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LOVER; the series.

a series of soulmate!au drabbles based on the album Lover by Taylor Swift

status: in progress (4/18 written)

TRACKLIST.

ONE. i forgot that you existed (dracula) 3.4k

↳ You share dreams of past lives with your soulmate

: ̗̀➛ i forgot that you existed, and i thought that it would kill me

TWO. cruel summer (aemond targaryen)

↳ You can see the world through your soulmate’s eyes occasionally

: ̗̀➛ i’m always waiting for you to be waiting below, devils roll the dice, angels roll their eyes

THREE. lover (tony stonem) 5.0k

↳ The red string of fate leads you to your soulmate

: ̗̀➛ have i known you twenty seconds, or twenty years?

FOUR. the man (steve harrington)

↳ You have an animal that shares the same personality / disposition as your soulmate

: ̗̀➛ every conquest i had made would make me more of a boss to you, i’d be a fearless leader, i’d be an alpha type

FIVE. the archer (dream of the endless)

↳ You can see your soulmate in reflections

: ̗̀➛ i cut off my nose just to spite my face, then i hate my reflection for years and years

SIX. i think he knows (eddie munson)

↳ You can share and hear your soulmate’s thoughts

: ̗̀➛ i want you, bless my soul, and i ain’t gotta tell him, i think he knows

SEVEN. miss americana and the heartbreak prince (jason ‘jd’ dean)

↳ You have a compass that leads to your soulmate

: ̗̀➛ i counted days, i counted miles, to see you there, it’s been a long time coming

EIGHT. paper rings

↳ You have a timer that counts down to your first meeting with your soulmate

: ̗̀➛ kiss me once ‘cause you know i had a long night, kiss me twice ‘cause it’s gonna be alright, three times ‘cause i waited my whole life

NINE. cornelia street (robert renfield) 3.2k

↳ Your soulmate’s first words are tattooed on your wrist

: ̗̀➛ sacred new beginnings that became my religion

TEN. death by a thousand cuts

↳ You have a matching tattoo / mark with your soulmate

: ̗̀➛ our songs, our films, united we stand

ELEVEN. london boy

↳ You think with your soulmate’s voice until you meet them

: ̗̀➛ but somethin’ happened, i heard him laughin’

TWELVE. soon you’ll get better

↳ You develop the same injuries as your soulmate

: ̗̀➛ what am i supposed to do, if there’s no you?

THIRTEEN. false god

↳ You know they’re your soulmate when you first touch them

: ̗̀➛ i know heaven’s a thing, i go there when you touch me honey

FOURTEEN. you need to calm down (billy loomis) 2.6k

↳ Your soulmate cannot physically harm you

: ̗̀➛ stressin’ and obsessin’ ’bout somebody else is no fun, and snakes and stones never broke my bones

FIFTEEN. afterglow (wednesday addams)

↳ You can feel your soulmate’s emotions

: ̗̀➛ it’s so excruciating to see you low, just wanna lift you up and not let you go

SIXTEEN. me! (peter parker) 2.4k

↳ The world is in black and white until you meet your soulmate

: ̗̀➛ but one of these things is not like the others, like a rainbow with all of the colors

SEVENTEEN. it’s nice to have a friend

↳ When you first see your soulmate, you just know it’s them

: ̗̀➛ something gave you the nerve to touch my hand, it’s nice to have a friend

EIGHTEEN. daylight (robin buckley)

↳ You can’t lie to your soulmate

: ̗̀➛ i’ll tell you the truth, but never goodbye

#having a blast with this one ngl #will be posting them somewhat infrequently but a bunch are already done and are ready to go :)#masterlist #lover #my writing #renfield x reader

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twwpress · 1 year

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Creator Spotlight #17: WitchyPrentiss

Welcome back to the TWW Author Spotlight! For every spotlight, we’ll ask each featured author the same ten questions (as well as questions you submitted on Twitter!). This week we’re talking with the lovely @donnamossburner (on Twitter, WitchyPrentiss on AO3)!

1) What are your top 5 desert island fics by other authors?

I love reading fanfic so this is a difficult choice.

Paradise City by casliyn. (kennysroys on twitter) THE HOLD BASEBALL AU HAS ON ME!!! This fic is so fun and interesting, I love AU’s so right up my ally but when I tell you Kenny’s work on world building is some of the best. Chapter 5 you will always ALWAYS be famous. Paradise City - Chapter 1 - casliyn - The West Wing [Archive of Our Own]

Fleur de Destin by sarabrownolorado. This is a flower shop AU and again one thing about me is I love au!! It is such a beautifully written fic that stays very true to character which I know can be difficult. https://archiveofourown.org/works/15105539/chapters/35025731

Where the lovelight gleams by JessBakesCakes. This fic is a christmas, post transitions fic which is my jam. I love reading about JoshDonna in the time between transitions and tomorrow because we really missed that. Jess writes Josh being immersed into Donna’s family beautifully and this fic is so so soft. It brings me an insane amount of joy. where the lovelight gleams - JessBakesCakes - The West Wing [Archive of Our Own]

No Reasonable Love by BeneathAnOrangeSky (editsbylu on twitter). I recently reread this fic after re watching season 5 and it is very satisfying to those of us who feel like season 5 had these moments where JD was so close but missed the point. Lu does a phenomenal job at diving deep into the moments and pulling out the feelings that Josh and Donna have. There is a line in it that made me laugh out loud and then get very sad. “Her biggest what a shame is what will never be between the two of them” because IT'S FUNNY AND TRUE AND HEARTBREAKING. I think that sums up my taste in fics though. No Reasonable Love - BeneathAnOrangeSky - The West Wing [Archive of Our Own]

Your hand was the one I reached for(all throughout the great war) by Joshatella. Now this is an author who I could just grab any fic and know it is going to be beautifully written and change my life. This fic in particular though has one of my favorite tropes “poorly timed confession” and is just so satisfying to the frustration of season 6 JD. I love how the author writes the barrier Josh and Donna have both built and how they are both so stubborn because they were both hurt. I think it does a great job of giving us the Josh apologizes to Donna storyline we deserved!! your hand was the one i reached for (all throughout the great war) - joshatella (shuuuliet) - The West Wing [Archive of Our Own]

2) Do you have a favorite character to write? Favorite ship(s) to write? Are there characters or ships you'd like to write more of?

My favorite character to write is Donna. I feel very connected to her, she puts on such a tough front but she is so soft and just wants to be seen which is very relatable.

My favorite ship to write is JoshDonna, I am insanely obsessed with their dynamic. I would love to write more of different characters but I feel most connected to JD.

I recently branched out and wrote a little Ellie Bartlet introspective which I enjoyed. And wrote some other character drabbles that were fun to explore

3) Tell us about your writing process (setup/location? Night or day? Snacks/beverages? Computer/phone/notebook? Music or silence? Anything else you want to share is welcome!)

I will write wherever the muse hits, sometimes that is at 11pm in bed and I will type in my notes app, sometimes it's a slow day at work and I pull the incognito tab up on my dual screen work computer. I always have my emotional support water bottle at the ready, but I rarely snack while I write. When I write at work it's usually like the subtle office buzz around me but when I write at home I put music on, something slow jam. But if a song is inspiring my work, I will put that song on. I really am just very all over the place.

4) What writing advice do you have for others who may be reading this?

My writing advice is threefold. 1. Write for yourself / for fun / because you can not stop thinking about what would happen if JD got trapped in an elevator or whatever. When I start to focus too much on how much “traffic” my fics are getting, I get sad and discouraged, so my advice is to remember that it is fun, and at some point someone will come across the fic and be like THIS!!!! Of course feedback is wonderful and we all want validation but letting it discourage you or letting it create competition just isn't helpful. 2. Read other peoples fics and engage with them, I find myself so inspired by others work, especially in this fandom where the talent is just *chefs kiss*. Tell other fic writers how amazing their work is and what it means to you because that is the best vibe. Read fics and when you come across something that tickles your brain, remember that and let it inspire your own work. 3. When you get stuck, ask for help, this is when engaging with others comes in handy, becoming friends with other writers is the best, because you can have a symbiotic relationship where when you feel stuck on a fic, someone can help you get unstuck. Also, it is okay to walk away from writing something if it's just not working, things need to breathe.

5) From where do you usually draw your inspiration? (Other forms of media, music, tropes, etc?)

I have discovered that I do my best work when I have a prompt, theme and deadline. Having a trope to work off really helps me to focus my writing and be like okay this is the core. I also read a lot, I will have days where I just read fic all day and it makes me want to write because I am like THIS IS AMAZING I WANT TO DO THIS. Truly nothing inspires me more than when a moot uploads an absolute banger and I read that and am like wow… I am also very inspired by music and often find myself thinking of songfics but they never make it on the google doc

I must give a shout out to @ JessBakesCakes,@ TheFinestMuffin and @ Flowersinapril_ because all three of them have supplied me (and everyone) with space to write and ideas to be inspired from and a soft deadline that creates just enough pressure that I get my shit together

6) What is the fic you've written that you're most proud of and why?

I am most proud of my grocery store au, it was so much fun to write and It made me feel like a more confident writer because I just was enjoying the process so much. I loved taking JD out of their usual roles and using little bits from other shows I enjoy. I never really considered myself a writer till I churned out 8,000 words on how Donna likes to make lists while Josh only eats frozen food.

but you carry my groceries and now I’m always laughing - WitchyPrentiss - The West Wing [Archive of Our Own]

7) What's the fic trope/concept/AU you'd read 1000 of? What's the fic trope/concept/AU you'd write 1000 of?

I have to say, TWW fandom changed me. I never really read present day or soulmate au’s until I joined this fandom and now I am just obsessed with both. I think it's such a testament to writers who do it so well. I could read a one bed trope fic 100 times and never get bored, it is my favorite trope bc its sooo cheese filled and I am a sap. Like!! They wake up cuddling!!! Hell yea!!!.

I could write JD fixit fics till I am dead and gone because there are so many missed moments for them where they could have avoided all the drama by just talking.

8) Is there anything you'd like to try writing-wise that you haven't yet?

I would love to write more descriptively. I really admire writers in this fandom because they go so deep into what Josh and Donna are feeling and I just have a hard time with that - I often rely on dialogue heavy writing.

9) What's your go-to Starbucks/coffee shop/other drink order?

So I am a tea drinker mostly. I love a good london fog, chai tea latte and matcha latte. When I do drink coffee it is usually an oat milk latte.

10) Do you have any current projects you'd like to promote or anything upcoming you'd like to tell us about?

I have been working on the festive drabbles currently, which has been fun because I got out of my JD bubble a little and wrote other characters. Festive Drabbles 2022 - Chapter 1 - WitchyPrentiss - The West Wing [Archive of Our Own]

I am also working on my roommates fic, I need to write part two but the inspiration has been lacking. My goal is by end of January. OMG! They Were Roommates! - Chapter 1 - WitchyPrentiss - The West Wing [Archive of Our Own]

Submitted questions:

From @S4MWILS0N: fave season, ep, plot arc? fave ship, platonic duo, side character? funniest one liner? plot arc u liked and disliked most? underrated ep? pre or post canon? craziest au you’ve come up with? easiest/hardest character voice to write? ships to double date? media to crossover with ?

My favorite season is season 2, so many good episodes.

My favorite episode is so hard to pick like I want to say The Cold because the JD brain rot but plot wise I love Somebody’s going to emergency, Somebody’s going to jail because I think all the storylines are really interesting and we get some fun dynamics (Josh/CJ. Sam/Donna)

My favorite plot arc is just the first season - learning who the characters are and what not

Favorite ship is JoshDonna

Favorite platonic duo is Josh/CJ - love the brother / sister duo. I also love Donna’s friendship with everyone and think we deserved more of it!!

Favorite side character is Joey Lucas!!! My queen

Funniest one liner is “you put my cats on the supreme court” I DIED. the whole thing is so funny to me

The arc I dislike is the Toby leak arc, that was dumb and Toby deserved better!

Underrated episode is not that underrated probably but Slow News Day - I really like the Toby focus in this episode

Post canon is my fav!!!!!! Give me all the present day fics

I have not personally come up with crazy au’s.

No character is really easy for me to write, I do find I can find Josh and Donna’s voices well, CJ is hard for me tho.

Ships to double date are JD and Matt/Helen - I love in fics when people write these four together and MattHelen are like ?? about JD, so fun.

Media to crossover with is The Newsroom. @ sam_writes_fic wrote a phenomenal crossover fic that i think does a wonderful job at blending the worlds (stuck in reverse - sam_writes_fics - The West Wing [Archive of Our Own])

From @sam_writes_fics: favorite pairing (romantic or platonic) you wish was explored more in the show?

I love the bits and pieces we get of Donna’s friendship to Charlie, Sam, CJ and Toby but I would have loved more - I think especially Donna and Charlie who are in many ways on the same level, I think they helped each other grow and it would have been nice to see it.

Romantic wise Idk, the JD brain rot is pretty much it for me.

From @EditsbyLu: woohoo! if you could rewrite any canon JD scene, which would it be? and how would you change it?

OKAY but do you have an hour?!?1 No seriously so many. I think I would rewrite the scene in King Corn where Josh chickens out knocking on the door, hes so dumb for that, I wish he had knocked because they could have talked!! I just wish we had gotten a good talk before they kissed in general. Or maybe even instead of the plane scene in transitions we got Josh showing up and choosing her and asking her to go away with him.

From @JessBakesCakes: Is there a fic that you’ve written that started out in one spot and ended up in a wildly different place? If so, which one and how did it evolve?

So the uploaded fic this occurred with is roommates AU. I struggled with this fic HARD, because at first I had written that Donna’s apartment floods and she has to move in with Josh, which was fine but it felt too like what i did with my restaurant fic which is canon divergent. I scraped the entire fic and said okay no, what if Donna and Josh become roommates - and then let myself write off that - it ended up being so different from what I originally envisioned and I am currently struggling with part two but that's the fun of it (OMG! They Were Roommates! - Chapter 1 - WitchyPrentiss - The West Wing [Archive of Our Own])

I also have a fic in my google docs that has been there since June - I am determined to write a post transitions fic and I have many little parts but it’s just like a slow evolution from what I originally had of hawaii to now which is like them coming home and navigating their new status.

Thank you so much for including me in this - I had the best time answering these questions. <3 :)

Huge thanks to WitchyPrentiss, and thank you to everyone who submitted questions! If you’d like to be featured in a future spotlight, send us a message here, shoot an email to [email protected], or DM us on Twitter.

xx, What’s next?

#the west wing #west wing #tww #tww fandom #tww fic #tww fic rec #creator spotlight #donna moss #josh lyman #josh x donna #fanfic authors

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justlovej2 · 3 years

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My J2 au fic recs

I thought it was time to make a list of some of my favorite j2 fics. This is au only. Not au coming next. Enjoy.

Absence from those we love

by mournthewicked

Word Count: 41,000

Link: https://users.livejournal.com/-mournthewicked/354607.html

Summary: Jensen Ackles led a great life. It just wasn’t the one he planned on. Now he’s newly single, stuck at a job he hates, and sharing an apartment with his lovably psychotic best friend. When he’s given the chance to go back and do it all over again, he leaps at it. Only he soon comes to realize that no matter what’s in front of him, it’s impossible to leave the past behind. Considering what he’d be giving up, he might not even want to. (17 again j2 style)

Like a music that holds my hands down

by saltandbyrne

Word Count: 22,891

Link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/15310197

Summary: Perpetually-single pediatric dentist Jared lets his best friend Misha talk him into going to an anonymous BDSM party. Jared hooks up with a gorgeous stranger, but panics after their encounter and leaves before he can learn more about him. A year later, Jared is stunned to recognize Jensen Ackles as the father of one of his new patients and the guy from the best one-night stand of Jared’s life. With some encouragement from Jensen’s co-parent Danneel and Jared’s plucky office manager Genevieve, Jared realizes that he and Jensen might be perfect for each other after all.

Inked Verse

by non_timebo_mala

Word Count: 43,593

Link: https://archiveofourown.org/series/344780

Summary: Jared's been dying to get tattooed by renowned tattoo artist Jensen Ackles for ages. When he finally walks into the shop, he discovers he wants a lot more than just ink.

Gently play upon your heartstrings

by Cleflink

Word Count: 11,576

Link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/1032133

Summary: Jensen is the superstar lead singer of the world's hottest rock band and, as such, is totally not bitter about getting turned down by Jared fucking Padalecki. Too bad the guy manages the hotel that Jensen lives in and is incredibly difficult to ignore.

Superheroes suck, or, the unfortunately extraordinary life of Jensen Ackles

by Cleflink

Word Count: 33,055

Link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/468711

Summary: Jensen hates superheroes. Having grown up with not one, but two of them in the family, he's more than aware of just how much having a spandex-clad alter ego can cock up the rest of your life. Luckily, his own powers tend towards the more passive, hippie florist side of things which - while embarrassing - means that all that superhero crap is someone else's problem. Or it would, if not for the frequent interference of superhero-obsessed friends, hostage situations, hotshot new superheroes and irritating relatives. Not to mention a boyfriend who has the uncanny ability to go missing whenever bad things are going down somewhere else in the city. Sometimes, Jensen's life is kind of bullshit.

The beat of our noisy hearts

by Cleflink

Word Count: 47,890

Link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/909642

Summary: In a world where heartbreak is a literal condition, it's Jared's job to sew, fill and patch the physical wounds left in people's hearts by lost loves, misunderstandings and betrayals. Jared's own love life is more than a little dire, largely because Jensen doesn't date and Jared doesn't do one-night stands, but he's got good friends and a job he loves, so he figures that he can't complain too much. When a killer attacks Jensen, Jared discovers that a needle and thread, desperation and a sharp scalpel are enough to save Jensen's life, but at a cost that is going to change Jared's life forever and tie them both together in a way that goes far deeper than flesh.

And the rest, as they say, is history

by Raina_at

Word Count: 17,728

Link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/15012887

Summary: Struggling actor Jensen takes a job as big-shot movie star Jared Padalecki’s dogsitter. And the rest, as they say, is history.

A different kind of team building

by ashtraythief

Word Count: 8,924

Link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/24683401

Summary: Jensen is a facts and graphs kind of guy; he never should have started working at a hipster California startup. His boss is insane, everybody’s wearing beanies, and Jared, the tall and cute head creative designer, thinks Jensen is too stuck up to work at One Tree Solutions. And now they’re going on a company retreat. But when the sleeping arrangements don’t work out as planned, Jensen realizes that maybe he didn’t have all the facts after all.

Hustle & Heart

by righteousbros

Word Count: 16,819

Link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/1143701

Summary: Jensen is the star quarterback for the Pittsburgh Steelers and he lives and breathes the game of football. Then at a charity signing event he runs into Jared, his former teammate and his former flame. It's been years since they've spoken, but Jensen hasn't been able to let the feelings he has for Jared go. To complicate matters, Jared is on the brink of a major decision that will change his life and the history of the sport forever. Now Jensen has to decide if he has the courage to speak up and claim his chance at happiness too.

Cuffs

by TwoBoys2Love

Word Count: 87,156

Link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/1283929

Summary: Detective Ackles gets a new partner who may be a bit of a challenge. They have different views about everything. Ackles picks up some work on a new case that reveals his partner's secret and dredges up the past.

The American Bachelor

by dugindeep (hotsauce)

Word Count: 21,415

Link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/1774633

Summary: Jensen Ackles is the first openly gay president, but that's the least of his worries. He's battling the press on his continued international trips to keep the peace, he has a 12-year-old to raise on his own, and he's trying to make something happen with the hot florist he just met. Jared Padalecki, on the other hand, is trying to not go insane at the prospect that the country's most eligible bachelor, and the world's most powerful man, is trying to woo him.

Splintering in slow motion

by cyndrarae

Word Count: 30,881

Link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/7526416

Summary: Jared has been fighting the ‘darkness’ for as long as he can remember, until he can’t, or doesn’t want to anymore. He decides to treat himself to one final weekend of fun before laying down his arms, so to speak. The last thing he expects is a gatecrasher, someone who might derail his best-laid plans for good.

Apocalypse: Cancelled

by jeyhawk

Word Count: 28,000

Link: https://jeyhawk-fic.livejournal.com/62095.html

Summary: July 7, 2008 at 2 a.m. in the morning a comet will hit Earth, destroying all human life. Humanity gets 54 hours to prepare and chaos ensues. A chance encounter has straight architect Jared Padalecki saving the life of deeply closeted movie star Jensen Ackles. The unlikely couple cling to each other during what they think will be their last days on earth, but what happens to the relationship they built when the world doesn't end after all?

Slowly, with each touch and each kiss

by whisperedstory

Word Count: 24,136

Link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/21607546

Summary: When Jensen starts coming to JD's, the cocktail bar where Jared works, Jared is instantly interested in him. What starts out as a one-night stand quickly becomes a casual arrangement that Jared could easily see turning into more. But Jensen isn't looking for something serious and Jared would rather settle for being friends with benefits than not having Jensen in his life at all.

Baby, it’s cold outside

by Merenwen76

Word Count: 35,245

Link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/22177129

Summary: Christmas is the best time of the year for Jared. But this time he's caught in a blizzard. With his boss, of all people. - Jensen Ackles This one not only hates Christmas but is also extremely hot.

A song in the stars

by strive2bhappy

Word Count: 39,813

Link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/11224314

Summary: Jared Padalecki has dreamed of taking to the skies since he was five-years-old. When he becomes an adult and builds a spaceship of his own, he gets to do just that, looking for adventure -- little did he know the adventure waiting for him. Jensen Ackles is born part human, part Terryn and his life as an outcast is difficult -- music is his only real escape. When he's captured by the Dominion, an organization hell-bent on taking over every galaxy in every way they can, he's used as a lab experiment to see how his special, combined heritage can be advantageous for them. Fleeing Dominion control, he vows to himself, they will never find him again. A chance meeting between Jared and Jensen helps both of them get what they're looking for -- and the way things end up, it may have been more than just chance. From various planets throughout different galaxies, to nights under the stars in space, Jared and Jensen find in each other something worth fighting -- and possibly dying -- for.

#j2 fics #j2 au fic recs #j2 fic rec #au only

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wlw-lovestruck-fiction · 3 years

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So mod Runa😏, choose either you marry....... Xenia? Or...... Lady Dimitrescu?😏

Ah.. well, neither of these ladies are the characters I simp hardest for, but hmm.. I can't really see Alcina marrying anyone that wasn't also within a similar life span as her. I don't foresee her as being the type of woman to set herself up for heartbreak. She keeps most of her companions at an arm's length due to this fact.. So, I guess Xenia? (Tho, I'd prefer JD if we're taking LS.. Daniela is we're talking RE8 and Genderbent Sal is we're talking AUs 🤣) - Mod Runa

#answered #anonymous

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sheepfulsheepyardinspace · 4 years

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Do you have any Star Wars fanfic recommendations, or have a link to someone else's list? I really wanna veg out.

oh my god, DO I. this may have been the best ask in the world. i’m not really sure what u want a feel for, so i threw together some of my favorite longfics for maximum veg time from the ot/pt and links for swr and swtcw recs. they’re pretty much all luke-anakin/vader centric, since that’s kinda my bread and butter.

let’s start with frodogenic, who wrote the first longfic i ever read in sw and might be one of the funniest authors ever. they once reviewed my fanfic & i nearly cried from joy. anyway.

The Father, 284k+, complete. “Ten years after ROTS, tormenting nightmares of his unborn child drive Darth Vader to extraordinary measures with unexpectedly drastic consequences. Clearly, experience has taught Darth Vader nothing...”

this is my og star wars fic and boy oh boy is it amazing. i will never get over this. i don’t want to spoil anything but when i say the final chapters are great? i mean they’re legendary. sometimes i still think about them & wish upon a star that i could be such a great writer. vader’s amazing, han is spectacular, and the ocs are fantastic.

Far More Than Rubies, 70k+, complete. “Nine years after AOTC, tragedy revisits the Lars Homestead. Little Luke Skywalker is suddenly plunged into chaos as the rebel movements discover a secret military project that may make a crucial difference in the war with the Empire.”

the spiritual twin of The Father, FMTR takes a look at padmé’s character and relationship with both luke and anakin/vader that’s hard to beat. it’s darker and heavier than The Father, but it hits those same sweet, sweet emotional beats while raising the age-old question: if padmé had lived, what would she have done?

The Family Tree, 12k, complete. “In which Luke Skywalker is stranded in a tree waiting for a flash flood to recede. Too bad he's got company...”

okay, i admit, this isn’t a longfic, but it is a longshot, and it’s amazing. the imagery and description always blow me away, and the interaction (canon-compliant) between luke and vader just [chef’s kiss] get me. vader’s in full, glorious form, and it makes it all the harder when luke wrestles with the knowledge that vader is his father.

Sibling Revelry, 25k, complete. “After Bespin and before Endor, Darth Vader is shocked to discover that Luke and Leia are twins. He's even more shocked when Imperial Intelligence reports that Organa and Skywalker are, erm, a tad closer than previously suspected.”

this is complete crack and humor in the best way possible. it’s crack treated entirely seriously, and you will be in stitches, i promise. no matter how many times i’ve read this i break down.

KittandChips (@kittandchips) writes what i can only describe as food for the soul. the luke-vader interaction is insanely amazing, the world building of daily imperial life and imperial governance is amazing, and vader just has a special je ne sais quoi that u must read to understand––tragic, funny, and so, so fatherly. they’re currently rewriting the Force Bond Series to fit in with newer canon, so i will joyously binge reread the entire again (including the new Force Bond: Mustafar Weekend).

Force Bond 1: Orphan, 47k, complete. “After Owen and Beru are killed by a mysterious stranger, young Luke ends up as an orphan on Coruscant. It's a race against time as Obi-Wan struggles to find Luke before Vader realizes the boy is his son.”

Orphan kicks off the series, which tracks vader and luke’s relationship through the perils of luke’s teenagerhood while growing up under the eye of the emperor and imperial court. it’s filled with slow growth, struggle and misunderstandings as darth vader tries to single parent, and pay off in every installment. the entire series clocks in around 777k+ and is the most joyful, fulfilling reading you’ll ever have. promise.

darth-nickels (@darth--nickels) writes darker, twistier, and terribly, terribly heartwrenching aus. they’ve got a whole host, but let me introduce to my two favorites. also, check out their faux-academia on vader. it’s amazing and i love it, but i admit i am an academia hoe.

Dooku Captured, Pt 2, 16k, complete. “Dooku is taken alive onboard the Invisible Hand, and Sidious' web is torn. The Sith Lord wonders if death might have been preferable to clumsy interrogation by Anakin Skywalker.”

Dooku Captured is a longshot au told from Dooku’s pov which takes the beginning of ROTS and throws it on its head. it’s a fascinating outside perspective of anakin and obi-wan’s relationship and such and interesting examination of dooku’s psyche and especially his complex relationship with the jedi order, qui-gon, yoda, and palpatine. i cannot rec this one enough.

Black Mirror, 90k, incomplete. “The Ghost crew returns to the Lothal when they hear the Empire is investigating the Jedi Temple there. They learn Vader is alone and decide to take him out-- but what they find could change the course of Galactic history.”

Black Mirror diverges into swr territory, but make no mistake: this is entirely an examination of vader and, later, obi-wan as well as ahsoka. luke makes his appearance later in the game, and boy oh boy will you love luke’s portrayal is a microcosm of luke and vader’s relationship within canon. heed the tags, though.

jerseydevious ( @jerseydevious ) is, first and foremost, one of my favorite people on earth. secondly, though, she’s an amazing writer with a deep understanding of vader’s character and psyche, a flair for beautiful depictions, and the true ability to wring every emotion out of your body.

Two and a Half Men (with a baby), 13k, incomplete. “After a long day of bargaining with Hutts and attempting to ignore his past, Darth Vader is nearing the end of his rope. When he discovers his two-year-old son, it's the straw that breaks the semi-rational Sith Lord's back; in a rash act worthy of the Skywalker name, he scoops his son into his arms, steals a shuttle from his own fleet, and punches in random hyperspace coordinates to a destination on the other side of the galaxy. Unfortunately, father and son are not the only ones on the ship.”

Two and a Half Men will stick with you, dude. like no other. i promise. it’s a whirlwind ride with obi-wan, vader, and piett and as funny as it is heartbreaking. it touches on some heavy issues and doesn’t shy away from looking at the damage done to vader––again, heed the tags.

Helioseismology, 4k, complete. “Luke gets shot down on a supply run and caught in an ice storm. It's extremely lucky that his father followed him there.“

i’ll admit. im completely biased about this one because it was a birthday gift to me and i am sucker for litcherally anything when jd puts pen to paper, but believe me when i say you will be awed by the depth and tangled relationships between these luke and vader that jersey can illustrate in a stroke of the paintbrush. im love. always.

izzythehutt ( @izzythehutt ) i am blown away by the intricate dialogue and characterization, always. and the latin puns? im sold. im also a sucker for latin puns, but that’s a story for a different time.

In Loco Pirates, 34k, complete. “A down-on-his-luck Hondo Ohnaka manages to capture the unicorn of all bounties--Luke Skywalker, which sends Darth Vader, Lord of the Sith, on a painfully familiar trip to the planet Florrum to collect his prize. The failed negotiations leave Vader in the awkward position of being stuck in a besieged pirate bunker, trying to balance keeping his wayward child safe (and in his custody) with controlling the tongue of a loose-lipped pirate who--to the surprise of no one--has a bad habit of telling 'amusing' anecdotes from the Clone Wars.”

hondo, aka the best character of swtcw, is brought to life just as vividly on paper as on screen. his entire personality brings luke and vader’s difficulties in a sort of incredulous light, which makes it as funny as it is vulnerable and tragic. the sequel, Palpatine Ad Portas, brings piett into the spotlight, and oh man do his interactions with palpatine and vader bring u all the uncomfortable vibes. relish in it.

sparklight ( @littlesparklight ) man. lemme introduce u to an amazing prolific and detailed writer. i will never get over the series they’ve written & neither will u.

Where Our Intrepid Hero Doesn’t Get Away, 122k, incomplete. “One-shots surrounding either AU situations of canon/legends works where Luke would normally have gotten away (or Vader is simply inserted into the action to come pick his child up) but in these instances doesn't, or completely new scenarios of the same. There are no deep ruminations on consequences of the situations here, just our awful Sith dad picking his son up when he'd rather not be.”

exactly what it says on the tin. u know those glorious moments of fanfic where luke’s gotten captured and ur on pins and needles, waiting for vader to show up in a moment of dark glory? here’s the moment. here’s all the moments.

Space Race, 122k, incomplete. “Owen gives in to Luke's wish to attend the Imperial Academy and Obi-Wan is too late to avert it, though he's not too late to make sure Luke leaves Arkanis before Vader can gets his hands on him. Luke spends over a month running around the galaxy before his father gets him, and from there...”

this story relishes in chase and boy is it fun. it will keep you on the edge of your seat and it’s an amazing ride.

The Suns of Tatooine, 85k, complete. “Luke ends up on a moon swamped in dark side energy after a mission goes wrong, then his father appears... and then they go on a bit of a learning experience. This could've been the only thing that would come of getting through a Sith complex with his father, but thanks to going to free Han earlier than the gang did otherwise, more revelations are had. Will that change anything?”

this series is a thoughtful, contemplative piece examining the nature of the force and the relationship the skywalkers have with tatooine. the descriptions are beautiful, the inventiveness is amazing, and you’ll be thinking about it for long afterwards.

an additional few…

Between Flight and Longing; 34k, complete. “Luke Skywalker and Han Solo journey to the planet Balen'ar on a desperate mission and find more than they'd bargained for.”

a classic and it is for a reason. the interaction between han, luke, and vader is so spectacular and the slow trudge of going through the forest with your greatest enemy and best friend is something hilarious. the end is bittersweet and fantastic.

The Sith Who Brought Life Day, 13k, complete. “An Imperial officer loses a bet and has to get Darth Vader a present for Life Day.”

somewhere between terrifying and dull, this fic presents a canon-compliant look at the hunt for luke and the grinding wheels of the empire. the oc is amazing and it echoes in true star wars spirit: sometimes it’s just some dude who can change the galaxy.

Quintessence, 5k, complete. ‘“Well, Master, I think I’ve found the one positive aspect of this situation.” “Which is?” “The Temple won’t have to pay the costs for our funeral pyres.”’

pure hilarity and shenanigans abound in pre-aotc obi-wan and anakin hijink goodness. lemme tell u––u will deeply sympathize with mace windu afterwards. additionally, check out the rest of the author’s oneshots! they’re deeply thoughtful and the interactions the author writes between obi-wan and anakin are always gold.

some extras & shameless self-promotion

here’s a full list of recommendations for star wars rebels fanfic in case this is what you’re looking for (remember when this used to be a swr blog, lmao)

i’ve also written sw fanfic, both swr and luke-vader centric. drop by and tell me if it’s any good!

#also if anybody knows these authors' tumblr accounts pls lmk so i can link them #guys remember piett?#i miss piett #firmus piett #star wars #star wars fanfic #sw fanfic #sw fic #three two one boom #jerseydevious #luke skywalker #darth vader #anakin skywalker #star wars rebels #late-in-the-day #idk if any of these r new at all to anyone #but they r my faves :)

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thegreatestofheck · 4 years

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Meant to Be Yours ♦Rafe Cameron♦

(gif not mine, all credit to samarasweaving!)

Word Count - 1256 Warnings - murder mentions, suicide mentions, very toxic relationship Synopsis - Rafe Cameron, your boyfriend, was more broken than you realized. He wants more from you than you can give. A/N - This is sort of a Heathers!au, where you, the reader, are Veronica, and Rafe is JD. I listened to “Meant to Be Yours” from the musical on repeat while writing this, so that might give a little extra context. Enjoy!

“Veronica!”

His voice sent chills through your body. Slamming your bathroom door shut, your hands shook as you locked it. You stared at the door, sure that he was out there. He slammed his hands against the door and you shrieked, jumping backward. You backed away from the door until you hit the bathtub, tumbling inside.

“I know you’re in there, Veronica.”

You flinched, closing your eyes as tears rolled down your cheeks.

“I know you’re scared, baby, but they got what they deserved,” he mused. You watched, eyes snapping open, as the door knob jiggled ferociously.

Sure, maybe your dad was an asshole and your school bully shattered your self esteem, but that didn’t mean they deserved to die. You had confided in Rafe, one of the few people you ever felt able to trust and now your two tormentors were dead.

You thought he was joking when he said there was arsenic in your dad’s morning coffee. You thought he was joking when he told you the gun was loaded. He told you that he did it for a reason, that they deserved to die. But he wasn’t the one who pulled the trigger, wasn’t the one who gave your dad the coffee. That was you. You did that. The blood was on your hands and Rafe Cameron put it there.

“You tossed me out of your room like trash, Veronica, do you know how that makes me feel?”

You sucked in a heavy breath.

“But I know that it’s not your fault. Your asshole friends are keeping you away from me. They’re messing with your mind, Veronica, keeping you away from me. I can set you free from them, you know that.”

You put your hands over your face, trying to stifle your sobs.

“When you walked out on me, I didn’t know what to do.” His voice was gentle, soft, Your heart pounded. “I admit, I blew up a little bit. Maybe punched the wall a few times, but who can blame me?”

There had to be some way out of this, you told yourself. But you were stuck in the bathroom, the only exit blocked by your boyfriend.

“But you changed me, Veronica. You did.” He paused. “We are perfect together, you and me. You can heal me and I can protect you. I won’t anyone hurt you.”

You leaned your head back against the wall, hoping to drown out his words.

“I was meant to be yours,” he said softly. “It was supposed to be me and you forever. I can’t live in this world alone.”

How many times had he told you that? How many times had he told you that he was the only one who could ever love you right? How many times did you believe him?

“Just tell me who’s hurting you, baby,” he said. You could imagine him putting his hands on the door, forehead pressed against it. You slowly crawled out of the tub, careful not to make any sound. “I’ll get rid of them. Then we can go to the beach. Bring some beer, maybe some marshmallows. I know you love those. I’ll hold you and I won’t let anyone hurt you ever again.”

You knelt in front of the door, placing your palms and forehead against it just as you imagined him doing.

What had gone wrong? What wrong turn did you take? How did this happen? The boy you loved so deeply was falling apart and you had failed to hold him together.

“We were meant to be one, Veronica. I can’t take this alone. We have to finish what we started.”

We? You opened your eyes, backing away from the door. There was no we. How many times had you begged him to stop, begging him to let it go. It had always been about him, always been about his own issues that he projected onto you.

“You were meant to be mine!” You stood, backing away. There was only one way out of this. “I am all that you need, Veronica!”

With every word he was getting more and more agitated. You heard the wood floor creak beneath him as he stood.

“You carved me open, baby. You can’t just let me bleed out!”

You pulled down the shower curtains, your entire body trembling as you tied them around you just as JJ taught you long ago.

“You want to disappear?” He had asked. “Fake suicide, that’s what my dad always said. I can show you how to tie a noose that won’t kill you.”

You always thought you would never need it, but here you were, stranded in a bathroom with your psycho boyfriend trying to pound his way in. You sent a silent prayer thanking God that JJ was a weirdo who knew things about how to fake suicide.

“Veronica!” You jumped at the sudden ferocity in Rafe’s voice. He pounded his fist against the door, making you shake even more as you hurried to tie the noose around you properly. You didn’t really want to die, but there was no way else out.

“Open the door, please. Baby, please, open the door.” You swallowed a lump in your throat, throwing the shower curtain over the light fixture. “Baby, let’s not fight anymore. Please? Baby, I know you’re scared, I know. I was scared too, but I can set you free.”

You pulled on the curtain, feeling the pressure on your neck but you could still breathe. You tied the other end to the toilet.

“Don’t make me come in there, Veronica,” Rafe said, his anger rising once again. “You have three seconds.”

Three seconds.

“One!”

You climbed back onto the side of the tub.

“Two!”

You took a deep breath and closed your eyes.

“Three!”

Just before Rafe broke the door down, you stepped off the tub, letting yourself drop.

Everything was silent. You squeezed your eyes shut. No matter how badly you wanted to see the look on his face, you wouldn’t open your eyes. You couldn’t.

“No.” He choked out a sob. You heard him fall to his knees, gasping for breath. “Veronica.”

Don’t breathe, you told herself. Don’t breathe.

“Please, don’t leave me alone.”

You heard the heartbreak in his voice.

“You were all that I had.”

You couldn’t cry. You wouldn’t let yourself cry. He was still trying to manipulate you, dead or not.

“I can’t do this alone.”

You wondered to yourself what this was. Living? A new plan? It didn’t matter. You weren’t his to control anymore.

“Still, I will if it must.”

He you heard him stand and walk toward you. Your heart pounded, afraid that he was going to check your pulse. But all he did was plant a kiss on your cheek. His lips were wet from his tears. Part of you wanted to reach out and pull him into your chest, to hold him there and never let go.

But you already tried that. You tried to be the loving girlfriend, to be the healer he needed. He needed more than that.

You heard his footsteps retreat, but you still hung there, waiting. Once you were sure he was gone, you opened your eyes. Pulling the curtains from around your neck, you dropped to the ground.

You had created the monster Rafe had become. It was on you and you alone to stop him before he hurt anyone else.

Leaving the homemade noose up as a reminder, you stormed from the bathroom, your war path set.

#tw: suicide #tw: abuse #tw: murder #rafe cameron #rafe obx #outerbanks #self insert #rafe x reader #heathers au #heathers #song fic #blurb #fanfiction

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glitterp0prhaps0dy · 1 month

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Heartbreak part 2

WARNING: I DID NOT PROOF READ THIS, IF THERES ANY SPELLING MISTAKES OR GRAMMER MISTAKES JUST IGNORE IT I WROTE HALF OF IT DURING SCHOOL.

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John Dory burst from Branch's bunker, a whirl of emotions etched on the faces of those left inside. Floyd's expression was tinged with worry, Bruce wore a mask of confusion, and Clay seemed nothing short of irritated. Branch broke the tense silence with a blunt, "What the actual fuck just happened?

Seated on a beanbag, Floyd shifted, glancing at his brothers. "He looked like he was on the verge of a panic attack, not at all himself," he said, his concern palpable as he exchanged a meaningful look with Bruce. "I'm going to check on him. We can't let him wander off when he's this upset," Floyd declared.

Floyd grasped his wooden cane and painstakingly rose from the beanbag. He made his way to the bunker's elevator, pulled the lever, and ascended, leaving the bunker.

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John Dory burst through Rhonda's door, slamming it shut as he collapsed to the floor, his breaths coming in heavy gasps and sweat beading his forehead.

Gathering his strength, he pulled himself up using the countertop for support and staggered toward the loft. Once there, he climbed into his bed and reached under his pillow for something concealed there—a blue plushie. This wasn't just any toy; it was a Flopper Hopper, distinguished by its large green button eyes and long, fuzzy ears, though one ear was notably damaged, missing its latter half.

Clutching the plushie tightly, John curled into a fetal position and began to cry, his tears soaking into the soft fabric of the doll.

John's eyes wandered upwards, resting on the tapestry of memories plastered across his ceiling. Among the snapshots capturing his wild escapades on the Neverglade trail, one photo held his gaze longer than the others. It wasn't just any picture—it was a heartfelt reminder of a different kind of adventure.

Centered amidst the chaos of his thrilling journey memories, this particular photo was more personal, more intimate. It featured a woman with hair that flowed like a cascade of deep, reddish-pink sunset, her skin aglow with a yellow sparkle that seemed to light up the room. Cradled in her arms was a baby, a tiny mirror of her luminosity but with hair the color of the deepest sea green, tinged with teal.

This picture, unlike the others, spoke of a journey not across wild landscapes but through the

realms of love and connection. The striking visual contrast between the woman and the baby, with their shared glittery skin and uniquely colored hair, painted a vivid image of familial bonds and the beauty of heritage. It was a precious, frozen moment that John cherished, a beacon of warmth and love amidst his adventurous exploits.

This photo was John's sole keepsake of them together, the singular testament to their intertwined lives. Clutching the child's doll, he felt the weight of memories it carried. Beneath his glove, hidden from the world, lay his ring—a silent vow, a whisper of a life once promised. These items were more than mere objects; they were the guardians of his regrets, the symbols of the heartbreaking truth that he would never see them again.

As tears streamed down his face, soaking into the fabric of the doll, John's whispered apologies filled the quiet of the room. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I couldn't protect you, I failed you both," he repeated, his voice a broken melody of sorrow and guilt. Each word was a testament to his pain, a sorrowful lullaby that spoke of loss, love, and the unbearable weight of his remorse.

The persistent knocking at the door seemed to dissolve into the void of John Dory's grief, his ears deaf to anything beyond the echoes of his own sorrow. When Floyd received no response, driven by concern and impatience, he decided to take matters into his own hands. With a determined push, the door swung open, and he entered the armadillo bus, his presence unannounced

Navigating the stairs proved a challenge, his cane a necessary but cumbersome companion that made the ascent more difficult than usual. However, Floyd's resolve was unwavering. As he entered, he paused, scanning the space with a keen eye. It didn't take long for the muffled sounds of John's despair to guide him towards the loft.

Spotting John, Floyd hastened his pace, an urgency fueled by concern propelling him forward. The ladder to the loft posed another hurdle, but Floyd navigated it with a clumsy determination, mindful of the limited space. John's form occupied most of the loft, leaving Floyd to awkwardly balance on the ladder, his presence now impossible to ignore.

Floyd's heart ached as he witnessed the depth of John's sorrow. With every fiber of his being urging him to offer some solace, he carefully navigated the tight space of the loft, settling near John yet ensuring he respected his need for personal space. In the dim light, Floyd's presence was a silent beacon of empathy and understanding.

"John," Floyd's voice was a soft murmur, a gentle breeze in the stifling air of grief. "I'm here for you." His words floated in the space between them, an offer of support, laden with unspoken promises of companionship through the storm of sorrow.

The loft was cramped, but at that moment, it felt like the entire world had narrowed down to this intimate setting of raw emotions. Floyd, sensitive to John's need for space yet eager to offer comfort, extended a tentative hand but paused, letting it hover in the air for a moment. He wanted to bridge the gap between them, to offer a touch that said everything words could not, but he also understood the sanctity of personal grief. He waited, allowing John to dictate the terms of their interaction.

As the silence stretched on, Floyd remained a steadfast presence, his heart silently breaking for his brother. "If you need anything—a glass of water, or someone to just sit with you—I'm here," he offered softly, his words laced with the warmth of genuine concern.

And so, Floyd waited, a quiet guardian in the night, ready to provide comfort or companionship, to listen or to share the silence. In the loft that night, amidst tears and whispered apologies, the foundation of their friendship deepened, grounded in the understanding that sometimes, just being present is the most profound support one can offer.

John continued to sob into the plushie, his emotions spilling over. Slowly, he rolled over to face Floyd, revealing eyes swollen and red from crying, with tear tracks marking his cheeks. As their gazes met, a fresh wave of tears surged, amplifying John's cries in a heart-wrenching crescendo of grief.

Floyd, moved by the sight of his brother's pain, reached out to pat John on the back, his expression etched with concern. "I couldn't save them. I couldn't protect them. I'm so sorry... I'm so, so sorry," John's voice broke with each word, a confession of his deepest regret.

Floyd, initially puzzled by John's words, followed his gaze to the collage of photos adorning the ceiling above the loft. His eyes settled on the photograph of the woman and the baby, a realization dawning on him. With a heavy heart, he whispered, "Oh... John, I'm so sorry," now understanding the depth of John's loss and the source of his profound sorrow.

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i hope you guys like it :D i have alot of ideas for this au! feel free to give feedback or ask questions

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itsjusta · 3 years

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WEEKLY UPDATE # 9

Dec. 6

I slept good gabii and dali rako ka sleep kos gikan ko cry hahah but my heart is so heavy doe idkkk a lot of thoughts bother me. getting news about your lovelife makes my heart heavy because aishhh but i’m really happy for you doeee

i will try not to cry na cos i’m always crying na doe i look like an idiot naaa i just hope the heaviness goes away cos it’s so lain sa feeling (i cried after dis doe hahaahahah 🥺)

it’s 10:30 am pa but i’m crying na aishhh why i cry in the morning and at night aishhhh why does everything have to hurt this much doe :( i really am happy for you but it hurts so, so much to see you opening your heart and giving your love to another. i’m happy na you’re going to new places and going on adventures that we didn’t have the opportunity na to go to. it hurts na we didn’t have the chance to go to these places together but i hope you fill this new chapter of your life with adventures and i hope you have the best time of your life ❤️ i’ll support u gyd bsag unsa pana 🤗 someday soon, i will get over with all this pain. somedaaaay.

today was just chill but my heart was heavy the whole day. i dont like days these doe but its okay, i will see better days. i just wish btaw na by one year na break nata, i’m gonna be better and you’ll also be genuinely happy na. i hope things will be better for us by then.

also at dinner doe i was pusa-ing the sili in my sauce and i remember when we have sauce kay ako gyd tig lata sa sili cos ma scared ka and imo i cover imo eyes or magpalayo hahahahah aishhh what a scaredy cat 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️

i also looked at mom’s pics in her gallery doe she has pics of us sa house atong mga april and i miss those days aiissshhh i was happy back then, we were happy. i wasn’t dealing with a heartbreak, i was just enjoying quarantine pa and now its been months na so sad and kapoy hayst ux2 ko nalang bumalik :(((((

Dec. 7

separate post hehe

Dec. 8

Woke up with a heavy heart doe. This morning, I asked for strength from the Lord. I have a feeling you and I are gonna undergo a lot of changes doe. idk i’m so weird but i have a feeling you will start to distance yourself from me and it’s gonna be super hard for me gyd so i’m asking na my heart can take the pain 😔

but u know what, i went to the backyard today and i saw na it’s such a beautiful day today doe. the sun is up and it sounds so calm and i realized na i should not waste a beautiful day like this being sad hehe and i wanna say this to u but im shy cos u didnt reply to me na hahaha but i want u to also enjoy this beautiful day!!! ♥️♥️ i hope you will be happy today doe and good luck with everything! (HEY IDIOT U VISITED TUMBLR JUST BEFORE I WROTE THIS PLS COME BACK AND READ THIS PART COS I REALLY WANT U TO READ THIS PARAGRAPH 🥺)

after the sun went down, na sad napd dayon ko doe aishhh i get so annoyed with my thoughts doe cos i always think like where u are, what u doin stuff like dat and it annoys meee cos ako ramay gaka bother nge :((( so i sometimes turn my active status sa messenger off so i dont see nga offline ka or online naka doe aishhhh i hate this brain doe dapat not na sya sge think about saimoha everyday!!!!

also, u played poker tonight and i just wanna tell u to amping pauli doe cos its very gabii na u drive safely okay and i hope u have fun playing but dont gasto too much 🤦🏻‍♀️ i’ll just say this here cos i dont want u to think na im samok samoking u too much hehe pls amping always!

Dec. 9

I went to the backyard again this morning and I talked to the Lord doe and naka cry ko hahah I just told Him everything has been so hard doe and I wish for the bad days to end soon. Right now, I think I’m just borrowing strength nalang gyd from others doe cos my heart is so tired na doeee hehe but i know all of this will end i can fully accept na gyd everything and even then, i will always have love for you. Thank you also doe for giving me strength. 🤗

Today was a better day doeee not so many things running through my mind heheh

Dec. 10

Heyyy thank u so much for today doe and for the gifts heheh i had fun today!!! and i was really happy cos its like our tambays sauna here in the house na we just being idiots lang 🥺 i’m also happy that we’re not awkward doe cos aish dats so lain hahahah

u know i imagined na i would cry a lot this day cos i was planning to tell u gyd like face to face of my feelings, like how i’m so proud of u and how i will always be there but idk i get shy na dayon in person HAHAHAH but i think u got my msg na with the letters doe cry pa gani ka a lot heehhe not my fault 🤪🤪🤪

also i hope not ko ipa maoy2 na dayon the next days cos ang motto raba sako life karon kay happy for 1 day, sad for 1 month! ahhahah grrr 😡 but thank u very much!!!!! dat was a much needed hang out doe thank u ♥️

if u want a break from everything, i’m always just here in the house with the idiot dogs hahahah i’m always here for u doe!

Dec. 11

it’s back to my old life nga wala i look forward again!!! hahahaha 😢😢 I went to the dentist today to pa pasta doe and i tot everything was okay na with dad like balo na sya pila cos mom man nag say saiya doe and mom said okay na but when i said now nga 4,700 tanan including my pills he pamalikas doe i was so bv

i said to mom cancel nalang cos dad was yawyaw na big na daw au gasto saako teeth and i wasn’t the one raba gyd nga nag say magpapasta many it was mom but i thought nag agree najd sila doe aishhh i dont like gyd nga mangayo kwarta kay daddy doe cos it makes me feel utangan and i dont like feeling like dat cos i dont wanna be indebted to him i dont like having connections with him hahahah

i think i cannot have gyd a good relationship with him doe cos i got traumatized by the things he did in the past maybe if i have money na in the future magpa therapy ko doe to resolve issues in my past maybe ma forgive nako sya and ma okay2 nami doe and i think i’ll also become a better person if i can resolve my issues with him doeee

mom also chika that she didnt ila u yesterday abi niya tig deliver ka sa lazada kay ikaw daw nag tunol and nag mask and kalo pa gyd daw ka hhahaha aishhh she just asked a few things also doe hehe u visit dis idiot again soon! i uban2 also to her sa laguindingan naa lang gihatag kay ate sweet

i was also pissed with khalid doe cos he got a task na tig 2000 words each two kabuok and i said 1,500 he said overpriced daw?!?!? he said 1k ra daw kayahay buh!!!!!! aish idk doe if im really overpricing i wanna ask u now but i think u dont wanna talk to me now doe heheh next time nalng if mag talk nata

its gabii na doe and naa ko friend nag chika saiya 2020 tas nag ask sya how my 2020 went issa naka hilak na nuon ko doe cos it makes me cry to remember everything jd HAHAHAH aisshhh imbis wala pako ka cry today 🥺

Dec. 12

good morning!! u amping going to binuangan doe!! 😊

i went to the mall this afternoon i like to lakaw2 cos it takes my mind off things but usahay ra au ko makalakaw aishh

Dec. 13

today was a very boriiing and long day doe nag tan awa rajd ko teen wolf tibuok adlaw as in!!! i also cried for like 5 mins kay mag sleep unta ko pero aish u know what, bisag dugay2 na inani ako life like wala jd koy ka storya whole day, mag tan awa rako, lain gyd ghapon sa feeling doe. it’s like anad naman ko nga inani pero dili gihapon ko anad nga i feel so empty doe like idkkk hollow lang jd ang feeling :((

i just miss really being happy gyd doeee now i mostly feel like okay lang or sad. usahay lang ko ma happy but not gyd genuinely happy and it still makes me cry doe loollzzttt days like these i really want someone to say na all will be okay, but ako nalang gyd mag tell sa ako self ana doe cos days like these all i got is myself gyd

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evanesdust · 5 years

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of soulmates and assumptions

a soulmates au for @stacinadia and @sterek-events2019

thank you to @allourheroes, @novkat21, and @welshwoman1988 for helping me smash this together

Words: ~2500

Rating: General Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Relationships: Derek Hale/Stiles Stilinski

Characters: Derek Hale, Stiles Stilinski, Laura Hale, Scott McCall (Teen Wolf), Erica Reyes, Vernon Boyd

Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Soulmates, Alternate Universe - High School, Mates Derek Hale/Stiles Stilinski, Angst, Happy Ending

Summary: It’s the first day of school and Derek should be happy and excited. He’s finally a senior. His final year of school before he’s free. Instead though, he’s met with a strange burning on his wrist.

‘Yeah, right’

Derek stares down at the apparent first words his soulmate will speak to him as they etch across his wrist. It doesn’t hurt as much as he’s been told. At least not the mark itself, but the words… Those hurt. As a werewolf, he’s naturally blessed with a muscular physique and he’s been called attractive enough times that he’s never really been self-conscious. Looking at the words though, he wonders why they seem so…snarky? Like he’s not good enough. *also on ao3

art by JD Gray - Twitter/Instagram

It’s the first day of school and Derek should be happy and excited. He’s finally a senior. His final year of school before he’s free. Instead, though, he’s met with a strange burning on his wrist.

‘Yeah, right’

Derek stares down at the apparent first words his soulmate will speak to him as they etch across his wrist. It doesn’t hurt as much as he’s been told. At least not the mark itself, but the words… Those hurt. As a werewolf, he’s naturally blessed with a muscular physique, and he’s been called attractive enough times that he’s never really been self-conscious. Looking at the words though, he wonders why they seem so…snarky? Like he’s not good enough.

“Wow! So it finally happened, huh?”

Derek looks up with a shrug, holding his arm out for his older sister to see. “It doesn’t really seem like they’ll like me.”

“Oh, come on, baby bro… You can’t start assuming. Maybe you ask them a question and ‘yeah right’ is their response?”

Derek snorts. “Yeah, right.” He winces only slightly when she punches him in the arm. Sometimes Laura forgets that as the alpha in training, she’s stronger than him. Or maybe she knows and doesn’t care. He can only assume.

“Seriously, Der. They wouldn’t be your soulmate if you couldn’t get along.”

“I know, Laura, but getting along doesn’t necessarily mean love, it could just be platonic. That’s a thing!”

“That’s rare, Derek. Especially for us. I don’t think there’s ever been a case where a werewolf’s soulmate wasn’t also their mate.”

“I just—” The alarm on his phone beeps. “Shit, I gotta go. Talk more later?” He grabs his bag and heads out.

The first part of the day, he reads the words over and over, playing out all the possible scenarios in his mind, including what Laura suggested... But for some reason, his mind trails back to possible rejection. He’s never really been rejected before. Not that he’s really done anything to warrant it. Knowing that soulmates exist, most people don’t date around knowing it will only end in heartbreak. And for ‘wolves more so, because they mate for life.

At lunch, he sits with his friends and tries talking to Erica and Boyd about it, or rather he talks to Erica and at Boyd.

“You’re reading too much into it, Derek. Right, Boyd?” Erica looks over at the soulmate she was lucky enough to meet in middle school. Boyd, stoic as ever, just nods in agreement. “Listen, there’s no use worrying about it. It’s two words. I mean, without known inflection, it can mean a lot of things.” She pats him on the shoulder. “Seriously, Derek. Look around you. I doubt there’s a person in this school who doesn’t know your name. And that’s not just because of your looks, or sports, or your family. You’re a great guy.”

Trying not to roll his eyes, he fails and earns himself a punch in the shoulder. Laura would be proud. “Fine. I’ll try.”

And he does. Try that is. Instead of brooding over the possibility of rejection, Derek spends the rest of the day wondering when he’ll meet them. Studies into soulmates have never been conclusive in showing a correlation between when you get your words and when you meet in person. His own parents met within minutes, the words not yet fully formed on their wrists, while Laura didn’t meet her soulmate for almost a week.

Will his soulmate be male? Female? Not that he really cares. Derek can’t help but speculate on who the universe has decided is the other half of his soul.

He’s so lost in concentration by the end of the day, that he’s not paying attention to where he’s going. There’s a grunt as he collides with another student on his way out of the building. Kneeling down, he grabs the books that were dropped. Wanting to apologize, Derek glances up, but the words are lost as he stares into the bright, amber eyes of a young boy. A smile plays at his lips. Derek’s never seen someone so beautiful, but before he has a chance to say anything, the boy gapes at him, letting out a small squeak. The books are snatched from Derek’s hands, and he watches as the boy runs down the hall.

His wolf scratches at the surface, wanting to give chase, a feeling he’s never really experienced before. Closing his eyes, Derek forces himself to count to ten before standing. Werewolves might be known and accepted, but that didn’t mean he could just wolf out at school because some kid ran away from him. He doubts they’d let him play organized sports if that were the case. With a heavy sigh, Derek counts to ten again before making his way to his car.

* With no help from his friends, Derek spends the rest of the week trying to find the boy. It would probably be easier if he had scented him that first day, but sometimes the scents at school can be so overwhelming that it’s best if he ‘turns off his nose,’ so to speak. Probably a freshman, Derek thinks. It would make sense as to why Derek can’t find him and also why he hadn’t seen him before. Honestly, all Derek wants to do is properly apologize for scaring the kid. Okay, he might also want to memorize the pattern of moles that were strewn across an impossibly adorable face, but he’s not about to admit that. By the time Friday comes around, Derek’s almost given up. Until, that is, a body slams into him.

“Oof!”

Derek tries to grab at the flailing limbs in an attempt to steady the person when he realizes that it’s the boy. The boy! His heart beats rapidly. “I found you again,” he whispers, subconsciously pulling the boy close. His wolf preens and his mind screams matematemate. Smiling down at the boy, Derek wonders if he feels the connection, too. He’s feeling hopeful with the smile that’s returned. But then he hears it: a scoff.

“Yeah, right.”

There’s laughter and mocked annoyance in the boy’s eyes. An ice cold feeling washes over him. Soulmate. Somehow, he’d already made a horrible impression, and his assumptions were correct. He wasn’t wanted. Releasing the boy, he mutters an apology before rushing away.

Bursting through the doors, he doesn’t bother undressing as his wolf breaks free, shredding his clothes. Confusion takes over. He’d forgotten about the words, about his soulmate in his search for the beautiful boy. Not that it mattered since they were one and the same. Not that it mattered since he was rejected...

* It would stand to reason that since Derek is now actively trying to avoid him, the boy is suddenly everywhere. Derek sees him when he pulls into the parking lot, in the halls between class, the lunchroom, when he leaves at the end of the day, even now in the school library where he’s trying to study. He would think that maybe the boy was looking for him, if not for the fact that every time he sees Derek, he pales and turns the other way.

The boy sits a few tables away, laying his books out, not having seen Derek…yet. Derek tries not to stare, but it’s hard when the pull is so strong. Knowing now that this boy is his soulmate, his wolf is howling to be close. He should leave. He knows this. Willing his feet to move, Derek grunts in frustration at their lack of cooperation.

The noise he makes draws unwanted attention as the boy’s eyes flitter towards him. Those eyes go wide in recognition. Derek shakes his head, trying to let the boy know that he’s not a threat, he won’t approach, but it useless as he gathers his belongings.

Derek stares down at the table wondering where he went wrong. It had been an accident that first day, bumping into him. He would have apologized, but the boy left so fast. And the second time… Well, he’d rather not think about the rejection. With the boy gone, his legs miraculously work again. Gathering his notebook and papers, Derek closes his bag.

Deciding to drop by his locker, Derek hears hushed voices as he heads down the hall. With his enhanced senses, he can tell it’s two boys speaking hurriedly.

“—him off, dude. And I don’t even know what I did. And now he’s everywhere!”

“You ran away from him, Stiles. He’s a werewolf! You probably offended him.”

There’s a familiar scoff. Shit. Of course, it would be the boy. His soulmate.

“I didn’t mean to offend him! And that’s not… I meant after that! He ran from me. I just— Of all people to have as a soulmate… I didn’t think it’d be him! I mean, have you seen him?!”

His heart breaks a little at the words. They’re like a nail in the coffin of a relationship that will never be. No matter how many times Laura or Erica tried to dissuade him, tell him he was wrong, the boy just confirmed everything he’d assumed. ‘I didn’t think it’d be him’ plays like an unwanted song stuck in his head, over and over again. The rest of the conversation is tuned out. It’s not until Derek hears someone approach from behind that he’s broken out of his reverie.

Unfortunately, the exit to the parking lot is down the hall from his locker, so there’s no way he can avoid passing the two boys. Not wanting to be caught eavesdropping, he rounds the corner loudly to make his presence known. They stand on the opposite side of the hall from his locker. His soulmate visibly pales at the sight of him, it’s enough to make his stomach churn.

He almost decides to head straight outside, but since he’s already there and it’s already awkward, Derek stops and opens his locker. Knowing now the sound of his mate’s voice, he can hear the boy whisper, “Scotty, Scotty, what do I do?”

“I don’t know. Probably not whisper because he is a werewolf and can hear everything we’re saying.” Smart kid.

“Fine! Just go, okay? I’m gonna try and talk to him.”

Giving some semblance of normalcy to the situation, Derek stays facing his locker as he listens to the boy come closer while his friend recedes.

A throat is cleared, and Derek can hear the boy-- Stiles, gulp. “So, uh, ahem. Hi.”

Derek turns, being sure to school his features. “Listen. Whatever you think—” He huffs out a breath. “We don’t have to do this. I get that I’m not what you had in mind for a soulmate. So you can just forget about it. I’ll be fine.” Turning back to his locker, he slams it shut.

Before he can make an exit, a strong hand grips his arm. Derek looks down at it—the boy is stronger than he looks. He has to clench his jaw and fight to stop his wolf from jumping proudly at having a suitable mate.

The boy steps back, face blanched. “Listen, just— I’m sorry,” long, slender fingers card through a mess of chestnut locks, “about the other day. The other other day. When I ran from you? I didn’t mean to, I just—” Worried eyes follow his own, and for some reason, Derek knows he can’t escape, that the boy won’t let him.

Letting out a defeated sigh, he softens his expression. “It’s alright. I understand. I didn’t mean to scare you that first day.” He presses back against the lockers, sliding to sit on the floor.

The boy watches him, eyes no longer worried, but…hopeful? Derek can’t tell. “You didn’t. You didn’t scare me. I mean, yeah, you’re all like big and growly, but—” Derek feels a press against him as the boy slides down next to him. “Look, can we... Can we just start over? I feel like there’s been a misunderstanding here.”

Derek nods, facing the boy. “Sure.”

“Okay, well, hi. I’m Stiles.”

His lips twitch at the bright smile he receives from the boy. “Hi, Stiles. I’m Derek.”

“Good. Now that that’s outta the way…” Stiles fiddles with the sleeves of his shirt, pulling them up, revealing his wrist. Derek reads the words he uttered just the day before ‘I found you again’ etched onto the skin. Rolling up his own sleeves, he holds his arm out in front of Stiles. Electricity courses through his body when Stiles’ fingers wrap around his wrist. “So… Soulmates…”

“It doesn’t…”

“Whoa, just—” Derek watches as Stiles bites at his lips. Very pink, soft-looking lips. Kissable. He has to suppress a groan. It’s neither the time nor the place. And even if it were, it’d be completely unwanted. “See there. Look, I don’t even know you and I can already tell you’re overthinking something.”

“I’m not—”

“Dude, I don’t even have to be a ‘wolf to tell that’s a lie.”

“Fine!” he bites out. Derek can feel the heat rise, embarrassment flooding his face. “You said ‘yeah, right,’ like you couldn’t believe you got stuck with me as your soulmate.”

“That,” Stiles holds his hands out, palms up, “can be interpreted many ways. I mean, no, I kinda can’t believe I got you as my soulmate. But that’s because one, you are a senior and I am but a lowly freshman. Two,” Stiles points to him, “I believe you are captain of the basketball team, football team, and the swim team? Yeah, I know who you are, Derek Hale. Whereas I, Stiles Stilinski, am captain of… Well, nothing yet. But I will be captain of the debate team and mathletes, and I’ll probably join the science club. Don’t laugh.”

Derek tries to interrupt, to say he wouldn’t dare, but Stiles holds a finger to his lips and, quite frankly, he’s too shocked at the gesture to do anything but remain silent.

“And three, have you looked in the mirror lately? I mean, come on?!” Stiles flails his arms between the two of them. “You! Werewolf, jock, the physical embodiment of Adonis. Me. Human, nerd, 147 pounds of pale skin and fragile bone.”

“I think you’re beautiful...” Derek stares at the ground with his pronouncement, still scared of what he’ll see in his soulmate’s eyes.

The hall goes silent but for the rapid beating of their hearts. “So… We’re soulmates. But more than that… Mates, right?” Unable to speak, Derek nods. Fingers touch his chin, tilting his face up to stare into confident eyes. Warmth floods his heart as he listens to the words accompanied by a steady heartbeat. “Good, because I’d really like to get to know you.”

Derek leans into the hand still on his face, relishing in his mate’s touch. “I’d like that, too.”

#sterek #sterek au #sterekisourdestiny #stacinadia

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hamliet · 5 years

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Scrubs (yes the sitcom)

Seasons 1-8 since we’re not touching season 9 and its new cast.

A sitcom that, by its fourth episode, showed (as it would continue to show) that it was at its best when it was at its most heartbreaking, because those were often the moments that it was also at its most heartwarming. The theme of “My Old Lady” (the fourth episode) is really that you can’t save everyone and death is indeed scary (a recurring theme in Scrubs), and you have to acknowledge that. But even in that fear, there are beautiful moments too, and taking the time to breathe and feel the sun and find something warm even in those moments can get you through them.

Dr. Kelso, Dr. Cox, Jordan, Elliott, Turk, and Carla were my favorite characters, though everyone was well done, from JD to Laverne to the Janitor. Jordan was just... an enjoyable twist on the devil woman archetype. For that matter, almost every character was really a hyperbolic, exaggerated character for comedic effect. Elliott’s eccentricities, Kelso’s cruelty, Cox’s grumpiness, Ted’s cowardice and incompetence, Todd’s sexuality, JD’s need for approval--they were all exaggerated for comedic purposes (which ties into why things weren’t ruined for me with those characters, but they could be for other people and it’s legit if so). Elliott was relatable in her anxieties, her parental issues, her relationship struggles. Cox’s breakdown in season 5 really got me, and Laverne--along with Turk and Cox’s sister Paige--all had their faith treated as an important part of their character just as Cox’s atheism was an important part of his, which I appreciated. Everyone was respected.

i also enjoyed how different seasons focused on slowly building up towards a breakdown of different characters. For example, Carla and Turk in season 4, JD and Cox in season 5 (kept focusing more than normal on his arrogance and that went places). The relationships were also really well written and enjoyable. From the Janitor and Lady, to Ted and Gooch, to Cox and Jordan, Elliott and JD, and of course Carla and Turk, each couple had their own unique foiling and unique strengths that made them appealing together. Their personalities always remained unique, but together they made something beautiful. And the friendships were just as powerful.

I appreciated that a main theme was that there are no easy answers. Be it professionally, relationally, grief, marriage, parenting--nothing is easy, but that doesn’t mean it’s miserable either. As Dr. Kelso says in season 4, “nothing worth having comes easy.” The nuance was great in this show. For me in particular, the episodes that focused on grief (and a LOT of them did) were incredibly cathartic and healing for me, as I’ve been working through my dad’s death over the past year.

The show was really good. The soundtrack was always on point--music as a whole was brilliantly used in this series. I highly recommend it if you want a feel-good show that doesn’t avoid even the darker aspects of life, and if you’re wrangling with grief.

Of course, it’s got its issues too. It hasn’t aged well, like at all, in how it portrays race and especially in its portrayal of sexual harassment. Todd Quinlan is basically Mineta from BNHA as a doctor--but somehow still likable/has redeeming qualities. STill, Todd’s actions are really despicable (as are Dr. Kelso’s towards his wife) even while played for comedy, and none of these things would fly today as funny, nor should they. But within the context of the series as a whole, in my personal opinion they didn’t ruin it for me even if I cringed. I still liked Todd and loved Dr. Kelso as characters.

Season 8 in particular was weaker than the other seasons, and if it weren’t for the writer’s strike in season 7 which cut it very short, I kind of think season 7 would have wrapped the show up. Season 8 had less budget, so the main characters didn’t always appear in episodes, and the jokes were a bit more... insensitive/cheap rather than clever like in the past (it switched networks between seasons 7 and 8 too). That being said, Season 8 did magnificently conclude the characters’ arcs, with Kelso stepping into a mentor role and a new friendship with Cox, to Cox and Jordan’s relationship, Carla and Turk’s, Elliott finding her worth and feeling as if it was okay to chase her desires, Ted and the Janitor both finding love with Gooch and Lady respectively, and everyone passing the torch to the new interns, wherein our cast became the teachers.

For my favorite episodes:

My Old Lady (season 1 episode 4). This episode really set the whole theme and tone of the show, and deserved the award it won.

My Own Personal Jesus (season 1 episode 11). A hilarious rendition of “The Twelve Days of Christmas” and the really cool theme of Christmas spirit made this great.

My Dream Job (season 2 episode 22). The last minutes of this episode were pure satisfactory gold that also marked a really important step in Dr. Cox’s, Elliott’s, and Dr. Kelso’s characters, and honestly JD’s as well. Also Ryan Reynolds guest-stars.

My Own American Girl (season 3 episode 1). This is one of the few ones on here for mostly comedy. “My machines!” is one of the funniest scenes I’ve ever seen.

My Brother Where Art Thou (Season 3 episode 5). Scrubs has a habit of doing excellent mini, cross-season arcs with its minor characters, and JD’s brother Dan had a great arc that continued in every episode he appeared in over the seasons. But his moment with Dr. Cox at the end makes this my favorite of the Dan episodes.

My Friend, the Doctor (season 3 episode 8). I loved the development for the Janitor.

My Screw-Up (season 3 episode 14). Like with Dan, Ben’s episodes as the brother of Jordan and best friend of Dr. Cox all really stood out, and this one’s twist at the end, plus expert foreshadowing, made it fantastic viewing.

My Boss’ Free Haircut (season 4 episode 20). Dr. Kelso’s humanity begins to emerge more, and his speech to his patient and to Turk is what I referenced above. It also deals with Carla and Turk’s marital issues in an empathetic way, and Carla is given room to grieve for her mom in a way that really resonated with me.

My New God (season 5 episode 5). Cox’s reveal of his childhood and interactions with Paige--a character who easily could have been played for ridicule but was instead given empathy for her beliefs just as Cox was--resonated with me.

My Bright Idea (season 5 episode 16). From JD’s hilarious slip-up in front of the priest to Carla and Turk’s pregnancy reveal in the episode’s final episodes, it was golden all the way through. I cried from happiness in this episode.

My Lunch & My Fallen Idol (season 5 episodes 20-21). I don’t remember the last time I cried so hard at a show/movie since Hodor died in Game of Thrones. It was based on a real case, and helped me cope with my own grief, in addition to giving a powerful development to Cox and JD’s relationship. I think these are the two best episodes.

My Musical (season 6 episode 6). Despite the idea of making an episode a musical, the premise for why it was a musical was clever, and the songs (”Guy Love” in particular) were hilarious.

My Long Goodbye (season 6 episode 15). Within a week of watching “My Lunch,” I watched this one and cried just as hard. This episode and the one that comes before it are really powerful, but they hurt.

My Cold Shower (Season 6 episode 19). Despite Elliott making a mistake, the way her friends are all genuinely happy for her and JD’s realization in the end that he loves her were... moving.

My Dumb Luck (season 7 episode 9). The episode that shows you just how much Dr. Kelso developed, from character you loved because you hated him to character you saw how much he cared. It was the perfect development for him.

My Princess (season 7 episode 11). A really clever use of a fairy-tale AU, and a powerful story too that allowed for Jordan and Cox to have one of their more humanizing, tender moments. Yet again, in the end though, the implications aren’t that you can save everyone, but even in failure, there’s something to believe in.

My Full Moon (season 8, episode 13) On the whole I think season 8 is the weakest of the acknowledged seasons (I’ve no interest in season 9) but it does have some really lovely conclusions, like I said, and this one concluded Elliott’s arc in a satisfying way. As she’s one of my faves, and as it has a really well-acted scene where she tells a patient they are HIV positive (as HIV awareness and decreasing the stigma are very important to me), it’s one of my favorites.

My Finale (Part 2) (season 8, episode 19) A really excellent final scene and a powerful series message.

#scrubs #hamliet reviews #elliott reid #john dorian #chris turk #carla espinosa #perry cox #jordan sullivan #kelso

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lizardxlizard · 5 years

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hewwo have any of your ocs gone through serious heartbreak over a bad friendship/relationship ending? ik thats hella random but i want more lore on them all bc theyre Good

hmmm there’s some odds and ends with my ot3 coming to mind but all of that is really just some scenarios or different AUs I’ve thought of that I spiced with hashtag drama…as much as I love them together I also explore them fighting/breaking up/etc because it helps me flesh them out

ALSO canonly my reaper girl Angel went full T Swift ‘Look What you Made Me Do’ when her dearest love JD ran away went missing. It’s actually going to be a main part of the plot with that group of ocs hahahaaa

#liz answers #in their original canon story Jet and Krystal have a fight but spoilers they eventually work it out :'0 #ik it's hard to imagine Jet being mad but I've written instances specifically to understand what would push him to be mad

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pop-a-caprica · 6 years

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I am so so sorry to all of you Major Crimes fans...(sympathy from the BSG fandom)

I’m so so sorry to all of you Major Crimes fans. First I want to start off by saying I have never been a fan of the show and I don’t think I have ever sat through an entire episode. Crime drama is just not my thing and despite being a huge fan of Mary’s the writing just never worked for me. The few times I tried to watch it the dialogue seemed contrived and dull. Mary shined but that was it. I don’t know much about the head writer but from what I’ve seen of his work he has more than just the travesty he bestowed upon all of you to be sorry for. Still, even though I didn’t like the show I was so happy to see Mary working hard and happily for the most part. I followed your blogs to see your stunning screen shots of her each week b/c I truly have missed Mary since BSG ended and I enjoy seeing her gorgeous face all over my feed. Along with all of those screen shots, gif sets, promo shots and works of fan art I have seen the level of passion within the MC fandom. I didn’t always understand it but I felt it without even being part of it. It was that evident.

When it became clear that the show might soon end I remember all of the comments and posts I was reading all over. A few times I made jokes or teased the MC fandom about the end of their beloved show in order to lighten the mood. I kept telling fans to take a page out of the BSG fan handbook and start a perpetual loop of watching season 1 episode 1 all the way to the finale for the rest of your lives like many of us BSG fans do. Mary even replied to my joke and laughed along once on instagram which made my heart skip a beat for sure! The thing is, after seeing all of your heartbroken reactions today I understand why it just won’t be as easy for fans of MC to do rewatches as it is for BSG fans.

You were lied to and that sucks. As BSG fans we were told from day 1; Laura is going to die, Laura will die, Laura must die, it’s her fate, it’s her role to play, her destiny, it’s going to happen. And even after years of that it still hurt to watch a beloved character pass away. I can’t imagine being promised that she would live only to watch her suffer and die anyway. That was low and I’m sorry that was done to your fandom.

I think the other difference is the purpose; the art, the symbolism, the meaning of the death…Laura Roslin’s death hurt like hell and it still does every time I watch it, but GOOD GODS was it one of the most BEAUTIFUL FRAKKING things I have ever seen. Laura Roslin’s fate of death gave her life and her hard work and suffering validity. It confirmed parts of her faith and though heartbreaking, it gave her a chance to rest after all of her struggles, loss and sacrifice. Laura’s death was supposed to happen. Sharon’s, from what I can tell, just wasn’t.

I trust your reactions and opinions. This was obviously not supposed to be the character’s fate. It did nothing to honor her life, it simply took it away. It left a darkness in the MC universe where Laura’s death left the light and hope of the future in the crazy mixed up world of BSG. For that I am also so so sorry to the fandom.

My heart hurts for Mary who seems to be doing her DAMNEDEST not to call this what it is. No matter how much she is trying to stick up for her team of co-workers it is evident that she’s upset, hurt and maybe a little bit angry. I just read her FB post and I think that much is obvious. Not only was her character killed off, she wasn’t even able to finish out the season. That’s mind blowing. It makes me grateful that though the pile of rocks on Laura’s grave were painful to see, at least they appeared in the very last seconds of the story. I’m so sorry for Mary and for all of you that she didn't get to finish this one out. I think she’s hurting and I’m not sure whether or not all of the tears and rage of her fans is helping her or making it worse BUT I think it’s really special that she is so connected to the MC fandom and that she is literally going through this WITH all of you through the blessing of social media.

I’m sorry for the actual hurt this has caused many of you. I hope and pray we can all follow Mary McDonnell to another project and continue to support this wonderful actress that our two fandoms share.

Many of you I’m sure are also BSG fans but if you are not please consider watching the show despite knowing that Mary’s character dies. You will never see a better example of her skill and heart as an actor. She is breathtaking in every episode. Laura Roslin is one of the most hauntingly beautiful and complex characters I have ever come across and if you haven’t yet I encourage you to watch and follow her to her end b/c that was a death worth living for.

Your fandom may have left a bad taste in your mouth but remember the good times in the height of your enjoyment and try to rewatch those episodes once you are ready. They still hold all of that beautiful talent and energy.If you are the creative type get your emotions out via fan art or fanfic! Fanfic is such a wonderful tool to use with these characters that we grow so attached to.

Many of you, I know already indulge in it! There are pages and pages of content waiting to be written by someone with the heart to do it and waiting to be read by those with the love for the MC universe. Write what JD didn’t. Write alternate endings, write AUs, write fantasy case files, write corny crack baby fic for frak sake! Just put your hurt to the page and make it something your fellow fans can still enjoy and consume. Don’t abandon the fandom b/c it didnt go well in the end. When the time is right fix it your way and encourage others who also choose to fix in their own way too. I think it might help.

I’m deeply sorry for your loss. Heal together, help Mary heal with your support and please know that your BSG cousins are here for you!

Thanks for letting me see into the Major Crimes fandom over the years, @roslins-lone-sentinel @cylonraydor @maryfrakkingmcdonnell @marymcmagic-hair @shandynumberonefan @annistheanxious @yeahmarymcdonnellandtelevision @fragrantwoods @neverlendbooks and any other blogs I left out or that I have looked at over the years but not followed. Thanks for keeping Mary in my life.

#bsg spoilers #major crimes #sharon raydor #laura roslin #battlestar galactica #mary mcdonnell #fan love #sympathetic post #bsg #major crimes spoilers

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lostinthought1006 · 6 years

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Hello, Heathers... *insert related joke*

I've been listening to the Heathers soundtrack and I liked it and am currently obsessed with it. Sure, it had super explicit content but hey, as long as it's catchy! I know this musical already been going on for some time like 4 years ago but I'm taking my introduction to musicals one at a time (since I've just known Hamilton: The Musical last year) so I decide to try to listen to this and see what's all the fuss is about and guess what, I'm 17. Here's my list of opinions for all the songs of Heathers:

1. Beautiful = my god it's beautiful relatable especially since I'm on Senior HS 11th Grade. I describe myself as Martha btw

2. Candy Store = Sassy, Sooo catchy but...the content is not suitable for me cuz gosh the Heathers are scary if irl still I enjoy it(?)

3. Fight for Me = Cute and endearing, you can really feel Veronica's swoon over JD

4. Freeze your Brain = can't believe your passion can be turn into an unconventional love song (JD x 7/11 slushie)

5. Big Fun = it really sounds like BIG FUN, again not my type coz I'm an introvert and everything but sure is fun to be at parties *sigh*my sad life :')

6. Dead Girl Walking = Kinky af like what the hell, first time listening to this got me flustered, well then what about the live one 😐😳😲😅😂 hope my parents won't see me watching it

7. Me Inside of Me = who knew you can give a mythic bitch a good side...one word... *corn nuts*

8. Blue = WEIRDEST SONG in the soundtrack, this also got me flustered

9. Our Love is God = from a melancholic love song which then became darker at the end too quick

10. My Dead Gay Son = I imagine a fancy dancer complete with suit and tie and top hat dancing rhythmically to this song for some reason...

11. Seventeen = the best song, srsly I LOVE THIS SONG 😍 too bad it's all for naught

12. Shine a Light = yet again I imagine a musical social gathering/therapy session where the host perks everything up 'cause only there are cams

13. Lifeboat = sadly relatable *joins the McNamara protection squad*

14. Shine a Light(reprise) = terrifying, and the mythic bitch title is passed on to H. Duke

15. Kindergarten Boyfriend = Martha is just a sweet adorable little sweetheart, she doesn't deserve such heartbreak 😢

16. Yo Girl = the song in which it's so tense you'll eventually lash out, like the feeling of hectic schedules, stress and demands in life all piled up on your back

17. Meant to be Yours = JD is a psycho, that is all

18. Dead Girl Walking(reprise) = you go girl! *we're gonna rise up it's time to take a shot!*...oops,wrong musical

19. I am Damaged = aren't we all??

20. Seventeen(reprise) = *speechless....lie on the floor, try not to cry, cries... chants Beautiful while reflecting over life*

Also, I'm doing a crossover AU over this and SVTFOE which is a thing I do sorry not sorry also goes for SU but it's more of a miscellaneous thing coz I already had a ton of AU/crossover of SU and Hamilton which I might upload headcanons and fan-arts eventually...if I had time. Examinations are just around the corner 😲🔫

#heathers #Heathers the musical #Broadway musical #long post sort of #Hamilton #hamilton the musical #star vs the forces of evil #svtfoe #su #au #crossover

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