Is he high?

The girls are plottinggggg

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If i didn't have a hell of a headache i'd be drinking this day off tbh

Uni: Put together an eportfolio of all your college work!

Me: Yeah no problem, I never delete anything anyways

Fall 2019 Me: The statements put forth are directed at the youth, their "huddled masses yearning to breathe free" (Lazarus, 1883). Let the spark of defiance be fostered in the years going forward and our roots lain bear. Revolution has always been at the heart of American history for a reason.

Me: .... so... I'll file this under.... ethics?

Billy and Sarah bonding over talking shit about Winnie🤣🤣

Also Winifred being so used to making decisions for her sisters, she legitimately believes Sarah wasn't capable to do it on her own accord :p

You know what my favourite thing about the whole affair is? The fact that, supposedly, Billy and Winnie shared one kiss. One kiss, when they were 16/17 years old, and Winnie just never let that shit go.

Then 40 years later she finds out that Sarah and Billy hooked up, and that Billy loves Sarah, and just cannot believe the audacity of this man. So she kills him.

And actually that's a valid point. Winnie believing Sarah doesn't have the capability to decide to go seduce Billy of her own accord. Clearly Billy must have taken some advantage of Sarah's naivety and their strange lust for men. I like to think she was still upset with Sarah, but never outright blamed her for it, and Sarah just never told her the truth.

They did feel kind of bad when Billy was killed, though.

i dont know why sandy puts up with danny's bullshit in grease btw. frenchy was RIGHT THERE

i have been BETRAYED. i've been thrown to the grappling arms of damnation and i've found that the exit was merely a dim recollection of another place !!

I am talking about bridgerton AGAIN (my god what have I become) but this happens so much and it IRKS ME SO MUCH. y'all really think you're being smart complaining about historical accuracy in fiction but it only shows your ignorance over costuming and fashion design in general. like stop, this accomplishes nothing. it doesn't bring any knowledge to actual art history and it only encourages the audience to nitpick and unjustly criticize the work of the costume department.

Thinking about the tiktok I saw of a woman making a homemade cinnamon toast crunch to avoid giving her kids red dye 40, with a gallon tub of herbalife-like supplement in the background.

Cinnamon Toast Crunch does not contain red dye 40

it's such a wierd and horrible experience of coming across someone who hurt you on here quite badly and not even recognising them at first because 1. the post is good and 2. you forgot to read the url, and then you do read the url and freeze up trauma response style and feel scared that you liked their post, even if it was the sort of good meta that drew you to their blog in the first place

sigh

and also it shows a dead link to their old url which gives the impression that their blog is dead. it's not. they're still around

…I could put on airs like that, but with you it’s no good. You’re a typical, generic savior-type protagonist. Loved by the readers, loved by the characters, loved even by the plot. Boring. Short cuts aren’t my style. I can’t talk about you, and you don’t have enough value. 

this evaluation of hakuno's character (thanks hans christian andersen) and titles and roles............ really reminds me of the other side of the coin for hakuno's dilemma with being a nameless nobody– losing sight of yourself from taking on too many roles and names 🫠 it's pretty interesting though cuz i can see shades of it with hakuno too ! albeit in a very different way..

real quick tho YES I KNOW A LOT OF THIS IS JUST BECAUSE OF SELF INSERT PROTAG REASONS (DEROGATORY) 🥹 but hakuno deserves better than that!!! so i prefer 2 look at it in a different way 4 my hakuno 🫶

"hakuno" doesn't know herself, hakuno is useless, but she can do her best to fulfill whatever's expected from a role like the "leader" or "hero" that a situation might call for. hakuno can't find value in herself, so she tries to get it from others and fulfilling what they want and what they need. she's good at following guidelines for what's expected from others but lacks that for herself as an individual, if that makes sense.

it's a very integral part of hakuno's character! even when she doesn't understand how she feels, she's always thinking of others and acting with them in mind. but i gotta make it clear that she's no actor!! she's just stepping up to the job in her own way. i like 2 think of it as something like water filling the shape of the glass it's put into.

doing that and taking up whatever role she has to comes from necessity rather than hakuno wanting to be something bigger than herself. hakuno sees a problem that only she can fix, and is willing to do a lot in order to fix it. (<- what we see in canon too from fate/extra when she acts in the way of a "martyr" and in ccc when she takes on the role of being "president") whether she likes it or not isn't something she thinks about, but on a deep down, it's really just something she takes on to make up for her self-perceived flaws.

trying to fit into these roles could be an attempt to find herself too in a way..... hakuno's always been concerned about the meaning and purpose of her life, so she could try to find her own self worth in this way. she'll always think of it as titles that don't suit her though :,) cough impostor syndrome cough. i can imagine her trying become someone "worthy" of it, but she'll still feel undeserving in the end for one reason or another. it never feels enough, it never feels right, there's always going to be a sense of disconnect for her.

I can’t speak of something that isn’t there. Hakuno Kishinami. You still have nothing at all.

it's because she still doesn't know who she is </3 the lack of a personal identity that is so essential to being a person is something that just can't be fixed in this way. taking up roles and living up to others' expectations could maybe provide a temporary happiness or gratification for hakuno (via gaining affection and praise through being useful because that's something she's never had), but at the end of the day hakuno won't be satisfied with that. it's a shallow reasoning and even if she obtained the love she may have desired, it'd feel misplaced because it's a love that she got for being something that she feels like she isn't.

remember– all hakuno ever wanted was to live. she's a really simple gal! i'd say that at the moment, she's just grateful to have her basic survival needs met and still wants to find herself and become her own person, but she doesn't have any grand goals or ambitions. though she might not realize it herself, what she really wants is just a normal life tbh :,) live a normal life, die a normal death and afterwards, she'd want to be remembered as "hakuno kishinami" rather than a "hero" or "savior" or "protagonist" or any other grandiose title or role

I have purchased a little lemon. so that I may fix myself the medicine of the gods (hot whiskey with lemon)

i see “your parents actually werent around much” and say “that isnt angsty enough and doesnt channel my personal trauma in a way i want”

i've had verbal confirmation that i'm going to have training for radio master control upstairs because they keep fucking up the remote access on my shift and i keep not being able to fix it.

I went to therapy today and my therapist made me choose some cards with illustrations on them as a way to try to make me talk because I wasn’t very talkative today. So I picked some that called to me and she asked me why I picked those. I said “oh, this one feels like a video game scene, this reminds me of a story I wrote, this one I don’t really know but I think it looks cool, this one is just because it reminds me of the Humpty Dumpty nursery rhyme”.

Then she told me I picked a lot of things because they reminded me of fairy tales and adventure and video games. And told me I was probably using those as an escapism method.

Which just shows to say you can say and do anything in therapy and you’re still gonna get fucking read at the end of it.

very confused of the speculated disorder people have put on lady dimitrescu's wiki page 🧍🏼 cause she can go in the sun and is fine... like she literally patrols the courtyard in game?? the daughters are who that would more likely apply to considering their boss fights. and the fact that in the maid's diary, it says the "young ladies" were the ones who shrieked in unison for the maid to close the window after they had opened it