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auras-moonstone · 3 months

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hiii i rlly love ur writing so if u cld write this i’d actually pass out ‼️

u can pick urself if it’ll be jack, Ethan, hockey player Ethan or even smth else! But what im thinking abt is like where he breaks up with reader because hes convinced he lost his feelings towards her but later on realized he didnt?? Hope u have a good day 🙁

⋅˚₊‧ ୨୧ ‧₊˚ ⋅ all you had to do was stay

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ᡣ𐭩 pairing: hockey player!ethan landry x fem!reader

ᡣ𐭩 summary: convinced his feelings are gone, ethan breaks up with y/n. when he wins the championship, he realizes he made a mistake.

ᡣ𐭩 contents/warnings: heartbreak. angst. make-up. fluff.

ethan truly thought his feelings for y/n had washed away. but it’s wasn’t until now, looking around the arena for her, having just won the hockey championship, that he realized that maybe he had rushed into conclusions and fucked everything up.

the team went to a bar to celebrate, and while his teammates drank and danced, ethan moped by the bar with a drink in his hand, replaying in his head, like a sad movie scene, the moment he ended things with y/n.

why had he been so stupid? he had set in his mind the idea that hockey should be above everything and anyone else, that it was the only thing that mattered. and not only he had managed to slowly tear the most important bond in his life, but he had also fooled himself into thinking the feelings weren’t there anymore.

“hey, man. i’m going home, tara’s waiting for me. talk to you later?” chad asked.

ethan forced a smile and nodded. “yeah, go. i’m leaving in a few, too.”

chad walked out of the bar, and ethan’s heart reached another level of heaviness. his best friend was going home to celebrate with his girlfriend, he had managed to maintain his relationship while having the exact same responsibilities than ethan. the difference? chad had never failed to find balance and see how important life outside hockey was. ethan hadn’t, and now that hockey was over for a while, he realized he had nothing left.

with an emptiness no amount of drinks could ever fill, he walked back to the dorms, where some people were still on cloud nine from the win. he was congratulated, patted in the back, yet he could not enjoy his win completely. not when the guiltiness and regret lingered heavily over him. was it too late to try get back on track the relationship he had drove off the road?

the celebration was certainly overwhelming for y/n because everything reminded her of ethan and the way he had locked her out when she was letting him in. hell, she was ready to say the l-word when he pushed her aside. the way he had broken her heart was one she remembered all too well, every word, every expression, every little movement.

ethan hovered over her, standing as she sat on the couch. frown on his face, pained expression, as if the act of letting out the words physically hurt him. “i don’t think i- i’m not sure if i… still have feelings for you. i don’t know, i just, it’s not the same as it was a months ago. it’s as if something is missing.”

“did it cross your mind that maybe the problem is that you put hockey first?”

“y/n that’s my future. of course i’m going to put hockey first.”

“sorry, let me rephrase that. did it cross your mind that maybe the problem is that hockey is all you care about? because it’s always about that. you have stopped having time for me since you became captain. do you even remember the last time you stayed over? that we went on a date? that we spend time together without you worrying over the championship or some other fucking match?”

“y/n…” he sighed.

“well, i can remember. three months, that was the last time you acted like a boyfriend. something was indeed missing in this relationship. you.”

“hockey is everything to me, y/n/n.”

“yes, and that’s the fucking problem, ethan. your whole life can’t revolve sorely on a sport. but you clearly can’t see that, so this is useless.”

that was the last time she spoke to him, but not the last she had seen him. it was impossible not to do that, he was blackmore’s hockey star, he was fucking everywhere. she, on the other hand, managed to hide in the shadows, so she made sure she stayed hidden and not bump into him. until now.

she was leaving tara’s dorm when her eyes caught his wide frame. her feet became one with the floor, not allowing her to move. like magnet, his attention quickly fell on her.

“y/n” her name fell out of his mouth absentmindedly.

at the sound of his rough voice, she snapped out of her daze. her lips parted, but she didn’t know what to say. and then his feet kept going until he was standing right before her. was it too much to ask to disappear?

“hi.” he said after a couple of seconds of silence.

“hi.” her soft voice warmed his heart, and he had to put his hands in his pockets to stop himself from bringing her into his arms. “um… congratulations. on the win.”

“thanks.” for the first time in the night, he truly felt like smiling.

“shouldn’t you be celebrating?” why was she still talking to him? her brain screamed ‘get out of here’ while her heart told her to stay.

“i wasn’t feeling it.” ethan shrugged.

y/n frowned. “you… weren’t feeling it? ethan, what are you talking about? you’ve worked so hard for this win.”

ethan let out a humourless laugh. “the funny thing is… it wasn’t until i lifted the cup that i realize that i wasn’t happy with the win.”

the girl blinked, trying to make sense of what he was saying. ethan landry, the boy who lived for hockey, was saying he wasn’t happy with winning a championship. what was wrong with the world? “i don’t understand.”

“what is succeeding if you don’t have anyone to celebrate it with? that trophy was a reminder of what i pushed away in order to get it. it made me feel miserable.”

“ethan…”

his sad gaze found hers. “what i’m trying to say is that i miss you, and that the win means nothing if you’re not with me. i looked around the stands, you weren’t there and it felt like a punch to the gut.”

she was certainly not ready to hear that. “let me remind you it was what you wanted, you ended it, ethan. you put hockey first, and it got us here.” maybe she was being a bit harsh, especially after he was pouring his heart out.

“i know. fuck. don’t i know it.” he was not going to cry. if y/n somehow managed to find it in her to forgive him, it was not going to be out of pity. but he wanted to sob so badly. “i’m sorry. i’m so sorry. i was so fucking blind, and i hurt you.”

hurt was an understatement. ethan had absolutely broke her, and she had been trying to pick up the pieces of the mess he had made.

“i want to punch myself for everything i’ve done. for taking this long to realize i made a huge mistake. i don’t want for my life to revolve around hockey.”

y/n nodded. “that’s a good realization.”

“i don’t know what to say. there’s no justification for what i did, i was stupid and that’s the only truth. i… i want us back.” the anguish was written on his face. “i don’t know what to do to fix it.”

“all you had to do was stay… you had me in the palm of your hand. i would’ve done anything for you.”

“i know, you were too good for me. and i promise you i’ll work everyday to be the person you deserve, if you let me.” he put a strand of hair behind her ear. “i’m never making the same mistake again. i love you. you don’t have to decide now, take as long as you need. i’d wait forever.”

“you know it can’t be like before, right? you can’t keep this relationship in the lowest rank of your priorities.”

“i know, and i won’t. i love hockey, going professional is still my goal but now i know that my dream isn’t only hockey, is having you by my side while i play it.”

y/n slowly broke into a smile. “i would hate to see you succeed without me.” she grimaced as soon as the words clicked. “shit, that sounded so awful. i didn’t mean that i don’t want you to succeed unless you’re with me. that would be so bitchy, and i know you hurt me but i would neve-“

ethan couldn’t help himself, he cut her rambling with a soft kiss. “you’re the absolute cutest. i love it when you ramble.”

“it’s rude to interrupt someone, landry. you need to learn some manners.” she gave him a quick peck. “i guess i’m taking you back, or whatever.”

the hockey player smiled like a little kid and lifted her up on his arms. “i love you. did you know that?”

“i know it now. and i love you, too.” she wrapped her legs around his waist. “now, let’s go celebrate, captain.”

“fuck, yes. i have so many ideas.” the mischievous glint in his deep brown eyes made her stomach swirl.

“i’m down for anything if it’s with you.”

#ethan landry #ethan landry x reader #ethan landry fluff #ethan landry oneshot #ethan landry fic #ethan landry angst #ethan landry scream #ethan landry imagine #ethan landry x y/n #ethan landry smut #jack champion #jack champion x reader #jack champion x y/n #jack champion oneshot #jack champion fluff

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wof-reworked · 5 months

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ok I can't stop thinking about the jade winglet, here's my gender hcs for all of them

Moonwatcher - she/they (nonbinary)

I feel like this is fun bc rn (in canon) her gender is just "anxiety" but like,,, one day in the future she gets to actually play around with it

like she captures a very specific type of person I've met who you go "oh I mean I know she's gay but she's probably cis..." and then you have like one real convo and find out they're like not only nonbinary but better at it then you

I think she should get to be butch when she's older. I think she deserves being a) massive compared to her two twink boyfriends and b) gnc as shit

Kinkajou- any/all (genderfluid +transfem)

Kinkajou strikes me as being like. totally ambivalent to gender. Kinkajou changes her pronouns based on how the fruit he ate for breakfast makes him feel. Kinkajou is better than you

I think she was like staunchly using she/her for a while bc it just felt right and like changes pronouns situationally- Rainwing village is she/her, Jade Academy is any/all, close friends it varies, etc etc

Qibli- he/they (transmasc)

Qibli's just always kind of known who he is, and has been like. pretty contentedly in his corner for a while. I think it's like- a pillar of stability for him of like "at least I know I'm (x)"

Proximity to Moonwatcher puts the they/them in there bc I think it's nice when ppl get more comfortable so they start branching out a lil bit :> Qibli has like. guy who says "he/they" because he doesn't mind they/them and wants his friends to feel supported y'know

Winter- he/him (cis + gnc)

Look I feel bad making him one of like. two cis ppl at JMA but like I think it's funny if he's cis but inflicts a status effect of gender envy on every trans person in his proximity

guy who does makeup flawlessly because "it's fun" and decimates your sense of identity as you wonder why the fuck god gave these gifts to a man

extra funny for the fact that as a dragonet he gets offended by the implication he's pretty. he gets over it eventually I think

Turtle- she/her or he/she/they (transwoman/trans)

See here. Otherwise I think she's like trans and this could go in like. any fucking direction ngl

transmasc turtle??? hell yeah !!! transfem turtle??? hell yeah !!! gender is whatever Turtle has going on and god knows if she knows it

last egg to crack bc Turtle is immune to self reflection that isn't anxiety and self loathing

"Haha everyone hates how other people refer to them and their gender what do you mean? :)" (entire jade winglet: cringing with worry)

Umber- he/him (cis)

cis and a lil insecure about it but like. he's just nice :)

he's like experimented with pronouns and gender and found none of them really stuck so like. cis+. cis (extended dlc). you know what I mean I hope

gonna be honest I'm lost for him bc I genuinely forget he was there bc he peaced out so fast. justice for my boy I want to know more !!!!!

I could be persuaded for transman Umber ngl,,, it tempts me,,,,,,

Peril- she/her (trans woman)

On one hand I'm torn bc I think it almost doesn't make sense for her backstory BUT ON THE OTHER HAND the idea of Scarlet being supportive of Peril's identity and LITERALLY NOTHING ELSE is hysterical to me

though actually if we wanna get sad,,,, that 100% could be a manipulation tactic of Scarlet. "see I love you I even accept you" etc etc. now I just feel bad man

Peril's also in the same camp of Qibli of knowing this abt herself since she could think and being happy in it. She knows what she's about

BONUS:

Carnelian- she/they/he (transmasc)

Look butch can be a gender and sometimes you're a mean butch skywing idk what to tell you

wish she stayed alive bc her and Moon could've been legendary together. girl who will kill for you vs girl who desperately wants you to do anything else please we talked about this you can't solve your problems with murder

I think Carnelian's true gender is Skywing Patriot and idk how to put that in hc form but this is as best I've got

#wings of fire #wof headcanons #wof reworked #this is canon 2 me so it goes in the tag ok #qibli wof #winter wof #moonwatcher wof #turtle wof #kinkajou wof #peril wof #carnelian wof #umber wof

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nyxi-pixie · 1 month

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me when im supposed to be studying but instead im thinking abt mori and dazai again

let me go absolutely insane for a second (not a second. this is so long. i just checked mfer its over 2000 words. i need to be sedated. imprisoned. restrained. examined. smthn)

'a young man with a death wish once came to me and i wanted to rescue him but i couldnt' and like yeah. beast mori couldnt rescue him. but to a certain extent, canon mori sort of has (touch wood for long term but as it is, dazai is so much less intent on dying than he was in dark era).

and it just. i always wonder about the actual intentions of the mimic situation. because on the surface, it looks like what dazai calls it, then deeper than that, it looks like a very calculated long term strategy, and deeper than that, its just. kinda sad.

i just think its interesting that he plans the mimic thing the way he does knowing dazai will leave despite the fact that he doesnt want him to. and dazai himself reasons this as mori being afraid of him, that mori doesnt want dazai to kill him the way mori killed the old boss. but thats? not true? mori seems unbothered at worst and downright proud at best when he tells oda that dazai will probably kill him one day.

so. Why. did he do it knowing dazai would leave? it wasnt his only option; he could have set skk on mimic. like 5 second future vision isnt gonna do much when the danger is alr there (as oda says). and in the face of a massive black hole coming right at u or a building being dropped on you, five seconds really isnt gonna do much. so mimic cld have been removed without a casualty and the mafia could still have got the permit, and not lost dazai. (who is Objectively an asset to the organisation.) But thats not how it happens. Mori plans it exactly as he does knowing oda will die and dazai will leave. he also then makes it continually obvious that dazai would be welcomed back.

and ive been trying to think of other reasons for it, but across canon and insight from beast mori the only thing i can think of comes back to the fact that mori wants dazai alive. alive and aware that the pm is the best place for him, but alive more than anything else.

i think he wants dazai as his heir bc he knows dazai is enough like him to manage it, but i wonder if it also comes back to the fact that mori is trying to rescue him, and i imagine his own reason to live (and lord knows he suggests he needs a strong one in fifteen) is probably tied down to legacy and responsibility for the city. mori devotes his life to the mafia because he wants peace and appreciates that control (rather than eradication) of the worst of yokohama is the way to keep that peace. and thats enough of a reason to live for him. but it isnt for dazai.

dazai doesnt give a fuck about the mafia as a concept bc his motivations dont rest on ideals the way moris do. dazai only ever does anything because of the people he cares about. everything we see him do, EVEN in pm era where people claim he was some emotionless rockman, come back to his friends.

its why hes never at the centre of the plot. he cant be, because he never does anything for himself. fifteen, in which he is a titular character, is a plot that rests vastly on chuuyas back story. dazais original motivation prior to meeting him is just to khs, and only upon meeting chuuya and them having their whole weird Thing and dazai deciding to be an obsessive freak, does he actually have personal stakes in the job. then in stormbringer, its all abt chuuya again, and dazai is only involved bc he cares about him (whatever he actually says aside). tdipud is driven by odas storyline, and so is dark era. dazai is only active in them bc he cares abt oda.

even when he has more idealistic motivations come canon era, they come back to the fact that hes doing it for oda. anything Above And Beyond that promise is bc hes acting to save the agency, who are his Friends. his motivations are deeply personal in complete contrast to moris, and it is perhaps the only place they really differ.

now ironically, it seems to be that the only decisions mori makes influenced by personal feelings are because of dazai. which takes me to the fact that i think he let dazai leave because he recognises thats whats best for him (at least in the short term - and we'll get to That in a second). and its not really a loss for the organisation because dazais too practical to ever dismiss the mafia, and he still gut responds with their methods. so its an easy sacrifice, a justifiable one.

then theres the contrast with the kouyou&kyouka thing. kouyou doesnt want kyouka to taste the light only to have it sour on her tongue when she realises she cant actually have it because of what she is. because kouyou believes anyone tainted by darkness the way they are can never be free of it. (because she couldnt get out herself).

i wouldnt be surprised if mori thinks the same way, certainly in regards to someone like dazai who Is naturally built for the mafia in a way kyouka really isnt. mori at least believes dazais blood is mafia black and whether or not this is true is irrelevant. he Does have to actively fight his impulses in order to do the Right Thing even now. And even doing that, he still falls into their methods when its practical, or when he's paranoid or unsettled enough to need the comfort of habit, hence the way he treats aku even four years removed from the mafia. hence the way he treats atsushi immediately after Q appears (the way he so instantly latches onto his older self literally slapping the self pity he detests in himself and in his former kouhai out of his current one). hence the way the parallels to mori spring up most when dazai has just been shaken by something.

so i wonder if mori let dazai walk into the light knowing (or believing) he wouldnt fit there, and would come back with a stronger commitment to the mafia as a whole because it may be a concept of sorts, but its one that embraces him in a way the light doesnt, and while dazai does things for the people He cares about, its a mutual thing - he feels responsibility for the people that care about Him too (which probably ties in to the desire for a quiet suicide without bothering anyone, and also to the disgust he has w the sheep - because it Isnt a mutual exchange there).

i think it was always intended as a temporary thing (five years away from the mafia maybe. the 'five years' right before dazai comes to take moris place). give him a taste of the light and let him come to his own conclusion that he doesnt belong there, and eventually turn back to the mafia where he does belong.

(despite suggestions that dazai Doesnt really belong there - smthn smthn cat/dog symbolism - though people suggest this implies he belongs w the ada and i dont think thats true either esp given the way hes omitted from the group so often. i think the cat symbolism w dazai likens him more to natsume than atsushi&fukuzawa esp given the way theyre shown tgthr so often. dazai doesnt belong to any organisation or rigid group, he just fits in line w whoever he cares abt and wherever he decides hes content to stay. v much like a cat actually.).

anyway, moris idea seems to be that dazai wld realise the mafia is somewhere he is cared for, and he cares for the people within it in return. though it doesnt seem to have really turned out that way (maybe mori j underestimated the power of the ada's one specialty: forced integration into its found family. lmao)

so you could see it from a practical perspective: mori sending dazai out to show him he really belongs w the mafia and shld come back to them when the time is right, thus mori secures his legacy by leaving the pm to dazai and the mafia is led forward by someone who could handle it the way mori has.

but. hes never pushy abt dazai coming back. hes downright polite abt it (contrasting to the way he treats yosano), and he puts an awful lot of effort into saving dazais life. (kinda funny that he sends chuuya to pick dazais ass up every five seconds with no reward for either of them - chuuya post dead apple literally asks and moris just like ? uh the safety of the city?? bragging rights😁👍? - but when he sends chuuya to save the agency as a whole the price is Heavy like. exchange of a member is crazyyy.)

dazai is always very much considered One Of Their Own. his seat is still empty waiting for him to come back, he and mori post guild are Always cooperating (despite the kinda petty way dazai talks to him during the reunion - the whole 'i burnt the coat' thing - its almost childish, spiteful in a way that speaks to personal hurt that undermines any control he might have had of their kind of distant passive aggressive exchange. but. im too insane abt that interaction that my interpretation cld be entirely bs.)

they communicate through this ridiculous game of chess, and rely on each other to keep both their organisations afloat. when anyone else from the ada tries to pull the same thing, mori pulls out contracts for their damn souls but when its dazai hes just like ? oh ur bf needs to save you again? of course i can spare him to go pick you up from european prison yeah not a problem! ill even glue his vampire cosplay teeth in!!

in connection with that, even with dazais commitment to Doing The Right Thing, he does not do it in the right way. hes perfectly content to use mori-typical underhanded methods to get the ada to the right place. he sends aku To His Death Knowingly for the sake of saving atsushi and by extension the rest of the agency (and he may have known that the vampirism wld sorta bring him back?? but he still sends him to die), and its sorta similar to mori sending aku out to deal with hawthorne and mitchell while hes in rlly bad shape.

anyway dazais methods always make me think of that cunty exchange sskk have in dead apple 'thats not the way we do things in the detective agency' 'was that a bad joke😘 ur too much weretiger🌈✨💖'. but like. dazai Doesnt work the way the ada does. at least not when things get tense enough to drive him back to habit.

i think people like to interpret dazai as being a better person now, and i think in some ways he is. because hes always influenced by the people hes around most. but also, his motivations havent really changed from pm era. he still does what he does for his friends, they just happen to be on the right side now.

anyway. mori puts more work into keeping dazai alive than any other character (bar perhaps chuuya - but thats because mori saving dazai runs hand in hand with chuuya doing it given hes the one sending him) which is. aurgh.

mori and the wish to save people is just interesting in general. the fact that he became a doctor in the first place is telling on its own plus the unhinged way he deals with yosano - of course someone obsessed with saving people would want a cheat card for sending Death packing - but maybe i could believe it was just a power thing, more to his sense of control. playing with life and death so that he can play god. and i think that probably is just a little bit part of it, esp during the war.

but theres also the way he treats doctors within the pm (sb calls it respect for his former position but it may also be knowledge that the better treated they are the more people they will save). And the only reason he works w the tripartite agreement is bc he loves yokohama, wants its people, including its underground, alive and all that (honestly it probably links back to war stuff - hes really intent on peace).

so hes already someone that is intent on saving people (and beast mori makes this obvious w the way he treats atsushi) but theres a personal edge to it w dazai, possibly bc dazai is so much like him, and asgr is kind of obsessed w the saving your mirrors bc you cldnt save yourself thing (atsushi. lucy. chuuya with his clone. beast akutagawa siblings. beast atsushi&kyouka. i could continue).

im frothing at the mouth but basically, mori does everything for practical reasons in line with his ideals, his grand vision for the PM, but that doesnt mean he isnt making any emotionally charged decisions. its just that theyre always justified by their practical outcomes. (Especially where dazai is concerned). so he can pretend that theyre not driven by personal feelings but IM WATCHING U MORI U CANT HIDE FROM ME.

yk i sometimes wonder if i see him too sympathetically for a guy thats as so sucks as he is but someone has to counterbalance the 75% of the fandom that thinks hes pure evil for no reason and has no thoughts outside of Being Terrible so. here you go have this from the depths of my brain.

#i appreciate most of this sounds completely unhinged u just have to roll with it #god the fact that dazai rlly doesnt. know. at all. makes me insane #he knows moris reluctant to let him die obviously bc he trusts him to save his ass all the time but the extent of it is lost on him #he knows everything and yet he thinks mori forced him out if the mafia bc he was scared of him #meanwhile real image of mori talking abt dazai killing him one day:🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩👍👍👍👍👍👍👍#im sorry guys im actually not normal about them #i think abt mori&dazai more than i think abt skk. which is. completely bizarre for me #i dont think ive ever given more attention to a non romantic duo before bc im so ship brained but. lord.#dazai osamu #mori ougai #bsd #bungou stray dogs #analysis #also.#nyxis hate posts #<- posted this in the first place cos i was filled w rage by how tt talks abt mori lol

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youngyoo-apologist · 3 months

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I really like it when OG!Cale fanfics are about him in Earth 1, and fanfics where both he and KRS get to be happy

Cause like I think it’s really important that KRS is still in the Roan Kingdom. Being in the Roan kingdom was good for him, he got family, he got friends, he was happy there. Same thing with OG!Cale and Earth One, they’re both the happiest they can be.

I personally don’t really enjoy when OG!Cale’s achievements are all the same as KRS’s, simply cause I don’t think that would happen! At most I think Cale would get his mother’s ancient power, but when it comes to the other ancient powers I don’t even think he’d try and get them. If anything, I believe he would be more focused on protecting his family and territory + preparing for the war and making connections with people who could help him.

I think with OG!Cale, he’d be a lot more straightforward with things especially depending on the information he knows. Unlike KRS who doesn’t plan to get involved(but does anyway, because he’s that kind of foolish(affectionate) man who thinks he will actually have a slacker life), I think he would involve himself to an extent and where he sees necessary, but his priorities are with protecting his home.

Also, I dont like it when KRS completely disappears! He’s so important to this story no matter what !!! It makes me sad when I see OG Cale fics and they don’t talk abt KRS like I know no one is obligated to write abt him but I can’t help but wonder about Kim Roksoo, he would be unhappy as team leader on earth one… no matter how much I think about it, he’s lost his hyungs and that experience stuck with him FOREVER. He won’t get close to anyone again and it’s really sad:(

Being Cale Henituse was a new chance for Kim Roksoo to love again, to be happy again, and I think that even if he can’t be Cale Henituse, he also deserve to find happiness one way or another.

Idk I just really like it when TCF fanfics talk about both earth one and roan, cause I think both worlds are so important. For my fanfic specifically I wanted to create a scenario where both KRS and OG!Cale could go to the other world, but still have a chance in their own since that’s something I always wanted.

KRS being able to save his friends on earth, and meet the people he cares about in Cale’s world, and Cale being able to meet Team One and see his reincarnated mother while also being with the rest of his family and friends in his world. That’s what I had in mind while writing my fic, they both deserve happiness and to have their own achievements and stories I think

#rambling #tcf #trash of the count's family #lcf #lout of the count’s family #tcf novel #lcf novel #tcf fanart #lcf fanfic #tcf fanfic #original cale henituse #Kim Roksoo

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xstarlightxstarbrightx · 3 months

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Neuvi headcanons

MY BBGRL,,, MY LIL CUTIE MANS WHO I ADORE,,,, i love him so much he's so fuCKIng CUTE dude, lil dragon mans sksmefkhjrshefkj. i swear i'm a normal individual w/ these characters

list of current h/c's: - i feel like he's socially anxious?? like ok, listen, he's GREAT w/ any formal situation, but THE MOMENT it gets casual he PANICs on the inside bc he's like 'wait what's the right and wrong thing to say'. - following that, i feel like when he's in a casual conversation w/ ppl and starts getting panicked, i feel like he's learned to tap his cane twice on the ground to signal to any of his closer companions that he's freaking out. like a "get me out of this situation please" type deal. - this ties into my belief that he's got anxiety regarding smaller scale things. like if he makes a small mistake on something or breaks an object, he feels SO BAD and panics as he tries to figure out how to fix it. - knowing this, i feel like he feels a bunch of emotions, he just doesn't know how to like,,, put them into words? read below - a yearning for learning,,,, actively seeks out how to label his emotions, but how does one define their feelings? Emotions are not equated to logic, and yet they're a part of human experience, so what is the method to label that which is so intangible yet so real? he doesn't know yet, but he's figuring it out and i'm so proud of him :)c - overprotective in his own way. like he's been putting a lot of stuff on his shoulders so ofc that includes him being sensitive towards people he cares about being harmed. - prideful! he doesn't think he's prideful, he just is Proud Of Things, but tbh i get a bit of a "dragon pride" vibe from him. it's silly goofy and rears up the most around certain Archons. - GOOD DAD. NEUVI IS SUCH A GOOD DAD. IF A MELUSINE COMES UP TO HIM TO TALK ABT A THING, HE IS THE MOST ATTENTIVE LISTENER. HE'LL ASK QUESTIONS, TOO, TO TRY AND LEARN MORE. oUGH i love him he's SUCH a gOOD DAD - afraid of losing everything; Neuvi didn't really realize he had so much to lose until he almost lost it, and now he's like even more scared to lose anything else. - anxious of closer connections. Neuvi wants to be closer to people; he really likes humanity, and he wants to reach out to people. but he's afraid, bc if they ever err away from the side of justice, they may end up in his court. no matter what happens, then, is him sentencing them not a form of betrayal? neuvi ponders this a lot - MOVING AWAY FROM SAD THINGS: y'all i'll be SO real, ppl are so used to Neuvillette being in Fontaine that, when he's Outside of Fontaine, unless they Know Him on a personal level, no one recognizes that he's the Iudex of Fontaine. like not even actual Fontainians register it, bc, like, why would the literal Iudex Leave his Natural Habitat of the Court of Fontaine??? - side note, average ppl are intimidated by him. like most ppl look at him and go 'if i approach him, i will be arrested for war crimes bc CLEARLY he is a PRINCE' (which is the best and funniest shit) - 'unrelated'; Neuvi doesn't talk to a lot of ppl outside of his closer friend group, i think u can understand why - such a hard worker,,, honestly probably overworks himself and doesn't even realize it. - WHICH LEADS ME TO HIS HOBBIES HEHEHHEHEHEHE - ARTIST,,, you CANNOT sit there, after Lantern Rite, and TELL ME that HE DOES NOT start looking into the arts. THIS MAN would ABSOLUTELY get into painting and poetry and shit. he likes watercolors and he ADORES POTTERY (THAT FUCKING LADLE??? I CRIED OVER IT IN MY TEAPOT FOR 30 MINUTES HELP) - loves books and stories. like seriously they're kinda actually really fun for him to read bc he sits and breaks down what is and isn't accurate abt them (crime/detective books) and he gets invested in romance books (he's CURIOUS okay??) - bc he reads Fontainian romance books, any and every romantic gesture is like,,, awkwardly sappy? like he'll do small scale things bc he's a lil nervous baby, but it's THE SAPPIEST of the sappy. - fashion lover. Listen, this man could arguably wear whatever he wants and he chose to wear THAT???? he's a fashion lover / makeup master, and i will die on this hill. - he would laugh at Cyno's jokes, but only AFTER Cyno explains them.

OKAY I,,, I THINK I DID IT,,, i had so much written i'm dying please i love him so so so much. my itty bitty squishy bbgrl i cannot wait to explain why and how he joined the party / poly it's SO silly, this entire thing is my favorite i have been yapping abt them for a MILLENIA

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zaramnd · 9 months

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good girl's guide to murder (spoilers obvs)

i genuinely just cant get that final confession out of my head man it was so messed up and crazy

the confession of Elliot Ward (Sals Murderer) and how he killed Sal is so messed up i almost cried like genuinely

the way he didnt even kill him instantly and js overdosed him and literally held him in his arms as he died like??? to top it off he tells Sal how wonderful and great Oxford is if he had went HES LITERALLY TELLING SAL ABT THE LIFE HE COULDVE HAD THAT HE HIMSELF TOOK FROM HIM LIKE??

idek bro when i read that scene i was actually speechless and had to take a breath for a good 5 minutes before i continued reading dawg it was so messed up

also becca's story is so sad :((

obviously murder is bad (dont murder people guys) but the reasoning actually makes me feel bad for her

she only had andie in that household that she thought she could count on only for andie to turn her back on her like that?? thats so sad i cant even imagine how hurt she was

Pip was so right to go over to becca's house first and to try and tell her to run because she didnt deserve jail its just sad how things ended up going

ALSO PIPS INTERNAL MONOLOGUE WHEN SHE FOUND OUT WHO THE MURDERER WAS :((

dawg we can't forget abt Cara Ward who's the only one in her family to have done no wrong and was still punished

she lost her whole family but her sister (who she prolly cant even look at the same anymore knowing abt the hit-and-run) and to hear it all from her best friend like man i cant do this

i actually cried at pip's text to cara telling her abt everything she found out i cant even yall

and the way pip literally saw elliot as a father figure to her too only to have her whole world view shattered

personally i think pip and cara lost more than they gained all before they even graduated highschool like MAN I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE

for a novel with no graphics this book broke me so much more than it shouldve and with the story already wrapped up there i have no idea what the sequel has in store and im so excited to read it once i get my hands on it :))

(also im doing a book switch w my friend to get 'they both die at the end' so if thats any good ya'll will hear abt it in like a month or two)

#gggtm #idk how to tag this #speechless #jaw dropped #pippa fitz amobi #sal singh #pip fitz amobi

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wyldblunt · 1 year

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hi personal post just under a cut, it's not even serious or negative or anything i just feel like blabbering and it's embarrassing to have it out in the open lol

i NEED......... to get over how shy i am abt playing w ppl in game... it's not even just Running Content, i mean i get anxious/shy about even just. goofing around aimlessly/map completing with anyone i haven't known for literally years. or who i am not literally married to.

idk what it is!!! my brain immediately kicks into overdrive and gets completely clogged up with "am i not talking enough. are they getting bored. am i moving too fast/slow. i don't know what to do. this is stressing me out" and i have zero idea how to stop myself from getting like that. literally yesterday (SORRY IF THIS WAS YOU??? I THOUGHT YOU WERE NICE FWIW) someone came up to me and marina in game and said hi nicely and asked what we were up to and i like. Answered Once, and then did not talk again the whole time, and we sort of ran around together for a bit until i kind of lost track of them but the ENTIRE TIME i was agonizing over "am i being totally unfriendly and weird by not chatting. am i coming off like i want them to go away or just generally like an asshole" and as you can see i am also still agonizing about it now. even though objectively it was probably completely fine.

and EVEN WITH very good friends i've known for a long time i clam up like that... when i was trying to get into ffxiv some very good friends stopped by to give me stuff/say hi to my character etc and i got the exact same way!!! ppl i literally talk to all the time on twitter etc but then the second we're behind in game avatars i just get stressed out and start feeling super awkward and aside from like. jumping in place a few times suddenly forget literally every single thing i have ever known about human socialization

but it's dumb!!! and i'm so over it!!!! i wanna run dungeons and fractals and stuff, i even wanna scrape a group together to kind of activate my old guild again and claim a guild hall, stuff like that... and i KNOW the tumblr community is a great way to do that bc u guys are all so friendly and chill and it's way better than trying to throw myself into pugs or whatever. but oh my god. my fucking BRAIN, man

as i type this all out i do wonder if maybe a solution would be getting on voice chat w ppl while trying to play stuff together bc i truly feel like 90% of my anxiety comes from "i cannot type in chat and play at the same time, therefore i get super overwhelmed and confused about how to communicate naturally" and i feel like vc would solve that. but uh. if anyone does not mind sometimes running content with a guy who will probably be mostly silent and weird the whole time (the real glyndwr experience!!!!) please feel free to hit me up and i will get back to u between three and six billion business days

EDIT adding on more bc im still thinking lol. i just have a huge huge fear of coming off like a dick or like im unfriendly or something. ppl have constantly told me im intimidating for ages and it hurts my feelings and i get really antsy about it (this is why i never play reblog games abt like "rate how intimidating the person u reblogged from is" etc bc if anyone actually said they were scared of me i would get sad for real lol!!!). i naturally usually have a kind of flat/dry affect online and i make friends slowly, and i don't feel like changing how i express myself bc it's natural to me but. agh!!!! agh!!!! my wittle feelings!!!!!!

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summercreolefanfictioner · 2 years

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the Sakamaki brothers as break-up or unrequited love songs (plus scenarios / headcanons)

A/N: Before I dove into the world of Dialovers, I actually wrote smut angst fics and I usually listen to sad songs (no, I am not brokenhearted and my love life is doing well). This made me picture scenarios that would fit these bastards (cause as always Yui deserve better)

WARNING: Contains violence and a bit of smut (NSFW in short)

SHUU SAKAMAKI

"So sad, so sad, I could never make you stay

Too bad, too bad, I could never walk away"

Hmm a brokenhearted Shuu is like a blank canvas whatever

He basically doesn't want to do anything with his broken heart

I picture him falling in love with a mortal so deep but at the same time he didn't want to indulge in those feelings

Cause the last time he got attached with a mortal, they died (Yuma is still alive but still)

So yeah he be just listening to some sad songs all week

"And now I know I will regret it,

I'd rather keep it all inside"

But in case he decides to pursue this mortal, I think she would be at arm's length

Like he wouldn't indulge deeper than what they have cause someday she will die and boy he has attachment issues

Hence the second song

REIJI SAKAMAKI

"I know I'm just a fool who's willing

To sit around and wait for you

But baby, can't you see there's nothing else for me to do?"

Hmm honestly Reiji was the hardest

And yes, I had @yourlocaltea to help me on this one

Because I can't see Reiji crying over someone tbh

I picture girls crying over him and this famous Olivia Newton-John song would really work

Cause we all know that Reiji has dated girls for the sake of image so maybe one of them really fell in love w/ him

Too bad, he only sees them for his family image

But if he does fall for them, the second song will fit

"I’m no longer alone when I’m by myself

I can feel you even when you’re not here"

If you have watched the ending of this Kdrama aka What Happened in Bali, you prob know what I mean

Let's say the girl left him and found another man

You might think Reiji is being Kanato here but this man won't let you betray him after all he did

He prob gonna murder you in his own Reiji way 💀💀💀

But if he doesn't go the yandere route, he just gonna give you up... hmm... hopefully

AYATO SAKAMAKI

"First you say you won't then you say you will

You keep me hangin' on and we're not movin' on"

I am excited for this one cause as you all know Ayato is my first main diaboy (even before my Kanato simping arc)

I have actually told this to @moonderly and @samsvenn about the possibility of Ayato having an ex who has the fickle heart of Jenny (as mentioned from the same song)

Like at first they're okay, then afterwards they fight over nothing

I even think she's gonna cheat on him w/o him knowing

Or perhaps he knows but decides to think like "oh you want to play then fine I'll play your game and win"

But he is a sore loser

Ayato would prob be the one doing the begging (w/c is unlikely him) and it's all bcos he believes the girl will call him Oresama afterwards

Too bad she doesn't

"Last year's wishes are this year's apologies every last time I come home

I take my last chance to burn a bridge or two

I only keep myself this sick in the head 'cause I know how the words get you off"

Another song that would fit him would be this one

Cause I swear Ayato can be a target of those girls who just like to have fun and dump boys

Ayato be spouting he's an Oresama but these girls would give no sht abt it

If Ayato decides to get a bit serious, it would also be the time they dump him

This fuckboy is a loser in a friends with benefits situation

KANATO SAKAMAKI

"Good for you, you're doing great out there without me, baby

God, I wish that I could do that

I've lost my mind, I've spent the night crying on the floor of my bathroom

But you're so unaffected, I really don't get it"

This one is also hard

Because I have so many scenarios for Kanato

But breakups and unrequited love don't end well for Kanato so he prob would add this poor being to his doll collection

He's actually sarcastic abt it... at first

"Wow, you're smiling now. How shameless of you."

And afterward, he says, "How dare you do that to me? It's unfair, you know? Why isn't it me? Why him?"

Or "I gave you everything you want and now this is how you repay me?!"

"I won't let you betray me, NEVER AGAIN"

"And if you have to leave

I wish that you would just leave

'Cause your presence still lingers here

And it won't leave me alone"

But once he comes down from his rage and intense emotions, that's when he really starts to cry and mourn

Kanato actually has nightmares of this person staying for a while, only to leave him crying

Like he would have an internal conflict where he wants you to go leave him, but he doesn't want you to belong to someone else

TANTRUMS GALORE

"This is all your fault! I'm suffering bcos you left me! (uhhh... you killed her???) 🤡🤡🤡

"You should've just dropped dead even before I loved you."

Anyway, she's a part of his doll collection now so she won't be going away anytime soon

LAITO SAKAMAKI

"The other woman will never have his love to keep

And as the years go by, the other woman

Will spend her life alone"

This song would actually be more about the girls he be toying with

Cause honestly loving Laito is like agreeing to be his plaything and there are many of you out there

In short, every single one of you is the other woman

Fvcking perv

Ofc what do you expect

This guy will never be serious and he would prob mess with your mind and heart until he throws you away

But if you manage to crawl deep in his heart and leave it wounded, then...

"You were the mermaid for me

Till one day, you found your feet

Leaving me in the God-awful bottle,

a model of heartache and grief"

I picture Laito drinking somewhere, prob a nearby pub or by himself at the manor

Like he would waste the night away because of a woman he can't mess with

For some reason, this reminds me a tiny bit of Helen and Laito's relationship (shoutout to @nutaella-kookie)

Like what if Helen broke up with Laito and she's like no turning back 💀💀💀

But what do you expect? Laito never believes in love anyway

SUBARU SAKAMAKI

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"I should actually hate you

The more I embrace you, it hurts

Although when morning comes,

I will look for you again"

In relation to my headcanon abt Subaru falling in love w/ his teacher, this is actually a song that identifies his moving on stage

Like he probs like to tell this little lie that he'll move on but he actually doesn't

The type to do anything for a girl to stay even tho she can't give up her humanity for him

This guy gets waaaaaay attached emotionally

But unlike Kanato, he accepts his fate and takes all the blame

He's also actually like Shuu and would prob play sad songs on repeat

Most of them will be really sad, like how Scarlet Heart Ryeo made me cry

But in case he wants to switch things up, he'll prob play this one

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"So what if I can't forget you?

I'll burn your name into my throat

I'll be the fire that'll catch you

And what's so good about picking up the pieces?

What if I don't even want to?"

Like ya know emo hardcore heartbreak ya know???

Actually, in my headcanon, Kanato sang Scarborough Fair to him and he cried at the lines "Remember me to the one who lives there. She once was a true love of mine."

YES SUBARU CRYING DUE TO HEARTBREAK LIVES RENT-FREE IN MY HEAD

#Spotify #kanato sakamaki #diabolik lovers headcanons #ayato sakamaki #diabolik lovers #dialovers headcanons #laito sakamaki #shu sakamaki #reiji sakamaki #subaru sakamaki headcanons #subaru sakamaki #diahell #rejet #diaboys #sakamaki brothers headcanons #sakamaki brothers #Youtube

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purpleandstarlight · 6 months

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@hateweasel I'm back with more past DLTD reactions!

-Me: Okay so apparently it was a year since Alois was last put in detention and he lost his 'fame' as a delinquent?? Character development. I mean, he's in detention right now, but still-

-Me and my best friend being Travis stans is a costant. We were hype about him FINALLY having a Travis PoV chapter.

-Travis, in that chapter, says that if Cielois ever got engaged, he would be sure to give them a discount, wich i found really sweet. Now I'm wondering, in the future... were the rings made by Travis' mother or did Ciel commission them from someone else? I don't remember...its been too long..please tell me if you're reading this, Hate.

-Me losing it from how funny it is that everything happens at Warwick (despite knowing that it's bc it's the MCs' school) upon starting the Black Annis case and musing about how the other students should have just gone to Weston or some other less chaotic school.

-So, during the whole Ciel-Fights-Alois-While-Under-The-Effects-Of-The-Fear-Poison, Ciel says "Your blood tastes just as good as the rest of you" and I was like "I really didn't want to know that"

-After hurting Alois and coming back to his senses, Ciel is scared and feels guilty so he keeps avoiding him, wich hurts Alois as well as himself, so the whole household is upset about the situation in return. When I told my friend about it, she went "Nooo they're in their divorce arc!" and it killed me 💀

-I was talking about how Cielois & Co were scared of the council kicking up a fit and killing them bc of the drug controlling Ciel, but I was calm bc I trust Integra, and tbh that was my modus operandi about most if not every interaction the demons ever had with HELLSING...and I'm not even a HELLSING watcher/reader...

-Btw i also stanned Oliver's dad EXTREMELY. He's a good man and a good father.

-I was really sad about Alois not wearing the short shorts anymore bc they were funny to me. Now I'm not anymore, tho I gotta say I always missed his crossdressing? Like although he did it so often mostly for attention (as he himself says in the sequel) I gotta say I miss the "So what's wrong if I'm a man and like to crossdress?" thing he did. Luckly Kris picked up the slack and crossdressed in that Pride chapter. U GO KRIS.

- So Integra goes into the specific of the experiment to Humanize Ciel and then asks everyone if they're okay with saying he's innocent in the attack to Alois and everyone but one gets his hand up and I was really mad abt that one but then I found out that it's just that the guy was asleep bc he was extremely old and it was really funny to me.

-About the paintball fight the 7 did where (I think) the others put Alois and Ciel alone in two different teams thinking it would put them at a disadvantage, my friend was like "I love how they did that bc if Cielois was together the others would be defeated in half a second (Bathroom Break included in that time)"

- Me: I still don't understand why the rest of the Seven is like "You guys never do anything chill and normal!!" like...The fashion show?? The summer vacations?? The host club???

My friend: Exactly, c'mon! The fact that like half of those ends in chaos anyway is not their fault...

Me: LMAO. I mean, though, most of those went normally? The only chaotic time I can think of is when they found out about Luka's soul being back and had to make a whole ass ritual in the basement to give him a body.

My friend: Still normal enough if you ask me.

Me: Yeah, normal teenager behavior 💀

My friend: Everyone does that!

#DLTD Thoughts

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sugar-omi · 9 months

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Which part of Baxter's confession did you like? A lot of people liked the after-wedding confession.

Morning confession is popular too (after clearing the air between you and him)

I like the office confession just cuz it fits my mc who's nervous. Plus I love it when he does it. He just keeps complimenting you and adding more feelings to his confession to you. The longing and need to be with you. It adds to how he feels that he'd regret it more if he stayed quiet than being afraid rejection from you.

he makes my heart swell 😭

OKAY SORRY I TOOK SO LONG I HAD TO REPLAY AND OMFG I FINALLY PUT THE WHORE ACTIVITY ON PAUSE TO LET BAXTER CONFESS FIRST LMAO

okay I am going to tell u everything I like abt each confession ok? that's definitely not what you asked but idc anymore I am CRAZY ABT HIM

office confession: okay this has to be my favorite bc it gives me the time to bitch at him and have a heart to heart. HES SO CUTE TOO THE WAY HES BLUSHING SO MUCH AND LOST FOR WORDS.... MY BABY

the kiss is so delicious btw... so gentle and passionate and full of love.... I've never felt more loved and seem than w baxter I'm ngl. cove is great, n I love him sm n he's always on my mind but baxter. man oh man

anyway this is Actually the best confession and fleshes out the story so much compared to the other 2 even tho those are good as well n I love having him as my boyfriend for longer

whoever wrote baxters dlc, you are a legend n the loml. it's so beautifully written. every word n step and it swallows me every time... this confession rlly just swallows me whole like I cannot explain the feelings I have without sounding Actually lovesick

morning after confession: he's so cute in the morning ofc....

i love when you kiss or tell him how you feel n you have the whole heart to heart thing, yk how it is same stuff blah blah and he goes "I should sit down now. in a place where a backrest can catch me" LIKE LMAO MY BOY IS ABT TO FAINT HES SO IN LOVE ITS SO CUTE I LOVE IT SO SO SO MUCH

wedding confession: ngl my thought every time is "im not reading all that. I'm happy for you tho. or sorry that happened" LIKE I LOVE YOU N STUFF AND ITS AMAZING BUT ALSO PLEASE IK YOURE TRAUMATIZED JUST KISS ME ALREADY YOU FUCKING IDIOT

I also love when he's like "yk your friends are watching right"

(PRO TIP THO. DONT HAVE COVE AT CRUSH BC YOUR HEART W BREAK..... I WILL NEVER RECOVER BC ALL ICAN THINK ABT IS ANGST AND PAIN..... the way the dialogue is different at fond and crush/love... my heart is ruined.)

BUT HE SEEMS SO SENSITIVE AND EXTRA SMALL WHEN YOU CONFESS/KISS HIM

he's all "🦋✨️💞🦋💞✨️💓" ITS SO CUTE

anyway. I love when he's like abt to faint or loses feeling in his body or holds you too tight bc "omg they love me back!!!!"

I also love how expresses so much regret but eagerness for your future. and how he keeps talking abt how much he loves you, and wants you, and assures you no matter what he has regrets and wants to be in your life for real. that even after he left, he still wanted to be in your life...

just the self reflection is so beautiful and I really get it. bc if I was him, I'd be way too scared to apologize bc what if I ruin your progress since I left? or I upset you, etc?? it's just so beautiful. and so sad but baxters dlc is like finally being loved. being cold and wrapped up in a warm blanket and held.... it's just so lovely

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sir-sunny · 3 months

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Personally I'm v curious about Mitsue and Sunnie :0 I wanna know why they're so sad!!

SO first off, all about mitsue >:))

mitsue is a meek and insecure person who be codependent af. her sister, mei fugii is someone she relies on to make decisions for her. often times, she simply sticks close and just follows her lead. this means that her along with her sister are snarky assholes who think theyre better than everyone. for a while, shes mostly mei's hype man ykno how it goes "hah good one, mei" "you're so right, sis" "you're sooo funny" its worth noting that mei is not a nice sister. shes constantly judging and disregarding mitsue. theyre v dysfunctional

HOWEVER at hopes peak, being the disaster lesbian she is, she falls head over heals for belle heartly the ultimate baker:)

so for a while she simply trails after belle like a lost puppy because shes nice to her. however, unfortunately she has no idea how to express emotions so just bullies her akjsadg belle is the ultimate pushover cuz she gets bullied and shes like "oh ok :) i made you strawberry pastries :) love you" and mitsues like's D:< !!!??? FUCK

SO BASICALLY fast forward to chapter 3 in the killing game and her sister, mei effing murders someone (yumna). when mei demands that mitsue help her cover it up, mitsue actually refuses, shockingly. as a last resort, mei runs to the roof and mitsue goes to follow her fearing what she'll do (unknown to her, belle is not far behind) when she gets to the roof, her sister threatens her catching mitsue completely of gaurd. mei goes to push her off the roof when suddenly belle interjects and pushes mei off the roof instead.

and bada bing bado boom. in an instant she lost her sister and her first love's fate was sealed

mitsue practically makes belle promise to not say anything abt anything. during the trial, mitsue is incredibly difficult and unhelpful, constantly interjecting and leading the class astray. all suspicion is on her until belle decides to lead the class to the right culprit. and after that, the trial is over

mitsue is devastated as belle says her last words to her. she doesnt watch her execution.

after that, mitsue is very quiet and reserved until she slowly opens up to the others and she makes friends and blah blah ykno how it goes

anyways she makes it through the killing game so shes alive and well!

NOW all about sunnie eheh

dw sunnie's story wont be as long ajsfgkash theyre still a wip

so basically sunnie just a mess of a human being who is horribly nervous all the time.

sunnie became the ult comic purely by chance. the circumstances in and itself is a joke. an old stand up routine went viral and next thing they knew, their comedy career skyrocketed (to their horror). then they were accepted into hopes peak academy (to their horror). people expecting sunnie to be funny is their biggest fear akjhkasf

basically, sunnie is a comedian whos too fucking nervous to actually be funny

in the killing game, sunnie's roommate is good ol strange kisshoten. the two of them form an unlikely bond blah blah besties

anyways their relationship and story is a work in progress sooo feel free to give me ideas or whatever kgefhefjkdjfg

also sunnie is aliveeeeeeeeeeeeeee

#danganronpa #fangan oc #mitsue fugii #sunnie daye

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stuffed-gutz · 3 months

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ur guro content isnt even the most appealing to my own tastes overall but im dropping a follow just cause i respect how much effort u put into sourcing the art! i saw a post from like a month ago abt how much u put into making sure you credit the artists and so many guro blogs just straight up post stuff from the artists without even leaving the name attached and i think thats pretty cool of you. and yknow every now and again theres something that hits close for me so why not follow. ur blog is cool keep rocking

Uwaaaauwuwuahauwah... thank u so much !!

A lot of my close friends are artists who have done commissions and stuff b4 and sometimes had their stuff reposted, and I've ALSO seen some artists on pixiv and fanbox n stuff remove all their accounts due to reposts so like. I do think it's important to give at least a basic source. These images don't just pop up overnight!!1! If you like it, it's worth it to try and find where its from PLUS THEN YOU GO TO THEIR PROFILE AND SEE MORE COOL ART!! every1 wins!!

Anyway I understand why some people don't give credit because it does sometimes take FOREVER to try and find the original source of some of the older images (which are often the coolest) and sometimes I CANT find SHIT besides reposts. Which is frustrating as fuck. But idk, some sources seem lost to the ages and that makes me sad. Like I wanna see more guts by whoever drew that, man... I like how those guts look, I wanna see the artist!!

Sorry for rambling but idk, I do think about this stuff.

#questionz

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shingogf · 2 years

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Its 1 am and im bored and i cant stop thinking about just how fuckin tragically complex spamton's character really is like. That's grade A fuckin writing.

Not only was he not so great from the start and life was by all means not kind to him bc his sales never hit no matter what, but after that benefactor (be it gaster or whoever) contacted him and he was drowning in money and fame, everything was ripped away from him once they left. He had everything a man could wish for in life and it was all just...lost in a matter of seconds. Not only that but his friends abandoned him before that too out of jealousy and after his imminent fall they entirely refused any kind of contact with him and society turned its back entirely on him, deeming him as an outcast. His past fame and success was irrelevant, because everyone looked down upon him now that he was a nobody.

But i think what he wanted the most wasn't just easy cash and bitches, but sentinence. He wanted to "call his own deals" as he puts it, he wanted autonomy over his own life and for whatever the fuck reason neither he or jevil or kris for that matter (the kris/jevil -> spamton pipeline is a whole other story theres too much to say on it) have it. And he may have had a vague idea about how it felt when being helped out by that benefactor but that didnt last either and when he saw it didnt he entirely lost his mind, further driving people away from him bc they didnt wanna be associated with his unstable ass. While you can't blame the system and other ppl necessarily for potentially targeting and "destroying" his life (i.e evicting someone who cant pay rent isnt inherently malicious), multiple factors from his environment contributed to his ultimate ruin.

And i wont even get into how fuckin good the pinocchio parallels are bc man...the character WRITING. At the end of the spamton neo battle after u defeat him peacefully he mentions he's gonna become "a real boy" with understandable excitement, but even that does not happen cuz he fuckin dies the second u cut his last string which is such a beautifully sad way of putting it. No matter how much he struggles he will never gain the free will he craves so much because he is made to be stringed around. He cannot live without an outer higher force that makes choices for him and directs him and he loathes it. Even he sorrowfully admits it at the end by saying that he couldnt be more than "a simple puppet" then recognizes kris' potential of overcoming their condition, unlike him. The inherent difference between him and pinocchio is that pinocchio at the end of the story achieves his dreams and becomes a real person, spamton, on the contrary, had lost everything relating to his person a long time ago and will never be able to get it back no matter how much he kicks and screams and tries. He also hates jevil for being able to "accept" his fate and choosing to live in blissful ignorance towards his mediocre condition, something which spamton simply cannot accept which brings his inevitable downfall.

Another parallel that makes me so fuckin normal abt his character is the weird ass icarus theme he's got going on. Besides the obvious physical comparison you could make with neo and his literal wings that look like they've been put together in a frenzy by a first grader during arts and crafts, spamton, just like icarus, tried seeing past his given role/condition and had unceremoniously fallen because of it. He had forcefully crafted his own wings and stubbornly ignored others' words, flew too close to the sun and failed, because spamton's core driving force is his stupidly high level of perseverance. Achieving absolution and ultimate truth had rendered spamton fully incapable.

#i drank water 4 times while writing this #.txt #mine #dr #the deltarune hype may have died down but my burning interest for spamton and his immaculate character writing will forever live on #deltarune #like i cant stress enough how amazing of a job toby does at portraying dark themes esp shit like societal neglect or the pscyhe #i legit cant wait to see what else mans got in store for us next #they rlly said lets make this mf the most accurate portrayal of a tragic comedy

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Nimona

watching nimona on netflix

spoilers under the cut

(i already watched a lil of the movie a few days ago so this starts on the part where Ballister is knighted)

VROOO OH MY GOD I CANNOT BRLIEVE THAT JUST HAPPENED

WHO TF SABOTAGED HIM LIKE CUZ IT WAS DEF A SABOTAGE HELLO ????

Ballister does not deserve this

lmaooo Nimona ??

LMAO he thinks she’s 10 💀

what ?? job ?? help me im

Nimona is cute

i understand why everyone is saying Ballister has those big wet eyes

damn he really lost his arm

i feel so bad for Ballister :(((( he was sabotaged :((( someone messed up his sword :((

?!?! how did she get in

damn she’s projecting

LMAO SHE JUST PUNCHED THE CODE ???

i like the aesthetic being a mix of medieval and futuristic stuff its very cool

bro Nimona im

BROOO HELP.

omg they are gay

ohhhh she’s a shapeshifter

help the guy is so confused this is so funny

all the animals she’s turning into is pink

reminds me of beast boy from teen titans

i love Ballister but he’s kinda pathetic LMAOAOAOOA

why is she still calling him boss he does not want any part in this

KSKDJSK SHE STILL THINKS AMBROSIUS IS HIS NEMESIS

the thunder clap

Nimona’s just doing this cuz she’s bored n he’s an outcast too wild

i get it tho she’s just looking for someone who understands her

she’s so eager to murder someone 💀

why does this feel like she’s forcing him to adopt her like

i hate these guards this todd guy is annoying like stfu bro

todd shut up im gonna punch you

Ambrosius no :(((

damn favoritism

wait did she just eat a rat

SHE ATE THE RAT SHE ATE IT ?!?!?!

not careless whisper im 💀

the guard talking about what kind of otter it was lmao

DAMN NIMONA NO WAY HELPPP MOCKING HIM PUBLICLY LIKE THAT WILD

‘I’m not pushing you, I’m encouraging you forward!’ LMAOAOAO

oh no theres security cameras

todd stfu

um ew ? that pizza is from the floor ?

Ballister stfu ur not accepting either dude dont even 💀

bro cant read the subtext

is she telling the truth

oh help lmao she’s just lying im cackling

bro they know ur there 💀

this mean really is pathetic thats so funny

i think you should wear different clothes Ballister

HELPPPP NIMONA ??? BRO’S HAUNTING THE GUY THATS SO FUNNY

THEY KUST KIDNAPPED HIM BRO

Also the way Ambrosius? that look in his face? the way he couldnt shoot Ballister? bro,,, ur not slick im onto you

is the guy even still alive ???

Nimona is very chill about the arrow in her leg

damn i,, he’s giving caring father vibes lmao

HELP THE GUY THEY FORGOT ABT HIM THATS SO FUNNY IM DYING

‘Who’d protect Todd?!?!’ CACKLINGGGGG IM CACKLING

!!! OH MY GOD IT WAS THE DIRECTOR

i knew it dude she gave off major villain vibes

Nimona’s so mean thats so funny im cackling

??? Ballister stop making excuses bro

they did brainwash him good bro

why did the director sabotage him tho

‘the man i love, my best friend’ KFHEODJSIDU GAY

HELP ME HE’S JEALOUS IM DYING ‘He’s got a new best friend, what’s that about?’

‘Arm chopping is not a love language’ wise words from Nimona and Ambrosius

NOOOO THE PROOOFFF I HATE YOU TODD I HATE YOU

gasp dude i can FEEL the betrayal

nice !! chaos !!

i really like the animation and art in this movie, its very nice

oh no theyre fighting :((

HELP THE GUY STILL FOCUSED ON THE KIND OF OTTER IT IS

damn :(( theyre fightng :(( the gays are fighting im devastated bro

TODD SHOULD BE THE ONE TO BE PUNCHED IN THE FACE IM GONNA PUNCH TODD

oH NO NIMONA NOOOOO ODHWOFJEID

OH LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOOOO !!!!!!!!!!

oh no Nimona :(((

oh she flipped the table

‘And I’m the monster?’ :((((

bro :(( this is so sad

awww Ballister suggesting they go over the wall together to make her feel better

aww !! theyre bonding !!

so u killed her cuz u couldnt stop being narrow-minded

DID SHE JUST STAB AMRBOSIUS NOOOOOOOO FUDE NO AMBROSIUS WTF

oh its Nimona

HELP THE DIRECTOR’S FACE WHEN NIMONA SHAPESHIFTED BACK

oh hey theyre playing Monopoly but magic

oh hey they posted it on their version of youtube

dancing shark !!! aww theyre so cute

oh shit Ambrosius is mad !!!

bro the director killed the queen dont listen to her !!

oh theyre happy :)) but something’s gonna happen n then they wont be happy :((

LIAR !! IT IS HER !! but damnit she is indeed a shapeshifter but no !!

bro everyone’s mistrusting each other now

ITS A TRAP ITS A TRAP ITS A TRAP

Ambrosius u ggot it all wrong !!! no !!! NOOOO !!!!!!!!

what is that scroll

she is just a child !!

‘Because I love you’ !!!!! OHO SHIT BRO TODD SAW IM GONNA KILL TODD

oh shit oh my god holy shit i

?? Todd bro leave

omg was she Gloreth’s friend ?? but that was thousands of years ago?? how old is Nimona ??

who is this blonde girl

oh no :(( SHES A CHILD

bro the villagers were the one who set it on fire

omg yeah it is Gloreth

BRO <//3 I CANNOT BELIEVE

oh shit whats happening

shut the FUCK up todd

um what is that

oooh its like a giant shadowy mass

oh thats kinda cool actually but i feel so bad for Nimona :((

bro the institute sucks man

she’s just trying to get to the statue of Gloreth

!! NIMONA DONT DIE !!

LETS GO BALLISTER STOP HER FROM KILLING HERSELF

youre not alone Nimona :(( yyoure not alone sobbing shaking crying youre not alone !!!

???? stfu director u killed the queen for noth

AMBROSIUS ?!?!?!

oooh now she’s the opposite of the shadow thing very cool

?? wait she’s still alive right

bro what where is she ?!?!?! theres no way she died ?!?!

oh the wall is broken

THEYRE GAY !! LETS GO THEYRE TOGETHER THEY KISSED

ooh they go beyond the wall now very cool

starts crying that drawing is so cute wtf

damn the lair was left in the same way they left it that night

!! oh nice she’s there awesome

this is a banger credits song

i wanna read the comic now

#nimona

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