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solarsleepless · 3 years

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Please tell me everything you know about c!niki xD

THIS IS GONNA BE HELLA LONG SO HERE YOU GO

so niki first joined l'manberg - contrary to popular belief - AFTER the revolution, along w jack manifold. she joined bc she was good friends with wilbur and tommy. she opened up a bakery after consulting her diary/chat, and it ended up being pretty successful. not too succesful, but successful. during the elections, she decided to support her friend (childhood friend? the timeline is fucked up bc of c!fundy existing lbr) and together she and fundy made COCONUT2020. she didn't think she'd win, only really did it for fun, and supported wilbur even though she didn't join his party then her best friend and friend got exiled, and so she was understandably distraught and angry schlatt's reign was one of her low points. not her lowest, but pretty damn low if i do say so myself. she was tormented during this time by schlatt himself, and he made fun of her for her relationship with wilbur, called her things like a "wrench", he taxed her (to the point where she had to run away!), and he imprisoned her. it doesn't help that her childhood(?) friend betrayed her burnt down the flag that she had made for l'manberg (its so sad actually, listen to it) she had a birthday party that while i didnt watch ive heard that wilbur threatened to blow up l'manberg so yeah then she saw her younger brother-like figure get executed onstage, then almost got executed herself, when wilbur managed to get her away then it is DEVASTATING as she finally finds out abt how things have been going in pogtopia (especially for the viewers who only watched niki's pov). she had thought that they had a plan, that they were working things out, when really they haven't even got a semblance of a plan the pit fight happens, and then after she goes up to listen to one of tommy's discs with tubbo and tommy themselves during the manberg v pogtopia war, she fights for pogtopia and watches schlatt die and the nation become wilbur's again. then, of course, comes the part that all old school c!niki fans will remember... during the celebration they had just after tubbo gained presidency, she accidentally uncovered a small part of the wall and saw tnt. she went still, then covered it up, on the assumption that wilbur wouldn't blow it up BOY was she wrong her home gets destroyed (watch this and skip forwards until niki's pov), and she doesnt find out that wilbur dies until much, much later. to honour him, she starts wearing his coat. everything goes fine for a little while, and she yknow dates puffy (*SOBS* im unbiased im unbiased.... *sob*), and then doesnt find out abt tommy's exile until much later AFTER that. she doesnt really get in on the lore much during the inbetween period of tommy's exile and doomsday except for her city being built more. then, during doomsday, she gets angry at tommy and says that he couldn't just walk in there and assume everyone would be on his side, she also shouts at ranboo abt sides and stuff. later, she apologizes to ranboo and says that if ranboo fights for l'manberg, she will too. ranboo ends up doing nothing except watching everything unfold, and so niki does the same, except for one thing. she burns down the l'mantree, also known as her canonical lowest point. after that, she hears ghostbur speaking and has a panic attack, trying to reassure herself that "he's gone, he's gone, he's gone" and because shes too flooded w memories, she ends up blowing up her bakery. afterwards, however, she goes down into her secret city and isolates herself from everybody except for jack, who she plots to kill tommy with. she takes tommy to a nuclear test site and almost manages to kill him, but JUST misses him, somehow after this attempt, she scurries back to her little hole like a cryptid and (this is, in my opinion, her lowest point) isolates herself even MORE. she has contact with exactly 1 person during this whole period of four-five canonical(??) months, and it results in her mental health getting worse. technoblade visits her at the start of this, offering her a position as an anarchist to which she gives him a "maybe, after

i kill tommy" she gets night terrors, and keeps herself in a literal CELL so that she doesnt go anywhere when she sleepwalks, also punches the walls whenever she wakes up from a nightmare, which is often. eventually tho, she accepts techno's offer and joins the syndicate, naming herself as nemesis as a reference to her past self she manages to heal a substantial amount, finally having: a) a group that lets her speak (which is SO important for her, its actually the key to her entire arc) and b) socialization! however this takes a big turn, when she hears that wilbur's back she tries to play it off, then goes the l'manhole or l'crater, reminisces about wilbur betraying her (may i note the rocketduo where she looks pointedly at manifoldland and says "and GOD you deserved so much better dgsayufasyufgasuy) she grabs wilbur's diamonds, some of the first ever items she got in the SMP, then hides them in the wall, as a sign of her closing off from wilbur

PHHOOOOOOEEY THAT WAS A LONG ONE

okay so imma go with this writing cause its fun. so, you asked a few questions in response to the ask you gave me!! so lets go 1) why does she feel betrayed by wilbur? because she was one of the first people she met (canonically) on the SMP. he promised her that it would be a land of peace, prosperity, but she started loving it BECAUSE of wilbur. case and point: when wilbur asks whether she's loyal to l'manberg, she goes "yes, i'm loyal to you, wil." "no, no, not to me- to l'manberg" she quite literally wore his coat around the SMP as a symbol of her friendship and dedication towards him, because they were honestly the best of friends, and she THOUGHT she knew it. points out) and its the way she's learnt to do things. also remember: c!Niki is an unreliable narrator, that's the whole point of her character. it's a response to trauma (as @tubboblr pointed out) you're also probably wondering why she burnt down the l'mantree. and it's not because she "finally realized that l'manberg was bad" it was actually really simple: she wanted to be heard. she had been beaten down and talked over SO much (aka the BASIS for her arc) that she's so desperate to be heard she'll take desperate measures. another reason is because she finally loses hope in l'manberg. she loved it, loves it, but she just lost hope in it. she never hated it. she LOVED it, with all her heart. she just didnt believe it had any hope to be the place she had thought it was. if you have any other questions, let me know!!

#c!niki analysis #kinda #c!niki #niki nihachu #nihachu #sukisimpsstuff #ask

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kaimactrash · 3 years

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The second pride image is my pan babies...and rilo...they are not a baby, they are a very bad person. XD

Also no, no I do not know how to even make my style cohesive for two images! I am a messy artist at heart.

Let's start with them, since they're in the top left, with the bright green skin and big black coat. Rilo is a gender fluid pansexual elder demon, theyre a primary antagonist in my story, but not due to either sexuality or gender. You may notice this mirrors my sexuality and gender, I kind of liked the idea of going out my way to have them be representative of a kind of intense feeling i get. So to explain, I hate hate hate when someone of any trans identity misbehaves, people tend to misgender them while angry at them, even though their misdeeds are nothing to do with their gender identity. I want rilo to be a character people have issues with not because of their identity, and that helps encourage people to not give shitty people the excuse to call your critisism about them invalid when you misidentify them intentionally and maliciously.Across the flag is another pan genderqueer character? YES, that cuz this is my neo sona, called Skeith Kai until I can make a better name, haha. they are joined by their pet meowclops, based on my pet cat toulouse...he has two eyes irl. Bellow Skeith Kai, with the huge maw of a mouth splitting her torso is one of my FAVOURITE EVER OCS, I don't draw her enough but I am so enamored by her. She IDs primarily as Non-binary as her umberella term, but the base one would be gender apathetic, she doesnt care or really see anything as gendered, she is fine with all pronouns, but having been called she by her family her whole life she tends to use it as second nature. She's a pretty cool girl, having began the story as essentially a merc for the bad guys, she quickly quits them cuz they kept getting their asses kicked, plus she and beefy get on like a house on fire.Beside moira with also pink hair is dylan! ...okay so shes a littler more complex than Moira in terms of redmeption, BUT!!! There are reasons for that are important in her story arc, and I'm not ready to explain my plan for her multichapter involvement in the story, but...give her time, she plays off as the typical high school cool bully girl stereotype, but theres a lot of work for me to do before dylan even apears in my comic. TT_TT Someone please give me potion of improved production times!!Lil teal skinned demon to the left of dylan is Greip Tavros, another fave oc of mine! Shes my only cyclops oc so far and she has really challenged me in recreating her look, shes short but buff as fuck, also no not inspired by bea, who i also LOVE btw, but yeah just a coincidence of some very slight simialrities in colour pallets. Greip is very laid back and chilled out, she cares little for the demon realm or the elders who run it, she pretty much takes her leave to return to Frenrar, because before she died, she lived on frenrar, the demons take people from earth and frenrar. She joins in the rebelion and traveling party lith is part of. Shes aromatic and pansexual EMESH, hes the armless deer... is centaur the right word in this case?? but yeah them! So basically frenrar is the planet of failed gods, emesh is one of them and if youre curious about I reccomend you read this profile of him: www.deviantart.com/kaimactrash…Lastly we have Melisa, a extremely under utalised character of mine, but shes quite fun, I have her and her husband basically as like my comfort oc couple, theyre super in love, super suppportive, and they litterally just wanna settle down and have kids. Shes a fantastic potion brewer, due to her high sense of smell, this is heightened because she is both partially blind and partially deaf. She has Open-angle glaucoma, which has left her with only central vision with colour blindness there, the rest of her vision is essentially blacked out from her perspective. Heaing wise shes hard of hearing due to noise damage as a child, she may need people to speak up, and with her husband bruce, they have developed some signs akin to the real worlds deaf blind signing, but much more basic as they've just developed it together, Bruce has actually enjoyed finding non-verbal ways to communicate with his with and others in his life.and thats all folks! hope you enjoyed this art, and enjoy the second half of this pride! Happy pride my fellow pan fanatics, it's a tough year for every memeber of this community, and I will never pretend we suffer the majority of the strife this community recieves, but we have our issues, and recently theres a amplification of the same anti-m-spec retoric people like myself who have id'd as such for some years now have had to hear way too frequently. Tho, dont get too down, the growth in pride and understanding of the variety of M-spec identities has improved so much! Hell, I'm still learning much about the other identites and the indivuals that experience them, and i hope to include more of my characters in the less mentioned identities in this group! Okay I'm gonna get off my soap box before some one pushes me off it.

#ocart #oc art #pride art #oc pride #pansexual #pansexuality #lgbtqia #pan

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mudwingprince · 3 years

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agh, fuck it

have a trauma story that fucked me up :)

TW/CW: abuse and manipulation but its really goofed up because i keep yelling about it

oof... i dont even know where to start with this

uuhhhhhhh

well

it started in the beginning of 5th grade

and, there was this kid, lets name him... uh... Dick, thats not his real name, of course

and he said that he liked me in october

and me being the little kid i am whos 'in a relationship' with another kid already (it was just a close friendship, we're not really close anymore cus its awkward, especially after what happened here)

and, after a bit of prodding and a staged little thing where Dick managed to get this other kid to 'break up with me' (wtf it was just a friendship XD), i decided to 'date' him (listen, i hardly knew him and was ABSOLUTELY POSITIVELY NOT ATTRACTED TO HIM)

looking back on that now, that was a huge red flag and JESUS CRIST IM SUCH AN IDIOTTTTT

anyways, a couple days later, we were playing Kiss Marry Kill in the lunch room (god i hate that game, its horrible) aaaand Dick gives me three kids

himself, one of his friends who we'll call... Bob cus he's not really important to the story and like, i cant think of anything else XD and one other kid who literally has nothing to do with this

so i said Marry Dick (i- why did i say that? i didnt mean it XD), Kiss Bob (omg i cant take this seriously anymore help XD) and Kill the other kid

a bit more rounds of that and when we're taken out to recess (ah, the good ol days XD) and as we're leaving i say "I would kiss Bob in a life or death situation" and Dick fucking storms off for no reason???

i mean, that was a logical thing, i would kiss anyone in a life or death situation???

and then when we're at recess and i was fucking around with my little friend group that im in

AND THEN DICK FUCKING STORMS UP AND THEN PULLS ME TO THE SIDE????

and then we get into an entire argument ending with Dick telling me to not talk to Bob

ever

the 'relationship' went on like that for 6 months

six.

fucking.

months.

started in september.

ended in februray.

it was like that the entire time

him pulling me to the side and telling me not to talk to certain people and to say certain things

THERE WAS THIS ONE TIME WHERE HE SAID 'TELL ME THIS THING THAT YOU ALMOST SAID TO BOB' AND I WAS LIKE 'WTF I DIDNT TELL BOB ANYTHING YOU TOLD ME NOT TO???' AND AT THE END OF THE DAY HE TOLD ME TO TELL HIM THAT I LOVED HIM???

AND HE GOT PISSED WHEN I MUMBLED IT BECAUSE I WAS CLEARLY UNCOMFORTABLE

AND I LET IT GO ON LIKE THIS

FOR SIX. FUCKING. MONTHS.

WHAT THE LITERAL FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME XD

but anyways-

i broke up with him by ghosting him for idk how long (he said a week, but im pretty sure it might've been just a day so like :/) but he wound up getting pissed at me saying that if i didnt talk to him that obviously meant that i didnt want to be together with him/s (he was right)

so uh, year goes by, im struggling with my mental health, yatta yatta, stuff happens that im not up for getting into, yatta yatta now im here doing pretty okay

and im preeeetty sure we all know that intrusive thoughts are a fucking asshole to me, especially recently

and how one of them was the constant nagging that someone was Dick and they were my friend (sttiiiiilll not gonna get into specifics cus i still feel like crap about it :/) and i think the reason for that was that one time that he said that he was a good liar *cough* also the fact that he was able to get away with manipulating and abusing me for 6 months

what other things have stuck with me ever since this shit happened...

well my anxiety got worse, so theres that

uhhhh i still blame myself for almost everything that happened here cus i let it go on for this long without stopping it

i dont really have a big interest in musical stuff anymore cus the majority of the times we got into our arguments it was at drama club (i still do the plays, but im not cast anymore, it doesnt have that same ring to it anymore)

ALSO YES, I WAS TEN, YES, IM STILL GAY, NO I DIDNT KNOW THAT I WAS GAY WHEN I WAS TEN

I KNOW THAT I SHOULDNT HAVE BEEN IN A RELATIONSHIP AT TEN BUT IM A FUCKING PEOPLE PLEASER LEAVE ME ALONE >:T

anyways

hOpEd YoU eNjOyEd My TrAuMa StOrY

i might post more of these trauma stories cus i had fun yelling about how much of a dick Dick was

#im surprised i didnt cry :)#im proud that i didnt but like #yeah this took a huge toll on me #aNd Su HeLpEd Me #yeaup #i tend to find this pretty easy to talk about tho so like #idk if i should consider this like an actual traumatic event that took place in my life #but it did happen to me #and i struggled for a year with what im pretty sure was some sort of depression?#idk #but i was crying myself to sleep every night #and mixed with questioning my sexuality and internalized homophobia #(wait should i call it homophobia? idk i mean? like would that just be called self loathing?)#that just killed me #like mentally #i was really stressed out from both trying to solve literally everyones problems *along* with school work #but hey that was last year and now im getting better at saying no to people :)#also yeah #i project a *lot* onto the characters i write #like with Morganite's past abuse and Faded's overwhelming anxiety #and now with Chidhori/Domori Sunny and his trauma and coping mechanisms #also yeah isol this is that trauma i mentioned around relationships #.w.

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ick25 · 6 years

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Rockman.EXE Episode 11 Review.

Pretty sure this image of Netto holding his butt was cutted from the dub.

Oh, is the episode gonna introduce the Invisible Chip?

We start the episode at the tournament, where Midorikawa is announcing the final battle of the preliminaries with Tohru Hikawa and Iceman.

Wow, Tohru, are you always so sad? Cant even smile for the camera?

We see Meiru, Yaito, Dekao, Mariko-sensei and Masa-san in the crowd ready to cheer Tohru on his battle, and we get to see Masa’s special flag for cheering, and yes, this is gonna become a thing.

You might be wondering why Netto isnt with them, well thats because he got up to buy a hot dog and got lost on his way back.

Rockman’s GPS aint gonna help you this time.

As Netto is looking for his seat, Midorikawa announces Iceman’s opponent, Rocketman aka Breakman.

So there are Net Battle academies? Well, that makes more sense than a “Duel Academy”.

Netto thinks that Breakman could be a tough opponent for Iceman and Tohru, but he is suddently distracted by a familiar voice who turns out to be Miyuki-san.

Miyuki-san says that the battle will be over in exactly one minute.

The battle begins with Breakman launching his missiles at Iceman. During this, Netto walks over to Miyuki-san telling her that its unfair to believe that Iceman will lose in only one minute.

However, Miyuki tells him that the loser will be Iceman’s opponent.

We see Breakman launching more missiles at Iceman but Tohru shields him by using the Ice Cube battle chip.

Then he tells Iceman to use his “Freeze Bubble” and ends the battle with a frozen Breakman.

Miyuki’s prediction came true but before Netto has the opportunity to praise her she interrups him by saying that it is going to rain and leaves, despite being a really nice day.

In fact, we then see Netto and friends enjoying a nice picnic outside, with Masa-san presenting them his special calcium filled bento.

After the scene with Masa and Dekao that was cutted from the dub for obvious reasons, we see Netto who is really enjoing his meal and already had chow down three bentos. Meiru warns him that if he keeps eating like that he will get a stomach ache, and Rockman even reminds him that he ate... How many hot dogs?

We get a funny scene with Netto running around looking for a toilet just to find out that the men’s bathroom is being cleaned. Netto’s moving animation in front of the bathroom sign keeps playing so it wont cut to the part where he holds his butt, clever move dub.

For some reason Saloma is watching Netto run around in circles outside the bathroom (which was cutted too) during her conversation with Miyuki.

They have a brief conversation about how skilled Netto is at Net battles specially against the WWW operators, but he doesnt take them as serious as he should.

After that, Netto finally leaves a bathroom in relief and overhears a couple talking about the weather suddently changing from sunny to rainy. This makes Netto realized that Miyuki-san’s prediction came true once again.

As he is heading to the arena for his battle, Netto is suddently stopped by Higure-san who appears out of nowhere looking at him in a very creepy way.

Creep...

He says that he wants to thank him for helping Numberman in the last episode, and after a flashback of Numberman being KO by the unknowend Navi, Higure gives him a “Friendship” chip as thanks.

Netto is excited thinking that it is a group of rare chips but unfortunately he only gets a bunch of Mini Bombs, making him jump in rage.

Netto’s friends aren’t the only ones waiting to see the match, turns out the World Three operators are spectators as well.

So they finally get to see Rockman’s operator, although they already seem to know who it is. Wouldn’t that put Netto in danger earlier?

They hope that Rockman loses in his first match, except for Hinouken who still wants his revenge, and Mahajarama tells them that it might be possible because he feels something unusual about his opponent.

Time for the match to begin, but first we get Netto and Rockman’s profile by Midorikawa.

Thats how you smile for a picture, Tohru!

However, when its time to see the opponent’s profile, the screen only shows static, probably due to the storm outside, but it helps keep the mystery since Netto’s opponent is...

Who would’ve guessed? She would.

Midorikawa reads Miyuki’s profile from the N-1′s data base, and all I learned so far is that her last name is Kuroi.

Before revealing her Navi, Miyuki predicts that the match will last five minutes with Netto as the loser.

Netto and Rockman inmediately recognize the Navi with the same flashback from before, though this only makes Netto feel excited.

The battle begins and Skullman disappears, but Rockman quickly figures out that Skullman is actually not invisible as the title suggest, but instead is moving at an incredible speed making it almost imposible to follow.

Netto decides to send the Shot Gun battle chip which creates a curtain of smoke, this helps Rockman find Skullman and uses the Rock Buster to hit him.

Skullman starts attacking with Rockman dodging, but eventually lands a hit making Miyuki remind Netto that he now has 4 minutes left.

Noticed the miscoloring too?

We cut to comercials only to return with Higure’s voice saying that he will see Netto at the awards ceremony, something he repeats when suddently appearing next to Mariko-sensei, much for Masa-san’s annoyance.

We cut back to the battle with Netto deciding to send the Area Steal chip to keep up with Skullman’s speed.

But they soon realized that its not enough to keep up with his speed, and Skullman once again lands a hit on Rockman.

Rockman tells Netto that he can’t hit Skullman since its looks like he is reading his moves somehow, Netto remembers that two of Miyuki’s predictions came true earlier making the young net battler question his victory.

Three minutes left.

During some comments from Mahajarama and Enzan about the battle as they watch, Skullman ends up breaking Rockman’s sword.

Miyuki decides to send a battle chip to skullman, a chip that doesnt exist in the game called “Spirit Fire” or was it “Demon fire”?

This knocks Rockman to the ground making Netto hesitate even more, Miyuki reminds him that he has only 2 more minutes left, but Netto gets a hold of himself telling Rockman to keep going. Rockman is motivated after hearing his voice and quickly gets up before Skullman’s attack hits him, which I personally find very adorable!

They give eachother strenght! XD

Netto has to think of something quick, he says he has to try using a chip he hasnt used before and remembers the Mini Bombs Higure-san gave him.

He then ask Miyuki-san if he still has one minute left before her prediction comes true, she confirms it and Netto quickly gets motivated.

He starts sending all ten Mini Bombs that result in another smoke curtain like the one from before.

As the whole area is covered in smoke again, Rockman and Netto start thinking about their next move.

Netto sends the Areal Steal battle chip to Rockman, Skullman finally makes his move, but instead of Rockman, he punches the air where three Mini Bombs suddently appear.

This catches Skullman off guard as Rockman appears out of hiding. An angry Skullman attacks with another “Spirit Fire”, only this time Rockman destroys it with his Rock Buster hitting Skullman in the process.

Miyuki finally reacts to this and decides to plug-out Skullman right as he charges at Rockman who fires another shot at him, ending the battle.

I cant really tell if Rockman missed or it went through since Skullman is being logged-out.

Miyuki is left shocked but ends up smiling gently, Netto gets an interview by Midorikawa and only has this to say.

Really?! After the whole bathroom incident?!

We cut to Miyuki passing Saloma as she leaves.

I think the real reason was that it became “uncertain” that she was gonna win, since Netto actually surprised her with a new strategy despite the match still haven’t ended in five minutes like she foretold, but she ends up telling Saloma that Netto and Rockman are indeed special, so she decided to let them win.

The World Three dont seem happy with the results of the battle, except for Hinouken of course, who ends the episode saying how he will finally get his chance to defeat Rockman.

Yeah, because that worked so well the first two times you battled him. And the second time it wasnt even Rockman who beat you.

My thoughts?

Near the end of episode 7, Miyuki asks Saloma why she had taken so long to help Netto and Rockman against Count Elec, Saloma just says that she sees something special about them. This is brought up again in their conversation before the match. Miyuki was willing to proof Saloma wrong by not going easy on Netto. In the dub, episode seven never happend so they talk about something unrelated, like Netto being a secret agent or something like that.

It was very interesting to see Miyuki’s battle style, she uses her predictions as a psycological tactic to scare her opponent. I’m not sure if Miyuki really has powers or is she just really good at reading people, and weather aparently.

Maybe her prediction in episode 2 was just a coincidence, maybe the crystal ball is the one that sees the future, who knows? The anime never gives a straight answer, which is good because it gives more mystery to her character.

We get to see Netto fight an opponent with nothing at stake, unlike with the World Three, Netto had a weak motive to beat Miyuki, it was not about saving his friends or punishing bad guys, it was to advance in a tournament made just for fun. Once Netto remembers he entered the N-1 to enjoy the battles Rockman was able to hit Skullman, Miyuki had finally see that fighting spirit Saloma had noticed and allows him to win.

We get two flashbacks of the same scene from the last episode where Numberman is KO by Skullman with that specific part cutted out, a reused shot of the arena being covered in smoke the second time and one miscolored panel. The spirit fire was renamed “Ghost Fire” in the dub, along with other name changes. Netto holding his butt is unplesant to see so it was cutted from the dub, as well as the part where he runs around in circles.

Enzan and Mahajarama comment about the battle a lot, I get that Mahajarama was explaining things to the other WWW operators, but was Enzan talking to himself? He could be talking to Blues but I really doubt that.

#Rockman.exe #MegaMan NT Warrior #megaman battle network #anime #dub vs sub #my reviews

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dictacontrion · 7 years

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woo lets try this way lol plus i don’t have to break everything down and change to to 2 heh p.s im not very eloquent D;

ok so what I was saying before, i personally like this discussion because it’s something that i’ve been thinking a lot (but i kept thinking the convo was dying down and i didnt wanna bring it back up but i saw my chance now to share my knut harhar) about but because of another tumblr post i came across— i can’t find damnitjanet :/— i can’t find it! D;— but it was one of those writing help tumblrs. anywho, it was talking about (not hp) but redemption of a villain or romanticizing of a villain and why a lot of writers tend to have the victims be the one to bend first and forgive and accept as part of the villain’s redemption when really the villain didnt really do anything to deserve it or really take the initiative to work for this redemption. i hope that made sense >.>

but… it really cemented what really bugs me in the drarry ship was how draco’s redemption a lot of times well…feels well…lazy :/. i’ve been reading drarry since i was 13, (i think u and i are similar ages to give u an idea where i am, (idk ur real age lol i think i came to the conclusion with random context clues on other posts xD;;)) so i feel like ive gone through phases with this fandom. and gone through all the tropes and i’m at the point, or have been at the point for a while, that i am craving proper redemption for draco without the victims of his or his ideology having to be the to wave the flag of truce. especially harry’s friend group (aka the gryffindors) where it seems , “well if harry likes him, we should do,” yeah that’s all cute and kumbaya and all but i don’t buy it. and it feels like a common theme. the malfoys and weasleys clearly have strong and lengthy history judging from lucius and arthur (least to me anyway) and it feels like just because, yes, they love harry, they’re just going to forget all of that? nah. plus they lost family in this war, fresh wounds, and harry is in love with draco? forgive and forget, here is a weasley sweater!. nah lol or ginny! his girlfriend and literal soulmate in canon is just gonna be like, “yeah ok harry i support ur relationship with draco malfoy, i mean his dad nearly killed me with a journal, i lost my brother,…and some other family members and friends and they bully me and my family etc etc” like nah. ginny has trauma and grief to deal with (that rarely no one covers, or ron’s or hermiones etc), i can’t see the weasleys just accepting draco just because harry is dating him without having to deal with their own baggage, and i want to see that, desperately. these are all characters with a lot of history and character growth, id love to see it all being dealt with, no matter how angst or gritty or painful it might be. and HERMIONE. especially since (in my mind is canonly a black woman), who has a list of things that she shouldn’t forgive draco for. i need those relationships explored and dealt with. i need draco to reach redemption with everyone even though it’s all different and probably some will take longer than others or he will have to do more with others etc. hope that made sense~

i want draco’s redemption to be hard, very hard and i want to see him struggle, and i want to see him hurt and feel pain and real regret for his actions, i want him to ask questions and want him to grow and i want him to do it without burdening his victims and having them feeling bad for draco or feeling pity for him or something. i want him to do it alone.

its why i started writing my own stories where i focus entirely on draco’s story and redemption completely away from the characters he grew up with and learning from his mistakes through new situations and environments and new characters. and place harry as the background character, and blossoming their relationship through coming to terms with their past, gaining trust (because that is super crucial for this ship imo) and then their friendship and then to love~ its the only thing im really passionate about right now in the fandom and it’s very exciting too. because ive explored harry’s story (so many stories) and so many drarry tropes but rarely just draco and his journey.

u know those fanfics where harry bumps into draco and, oh, draco’s been living in the muggle world for 45242 years and wow he’s changed, he’s so different, he’s so kind now but still ~spunky~ or w/e–i wanna see it. i dont wanna just read the paragraph of it i wanna experience it ya know? im at that point with the ship.

where was i going with this lol.. –rereads–

oh right! so im super glad you brought this topic to the table because i really want it to challenge the fandom to do better. do to better with these characters and their stories. u can still have ur fluff too, it just will be a challenge to get there but damn once u get there, doesnt it feel wonderful? reading a story from start to finish and seeing the journey great fluff and it feel so satisfactory? well for me at least haha n the end everyone can write what they want but u made a valid point in that one response to that anon where:

“why this pairing? If you want to write fluffy stories and, as you’re suggesting, that’s the only kind of story you feel up to writing, why do they have to be fluffy stories for this couple with this history and this dynamic?"

drarry isnt an easy ship (to me, personally, fluff is an easy trope) it erases what makes them harry/draco, what makes them drarry etc. least for me i speak for myself only~

anywho i hope all that made sense :) cheers! have fun with ur new bras and trip to england? XD i thikn i caught up with all those posts lol not sure. u dont have to publicize this big message if u dont want, im sure once i submit and hopefully tumblr won’t eat these the discussion will be long over lawlz

why erase what makes them harry/draco, what makes them drarry for the sake of it being easy? they’re not meant to be an easy ship.

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<3<3 thanks @pottrhead!!! so, so much good food for thought here. so important to think about what we write, and about telling the stories we want to read, and I’m v much in agreement about craving stories that address this. Thank you for the food for thought!!!

#replies #the draco discourse #submission

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