Hey bell!! Can I have more touch starved Richie headcanons in a relationship with Eddie?? Like a reddie relationship. If you can’t that’s totally okay. Thank you
The funny thing is, Eddiedoesn’t know a single about dating.
When should hand-holding turn tokissing? When should kissing turn to kissing? The kind with tongue androaming hands? How many dates should you even go on before you areactually dating? You know, before you can go around telling people that you’rein a relationship? That you have a boyfriend? That you are someone’sboyfriend?
Answer: Eddie doesn’t know.
But here he is, in the stillnessof his bedroom, guiding Richie’s arms around him, like this…dating andtouching and romantic affection…like those things are hard-wired so far intohim they’re second nature.
“You can touch me,Richie,” he whispers. Feels the warmth ofRichie’s hands on his hips as Eddie guides them there. “You know that,right? I want you to touch me.”
And Eddie can see the hesitancein Richie’s expression, as those wide, warm eyes drop to where his hands nowgrip Eddie’s waist. He can see the way a muscle jumps in Richie’s jaw as ittightens, the way Richie’s Adam’s apple bobs as he swallows roughly. And hebleeds a kind of nervous energy that buzzes at a high frequency, but beneath itall there’s something much deeper. His fingertips sink into Eddie’s back, eyesdarken, unwavering. And Eddie knows there’s a want, a low hum of desire,existing there too.
Eddie breathes, “do youwant me to touch you?”
And Richie nods. Quiet and timidand not like himself. Because phsyical contact is something of which he’s beenstarved, and something of which he’s become scared.
Eddie knows that Richie is anaturally affectionate person. That when Richie was a child, he would cling tofather’s legs and smack wet kisses onto his mother’s arms. And he knows thatRichie’s parents’ would scold him for doing so.
“Don’t hug me, Richie,you’re all dirty,” his motherwould say, dusting herself off. “I don’t like it when you kiss me. Kissyour toys instead.”
“Not now, Richie,” his father would say, pushing Richie away. “Youknow you’re supposed to leave me alone while I’m working. Go and play outside,I need some quiet.”
They were distant and cold. Andnot at all made for Richie.
Because Richie was open andwarm, and would sling his arm around Bill’s shoulders while they walked, andpunch Mike’s arm while they joked, and squeeze Bev’s arm while they talked. Buthis friends were not as likely to return the affection in kind, and would, moreoften than not, playfully push him away - “you’re like a fucking leech,sometimes,” Stan had laughed once, shoving Richie’s chin off hisshoulder, “always stuck to something.”
Not because they didn’t likehim, but because they were different to him - not quite so touchy, orphysically affectionate. Because they were friends, and friends joked aroundlike that. Because they didn’t understand that Richie touched them because hewas deprived of it.
(And you can’t blame them, butEddie still feels guilty whenever he thinks of all those times he had shruggedRichie off, swatted his hands away, deprived him even further).
Now, though. Now that Eddieunderstands, now that he and Richie are dating, he’s going to make it up tohim. He’s going to feed into this craving until Richie can no longer rememberwhat it feels like to be starved.
But he has to get Richie overhis fear of rejection first.
The thing is, is takes more thanjust a night in your bedroom, slipping your hands under your boyfriend’s shirt,and telling him that it’s okay for him to touch you back, for your boyfriend tosuddenly drop all those years of being told get off me, don’t touch me, goaway, and become someone who can touch you without the constant worry thatyou’ll say all those things too. (Especially since, at once point, you havesaid all those things).
So Richie is still hesitant.
They’re out with the Losers, ona windy day at the Barrens, and Richie’s gaze lands on him, darts away, andfinds its way back. Skittish, nervous. Wanting something. And so Eddie stepscloser, until their sides are pressed together, feels Richie stiffen and then,slowly, relax.
They’re at the cinema, waitingin a line that almost goes out the door, and Richie sways, brow furrowed, asthough deciding something. And then he’s placing his hand on the small ofEddie’s back. Fingertips first, touch so light Eddie almost doesn’t feel it.Then the flat of his palm, warm and steady.
It’s always little touches.Eddie loops his arms through Richie’s while they walk. Richie brushes a strandof hair from Eddie’s face after they kiss. And Eddie gets it, he does. But hewants more. And he thinks Richie wants more too.
Sometimes, Richie comes overwhen things at home are rough.
Tonight, he stumbles throughEddie’s window, staggers on his feet, and tugs frustratedly at his hair.
“Bad?” Eddie whispers,from where he’s sitting on his bed. Knees brought up to his chest.
Richie drops his hand, his hairsticking up around his forehead, and finds Eddie’s gaze in the dim light. AndEddie watches, as though in slow motion, as Richie’s shoulders loosen under hisdark hoodie. The pent up anger in his chest deflates, and the corner ofRichie’s small, sad smile glints in the moonlight.
“The worst,” Richiereplies. He moves close enough that his knees knock against the end of the bed.Eddie wraps his arms tighter around his knees, sweaty palms seeping into thebare skin of his legs. Heart tight under the uncertain look Richie pulls andpushes his way.
The span of the mattress, with its twists andtwirls of rumpled sheets, Eddie’s deep blue duvet cover, is an ocean betweenthem.
“Come and sit withme,” Eddie says. Damp hand flattening against the cold and empty spacebeside him. Because, especially after spending a night with his parents, whoscold and push and drive Richie back into that space where he feels like no onewants to be near him, Richie needs an invitation.
And Richie kicks off his shoes,and then the mattress is dipping and creaking under Richie’s weight, and thespace is no longer cold and empty.
“I’m really sorry aboutthis, Eds,” Richie says. He pulls his knees up to his chest and wraps hisarms around them. So they are warped reflections of each other, Richie andEddie, sitting side by side. Feet crossed at the ankles, and gazes drawn to thedusting of silver light at the bed’s end.
Eddie glances at Richie withoutmoving his head, studies the tightness in Richie’s beautiful jaw. “Aboutwhat? Your parents? You can’t control that, Richie. And you know I want youcome to here when they’re being horrible.”
“No…no, Eddie, it’s notthat.” Richie hangs his head, sucks in a deep breath. And then he meetsEddie’s gaze, eyes as dark as the night. Pulls Eddie in until he’s submerged intheir murky depths. And with his head underwater, with all sounds dampened, theconnection between them feels heightened, and Eddie knows. Knows that Richie issorry he hesitated at the end of the bed. Is sorry that he couldn’t sit withEddie without asking. That he’s left a gap between them as they sit now.
“You know,” Richiecontinues, “on my way here, I couldn’t stop thinking about holding you. Ijust really, really wanted to be close to you. But when I’m with you I get soscared…”
“Richie -”
“And it’s so fuckingstupid, I know.” Richie looks away, rakes his fingers through his hair.“But I can’t stop myself from thinking that if I touch you, you’ll push meaway.”
Sometimes, words come shaped asknives, and they stab you right beneath your heart.
Eddie places a hand on Richie’sarm, on the warm, fuzzy fabric of his hoodie. “But I won’t,” heassures him gently. “You know that. I told you. I want you to touchme, Richie. I want you to hold me.”
Beneath his palm, Richie isstiff. Eddie pauses a moment, considering, and then he tugs Richie’s arm, pullshim down so they’re lying together. And Richie looks at him, with a sadness inhis eyes, one side of his face buried in the soft pillows, hair fanning overthe white covers.
Eddie reaches out, and runs hisfingers through the curls above Richie’s ear. Heart mimicking the way Richie’seyelids flutter.
“I’ll tell you thateveryday if I have to,” Eddie whispers. Fingertips grazing over Richie’sforehead as he brushes away a stray curl.
“You might have to,”Richie says, huffs a flat laugh. “Sorry.”
Eddie lets his fingers traildown along Richie’s temple, over the softness of his cheek, the peach fuzz nearhis jaw. And Richie is trying, trying to watch him, as though he doesn’twant to look away from Eddie’s face, the softness in Eddie’s eyes; but hiseyelids keep flickering, so deeply affected by Eddie’s touch.
“Don’t think I’ve everheard the Richard Tozier ever say sorry this much,” Eddie murmurs,fingers sweeping down Richie’s neck. Finally, he lets his hand fall into thespace between them, and gives Richie a small grin. “Didn’t know he had itin him, after years of him not saying sorry for telling those jokes about mymom.”
Richie immediately perks up,smiling much more like himself (jokes and Eddie’s hands can do that to him).“There’s nothing to apologise for. They need to be told.”
Eddie laughs, warmth bubblingfrom his chest. “Do they?”
“Yeah.” Richie’s smilehas grown even wider, bring a light to his eyes. “They do.”
Eddie’s laughter simmers downinto a breathless, fond smile. And as he studies the features of Richie’s face,the freckles Eddie loves, the slope of his straight nose, the strong shape ofhis eyebrows, he notices Richie studying his. And he sees Richie study,perhaps most of all, the curve of his smiling lips.
“Richie,” Eddiewhispers. Knows what Richie wants, what he’s too scared to get. “Pleasekiss me.”
And Richie surges forward, and he does.
They kiss in a hungry way, in a way they’ve never kissed before. And Eddie realises that this is kissing. The kind with tongue and roaming hands. But while he slips his tongue in Richie’s mouth, slides his hand up Richie’s neck, jaw, into his hair, Richie’s hand lands on Eddie’s hip and stays there.
It’s fine for a while. Eddie focuses on making Richie feel good. Slips his hand under Richie’s hoodie and rakes his fingernails down Richie’s bare stomach. Lets it wander up, up, over his chest, grazes over Richie’s nipple. A heat boiling low in his stomach when Richie’s breath catches in his throat.
“Good?” Eddie murmurs, nipping at Richie’s jaw.
Richie’s grip tightens on Eddie’s waist, fingers digging into his skin. “Y-yeah.”
But he can feel Richie getting antsy. Feels Richie’s pinky push up the hem of Eddie’s shirt so he can ever-so-slightly brush Eddie’s bare skin.
So Eddie runs hand down Richie’s arm, and grips his wrist. And then he guides Richie’s hand down, slowly, to the curve of his ass. Richie sucking in a breath as he lets himself cup Eddie’s cheek.
Eddie kisses him again, pauses and meets Richie’s dizzied gaze when he feels Richie squeeze his ass a little harder, fingers sinking into the soft flesh through his shorts.
“Feels so good,” Eddie whispers against Richie’s lips.
“Fuck,” Richie groans, and squeezes him again. Eddie’s entire body feels alight, can only imagine how Richie feels. Amazing, Eddie hopes. He attaches his lips to Richie’s neck, feels Richie body jolt, almost spasm, at the sensation. As Eddie kisses the sensitive skin, harder, harder, until he’s sucking at the spot just beneath Richie’s jaw. Tastes slightly of sweat.
“Eddie.” Richie sounds wrecked.
“Mmm,” Eddie hums. And when he pulls away, that wet patch of skin is dark and red. “I think I just gave you a hickey.”
“Christ, that’s hot.”
Eddie grins, looks at up him. And holy shit. Richie is glossy eyed and flushed, cheeks red and hair a wild tangle of curls. And Eddie did that. Oh, god, Eddie needs to keep doing that.
He kisses him. “You should,” he kisses the corner of Richie’s mouth, “take this,” kisses his jaw, “off.” He tugs at Richie’s hoodie. “Wanna kiss you everywhere.”
And that’s when Richie pulls away.
“Wait,” he says. Eddie feels the loss of his body heat like a punch of cold air. “Eddie. I like this…like, a whole fucking lot. But…do you think it’s alright if we don’t go any further tonight? I just…kinda wanna hold you.”
“Oh.” Eddie’s heart is racing, feels dizzy and dazed. Looking at the nervousness in Richie’s expression, he slowly sinks down from his high. Shit, he got way too ahead of himself. “Of course, Rich. I…I didn’t mean to push you into anything…”
“Wait, no, no I…” Richie jumps in immediately. “Eddie, I’ve wanted to make out with you like that since forever. I just don’t trust my dumb, touch-starved virgin body to go any further with you right now.”
A laugh escapes Eddie before he stop it. “That’s fair.”
Richie smiles. “I’m going to cuddle you now.”
And he shuffles down the mattress so he can bury his face just below Eddie’s shoulder, by his collarbone. Reaches out and grabs Eddie’s thigh, palm rough and warm as he slides it beneath Eddie’s knee, and pulls Eddie’s leg over his hip. Then he wraps his arm tight around Eddie’s waist, pulling them flush so they’re curled right up together. And Eddie smiles, pressing his face into Richie’s hair, endeared by Richie’s sudden burst of confidence.
“Is that okay?” Richie asks.
Eddie slings his arm around Richie’s shoulder and toys with the curls on the nape of his neck. Can smell the faint scent of Richie’s shampoo, can feel Richie’s soft breaths on his skin where his own shirt has slipped from his shoulder.
“Perfect.”
And maybe Eddie doesn’t know a single thing about dating, but he thinks that what he and Richie have is pretty fucking good.
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the worst summer: a poem in four acts by mia cool
last summer i leapt fearlessly
from lips to lips trying to
tuck him behind my ear
and lose him in the wind.
i didnt need the wind
after the salty ocean of you
left me gasping for breath.
up to my eyeballs in something
i had no coping mechanisms for.
i hadnt considered love in a year or so-
not even for my own self-
but i know i loved you.
your waves crested over my drowning heart
and the undertow caught me up in fantasy.
you had a girlfriend-
and the creatures inside you,
oh the jellyfish stung deep
and the sharks took bites out of my broken soul
and the eels in your eyes lit up,
entranced me,
and shocked me into life
like a defibrillator to my weak bones.
somehow i could breathe underwater
and yes, i was shocked
to find a will to live my dead existence.
your fine tuned scissors
cut out my despair
but left the chopped up bits
all askew and reckless.
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i ruined my new shirt
it was one of those "save the elephants"
type of shirts.
lilac and white
lovely
brand new
and speckled now.
specked brown from elbow to wrist.
i couldn't control myself.
it had been months -
MONTHS -
and i did more than break.
the soul i had tied together with
old shoe strings
had finally realized
that these bindings were justmaking more holes
and you-
you with your sociopathic love-
you kissed from my collarbone
up my neck
& under my ear
just to whisper that i meant nothing.
nothing but a mouth around your
(honestly inadequate)
manhood.
and then my perfect mask
finally snapped.
snapped into the shape of new parallel lines
all over my ever shrinking frame.
i salvaged myself from pencil sharpeners
and they didnt make art of my arms.
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I cried when i shaved my legs that summer.
i hadnt worried about the insignificant
light brown prickly downing,
i had been more concerned with my life.
what to do with it
what i was created for
if i should keep it
continue it-
or end it.
who has time for leg hair
when you’re busy doing research on cremation?
and the razors i had gotten used to
didnt come in packs of three-
no more pencils to sharpen
just rough edges of my existence.
i used broken pieces to
burn tally marks into my wrists
and thighs
and hips
and stomach.
My mother hid the knives
and i cried for weeks.
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i have panic attacks in the checkout line of grocery stores.
its nothing to do with social anxiety-
there are always self checkouts-
i think it has something to do with the bags.
yes, the cheap plastic ones.
the ones notorious for choking turtles
and polluting the environment
and choking this polluted girl.
those bags were a little
too comfortable around my throat.
inhaling nothing,
feeling everything.
a thousand memories ran through my mind-
the mind in the plastic bag
identical to the one your bagel bites are in.
i dont understand how people
continue existing after attempts.
i guess im doing it.
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