#last one is from kilala!
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pretty gyaru magazines ˖ ִ ໒꒱ྀི
#ణ magnolia's uploads#all of these magazines except for the last one are from popteen#last one is from kilala!#gyaru#gyaru magazine#gyaru fashion#gyaru blog#hime gal#hime gyaru#himekaji#la pafait#girly girl#popteen#kilala#girlblogger#girlblogging#pastel pink#pink blog
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I think the cutest thing about Hisako’s artwork (besides post-canon Sessrin family goodness!) is how accurately it depicts how the family dynamic would work 😭😭😭👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼
Look at the seriousness in which Sess watches Rin doing something as simple as peeling oranges😅 she is literally doing the most Normal and Domestic thing possible but as far as Sess is concerned it is of the OUTMOST IMPORTANCE™️ and thus requires every fiber of his attention and involvement - if this is an important human tradition to Rin, he’s going to be So Intense about it
Meanwhile look at how Rin is blushing!!! Yes she entirely aware that Sess is being 100% more enraptured than he probably should be that finds it adorable! Classic Sess behavior as far as she’s concerned. And her smile shows that she is simply THRILLED to finally be doing family activities with everyone she loves 😭😭 can you imagine??? Little orphan girl Rin who last had a new years celebration with her parents, now gets to host one with her own children🥺🥺🥺🥺
Setsuna of course is no longer a stoic as she used to be, but I also see her as emulating her dad a bit here😅they’re both looking at members of their family with such love and care (and her specifically mirroring Sess I absolutely believe is supposed to help viewers know that Sess is very happy in this scene (yknow…for those who are unable to read Sess’s expressions no matter how many times it’s explained to them🙄))
Towa being Towa 😂😂😂😂but also, I like how she’s passed out (drunk? Who knows! It’s funny even if she’s not) because in the present day Towa’s tried so hard to be responsible and put together…….now she’s happily the goofball of the family. (Her lil Riku charm I’m cry😭)
Also someone pointed out on Twitter that Kilala is an official Sessrin Family adoptee❤️imagine if you will that she’s got her own room while Inuyasha doesn’t 🤭🤭🤭 AND LOOK AT JAKEN! He’s finally getting a chance to relax after years of trying to reunite the family - you go Master Jaken! (And he already has a peeled orange🥺Rin is so nice to him😫😫😫😫)
I’m convinced Towa brought these from the present world btw - her parents are using traditional cups but THESE ARE FOR HER AND SETSUNA I wanna see what kind of face Sess made lmaooooo Rin probably love them so that means they’re sacred cups now - if they so much as get knicked Sess will raise hell. Towa can buy new ones but shhhhh no baby, these are SACRED CUPS
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The One Piece OC
*Banging pots and pans* Time for the One Piece self insert OC post simply because I'm 90% sure I'm happy with her picrew after like 10 different looks.
Note: I'm gonna interject with Law and Straw Hat crew interactions because it's just more fun that way I guess
Her name is Kilala. It's fine to call her Kiki as a nickname, but usually it's Kilala. Luffy calls her "Lala" because if any syllable should be repeated it's the one that's already in her name lol "Like what??" He's so confused.
She's 22 See she's definitely not a self-insert because she's younger than me lol 🙃
I haven't quite figured out her full backstory but I know for sure the World Govt. screwed over her entire island for centuries. It's been broken a part over time. Basically mined and destroyed for its resources so that it's uninhabitable. It sunk a little over a 100 years ago. Some mistake it for Atlantis, but it's not.
She ate a devil fruit when she was so small she doesn't even remember it happening, actually. Like she was 3 or 4 years old. She knew nothing of DFs and just ate it, much like Luffy.
Kilala didn't spend any time on her native island. Her grandmother was the last generation to live on it. A lot of evacuees died at sea.
She was shipped away with her cat Moremi to attend a prestigious school. She was probably about 7.
The erasure of her island has been something that's plagued her her whole life so now it's her dream to catalog as many cultures as possible. She's essentially a folklorist.
To make sure nothing gets in her way she's really good with survival, basic medicine, and she's a pretty solid diplomat given she knows a lot about different cultures. Somewhat giving the Ranger dnd class if you're familiar
For self defense I imagine she uses a bow and arrow but in the grand scheme of things that feels pretty flimsy unless she uses Haki but I haven't decided that yet. But generally she's good with any projectile. She's also not too shabby when it comes to hand to hand fighting either.
She goes off on her journey to catalog cultures when she's 19, traveling with any normal ship up until the red line, and then sneaking on to pirate ships with larger crews to get her where she needed to go.
She ends up on Punk Hazard when the ship she was hitching on wrecks and basically survives there in hiding until she meets Law where she joins his crew because if anyone's gonna be in the center of what's going on in the world it's a member of the worst generation
Also because of her DF she'd be pretty useful in reconnaissance and Law can't deny a massive advantage
The way she has to bite her tongue to keep from asking Law a million questions about the Summit War.
And don't even get her started on the Straw Hats, she's like a more polite Bartolomeo. Although she does actually scream when she meets Robin because Robin is a little bit of her hero
So uh...that's all I'm gonna put for now because that's a lot. There's more especially interaction wise but eh...this is enough. If the mood strikes me I'll post again. Thanks!
#law x oc#one piece oc#one piece original character#that's enough sharing for one day#i'm gonna go#one piece#trafalgar law#law x reader
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So I was thinking and decided to calculate roughly how many people Dream has dated in his life. He's ten billion years old and he has dated at least four people the last ten thousand years: Nada(if you can call that dating), Calliope, Titania, and Thesally. Mervyn heavily implies in Brief Lives that there's been many others, but let's say for conveniences sake that he dates about three or four people every ten thousand years. And let's take billion years off his ten billion before he idk, matured, and also before intelligent sentient creatures formed. That leaves us with... 2 700 000-3 600 000 people(there's statistically no way all of these relationships failed right?!). And from what we're shown in comics, Dream is never the one to walk away from a relationship. It's always the other person breaking up with him. Whether the breakups were his fault or not is another can of worms entirely. I'd say most are, but not all, e.g., Kilala cheating on him.
Still, no wonder he doesn't take rejection well. I'm not trying to make excuses for him, but wow, a lot of his actions make sense now.
That makes Johanna's question "do you have any ex-girlfriends" sooo much funnier
I think we can go even further than that to be honest. Are we assuming that only Dream's humanish male aspect takes lovers? What about the Cat of Dreams? What about the weird robot version of Dream? What about the alien flower version of Dream that died in Overture? What about the female version of Dream? The huge stone head version of Dream? The version of Dream for every single different animal?
We only seem to see the lovers he takes that are human-ish in form and female-ish in gender. Arguably he takes many more lovers in all his various aspects. I think even Neil Gaiman said somewhere that Dream has taken many many lovers over his long life far more than we know about, so putting that into the perspective that his lovers always leave him, it certainly does go towards explaining why he is Like That.
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i’m the bond that links them.
as regards sa post kong "I, Being that One Friend" nasabi ko dun na ako lagi yung common friend, ako yung gitna. here's some proof.
these people are my main from my iba't ibang group of friends—friends from highschool, from work (araneta and previous job) family related, and friends outside work—bigla kong narealize, wala yung college friends ko kasi di ko rin talaga sila masyado nakakasama na after college, mga busy sa work e. pero kilala nila si Chi, kilala siya ng lahat ng group of friends ko kasi nga bff ko yon.
so ayun. si Phoebe (bff namin ni Marika) kasama ko sa lahat ng picture kasi siya talaga lagi kong kasama sa lahat ng music festivals na pinupuntahan ko. tsaka si Chi and Diana. si Mikee tuwing UP fair.
tapos yung first picture, napag sama sama ko talaga sila. haha. and nag click naman kaming lahat. iyan na ata yung last rave na napuntahan namin before pandemic. akala nga namin mag tutuloy tuloy at nakabuo na kami ng squad. sayang hehe.
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EESOME
– (adj.) pleasing to the eye
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"yan kasi.. ayaw bumangon, napagalitan tulo- AY!-" ( That's what you get for not waking u- AH!- ) You hit your sister behind the head, preventing her from continuing whatever teasing remark she was going to spit next.
"Bilisan niyo na, baka makasalubong niyo pa yung teacher niyo." ( Hurry up, you might end up bumping into your teacher on the way. ) Your mother sat with you and your sister, taking a sip from her coffee.
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"No because, ang gwapo niya! Especially kapag naglalaro." ( No because, he's so handsome! Especially when he's playing. ) Aika, the dark haired girl walking beside you, your best friend and chismis provider, going at it with her obsession with another guy.
She'll get over him.
"I'm telling you (name)..``He's different, I feel it!" You joined in, barely speaking over Aika's voice. She did this much more often than it looks, she'd tell you all about cute guys she'd see. She wasn't wrong though, he is different. That because she didn't spot him in BGC, but in the school's basketball court.
"Different daw.. Porket di mo nakita sa mall, di ibig sabihin iba agad. landi mo." ( Different my ass.. Just because you didn't see him in the mall, doesn't mean he's any different. You flirt.. ) You whispered the last part, rolling your eyes at Aika who pouted. Of course, you didn't mean anything you said, it was your way of joking with her or with everyone
"Oo nga! Sabi pa niya 'See you next time?' PARANG OFFER OH MY GOOOD-" ( He is! And he even said 'See you next time?' AS IF IT WAS AN OFFER ) your brain muffled the rest of her chatter
Why do I even try?
"Sumama ka kaya sakin mamaya, manood tayo ng practice niya!" ( Why don't you come with me later, let's watch him practice! ) Aika walked faster, being caught up in her blabbering making her get behind.
"Manood ng practice?-" ( watch them practice? ) You scoffed, "Aika, kilala mo ba siya? What about his group of friends? Baka mamaya pinapaasa ka niyan." ( Aika, do you even know this guy? Maybe he's just putting your hopes up. ) You wouldn't really admit it, but you were worried for your best friend. Sure, there were times you two have eyed some guys, sometimes happening to see them multiple times out of sheer coincidence. But never did you two actually follow one.
Maybe she followed some when she would go out without you. which you highly doubt due to always going out with her but still
"Well.. Parang may nakita ako mga kasama niya kahapon. Mga apat (4) ata sila. Pero I'm not sure." ( Well.. I'm pretty sure I saw some of his friends yesterday. I think there were four (4) of them? But I'm not sure. ) Aika says, as if completely not hearing the last part. Just when you were about to open your mouth to speak, the bell rung, which meant you two had to separate until the end of class. This was your last anyway, you'd be able to meet this guy and get home right after.
"Shet.. (name)! mamaya ah!" ( Shit.. (name)! later, okay?! ) You waved to Aika as you walked away.
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RRIING!
"And that concludes our lesson for today. Wag niyo kalimutan ah!" ( don't forget it! ) A horrible string of "Ingat ma'am!"s and goodbyes overlapped as everyone exited the classroom. Some students even holding hands and saying stuff along the lines of "Kita ulet bukas, love"
kadiri amputa.
You walk out of the room, with a slightly disgusted look on your face upon hearing the two as you fixed the strap of your bag that hung from your shoulder.
Baka matakasan ko pa si Aika pag inagahan ko uwi ko. ( maybe I could sneak out if I go home early. ) You thought, completely missing your bestfriend who leaned on the wall just by the stairs, grabbing your wrist, causing you to a halt.
"Aha! kala mo matatakasan mo ko ah. Bilis!" ( Aha! thought you could worm your way out of this one ah? C'mon, hurry! ) Without even a chance to protest, Aika began dragging you down the stairs, you even ended up bumping into every other student that was making their way up.
You don't even know how you ended up in the court, you only assumed you did when Aika's running turned into walking and when you started hearing the squeaking of shoes against rubber flooring.
"Tangina.. Ai-Aika.. lahat nalang.. nabangga natin.." ( Fuck... Ai-Aika.. We bumped into.. everything.. ) You gasped for air as you sat down beside her, dropping your bag right by your feet.
"Nasan na un.. AY! (NAME)! TIGNAN MO, TIGNAN MO GAGO UN SIYA!" ( Where is he.. AY! (NAME)! LOOK, LOOK! BITCH THERE HE IS! ) Aika grabbed your knee, squealing as she pointed to the guy she said she saw the last day. And You'd be lying if you said she was wrong about his looks
"Ano pangalan niya?" ( What's his name? ) You eyes followed him along the court, shit he was tall compared to his opponents.
"Aaron something ata.. Nakalimutan ko na yung last name heh." ( I think it was Aaron? I forgot his last name, heh ) Aika said, watching Aaron the game attentively before a whistle shortly went off, making her jump.
"Tanginang referee nananakot. Bilis, greet natin siya!" Aika grabbed your hand, tugging it, prompting you to stand.
You did as asked, grabbing your bag and hanged it on your shoulder dusting your behind. You turn to look for Aaron, who was now talking to four (4) guys, they were wearing the same formal uniform as you.
Baka sila yung friends na sinasabi ni Aika. ( Maybe they were his friends that Aika talked about earlier )
"Aaron!-" "Hoy ang ingay mo gago nakakahiya!" ( Dude you're being loud it's embarassing! ) "Hayaan mo lang, bilis!" ( They won't care, hurry! )
You rolled your eyes at Aika, you felt eyes all over both of you, it was embarassing well maybe only for you.
"Huh?" "Sinong Aaron?-``Si Z ata ung hanap." ( which Aaron?- I think she's looking for Z. )
"Aika.. Nanonood ka pala." ( Aika.. So you were watching? ) He said, turning to your dark haired friend who nodded excitedly.
"Aba aba, may girlfriend na pala si Z! Swerte mo dude!" A guy with a backwards cap spoke, patting Aarons back.
"Congrats bro, didn't think you had it in you." Another guy with blonde hair spoke, giving Aaron a smile.
You looked at Aika, confused. Boyfriend?! Kakakilala palang nila! Mga gago ata tong puta- ( Boyfriend?! They just met! These assholes must be fucking stupid- )
"Girlfriend mo mukha mo. Kakakilala lang namin." ( Girlfriend? We just met. ) Aaron said, causing the two to fall silent awkwardly.
"A-ah.. Ganun ba?.. Sorry miss. Gusto mo, sakin ka nalang? ARAY!-" (A-ah.. Is that so?.. Sorry miss. If you want, you can be mine instead? OUCH!- ) With the curly haired guy's horrible attempt at hitting on your friend, he received a hit on the back of his head from a dark skinned guy a fade haircut. Holy shit ang gwapo
"Pasensya na sakanya, may sira sa utak eh" ( sorry for him, he has something wrong in the brain ) "HOY-" He gave you two an apologetic smile, keeping his hand on the other head. Tangina ang cute oh my fucking go-
"Kaibigan ko nga pala, Si Jesse-" ( my friends, Jesse- ) The blonde haired guy smiled.
"T, parehas kami ng first name kaya Z nalang tawag niyo sakin." ( T, we have the same first name, so just call me Z. ) Z gestured to the curly haired guy.
"Tae young, lumipat from Korea. Nakakaintindi naman ng tagalog, pero English siya most of the time." ( Tae young, he moved from Korea. He kinda understands tagalog but speaks English most of the time. ) A bleached blonde guy waved, he was cute ngl.
"And Robaire."
Robaire. Bagay sakanya, he can rob the air from me hehhehehs- Tangina ano? Sira ulo ka ata (name), nahawa ka sa kalandian ni Aika. Ay- gago nakatingin sakin ano gagawinkongngitibakoputagumalawkatigilanmongayangkakatinginmogagoperoanggwaponiyaahinfairnesshuehsjhhshs
"(name)? Uy!" Aika snapped her fingers infront of you, pulling you out of your trance.
"Ha?" "Ano na? Nakatulala ka beh." "Ano ba gagawin?" "Gagala daw, dadaanin ung Jollibee libre daw nila." "A-ah sige, go lang, sasama ako."
#robaire x male reader#robaire 4town#robaire x reader#robaire turning red#4town x reader#4town turning red#4town x male reader#4town robaire x reader#4town#4town robaire#;; 'teo—#;; fics—#;; kilig—#;; fluff—
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Behind the Fic: Canon and Beyond - Calendar System
A friendly reminder that none of this is canon in the actual Twisted-Wonderland game, this is built for the Our Precious Treasure Universe fics.
If anyone wants to borrow this system, be sure to give proper credit because I worked so hard on this.
Special thanks to @curlyhairednerd and @firaloveatea who listened through my rambles and helped me in making this.
In Our Precious Treasure Universe, time works differently than our Earth. They still have the same four season (Spring, Summer, Autumn, and Winter), but has different calendar system. Instead of the usual 12-months system, OPTU has 9-months system with each month having 30 days (like the regular moon rotation). In addition, the cycle is constant with rare disturbance. Summer and winter will always have 67 days. Spring and autumn will always have 68 days.
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World Calendar
Each month is named after precious stone (in Italian), more specifically the gems that appears in Kilala Princess with two additions to match with the last two princesses from Kingdom Hearts’ Princesses of Heart.
Month 1 = Rubino
A full winter season month
Italian for 'ruby', Snow White’s gem in Kilala Princess' magic tiara
Month 2 = Ambra
First week pancaroba (transition from winter to spring), followed by three weeks of Spring
Italian for 'amber', Belle gem in Kilala Princess' magic tiara
School semester starts on "the day when the first flower blooms", which is the first day of the pancaroba week
Month 3 = Smeraldo
A full spring season month
Italian for 'emerald', Kilala's gem in Kilala Princess' magic tiara
Month 4 = Opale
One week of spring, followed by one week of pancaroba (transition from spring to summer), and continues to two weeks of summer
Italian for 'opal', gem set for Alice who is a Princess of Heart in Kingdom Hearts
Month 5 = Ametista
A full summer season month
Italian for 'amethys', Jasmine's gem in Kilala Princess' magic tiara
Month 6 = Lapis
Two weeks of summer, followed by one week of pancaroba (transition from summer to autumn), and continues to one week of summer
Italian for 'lapis' (lapis lazuli), gem set for Kairi who is a Princess of Heart in Kingdom Hearts
School semester starts on "the day when the first leaf falls", which is the first day of the pancaroba week
Month 7 = Acquamarina
A full autumn season month
Italian for 'aquamarine', Ariel's gem in Kilala Princess' magic tiara
Month 8 = Diamante
Three weeks of autumn, followed by one week of pancaroba (transition from autumn to winter)
Italian for 'diamond', Cinderella's gem in Kilala Princess' magic tiara
Month 9 = Quarzorosa
A full winter season month
Italian for 'rose quartz', Aurora's gem in Kilala Princess' magic tiara
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Converting Regular Calendar to OPT Calendar
If you want to play around with this calendar system, you can use this formula and follow the steps:
1. Find the day number of your chosen date.
Example:
Your birthday in on February 23rd. So it’s the 54th day of the year (January has 31 days, add it with 23).
2. Times the day number with 270, divided it with 356, and round it upward (adding 1). It’ll be the day number in OTPU.
Example:
3. Divided the number with 30 to find the date and month. To find the month, find the non-reminder result and add 1 to it. To find the date, find the reminder. If there’s no reminder, then convert it to the 1st of the next month.
Example:
So, your birthday, according to OPTU calendar, is on the 10th of the second (1+1) month, which is Ambra 10th.
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Bonus Round: TWST Boys Birthday but it OPTU Calendar System
So, now that we have the formula, you can count your TWST characters or OCs with this calendar system. I actually did it for the boys. While birthday isn’t a big plotpoint in the fic (there’s only one birthday celebration), it’s always fun to celebrate something.
So, here’s the TWST boys’ birthday according to the OPTU Calendar System:
Lilia: Rubino 1st
Malleus: Rubino 14th
Cater: Rubino 26th
Azul: Ambra 11th
Sebek: Ambra 16th
Vil: Smeraldo 14th
Ruggie: Smeraldo 20th
Epel: Opale 4th
Silver: Opale 10th
Deuce: Opale 24th
Kalim: Ametista 11th
Leona: Lapis 4th
Ortho: Lapis 18th
Riddle: Lapis 25th
Jamil: Acquamarina 9th
Ace: Acquamarina 17th
Jack: Diamante 1st
Trey: Diamante 11th
Jade & Floyd: Diamante 19th
Rook: Quarzorosa 9th
Idia: Quarzorosa 21th
#the captain is rewriting opt#behind the fic: canon and beyond#twisted-wonderland: our precious treasure#world building notes
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w / mga hindi ko kilala 🤭
Ang spontaneous nung nangyari after mag Art in Island. Hindi kasi makadesisyon kung saan ba talaga kami pupunta. Yung kaming tatlo, last na kita talaga was 2016 pa siguro. Sana matuloy ang makapag out of town pa kami before ako makaalis. One of the best group of friends from hs din itong trio namin.
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One K Concert in Manila
Date: March 2, 2017 | Venue: Mall of Asia Arena
I'm logging this 7 years after the actual show and I think there's no better way to archive this show than copy pasting my facebook post about it, so...
Posted on April 2, 2017:
One month ago, I had the best night of my life.
It wasn't as perfect as it seems, for there were two downsides:
One, B.A.P OT6 didn't happen.
Two, I lost my first lightstick (though unofficial). It was the LS I used during my first concert last September, so I felt bad when I wasn't able to get it back.
But regardless of these two things, it was a night worth remembering. A night worth sharing. And a night worth more than P1,590 😜😂
💚 B.A.P 💚
It's been a month since the night I saw Himchan's red hair 😜😂 And Jongup's No Mercy dancebreak! (Di ko siya napanood nung Show Champion bcs I lost my focus, fanchant lang ako ng fanchant non e 😂🔫). I promised myself that I will stay calm, but the moment the letters "B.A.P" flashed on the screen, I lost it. ㅋㅋㅋ Who knows how to calm down, anyway? 😂 It was my second time seeing B.A.P, but my blood rushed through my veins like it was the first. 😌
I think I was the only stan of B.A.P in rows B, C, and D. I heard things like, "B1A4 ba yan?" and "Sila talaga yung group na may kwenta yung mga music video" when the mv of Skydive was playing 😂😭💞
I tried so hard not to sing Skydive. Tfw you're chanting "SKYDIVE!" and then you want to continue Zelo's part but you're like, "nope, don't ruin the chant please" 😂 AHHHH I REALLY WANTED TO SING THE WHOLE SONG!!! 😭💓 Kaya lang naawa na ko sa mga katabi ko hehe 😂
💚 B1A4 💚
Baby goodnighttt, jaljayo goodnighttt, dancing dancing dancing in the moonlightttt 🎶💖
Thank you, B1A4, for singing one of my favorite songs 😭 It was one of the songs I loved when I was still new in kpop. And hearing it LIVE made me go back to year 2013. 💓
CNU was my bias, but Baro!!!!! And Gongchan 👀👀 LOL WHAT IS A BIAS LIST AGAIN??? 😂
Hello guys, Baro biased here. Hahahahaha.
✨ AOA ✨
Honestly, I'm not into girl groups and I don't know much of AOA's songs. But the thing I enjoyed the most? THEIR AEGYOS. 😭😭😭 Huhuhu they're too cute ㅜㅜ Though I don't know them as much as I know other girl groups, I still enjoyed their performances (definitely more than I did during Show Champion). 💕
💙 CNBLUE 💙
One month ago, Kang Minhyuk got his throne back. I barely got a glimpse of him, but seeing him playing drums was one of the highlights 😂 It was when I realized that buying seats on the right or left sides of the venue aren't much of a disadvantage when you're a fan of CNBLUE, let alone a Minhyuk stan. If I ever watch CNBLUE's solo concert, I'd definitely get a seat on the right. 😜😌💖
Also, I thought I'm going to swerve lanes because of Yonghwa... 😂 Lol. I had too much of his flying kisses, please give him a chill pill 😂😂
💚 SHINEE 💚
As expected from these legends!!! The whole arena went crazy when they were introduced. They opened their stage with View, and I was sure as hell I know that song but I couldn't think of the title, I was like, "HALA OMG IPE-PERFORM NILA 'TO? 😭 TEKA ANO NGANG TITLE NITO 😭😭 ALAM KO TALAGA 'TO E NASA CP KO 'TO 😭😭😭" and then the lyrics said "view" so that's when I remembered the title ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
Again, my bias list was wrecked 😂 Bes, I saw Taeman!!! Este, TAEMIN pala. Hahahahahaha! Grabe, SHINee left me in awe, but Taemin's dancing blew me away. 😂😭
👑 PSY 👑
People know him too well. It doesn't matter if you're into Kpop or not, the moment you hear the name "Psy", you immediately think of his hit songs Gangnam Style, Gentleman, and etc. Because of this, some Kpop fans became less appreciative of him. There are kpop fans who think, "he's too mainstream", "pag kpop psy agad sus", "siya lang naman kilala ng mga jeje fans", blahblah.
One month ago, Psy changed my impression of him. I thought I wouldn't dance to Gangnam Style because I'm already sick of it, but... lol. 😂 HIS PERFORMANCES WERE 💯💯🔥🔥 Super enjoooooy! 😭 I didn't want it to end huhu.
Also, he's such a nice person. 💖 I just feel like I need to emphasize HOW HUMBLE HE IS. He introduced Gangnam Style with the words, "the reason why I'm here and why all of you know me" (something like that 😭💓). He was tired and sweaty but he smiled at everyone ㅜㅜ Basta, he's a great artist. He's not just someone who sings catchy songs. I realized na mabait pala talaga siya ;;;A;;; huhu much love.
💙 BTOB 💙
Last, but definitely not the least! My 7 dorks, BTOB 💕💯 They are soooooo amazing!!! Still can't believe I had the chance to watch them live ㅠㅠㅠㅠ They really deserve to be loved by fans. Sobra sobra sobrang galing nila 😭 Not only their outstanding vocals, but also how they managed to make the fans sing with them. Let's admit, BTOB is underrated. But that night, everyone loved them. Everyone was screaming (especially for Sungjae haha) and everyone was having fun 🔥
I really enjoyed their stage. As in all of their songs! I hoped for Thriller and Insane, but at least I got Beep Beep and Wow 💞 I can't explain how much I enjoyed jamming to BTOB. Sobrang lit! I literally thought to myself "grabe ang saya" while I was screaming for them 😂😂 And their performance of I'll Be Your Man? Oh man, don't get me started. 😂 DEM VOCALS DEM RAP DEM EMOTIONS AHHHHHHHH MY EARS ARE BLESSED MY SOUL IS BLESSED EARTH IS SAVED. 😭😭💖
Surprisingly though, my bias didn't change 😂 Ilhoon has been my bias for 3 years and no one's replacing him lol. But Changsub!!! He stole Minhyuk's throne ㅋㅋㅋㅋ
Sabi ko, ayokong mag VIP kasi hindi naman solo concert ng B.A.P yun. But if I had known that those groups would make me THIS happy, I would have bought the whole concert for myself 💁 cheret hahahahaha.
Ranking:
B.A.P
BTOB
CNBLUE
PSY
SHINEE
B1A4
AOA
It was one of a kind. I would kill just to experience that night again 😂😭 Pero please naman, I want to attend CNBLUE and BTOB solo concert when I grow older 🙏😂 I need 2 hours for each of them. Bitin yung tatlong kanta lang e ㅋㅋ
Disclaimer from 2024 Steph: We do not claim Himchan and Jonghyun anymore!
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Dec 15, 2023 (2)
Its sad how our relationship ended..
Yes, we still talk.
But it feels so different.
I have a lot of things that I wanna tell you but I chose to kept it to myself.
I'm so tired of telling you what I wanted to hear.
I wished, I was her.
I wished, I was there on your birthday.
I definitely have so much regret in my life but ending our relationship is not one of them.
I had to save myself from drowning.
I feared to see you happy with another girl.
I was scared just thinking about it.
Yet, it happened.
Do I blame you?
Do I blame the girl?
Or do I blame myself?
You made your choice.
Now, I am choosing mine.
Be healthy and always take good care of yourself.
Unfortunately, I cannot take you back.
I tried.
I tried so hard to get it off mg head but my thoughts are killing me.
I will never be okay about what you did.
Who knows, maybe in the future..
if you and I are really meant to be..
maybe we will find each other together again.
But at this time, I am sure now.
I will not settle to the man who broke me.
I loved you,
I still love you but I have to free myself from the pain that you caused.
I will silently move on and will try to go back to my old selfish self.
I will focus on what's good for me and get back to the hobbies I lost after prioritizing our relationship.
Feels surreal that things had ended this way.
I was always open about how I feel about you but I can't force you to do the same thing too.
You made a mistake and that will not change.
Again, Iloveyousomuch and till this day..
I still miss hugging and kissing you.
I will always remember of having you in my arms and I am thankful for all the memories that we had shared for the last 7years.
I now understand that I will never be your priority and that I'm only an option.
Take care of yourself.
Kung tayo, tayo talaga pero pagod na ako mag effort.
Pagod na ako sa lahat ng bagay.
Di ko na kilala sarili ko.
But, I'll come back stronger.
If you need anything, I will always be here.
Ingatan mo sarili mo palagi.
Mahal na mahal kita ng sobra sobra.
Sa iyo lang ako nabaliw.
Ikaw lang minahal ko ng ganito pero sa iyo din ako nasaktan ng ganito.
Kaya paalam na my love..
These thoughts are killing me and hindi ko gusto takbo ng utak ko.
I just wished you tried to fix our relationship the moment I caught you..
baka hindi naging ganto kahirap sa akin na patawarin ka.
Hayyy ayoko na.
Suko na ako e.
Pagod na ako mag effort.
Sobrang sakit.
Grabe naman. 😭😭
Sana lang talaga nagsabi ka ng totoo.
Kung may problema man tayo sana nagsabi ka man lang.
or if gusto mo lumabas..
I wished naging honest ka.
Coz, I never lied or hide anything from you.
Mahal na mahal kita by.
Pero di ko na kayang makita yung sarili ko na ganito. 😭😭
Pasensya ka na but I gave up.
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Custom Toonami Block Week 159 Rundown
Spy X Family: We’r eback to the small vignette episodes now, Bond has a premonition of his own death and since they’re out of dog food he fears that if Yor makes his dinner he will just fucking die and if he refuses to eat Yor will murder him. So he tracks down Loid on a mission and does a fucking Air Bud spy mission deal and Loid is just kinda like ‘okay guess this is a thing data dogs can do’ and assumes it’s a conscious choice to get back at the company that turned him into a data dog when he’s really just avoiding his assassin wife. Loid’s weirdly okay with this and they manage to pull off the mission and get Bond some non-Yor food, it’s cute but between this and Anya building a pipe bomb last episode feel like they’re kinda pushing what some of the gag characters can do even for a comedy. Also with Bond’s premonitions already being cutaways and him having no dialogue it’s kind of hard to tell when one of his imagination spots is a premonition or one of the ‘exaggerating consequences’ deals that the other characters do. The B-story is Damian and his gang getting in trouble for lapsing on etiquette because Damian’s fucking burned out pushing himself to meet his father’s goals for him from the season finale. So his two flunkies get in trouble with him but the adults see what’s really going on and send them on a nature hike so Damian can relax for a day and shift gears instead of keeping his nose to the grindstone. I really hate his goons’ voices in the dub and I assume that’s intentional but it’s still a nice little fleshing out episode for all three of them.
Inuyasha: Man this fucking episode is like a third recap, it takes like seven minutes to get back to where we were last episode, I thought I clicked on the wrong episode for a moment since they basically just give you a speedrun of last week. Sango’s ready to attack Kohaku and break the rat shrine meanwhile Hakudoshi… summons demon slugs to attack Kikyo’s tree because I guess that’s something he can do now. It’s funny they have to tell Inuyasha not to Wind Scar the tree on accident to get at Hakudoshi but they end up clipping him and killing the slugs but the tree’s already dead and Sango can’t destroy the shrine because it has a barrier and she never almost killed a bat child to get the Red Hiraikotsu that’d be obsolete in a season anyway. Sango, Kohaku and Kilala all get swallowed by the rats while Sango’s trying to protect Kohaku and Kohaku’s trying to pretend to hate her so Naraku doesn’t know he’s not a meat puppet anymore. Like you’d think that’d be something you could feel, like if the guy whose brain you’re directly interfering with suddenly had autonomy you’d think you’d know. Still Kikyo comes out to break the barrier but Hakudoshi’s been Wind Scar’d so not much he can do about it. Sango angsts about Kohaku and how even though he’s directly tied to countless deaths today along she still wants to protect him as his sister which is fine because as far as they know he’s still being controlled but it’s actually a lot worse because he’s letting people die to get a shot at Naraku that we all know will never come, not that him not being there would dial down the death toll any, if anything using Kohaku as an envoy to fuck with Sango actually makes Naraku’s murder spree less efficient since he’s just a kid with a scythe and if he just starts sending poison demon puppets to blight the whole countryside it’d probably be a lot worse. Either way Kikyo gets the message that as long as Naraku’s looking for her he can just keep pulling filler demons of mass destruction out of his ass until he finds her so she might as well come fight him. I mean Naraku basically does that for fun as it is but this time he’s specifically pinning blame for it on Kikyo like a ‘you did this by not doing what I wanted’ because Naraku is a gaslight gatekeep girlboss.
Yu Yu Hakusho: We just jump a hundred days after Yusuke announced the new tournament and it’s time for the prelims. Kinda speedrunning the arc here because we just have to take Mukuro’s word for it that Yusuke’s gotten stronger again since we have no clue what he’s been doing. It’s kinda funny that despite being the literal ringleader of the tournament Yusuke is still out of the loop on how it works, guess that’s his Goku instincts trying to keep things exciting. Most importantly Koto’s back to announce again, honestly one of my favorite parts of the series in general. Turns out there’s so many demons out there hoping for a lucky break that they had to have 128 preliminary brackets just to weed out all the mooks, luckily because there’s that many basically no one who’s named has to fight each other and everyone we already know advances except for Chu who gets knocked out by a sexy lady that’s way stronger than him, and Yomi and his son Shura have to fight each other which kinda sucks but guess we can’t have too many enemies off the bat. Also apparently Shigure is alive which I know he’s a really good surgeon and Mukuro has bacta tanks but dude got the top half of his head cut off, like not even just the head Hiei went right through the guy’s brain, that’d even kill a zombie but okay. Also there’s some kind of sexy monkey lady that Yoyo kids wants to bang so good luck with that I guess. The only halfway decent fight for this will be Shura vs Yomi and the show knows that so we just get a quick montage of everyone using their special techniques and blasting everyone who doesn’t have at least three degrees of separation to Yusuke.
Jujutsu Kaisen: Feel like this is the second time we’ve done the ‘shit’s going down’ cliffhanger only for Geto and Gojo to solve the problem off-screen, like I get that it’s to build them up as invincible badasses that can solve arc-spanning problems in an instant so when shit really does go down it hits harder but how many times are we gonna do this? So yeah the gang’s in Okinawa now with some time to kill after the kidnapping arc wrapped up quicker than expected so Gojo gives Riko the quick and dirty two day tour of Okinawa, I swear I don’t know whether the JJK author is using the series as an excuse to hit the tourist spots of Japan for ‘research’ or is just already well-traveled within the country and using that knowledge as inspiration because sometimes this feels like Adam Sandler levels of ‘the story’s set here because I wanted to go here’. Geto tells Gojo it’s not good for him to keep his infinity shield shit on for this long which I guess it’s something he has to turn on which was never really established nor is it something the fans seem to realize given I’ve seen memes of Riko slapping Gojo being the only thing to get through to his skin. Anyway they show up to Jujutsu High a day late but once they’re safe inside JJH Gojo turns off his barrier and IMMEDIATELY gets stabbed by Megumi’s dad, turns out the Arkham City Bane Plan worked and he’s officially snapped Batman’s back because Gojo being on high alert for two and a half days straight gave him enough leeway to ninja his way in and stab Gojo though this ridiculous Machiavellian planning is kinda pointless because Gojo reveals the surprise stab didn’t do much and it turns out Megumi’s dad also has a ‘cut everything even if it’s an infinity barrier’ sword so idk why he even needed the whole Arkham City plan. Anyway instead of both taking him on and having two people fight and protect Riko, they split up and Gojo fights Megumi Sr. (I’m prolly not gonna learn his name) while Geto takes a leisurely walk to let Riko make her choice. Gojo does his Almighty Push shit but Megumi Sr. ninjas around long enough for Gojo to think it’s a feint and he’s going straight for Riko but it turns out the feint was a feint and he actually just carves Gojo up like a Christmas Turkey. I mean we know Gojo doesn’t die so I’m really confused about what kills curse users in this universe which is why I’m only mildly perturbed that shots of dead bodies tend to be memes for this series because for all I know that person could just get back up and keep going.
Geto tells Riko that he and Gojo always planned to let her make the decision for herself if she wanted to be sacrificed and that even if it meant fighting the world they’d do right by her and themselves and not let the way people say things should be entrap them into doing something evil. She’s inspired by everything she’s seen over the past few days and has her ‘I want to live’ moment and… immediately dies. God that’s so simple yet effective, like Riko feels like a character that is deliberately not given much screentime or development, like it’s supposed to hurt like that, normally she’d be a manic pixie dream girl that inspires the heroes to live and want to see the world but that’s absolutely not her role here, she’s a deliberate anti-climax, she’s barely a person because she never got the chance to develop her own personality and is punished the moment she decides she wants to grow and it hurts so much worse than any kind of saccharine filler you could throw in there about her developing feelings for these two because she’s a girl with a lot of possibilities cut short, it’s the point where literally not fleshing her out too much gets the point across all the better. Also I have no idea what this means for Barrier Buddha given he still exists in the main story but doesn’t get his sacrifice here so I guess either they find someone else or it’s like a global warming thing where ‘it’s not gonna fuck us over right now but the next generation’s screwed’ which would be the main timeline’s period which that’ll suck. Also also, I guess Megumi Sr. passed by the maid on the way there so either she’s dead or let the guy that murdered the only girl she loved like a daughter ninja right by her without even knowing and I dunno which is worse. Anyway Geto hears Megumi Sr. ‘killed’ Gojo and is ready to bust out the demon dragons.
Scott Pilgrim Takes Off: There’s a lot of gay in this episode and I have many questions but still it’s pretty good. There’s a thing about a screenplay that doesn’t come back up this time around so I’ll skip it and get to the part where Ramona has discovered Scott was actually kidnapped by a Rick and Morty portal and idk if turning into coins is a normal thing in this world or if that should’ve been their first clue but yeah Ramona does have trans-dimensional imagination powers and I can’t tell if magic is just a thing that exists in this world or if some people are just not phased by it because they’re world-weary twenty somethings. Knives and whatsherface do a very gay little jam session and that’s pretty cute and Ramona continues her investigation by talking to people that knew/dated Scott which is kind of a neat inversion on how I thought the plot was going to go with Scott learning more about Ramona through her exes, kinda interesting to have the title character be so absent and be an ephemeral presence in the background. Anyway while Ramona is questioning drummer girl who was Scott’s first girlfriend, Roxie shows up and she’s what I imagine that kid from Craige of the Creek that roleplays as a knight is gonna grow up to be and they have a cool trans-dimensional movie ninja Amy Rose airplane samurai fight and do the Soifon/Yoruichi thing of ‘I’m fighting you because you left me weirdly’ because there’s apparently only one lesbian fight in all of fiction. Still it is fun and I do like Roxie and how quick she is to check if every girl she meets is a lesbian just in case. Though this does make me kinda question Ramona because with Matt we did establish it was a fling on a whim from when she was young but then with Roxie we saw that it was just… no real reason, just kinda grew apart which obviously happens but the fact that Ramona has so many of these types of relationships makes her seem like someone that has a lot of hyperfixations and then burns out quickly, like not a deal breaker but if the series is going for ‘yeah her and Scott are the one’ deal it’s gonna have some work to do to prove this isn’t Ramona just liking someone for a while and then pissing off when she gets tired of it like the color of her hair (though assumedly Scott would be cool enough about it to not go off on an evil tirade and be a jerk) also Gideon’s in his Poor Kaiba phase which never happened in Yugioh but the comedy basically writes itself so I’m down.
Ranking of Kings: So we’re still in filler but this one’s actually pretty interesting, the story of Ouken’s descent into madness. It’s basically just an elongated version of the flashback of Desha, Despa, and Ouken overthrowing their dad and committing war crimes but also with the added wrinkle that Satun tried to posess Ouken when they killed him and they may not have driven all of him out completely. It’s really kinda creepy to see Ouken go from ‘I can use infinite healing as a superpower for fighting to help people’ to ‘I am a murder machine because I must keep fighting’ to ‘I wonder why people have to die at all, lemme just run some tests…’ and then finally he starts seeing his ghost dad everywhere and stards murdering people, donning the armor and going on a rampage, wanting to see more death thinking if he sees enough he can cure himself until that much blood just kills his soul and without fear or compassion he becomes the rampaging Dark Souls boss we know from the main story. Not really much in the way of new information but seeing the whole journey is pretty neat.
Vinland Saga: So Olmar’s still being a whiny little pissbaby about how no one treats him like a man while he’s rolling on the floor drunk crying like a baby, so his dad’s bodyguards Fox and Badger convince him the quickest path to toxic masculinity is murder, like not even war duel murder like the shit Thorfinn was on, shooting fish in a barrel ‘bring out a guy to kill’ murder. And of course the guys they randomly pick to have him kill are Einar and Thorfinn (dunno why they picked up both in the first place, like having a witness is probably a bad thing and killing two slaves is twice the monetary loss) so they interrupt Thorfinn and Einar’s nice morning of waking up screaming and hitting on handmaids respectfully to come get them killed. Obviously Einar’s not a fan of the plan but Thorfinn’s just like ‘yeah sure why not’ and this kinda pisses Fox off because if people don’t value their lives he doesn’t feel a macho when he kills them and then he’s out of a job. He just starts cutting chunks out of Thorfinn and Thorfinn’s like ‘why should I fear death? Life’s been nothing but dead father figures and slavery so go ahead, fucking do it, DO IT’ and before Fox can go too hog wild on him, Snake steps in and shows who’s the real badass, punching out Fox and making the lesser guards piss themselves while being impressed by how Thorfinn was cut to ribbons without even flinching so looks like these guys may be up for a promotion.
#ooc#Toonami#Custom Toonami Block#Spy X Family#Inuyasha#Yu Yu Hakusho#Jujutsu Kaisen#Scott Pilgrim Takes Off#Ranking of Kings#Vinland Saga
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UNSPOKEN TRUTH
My ex-boyfriend of nearly 9 years dumped me on the night of November 11, 2023. We lived together under one roof for three years during the Pandemic until he had to return to Australia. He gave me an evasive explanation, saying he was tired of our long-distance arrangement and that we were both in pain because he had no idea when he would return to the Philippines. He said he had no idea how to take care of me or what to do. He told me it didn't seem right anymore. All he can feel is pain instead of happiness. He asked if we could take a break and heal. All I could get out of him when I asked why and whether I had done anything wrong was "Sorry." I even asked him if he had met anyone else, to which he replied, "Wala." He began removing our Messenger nicknames, deleting all of our Instagram photos, and removing his Facebook cover photo and profile picture. I could not understand why he had removed all of our social media pictures, even though he had advised me to take some time to reflect. I was confused because I knew we were on good terms that day; he even sent me photos from a Filipino party he attended with his sister.
After several days of him not returning my calls, I discovered that he was talking to someone else he met online and had a bouquet delivered to a girl in San Juan, Manila.
I was hurt, and I felt betrayed.
He surprised someone else with a bouquet on November 7, 2023, and he broke up with me on November 11, 2023. That made me think, which is why he quickly deleted all of our photos from social media. Perhaps he met someone and can now claim to be single.
For nearly three weeks, I begged him to return my calls and messages and to work on our relationship even though I'm in Pain.
Funny enough, even after he cheated on me twice, I still want to work on our relationship. In 2019, while I was working in Manila, I discovered that he was having an affair with someone here in Aklan.
Tangina no, tanga kong tinanggap ko pa sya..
Mahal ko eh, mas lalong mahal sya ng pamilya ko.
Nag beg sya na ayusin namin, at mag babago na sya, di na nya uulitin, But guess what? Eto nanaman.
It hurts, and the fact that all of my intuition was correct hurts even more.
Once a cheater, always a cheater. Ito talaga ang reality. Kasi kapag nagawa na niyang minsan, mas malaki talaga possibility na ulitin niya.
Nov 21, 2023, Our friend asked me to have coffee with her. She then told me that last October 10, 2023 that this guy told her that he is not feeling any spark with our relationship kasi matagal na kami, He even asked for advice kung gagawin nya. Pero sabi nya di naman sya makipag hiwalay, gusto nya lang hanapin sarili nya. Sabi ng friend namin, why not open up saakin para mapag usapan and magawan ng solution, try something na hindi pa nagawa namin. Andaming ways to reignite the spark. but he confessed na he tried omegle and met a stranger, which made him excited na di pa nya kilala yung tao and nag usap sila sa imsg. Parang naexcite sya sa getting to know each other stage.. but instead of fixing our relationship, nakita nyang solution is to find someone new. Mas Bata, Rich Gamer Girl. Tired na daw sya sa LDR set up, pero ang funny, LDR din pinalit. nagloloko tlga sya pag nagLDR kami even before.. Tanggap ko pa sana kung sa ibang bansa din ang pinalit eh.
He officially ended our relationship on November 23, 2023, He told me that I deserve a better person who wouldn't hurt me. He never came clean about the new girl, never expressed regret for his actions, and never acknowledged cheating on me.
As the days went by, I began to accept the situation and move on. I always go to church right after work, cry all I want, and give the Lord all of my cares and sorrows. He is still in my prayers. I'm praying for his health and that the university he applied will accept him.
He tagged the girl in a Facebook post he shared one evening, but it was customized to be hidden from my entire family, his family in Linabuan, his family in Ibajay, and close friends. I received the screenshot of the post from someone on his friends list who forwarded it to our mutual friend. I received the same screenshot from one of his family members in Linabuan as well. He removed his family, my family, and our mutual friends from his Instagram followers to prevent us from seeing his stories, but someone screen recorded the guy's instagram story that they are on video call and playing an online beer pong game.
After receiving confirmation that all of my suspicions and information about the girl were accurate, all that pain returned. All the memories and fantasies returned, and it caused me to doubt my own value once more.
I told him I had to block him on Facebook, but I never confronted him about the confirmed suspicion. It's funny how this guy twisted everything and placed the blame on me.
He said that I never asked him how his day was going or if he was okay. He also brought up the past, which was resolved years ago.. and that I always wanted it my way. I only want the best for him, but he doesn't seem to understand that. I acknowledged that I was at fault for constantly venting my frustration and negativity about my job, which caused him to burn out. He even said that since I'm the one who always talks, he didn't always have the right moment to open up. He never admitted that he was to blame for anything, not even for not sharing his emotions with me. Open communication is essential in a mature relationship. Cheating is never a good excuse for anything. In actuality, he is searching for a way out after being discovered to be unfaithful. He refuses to acknowledge that he is guilty and that he made a mistake. The Audacity.
This year has been extremely painful because I've been through betrayal, abandonment, disappointment, psychological abuse, emotional torment, and all the brutal things that a man could possibly do to hurt someone's feelings. I have died a hundred times, cried more than I could, and endured all those hurtful feelings all at once. But despite everything that happened, I'm still here fighting every battle that I have while doing everything I can to keep my sanity.
Was it hard to let go of someone you love so much?
Yes, It was. What we had was true and pure at some point in time. It was a beautiful & funny kind of relationship.. Until it wasn't. I tried to fix whatever could save what we have, but couldn't do it alone. Until I realized that, maybe it's time to stop trying to fix what's not meant to be fixed.. Letting go while still inlove with him was hard, but staying would've been harder. I didn't let go because I wanted to, I let go because I had to..
To the girl, He really loves suprises right? weekly bouquets? Here's the explanation in case you were unaware of it. There's nothing I can say if you knew he was dating someone else before you. All I ask is that you embrace and cherish him even more than I did. All the best to you two.
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Why me
Around 8am still no answer and he's not home yet so I decided to open his FB and contact every single one whom he chatted last night and asked where could he be and Boone knew. 1030am may sumagot sa phone ni Cassie taga Greenwich. May nakapulot daw phone nya.
I asked mcjhay for help kung wpede nya ko Pag drive to find Cassie but didn't reply. I had to go and look for him something doesn't feel right. So I asked jing if Mak can come with me sa morayta para retrieve phone ni Cassie and ikutin mga comp shop to look for Cass. Without any hesitation pinapunta nya ko sa QC. I lied to my parents that I'll go to my OB and get some lab tests and mom asked "magkita Kayo ni cassie?" Sabi ko oo and mag lunch kmai. I can feel her worry cos he's going out every night. I said yes without knowing how will I find him and if I even will. Got to jings house around 11am and male late na lang daw si jing sa skul kasi sasamahan nya ko 😭😭
Kaween and mewy always check-in in on me. Idk what to do if I don't have them.
Got to 4 or 5 comp shops showing Cassie's photo hoping he's been there or someone saw him. Then 2 police stations. Hate the 2nd precincts chief so fuckinv condescending. There's a particular police civilian who helped me and said we should start from Greenwich crew who gave me the phone then went to barangay to review CCTVs and this is 330 pm. Saw him running sa kanto and his phone dropping. But idk where he is going. Tapos may biglang tumawag sskain malik Mata pa ko Cassie it's Cass, handcuffed and barangay captain spoke to me that he's there and safe sa Fairview. We got there after more than an hour and along the way I bought him shirt and slippers. Sobrang swerte na ilonggo yung captain non that kept Cass and there's no kulong and I didn't pay anything can't help but shed a tear everyone there was so helpful. Rn I still have no idea how he's gone from morayta to Fairview with no phone and money.
I don't even have the energy to be mad. I'm just relieved his safe at the same time I can't help but question myself why do things happen to me WHILE I'm 7 months pregnant.
I told him that I will book him to iloilo and spoke to tito(asked a favor if he can stay there until his mind clears and gave me another unsolicited advice na baka nasasakal si Cassie or pinepressure ko like wtf you're not helping tapos sisihin mo pa ko? Since Cassie spoke highly of him I asked kung may kilala sya sa morayta na wpede makatulong he said none; he's just as useless as I thought) he said he doesn't wanna go to Iloilo and just wanna be with me but I don't feel safe with his unpredictable behavior esp now I'm pregnant. Still in the car rn going home and I'm so drained and tired.
****Got ambsuhed be everyone in morayta being a Marcos fan
- how did they know?
Now they all hate me..
- who does?
Tapos napunta ako sa Fairview nanakawan CP I'd etc (I found his phone at Greenwich remember? Idk why he's not telli g the truth, he could be hallucinating from hunger, thirst, idk)
-ano sinakyan mo? And Saan ka uminom
"you think your dad was in on it" "is he God?"
His eyes. He looked like he was drugged. Fuck
He was shush-ing me cos he said people from the laptops are hearing us. It's paranoia. Prolly to much weed plus the midlife crisis. He always thinks peole are trying to kill them and I can't send him to iloilo cos they are gonna kill him.
So what am I gonna do?
We talked and I asked to just worry about me and papicito and that no one cares about him and he needs to stop thinking that everything is about him people worry too much about their own lives they don't care about yours. Just worry about me and papicito. Told him to stop fucking networking and go back to reading and affirmations upon waking up and look for a job.
22:03 He's so dirty I asked him to shower he said Kar was peeking fron the other house, sumilip ako and wala naman :(
He's not done hallucinating :(
He's asleep and I don't think Ill ever know what happened.
2Oct2023
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Between Faith and Sight (LIVE) | Grace Brumley
This is Grace Larson she has an amazing voice and such an anointing. This song is AMAZING, and it absolutely broke me when she sang it at Camp Meeting last week. So much faith in so few lyrics. With everything I've been going through since October I feel like I've been under constant attack, constant spiritual warfare. One thing after another keeps piling on and I feel the pressing. Losing Kilala in October almost broke me, then the water leak Dec 30, finding out New Years Eve, the day before my birthday that we were now homeless, the move that has been a nightmare of insanity that is STILL not over because every time we start unpacking something happens with the trailer park or the trailer so then we were throwing in the towel here and after 25 years moving back to my hometown, then that falls through and now back to staying here, where even with all of this craziness going on around me I feel at peace. Except now with looking to stay here, there are repairs that MUST get fixed for it to work - a water heater (trailer size), flooring, leaking pipes, and a leaking roof. My life verse is Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the Lord with all of your heart, lean not on your own understanding. Seek His Will in all you do, and He will direct your path". That verse has carried me through so much in the 23 or so years since I learned it. This song also sums it up well because I have been living "between faith and sight" for most of those 23 years. When I take my eyes off of Him and put them in the world all there is, is fear and doubt and pain and hurt feelings and so much chaos BUT when I keep my eyes on Jesus and walk with my faith firmly planted in Him I see Peace and Joy and Love because I trust Him and I know He loves me so much that He willingly gave Himself up for ME to die on a Cross for me, so I know without a shadow of a doubt He will not let me fall, no matter what the world says around me. Find Jesus, form a relationship with Him, and come find a life and a peace unlike anything you can even imagine. He loves you no matter what you have done, turn from it, repent and ask for forgiveness put your faith in Jesus and the Cross for your sins and a new world will open to you. I love you all and I pray that you all come to this relationship and join my Family. Jesus 💜 led Him to the ✝ if we 🛐 and repent we will 🤲 His 🕊 Peace.
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i was talking w B the other night and as we were discussing shits, napunta kami sa thought na if hindi namin pareho kilala si Lord, baka wala na kami sa mundo noon pa. tinawanan lang namin pero bigla akong nagflashback.
april 2015. i’m not sure how my m knew. after church we met my t, d’s eldest sibling. m told her about everything. we were asked one by one about a possible setup/situation. my siblings were so strong and answered right away if ano sa tingin nila dapat pero nung ako na, i just cried bc i don’t know what to answer. i’m so confused. i can’t remember how the night ended.
after that night, paulit ulit sa akin if tama ba yung naging sagot ko. well they said since i cried, it meant na i can’t do the setup. i kept thinking hindi ko nga ba kaya? i am the weakest in the family. i always know that pero dun nadiin sa utak ko na totoo yun. imagine my younger sister had a better response than me? she knew her stand, i wasn’t.
a few weeks after nung gabi na yun, hindi ko na kinaya. so when i went out with my ex-fling, kinwento ko lahat lahat. i struggled making kwento bc in every word na sinasabi ko puro may hikbing kasama lol. we were watching a movie nun sa rentahan ng movie, hindi kami nakanood kasi umiyak lang ako halos HAHAHAH sayang pera. i cant remember if he gave me an advice (wc he probably did after) pero all i can remember was he just allowed me to cry ng mga 2hrs and kept quiet.
tough days, sleepless nights. i was in 4th year college, nagthethesis. i struggled a lot. dun nagsimula yung insomnia and pagooverthink ko. well, matagal nakong nagooverthink pero it got worse. pumapasok akong school na walang tulog. i kept analyzing everything and nagtugma tugma lahat. it’s been going for more than a year. tama lahat ng hinala ko, narinig ko. ako ang unang nakaalam pero i thought wala lang yun. iniisip ko if anong mangyayari kapag sinabi ko na matagal na yung nangyayari. i got scared. ayokong tuluyan na masira kami kahit matagal nang may lamat.
no one from my friends knew what was happening. every single day i acted normal like i should. kasi graduating ako, may thesis pa kong ginagapang. i felt like i should be strong kasi hindi lang naman ako yung may ganon na pinagdadaanan. at maswerte pa ko kasi yun lang problema ko, pinapalala ko lang kakaisip.
walang tulog, pagod sa school, stressed sa bahay. evil thoughts started to eat me. kung mawala kaya ako, maayos lahat? every single night, i would stay up late ng around 3am, only to wake up ng 5 para pumasok. i survived first sem, but continued dragging myself because second sem was off-campus/internship. i never knew it would last, and it sucks.knowing the Lord, i know it was a mortal sin. i tried searching for help and know more how to handle it. i never asked because i think nung mga panahon na yun, arte lang ang tawag dun. and i thank God i never tried. there were instances with the knife and scissors pero yun na yung worst ko, and hanggang thought lang siya.
i found project semicolon. read about it, got curious about why it was called like that. i saw a necklace and really wanted to purchase pero since its international at wala pa kong idea how it works, i looked for a shop that customizes jewelries. i found one in pampanga via ig. when i placed an order, i hoped na sana di nila alam yung meaning behind it.
except for jona. i can’t remember when but maybe since she sees me wearing it everyday, she got curious and (maybe???) tried searching its meaning. one day she approached me and asked lang why. not sure if i told her about it. pero i’m sure she kept an eye on me. tahimik lang yun but she cared, she still cares.
i wore it every day pero laging nakatago sa loob ng uniform. funny it may sound pero it helped. i’ll always hold the necklace when i know na i’m not okay, when evil thoughts would come into my mind. during the grad pic, pinaalis siya sa toga and filipiniana but i made sure to wear it sa creative shot. i was scared because baka may makakita and may mag-ask. i will never know what to answer.
say hi to my nene self lol. deba its kinda big and super obvious yung symbol kaya i kept hiding it.
anyways, a year later, the issue is still around pero it felt like back to normal na silang lahat sa bahay, pero ako hindi pa. april 2016, i graduated. easily found a job but every now and then, thoughts continued to popped in my head. kapag may gulo sa bahay, i still blame myself for crying that night. na sana sumagot ako and took my stand. sana mas pinanigan ko si m. sana matagal nang nawal sa buhay ko si d kasi kaya naman namin. palagi kong sinisisi ang sarili ko kada umiiyak ang m ko.
the 2017 mess i had w the ex-fling was another trigger. i was so mad at him. he knew the story of my life and dafuq, ginawa niya rin saken. like it was a curse. nagkaayos kami but isa ‘to sa naging reason kung bakit bumalik yung evil thoughts ko.
when my officemate-seatmate felt na close na kami that year, she randomly opened and said na she noticed my necklace and knows the meaning behind it. i panicked. feeling ko namutla akong sobra HAHAHA. but she comforted me and told me na alam niya bc siya rin. she have a necklace that kept her going too, her pendant was the tree of life. our connection got deeper and lagi namin kinakamusta yung isa’t isa. she had episodes, and i was so scared for her life kasi makikita mo yung marks sa wrists niya. we helped one another buong taon. it was so nice to have someone who understands.
that year also during icons (the teachers perform and have shows for the kids as part of the fair week), habang nagpipictorial sa back stage, a close friend saw my necklace for the first time bilang medyo maluwag yung suot ko at mababa and said nun niya lang nakita yun and asked anong ibig sabihin. again, i panicked HAHAHAHA. i changed the topic agad bc i didn’t know what to do. thankfully, she didn’t insist na rin.
2018. i got another customized necklaces. isang bar necklace “Breathe” and gold plated disk with “L ; V E” (live) handstamped on it since the one i have nga is very obvious.
di nababasa yung breathe sorry HAHAHA. si live naman tabingi pagkastamp nila kasi sobrang liit ng disk lol.
anyways, i can’t remember when the evil thoughts stopped, maybe pa-end nung 2018 bc may iba akong stressor non? lol. or siguro because napagod na rin ako and i accepted that the situation will never change. there’s a damage pero it won’t break me for I am with the Lord.
funny how a simple accessory means a lot. may it be the necklace, bracelet, what they wear or what they have sa gamit nila. i always observe people (weird man) pero iba rin if alam nilang alam mo yung pinagdadaanan nila.
super haba na nito. ayun, bulok na quote man pakinggan but always remember to be kind. we’ll never know what is happening inside a person’s head and their life talaga.
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thank you bc nakapaglabas ako ng thought dito. dami ko na rin bigat. na-miss kong madivert to a different world. na-miss ko magsulat bc ito lang ang meron ako dati.
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This season of waiting that im currently in, simply means that lord god is cooking big for me and my future. I know that he's doing his works so everything will workout for me!
These past few weeks, I've been so frustrated because of the pressure and all. But lord just made me realize what is really happening. Lord wants me to be patient, he want me to wait for something big. In this season of waiting, i also realized what are things that is truly important to me. Lord really humbled me with his love. Grabe ka lord. Ikaw lang ang kinakapitan ko lord. Maraminh salamat po! Kagabi grabe yung kaba ko, that's the first time na ginawa ko yon and lord hindi mo ako pinabayaan! Grabe ka! Grabe yung takot ko, pero nanaig paden yung katapangan na binigay mo saaken. Grabe ka lord. Kagabi, nag dodouble isip pa ako eh kung mag sastop over ako sa cakeshop to bought the cake. Grabe yung kaba ko pero nung malapit na ko doon sa loc, bigla na lang akong nag act to do it. I did it scared, grabeeee. Mej lutang ako sa kaba ng nandon ako pero di ako pinabayaan ni lord!!! Grabee ka lord.
You know sa isang araw andami kong realization. Nung andon na ako kina maryjoy, i saw ivy, faye and rachelle and everything feels so good. Then dumating yung highschool classmates namin. The Takla, though hindi complete andon sila. The situation last night just proved to me that they're not really my friends. Im not bitter ha. It just that i can really feel the barrier between us, im so proud of myself kase i am now self aware of my reactions, even though im being myself, the maingay im observing whats happening. Hindi ko alam kung nagbago sila or ako yung nagbago, hahahha well technically ako yung nagbago. Nung nandon ako sa situation na yon nasabi ko nalamg sa isip ko, aww isee wala nga. Disappointed myeah but im actually not surprised. Buti nalang hindi ako tulad ng dati na parang im so into them. I just didn't care. Andayn sila? Okay, hindi naman sila yung pinunta ko. The only mistake that i did last night was telling the couple na nakita ko sila, well i thought sila yung nakita ko. I was just starting the conversation and sa una palang i really feel there's something off. Well i care but not anymore. As for the two guys, sa curly one ako biggest na nadisappoint, di ko talaga naisip na ganon yung reaction or ganon sya kase, nagkaroon naman kami ng interaction like, pag nakikita nya ako tinatawag nya ko and super natutuwa ako don. Pero last night? Grabe di nya ko matingnan ng deretso sa mata like di mo ba ako kilala? We've been friends oyy hahahahahaha kinda sad, kase sinasabi ko pa naman sa sarili ko na isa sya sa pinakaclose ko don sa group tapos turns out that delulu lang pala ako. So don kay kitchen i will not expect anymore. Di ako ang magaadjust for you guys. Hindi ko na ipagsisiksikan yung sarili ko sa sainyo. Pero grabe lang talaga si curly like arghhh. And i just realized din na. Hindi din pala ako nag reach----- sasabihin ko sana di nag reach out ng maayos pero i did. I yayah them to seat. And i also told them na kumuha na ng food pero halos di nila ako pinansin. Hindi ko nama sya siniseryo pero i did my part. Pero siguro may part lang saken na kahit papano is kakamustahin din nila ako, kase of all us ako yung hindi nakakasama and after how many years saka ko lang ulit sila nakita. Pero wala, ni kamusta wala, ni hi nhelly wala. Well maliban kay shaii pero sa iba like okay. Sa susunod alam ko na, i should not expect anything from them. Lol kung may next time pa hahahahahaha. Anyways kung may next time man, hindi naman sila yung dahilan kung baket ko sila makikita. Like casual paden ako.
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