc there, subaru is dense as hell so he still came out of all that thinking he was gonna get his Isekai Harem Fantasy and so when he arrived at the mansion in arc 2 he literally treated all the characters like tropes (even before that though he would assume emilia's behavior based on what the tropey response would be). he just didnt see any of them as people and thats where a lot of the conflict came from, in order to overcome in that arc he had to actually befriend both rem and ram in a way that actually mattered, and he really did start to care about them as people and we know that because of the story he tells ram about the ogres.

arc 3 though addresses his mindset about this hero fantasy he has a lot more bluntly, because while he may have grown some in arc 2, he still has a huge martyr complex and places emilia into this role where he gets to be her hero even though she didnt ask for that, and their fight about it is simultaneously really satisfying to see him called out, and hard to watch because hes being such a child about it, hes so incredibly entitled to her at this point. the show luckily frames him as completely in the wrong and shows us the nastiest parts of this mindset in him. one of my favorite scenes in this arc is the one where he accidentally kills her, but just before that. when he rushes into the room and yells at her about how shes useless and unable to save anyone and we focus on her face, and she just says "why are you crying?" and the cut zooms into her eye to reveal that he was staring at his own reflection in it, he was talking to himself. that just perfectly describes what she is to him at that point- a beacon to project all his insecurity and doubt. re:zero loves using those eye-reflection shots, and i love seeing them because my absolute favorite theme in the story is "self-recognition through the other"

subaru does legitimately learn and become better, he acknowledges how shitty hes been in his convo with rem and it gets turned into a really sweet moment between the two of them, and it gets memed a lot but "i love emilia" is honestly a really good line because its in that moment that he stops trying to either run away or project and face his feelings genuinely in a way that doesnt throw her under the bus. by the time arc 4 rolls around hes so much more likable, and his dynamic and relationship with emilia becomes honestly really cute, the way they talk is sort of dorky and charming (spoilers, but even when they have another argument that calls back to the one they had in arc 3, you feel its coming from a legit place now, and when he kisses her he does so only after getting explicit consent and telling her its okay to dodge). hes so much more sympathetic and you really root for him. i loved the choice to not show any of his backstory until arc 4, the point where youre supposed to be on his side completely.

all that being said though its NOT a series i think is perfect nor do i think its super feminist, i just think its a good deconstruction of these isekai tropes and calls them out in a blunt way that i enjoy seeing. there are lots of things about it that i dont like too though, some of the character designs sort of bother me and seem antithetical to this, part of that is that the writer and character designer are different people but it still passed. but i still enjoy the story and characters enough that it doesnt totally sully my enjoyment of it (some are more egregious than others tho). at the end of the day im so along for this whole ride, i love the way it explores its themes, again especially the whole "self-recognition through the other" thing but also suicidal ideation and of course the deconstruction of what the isekai genre has become.

TL;DR: the series perfectly understands the type of nerdboy that watches isekai anime and wants to be sent to another world just like their favorite blank-slate nerdy protagonist and it directly calls them out, saying "no. youre not gonna be an OP hero who saves the day and gets all the bitches with that fucking attitude. youre not gonna be able to escape your insecurities via this escapism, you treat the women around you like trash, youre not entitled to any of this, youre just pathetic." and though subaru is a character that gets better many of the viewers of the series straight up plugged their ears to its themes so they can jack off to rem lol.

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dailytomlinson · 4 years

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Louis Tomlinson - WIRED

How to pronounce Louis Tomlinson name? Well I just did that for you. Before, well before i was on the XF, all me friends from back home called me Lewis - I mean my name is Loui-e but they called me Lewis, that's what I was known as, back home. Then on me first audition Simon called me Louie, and I wasn't about to correct him, you know what I mean?

How old is Louis Tomlinson? I'm getting older, feels like i'm getting older. I'm 27, I am.

How is Louis Tomlinson? Yeah, I'm doing all right, fanks, I'm doing alright, that's a random google one. What does google say in response to that, I'd love to know.

How do I meet Louis Tomlinson? Come to tour, come to tour, and I'll meet you there, hopefully.

What's Louis Tomlinson favorite food?

I eat a lot of rubbish food, probably burgers. I eat a lot of McDonald’s, but in terms of the ultimate burger, it probably has to be In'N'Out. That is a proper burger.

What's Louis Tomlinson Zodiac Sign? There's a lot of talk of this while I've been doing promo in America, you guys love the zodiac stuff. Capricorn, I am. I was told recently about some of the characteristics of the Capricorn, think I may have like two of eight. What's Louis Tomlinson phone number? That is a question I won't be answering. Me number's got out quite a few times. and I like me own privacy, so unfortunately I'm not gonna give you that.

What kind of dogs does Louis Tomlinson have? I’ve got two. I’ve got a golden doodle and a labradoodle. Bruce and Cliff. They’re quite different dogs, the two of them. Bruce is like proper well behaved, good lad, proper like a pretty dog, you know what i mean? And cliff, he’s big he’s clumsy, he’s a thief cause you know everyone says dogs shouldn’t go anywhere near chocolate and i think maybe two or three easters ago he stole a full easter egg, a full easter egg, which I was worried about but i found out after that as long as they don’t eat their bodyweight in chocolate, you’re alright, so he lives to fight another day. Is Louis Tomlinson British? Too right, good to know.

Is Louis Tomlinson on tour? Not yet, glad you asked. About to go on the road next year. Tickets are on sale, go have a look.

Is Louis Tomlinson a football player? Yeah, me local club Donny Rovers, where I’m from I was lucky enough one year, I mean it was a bit of a PR thing on there but also I’m fairly decent football player, they signed me onto the box for a year, I was in the back of the program every game day, I got a squad number which i've got tattooed on me hand, 28, it was a good time to be around.

Is Louis Tomlinson Vegan? I’m not a Vegan, I mean, in England we’re doing all sorts at the moment, like vegan sausage rolls, which feels like a contraction to me, but I’m not a vegan, no, but respect to everyone who is.

What is Louis Tomlinsons favourite color? Red, I love red. Often try to incorporate that into pretty much anything I do really, creatively and also me football club, Donny Rovers, they play in red so that would be why.

What is Louis Tomlinson Just Hold On about? You know it's another one of those songs that's saying you know regardless what happens in life you just gotta try and be hopeful, really.

What Is Louis Tomlinsons middle name ? That'll be an obvious google answer, it's William. Don't use it that often, I imagine some of me fans know that that's me middle name, bit of trivia for you.

What movies has Louis Tomlinson been in? I haven't been in a movie other than that One Direction movie, starred in that. When I was really young I did the odd bit of extra work here and there, there's one really tragic clip online of me I think about 14 years old, I don't have a line but I look petrified.

Who is Louis Tomlinson best’s friend? Probably me ginger mate, Ollie, goes everywhere with me, lives with me most of the time, hears the songs first, most of the time. Went to school with me, I’ve known him for 10, 12 years now? Wow

Who is Louis Tomlinson X-Factor Judge I was an XF judge, also been on the show as a contestant. I was in this band called, One Direction, they were pretty big.

Who’s Louis Tomlinson Miss You About? Miss You was originally written, I was bouncing between different parties, all the night life LA has to offer, and there was moment where I felt like I was going along with enjoying it so much, and that’s kinda what that song is about

Who did Louis Tomlinson play for? Me Donny Rovers, but if we’re going far back, me sunday league team and local area was the first team that I joined, called Tickhill Juniors [FC], I think they’re still going. In fact, I got a mildly cheeky e-mail from them pretty recently asking for some funding. So, I’ll be in touch. Where was Louis Tomlinson born? I was born in Doncaster, probably best place in the world. If you haven’t been, you should go. Great holidays, absolutely love where I come from, great people where I come from, great night out as well.

Where does Louis Tomlinson currently live? I live between LA and London, and also try to get to Doncaster as much as I can. Quite a adjust jump. It’s forever hot here in LA, we’re about to get to November, and I’m red dot, and I’m just a true Brit, you know? When it’s Winter, I want cold. Where is Louis Tomlinson right now? Here, doing this little piece of camera for you!

Where did Louis Tomlinson go to school? In Doncaster there was a school called Hayfield School, went there 90% of me school life. Now I failed my A-Levels and didn’t have me back in, which was a bit unfair of them, so then I went to another school for a year and then I’m at the X-Factor.

Where did Louis Tomlinson audition? I auditioned in Manchester, when did the X-Factor. Basically, long story short, the judges see thousands of people, you know, across have many days. So I wanted to be the star of the auditions, so I started queuing up at like 4am because I wanted to be one of the first to be seen, figure I’d have a better chance then and I was right.

When was Louis Tomlinson born? Christmas Eve, 1991. Good times to have birthdays, everyone’s in a good mood.

When is Louis Tomlinson going on tour? My tour starts March next year and goes all the way to June? July? Super excited to be going on tour, feel like I’ve been waiting all me solo career for that moment. So pretty excited about that one.

When Louis Tomlinson Valerie? I’m imagining you talking about when I started with the band and got on our first tour and did a cover of Amy Winehouse’s Valerie, maybe you’re asking when I’m singing that again and the answer is I don’t know.

When did Louis Tomlinson perform JHO? I performed it a few times, it comes out off the top of me head 2017. My first performance was at the XF and I hadn’t done a solo performance on me own and the XF was always a big performance for us as a band so was good to be back and do that on my own was both exciting and nerve-wrecking.

Louis Tomlinson CUTE I’m not making this, Im sure I can read it. Louis Tomlinson Cute, I don’t know how to react to this one other than say ‘Thanks, love’

Louis Tomlinson Tattoos That I have many of, quite a few stupid ones. Trying to look which of me latest was, probably this horrible one [Robbie’s X on his right arm] I got at the XF. Not even straight lines, pretty bad.

Louis Tomlinson eye color I got blue eyes, not gonna lie. Me eyes do change color, when I wear a blue top it looks bluer. Planned well today, but normally, blue

Louis Tomlinson hairstyles Ain’t had that many of them to be honest. I’ve had three in rotation for the past nine years. What’s pretty funny about me hair though, from being in a band like One Direction, I’ve almost forgot how to do my own hair. It’s pretty tragic, innit? I’m lucky to have someone to do me hair, but there’s times where I got a night out and I’m looking at me hair and thinking ‘I don’t even know where to start?’ so I just put a cap on

Louis Tomlinson One Direction That’s the band I’m in, was in, whichever way you look at it at, don’t really know what else to say about that good time in me life. Hopefully we come back.

Louis Tomlinson Back To You Yeah, that’s the name of one of me songs. So I assume you bang that into google and my song will just pop straight up. Give it a listen if you want, did it Bebe Rexha, did the music video in Doncaster, where I’m from, so again, that’s special for me.

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kuuderepunkin · 4 years

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Ily ok I'm gonna ask for a usual match up even though I'm a 🤡 and we all know who I STAN, also through submissions bc a girl can't keep it to 500 characters apparently, ok anyway im autistic so I'm pretty quiet and not too good with people, I get super anxious in busy situations and new people, but once I get to know you I'm quite full-on, I'm quite sarcastic and a bit witty? I think I'm pretty smart tbf, some things people have said they like about me is that I'm very cultured, I stand up for what I believe in, I'm loyal and extremely selfless, I'm super self conscious but I'm also the type that's not going to change for anyone? If that makes sense? Some things I enjoy are music, cooking, anime, writing, memes and walks 😊 ok basically how you wrote my for my birthday thing (which was amazing btw omg) is pretty much exactly how I am lol for some physical things, I'm 5'4, like boob-length brown wavy hair, I'm not thin but Idk if I'd call myself chubby realistically? (my friend said I'm curvy so let's go with that) and I have a very minimal style (that's in general too, I don't like owning too many things that I know I won't use)

Ok I hope this was alright! Thank you! Also take your time there's no rush 🥰🥰🥰🥰 you're an ANGEL

MMMM YES YES GOOD GOOD okay so I hope these are okay because you’re a sweetie and I feel like it’s hard for me to express just how much these boys may love you, since I’m kinda not well verse on romance. But you’re a cutie, and they LOVE the HECK out of you. No doubt, who wouldn’t, even as a friend.

Haikyuu matchup: Sugawara Koushi

Honestly it was so hard to not just give you one of your stans, because I’m hardcore for “anyone can be in love, because love knows no bounds!” And I can see you with Tsuki for some of your characteristics, but I already wrote some Tsukishima x you stuff (but I’ll include some more down below ;) ). So I tried to pair you with someone I think you’d be a good fit with, but also someone unique. So I was trying to think of someone who would really compliment your interests, and so I went for Sugawara! I may be imprinting because I love his character so much, like how he’s an angel but also play with the minds of the other volleyball teams. The way they’re intimidated by him is MWAH, he’s sly and cunning despite being a huge teddy bear. He’s one of my faves and I know he’d treat you well <3 <3 <3

· Suga is like the best friend you could ever ask for; he’s so sweet, caring, and attentive. Soft boy is always there being the mom friend.

· When you need help communicating he will do his best to make it an easy situation. If you need him he’ll just be your voice, but if you just need him to be around for comfort he’s happy to see you try and talk in a situation you may usually be too shy to do on your own.

· He is drawn to you because of your culture and smarts, since you don’t stand out in a crowd based on your description of a minimal style I assume he see’s your name somewhere on tested post scores or! OR Maybe you’re in the cultural club in college? Just a random thought I’m sorry.

· You don’t have to be good with people to get along with him, he’s easy going and can usually read a person and knows what you mean even if you say the wrong set of words.

· Always knows what to say when you get anxious, he knows if it’s okay to touch you or if that will make you panic more. If you’re upset and you’re not too panicked he will rub your back and talk to you, trying to help you ground yourself. Reminding you to try and recognize your surrounds as a tactic to pull you out of any anxiety attack.

· “Chloe, take a deep breath I’m right here. I won’t leave your side unless you need me to grab you something. Try listing 5 things around you that you can see.” I sometimes use this tactic when I’m having a panic attack, but most of the time I forget about it. Luckily Suga knows this and is always around to help you out.

· Once you start coming out of your shell he’s so happy to get to know the “real” you, your sarcasm, your interests, and your selfless nature- he’s happy to see you open up.

· He too is quiet and witty, but that’s more so because he likes to listen more than he likes to talk, when it comes to dishing out the roasts. So he’s supportive of you whenever you decide to be sassy, agreeing with you and slyly remarking about how correct you are, complimenting how well you read people.

· Suga stands by what he believes, too, which one of those things is happens to be you <3

· He’s patient so he’s not going to jump straight into physical affection, not wanting to make you uncomfortable and willing to respect your boundaries. And once you’re ready for him to be more affectionate he goes slowly, testing the water.

· He enjoys when you share your writing with him, he’s a smart boy and would try his best to enjoy the same activities as you. But if you’re too embarrassed to share your writing he won’t force it, it’s very intimate so he understands any hesitation you have.

· Sugawara loves to give you hugs, you’re the perfect height for him to come up beside you and hug you from behind and rest his face in your hair.

NOW TSUKISHIMA Because my brain really was like “but they stan him how can you not include him?” *eye emoji*

· Unlike Suga, he’s only slightly helpful when interacting with others, I feel like he doesn’t find it necessary to be involved in all conversations- if you’re too nervous to approach someone it may not be worth the conversation in the first place. That being said, if it’s because it’s a very important interaction and you’re nervous because of the gravity of it he will help by either intervening or saying what needs to be said, or he will stand by your side and nod as you make conversation. (What I mean is maybe it’s a group project and you don’t know your partner and he needs be there to help you not panic.)

· He’s pretty withdrawn himself so if he doesn’t have to get involved in social situations he won’t because most people seem to frustrate him.

· Tsuki is the king of sass so when you’re being witty and sarcastic he’s by your side smirking and making snide comments of his own. And the same can be said when you’re standing up for someone you believe in, even if he doesn’t have the same passion he’s there to support you by providing some smug comments.

· Style doesn’t mean very much to him, so your minimalist style won’t bother him, but I don’t think he’d point it out either way. He’s more interested in complementing you on your personality and interests rather than how you dress or decorate.

· He shares your love for music, so feel free to send him some song recommendations; he will do the same for you. This little nerd may act like he’s not interested in your music but if he ever needs to be reminded of you he has the songs saved because you told him about them and so now he associates you with those songs.

· This tall dinosaur will just rest his arm on your shoulder the moment you get used to his touch; he’ll pull you close because “it’s cold outside.”

· He will just try to avoid getting into situations that make you anxious, because he knows he’s not always the best with reassuring words. But you know he cares because he tries, despite being uncomfortable seeing you so upset and not being able to stop it.

· Kei will sadly tease you about your taste in anime on occasion, because even the best anime can have some stupidity or plot holes in them. But that just proves he pays attention to your interests, because if he didn’t know anything he wouldn’t make these comments.

· When you send him memes, depending on how he’s feeling you may leave you on read because it was a) ridiculous what does that even mean? Or b) send you a meme that is twice as absurd. He’s a bit meme critical because those really abstract ones are “a waste of time,” and that they don’t have a point.

· But if you use memes to communicate your feelings of like, love maybe, he’s going to just reply normally, because he doesn’t want to give you the satisfaction of making him sappy.

· But if you’re ever apart and he can see you’re feeling down he’ll send a wholesome meme to try and make you smile.

#Match-ups #Punkin look #submission #match ups #matchmaker #gif #Punkinwrites #AWIDHAWDH I hope these are okayyyyyy

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tslasvegas · 3 years

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Episode 4: “I'm sorry Daddy, I've been very naughty.” - Keegan

Dan and JAKE! A WORD IN MY OFFICE PLEASE! WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS.

Wow! Today was A Day to say the least. I feel like boo boo the fool with how things went down today, but hopefully, I can recover from that now that there’s a new tribe. I’m excited to get to know new people, but sad to see my old alliances have to come to an end. I guess we’ll see what happens

Finally a swap and golly 5 OG Palazzo! I really hope this works in our favor. Kinda nervous for Joey and Stephanie tho because now they are in the minority of their tribe. I do hope they’ll find a way to survive till merge

LMFAO IM... watching the tribal council for the other tribe and I'm SORRY??? Who the fuck is Jake S he is the most condescending man I've ever seen in my entire life YIKES. Anyways this swap is nice.. I think I've got a good group, I really hope we win the next few immunities because I 1) really dont want to see Rachael on this tribe and 2) i want to try and rebuild my um. tattered relationships. I did the best I could in the challenge for tonight, I'll try to come back tomorrow a little more renewed cus I'm kinda wiped out from today's events. Now that my tribal council cherry has been popped for this Org its time to go crazy woop

So good not to check Luxor anymore!

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Well last tribal went fine, I got to see what was in the Prize Vault which is awesome; now I have a better idea of the twist. Big problem though- Our swap put me in the minority. I was running Luxor and had a core 4, now they have 5 OG Pink so they can pluck us off, one at a time. I went from drivers seat to getting driven over. We need to win the challenge, so I'm gonna go ham in winterbells and hope to pull it out.

We swapped! I think I made a confessional already, but honestly I don't remember. I gave Livingston some of my chips so he can go visit the vault after the immunity challenge. We'll see what is in there and for how much, and maybe snatch up some real nice items to help us out. I've also got Andrew on my side, which is great and he's apparently quite tight with Pat, which is fantastic. Mo is a pretty decent dude and I've been talking with Jake a lot today. Things are going alright. I just hope we can win this challenge.

Phew, while the swap was not ideal. I was really liking my tribe, we were kind of quiet but individually everyone was great and we also kicked butt at challenges! Anyway, the swap with numbers wise not great, but I know Xavi from a previous game and we have a solid relationship, I hope he and John and Joey and myself can build a solid squad to make it to the merge. The challenge was rough tbh, I am not great at video games, but I think I did ok... Jaiden got like 20 trillion points on a game so really I have no idea how I did. Hoping for the best!

I am losing my mind in my personal life so I am sorry that I have been mia. I appreciate the patience from the hosts and my tribe. It makes me still want to play even though I've been kinda invisible. I'm aware of that. I'll fix it. I promise. Otherwise, its been pretty good as a tribe so far. Andrew, Pat, and NIk and i are all really close from other games, so we're good and Andrew and Pat and I are together, which is just really unfair if you ask me. I can't wait to start scheming!

Uhhhhhh.................................... anyways........ yall hear somethin? Oh I hear something. It's the sound of Joey literally blowing himself up to me hardcore!!!! The narcissism and arrogance really jumped out on this one. So Joey had the idea of calling tonight to go over some stuff and honestly out of the 2 hours we spent, I think about 45-60 mins of it was rather nice and I do feel that I enjoy his presence, but omg... his desire for control is so noticeable and its kinda gross. Joey and I debriefed on what went down on Bellagio and I totally understand why there was the difference in us discussing tribe dynamics - I had to give up all my info while he kinda kept things more reserved. I want to assume this is because of the fact that I went to tribal and he hasn't until now. I won't judge him for that. However, after this he's kinda like dictating the fact that an OG Bellagio needs to go home. Ben is the easier person to throw under the bus since he didn't even bother to do the challenge/let us know what's up. Not a big fan of that, but aight. Then Joey starts suggesting we vote out Kailyn...?? Uh... not on my watch. I have to make it up to Kailyn at least a little bit so even though she's probably got a loaded gun pointed at my head rn, I want to defuse the situation rather than start throwing her out there as a potential target. Even if it isn't coming from me, I'm not here for that. The information that Joey did give up to me relates to the chips in the game. I've never paid much attention to the chips, but I guess it takes 10 to get into the vault and Joey's got between 11 and 15 (he changed his answer on the subject SEVERAL times). He says there are three idols worth 40 chips each, then a super idol worth I think 50 or 60 (can't remember). On top of that, there are nullifiers, vote advantages, and a legacy advantage, too. He seems fixated on the legacy advantage and really wants the chips to get it. Like.. ok do you but we NEED the super idol?? Does he not realize that thing has more power than anything else in the vault combined..? ANYWAYS. What really started to turn me off about Joey is that there was this sudden expectation that I'd be giving him all of my chips thus far. I don't care about them to begin with but knowing what I know now, it doesn't make sense for me to give him my stash just to fuel his hunt for... a measly legacy advantage... I put myself in a compromising position. I told him that once a host gets back to me on my exact total, I'd be willing to trade him my chips for I guess an allyship going forward. I mean that. I want to work with Joey at least through this vote, but I can't guarantee that it'll go much further than that. He is a very risky person for my game right now because if he's coming off this strong to everybody, it's only going to hurt me by association to stick with him longer than a vote or two. However, I'm going to try and divert the attention and just be like, maybe we need to use my five as a bartering piece for new allies at this point. I want to try and build meaningful partnerships right now, especially since that was the only reason I wanted to make it to the merge.. Rebuilding is crucial as well. Kailyn and possibly Nik/Rachael are not going to be fond of me once we all have "the talk" about last tribal. I put myself in an even more compromising position with them, but I'll find my way out of that mess. I think........ As far as this tribe goes, I think between Joey's WILD imagination/constant over-analyzing and the lack of direction this tribe has taken so far.. I'm doing okay. Nobody is really standing out besides Joey and I guess myself in a way, so if I keep him around it MIGHT even shrink my own target little by little - unless people find out we're together then FUK.

......five seconds later

In terms of my other relationships right now, I love John Coffey but this is old news, I've been in love with this man since like 2016 and it's fine - totally fine - just fangirling a bit rn since I get to spend more time with him!! woohoo. Xavier and Stephanie are straight up non-entities which makes me SO scared of them especially since Stephanie's won an ORG before... how can someone be so irrelevant yet still win something? Hmm... Makes me think that she's secretly a ninja, you never even see her around. Nik has grown more and more quiet as the days go along and I wonder what's goin' on with that. Maybe they've decided since Biden won the election that moving to New Zealand is a bad idea? Lmfao. I dunno. Nik stresses me the hell out because I have no idea what they're thinking at any point in time even in the off-chance that we are talking. I think I might just have a personality they don't mesh with because I noticed on call forever ago that none of my jokes were particularly landing but Nik had a lot to say and a LOT to joke about there... rip. If it's a personality conflict - go off, I guess. I'll try on a couple different hats w this person to try and see if I can get things to go better than they have been. Kailyn.. like I said before, pretty sure she's after me but I am really trying to sell it to her that I like her a lot, because I do. I literally compare her to my best friend irl because they have very similar attributes and I consider Kailyn kinda messy but fun and quirky like my BFF so I hope that Kailyn did truly appreciate me making that comparison. Ben's inability to do this challenge is going to be his undoing. I think the only acceptable move is to vote him off this time because I HAVE to prove to Kailyn that I can stay the course, and I also need to whittle down Bellagio numbers to prevent people from targeting us and having everything go to shit that way. Let Joey control this, please dear god. Don't let me get blood on my hands. Let Rachael integrate herself well on this tribe. Let someone else blow themselves up in the process. Just not me plz and thanks. There is no fear in my soul tonight. Joey might be a fucking crackhead but so am I. I'm breaking down walls that I didn't think existed but Joey basically told me tonight that he thought I was confrontational, rude, chaotic, and all these other things but was impressed at how calm, optimistic, and outgoing I was. Love to hear it. He might think he overestimated me but he was right about the initial impressions... too bad he won't be around long enough to see that side of me :~)

FIRSTLY, DeNara was robbed. Okay so I already wrote this a while ago in my host chat about how the fact jake and dan are praying for my downfall because after the swap i am the only og bellagio on a tribe with 5 palazzo and 2 luxor. so after I slowly blinked at my screen for a bit I was like okay how do we survive this if I go to tribal. Because I’m under the impression tribes are gonna stick together especially going into merge but since Luxor is already down so many members it’s kinda Bellagio Vs. Palazzo. but then I was like okay wait I’m the only member of bellagio on this tribe after coming from a tribal so I’m the only one who can say what happened and I can create what narrative I want to help me get through the next couple rounds. Because if I was like oh blah blah I was in majority im so fucked then of course they’re gonna target me to get me out. But if I play the victim card and milk the fact that I voted in the minority acting like I hate my og tribe maybe they’ll think to use me as a pawn. To take down others moving forward. Listen if I have to be labeled a goat to move forward then BAA bitch.

.....five seconds later

Things are going good, because not only am no longer in danger this round but that means Rachael is going to the enemy tribe which if she came to our tribe that might’ve disrupted the narrative I had going of me being against og bellagio. Also DeNara should still be here, don’t think I didn’t clock the fact that Ben scored a 0. I also found out from Andrew that Rachael and Ben are apart of the same Tengaged group which explains why Rachael was so set on Ben staying but like, listen, if I end up in a game with someone I’m friends with, and they’re not active and helping the tribe. Good riddance.

What the. We lost yet again. I have lost everything since the start of the game. It's crazy. There are 4 from Bellagio, 2 Palazzo and 2 Luxor. 2+2 seems like an obvious plan, but it looks like it is falling apart already (read: Joey). Sucks to be across the world, so instead of scheming, I'll be sleeping.

Forgive me father, for I have sinned. is the same as I'm sorry Daddy, I've been very naughty.

The swap did happen. Expected it. Glad we won this first challenge in this new tribe tho in worried for Stephanie and Joey

Vault Shenanigans - Holy shit I did not expect this to be as powerful as it is. I was preparing myself for some sort of payment based search system, but being able to straight up buy the items I want, but its also the same for other people. I had a misconception at how generous the wheel was so I'm probably behind some people with the amount of chips, but I could very well start scooping up some of the steal votes and just say "see ya" to the idols, although getting a super idol would be very wild, it still seems risky to hold out that long to get it, even though there's a great amount of power associated with it. The other issue with a super idol is that I think that its very likely that if I get into a position where I need to use it, that I lose a lot of respect with the jury if it does happen. The only benefit from actually having it would be that I no longer have to worry about someone else whipping it out, so it'd be less for me wanting it, but more for others not having it. As of now, I think my optimal play is to hold on to my chips until around ~40, and then buy both vote steals at once, OR go all out for the super if someone has already bought an idol by that point, because I would be operating under the assumption that the frontrunner is already out of the running. Tribe Swap Shenanigans - This is a hell of a tribe swap. 5-2-1 is always a great spot to be in, I am already good within the 5 that I have so I don't have to worry about anything there, it should be relatively smooth sailing as far as getting to the merge. Mo/Jake are alright so far, neither particularly speak too much. Kevin has not reached out at all, probably will try to talk to him tonight for general purposes, even if he seems like he'd be an easy one to get out first should we go to tribal the next time. But generally I really don't plan on losing so it's kind of a wash. I'll take the smooth sailing, easy path to merge. Premerge is never as relevant as merge is when it comes to FTC as long as you have something to show for yourself at the merge. I've got all game to make my presence known, and I plan on using the entirety of the game to do so.

I feel super anxious today because even though I had a great conversation and built a good connection to Joey, there hasn't been any talk about the vote quite yet. I mean obviously names have rolled out but nothing solid is out there still, I think I just need to let go of the urgency for a name to start being spread early on and just let things be. Stephanie and I have been chatting a bit here and there today so I feel more comfortable with her and hopefully she sees things from a similar perspective as everyone else - the Bellagio foursome needs to get broken up right now. As long as it's not my name of course!!!!! Plz vote Ben @everyone. Or Kailyn tbh save me a little bit of trouble now. Talking to Xavier is SO HARD LMAO. He doesn't immediately contribute information into a conversation and as bad as I wanna get rid of Ben, I almost..almost think going for Xavier is the smarter move, since Xavier doesn't seem too motivated to actually get to know ME and work with me. I'm selfish that way. Kailyn doesn't seem like she wants to do Ben which is a little frustrating but I totally get it, if Ben stays he's going to go after her hardcore but like she needs to actually pitch me an alternative lmfao. I don't wanna go bending over backwards just to appease her right now so if she doesn't gimme a name.. sorry sis but then I think it's gonna be Joey's call on this one :/

I am being very cautious now. The 4 of us (me, John, Joey and Steph) are going to vote together. Now Jaiden wants to vote Nik. And Kailyn wants to vote Ben. Why can't we just agree on one?! And it always has to go down to the wire. Stick together, people!

I think I am possibly leading the charge against Nik rn?? Joey told me he wanted Ben and then I told him I wanted Nik and now he wants Nik LOL take that Stephen

Okay well I have no idea what's going to happen tonight, but I'm going into tribal not afraid of the vote I am probably going to have to make ... I think the best move is to just vote for Nik and be done with it, but it's going to cause a serious rift in a lot of my relationships if I do so. I've been super wishy-washy to a lot of people I think and right now it doesn't make sense to continuously do one thing when I mean another.. especially since there seems to be zero ground to move upon when it comes to getting the vote to turn from Nik to Ben. Nik doesn't even SEEM ACTIVE?? Why are we making this a bigger deal than it needs to be. Ben can't just walk around deciding what's going on and I think Kailyn would prefer to keep Nik around rather than Ben but it's like... so push for Ben to be the target hun! She's feeding into someone else's move no matter what she does, it's either Ben's agenda or John's agenda. Pick a side, but pick the side I'm on, too. Why don't we just vote for Kailyn tbh. lmao

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muriels traumatic background is handled in the most insensitive way possible

The Arcana is a game that indulges in many fantasies that varies from creative (magicians) and just jumps straight into inappropriate (BDSM, slavery) for a PG13 game.

I’m gonna handle the slavery fantasy because Yes. It’s there. Speaking as a diasporic black person, slavery is an incredible touchy subject for me. While never having gone through it, intergeneration trauma is most definitely a thing and even if it wasn’t -- empathy exists.

Muriel is an ex-slave. He used to really resonate within me as a character who suffered trauma and considers himself a loner. He is loved by the fandom because of his outcast demeanor. A lot of players probably suffer from social anxiety and thus see themselves within him. But let me get one thing straight:

the way he acts like this is 100% because of childhood trauma and trauma only exacerbated by the treatment of lucio

And that trauma more explicitly is from being held captive and turned into a slave.

From what we know, Muriel grew up homeless and was tortured/bullied by other school children his age. At such a young age, being without a family, being homeless, and being bullied leaves you vulnerable. It’s a vulnerability that most of us could never even dream of relating to unless you experienced it firsthand yourself. Count Lucio literally took a traumatized child’s vulnerability and abused him until he was at his beck and call.

Something that a lot of people don’t seem to realize is that slavery is one of the most traumatizing thing someone could experience

Slavery Literally Ruins Your Life

Slavery literally runs on vulnerable people’s entire lack of agency and safety. And if someone ever defies their owner in choice of having autonomy -- they’re punished with any and all kinds of abuse.

slavery shouldnt be something you take lightly

but thats EXACTLY what nix hydra is doing to this character.

especially in heart hunter:

(cred. anonymous @thearcanasucks)

Muriel was coerced into fight under the guise of “the Scourge”

Lucio basically molded Muriel into a fighting machine persona, just so he could enjoy watching slaves fight and kill each other. He had no concern over Muriel’s physical or emotional health -- if Muriel ever died doing what Lucio forced him to do he wouldn’t even care. And muriel was put into a situation where he had to murder if he valued his own life.

And let’s not ignore race -- Muriel is a brown man. He’s big too. And he murdered people (who were most likely stuck in the same situation as him). Nix Hydra thought it was acceptable to make a man of color into a violent racist caricature. And this is racist in so many ways -- it just matters how you apply it. And nix hydra gives you plently of room thanks to never confirming his race:

native american men face the violent stereotype of being deemed “savage” and being bloodthirsty warmongers. Muriel being a brown man tied up in chains? Living in wilderness? Fighting to the death? Checks all of the anti-native narratives.

Being a man of slavery? Slavery is already hugely racialized. Some of the biggest and longest standing slave trades involved african, arabic, and native american people. And since we don’t. know. his. race. we can just assume that he’s all of the above and fits yet another racist trope :)))

now we know that slavery is Bad and Traumatizing and we ESPECIALLY know that Muriel Is Traumatized. But does the writing know? because no.

back onto the heart hunter topic (because im a bitch who doesnt know how to organize) Heart Hunter is a minigame where youre meant to collect as many hearts as possible to win a photocard and some coins and stuff. every time you collect a heart you’re shown a cute interaction between you and a character -- or a character and a character. These interactions are meant to be lighthearted and fun, maybe even romantic. And it worked for a while.

Until the writers at Nix Hydra somehow thought it would be lighthearted, fun, and romantic to write about Muriel’s slavery. Multiple characters bring up Muriels slave persona as if its not a sensitive topic you should only approach with as much care as possible. Slavery is a repulsive practice and it should be treated as such.

And even if you ignore slavery being slavery, Muriel as a character is shown being traumatized by his past. he tries to bury it as much as he can even if that means making people forget about him entirely

Muriel is CLEARLY bothered by his past and wishes no reminder of it -- but what do the other characters do? exactly that. They explicitly call him and refer to him as “Scourge” his slave name, even right to his face. So either everyone hates him wants to trigger him or the devs hate us and wants to trigger us.

and this screenshot shows that even years after Muriel becoming a public embarrassment, that he still doesn’t own an ounce of his own privacy. This 2-lined interaction shows us that people are still buying and selling his personal property without his consent. All because they KNOW slaves don’t own their own agency, their own life, their own image. That isn’t okay.

what also isn’t okay is the fact that they brush over it like its some cutesy ‘oh oops!’ moment. Portia shouldn’t be enticed by the fact that her friends underwear is being sold on the black market. She should be horrified. Especially when we see Muriel uncomfortable at the fact and even his reaction isn’t a well written one.

would this your reaction if you found out someone somehow got a hold of your used underwear and sold it to creeps for god knows how much money?

Its obvious that the writers at Nix Hydra also don’t see Muriel as a character with his own agency. They will shove his own trauma in his face, but write him indifferent -- because they don’t care that Muriel suffered trauma for nearly his entire life. Nope. Because caring for a trauma-ridden brown man would just be too much work for them.

they’d rather use their time to turn their slave owning, abusive villain into a quirky little power hungry ghost uwu or whatever theyre getting at...

this isnt good. its offensive. and i almost broke out in tears at the way theyre handling this man’s situation. it fucking sucks. stop supporting these racist shit bags please i beg of you

#the arcana #muriel #slavery tw #abuse cw #long post #uhhh cant think of anymore but please if you find anymore let me know!

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janusthesneakysnakeboi · 6 years

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Florida Prep Host Club Part 1

(Ouran High School Host Club AU - but gayer)

Ships: Prinxiety mainly (for this part at least)

Warnings: Anxiety, panic attack, deceit mentions, self harm mentions (from a song)

Words: 1652

Note: This AU was based on a post @could-always-be-gayer-2 wrote and I jumped on it. Also I know Florida Prep Academy is a legit place, I didn’t realize that when I was writing this, and this has nothing to do with the actual school. This is also my first Sanders Sides fic so… yeah. (Song used (in bold) is Our Lawyer Made Us Change The Name Of This Song So We Wouldn’t Get Sued by Fall Out Boy). Enjoy! :)

Ok, first day was pretty good. I mean people stared at me, but what do you expect from these too happy rich kids who now share a school with someone poor, like me. I mean, I wouldn’t have been able to even come here had it not been for my academic scholarship. Speaking of, I should find a quieter place to study than that library - who knew, the place where you’re supposed to be quiet is probably the loudest place in the school. I didn’t know my way around Florida Prep Academy yet, but I guessed I’d be learning quickly. If this place is anything like my last school, I better start scoping out the hiding places now.

I put the hood of my hoodie over my head and turned on some music that always seemed to calm me. What can I say? It’s something about dark - aka “emo” - music that really kept my anxiety in check. I guess the screaming was it - too loud for any thoughts to enter.

I turned my music down as I got to what appeared to be a vacant hallway - I don’t even think I remember seeing any classes down here. I paused my music as I approached Theater Room 3, figuring if there were any theater clubs here, they’d be in the first 2 rooms. I pressed my ear up to the door, and couldn’t hear much of anything. So, I opened the door, and went to press play on my very old and outdated iPhone 5s - which was pretty much out of the 16GB of storage it came with in 2014, and only really good for music, messaging (not like I had anyone to message though) and internet occasionally - when I heard 6 masculine voices start to speak in sync, as if they rehearsed it millions of times already before I walked in. It took me a minute to process what they all just said, but when I did, I almost dropped my phone in shock.

“Welcome to the Florida Prep Host Club!” The six people I was faced with all said at once.

“Umm… What is this? This seems like a sad little club,” I mused, looking around and realizing it was just the 7 of us in this large theater room. The one wearing a crown - why? - looked really offended by what I had said, and I could tell I was going to get a dramatic introduction to this club or whatever I walked in on.

“I apologize, you must not be familiar with the concept of a host club. The basic premise of a host club is that lovely people, like me, who have way too much time on their hands volunteer to entertain even lovelier people, like yourself, who also have way too much time on their hands. This one in particular is rather special you see. As the prep school with the highest number of LGBTQ students, we took it upon ourselves when making this club that we would be very accepting of that community, and find most of our hosts and guests are in some way part of the community themselves.”

I felt my eyes widen in shock. How did I not know this was a rainbow school? You probably just expected everywhere you go to be Transphobia City, located in the great state of Homophobia. I didn’t realize the crown guy was still talking, until he was introducing the club members to me.

“Take your pick. We have the hard on the outside, soft on the inside guy, who also happens to be very gay, and bigender, if either of those strike your fancy,” when the crown dude spoke, a guy wearing a sweater and a yellow tie - probably a code for their gender identity of the day - waved awkwardly. “Don’t worry though, they are much less awkward once you have a conversation with them.”

“Wha-”

“Well, if you’re not into them, maybe the lovable, childlike one? Or how about the mischievous twins? Or the calm, cool, and collected, organized nerd over there? They may be straight, but they are very kind.” As he spoke, various people greeted me, and I tried to associate personalities with faces, until I realized I knew 0 of the 7 names I needed.

“Who even are you people!” I shook with nervousness, and became even more on edge when I realized I shouted at all these rich people who could end me in one second. I saw the “calm” one with glasses walk towards me, his blank, unreadable expression setting me off even more, and I broke into a run away from all of them on the far side of the room. I shakily tried to open my phone to put some music on when the shorter, “childlike” member came running towards me, slipping underneath a cautionary hand to race toward me. I panicked and, without looking behind me, I backed up rather quickly, and tripped on a cord that was probably either not plugged in or connected to microphones or something. To my misery, I fell back into a little table that had one thing on it.

Emphasis on had.

I heard a crash behind me and immediately curled into a ball, pressing play on a random Fall Out Boy album - the last thing I had open on my screen, and heard the title track to From Under the Cork Tree begin to play, and felt a cautionary hand on my shoulder. I opened my eyes to see all the host club members looking on edge, but like this wasn’t unusual. They probably all pity you. Because they know you tr- written on my wrist says ‘Do not open before Christmas.’ We’re only liars- they are all lying to you. They just want you to have a false sense of security and hope. I mean it’s not like they have any pride flag- Then I saw it. The whole wall was covered in almost every pride flag imaginable. I look at the other wall, and noticed they are separated by gender identity and sexuality, so you wouldn’t be confused as to where your flag was. I looked to the left and right, and saw my flags. I smiled, and the person sitting in front of me smiled, realizing I had changed my expression from I imagine pure panic to a calmer one.

“Hi there. Are you okay? Are you feeling overwhelmed?” Patton’s voice was calm, trustworthy, nice. I smiled at him, and shook my head.

“I was before, but I think I’m better now. Thanks…” I bit my lip, looking away, embarrassed at myself for my actions. Patton helped me up off the ground, and when I stood up I remembered the crash, and looked behind me. “Oh no… was that valuable?” I turned around, and one of the twins was standing directly behind me.

“Oh no, it wasn’t extremely valuable at all. It was very inexpensive, barely cost us a penny. It also holds zero sentimental value.”

“Yo, don’t listen to them. They’re completely pulling your leg. But yeah sis, this was going to be auctioned off at the Grand Florida Auction for $420,000. That was just the starting bid.” The other twin with blue sunglasses on was now behind me, standing very close to the shattered porcelain. Seeing it all shattered and hearing the price for it made me wince a little.

“And, as you are so rich, we know you’ll have no problem paying us back. In fact, don’t even worry about it! I’m sure there’s no other way to repay us for that cheap glass you broke.”

“Hey, lay off! Give ‘em some time to get used to this all before confusing ‘im.” The sunglasses twin scolded.

“Now, if you would like my input, I would say that as we do not expect someone like you to have that kind of money, as you cannot seem to afford a school uniform. However, there are many ways one could repay debt.”

“Yes! Beautiful work my dear pocket protector! And I have just the idea. You are now officially the Host Club’s dog!”

Oh no, what did I just get myself into…

I nodded solemnly, and then the smallest one came running up to me again. “Yay!! I’m so glad you’re a host with us! Logan! We should all introduce ourselves!” And then I saw someone - Logan I would assume - nod.

“Ah yes. Maybe not all at once, as to not overwhelm our newest host more. However yes, I am Logan, they/them pronouns please. And yes, as mentioned I am a heterosexual, and feel attraction towards females. And-”

“- I’m Patton! He/Him pronouns kiddo, except on the rare days where I might ask you guys to use they/them, but those days don’t happen often.” Patton smiled at me, and I looked around to see everyone staring at me.

“Wh-what’s wrong?” Then, I saw the crown guy come next to Patton, and smirk. “What Princey?” I sneered. I didn’t know what it was about him, but something didn’t feel right, and I couldn’t shake the feeling that he was going to- no, it wouldn’t make sense but of course, when does anything I think ever?

“Princey? I kinda like it. However, my official title is King of the Florida Prep Host Club, but you can call me Roman. He/him pronouns, por favor~” I would never admit that his wink had any affect on me at all. Never.

“So? What’s your name kiddo? At least tell us your pronouns, so we don’t upset you!” Patton spoke, and I shrunk into my hoodie, hoping I could disappear into the grey and black threads. “Oh, I’m sorry kiddo, are we overwhelming you again? Everyone, give the poor kiddo some space-”

“I’m not your kiddo. I’m no one’s kiddo.” I mumbled, turning to walk away. “I’ll be back tomorrow, only to repay my debt.”

Taglist: @could-always-be-gayer-2 @the-incedible-sulk @nymphaedoratonks @eatinglilies214 @side-for-sides

I’m probably gonna continue this, so let me know if you’d like to be tagged in the future!

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humans-are-seriously-weird · 7 years

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The Time I Pushed a Jerkface off a 35ft Cliff(With Good Reason)

Before we start off let me be clear. I did not murder a man by randomly shoving him off a cliff. Technically, I actually had permission, but still not murder. Chill.

Here we go.

So this is back in Mexico, at the same park as the Sting Ray Incident, just an hour later. Id already recovered from my near death experience and moved on from my friend nearly drowning me. I faced it, i survived, im good and not concerned.

One of the many attractions at this park was the Cliff of Courage. It’s a 35ft cliff that plunges into the water. Now, by my standards, 35ft is low for a cliff jump. Ive done way higher (adrenaline junkie) but obviously i was gonna jump just to say that I did. My parents, grandparents, and Jamie didnt want to jump. No surprise, so they went ahead to meet me on the other side of the river.

So sixteen year old me wanders over and there’s this big group of burly looking men.

Like huge

They’re all standing at the edge jostling each other around. And just by looking at them you can see they’re american. I dont even need to hear their texan accents to know.

So they’re pulling the whole macho act of “you jump i jump” “ohhh but then you wont jump” bs and just generally being chickens and not willing to show it.

And because of this they wont let anyone else jump. Like ten people came and left because these jerks wouldnt let anyone else go.

Eventually i get annoyed and snap “either jump or get out of my way!”

And the dude who is obviously the leader just turns and grins at me.

He assumed what i call the “douchebag alpha male pose” hands on hips, crotch foreward, you know the one, and you know the body language that goes with it.

He thinks he’s superior. Now this guy is the biggest of them all.

Massive biceps, raging six pack, the works. The Hulk would probaby do a double take at this dudes size.

And little me is not intimidated in the least.

I learned to fight at a very young age, especially men larger than me. I know if things turns south i can take him no problem. A few hits here and there and he’s out for the count.

He starts walking towards me, and i step forward too. He may be alpha male, but he just crossed an Alpha Female who doesnt back down from a challenge.

Strike one.

He looks over at his pals and says,

“Ohhhh, the little lady’s going to jump, is she?” And he just sneers down at me, all arrogance and misplaced confidence.

Strike two.

“Tell you what, sweetheart.” Ohhh he did not just say that. “You jump, we’ll let you push us.”

Three strikes he’s out he just made the biggest mistake of his life.

I just grin and go “ok” and turn and immediately dive over the edge. Im soaring through the air, enjoying the fall. I turn just in time to see his face go from 😏 to 😧

I smack down into the water grinning. Originally the plan was the swim across the river and meet up with my family, but i am cashing in this bet. Except there’s only one way to get back up to that cliff from here

I scale the side of the cliff with the rope and I can hear them chatting nervously up top

I pop up over the edge and prop myself up on the ledge with the sweetest, most steel-lined smile I can manage and say, “who’s next?”

So Alpha laughs and stands at the edge as I haul myself up. He’s laughing and assuring his buddies he’ll be back in a second cause I wont really do it and–

I straight arm him and he goes flying

He flails and plunges over the edge, shrieking in the most high pitched, terrified shriek Ive ever heard a dude bro make. He sputters to the surface and gapes up at me as I grin like a hellion down at him. I turn to the rest of his jerk buddies and smile.

Oddly enough they all jumped of their own accord

#Adventure Time With Rekina #im bracing for the indiana jones gifs #i know somewhere at some point he must have jumped off a cliff #i know it's coming

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breathingwithdifficulty · 4 years

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im so fucking done of being stuck in the house with my own sister and it’s becoming very clear that her abusive tendencies haven’t really gone away. she has been commenting on what i eat and what i do during the day (which is not a whole lot but... it’s quarantine. sorry for actually listening to social distancing rules unlike everyone in my house and most of the people in my town). she knows im depressed but her constant negativity and criticism isn’t helping. the whole unfairness of our relationship has become really clear. i basically wait on her hand and foot and when i don’t do something she asks of me, she gets pissed and calls me “lame” or berates me like “its not even that hard” or just “seriously? it’ll take two seconds” like damn bitch do it yourself then. im not your servant just because im your nice little sister.

i don’t ever ask anything of her. literally can’t remember the last time i asked her to do anything for me. i only ever tell her to do stuff like “leave me alone” and “stop messing with that” and “please stop, seriously” and “that hurt” (physically or emotionally) and she NEVER i mean NEVER fucking listens. she doesn’t care. she thinks it’s funny to tease me and torment me and irritate me and then blames me for being too sensitive when i finally snap at her because im pissed off. damn, maybe if you weren’t making it hard for me to breathe by suddenly jumping on me and refusing to get up and leave me alone, i wouldn’t have to push you on the floor and yell at you to get out. maybe if you weren’t constantly hypocritical, i wouldn’t be so irritated with you all the time.

we both have to do our homework at home now which isn’t that big of a deal for me since i can focus a lot better than she can and i know that. but she’s so incredibly inconsiderate. she needs complete silence when she’s doing her homework and says it’s distracting for me to even walk past her when she’s working. so i stay silent. i put headphones in to listen to videos or zoom calls and i warn her if i have to record or talk. i try not to get up and get food or use the bathroom too often. im more than considerate.

however, whenever im doing my homework, she’s facetiming her friend, being on zoom calls without headphones and with the volume on high and her talking at full volume (EVEN AFTER i offered her to use my headphones for her calls multiple times because it’s distracting for me and she was like “of course im not gonna use headphones, that would look silly” like bruh) and singing and talking and literally SCREAMING. like wordless, just screaming because she gets frustrated with her work. bro, i get it. but shut the hell up. god, she would kill me if i did some of the things she does to me while she was working. id literally get cursed and yelled at.

she asks me pretty frequently if i think she’s a good person. i think she’s a good person sometimes. i think she’s too sensitive and can’t take any sort of criticism and lashes out at me because she thinks im pretentious and bratty. she’s straight up told me that she used to resent me (starting from when i was literally a BABY) and still kind of does. she says im much better than i used to be. the only reason she thinks that is because i stopped putting up as much of a fight against her. if i ever say something sassy or rude or even just defend myself, she claims im a dickhead brat who’s spoiled and has a bad attitude. really she’s just a sensitive little bitch.

ive lost four pounds in the past couple weeks because ive been eating less by tracking my calories. i haven’t really been eating a whole lot better but i think four pounds is a pretty good start considering how this is the first time ive really tried and committed to losing weight. but even my sister doesn’t think that’s enough.

i eat a bagel with cream cheese for breakfast. she walks up and says “you know, a bagel is equal to like 5 slices of bread.” yes i know. you’ve told me already this week. you told me a month ago. you keep telling me. im just trying to eat, dude, back off and stop trying to make me feel bad because im not eating fruit smoothies and salad and avocado toast like you are. i get it, you’re skinny and healthy and like to pretend you don’t know it but you and i both know that you do. call yourself fat all you want, but my friends have literally asked if you’re a model, you have maybe an inch thick of stomach fat, i can feel the bumps of your spine when i touch your back, and i can see your ribs when you stretch your arms up.

she knows it makes me feel bad when she calls herself fat and she does not care in the slightest. she’s like “oh im getting pretty chunky oh boy” and then ill make a comment about feeling fat and she’ll be like “oh you’re not fat” like bruh i know you think you’re chunky and i have a lot more fat than you do don’t lie to me.

she told me it makes her feel worse about her hairline when i comment about how im insecure about mine. so i stopped saying anything about it. i told her it makes me feel bad when she comments on how im not doing basic things right (cutting an apple, cleaning the bathroom, vacuuming, sweeping. all real examples of things she says im not good at and calls me stupid. how the fuck is someone BAD at sweeping? the floor’s clean now isn’t that what matters?) and she said “well practice makes perfect” and i told her it makes me feel even worse about myself and she was just like “well you don’t know how to clean and you need to learn.”

i know how to clean. ive cleaned my room. ive cleaned the kitchen. ive cleaned our shared bathroom (she came home when i was just finishing up after deep cleaning it and even doing the parts she said she would do because i was just that nice. she immediately criticized me and said i had cleaned with the wrong cleaner and needed to reclean the whole thing again. i said no because that’s ridiculous and it was about to turn into a fight so like the pushy i am i gave in and cleaned. the whole. bathroom. again. but with a different cleaner that wasn’t “greasy” and “only for oil and grease, not bathrooms” and “smelled bad” because that really matters in the long run i guess). i just don’t do it the quickest or maybe the most efficient or the way she would do it but literally WHO CARES. if the floor is swept why does it matter that i didn’t do it as fast as you would. goddamn.

she came into my room while i was drawing on my digital tablet today. i showed her how it worked and everything and she asked to see something that id drawn and i said no (ive never been comfortable showing my art to other people that aren’t strangers online (lol) and she has consistently taken sketchbooks directly from my hands or gone through them when i was in a different room despite me telling her multiple times not to) and she kept asking for a reason and i just said i didn’t want to. she kept interrogating me and i was like “i don’t know what you want me to say” and she was like “i want a logical answer why you won’t show me” and of course i didn’t really have one and so i was just like “i don’t really have one, i just don’t wanna show you because it makes me uncomfortable” and she got pissy and left. fine, leave, don’t want you in here anyways. stop being so offended that you don’t get unfiltered access to everything in my life.

she’s a biology major. im trying to decide on a vague idea for my future major and i can’t remember how it was brought up but i said something about going into STEM and possibly biology and she was like. “aw don’t do that. i mean if it really makes you happy then go ahead but ill be upset and probably a little pissed.” which okay i get that a bit (eh) but ive never even thought about going into bio so she doesn’t have to worry and i told her as much. and then i asked why she wouldn’t want me to and she was like “because everyone knows you’d be better than me at it and i just want to have like... my thing” (i get that too (but maybe if you did your work on time and actually went to class then you’d be better at it. but whatever)) and i said i probably wouldn’t be better but i get that or whatever. and then i think she made a joke and i laughed and she was a few seconds later like “why do you look so smug? like you’re happy about the fact that i think you’re better than me” and i was like “that’s literally not true” and she was like “everyone likes feeling like they’re smart and you feel like you’re better than me and you’re smug about it” (or something like that) and i had to convince her that not i literally do not and am not smug. damn bitch, insecure much? that pissed me off that she would think that low of me to assume that i ENJOYED her insecurities and felt like i was smarter than her. wow. ive told her countless times in depth and with detail that i believe we both have strengths and weakness and neither of us are better than the other, and she still doesn’t believe me. but whatever.

it’s constant, little things like that. ive always managed to let a lot of them slide and that is one of the only reasons she thinks im such a good sister. that and i lie to her a lot about how i feel about her. she says stuff like “im surprised you haven’t killed me in my sleep yet, you’re too good to me, ive been terrible to you” but still continues. but whatever. ive only been waiting for her to move out for four years now, i guess i can wait a few more months (hopefully only that).

she says she’ll get pissed if i don’t call her every week once we aren’t living together and so i say i will but. i don’t want to. i don’t want to tell her about my life and my worried just to have her criticize them or say im being ridiculous. i don’t want to have to live like this forever. im so tired. so so tired.

im not saying it’s all bad. sometimes our donut runs at 2am are nice. and sometimes she is interested in what im doing when no one else is. sometimes, she gives good advice. sometimes we talk for hours on end. she’s one of the first people i go to when im having problems with me my mom. i trust her with somethings. it’s not all bad

but her constant emotional and verbal abuse has shaped me into a scared, pushover little girl with insecurities, trust issues, and guilt. she’s always said i was the favorite and laughs now and says “i think me being mean to you when we were younger was good for you, it too you down a few pegs so now you’re not so spoiled.” it also traumatized me and gave me self esteem issues, but yeah, haha, at least im not a spoiled brat (but to you, i still am, but only when i don’t do what you want or say what you want me to say). thanks for that.

anyways, it’s been a while since ive made a long rant. it’s past 4am and i woke up at 2:30pm today so it’s probably time to sleep and dread waking up in the morning. nice.

4.18.20 4:22AM

#food mention #ed tw #not specifically mentioned but i talked about weight and body image #body image tw #depression tw #emotional abuse #abuse tw #sisterly chronicles #.mine

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Kravitz’s Moving Castle Chpt 1

Based on this by @tuherrus

Taako had lived in New Elfington all his life, and he was bored with it. Sure, working in a bakery with his sister was the bee’s knees (it combined his two favorite pastimes of magic and baking) but he wanted a little more out of life than baking day in and day out. Lup always told him he sounded like some kind of fairytale princess when he brought up his thoughts.

“I want something more!” She’d say in an exaggerated falsetto.

“You’re the worst!” He’d retaliate by pushing her onto her bed. This’d usually escalate into a slappy fight. It was fun and all, but he felt like she wasn’t taking him seriously. He really did want more from his life than staying in New Elfington and baking. He wanted adventure, like the kind he’d read about in books when he and Lup were little. But then again, if he just left, Lup would be all alone. All they had were each other and he couldn’t just leave her. Not after everything else that had happened in their lives. He sighed as he stirred the batter for the cinnamon rolls. Lup had gone to visit her “boyfriend” at his lab, leaving Taako alone to finish the day’s orders. It wasn’t like she was ditching work, they were almost done after all. Taako could see how happy that nerd Barry made her. Things had been tense lately, and she deserved to be able to see her boyfriend. Lup didn’t deserve to suffer because of the war going on.

“We’re heading out.” One of the junior bakers said. “Do you want to come with us?”

“Nah, I’m gonna finish here.” Taako waved a hand dismissively.

“Do you want any help?” Another asked.

“Nah homies.” Taako shook his whisk. “You guys go have some fun. Y’all deserve it.” So the junior bakers left and Taako finished the cinnamon rolls. He looked out the window while the rolls baked. It was a beautiful day outside, which was probably why they were holding some kind of military parade. It was all military parades all the time these days. Taako just wanted this war to be over. He’d never been one to enjoy violence, not to mention the discourse that came with the topic of war was absolutely unbearable. Suddenly he spotted something in the rolling hills of the Wastes. A strange hodgepodge castle making its way through the area. Kravitz’s castle. There were few people who didn’t know about Kravitz the wizard. Taako didn’t put a lot of stock in the stories, because there was an urban legend for just about everything. Supposedly Kravitz was a wizard who ate the hearts of people he found attractive. Taako was pretty sure he didn’t have anything to worry about. Who would find someone like him attractive? Sure, he was aesthetically pleasing, but he hadn’t really done anything to set him apart from the other elves of New Elfington. Other than...Glamor Springs that was. He’d been cleared of all wrongdoing by the police, but he still felt like it was his fault. If he had just been nicer to Sazed, maybe it wouldn’t have happened. If he had given them a chance...He shook his head quickly. He shouldn’t be thinking about that now. That had been years ago. The oven timer dinged behind him, and he turned back to the job at hand. The cinnamon rolls came out and were frosted before being put into the boxes and stacked up for pickup the next day. With that done, he decided to set off to go visit Lup.

He hadn’t been to Barry’s lab before. Lup had given him the address when she’d first started going out with the scientist, but he’d never actually gone to that place. He left the safety of the bakery, the paper clutched tightly in his hands. He took the packed streetcar to the center of town, and began to navigate the winding sides streets and back alleys. He walked and walked and walked and walked until his feet started to hurt. All the addresses seemed to blur together. He couldn’t find the lab, no matter how he tried. As he glowered at the piece of paper in his hands, he ran into two soldiers. The two soldiers had some time off and had decided to take in the locals, maybe have a little fun. Neither of them had ever done it with an elf before.

“Hey there, you lost?” One of the soldiers asked, leaning up against the wall beside Taako.

“Nah.” Taako tried to push past the two soldiers. “I’m good, hombre.”

“Where’re you going in such a hurry?” The other soldier leaned in close. “You look thirsty. Why don’t you grab a drink with us?”

“I said I’m fine.” Taako said. “I’m going to visit my sister.” He tried once more to push past them, but the first one grabbed his wrist, pulling him forward.

“You scared ‘im.” He said to his friend. “It’s because of your mustache.”

“I think he’s cute when he’s scared.” The second soldier leered. Taako’s heart was pounding out of his chest. In this back street, there was no one there to help him. He didn’t have any weapons, and the soldiers had him in a position where he couldn’t easily fight back. He was trapped.

“There you are.” He felt a hand on his shoulder. “I’ve been looking all over for you.” Taako turned slowly, and his breath caught in his throat. Standing beside him was one of the most handsome men he’d ever seen. The man was tall and broad-shouldered, his skin just a few shades lighter than Taako’s. His cheekbones could cut bread. Taako almost fainted on the spot.

“Who the Hell are you?” One of the soldiers asked.

“I’m his friend.” The man said, smiling. “Now, why don’t you take a walk?” He flicked his finger and the soldiers assumed a marching stance and marched away. Neither of the soldiers knew what was going on, nor would they. They were gone before they could fully process what was happening.

“Forgive them, they didn’t mean to hurt you.” The man said. “Now, where are you going? Allow me escort you along your way.”

“That’d be pretty awesome, my man.” Taako said, grinning his gap-toothed smile. He held up the address. The man studied it for a moment, then nodded. He held Taako a little closer, slipping his arm around the elf’s waist.

“Act natural. I’m being followed.” He whispered, his breath tickling Taako’s already rather sensitive ear. “Let’s walk.” And so they started walking, Taako taking this opportunity to lean as heavily as he could on this mysterious man. Granted, the guy was suspicious as hell, and putting on the most obviously fake accent Taako had ever heard, but that didn’t matter. This guy was a dreamboat and Taako absolutely had to get his contact information. His bliss was interrupted by some very strange creatures. They were humanoid in appearance, although they appeared to be made of some kind of black goop. They were dressed in ridiculously gaudy clothing that looked straight out of Taako’s dreams. The man pulled them down another side street, away from the creatures.

“My apologies. I didn’t mean to get you involved.” The man said to Taako. The creatures seemed to be pouring in from all sides, everywhere they went, every street they turned down the creatures were there. Soon they seemed to be surrounded. That was when the man did something entirely unexpected. He stopped, tensed, and then they were in the air. Taako’s eyes widened. They were...flying. They were really flying. Taako tensed up, curling into a ball.

“Straighten out your legs.” The man said. Taako obeyed. “Now start walking.” Surprisingly, he could walk almost as if they were on solid ground. It was magic. It had to be. The man was a wizard. Taako had somehow run into a wizard. But was he Kravitz? As they floated over the town, Taako discreetly studied the man for any distinguishing features that could confirm him to be Kravitz. The man wore a sharp black suit, and had a raven skull on a chain around his neck, resting easily on his red tie. Taako had heard Kravitz had a thing about ravens.

“So, what’s your name, handsome?” Taako asked.

“I have many names.” The man said. “But most call me Kravitz.” Taako snorted. It was adorable how dramatic this man was.

“Kravitz, huh? Like that wizard who eats hearts?”

“The very same.” Kravitz smiled. “Are you afraid of me?”

“Of you?” Taako snorted and shook his head. “Nah.” Kravitz seemed genuinely perplexed by this answer. His brown furrowed and he looked away from Taako. The elf could see what he assumed to be Barry’s lab in the distance. It was a big wooden building with smoke billowing out the chimneys. He was surprised how quickly they had gotten over there. They reached the balcony of the lab, and Kravitz deposited Taako on the floor, perching himself on the railing.

“I’ll distract them.” He said. “But you should wait a little before going out, alright?”

“Sure.”

“Good boy.” Kravitz winked at him and jumped off the railing. Taako sighed dreamily. Well, that had certainly been an interesting first encounter, but not unpleasant. A few moments later, the door to the balcony slammed open and Lup came running out.

“Bro! Lucas said you floated down out of the sky!” She said, grabbing him by his shoulders.

“Hello to you too, Lulu.” Taako said. “No, my trip over wasn’t too bad.”

“Oh, right, sorry.” Lup put up her hands. “Hey bro. What’s up? You floated down out of the sky!”

“Uh...Do you guys want to use my office?” Lucas Miller poked his face through the doorway. “The people in the street might get freaked out.”

“Thanks Lucas.” So the siblings moved to Lucas’ office. As soon as Lup shut the door, she was back in Taako’s face, demanding to know exactly what had happened. Her brother was decently good at levitation magic, but not enough to carry himself all the way across town from the bakery to the lab.

“I might’ve met a guy~” Taako smiled slyly. “Some soldier schmucks were bothering me and this total drreamboat swooped in and saved me.”

“Did you get his name? Tell me you got his name.”

“Kravitz.”

“Wait, like THE Kravitz?” Lup’s eyes widened. “The one who eats guys’ hearts?”

“I thought he ate girls’ hearts too.” As Taako spoke, he realized he didn’t want to be having this conversation. It wasn’t like he was ever going to see that gorgeous hunk of man meat again. Kravitz was some big important wizard guy who had places to be and people to see. There was a war going on after all, so Kravitz was probably right in the middle of it. He’d probably forget Taako within the day.

“Nah, bro, he’s gay as hell.” Lup said. “But seriously! You met THE Kravitz! And he didn’t eat your heart! Must’ve been love at first sight or something.”

“I don’t know about that.” Taako shrugged a little. “He probably only goes after guys who are more accomplished. Who have stuff to offer, y’know. He wouldn’t be interested in someone like me.”

“Taako.” Lup’s ears drooped. “Don’t say stuff like that. I know I give you a hard time about your whole ‘I want more’ thing, but if you really feel that way you should go follow your dreams.”

“I can’t just leave you.” Taako said.

“Bro,” Lup put her hands on her brother’s shoulders. “Things aren’t like when we were kids. I’ll be okay if you want to go out and live your dreams. Don’t put my happiness above yours. Okay?” She smiled and pinched his cheek.

“Okay.” Taako rubbed his cheek and smiled back. “I should probably get back to the bakery now. Gotta get the rest of the stuff packaged up.”

“Stay safe. I hear the Witches of Wonderland are in the area.”

“The Witches of Wonderland?” Taako frowned.

“Those weird siblings who live in the Wastes.” Lup explained. “The ones Magnus went after.”

“Oh.” Taako’s face fell. He remembered them. A friend of theirs, Magnus, had gone looking for Wonderland a few years earlier, about the time the war had started. He hadn’t come back, leading most everyone to assume he was dead. Lup and Taako had never given up hope though. Someone like Magnus couldn’t just have died....He couldn’t have.

“Anyway, be careful.” Lup said. “And if you see that wizard again, get some.” Taako rolled his eyes and left with a small smile. He made his way through the streets, careful not to run into the soldiers he’d met before. Thankfully, they didn’t seem to be anywhere in sight. Unfortunately, someone else was waiting for him when he returned to the bakery. He entered, locking the door behind him before going to package the other pastries. Suddenly he heard the door open.

“Sorry, we’re closed.” He said, turning to face his visitors. It was a man and a woman, maybe a little older than Taako himself, dressed in black clothing that almost looked oily and malleable. Their skin was a sickly green, as if a contagion flowed through their veins. They had obviously been elves at one point, judging from their ears and level of beauty, but Taako wasn’t entirely sure what they were now.

“What a cute little bakery.” The woman said to her companion, as though Taako wasn’t even there. “It’s so quaint and homely~”

“Just the kind of place Keetz would like.” The man replied.

“What a cute little elf.” The woman glided over, inclining Taako’s face towards hers with one hand. Taako immediately recoiled.

“We’re closed.” He said again. “You guys gotta leave.”

“So unfriendly.” The man said. “Where’s all that charm you showed Keetz? Or are we not your type?”

“Look, I don’t know who Keetz is, but I really need to close up shop.” Taako snapped, feeling his cheeks redden. “So if y’all would just move along that would be great.”

“He’s so rude.” The woman turned to her companion. “What do you think we should do about that?” Her tone of voice scared Taako a little bit, and he was struck with the feeling that he had just angered some people he really shouldn’t have.

“.....You’re the Witches of Wonderland, aren’t you?” He asked in a low voice.

“Oooh! He’s clever!” The man said.

“My name is Lydia!” The woman announced. “And this is my brother Edward.” Lydia and Edward. The people who had taken one of his best friends from him. Taako’s hands clenched into fists at his sides.

“What are you going to do to me?”

“Well....” Lydia tapped one shapely finger on her chin. “There are so many things we could take from you.”

“Your ability to cook, to speak, your memories of those you love.” Edward listed the things off on his fingers. “But I think the best thing to take would be...”

“Your beauty.” Lydia finished. “Elves are known for beauty, aren’t they? Taking that away from you would be, well it would be quite awful, wouldn’t it?” Before Taako could answer, the siblings seemed to pass through him. He felt cold as they phased through his body, every hair standing up. Then the twins were at the door.

“Bye bye little elf.” Edward said.

“And do give our regards to Keetz when you see him.” Lydia blew him a kiss. They slipped out the door and were gone. Taako stood where he was for a few minutes, trying to calm himself down. His heart pounded against his chest, and for a moment he thought it might pound out of his chest. Finally he managed to get himself under control and went up to his room to check out the damage. Taako didn’t consider himself to be a vain person, who did, but being an elf came with certain...y’know...standards. Elves were hella judgemental, and even looking plain was considered to be taboo. Appearances were practically everything to elves and those...those bastards knew it! Taako glowered at his reflection on the mirror. His lips were far less plump, his skin not as soft, his hair limper and less fluffy. Even his ears were droopy. He groaned, falling onto the bed facefirst. Okay, well, it looked like he was going to be seeing Kravitz after all. He was now cursed, he could feel it crawling all over his skin, and if anyone could break it, it was Kravitz.

“Bro? You still up?” He heard Lup enter the bakery downstairs. “I’m assuming the answer’s yes because the lights are still on.”

“I’m upstairs!” He yelled. There was a click as the lights were turned off and Lup ascended the stairs up to Taako’s room.

“Is something wrong?” She asked, opening the door.

“Yes.”

“What is it?” She immediately ran to his side, rolling him over. She frowned when she saw his face and pulled back for a moment.

“The Witches of Wonderland came in here.” Taako said. “I’m cursed now, Lulu.”

“Don’t call me that.” She said, almost out of habit. “What are we gonna do about this?”

“What do you think I’m gonna do?” Taako asked. “I’m gonna go find Kravitz.” Lup blinked and nodded slowly.

“Okay. Yeah. I guess that’s a good idea.” She said. “It is a little dangerous though. You could run into the Witches again. What were they like anyway?”

“They seemed kinda like they were going for the creepy twin thing, maybe trying a little too hard.” Taako waved a hand a tad dismissively. “They were pretty fucking weird, y’know?”

“I would expect nothing less.” Lup nodded appreciatively. “We could totally out-twin them though.”

“Totally.” Taako yawned. “I’m...I’m gonna go to bed now. Gotta be up early tomorrow to find Krav’s castle.”

“Okay.” Lup got up. “Remember, be safe. I want you to come back, eventually.” Taako nodded and curled up in a ball to sleep.

The next morning, Taako packed a little rucksack with food, some clothes, and a spare wand. He put on his travelling clothes, which were by far the plainest thing he owned, and his travelling hat. He refused to look in a mirror, not wanting to see himself again. As he was leaving, Lup pressed her umbrastaff into his hands.

“Take it.” She said. “You’re gonna need it more than me.”

“Thanks.” He hooked the staff in the crook of his arm. “Well....This is it.” Lup put her hands on Taako’s shoulders, looking very serious.

“You find that guy and you climb him like a tree.”

“Curse first.” Taako said. “Then I’ll get some.”

“Right. Of course.” She opened the door for him. He took a deep breath and set out. He kept his head down, his hat pulled low over his face. No one looked his way because of all the soldiers and parades around. No one cared about a single elf making his way through the streets. It took him the entire day to get out of the city, which left him far too much time to think about what he was doing. Part of him was excited to finally be going out and going on an adventure, while another part was absolutely terrified. He was going after a wizard who supposedly ate people’s hearts after being cursed by some of the most dangerous witches this side of the country.

“I’m too delicate for this.” He said to himself as he reached the edge of the town. Once he got there he hitched a ride on a wagon that could take him into the Wastes.

“You want to go into the Wastes?” The smaller of the two women asked. “Are you sure that’s a good idea?”

“He probably has his reasons, Hurley.” The taller woman said. “Although I agree, it’s a bad idea.”

“I’m just looking for a friend of mine.” Taako said, trying his best to act cool.

“You’re crazy for wanting to go out there right now.” The taller woman shook her head. “The Witches just came by the other day. You do not want to run into them.”

“Sloane! You’re gonna scare him!” Hurley shoved her girlfriend gently.

“Look, I’ll give you 100 gold pieces to take me to the Wastes.” Taako held out a bag of money. “Please, I need to find him.” Sloane and Hurley exchanged a look, their brows furrowed. Finally, they gestured for him to get on the cart. He sat in the back, right behind most of the hay. It was a pretty bumpy ride, which was more than a little uncomfortable, but he had to get to Kravitz no matter what. Not only to break his curse, but to find out what happened to Magnus.

“Are you sure you want to do this?” Hurley asked when they got to their destination.

“We can still take you back to town.” Sloane said.

“Thanks, but this is something I have to do.” Taako said. Then he got his bags and set off into the wilderness. Sloane and Hurley watched him go before unloading their shipment and heading back to the city. The going in the Wastes was tough. The terrain was rocky and steep, and Taako was not made for hiking. He needed a walking stick or something. Grumbling to himself, he looked around for a long stick to use. He saw one sticking out of a bush to the side of the road.

“Perfect!” He ran over and started pulling. At first, the stick wouldn’t budge. It was in there pretty tightly. Taako stood back, breathing heavily. Okay. This was going to require a little more effort. He spat on his hands, rubbed them together, then jumped onto the stick. Taako hit the ground and the stick careened out of the bush, going flying. As it turned out, the stick wasn’t a stick at all, but the base of a scarecrow. The scarecrow was big, taller than Taako and much broader. It was wooden, looking a little like the store mannequins in town. It wore a white cape and had a scar where its left eye would have been.

“Hey there big guy.” Taako laughed a little. “What were you doing in there?” The scarecrow just jumped up and down, acting like it was rather excited to see him. So it was a magic scarecrow. It reminded him a little bit of Magnus, honestly.

“Hey, you think you could help me find Kravitz’s castle?” He asked. “I kinda need to find that guy. Bounce once for yes, two for no.” The scarecrow bounced once, then started bouncing away. Taako scrambled up and followed as best he could. The scarecrow hopped pretty fast, obviously eager to help.

“Slow down, big guy!” Taako yelled. “My legs aren’t as long as yours!” The scarecrow stopped and turned, hopping in place until Taako caught up then hopping away again. This pattern continued until they entered a dense fog. That was when the scarecrow stopped. He hopped in place, Taako standing beside him.

“What’re we waiting for?” He stage whispered. The scarecrow hopped, almost seeming to point deeper into the fog. Taako strained his eyes, managing to make out an outline in the fog. Soon though he didn’t have to squint. A hulking shape lunged out of the fog. It was a large building held up on four mechanical legs. It wasn’t so much a castle as something that a child might have cobbled together with various parts of other different buildings. Taako’s heart began to pound. This was it. The castle stopped right in front of him, the door inches from him. The scarecrow motioned to it.

“I guess this is it.” Taako looked back at the scarecrow. “Thanks for everything, buddy. Hope I’ll be seeing you again.” Then he opened the door and went inside. The room he entered was dimly lit by a fire burning in an ornate fireplace. Books and magical artifacts were crammed into every single possible shelf, but the room was surprisingly neat and clean. Taako looked around, checking every possible nook and cranny for someone else. Once he was sure he was alone, he sat down in front of the fire, completely worn out.

“Who are you?” A woman’s voice came from somewhere Taako couldn’t quite place. Then he looked at the fire before him. A woman’s face flickered in the flames.

“Oh. Hey.” Taako blinked and looked down at the fire. “Name’s Taako Taaco. Who’re you?”

“I’m Raven.” The fire said. “I’m a demon. And you have a nasty curse on you. You come here to get Kravitz to take it off ya?” She seemed rather smug. It probably wasn’t the first time someone had come to the castle hoping to get a spell removed.

“Yep.” There was no use in lying to her.

“Okay.” Raven grinned. “Well, I’ll put in a good word for you. But in exchange, you have to help me sort out the curse that’s on Kravitz and I.” Taako frowned. Kravitz had a curse on him? And this lady, or demon, wanted him to fix it?

“How am I supposed to do that?” He asked.

“You’ve got a lot of magical power, kid.” Raven said shrugging her nonexistent shoulders. “I have no doubt that you can do it. Now, you should get some sleep now. I’m sure you’ve had a long day and you need a break. You can talk to Kravitz in the morning.”

“Mm.” Taako was already dozing off. As he slipped off into sleep, he wondered whether or not Kravitz would be excited to see him again. He was certainly looking forward to their meeting.

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phangirlof · 7 years

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Description: Sometimes the guys can’t keep secrets. Sometimes that’s okay.

Genre: Fluff, High School! AU

Pairing: Oh Sehun x reader

Word Count: 2,779

I’d been here at Baekhyun’s house for two hours, listening to the guys drone on and on about lame guy stuff. I didn’t quite know what they were talking about right now. I had tuned them all out awhile ago. It was me and four of the guys: Jongin, Chanyeol, Baek, and Kyungsoo. I loved them, but not enough to listen to them talk about… sports?

“But yo, when are tryouts?” I heard Chanyeol ask to no one in particular. Baekhyun answered almost immediately. “Next Thursday, but you have to have an updated physical and gear.” Chanyeol groaned. “That’s not even the best part. The gear has to be brand new. Literally fresh off the shelves and directly to the field or you practically won’t be allowed to tryout.” Baek’s statement made Chan groan louder. “Ugh, I hate tryout season. Like honestly, what’s wrong with the gear we already have? I literally replaced all my equipment last season. More importantly, what if we don’t even make the team. Then we have all this spanky new gear for nothing!” He ranted.

Kyungsoo spoke next. He didn’t speak often when they had conversations like this, but when he did it was good. “You suck at baseball, so you’re the only one that has to worry about that.” This made all the guys erupt into laughter, and even I broke out into a small giggle. Chan’s face turned red, partly from embarrassment. “Aye, leave him alone. At least he can make it to tryouts Mr.I’m-too-scared-to-tryout-for-basketball-so-I’m-just-gonna-hideout-in-the-library.” Kyungsoo gave Jongin a death glare. “That’s not what happened you doof. I had a stupid research paper to finish and the coaches made me go to the library to work on it.” Jongin cowered as Kyungsoo spoke. I didn’t know why though. Jongin was the only one that could get away with saying stuff like that it him. It was obvious that he had a soft spot for him. “Yeah, leave him alone guys. Besides, even if he could try out, he’s too short to make a basket.” Kyungsoo didn’t hesitate to jerk on a strand of Baekhyun’s hair as the guys burst into another bout of laughter. The digs the guys got on Kyungsoo was what usually got them the most riled up, mainly because it didn’t happen often seeing as how nobody wanted to get killed by one of his death stares.

I honestly couldn’t stand listening to them go on. “Can you guys not be so boring? I’m practically falling asleep.” All the guys looked at me with playful annoyance. “Did we ask you to speak?” Baekhyun asked, mocking a face of disgust. “Cause I don’t recall.”

“Aye, I don’t recall asking for permission to speak, not that I’d let any of you losers to grant me that right.”

The guys all let out in a chorus of “Ooooo.” Chanyeol was next to speak.“So sassy.” Baekhyun mumbled something under his breath right after him. I didn’t quite catch it all, but I caught some of it. “No wonder… on you…”

“Would you like to say that again Baek? Maybe a little louder?” I said, mocking a stern tone we’d all heard Baekhyun’s mother use with him. He was quite the sassafrass. He was constantly getting in trouble with his parents because he couldn’t stop himself from saying something sarcastic or snarky. He rolled eyes. “I SAID, NO WONDER OUR SASSY MAKNAE HAS A CRUSH ON YOU!” He shouted even though we were all barely two feet away from each other. “Smartass.” I huffed crossing my arms. The guys got back into their previous conversation. I snatched my phone up from its place on the table behind us. I started mindlessly scrolling through social media. I wasn’t looking at anything in particular, I just wanted something to prevent me from going completely insane while the guys talked about… hockey?

I grabbed one of the cups off the table, and took a big gulp of the fizzy soda. No wonder our sassy maknae likes you. Baekhyun’s words from earlier popped back into my mind causing me to spit my drink out. It flew from my mouth and straight from my nostrils too. “Eww Y/n, what the fuck?” Chanyeol squealed. For someone so manly, he sure did squeal and scream alot. “sEHUN LIKES ME?!?!” Chanyeol nodded. He and Jongin started wiping the soda off the table, Baekhyun was drying himself off, and Kyungsoo had moved to the other side of the room. He’d just barely avoided getting soda spit on him because he had gotten up to fix himself more drink at the same time soda was spewing from my nose.

“He’s had feelings for you since like practically day one.” Jongin said just as he finished wiping off the table. “Yeah.” Baekhyun agreed. “It’s so obvious too. He’s always drooling over you when we’re all together.” My jaw dropped. There was no way in hell, Sehun, of all people, liked me. I had a major crush on him, and the universe was never ever kind enough to let your crush reciprocate feelings. I got a rag from the laundry room, wet it, and made sure the table was clean. Once I was done, I threw the rag back at Baekhyun for him to put it where it goes. Anytime any of us tried to help him straighten up the place he got upset.

“You guys can’t be serious.” I said. The guys loved to joke around, so I wholeheartedly believed this was another one of their pranks. “You should see the way he looks at you.” Kyungsoo stated, making his way back to the table once he was sure it was clean. “And when you’re not around, we can never get him to shut up about you. Y/n, this. Y/n, that. Makes me wanna slap the kid sometimes.” Jongin added. Something in me still didn’t quite believe them, but regardless I spilled my own feelings to them. “Well, I sorta maybe have feelings for him too.” I whispered, covering my face as soon as the words had left my lips.

“OH MY GOD! WE CAN SET YOU TWO UP!” Baekhyun screamed, jumping up and down in the process. Matchmaker, one of his favorite things to do. “No! He doesn’t know.” I said, feeling my face heat up. I knew exactly how the guys were, now that we were on this topic it would be awhile before we were on to something else. “You didn’t know how he felt about you, but look at you now.” Chanyeol said, nonchalantly shrugging his shoulders as if this wasn’t sort of big deal. “Bye Yeollie, that’s different.” I whined, I was way too chicken to tell Sehun about my tiny, huge, crush on him. “Honestly, I’m content with him never knowing.” Before I had the chance to say anything else, my phone vibrated in my pocket. It was a text from Jongdae.

From Dae: Okay but like dont hate me

From Dae: butttttttttttttttttt

From Dae: Something may or may not have slipped…

“I say you just waltz up to him and tell him how you feel.” Jongin suggested from his seat across from me at the table. “Jongin, that’s lame.” I said, quickly replying to the ominous text message I’d just received.

To Dae: Explain

“Or you could have one of us tell him, like me for example?” Baekhyun said, I was looking at him, but I could tell he was wearing the biggest grin of his life. “You only want to do it because you like being in other people’s business.” His first reply was a scoff. “Not true, I enjoy being kind and helping others around me.”

From Dae: SOOOO likeeeee

From Dae: I love you Y/n, you know that right??

I was starting to get impatient. What had he done this time? “Text him.” “Call him.” “Meet up with him. “Send him a letter.” “Send him an email.” “Send him a snapchat.” “Post in on Instagram.” “Slide in his DM’s.” The guys just starting shouting out suggestions. I couldn’t help but giggle as some of the options started to get ridiculous.

From Dae: Hunnie knows you like him

From Dae: dont kill me pls

I screamed as I typed out my reply. Jongdae was one of the first, and for a while the only, people to know about my crush on Sehun. The other was Yixing.

To Dae: HWO DOES SOEMTHIN LIKE THAT JUSST SLIP?!?!???!!??! >

To Dae: UGH im so gonna punch you next time I see you

To Dae: ur such a punk, i hate you

I didn’t notice, but the guys, all except for Baekhyun who moved to the other room to take a phone call, had moved behind me to peek over my shoulder. They were reading my messages. “Whelp, looks like you don’t even gotta worry about telling him now.” Chanyeol laughed, ruffling my hair, something he knew I hated with a passion. I punched his shoulder for revenge. “Leave me alone you crusty heathen.” I said, pushing the red haired giant away from me. He stumbled, and hit his side on the kitchen counter. I could tell the blow to his hip hurt, Chanyeol burst into a fit of giggles. He was so odd.

“Hey guys,” Baekhyun said. He tossed his phone back on the table, where it was pre-phone call. “Sehun and the others are coming over. Also what do you guys want to eat.” The four shouted food suggestions at Baekhyun. I didn’t understand how he understood all the clamour, but I was more focused on the fact that Sehun would be here any minute

From Dae: i luv you tho :’(

From Dae: Also we’re coming to Baek’s

Hearing the fact again made me scream.

To Dae: I KNOW

I pretty much continued screaming even though about thirty minutes had passed. I screamed even more when I heard a knock on the door. Luckily it only turned out to be the pizza we had ordered. We were supposed to wait for everyone to get here, but I was so anxious it was making me hungry. I ended up scarfing down close to a whole pizza by myself.

We always get like five orders of breadsticks, and I ate about one and a half of those. They weren’t even that good, but I was so nervous to see Sehun I couldn’t stop myself. I actually began pacing around the room as we awaited the other guys’ arrival. I was shook beyond belief. How was he gonna react? What was he gonna say? Was he even going to talk to me? Was everything going to be awkward the rest of the night? I didn’t know what to do, so when another knock came to the door I ended up screaming once more and hiding in Baekhyun’s room. I could hear Chanyeol laugh at me as I did so, but I didn’t care.

To Dae: Meet me in Baekhyun’s room ASAP

I assumed he got my message when about ten minutes later I heard a knock on the door. I had locked it just in case. “Open up!” He shouted through the door. I hurriedly unlocked it and went back to pacing. “Jongdae, I can barely breathe!” I uttered, my nerves causing my hands to start shaking. “Is that so?” I expected to hear Jongdae’s voice, but instead I was met with that of Sehun’s much deeper one. “WHY ARE YOU HERE?!?!?!” I screamed for the umpteenth time today. “The guys pushed me in here and said they wouldn’t let me out until we talked, so here I am.” I didn’t know what to do or say. Literally the only thing I could think to do was scream. But that was off the table considering I didn’t think the guys wanted to hear me do that again.

le boyz gc: I hate all of you

Eventually Sehun broke the silence which was different seeing as how besides Kyungsoo, he was the quietest out of all the guys.

“How long have you liked me?”

I almost choked because of his boldness. I mean leave it to Sehun to get straight to the point. “What do you mean?” I laughed nervously. “I’ve never liked you.” I’ve liked you since middle school.

“Don’t lie to me.” He said casually, moving from leaning against the bedroom door to sitting on Baekhyun’s bed. “Jongdae told me you’ve had a crush on me for a while now.” I mentally cursed Jongdae. Remind me not to tell any of the guys if I ever develop a crush on literally ANYONE EVER AGAIN!

.“For the record, I’ve liked you since that first time we all hung out at Chanyeol’s place.” I tried thinking back to the first time we ever went to Chan’s house. It was quite hard to manage seeing as how we’re always either at his or Baekhyun’s house. “What’s so special about us hanging out that one time?” I asked, trying to avert from the subject of me liking him. “I don’t know really.” He started. He stopped looking at me, and focused all his attention on his twiddling thumbs. “Just something about you struck out to me. It made me what to get to know you better.” “Are you glad you did?” I asked in a small voice. Sehun nodded vigorously. “It was the best decision I ever made to be honest.”

I could feel a warmth course through my body at his words. Now I have to tell him. I took a deep breath and finally spilled the truth. “I’ve had a crush on you since before high school. And ever since then just the thought of you makes me happy beyond belief.” I puffed, still not wanting to admit my true feelings for him. I looked over at Sehun. His entire face was lit up in result of what I’d told him. But he went from beaming to smirking in two seconds flat. He sat up off the bed, and stood about a foot away from me. “See how easy that was.” I punched his arm, causing him to start laughing. “Leave me alone.” After those words, he pulled me into a tight hug. I buried my head in his chest. I was able to get a whiff of his cologne, it was strong but not too overbearing. It was pleasant, but at the same time it was a savory scent. I didn’t want him to let go anytime soon, however we jumped away from each other as we heard Baekhyun yell “THEY BETTER NOT BE HAVING SEX IN MY ROOM, ON MY BED!!” and the door swing open.

The guys piled into the doorway. “Ew, look at the lovebirds.” Minseok teased from the front of the huddle. His words caused both Sehun and I to turn bright red from embarrassment. “I bet they were making out.” Chanyeol butted in, sticking his head farther into the room. “Shut up Chan!” I said, covering up my face as it got even brighter.

“Come on guys, pizza’s getting cold and we’re about to put on a movie.” Junmyeon said. I gave him an understanding nod. I went to speak, but before I could Jongin interrupted me. “Oh Y/n’s not hungry. She practically ate like three pizzas before you guys got here. Sehun had her super stressed out.” Everyone broke out into laughter, causing all my embarrassment levels to skyrocket. I buried my face in my hands, so no one would see just how red my face was getting. “It was more like one, let me live.” I pouted. Sehun wrapped his arm around my waist, and pulled me closer to him. “It’s okay babe.” He whispered in my ear. I ended up smiling like an idiot at his words. The guy I like just called me babe. What a world!

“Stop being gross, you’ve been together for like five seconds.” Baekhyun said, wearing an over exaggerated look of disgust. I couldn’t help but shake my head at him. We hadn’t talked about us actually dating yet. “Hey you guys, we should choose tonight’s movies carefully. The two love birds might get a little risky throughout them.” Kyungsoo said from the middle of the crowd of guys. This time Sehun and I joined in on the guy’s laughter. One by one, everyone eventually turned around and left the bedroom. Sehun and I exited the room, his arm still draped around my shoulder. Before we got into the living room, he placed a kiss on my forehead. Maybe we weren’t together just yet, but I could definitely get used to this.

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whimsically-ominously-auspice · 4 years

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So there is talk of canceling all the NHRA races ajd only travelling to the 4 lane race tracks.

The 34% that's good want to help with the human trafficking situation. For which we would split up because its safer that way.

Thus it would create a longer break.

So then we would work a way to do the 20 races left and all the qualifying and eliminations.

The 1 thing that bugs me about the 4 lane tracks is that 3 cars are eliminated.

So we could change it so that one car is eliminated per elimination race. The slowest.

That would completely change the racing dramatically but for the competition rounds those last 5 i think is fairest quite honestly. I used to play with Hot Wheels and my cars raced, flew, jumped from the chairs/cliffs and landed with just a crunch down and dust kick up and swerve and ready to go. They'd jump from the chair to the coffee table. So I know a little bit about cars... I mean... We did the whole back up rush hour traffic through the kitchen when Denise was cooking to piss her off :D That's a 30 car back up that moved one kitchen tile at a time. Shed be screaming and yelling and i would tell her "they're stuck in traffic. Hold on I'll get the cop and he will speed them up" Then she would yell at me about my police car cause it was trashed. "Oh that's because yesterday i had to rock him under the chair and smash him for punishment because he let the Dukes of Hazard get away again. I swear he does it on purpose. No one is that dumb. But tomorrow he chases the blue car who is no fun. Like you the mom and he smashes into it and wrecks up more so Then they both get smashed up under the rocking chair. Hey you're fat you think you could sit in the chair and really break them?" Purple car days were good. I had 2. And they both popped up in the back and the purple ones always let the cops win. They made the cops feel as good as they looked. So they weren't friends or enemies but neutral. They hung out together sometimes ans smoked pot. I usually put them on the Care Bear vinyl record player for that And let them spin.

And so that has nothing to do with drag racing because my cars didn't do that shit. Like never.

They had business. The cops determined who was fastest. And who had a bigger heart.

So if we did like 3 races in one that would be 6 days of qualifying. Then 3 days of eliminations.

But if we are using 4 lanes. I think we should take advantage of that and eliminate one car per race... So that would be 2 days of racing and then we can do 2 day of regular eliminations or so a 6 day set of eliminations of eliminating only 1 car per race.

So the thing is time and cash.

And the thing is 4 days of 2 long days of racing and 2 short days.

Or 6-8 days of long racing.

I personally think the 1 car elimination is more fair and more enjoyable as more people are racing during The day

I think financially it would be worth it.

I mean the point to race is to be in that car. So being in the car is most important.

Sure it would be tiring but we could take a break or just keep twerking it straight through.

Have 3 sets of racing per day as opposed to 4 yet also we could do 7 sets of racing.

We can do 5 Then 4 then 5 then 6 etc. Or 7 then 3 the next day.

Jam pack a day full to the hilt then have a short day the next day and get in a full 10.

Also with 64% gone there's not gonna be so many drivers... So that makes a difference.

Tree tells me the ratio.

10 drivers left funny car.

20 top fuel alcohol

14 top fuel nitro

5 pro mod

10 pro sports

15 motorcycle

With 1420 mechanics for the above and 74 drivers.

Only 20 motorcycle mechanics.

So we have a problem with only statistical avg of 2 mechanics per car.

So we will need to hire. So I've lit some cars to hire. So 7000 have been lit. And then administration will live mostly so that at least is ok.

So idk who i lit because it was magic and we will double check what I did. And then they should have mechanical experiences or ability to follow directions. Im told almost all are mechanics.

I never hire people i know so don't be offended. That is up to someone else to light up. But if they're child less then yes. If they have kids then they need a family plan. I don't assume my family wants to do what I have my palm prints in. They all make their own lives. But i do have 2 cousins. 1 i had talked to years ago. Single. And now another who is now single and kidless due to DNA4U. And so tree offered to talk to some. I don't like getting into family drama and all that dynamics. I don't like people in mine. So it's not an easy job. Its hard. So Tree will inquire and light it up for call ins. Theres a short interview process about abilities to place in the correct job.

So currently there are over 400 drivers total. And over 7020.

And we will have 260 drivers total and 3314 mechanics.

So like i thought before it could balance out almost exactly. But at the same time we can get more drivers and more mechanics.

I have Hire D at 700 and Hire M at 25,000.

So you'll want to phase it out. At home schooling on the computer with tests and then training. Also sending parts can work but only after they have worked on them in a class room or on car. Or both

Its easier to sit down 40 people and have 15 people walk around to make sure those 40 have installed parts correctly in a class room and examine each part that way than have each in a car. It's more spacious and etc

Then move to a garage eventually and have each person assemble the entire car piece by piece.

If they don't know the whole car Then they don't have business touching it. I think.

Cause If they bump something over there and mess it up well they dont know what it does or why it's important and dont wanna get in trouble so they keep their mouth shut and the driver dies.

So at least they can fix it If they don't want to admit they hit it.

But more so they can say the lever for the thingy on the doodads turned left with anatomical correct words.

And they can all be tuners and all be crew chief and they're all trained equal

And they can pick which part they enjoy more

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Episode #1 & 2: "so that was fun, and by fun I mean hell" - Ahrre

So I'm so confused right now lol. Like I feel like discord should have a similar format to skype, but maybe I'm just dumb and cant figure it out. Also the only people I know/heard of are on the other tribe which is fun. Hopefully I can set myself up so my lack of understanding Discord doesn't make me look like a liability to the rest of my tribe.

we legit just got into our tribes.. missus sweyn.. LOL. i legit don't know ANYONE!! APART FROM MY BABY RYAN!! LIKE WHO ARE THESE PPL? liek i've heard of rhys and malik from like other orgs but the other people like god.. why can't I just have my circlejerk like in emvv. ): and idk WHO IS EVNE ON THE OTHER TRIBE WHICH MAKES IT WORSE I COUD HAVE LIKE A BUNCH OF RLY STRONG PLAYERS who are gunna win every single immunity challenge.. and i ain't wantin to go premerge nnn. uhm. ya. thats my mood rn. Xo

Oh wow, hi it’s me, Mo. I’m going into this game with an advantage of not having a social life so I can be more active. I like my tribe so far everyone’s really nice. I only know Fabricio because he won the game I got PoTS on. But I think I’m going to withhold that information of him winning his last game because I kinda wanna be allies.

First impressions of my tribe, they’re pretty cute I guess I like people well enough but I’m always nervous about pre existing relationships people may have in other communities so that’ll be fun to manoeuvre around my plan is just to lay low be social and hopefully not stick out as a target

deadass the challenge has barely started and wes already has 2 images.. meanwhile his ass has prob spoke in the tribe chat like once and he aint comin in my pms anytime soon so. LAMJHNFG . better hope his social game saves him over the physical x

this is my 3rd one already but this is important. linus is the first person to say haha to me. TWO! FUCKING! HA'S!!!!!! JUST SAY LOL!!!! SAY LMAO!!! IDGAF!! Omg this is geniunely my pet peeve and i wanna scream a a a a a a a a a a aa

Man, I'm back with Tobi from Survivor Ko Chang and that scares me to death. He claims he wants to start on a clean slate with me and work together again, but I don't trust him one bit and the first opportunity I have to take him out, I'm gonna do it, cuz I can't have somebody like him around. Bad for my game.

On the other hand of the spectrum, I know Michael from Zwooper and we've always had a good relationship so I think that's one person I can fully align with right out of the gate. I've also worked up some social connections with Dani, Jose and Ahrre so far, and they all seem pretty chill for the most part.

Right now, my focus is to win. I'm gonna go hard in this first immunity challenge and rack up as many points as I can. Losing the first challenge always sucks and I wanna make sure that doesn't happen for me again.

Okay im like mad excited to play this game. One Ive been kinda down, and this should help me be able to invest my time into something and potentially help me feel better.

Seeing this cast. I love it. I have really only worked with Felix in a past org before but we havent talked in ages. So I dont have any past connections which feels great because I hate people assuming were working together because were friends?. So this wont happen this season which is great.

So far my tribe is okay. Havent had a chance to speak alot to everyone yet. However the people I have done are alright. So far my favorite person is Scott or Scooty Toots. Hes British as well as me, he's 18 and we're both starting University without a clue what were doing. Like twins?!? So hopefully he feels the same way about me too.

Alliances are key. I want to make a few smaller ones to form a majority for me. Like two allainces of three. Giving me 4 allies. Not sure if this will happen soon or not, but its my goal to take control of this game, as Ive never done it before. I dont want to come across as controling however so smaller groups is the way to do it in my head.

Omfg y'all...... The game started like maybe 16 hours ago and I have barely spoken to most of my tribe bc I was a lil busy last night & had some damage control to handle in EMVV but like..... ??? I already found the idol in the Play Room CTFUUUU. We fucking stan. I immediately told my son Scooty because he's my bae.... I haven't had my hands on an idol in an org since like...... 703 San Marcos when I was voted out w it in my pocket (i think?? i cant remember any others so..) so BEST BELIEVE I'm going to use this correctly. THAT IS MY MAIN MISSION. I'm craving that satisfaction of a successful idol play...... I would love to cross that off my imaginary org goals list..... BUT WHEW I'M PUMPED.

I am making a pact with myself to not be an overly annoying gamebot this season because I just wanna have fun with it and make it a chaotic season, and this lil buddy is gonna allow me to be as extra and messy and turbulent as I please <3 big dick energy

Helloo so here I am doing this org thingy so you're stuck with my thoughts of regret until I die, or you could just not read them that's also an option.

Anyhow god save the queen blabla after more time that it should've taken me I get that I'm in one of two tribes of 9 which is kinda good because with snaller tribes I feel lime everything is more claustrophobic and shit hits the wall the moment we lose a challenge. But with 9 players imo I feel more relaxed.

So summary of who am I stuck with, there are a few who I know from before so let's start with that.

First off Jose, already played an org with him and we were good allies so my first instinct was to call him a bastard and hey he took it well so hopefully it will be a smooth sailing with that lad.

But after Jose I don't expect the meta to be kind to me.

Michael and Mo were both in my last org and I blindsided them both. Tbh they were good allies until that point so I'm more than willing to work with them in this game, hopefully they feel the same way.

But anyhow then there's Felix who I think I technically played with? We meet during a merge and he went out early without us ever talking much so really this is gonna be my first time really playing with him, he's the only one that I haven't talked to yet though I hope he gets online.

Then there's Tobi. I've heard of him and from the get go he strike me as a very straight shoot-y player. Those are always interesting to play with so let's see how that goes.

There's Dani, she seems nice and compared to Tobi she seems more social instead of strategy focused but then again it's been one day and I'm talking out of my ass.

Then there's jaylen who seems nice aswell even if I haven't talked much to him.

And finally David the absolute unit, and I say that bc he instantly started focusing on the challenge, which is a breath of fresh air plus he's Canadian so what's not to like thus far.

Talking about the challenge I get anxiety by just looking at it, scavenger hunts are always hard for me bc I live with people and I want them to remain thinking I am a normal member of society so I always need to be sneaky to do this crap, plus I don't have a car or anything so I have to use public transport if I need to go anywhere.

Apart from that well I would like to set up a 5 man majority alliance just to be safe, my only fear is the ever so feared overplaying-doom. But I feel like someone like tobi would jump on that idea pretty easily so I'll have a chat with him about that idea.

Oh and also look at me I remembered to guess for the idol TWO times in a row. I could die this very same week doesn't matter that's already an improvement on my usual gameplay.

Hi since I’m required to do these once an episode, I’ll use this one to talk about my tribe and maybe a few on the other tribe that I saw were on.

Guacamole - They seem fun. I talked with them last night, but our convo went short because we played jack box together. They seem nice though.

Linus - Mix feelings. I can get a completely loyal Linus here, or a cutthroat linus, so I’m kinda wary right now towards him but the vibes I’m getting I don’t think he’s going to be an issue, atleast for now.

Madison/Madisin - She was also at the jackbox last night and I enjoyed her, she was dying laughing at the games and I thought she was funny. So hopefully I get a chance to talk to her today.

Malik - Who? Let’s not talk about that bitch.

Rhys - He literally waits until we’re in a game to talk to me, so I peep it. And you could say I should reach out to him but it’s annoying when I have and he doesn’t do it until we’re in a game together. Boggles the mind. If I can overcome doing that, so can you. But I enjoy our current coversation as of the moment.

Ryan - We just played Mount Olympus together recently and that was a bust for us both. I’m kind of hoping we can be on the same side since it’s been a while since that’s happened. However, Ryan says he just wants to have fun so I don’t fault him if he does crazy things down the road!!

Scooter - I don’t know about him yet. We haven’t talked at all but he seems interesting. Maybe I can give a better opinion when we talk.

Steven - Very hilarious and I’m also intrigued by him. His thinking and way of talking during the jackbox had me DYING I loved it. I think he’s my new favorite new person here so far.

Wes - I only saw him once but we haven’t talked yet so idk what to say. He said he’s from ndims and is an alias of someone, I just don’t know if I know the alias since I was on that site also. But hopefully it could be someone who knows me as Orlando.

Now for the people I know on the other tribe:

Ahrre - I cant stand him too much after our last season of JPORG. He has this self righteous attitude to him and I don’t like it. However, I warmed up to him a bit during the movie times we had been present for awhile back so hopefully if we see each other again, I won’t have that opinion anymore.

Big Tuna aka Danielle - YASSS I love ha! I know her from the Skype minis and she’s amazing. I hope I finally get to play with her for once in a non mini game ❤️

Felix - Felix is a fucking wildcard. I love him, but he has really pissed me off in games in the past, and I’m hoping this one won’t be like those other ones.

Jaylen - A mess but a friend! He plays how he wants and doesn’t care what people thinks or tweaking it to better it but that’s Jaylen for you! Accept it or don’t phew.

Jose - He’s a fucking snake at times LOL but he’s lovely. I wouldn’t mind too much of being on a tribe with him.

That’s all from me for now so hope I stay around longer to see how this season goes!

so the tea is that this tribe is drier than an old lady's pussy and its so hard to talk to these people... there are no personalities... the only people i feel mildly happy talking to are ahhre and jose... and the tea is that both of them asked to be allies w me im like o ok sis lets do this so i have at least like 2 votes i know abt... and i know david from a prior org but thats not really a good thing bc i fucked him over hardcore and like... he knows im a snake LKJHDFSLK I really don't know how to maneuver strategically with this cast butttt ill try my best hehe

Oh wow!! I can't believe I haven't made a confessional yet what a shocker. BUT HI! I'm kind of just trying to get myself acquainted with everyone in the group, I'm not as active as I'd like to be :C but I'm trying my best teehee. On the first night or so Linus, Malik, Stephen, Madison and I played Jackbox games and it was SUPER LIT and We bonded over that and I'm v happy about thatttt. (ofc I already know madison and I already love her but I haven't talked to her in game yet aklsdjf) I just started talking with Scooty today, or Scooty? I might just call him Scooty, ANYWAY yeah we got to talk about how we type similarly and that was nice, we bonded over that and it was littY. I also got to talk to Rhys!! He also seems like a neat guy - I still haven't talked to him a lot but I think he's cool. I honestly don't know who else is on the tribe, Wes and Ryan right? Wes and I talked a little bit, but barely. and Ryan hasn't talked to me at all lmao. Hopefully right now I've made enough connections though. I'd like to make tribe swap so I can meet more people and make friends lololol - wish me luck gang!

I’m getting along with everyone really well so I know I won’t be the first fine at the very least so I just need to lay low laugh and Kiki with everyone and hopefully I can survive for the long term

I’m doing the Scavenger Hunt and knowing me I decided to wait till the last two hours to do everything I can. So now I have an hour and a half to film a bunch of videos

Okay so talking to my tribe Im begining to feel less at ease with them. Mostly because most of them hardly seem to talk. Which dosent bode well for me. Could mean im on the outs and they dont like me. Or that They're all inactive.

Madison seems like the easy boot right now just because like, who?!?. Shes not been around Ive messaged her once and she left me on read.

So Steven had to leave but we still have to do the challenge as if he was competing which PROBABLY means were going to tribal. So ive been working on getting an allaince going. Ive talked to Malik and Brought the Idea of us forming a trio with someone. Luckly he picked Linus because I talk to him aswell. So fingers crossed we can get that going.

I also have a great feeling from Scooty aka scott. So like Hopefully i can get another trio with him going aswell. So then I will be solid untiill a swap.

I do have a concern that Scott and Ryan are close and Malik and Linus are close. More so that I would be their second choice out of the trio if one is made. However thats not going to effect me I dont think this early. So fingers Crossed.

uhm so!! STEVEN QUIT which im rly sad for two reasons. one for him bc i know he wanted to do well and i hope hes doing ok and i geniunely wish the best for him and the other reason is selfish bc i literally.. planted my seeds on him already? like. all that work for nothin. and now we sitting here actin as if madison aint afk and aint gunna submit nothing..

like its the only reason ive done these dumb videos so that i wont be seen as the weak link if we ever lose again almdlddg.. but uhm hopefully my seeds that are in rhys/jones keep me safe bc if madison gets out here i have ryan/rhys/jones to keep me safe.. so im not gonna be that upset if we lose LOL esp bc ik linus/malik r gunna be scary af later on

hopefully we win tho? so i dont have to deal with this stress? i dont wanna relive louvre where i visitted every single premerge tribal except for 2.. even tho i did well hehe uhm. YAH WE’LL SEE :)

I'm kinda bummed that this last challenge wasn't immunity anymore because we smoked the other tribe, LOL. But at the same time, I'm glad cuz I wouldn't wanna lose the challenge after one of my tribe members quit, that'd just be sad as fuck, LOL.

Also, I feel a good rapport developing further between Danielle and I. I feel like her and I can dominate this game together, but I can't get too ahead of myself here. The first couple of rounds are meant to create social bonds and I feel like I've done a good job of that thus far. Only person I haven't talked to is Jaylen and I'm okay with that, cuz if we lose the immunity challenge, he's most likely the first one to go.

Okay, thankgoodness that the challenge was changed to reward last minuet. Because we wouldve gone to tribal. Maddison is legit missing. I dont even care if we win or loose this next challenge because she needs to go.

So firstly that reward was weird like woo thanks pretty crown but there’s nothing else so I’m thinking that someone else has the clue and my best bet would be jaylen bc he got the Crown Jewels the most important piece. Overall I’m very nervous for this battleship challenge because in my mind it’s mostly luck based so my fate is really out of my hands.

Well, not much honestly but I'm gonna write a confessional for round 1 and stuff so I don't get a strike

The game is going okay I'm trying not to be aggressive talking to people, but just letting people come to me and make conversation right now honestly I'm trying to play UTR since I think considering madison doesn't exist right now I think I'm able to do that TBH. Hopefully it all works out.

I volunteered to do the battleship challenge thing because I have no life and it looked like no one else was gonna volunteer.

I actually know Linus he played with me in Epic SBB in Hell, so that's nice to not be going in with no connections period.

Sorry this wasn't that long but it's something I guess

If we lose probably another confessional will be writen but right now there isn't much to report

I’m for sure feeling a little bit more nervous now because a lot of this challenge is about being organised and teamwork and we could barely have someone sit out so fingers crossed

Heyo so we won the challenge so that was fun, and by fun I mean hell but hey we've got bragging rights, which is pretty much it since unfortunately Steven was medevaced out of da game so even though the other tribe lost they didn't go to tribal.

A bit annoying knowing you did that for nothing but oh well the other tribe seems to be having a rough time by itself with steven quitting and someone (Madison I think) not submitting anything lol

And I say for nothing bc technically we won reward but it was one of those first come first serve things and I only got seved a jpg image so nothing fancy there...

But at least now the next challenge is something where 8 out of 9 people on the tribe don't have to do anything and you bet your ass after that first challenge I'm gonna be one of the 8. David the unit took it upon himself to carry us to victory so godspeed lad.

However this challenge is pretty luck based so I'm saying fuck that I'm not talking my chances.

Following last confessional I talked to tobi about making an alliance and he was onboard, he proposed to have Jose on it which is great since that was my idea anyways, plus I told dani and she was also on board, and to finish up the hipotetical majority of 5 she said he was cool with Michael.

I haven't talked to him yet and Jose hasn't been online but hopefully we should be fine.

Ngl would like to have an alliance with david and felix too, david bc he seems like a total lad with the challenges and Felix because he later told me he felt the most confortable with me.

But regardless hopefully we won't even have to go to tribal (and if we do at least there are other options for the vote)

For now I shall be the dumb cheerleader of the bunch for a game of battleship.

Ahhh, I feel so bad that I lost the challenge for my tribe. I feel like going into a challenge with the weight of the win or loss stacked against you is huge. But I did come REALLY close and my tribe seems to respect that I almost got us the win. I don't think I'll go anywhere tomorrow for tribal, but you never know.

Yesss we won immunity. I’m happy we could after Steven left. They made our challenge a reward for that and we lost but it’s fine because WE WON immunity phew. And it’s all thanks to Wes. So far to me, Madison is looking the easiest vote off right now because I haven’t talked to her and I haven’t seen her so that’s my view on it. The three I talk to the most on my tribe are Rhys, Linus and Scoots. Then Ryan and Guacamole. Then Wes and finally Madison. I hope this game doesn’t pull a JPORG Fitzroy Island, I don’t wanna be screwed over by a random ass tribe swap. But I basically dig my tribe and hope that I won’t be the first to go.

Whew we won?! What. I thought we were gonna fuckin loose. Noah fence Wes.

Sad tings though because Madison is probably going to strike out. Oh well.

Ya boi still hasn’t gone to tribal so stay mad.

It’s fucking gross having to go to tribal council and I can’t be dealing but I seem to have found myself in two alliances with only dani connecting the two so I’m gonna work with dani to ride this middle ground and make it further

I’m going home omfg. I can’t really have a deep convo with anyone, which means I don’t have an alliance even though I’m sure one has been made ugh. I’m gonna focus on surviving this round then seeing what I can get set up next round. Wish me luck whew

I’m pissed because it’s super obvious that the other 7 on my tribe are in a mega tight alliance. Steven was my only alliance in this hole game, and like, he even told me he found an idol and then on his way out he didn’t even slip me the idol??? Can’t wait to be voted out 7-1 because he wanted a souvenir.

So the tea is that ahrre and I made an alliance of 5 which includes him, me, Jose, Dani, and Michael which I think is cute but they are really boring so meh idk I’ll just flip during merge x JDJSJD I’m a messy bitch

ugh i'm so glad we won immunity bc our tribe is already severely lacking in strong members bc Steven left us out to perish and Madison aint shown her face yet... so the numbers getting back to even is great for us <3

Right so unfortunately we lost the battleship game so that means we're heading to the first tribal of the game, fun stuff.

Now as we lost I got the Me-michael-jose-dani-tobi alliance set up. Meanwhile Felix was telling me that for him it was between Jose or Jaylen, since they've been the least active. Understandable but more understandable is that I'm in an alliance with Jose so for me it seems like it's gonna be Jaylen, who I also haven't spoken much with so I don't mind, albeit every tribal we go to before swapping or merging I see it as a potential ally down the line going home, which shucks.

Either way the alliance (and everyone else for that matter) agreed on jaylen, I also told Jose in kind words to get his shit together before he gets sent home but that's pretty much it. I'm gonna try to lay down for now I don't want to bring any unwanted attention to myself.

Hopefully tribal goes well.

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Oh wow hi it’s me, Mo. Ok so currently the plan is to vote out Jaylen which I don’t have a problem with, it’s kinda sad because he is actually really nice but somewhat inactive. I’m on my way to get a burger and fries and I’m fucking ecstatic like I’m so fucking hungry it’s stupid. Also watch me get blindsided.

So we went into this chalenge on a high after wining the reward and I was the one who got the most points out of everyone :))). Although I’m nervous this will put a target on my back, I’m happy that I have kind of proven my dominance in this game! After losing the challenge, I’m upset!! This was all luck based which sucks! After that, I started talking more with Felix, David, Michael and Ahree. Within the span of like 30 minutes, I got added to 2 seperate groups. I was like “iiii” because this can get messy fast. Michael is in both of the groups as well so I don’t feel too bad because at least there is someone else in my position as well. I get along with Felix a lot and have had quite a few good convos with him! David seems to want to lead things in the group he made, which is whatever. Keeps the target off of me, especially if we go to tribal again. I expect to make more confessionals throughout the course of the game, usually videos but I’m pretty tired right now haha.

I just took a nap and there's no tribal and I'm always trying my best. My tribe doesn't hate me for some reason even though I sure would. Oh well. I really miss Steven I hope he's okay.

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Steven quit half way through this episode. Then Jaylen was voted out 8-1.

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Episode 6: I aint gone yet muthafukers! - Adam

i renamed jordans contact to "toddler with a knife", i hope you're enjoying tumblr survivor: knife toddler anyway, game shit sarah lied about my vote last round in order to force distrust between me and ryan, and to get madison out for some fuckin reason??? like really idk what she's thinking, madison is on her/our side and cole's gang wants nothing to do with her. i think im on the list before her tho so i guess shes banking on that? but still like what the fuck anyway i volunteered for jeopardy because i figured that they wouldnt vote out someone who tried to get their tribe a win, but people can throw and still stay so i guess its a mystery (*cough cough* COLE *cough cough* REGAN *cough cough*) i really hope toddler has a chaos idol hidden somewhere, i wanna be the one to find it and raise all hell

I already did a confessional, Jordan. Stop trying to turn me into Emily! 🛑

So I just won the first duel and im fairly confident I'm gonna win the second one aswell. My true love Jordan Pines is giving me orisinal flash games where i can excel <3 Adam and I are here and to be honest in my like 3 seasons on redemption island he scares me the most as I'm not certain if I can beat him. I'd like to, but you never know. I'm kind of mad at my former tribe but when I go back I'm just gonna be whatever. I was set up and whether people wanna listen to me or not, thats their thoughts. I also feel in 2 duels time we will have a returner. We should have 17 left in the game, so 1 added would make 18. I think I have an advantage on Redemption Island, simply as I have done it twice and I know its almost as much about making bonds to play with people's minds as it is the challenges. I am the King of Redemption Island and you don't get my crown just cause.

Ugh. I'm sounding like a broken record, but I don't entirely like my tribe. AGAIN. Maybe I just don't fit in well to Tumblr but who knows. I just don't want to go to tribal again because I'll gun someone down...hard.

You know what's annoying? Nobody on the tribe wanting to do the damn challenge. Like I'm not too good at either but I'm still here! Thankfully Gage stepped up to the plate and I was afraid I would have to be alone. Let's hope we win! If not I hope I'm on the isle of the pines.

yas andreas destory those duels give all the icons who voted you out no mercy also yas adam slayyyy

Won another redemption challenge! And you know what that means! It's time for Adam's Bitching Corner 2 yall. Cuz I am never done complaining. And I've got nothing to do on redemption island other than to brew over my wrongful termination. Like I guess it was my fault for not having an alliance that had my back, but the more I think about it I'm just like they must have wanted me gone from the beginning. Like, the first chance they got they got rid of ME! Cuz we won the first two challenges, which i even feel like I was a big part of with my kickass flag idea and normal puzzle time. And then I wasn't at the third tribal because Jess whisked me away but as soon as I was an option I got cut. I bet they were all talking shit on me the whole time. Bitches. Like we got a tribe full of the most annoying people from Regan to Jaiden and yet I'm the taken out. Like I was nice, probably even weirdly nice. Maybe that's why. Whatever, I'm just gonna assume a bunch of them got together, decided I had too many friends on the other tribe, and then wanted me gone asap. Well I aint gone yet muthafukers! But I am done for now. Tune in next week for another episode of Bitter Crybabys Complaining on Redemption. Next episode will feature me yelling some more, once I am rejuvenated by being sure that I'm staying. Until then!

I hate that we lost at final jeopardy and that I didn't even go to the isle. God this is so annoying. I do not feel safe with this tribe. I feel like I can get Chrissa and Jaiden on my side. LA could also want to work with us during this vote against the icon tribe members. Honestly I'm fine with voting out Casey since she always seems so busy with other things. It should be an easy vote against her to be honest.

Well, we lost. I’ve been talking to Regan probably the most out of everyone on this tribe so I’m hoping we can work together beyond this vote because surprisingly enough she had the power on Senip... not sure if that’ll carry over to NuNadroj but you never know. I like Jessica and I would love to keep working with Drew and Ruthie so I think it’s going to have to be Karen or Liam. Everyone loves Karen but like she DOES NOT TALK TO ME so I’m not inclined to want to work with her. If her name comes up? I’m down to vote her out. I want to slide through this vote without hearing my name. I feel like it’s way too early for idol plays and would put a huge target on my back if I decided to play it. I’ve gotta be smart about this.

Alright, so, whether I like it or not I think I'm going to have to try to rally the troops on this vote tonight. No one seems to want to throw out names but I'm spinning it so that I'm not saying names but saying who people haven't talked to. Told Karen that Ruthie says she hasn't talked much to her or Liam. Karen is now against Ruthie and more likely to work with me. Drew says that he wants to start an alliance with me, Liam, and Karen. If we do this we'll have four and that's the majority on this vote. I haven't been able to talk to Liam so I'm not 100% sure this is happening but Drew and I have both talked to Karen and we seem to be on board. I didn't necessarily want to team up with Karen but at this point I'll work with anyone if it means that I don't go home. I don't want to vote out Jessica or Ruthie but I don't think I'll have much of a choice.

pretty sure this is the round i go home. i have no idea what's going on and gage went to the island thing so i don't have him to talk to. AND the fucking audio for my video files aren't working right now and i can't reshoot these scenes so imma cry if Final Cut doesn't work for me.

I cannot wait for LA to be voted out. I know originally Jaiden said we should stick with Senip, but I'd rather not. Stick with the tribe that manipulated me, lied straight to my face, and was ran by Karen who wanted me gone because of a past game? No thank you. When I said I was going to jump ship, I meant like hard fall jump ship. Like hop off the Titanic. LA can go because she has barely talked to me and continuously left me out of the loop. Plus getting rid of that potential LA and Charlotte combo early is good as well. Gage will just have to deal with it when he gets back from the isle. Karen, sweetie, since you think I'm a traitor and a backstabber let me prove it to you. I love when my game turns for the good.

WHY DO I KEEP GETTING PUT ON AWFUL TRIBES. IS EVERYONE PLAYING THIS GAME AWFUL? Karen is impossible to talk to. Drew is preoccupied with another game. Liam who? Ruthie is flawless but we don't have numbers to work together and I like Jessica GDI. I don't want to vote Ruthie or Jessica out. We need a fourth on Karen though and I'm not sure I can convince Drew to vote against her. Fuck me. I hate this. Can we swap again? Can I get a redo? Asking for a friend. On one hand, I wish they'd just vote me out so I'd be free from the misery that is trying to work with these people... but on the other hand, I want to win, so that's not going to work for me. I don't know why the fuck I'm out here trying to get majority when we could just tie 3-3 and go to ROCKS. Hopefully Ruthie doesn't have Rock PTSD from Themyscira.

I'm really scared that I'm going to go home right now, everyone wanted to do Karen but I don't think Drew wanted to do her and I just feel like he's going to talk everyone in to turning on me for some reason because we've barely talked in this game and I'm trying to carry on a conversation with him now but he's not responding quickly and I'm just SO panicked. I just want me, Jess and Charlotte to be safe, I really like Karen a lot but I do not want it to be me! I'm totally okay with voting for Karen or Liam or whoever else anyone wants to go for AHHH i'm just so scared right now, I feel like i'm giving Drew the constant side eye because apparently he's so talkative with everyone BUT ME and I don't want this to turn into japan version 2.0. If we could construct an alliance of me, jess, drew and charlotte?? and the four of us go to merge?? how epic would that be? but for that to happen i HAVE to get through tonight.

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