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Someone said that the best way to learn how to do a thing is to be obsessed with something.

And I've played Everhood so uhm

Everything is about joywave especially obsession by joywave which is definitely about joywave

i know i made that last post with mention that daniel was a pioneer of current radio alternative sound but that still doesnt mean that i like cleanse.

tuesday again 8/29/2023

my ENTIRE SUMMER has been either worrying about moving or actually moving. ALL OF IT. however an incredibly hot butch milf on the gay community bulletin board/dating app lex has finally answered my piteous call for gun safety classes with an invitation to her private range. unfortunately she is a landlord who owns a VERY large apartment complex. houston is a land of contrasts

listening

more joywave! one of my favorite bands bc they are best listened to in full album format, and i did a fuck of a lot of driving this weekend. little lies you’re told has an opening like a big machine warming up while you are in a control room way high up on a gantry somewhere. spotify

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reading (2x bonus round)

All The Trimmings by Tesni Morgan (published 2001 in the UK) is a gift from @believerindaydreams. it is “erotic fiction written by women for women” (debatable) and “the publishers recommend that this book should be sold only to adults”. also, “Black Lace novels contain sexual fantasies. In real life, make sure you practise safe sex.” idk i’ve ever seen that kind of notation on an american novel before? fascinating precursor to the saccharine little “stay safe kids” ao3 authors notes

i do find the premise genuinely fun and compelling— two divorced milfs opening a hotel/bordello with historically themed rooms. i have had to look up a lot of british purple prose and i refuse to believe anyone says “rogering” in real life.

im being edged with glimmerings of bisexuality. every time one of the milfs gets turned on and goes out roaming to distract herself from being turned on, i go “oh?” like at a pokemon go egg, but so far all the dalliances and encounters have been dudes.

had a very strange experience with cormac mccarthy's blood meridian. i don’t normally interrogate whether or not i am the intended audience for a work except when it’s literally made for children, bc i as a modern bisexual woman am the intended audience for vanishingly few works. for example, many entire genres (westerns) are very challenging to enjoy.

a western has never made me go "wait so why DO i like westerns at all" so hard. like, what AM i doing here in this genre that is often deeply fucking uncomfortable to consume as a woman, and where the most foundational american and european works of the genre often uncritically embrace the worst parts of the american mythos in the most violent way possible? i do believe critics when they say mccarthy is not embracing violence for the sake of, and in fact has something to say with his revisionist western, but my god is it hard to wade through. anyway, dad media will not fuck me and i still have only a tenuous grasp on why i try so hard to glean enjoyment from it.

i know what mccarthy is trying to do and the overall tone of “weird old maybe-uncle” spinning a yarn to a big group of you and your cousins around a fire somewhere is pretty effective. unfortunately I have less tolerance for mccarthy’s style now than when I read The Road thirteen years ago in high school. i was immediately super invested in The Road’s single dad and how he and his kid were surviving, which does not need a lot of interiority.

blood meridian also has very little interiority. the first five chapters are a teen falling in and out of various fights. i was not, and am still not invested. if im reading A Man Goes On A Journey western (as opposed to A Stranger Comes to Town western) i would like to know two or three things about the man, especially if it seems to be angling at a bildungsroman. i don't typically care for third-person objective narration when it is this closely focused on one guy, and i really don't care for loving descriptions of maggots. comforting to know a lot of critics were also squicked out by this book. so it goes.

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watching

finished watching s1 of spy x family! a Legally Not West German spy in Legally Not East Berlin has to go into deep cover and pose as a family man in order to gain access to Legally Not Erich Honecker, because the only social events Legally Not Erich Honecker goes to are the ones at his son's elite prep school.

this man FLINGS himself into being the absolute best husband and father possible. for the mission, of course.

i found the first few episodes the best, which is generally the opposite of my normal anime experience. i think it does a really good job of balancing high-octane spy hijinks and chases and explosions with very domestic concerns (he PROPOSES. with a THE RING OFF A HAND GRENADE. AFTER THROWING IT), and once you're really hooked on these characters it turns into a bit of a curtainfic. curtainanime? i had fun with all of it and anxiously await season two, but the actual applied spycraft does drop off significantly as the series goes on.

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playing

we're going to continue with out of context genshin screencaps for the duration. the watery land of fontaine has a neat smorgsabord of visual style-- freshwater but also saltwater but also the aquarium section at petsmart.

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making

unpacking mostly. acquired this coffee table and its mother. needs a very deep cleaning and some touchups but is intact. the individual tables are a bit large for like individual party drinks tables but all six together are QUITE large. four tigether would be a comfortable coffee table size for many apartments imo but! bc everything truly is bigger in Texas including my apartment it works for right now. for the first time in my life i am considering a sectional sofa bc the living/dining room is that dang big.

music tag

thank you @desert-fern and @sailor-aviator for the tags!!

"You can tell a lot about someone by the type of music they listen to. Hit shuffle on your iPod, phone, iTunes, media player etc and write down the first 20 songs. Then pass this on to 10 people. One rule: NO SKIPPING."

six degrees of separation – the script

a-o-k – tai verdes

secrets – one republic

who do you love – the chainsmokers, 5sos

run – shihad

dangerous – big data, joywave

treat people with kindness – harry styles

something’s gotta give – all time low

trouble’s coming – royal blood

every morning – sugar ray

shadow of the day – linkin park

my own worst enemy – lit

dry – rancid eddie

what happened to your band – mcbusted

somebody’s watching me – rockwell

my body – young the giant

slice of heaven – coterie, dave dobbyn

cosby sweater – hilltop hoods

wasted – peking duk

vodka on the rocks – zanko

tagging: @just-in-case-iloveyou @nouis-bum @sorchathered @attapullman

Happy The Mall day! Here are my controversial track rankings

1. Replay (just fucking fantastic)

2. Carousel (I love the new sound)

3. Sunshine & Milkshakes (bop with a dark twist)

4. Everything’s the Best! (bop with a dark twist)

5. Skin (Mood)

6. The Adirondacks (a vibe)

7. Throw Your Coins, Make A Wish (Not doing it for me I’m afraid)

8. Flatline (A little too cliche and boring I’m sorry)

I am not ranking track 1 or 10 because they are short and I dont really have an opinion on them.

I am really surprised that I liked the non-singles so much! I was honestly kind of disappointed with the singles so I’m glad the rest of the album sounds really diverse. I really love that they’re branching into new sounds like rap and house. It’s refreshing and really cool to hear Daniel singing in different styles! Best Frenz is still very “pop” sounding, which is fine, but I think The Mall could’ve been more balanced. As a concept album I think it’s cute.

I am very excited to have several new Joywave songs to put on repeat ad infinitum :)

Kai - Maned Wolf - Character Playlist

Track List:

1. Sylph Fossil / Iglooghost 🔪 2. You’re So Creepy /Ghost Town 🔪 3. MAKE IT HURT / TWENTYTHREE 🔪 4. Let You Down / Three Days Grace 🔪 5. When They Come for Me / Linkin Park 🔪 6. Technique (short) - Hybrid Theory / Linkin Park 🔪 7. It’s Goin’ Down (Ft. Mike Shinoda and Mr. Hahn)-B-Side Rarities / X-Ecutioners, Mike Shinoda, Mr. Hahn🔪 8. X-Ecutioner style (Ft. Black Thought) / Linkin Park, Black Thought, Roc Raida, Sean C 🔪 9. Everything is Violence / Lorn 🔪10. Boss’s Daughter / Pop Evil 🔪11. Tear Away / Drowning Pool 🔪12. Pet / A Perfect Circle 🔪 13. Black Widow / In This Moment 🔪14. Pick Up The Phone / Falling In Reverse 🔪15. Break / Three Days Grace 🔪16. Wolf In Sheep’s Clothing (ft. William Beckett) / Set It Off 🔪17. Going To Hell / The Pretty Reckless 🔪18. Animal In Me / Solence 🔪 19. Im Not A Vampire / Falling In Reverse 🔪 20. My Medicine / The Pretty Reckless 🔪 21. Lights Out / Breaking Benjamin 🔪 22. Headstrong / Trapt 🔪 23. Bad Girlfriend / Theory of a Deadman 🔪 24. Bitch Came Back / Theory of a Deadman 🔪 25. Counting Bodies Like Sheep To The Rhythm Of The War Drum / A Perfect Circle 🔪 26. ULTRAnumb / Blue Stahli 🔪 27. Adrenalize / In This Moment 🔪28. Closer / Nine Inch Nails 🔪 29. Mind Games / Sickick 🔪 30. Malevolent / Social Repose 🔪 31. Worldwide Torture / Jazmin Bean 🔪 32. Shitlist / L7 🔪 33. Anger /Groundbreaking 🔪 34. Touch Me I’m Sick / Mudhoney 🔪35. Kill Everyone / Hollywood Undead 🔪36. Lights Out / Mindless Self Indulgence 🔪37. Never Wanted To Dance / Mindless Self Indulgence 🔪38. Blood / In This Moment 🔪39. You’re Gonna Listen / In This Moment 🔪 40. Big Bad Wolf / In This Moment 🔪 41. Zones You Can’t See / Iglooghost 🔪 42. Beneath The Moon & Me / Blood Cultures 🔪 43. Haunt / Clams Casino 🔪 44. Rumpus Room / Xiu Xiu, Liars 🔪 45. D.F LOOKS / HEALTH, Brothel 🔪 46. Sahara - Slowed / Hensonn 🔪 47. Shut Me Up / Mindless Self Indulgence 🔪 48. Apex Predator / Otep 🔪 49. What Doesn’t Kill You Will Make You A Killer / Rabbit Junk 🔪 50. The Undertaker - (Don’t Shoot the Messenger) / Puscifer 🔪 51. Kill Kitty- Kmfdm Remix / Angelspit , KMFDM 🔪 52. Living Dead Girl / Rob Zombie 🔪 53. Coming Undone / Korn 🔪 54. Sex Metal Barbie / In This Moment 🔪 55. Hungry Like The Wolf- 2009 Remaster / Duran Duran 🔪 56. Twlight Zone / Golden Earring 🔪 57. Good L_ck (Yo_’re F_cked) / Celldweller 🔪 58. Sick Like Me / In This Moment 🔪 59. Lizard Brain / Lil Boodang 🔪 60. Thelema / Øfdream 🔪 61. FEEL NOTHING / HEALTH 🔪 62. I Hate Everything About You / Longlost 🔪 63. Scratch Boogie / Joe Satriani 🔪 64. Dangerous (ft. Joywave) - Oliver Remix / Big Data, Joywave, Oliver 🔪 65. Scary Gary / Kaito Shoma, DJ Paul, Kingpin Skinny Pimp 🔪 66. PRINCE OF DARKNESS / SHADXWBXRN , ARCHEZ, KXNVRA 🔪67. AVOID ME / KUTE 🔪 68. Disaster / KSLV Noh 🔪 69. Never Satisfied / Kick The Habit, Joe Zay 🔪 70. Killin’ On Demand / Freddie Dredd 🔪 71. GTG / Freddie Dredd 🔪 72. Stray Bullet / KMFDM 🔪 73. Spit. / WARGASM (UK) 🔪 74. Disobey / Oddko 🔪 75. Bitches Brew / ✝️✝️✝️ (Crosses) 🔪 76. Curse The Weather / Royal Tusk 🔪 77. Muthafucka / Beware Of Darkness 🔪 78. Broken Bones / CRX 🔪 79. Runnin’ With The Devil - 2015 Remaster / Van Halen 🔪 80. Baby / Royal Republic 🔪 81. Psycho / Muse 🔪 82. Welcome To The Jungle / Guns N’ Roses 🔪 83. Spoiler - Recoil / Hyper, WARGASM (UK) 🔪 84. Howl / Beware Of Darkness 🔪 85. Sick / Adelitas Way 🔪 86. Bodies / Drowning Pool 🔪 87. Oh No (“Points Of Authority” Demo) - LPU rarities/ Linkin Park 🔪 88. Anxiety / Palaye Royale 🔪 89. Vulture Culture / Fangclub🔪 90. Drop Dead Cynical / Amaranthe 🔪 91. Blind / Dance With the Dead 🔪 92. Beast / 8 Graves 🔪 93. HURT / 1 800 PAIN 🔪 94. The Nothing / SWARM 🔪 95. Another Way Out / Hollywood Undead 🔪 96. Scream / Avenged Sevenfold 🔪 97. Lake Of Fire / Nirvana 🔪 98. D.R.I.L.D.O / WARGASM (UK)

Playlist Art- done by me (@localclownart - IG or @Phatomimey - Tumblr)

ask game answers!

30. What piece of yours do you think is underrated honestly i think a lot of my pieces are overrated/i dont expect people to be that into my stuff so i don’t really have a solid answer for this... possibly this piece because it still holds up but otherwise i get super critical of my old work. only move forwards and all that

10. Favorite piece of clothing to draw big coats, hoodies, things that move and swirl. if u follow me on my side twitter you know i love drawing eli’s coat haha

3. What ideas come from when you were little a lot of dragons obviously, i was also really into making whole fantasy worlds when i was young (for some reason these centered around horses/unicorns?) i can’t say for sure anything specific because the illustrative work i do these days is a bit more abstract, but im still really enamored by complex worldbuilding and interactions.

4. Fav character/subject that’s a bitch to draw i draw most of the things i draw because they’re fun to draw! so again no concrete answer for this

7. A medium of art you don’t work in but appreciate by god i love all traditional media. ive dabbled in ceramics and would love to continue; block printing especially when layered, oil painting.... all things i want to try except i don’t have the time or space for the materials lol. oh also tattooing (ive done flash designs for a tattoo artist friend though which was so cool)

14. Any favorite motifs wings, halos, angelic themes (nothing to do at all with christianity i just like how it looks). obviously bea fulfills my need for all of these. also more abstract, but the theme of loneliness/being alone, sadness, and grief. i like seeing how differently people interpret my work also, one of the great things about the internet!

21. Art styles nothing like your own but you like anyways jp artists who do clean art with the wildest colors and intricate shading will always amaze me. goyagoat, mecchi, arboret, greycreature, a bunch of others that i cant think of rn!! i am devouring everything with my eyeballs

20. Something everyone else finds hard to draw but you enjoy probably the most applicable thing is wings? lol i love drawing wings and feathers, they’re muscle memory enough that theyre relaxing to draw

11. Do you listen to anything while drawing? If so, what yes! i have to have music or a podcast on or else i get bored out of my mind. gonna take this moment to shill joywave as usual. please listen to hdyfn

I was tagged by @chaotic-neutral-knitter thank you!! 💙

rules: you can usually tell a lot about a person by the type of  music they listen to. put your playlist on shuffle and list the first 10  songs, and then tag 10 people. no skipping!

I'll just use my current one that has like 10 hours of music on it lol

Imagination - Foster the People

Remember When - Wallows

Late Night Talking - Harry Styles

Read Between the Lines - Tom Cardy

At the Door - The Strokes

Running Up That Hill - Meg Myers

Just Like Heaven - The Cure

Fell In Love With A Girl - The White Stripes

Truth Hurts - Lizzo

Dangerous - Big Date (feat. Joywave)

I am an indie bitch, I can't deny it lol. I'll tag @kitharion @randomfatechidna @nerdangels @tomyfancy @theeadore @just-a-leech-boy @lacefuneral @vonlipwig @skyblep and anyone else who wants to do it!! no pressure to do it, of course

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Taylen

It Starts With Hello

Taylen’s point of view on how she met this person.

Normally here in the interviews I will conduct, I would begin by saying how I met this person. Although I feel that “of course I’ve known myself for my entire life”, I feel as though I still have some growing to do with learning different parts about myself and hobbies that I still have yet to discover. Instead, I want to share an excerpt from my diary in 2019, where I visualized different aspects of myself in the form of various ghost-like figures.

Taylen that Everyone Knows: Wants to be everyone’s friend, gives you the biggest smile.

Coach Taylen: The cool coach on the pool deck that can’t be bothered when wearing sunglasses.

Studious Taylen: Always in the zone and pushes up her imaginary glasses (cause she doesn’t have any glasses).

Hipster Taylen: Really loves music and has an interesting sense of style.

Friendly Taylen: Kind of rare, but if you break her shell then she shines.

Taylen that Only Taylen Knows: Quiet, shy and quite introverted actually.

This or That

You can only choose one…

Salty or Sweet

Winter or Summer

Air Guitar or Air Drums

Coffee or Tea

Dogs or Cats // I love dogs, but cats have been pretty special to me lately

Sleeping or Eating

Five Facts of Fun

What are 5 facts about yourself?

I am a former competitive swimmer and water polo player. This past summer I won a gold medal at our regional championship! I also coach and teach younger swimmers about the sport!

I know how to play about 7 different instruments and I’ve played piano for 12 years before I stopped to pursue other passions. Slowly I am trying to get back into music with posting more covers on social media.

Crocs are my go-to shoes for the past few years and I highly recommend on the pool deck. I’ve slipped and had some pretty bad falls from other shoes, but I have not slipped once with crocs #sportsmode

If there’s a hobby has any creative elements, I’m willing to try it!

In my opinion, pineapple does belong on pizza.

Drop a Bop

Pick a song that is the theme song to your life and discuss why.

I think I found this song on the radio and I was like, “Yes. This is it. This is my theme song.” This song is always my pick-me-up when I need a mood booster and I think it’s also quite catchy. With the lyrics, I like to interpret it as that sometimes people always see what you are capable of until you shine in that spotlight. It’s then people can see how much skill or “power” you hold and that yeah… maybe you are dangerous…

Debate Time

What is your perspective on the following question: Is the ocean soup?

Yes the ocean is soup. It’s got the veggies of seaweed, it’s got the protein of the fish and other species. It’s in a body of water. Mmmm, soup.

Some Deeper Small Talk

Chosen from a group of questions, the person answered the following question: What have I accomplished recently that would have shocked me a year ago?

I’m going to change this question to “What would have shocked me 5 years ago?”. 5 years ago, I was wrapping up high school and getting ready to start university. At the time, I quit my coaching job with competitive swimming and thought that I would just think about finding my way with pursuing something within my career after that and I would not really return back to sports again after quitting my personal journey a couple years prior. It wasn’t really until my time with reconnections with people I knew within the sports I played that they talked me back into coaching with teams based in other cities from my hometown. At the time I was hesitant, but I knew that with the qualifications that I already had from the past that I knew I was already more than capable to take on the job. Flash forward to 5 years later, I’m still coaching and just wrapped up a busy competitive summer season. Though in taking these jobs and switching to a couple of new teams, these experiences helped me grow as a person and as a coach; largely from the people I’ve met and the opportunities that I’ve now experienced. Sometimes it’s worth taking the chance and I think if I told myself in the past where I am now, she would be incredibly shocked at how far we have come so far.

The Final Spotlight

If you had the final opportunity to say anything to the world, what would you say?

Things can change very quickly and can happen unexpectedly, so live in the moment, appreciate what you currently have and enjoy it while you can.

Ooooh musician friends of Daniel Armbruster, you want to feature him on a song so bad

tuesday again 8/15/2023

woo it's payday

listening

joywave, one of my favorite bands put out a experimental collab album. it's taking a bit to grow on me but i do like The Carousel. this man is simply having a fucking blast on this fucking carousel. starts off with some synth..stings??? that feel very much like they could back a mall fashion show. or, better yet, imagine a 2005 chick flick about a small town girl moving to the big apple and accidentally becoming a supermodel. this would be the backing track when she finally nails her walk. spotlights, sophistication through understated vibes, frictionless, etc. spotify.

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reading

shotgunned five volumes of spy x family sunday night and i am now deeply invested in this simp. this is just a very silly slowburn slice of life. epitome of curtainfic

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watching

gave Afro Samurai (2007, Gonzo) the ol' two-episode try and simply was not vibing. it more than delivers on the samurai and afro parts of its title and is very stylish (complimentary). i think it deserves its emmys, it has a really lovely sense of constant motion without getting muddy and the fights are fun to watch. the sprinkling of high-tech futurism in what would otherwise be a very ordinary samurai anime is fun.

however it is SIGNIFICANTLY gorier than i expected.

if you looked at these screencaps and thought "hey that sounds like something Samuel L Jackson would say" congrats he's in this, bc it was 2007 and we had not yet exhausted our appetite for making Samuel L Jackson say things like this. we must also remember it is from 2007, so it rates VERY highly on the weeb portion of the Weeb-Ass-Shit scale.

that specific combo of gory weeb shit simply wasn't the mood on friday night and i don't think i'll come back to it. not for me! sad! oh well there's other anime!

how'd i find this: the wonders of tubi

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playing

organ attack is a medical-themed last-one-standing card game where each person starts out with four organs and a hand of five attack and defense cards. most are tailored towards a specific organ (eg the NOSEBLEED card i pulled first) but some are more general like CANCER or NECROSIS. it took about an hour with six people bc it got down to a real drag-out nasty threeway fight at the very end. the style is what you see on the box and is not gross-out nasty.

hysterically fun to play with a bunch of nurses, and even if you don't have an established friendgroup of nurses to insert yourself into it's very funny to say shit like "i'm giving your teeth cancer, hand 'em over". if you are playing with normal able-bodied folks i would not recommend saying "haha i have that!" every time someone puts a relevant card down. the normies really didn't like that.

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making

fallow week

my lil scenarios while listening to music are feeling a little too fleshed out lately... might have to pick up some skills...

okay i just saw the tags on the spotify artist post aND YOU HAVE THE BEST MUSIC TASTE oh my gosh, what are some of your favorite songs rn?

anon TYSMMM this ask made me so excited these are some of my faves!!

Razzmatazz - IDKBTFM: i've been looping this one for WEEKS the energy... i'm obsessed. i really wanna draw something inspired by this one day

Sex, Drugs, Etc - Beach Weather: I LOVE THIS ONE SMMMM FAVE FAVE FAVE i have the best of memories associated w this one

Poplar St - Glass Animals: ga has this way of creating songs that send you to an alternate plane of reality via Vibes. other ga faves are Waterfalls Coming Out Your Mouth, Dreamland, and TOSOP

all of Pebble Brain, AYA, Maybe I Was Boring, literally any wilbur music: wilbur/lovejoy music brings me sm happiness ^^ they're all on my walking playlist

Taro - alt j: i loveee alt j's singing style like it's incomprehensible to me. but it Jams (also Breezeblocks my beloved)

Dangerous - Big Data, Joywave: i found this through an anime edit last year LMAO it's a banger

Little Pistol - Mother Mother: mmm yeah hahaha (also i love Burning Pile)

Dark Red - Steve Lacy: this one is so calming... it's like hugging a fluffy cat

It Will Come Back - Hozier: god i fucking love hozier