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enhanced-operatives-division · 1 month

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I've been thinking about the first time Prism got one of her Robots to work the way she wanted after getting kinesium and uh well this was the product of that

#aughh sorry if her hands look off I literally only have a 1 brown for skin tones so i couldn't do her palms properly #i am looking to get a set of like decent skin tones in paint pens but christ it's hard to find #i tried to use my ballpoint pen brown to at least imply the contrast but idk how well that worked #know i wanted to do it but i was limited by my resources sighh #alas...primmy :(....#idk she cares so much about her robots and it just breaks my heart to think about it #she's so gentle with them...like she's wanted to make them real for so long and now she can and she loves that and she loves them and AUGHH #i cannot wait until she meets right robot again in canon you have nooo idea how much i want her to see that bobot again #i think she would cry but um. it's good this time?#she's so special to me im crying dr p ilysm #im like a broken reccord the amount i say it. true though she's excellent :(#ieytd #i expect you to die #[agent moose's art]#roxana prism

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yourhighness6 · 2 months

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...I'm gonna need more therapy after the end of season 4

#never before have we seen adora look so broken #this is the second time catra has expressed a desire to end her own life in two seasons #glimmer has never been so scared or guilty #bow has never looked so desperate #scorpia trying with all her might to get to frosta and perfuma to offer them some semblance of comfort has left my heart broken #seahawk clinging to mermista unable to do anything about her pain shattered me into a million peices #light hope is gone #hordak has become a sympathetic character #I literally want to die #spop #she ra and the princesses of power #spop season 4 #crying screaming throwing up #scorfuma #seamista

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aceofstars16 · 3 months

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It’s 7:30 in the morning and I’m exhausted but I don’t know if I’ll be able to fall asleep again any time soon….

It’s like I was *just* starting to heal from having my heart and trust shattered 3 years ago, and now it’s happening all again, only this time I don’t have the church to go to for comfort/prayer/encouragement. And instead of a friendship I had for 2-3 years, it’s a church I’ve been going to for TWENTY TWO YEARS

I feel like I’m living in the twilight zone, this can’t actually be happening, right?

(I’m not okay, I keep crying and I just want to wake up from this nightmare)

#I don’t even know what to tag this as I just can’t #I was literally just telling my counselor that I feel like I’ve never had the ‘years of plenty’#only the suffering and trials…and now this happens to seem to confirm that #and it doesn’t help that I was already having trouble trusting the leader after last year #and now it’s like a big ‘I told you’ from my brain which isn’t gonna help me trust anyone in the future #I was already having a hard time taking chances and trying to trust again ans NOW THIS #I know I should at least try to sleep again I just…I don’t even know anymore #I’m not even gonna tag this as any normal stuff tbh #how about just #aceo get her heart broken again #not to mention I’m terrified I’m going to fallback into the numb empty depression pit I only just kind of got out of #and faith? bro I understand how people left the church or faith cause it is HARD to differentiate between the church and God #I’m still trying to pray and stuff I just feel so empty and I can’t do this again #it doesn’t help that the church claimed that they felt ‘lead’ to this crappy situation whatever THAT means #I only heard it second hand tbh…I just…can this stop please? can this all just be a horrible dream that I wake up from? please

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getawaycar-motelbar · 5 months

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She didn’t even get to see Taylor. She didn’t even get to see Taylor. She didn’t even get to.

#my heart is absolutely fucking broken for this woman this sucks so fucking much #this shouldn’t have happened it seriously should not have oh my god #taylor swift #swiftie #taylor nation #this is not about me at all but I’m sobbing and shaking over this like that’s how upsetting this is it’s so upsetting #like it’s not even an isolated incident so many people hurt and die at shows #we literally lost one of our fellow swifties my heart hurts so bad #she didn’t even get to see her that’s so fucking sad #and the fact we’re more upset than the fucking people who caused this

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stop-breaking-my-heart-dragonage · 4 months

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Alistair: So I'm not going with you, I see. Any particular reason? Tabris: I'm not going to risk you getting hurt, Alistair. Alistair: And you think I want you going in there and sacrificing yourself? You think I want you to die!? But there's no use arguing with you, is there? We don't have time... and you are a stubborn, stubborn woman. Tabris: You would do something foolish. Alistair: Maybe… I guess we'll never know now, will we? I guess this is the last chance we'll get… before this is finished, one way or another. Be careful in there. Tabris: I love you, Alistair. Alistair:

Guess who made the ultimate sacrifice...?

Me. It was me.

I made the ultimate sacrifice.

The achievement wasn't worth it.

#dragon age #dragon age origins #dao #alistair theirin #dao alistair #warden tabris #i'm genuinely so heart broken #i just wanted to see what ending you get when you reject morrigan's ritual since i have very strong opinions on it as i've discussed before #and it's more in character for my tabris to reject it anyway so this was the first time i did it and just...... i am hurt #like... it's such a hopeless 'what was even the point? she didn't deserve this' feeling y'know? she didn't deserve this!#and neither did alistair... he already holds so much guilt over duncan and cailan making him stay out of battle in ostagar #and then rose makes him stay behind so she can face the archdemon and die ALONE... while also robbing him of the chance to stand beside her #the way i play dao is alistair is forever in my party like i literally take him *everywhere* he is with rose the entire journey #they are partners in this forever and always and they planned to face the archdemon together but that changed with riordan's news...#and this is the first time since they met in ostagar that he hasn't been in her party and i didn't expect it to hurt so much...#plus i keep alistair a warden so he's left alone in the aftermath of a blight that took everything from him #and i know the end card was retconned but it says that he was so hurt over the warden's death #that he said it wasn't the same anymore and he fucking *left* the order and fereldan and his whereabouts are unknown after he made #a small monument for duncan in his birthplace like.... again i know that was retconned since he obviously didn't leave the wardens but OOF #oh and don't even get me started on morrigan and how she responds to being rejected like i'm chewing on all my furniture right now #there is so much to dissect in that conversation and i'm too emotionally drained to handle it right now...

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mozart-the-meerkitten · 3 months

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CW/TW- Pet Death

So last night I asked for prayers for me and my parents because we'd had a really rough and emotionally trying day. I will now explain. This is, unfortunately, also a Kitten Update on my Bengal kittens, so if you've become emotionally invested in them and aren't up for reading this right now, look away and come back to it another time. Or just don't come back to it. Alright, disclaimer over, you've been warned.

Alright, I'm going to keep this as succinct as possible to try and limit how much I end up crying.

We took the six girl kittens to get spayed yesterday.

Tulip, the littlest kitten, Leeli's runt, had a heart condition we didn't know about. It's all but invisible, there are barely any signs and there is no way to know it exists without special tests being done which we never even thought to do because we had never had an issue with it before and we have had Bengal cats for a long time.

They put Tulip under anesthesia and during the procedure her heart just... stopped. They did everything they could to revive her, they gave her CPR, they gave her epinephrine, but it didn't work. She died.

The vet said she likely had a heart condition where the heart walls thicken and it takes more and more effort then for the heart to beat. My mom looked it up and usually by the time symptoms are visible the cat only has 3-6 months to live. There is no cure, all they can do is slow it down/improve symptoms.

I realized, and shared with my parents, that Tulip was already showing symptoms. She always tired out before the other kittens, she slept more than them, when she was littler she'd come and fall asleep on me because she knew I'd keep other kittens from pouncing on her. Two days ago I'd left Madia and Tulip in my room for maybe 10-15 minutes and they were waking up from a nap, so I assumed they'd be tearing around when I got back. They were curled up on my bed again and I thought that was odd, but...

But Tulip was little, she was the runt, there was no reason to question these things because they're not uncommon behavior for runts (being smaller they have less energy/stamina). And she was as fiesty as any Bengal kitten we'd ever had. A few days ago I saw her attack Farid, her brother, who is over a FULL POUND heavier than her, and start beating him up. She gained weight, she ate well, she acted like a normal kitten!

She was already showing symptoms at 4-6 weeks old, maybe earlier. 3-6 months to live (usually) after symptoms show up. Her heart stopped when she was 4 months old.

It was basically as if we'd had her put to sleep. She felt no pain, she didn't even know. She just fell asleep.

There was no happier kitten in existence than Tulip. That little baby would purr like a MOTOR if you were in the ROOM with her, not even if you were holding her, petting her or playing with her. She just purred ALL THE TIME. She was such a sweet little bug that you couldn't get mad at her. All she knew was happiness and love, and like my mom said, there aren't many cats or people that's true of. She had the happiest kittenhood, the happiest life that any cat could ever have. Her siblings knew that their baby sister needed extra TLC so they made sure to always snuggle around her, Madia went slower so her baby sister could keep up, they loved her, they loved her, they loved her.

Tulip was going to die soon, we just didn't know it. At least this way, God gave us some answers and reasons as to why. I told my mom yesterday that this was simply her span of days, and it was short but very bright.

I named her after a spring flower. Tulips have a short season and then they fade. Tulip's season was short but vibrant and full of life. And when I thought about it today, about if I would have rather had her just not be born alive so I didn't have to go through the grief of losing her after I'd known her...

I couldn't imagine a world where I hadn't experienced that baby's life. I'd do it all over again. Her span of days was short but bright and I was with her every day of her life. I was her forever. And I loved her and I loved her and I loved her.

This was not my fault, I did everything right, I have no regrets. Sometimes things happen that are out of our control. She would never have lived long, but I gave her the best life any kitten could ever have.

Tulip is buried in my Hideout, in the Gnarled Forest, next to Dora. There is no higher honor I could give her than that.

All the others kittens came thought surgery fine and are recovering.

#cw pet death #tw pet death #bengal cats #kittens #tulip the kitten #tulip #my heart is broken #but I literally could not imagine a world where I didn't know her #there would have always been this little hole in my heart where tulip should have been #her life was so so happy #madia is the most sensitive kitten and so OF COURSE she would notice tulip needed extra tlc #OF COURSE she would slow down and specifically play with her little sister #so she didn't get lost in the shuffle of eleven kittens #I have video of tulip purring she just-#she purred when we PUT HER TO BED AT NIGHT #she purred when I PUT HER IN HER CRATE TO GO GET SPAYED YESTERDAY #I scooped her up and cuddled her a minute because she was just PURRING #I just feel so wrung out today #I should be bawling but I think I cried all my tears yesterday #I just feel kind of hollow and sad now #on the flipside though everything makes sense #the little promptings I've been feeling about her since I could distinguish her from her siblings #how much attention I gave her even though she wasn't the kitten I was keeping #I have SO MANY pictures of her #I have more thoughts but I don't have the energy to dissect them all right now/#I think I should make a post specifically about them #anyway #this little baby was so precious and she will NOT be forgotten #I had already had thoughts about a book series where she and madia were the main characters #she will NOT be forgotten

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villainsidestep · 1 month

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smth smth fawn’s self rivalry in the siblings!au

#gideon shut the hell up challenge #bc we keep randomly thinking abt how Absolutely Devastating the museum is in sibs!au it ofc led to #us thinking abt the heartache of having to see river take up the sidestep name #to have (who you think is) some stranger waltz in and just stake a claim on arguably the single most important thing in your life #(read: the sidestep name bc it’s all you have left of ur brothers)#BUT. then we started thinking abt how they Also take up the sidestep name again #and the agonizing self-loathing and Constant Mourning that they go through every time they commit a crime #bc it’s not just their own hero memory who they are corrupting and bastardizing but Their Brothers’……..#fawn in the sibs!au is literally the equivalent of being so broken and bloodied and still dragging yourself onward #bc what other choice do you have?#ALSO !!!! bc we love to discuss fawn treating destroying the exhibition as a self-inflicted funeral.#knowing that in the sibs!au they probs only intended to remove their own self ?? but spare cyrus and river’s??#except then cyrus goes and blows up the fucking museum !!!!!!#I know for a fact they’re too busy helping w evacuations to actually manage to detour and save any of it too #bc they def would’ve considered it. genuinely inconsolable later when ric talks to them abt it.#bc here’s the thing. it may not have happened in actual book canon but I know in my heart he would sit them down and explain that nothing #of the sidestep exhibit could be recovered. which is fine for Just fawn but when u include the brothers ??? absolutely not #angie also is the one who chases fawn off which makes it even more fun bc they Just run from her they don’t super fight #and genuinely…. idk if they could have right then !!!! I think they’d be way too distracted and shocked to manage it #keeping up with the beckers

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frecklystars · 9 months

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When there’s a high quality version of the Barbie movie out for me to 🏴‍☠️ it’s over for everyone. You know how many gifs I’m going to make of Ken???? [counting on fingers] at LEAST... four

#ok spoilers in the tags incoming #every time I see the movie I want so badly to gif that part where #he is on the beach goin to war and he’s shaking. eye twitching. breathing erratically #and his dancing AGH i wanna gif those body rolls so baddddd it's so hot #or when he stabs his chest that move is so good too. but luckily that gif is already out there #I want to gif the part where he’s crying his eyes out and he looks down at his trembling hands and clutching them to his heart #and you SEE those tears on his face and his breath is hitching and he looks so fukcin BROKEN #BRO-KEN IF YOU WILL.#I hype myself up for literally every single scene he’s in #doesn’t matter what he’s doing in the scene he does SOMETHING cute or funny #whether it’s a laugh or a way he moves his hands or the way he tilts his head...#there is always something that catches my attention and holds it so tightly #like literally almost every single line he says is so fucking funny #or the way he looks at barbie while he's walking away and not takin his eyes off her #THE BOW? WHEN THE LADY ASKED HIM FOR THE TIME? AND HE BOWED SAYING 'I SHALL SEEK MY FORTUNE THERE'?#LIKE HONEY BABYGIRL ANGEL DARLING SWEETHEART WHAT WAS THAT. AND CAN YOU DO IT AGAIN #'I have all the genitals' knocks me out every time #and not even just funny moments but the moments where he's DEVASTATED I live for that shit #him breaking down yelling 'NO *YOU* FAILED *ME' while SHAKING and then he falls onto his knees #i really went into this movie not expecting anything. but most of all i didnt expect to be THIS in love with Ken of all characters #I really entered that theater expecting Barbie to be my main f/o and yeah she is one. but the MAIN main f/o is Ken??????#that’s when you know it’s a good movie when you make me give a shit about a Ken doll #barbie movie spoilers #woof #love notes #that being said can anyone let me know if u find a HD version of the movie floating around...#i only see ppl recording the movie screen w/ their phone dfjsfjdf

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tennis-kittens · 1 year

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The emotional support Team Europe mom to the rescue 🥺❤️

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rainsnap · 1 year

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I love how in Sky you have Sunbeam and Nightheart just chilling, stealing fair food, dealing with simple issues like "oh no, my clan doesn't appreciate my horrible attitude" or "my best friend and crush got together and now everyone is pitying me + my mother's past trauma is causing her to hate my brother's girlfriend"

and Frostpaw is over there just Dying. Just casually falling apart with things like "I saw my mom be torn apart and now I have to pick someone else to be leader and walk them down this very same path and experience the trauma again every single time" and "I, a literal child, am being pressured into picking a new leader because I apparently have the skills to talk to dead cats and Oh No I don't think I can actually????" I get the theme for each of them is being isolated in their own clans but Boy Howdy is one of these things not like the others!

#warrior cat spoilers #sky spoilers #nightheart #sunbeam #frostpaw #Also I hate that Nightheart and Sunbeam are love interests please stop this #Nightheart is a Child still and also an idiot #Sunbeam deserves way better than that guy and I hope the two break up once Sunbeam sees what a horrible cat Nightheart is #and I guess well Nightheart isn't horrible he has his points but like? the point is dumb and made up by the authors for drama #literally all the cats are related to Firestar somehow they should have had Jayfeather be like #"oh yeah I had this whole prophecy of being related to that guy #and it got my sister killed and my heart broken by allowing me to time travel and fall in love with cat #don't worry tho I made her become a nun so it was all fair I guess #being related to Firestar sure is hard ain't it? Oh wait #you don't have a horrible prophecy about you and just hate woman? yeah that's a you problem

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serulii · 1 year

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JUST WATCHED THE NEW AOT... i knew what was coming but was i emotionally ready for it? NOOOOOO. someone hold me i'll never recover from this 😭😭😭😭😭😭

#i'm not okay #when your fav character of 7+ years dies #hange went out like a shooting star #literally the most heroic and epic way to die #they did her so much justice #hange is icarus #it fits SO WELL #my levihan heart is broken into tiny little pieces #now i rly wanna draw fanart again #goddammit

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theyellowhue · 1 year

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Day 27: endless suffering but the weather boys make everything easier

i have my last exam tomorrow and thank gods that i can take it at home.

FortPeat's cover has been on replay. The song was so sweet?!!! incredibly PrapaiSky-coded if i say so myself. Let's not forget the visuals!!!! they looked so soft and they were in bed. honestly, i should just camp in that MV and have it on replay.

the weather boys are busy preparing for the fan meet and i have yet to figure out how to buy the online access to it?!!!! maybe ill just have to see it via fans on the event whose live tweeting the event. 😞😞😞

i just thought of a really good PrapaiSky twt au prompt and i am excited to start making it once my exam is over. i actually have an unfinished PrapaiSky twt au but lets not talk about that 😌😌😌

i am brainstorming for a PhayuRain twt au but i dont have a grasp on Phayu's character outside of being Rain's doting boyfriend and hot mechanic and architecture god.

i havent really missed the weather boys as much as i thought. but also, im living in my own bubble where i have curated all my social media accounts so that i can see LITA content on my tl and dash all the time.

im sure that once i do another rewatch, you'll know because ill be crying again on how much i miss them

#N miss LITA #my exams are almost over and im so glad that my proff allowed her exam to be taken online because i have until 11:59 pm to finish it #but its also a cumulative exam which is terrible because i have bad memory and bad study habits that i have literally crammed every exam #once exams are over i can finally have a guilt free rewatch #who doesnt wanna see rain panic over his broken-down car just to be fed info that phayu purposely tampered with his car #chaotic energy from PhayuRain and I LOVE IT #PrapaiSky has my heart

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sweetcitrusboi · 11 months

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My throat was constricting

#gotham knights #harvey dent #two face #misha collins #1x11 #he was pleading with her so bad my heart was literally broken

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wordsgood · 11 months

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since I've been writing some silly self-indulgent tma fanfic involving her, I've been having a little Loving Eleventh Hour Renaissance time in my brain

I have flashier POV characters, but lev is just...... she is my special girl! my most specialest good girl who just happens to be a child assassin! she tends to get overshadowed by sixes and chance, who are attention hogs and a lot more obnoxious about their hangups, but there's a reason why, even in the very first draft, when I thought I'd killed her off, she came back to save the day: she's solid ground. lev is the port in the storm. she knows who she is and what she wants and she'll do what it takes to keep it. she thinks quick, she's brutal when she needs to be, and she's so, so smart (she's an engineer, an inventor, an amateur sewist). if chance and the twins are planets, lev is the sun they orbit around.

because even more than all of that - the stability, the self-knowledge, the intelligence, the determination - lev is defined by her love. she defines herself by her love. for her inventions, for any scrap of happiness she can squeeze out of her objectively miserable life, and especially for her brothers. lev looks like the healthy one from the outside, but she is just as unhealthily unhinged about her family as they are (the healthiest one, btw, is sevens). she'll push herself, she'll bend boundaries, she'll go after the one and she'll make the ninety-nine help her. there's old, old guilt underneath her skin, along with a bone-deep fear of being alone. no love is perfectly pure. but she does love them all so much.

lev wants a lot of things to be different - she wants to be happier, freer, less fucking traumatized - but she also knows what she has, and you'll have to kill her before she lets go of it (lets go of them). you can't take lev's family away from her. she loves them too much.

#char: lev #story: deep six #she is literally the dearest dear of my heart #and she deserves the world #unfortunately she has to settle for.......... them #but family is in the eye of the beholder #and lev is at her core a creator. she'll make a family out of the scraps she's been given #she looks at a sickly angry resentful foul-mouthed kid who specializes in poisoning people #a quiet gentle kid who's made himself one of the best and coldest killers in town to keep his twin safe #and a monstrously selfish traumatized liar #and goes basically 'this is my family. it's little and broken. but still good. yeah still good.'#AND I LOVE HER FOR IT #talking about ocs like they are real people and i'm just watching from the sidelines #even though nominally i made them do what they do.........is so funny #because it doesn't feel like that at all #i'm just channeling them! anything good in them is not from me i'm just dictating for them

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dontmeanyoudontmissit · 1 year

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The real reason you should never date anyone from your hometown is because when you date someone from your hometown and are awkward af you still desperately want to avoid them a decade later so then you have to consider not going to things they might be at

#my high school ex might go to a thing that I want to go to #which there would be enough people there to avoid him like crazy but that's rude and unnecessary #but also avoiding him is the key to my own personal survival #he would be polite and lovely and introduce me to his wife (who like idk is probably pregnant. I could be wrong on that.)#and it would be FINE #but I still feel so bad about breaking up with him and then basically hiding in a hole after and avoiding him #and then I fucking emailed him 2 years after we broke up to apologize #ANYWAYS SOMEONE DELETE THIS EXPERIENCE FROM MY BRAIN PLEASE #I want to go to my event in peace but I can only do that if I know he won't be there #I'm down to say hello to the rest of his family but I don't want to do the whole #'hi high school bf meet my current bf. Oh this is your wife? yes your sister and my mom told me all about her!'#that is not the christmas spirit I seek #some of my EEK about this is also just like. Every since I had MY heart broken for the first time like 5 years ago or whenever #I really realized what kind of crazy emotions our break up spawned for him #and like honestly good for him that he went and saw me two days later because if I had had to see my ex two days after he broke my heart I #would have quite literally thrown up in the street and gone home

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creamecream · 1 year

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The jaded bride.

#I'm not sure what to call this an update? an upgrade? it's not a redesign #supposed to be something shyla changes into after finally confronting will and finding out how he actually feels #and she gets that no matter how perfect she was no matter how good she tried to be and ignore all the signs #he still cheated on her he still did not give a damn about their marriage and loved the thrill of what he was doing #shyla tried so hard to ignore any sign of will's wrongdoing and just wanted to be loving and perfect #wanted to be his perfect wife his perfect partner she loved him so much she adored him #thus the puppet as a literal motif of her mindset and her devotion to her husband #and when that breaks we go to the messy jaded black bride as a motif #the wronged bride what will turned her into and lied to her for her to become #instead of what she closed herself in a box to become what will tricked her into being etc. etc.#anyway! not a redesign but I'm not sure what to call it a change later #a messy 'wedding dress' more just a corset and fabric but it's supposed to be like wedding dress and wedding lingerie mashup #and constant ink stains in a nod to running mascara and tears then broken hearts instead of hearts etc.#and I'm going off again just have my gorl I finally managed a fun art I actually liked drawing this #hazbin hotel #fan character #shyla

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