Hate this chronic illness bullshit where I do everything the doctors tell me to do and the weather is fine and my mental state isn’t horrible but I’m STILL having a pain flare. 💀 This body is a bitch, jesus. 

why does it always have to be a sex thing. why can’t people just like something without making it sexual at literally any given moment.

TO THE ANON WHO SENT ME AN ASK ABOUT TRANS MEURSAULT: I WROTE 20 PARAGRAPHS AND THEN TUMBLR ATE. MY POST. EVEN THOUGH IT TOLD ME THE DRAFT SAVED.

I AM IN HELL

“Ok I’ve said my peace so I’m gonna move on and finally post this Botw Music I’ve been working on, so I’ll edit that music video and then enjoy the rest of my time making my little magnum opus TotK/Botw video…and then maybe I’ll have a little mango and enjoy the sunshine. My mind is clear and the possibilities for me to enjoy my favourite fandom space is endless and hopefu—“

Riverstar's Home has added 30 cats unless I miscounted (22 if you exclude the cats revealed in the excerpt). 4 of them have names of letters I've already finished

Dawnstripe will be posted today, I'll get through those 4 starting tomorrow, and then I'll return to the regular order with Deadfoot👍

Full cat and design list

trying to write dialogue for bert is like herding cats he keeps dragging this comic out and im just trying to pry him off his scratching post it’s not sustainable UGH!!

dreads it and dreads it and dreads it and dreads it and oh it wasnt that bad

love your concert psd 😊 and out of curiosity do you have a gose psd (its so hard to colour for me ahsajdh)

omg ty </3 but im literally certain hybe made it damn near impossible for gose to be correctly giffed and coloured its like the seventh circle of hell....the river styx...the myth of sisyphus

speaking of, do the words “spiderwick chronicles” ring a bell for anyone at all

reporting pornbots is a herculean, if not sisyphean, task

thinking about the next season like OKAY reasonable i understand if they do a timeskip to explain a lot of things like I get it I would totally understand from the perspective of “okay we need to wave away Five being 18-20 years old now”. like I Get That but also it would allow the umbrellas to really come to terms with like what they’ve been itching for for so long. a sense of normalcy. they would say why would we Want our powers back, the things that have been ruining our lives and dictating the trajectory of our fate since the day we were born? that have been causing apocalypses and killing people and hurting everyone we’ve gotten close to, including each other? and I think Five and Viktor, and potentially Klaus, at the very least, would rationalize it somewhat as their powers are the only things that have made their life *have* meaning, and LED to this outcome. and what is their place on earth and the possibility of their existence outside of having them? and in THIS universe, orchestrated and architecturally set up by Reginald himself, if they DON’T do something is it equivalent to letting him win? manipulating them, using them for their existence and powers from the start, and almost KILLING them in the process of creating this universe reset just to serve his own desires? and did they really go through all they went through and continue to go through their whole lives to let him WIN? reginald, the ultimate abuser and manipulator to hurt them physically and emotionally at every turn, WIN? like yes disrupting this meager amount of peace they’ve managed to scrape together from the outcome of the third timeline’s consequences is damning everything they’ve aspired to, but if they don’t what have they become?

and i think Five tries to rationalize like okay maybe if i created the Commission in another timeline, and i was ultimately always going to create it, then it must exist in an idealized timeline? for continuity purposes? and one of his driving goals is either creating it or attempting contact in this powerless timeline version. Viktor attempts to initiate some spark of revolution with Lila and Diego, who are having none of it with their shred of a shot at happiness. Luther is more or less on board behind his deep depression from probably never being able to find Sloane, or at least some value of the version he fell in love with. I’m not sure of the trajectory of Allison. I think she, maybe, becomes a hand of Reginald in attempting to stop the rest of the umbrellas from stopping her ultimate reality of peace and tranquility. even powerless she is there at every turn of the umbrellas to stop them, and maybe the outcome near the climax is them attempting to reconnect to her in a typical “we’re family, we’ve always loved you and we can overcome this together. this fragile reality is not real, it never has been, but what you’ve sacrificed in order to create it is.” i could so get on board with their attempts to disrupt reality slowly blurring the lines between the timelines and their powers and original past selves melting into the current reality (Diego’s scars, their academy tattoos, Klaus’ tattoos, etc.)

but one thing is for sure they won’t let reginald win, because he’s just. not allowed to. he is THEIR villain, and now he’s the world’s villain. everything begins and ends with him.

Me, writing chapter 15 of zombie: I have written up a pretty good build up to the fight with Kuro! Yay me!

Me, writing chapter 16 of zombie: fuck's sake, now I have to write the goddamn fight scene.

god i fucking love grass so much i fucking love the sky so much i love dirt so much good fucking lord i love the outside so much

getting better is just as hard as what made you worse. its easy to sink down into the pits of your own mind. it isnt easy to wake up. but the sun is brighter when your head is above the ground and its still true that things get easier after you get better. im not great yet, but im getting there. im still trying to let myself talk to people.

i refuse to believe that the coming week was not specifically designed in a laboratory as the best & most efficient way possible to kill me

moving this weekend & i am both giddy & ready to throw up :D