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front-facing-pokemon · 8 months

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#RIP to the legacy post editor. you will be missed. while queueing this post and the last one it's removed the option for me to switch to the #old one and is making me use the new one. which is like not bad. it's not a bad editor. i just don't like change as most tumblr users don't #it also just appends the post you make directly to the top of the currently-displayed posts behind it even if it's not meant to go there #which is a little bit scary when i'm on the queue page and i click “add to queue” for a post that's supposed to go up on august 18th #to see it immediately appear above mega metagross. the legacy post editor didn't do that. it made you refresh the page if you wanted to see #your own new post on the dashboard. which i think was better!! honestly!! i've never Made a post using the new editor to see how it behaves #only ever queued up FFP using this thang. but that's also bc i feel like i don't post very much. i need smth Interesting to say when i post #on my main blog i mean. i don't make extraneous posts on here (usually) unless i'm answering an ask or something. which. still have yet to #miss one to this day. going strong #bibarel #can you tell idk what to say about this guy. what are they‚ water-type? big chance i'm fucking wrong and they're just pure normal #OKAY i was right. normal/water. semi-interesting typing and i get why they're a water-type. but. i never use. bibarel. even as a kid who #didn't understand or care about competitive. i knew bibarel was not very strong. it's a route 1 normal-type fucker. and maybe it's like #better than i think or something but tbqh it's a sinnoh 'mon and i already have another sinnoh water-type that has my heart. buizel #so bibarel was not so much in the cards for me. bro i should do like. a mono-type run of a pokémon game one day. that would be fu #do folks do that? is that a challenge run that actually exists? nuzlockes exist so i don't see why not. okay i'm doing it. my next replay o #any pokémon game is hereby decreed to be a water-type mono-type run. i may or may not liveblog it on my main blog #and it may or may not be nuzlocke. we shall see #hell maybe i'll stream it. maybe that could be fun. i don't know of *anyone* who would be interested in that but it tends to help me #actually go about completing games when i have someone there like. waiting for me to do so

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dxppercxdxver · 10 months

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me! when! they!!!

presenting the @224bbaker household family tree that makes no sense to anyone except the people who live there

also please appreciate hampton’s silly little moustache. i have no canonical basis for this but i know it in my heart to be true

#their visages came to me clear as day #partially based on @aaronsciencia’s depictions #but mostly pulled from my own noggin #also my first pass at archie wound up looking like medic tf2 so. whoopsies #things i know to be true about them: james actually looks somewhat similar to sherlock holmes #tall lean strong nose dark eyes #he is always smirking even when he is sad #archie’s moustache Twirls. he also has almost-lambchop sideburns #he also also has little glasses #madge is going prematurely gray and it looks so cool #she is also missing a tooth. don’t ask which one #hampton has a little silly moustache because he thinks it makes him look older and more distinguished (it doesn’t)#he has blond hair that never darkened and a cherubic baby face. he looks about 12 #but a very worldweary 12 years old #anyway. they <3 #radio free junebug #my art #fawx & stallion #madge stallion #james stallion #hampton fawx #archie cartwright

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 10 months

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ugh dawg i feel you with that heat. i'm in texas (press f for me pls) and i'm just waiting for when the powergrid goes out again. like i'm legitimately terrified of it happening during the summer. i can handle the winter cause i can bundle up but you can't do shit in the summer 😭

i winced out loud, eesh... Slamming the f button for you my dude

#texas... strength to you #i hope you can find like uhhh battery powered fans and stock coolers / ice packs #i used to live in a house with no ac and ice/showers/fans/windows were my best friends during the Hell Months #best combo is open window but closed curtains / cracked blinds in the morning and evening #lets the breeze in but helps keep the heat out #ohhhh and cool/cold water or ice on the inside of your wrists works like a Charm #temporary but blissful relief #i wish you luck and i desperately hope your power stays strong #may we all see the colder months soon #rambles from the bog #missing the months where i can wake up cozy and go about my day with my robe on w/o feeling like im dying #hot tea... hot showers... triple blankets... yeah....#this morning i had to Dislodge my cat bc she was too warm. horrible horrible time of year #one day i'll live somewhere manageable. somewhere Northern #but for now: shirts off fans on blinds closed water dranketh #banshee wailing in the wee hours etc

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chloeseyeliner · 2 months

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i miss my best friend so much that it's like a part of my heart is gone every moment we spend apart and comes back to me whenever we meet.

#i tell her so on occasion #but i don't know if i am being weird about it so i try to be less 'clingy' or anything #despite the fact that she is not that kind of person #and is actually the one who 'taught' me how to express my feelings more #we haven't seen each other since some days before new year's day #because we've been busy with uni and work/applications blah blah and we live in different cities #and we were going to watch young royals together but things happened and we cannot #so if it's possible we are going to watch either the first or the last episode + documentary through videocall #and i really hope it is #we talk every day through texts #but i miss her. i love her so much #and that's why i think platonic love is so freaking strong #anyway #just wanted to put that out there #hehe #best friends #maria's random thoughts #platonic love

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smol-soop-spoon · 5 months

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Im stranded at my friend's place in a big city and now I know why everyone looks so dead inside. These kind of places just suck the soul right out of you.

#I feel like I hate everyone #like I'm ready to redistribute someone's matter #I wanna go back to my place in the countryside #with my cats and the woods and the lake and the birds #god i miss the birds #even that one annoying goldfinch who's always screaming #there's only mean pigeons here #and dying trees #my conclusion on Paris is that it's a dying place feeding on people's souls #oh yeah sure it's beautiful #but I haven't been made so miserable by a place in a while #only a handful of days left #As Henry Winter put it #“Be strong saith my heart; I am a soldier; I have seen worse sights than this.”#then again the man killed two people so maybe he's not a great role model #but he looked good while doing it!!!

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cosmicallydivine · 8 months

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every day i think about how the original lines in hadestown when orpheus turns back were going to be “you’re early” “i missed you” and every day i want to eat cement

#can you IMAGINE #i would not have survived #ALL THE VARIATIONS OF WHY ORPHEUS TURNED AROUND BUT EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM WAS BECAUSE OF LOVE #my life literally changed the day someone told me that him turning around wasn’t because he failed #whether it was because he heard eurydice fall behind him or her voice stopped and he was worried #or my personal favorite; that he made it out and turned around to embrace her but didn’t realize she hadn’t step over the threshold yet #it was all because he loved her so much. it wasn’t a failure it was a story about how strong his love was #and that’s not even STARTING on the hadestown-specific parallels with hades and persephone #he was early. HE MISSED HER.#i’m going to scream #hadestown #orpheus and eurydice #musical theatre #🕯️

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ds2mtoi · 1 month

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a serious post about my experience with amin/khennya.

hi, this is a serious post. but it'll be quick since everything is explained in this twitter thread and the attached google document. (and i don't really wanna keep talking about this anymore, i wanna move on and heal.)

long story short/tldr: amin is a freak who manipulated and abused me, made me fear for my life ever since i was 15 years old. he was 18. he is going to be 20 yrs old this year, and yet he still hasn't changed. he will never change. he is an incredibly dangerous person who will find any possible way to remove the blame on him, he will find all sorts of excuses for his disgusting behaviour. he is rotten to the core. please avoid him for your own safety, he is seriously dangerous. i opened up about my story and my experience with him not because i want to stir up drama or whatever absurd reason like that, but because i want other survivors of abuse to gain courage, to be uplifted from me finally speaking up about my story. i want to tell everyone my story, so that nobody will ever have to experience something like this with amin, or with anybody else for that matter. if you have gone through similar things as i did, please do not be afraid to open up. i hope you will find courage, i hope you will have wonderful people who will support you all throughout your life. thank you for your time, i will be inactive for the following months until i'm ready to be back online again.

#i have been really REALLY mentally exhausted #so exhausted i forgot to talk about this on tumblr LOL #i have been dreading about this moment for over 1 year and a few months #i feared that it would've went wrong.. and everybody would hate me. but i'm glad that my anxiety got proven wrong.#i'm really happy seeing so many people supporting me.. some others even telling me about their experiences. they're really brave too.#and i've had many old faces send me messages as well #it's nostalgic.. a wonderful feeling. i'm really happy. i really missed talking to my old friends.#even though life has been really chaotic . complete hell and just...overall terrible (especially last year)#i will get through it. i'm strong. i'm strong enough to talk about my story. i can do it. and i have my wonderful friends to support me too #one day..i'll pick my pen back up and be motivated to draw again.#one day i'll be ready to go back to everyone and cherish every moment...being as happy as possible.#i'm so glad to be finally free from his abuse. i can be my own person again... i can be myself. i'm free. i don't have to hide anymore.#thank you again. may you have a good day or night.#thoughtcabinet

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girlscience · 11 months

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I'm glad I was here, and I know he wouldn't have wanted to stay like that long, and I know he went while everyone was laughing and talking in the kitchen like he would have wanted, but god I'm selfish. I want 100 more sits on the porch swing and 100 more trailhand rides and 100 more fences to fix and 100 more brush piles to burn.

#I've been trying to get my head around it since january... I've known forever he wasn't going to be around always #and I begged and begged that I would get to see him just one more time in january #and I did... I got 4 more months. I got a bunch of weekends and a bunch of phone calls #and I got yesterday and I begged and I even got today #but. I still wish it was more.#I think I've cried more this year and specifically these past 3 days more than I ever have before #I don't know how I have any water left in my body #but just about every other hour it hits me and I start tearing up again #I mean that was my grandpa. and he's been my favorite forever (and not to be stuck up but I am pretty sure I was his favorite too)#and I love him so much. I wanted to be just like him. I wanted him to be proud of me.#he called me son and strong and hoss and I was his favorite farmhand and he bragged about me all the time #and he poked fun at my hair and my nerdy hobbies #and I am going to miss him and miss him and miss him

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jedi-bird · 1 year

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My partner is off to the office soon to play online games with their friends. I had planned to write a bit, or at least try to. But honestly? This day has sucked and I'm emotionally exhausted. I think I'll just go to bed way too early and deal with waking up in the middle of the night when it happens. Tomorrow will either be better or worse but that's future me's problem. Current me no longer gives any fucks.

#vent post #this hasn't been the worst week of my life but it's been pretty shitty #tornado hit near my house the other day #we got lucky and only had some really strong wind and thunder but it was closer than I'd like #my cat died and another is acting weird tonight and i really don't want to have to go back to the vet already #I'm going to give her some kitty electrolytes tomorrow and some recovery food that's been recommended and see how she does #i was late to my appointment today and I'm not sure how i feel about this doctor #they didn't really listen to me but they at least partially listened to my partner #they did however send my for lab work to test for everything which is nice #but also sucked because i wasn't mentally and physically prepared for a blood draw and now i feel like crap #I'm glad i got it out of the way today because it gives me less time to be anxious about it but also it sucks #dropped off our tax papers and I'm fully expecting a phone call tomorrow because i think i missed one #picked up dinner tonight as a treat and decided to try something new and couldn't eat it #it wound up being so spicy i got sick #so now my stomach is messed up on top of everything else #things will get better but it's hard to see it right now #maybe some sleep will help #maybe I'll get lucky and won't dream

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carryonmylovelies · 2 years

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omg hey hotties 😭😭 im back !

#sooooooooooooo anyways not me dropping off the face of the earth for like the entire summer vwkqmqjdhsowjwjwjenkwhwk #just had to die for a little bit u know....disappear into the abyss and all that #pls look away from all the shit im abt to throw into these tags 😁 unless u want 2 read my cringe oversharing essay for the day 👍#my summer was so silly 😍 ummmmm lets see i lost my fulltime job at the daycare bc the owner very rightfully decided to retire and close #so i was unemployed for the whole summer except for my occasional side jobs and also had to move bc of family shit #so im living w my grandma for the time being and its utterly amazing tbh my grandma and i have a really strong bond and relationship #and i really love getting to come home and see her every day. i decorated her house for halloween a week ago 🎃🎃🎃#and she couldnt stop talking abt how nice everything looked and how glad she was to have me there and i just abt broke down 😭😭😭#i did a complete fucking 180 jobwise im actually training to be a certified fire alarm inspector now LMFAO #i really really like it so far and have like a million stories already abt all the shit ive done/seen so far #im the only girl looking son of a bitch thats working and training in the field out of my entire region of the company so 🤪#literally shoved my dykey nb ass in there and now im fucking it up with the boys heyoooooo #ummm me and one of my best friends started dating bc of a miscommunication (BC OFC WE DID I KNOW I KNOW ITS SO MF GAY)#and our 4 mo anniversary will be on halloween which i think is the swaggiest fag shit in the whole WORLLLDDDDDDDD 😫🎃🖤🧡#my very beloved pet rabbit of over 8 years died quite unexpectedly in august and i was. doing pretty bad for awhile which sucked so so hard #he had multiple health issues and was over 10 yrs old so its hard to say what exactly happened. my gf and gma both pulled me thru that shit #and my besties gave me so much support and love idek what i would have done w/o them. i miss my baby so bad.#ive also had some health issues which sucks absolute BALLS #and recently figured out that the migraine/anti depressant meds ive been on for the last THREE MF YEARS have been fucking up my body lmao #but on the flipside going back 2 the positives i got to have some really incredible experiences/interactions in the past few months #and those were really huge in helping me get my shit together again #i got to take my girlboygirlfriend on little daytrips throughout the summer. i got a second tat🕷🕸❣️ (which my gf designed 😫)#i met girl queen pussy slay miss felicia day AND met the sexiest creature alive harvey guillen and he told me he liked my hair #which im still super duper normal over i can assure u 😁👍 definitely didnt alter my brain chemistry or anything #i saw gods greatest and most valuable gift to this planet on monday (mcr concert)#and had my entire mind body heart and soul so thouroughly fucked up that im still peeing my goddamn pants over it #and of course now its october :) my rotting flesh and sickened brain knows peace once more #bouta go eat up some drawtober posts right the fuck now so prepare yourselves 👁👁 also gonna be making a post on the coc blog soon as well #its already that time of year again mwhahahahahahahahahaha #so yeah 😋 my summer was goofy and silly as hell. i hope u all have been doing okay and im so happy 2 be back pls hmu if u wanna chat !!!

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tramontane-fire · 1 year

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food/ed talk

#so the meds have kicked in #i was out of meds for a hot second #and now I'm back on them and they have hit me like a brick to the face #a side effect of this particular drug (and frankly the reason I like it) is that it squishes your appetite like a bug #i was using that effect to sort of moderate the BED and have less frequent and less strong cravings #but then I ran out #and started eating 2k calories in a sitting #and gaining weight and freaking out #and now I do not have even the slightest craving for anything at all #great right?#wrong!#i am exhausted #right when I finally realized that crash dieting is a Bad Idea my appetite is missing in action #and I am eating a crash diet amount of food #which is going to end really well I bet #and I miss food and feeling full and stuff tasting good and it has only been one day #going to just excuse myself to the tantrum hole

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fourfuckinghorsemen · 1 year

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Why

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lilgynt · 1 year

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evolution of how men and i interacted at my different jobs so far

doing exact same work and being physically stronger than some of the men > men start lifting things for me and shooing me away when i try > guy held open a door for me and after i said thanks he said i’m just happy to be ur knight in shining armor today

#personal #granted last one i was on a scooter for a broken foot so like context #but still crazy my first job we all did the same jobs #like granted some were only for people literally strong enough #then next job men start just #lifting stuff for me #like not even heavy stuff but also heavy stuff #if it’s even a little heavy men at home depot will just grab it from you immediately a good chunk of the time #if they let you even get near it #now granted also very common a dude ignoring you struggle and then rip a nail out like avoid eye contact #dude and chicks to be clear but we’re talking dudes #then now #nothing super weird actually to report gender wise nicely enough #only thing is maybe sercuity telling me i should be smiling but i think i missed the end of a joke #but he’s a nice guy anyway so like no biggie either way which sounds bad but like #it’s just not that deep i don’t see this dude super often and it’s a usual quick hello how are yous and asking how im doing foot wise he’s #nice plus he said i look like some celebrity my first day i can’t remember her name and i’m not re asking #no idea where this was going but there we are

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crabussy · 2 years

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homesick!!!! yeowch!

#I miss singing as a whole school every morning in assembly #we'd do the new zealand national anthem (which fucks its a fantastic song) and then classics like Tōia mai te waka nei and others #and the entire school (in all 3 schools I went to. its a kiwi thing not just a 1 school thing) would fucking belt the words with joy #and if you felt too awkward to sing?? youd just mouth the words that day and no one would care or notice!!!#it was wonderful the schools there had such a strong sense of community #but ofc I don't just miss school thats like. not even top 5 on things I miss #the main ones being the PLACES #camping in napier and taupo and whananaki....#weekends at the beach house in whangamata #those road trips where we'd pass field after field after field of sheep and cows (belted galloways beloved)#and drive through crazy little towns like TIRAU.... search up tirau please oh my god that entire town was made of corrugated iron #I remember skiing trips in ohakune on mt ruapehu..#god I fucking miss skiing the highest mountain here is 164 fucking metres. mt ruapehu is quite literally 20 times that #and its not even in the tallest 10 #this entire fucking country is flat and sweaty and homophobic and government restricted and full of shit that can kill you #protests are illegal here. pride parades? nah. you step outside and insantly you're drenched in sweat and your hair sticks to your face #maybe im being too harsh there are some good things ofc like the public transport and cost of eating out but.#I never liked the city #I need to go home #6 months of waiting for a small holiday is too long and not enough #vent #robin shut up challenge #if you read this far thank you #this fucking sucks. I love new zealand I need to be home I need to #its a part of me its like I'm walking around without blood in my veins it feels Wrong

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eternallynamelessvoid · 1 month

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I want to die as always lol

A teehee

#I’ve never had somebody say they want me to stay alive #isn’t that nice?#always me myself and I #never anybody else #I was born to die and I was born to cry #and that’s just it nothing ever gets better #typically this is where I’d say in the tags that ‘oh but it will’#but I’ll be honest I don’t even have the energy to comfort myself anymore #isn’t that fun? I’m literally emotionally neglecting myself #I think 3 weeks before my 17th birthday I’m going to take a bullet to my head #I won’t because I’m a fucking coward who doesn’t know what’s good for me #but ya know I can hope I guess #I’m so so tired.#Can somebody one day just tell me they want me to stay alive?#I can’t keep doing this I’m sorry. I wasn’t strong enough.#I miss my characters. Why are they quiet when I need them? I just want them to comfort me.

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