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coccyodynia · 1 year

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things:

things are relatively normal with justin again and we’re going to a show on the 1st of march (big excited) and 2 other shows after that, but we’re also considering adding the bilmuri show to the list

im back on a schedule of seeing my therapist regularly so that’s good

work is awful sometimes but such is life

ive lost almost 35lbs in the last 2-3 months which i feel is concerning and i want to see a doctor about it but everyone around me is just like “oh that’s great!” “good for you!” like i’m not even trying to lose weight and its just dropping off something feels wrong here

been dealing a lot with cPTSD stuff and trying to be more aware of how it’s effecting me so i can work on it now that i’m back in therapy

it feels really big and bad sometimes

as i sit here typing and thinking about what’s going on in my life, i’m having this really wild feeling - like. 6 or 7 months ago i was in this exact spot, in my living room, same playlist playing. feeling probably the worst i have felt in the last 2 years or so, but i decided that talking to this new guy (justin) was too exciting and also very validating, so i hung on. i would do anything to be alive if i meant i could be alive with him.

i talked with nicole (my therapist) about this a bit today and how important he is to me. like extremely validating, very supportive, very understanding, now that i really understand it will never be romantic, i’m fine with how things are. idk i think a lot of my friends dont like him or dont understand, but to be fair none of them are severally mentally ill like justin and i are, so we understand each other’s weird shit. he knows i can get really insecure in my relationships, and i’m afraid of being alone. but i know he can get overwhelmed and just shut down for awhile. he’s both bipolar and autistic and sometimes just really needs to be alone, so i dont push it anymore.

my therapist and i talked about that too - how like, we met at a weird time in my life where i’m really working hard in my therapy and trying to improve my relationships and such, so he’s given me space to kind of figure out what’s appropriate and what’s not

anyway i really fucking value him in my life. he’s done more for me in the last few months than a lot of people in my life would ever try

pretty sure without him i wouldn’t be here right now. i’m not kidding, the week we started talking i was 100% ready to kms, and instead he showed me there’s better things and people in the world than i realized

lmfao god that turned into a whole thing sorry y’all

#things #sorry in advance i #its just me talking about a boy #lol

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demigod-of-the-agni · 10 months

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The pishacha are manifestations of evil itself, locked within a cursed amulet. The wearer of the amulet is at the mercy of the demon, known for possessing humans and feeding off their host's chakra energy. However, if symbiosis is achieved, the pishacha can grant its host a myriad of powerful abilities.

I just needed to draw something cool okay. I needed to draw some cool goop and some cool looks okay. okay. if I didn't post this I would have exploded okay

#IT'S VENOM BAYBEE #i can't confirm nor deny if pavitr ever ends up wearing the symbiote- sorry. the demon #i honestly just wanted to get something out lmao #it's eating me up from the inside (the au and the symbiote)#honestly there's a lot of white but fuck it. my boy needs to look good.#the dhoti reminds me of gwenom tbh. you know what i'm talking about. that pink bit in her 'fit #anyway i TOLD YOU the mythology was coming in like a boss >:)#sure i'm tweaking stuff here and there. but mwahaha.... boy does it feel good when mythology actually gets what i'm trying to go for #and spits something out for me to use :D #(crying for hours on end trying to figure out how the black goop does its thing)#anyway nearly 12am. this time i will tag my shit correctly 😤 we will not have a thompson/travasso incident again #pavitr prabhakar #spider man india #spiderman india #venom symbiote #venom #spider man fanart #mythic mumbattan au #myart #artoftheagni

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24bughours · 2 months

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Mini comic i drew the first panel of literal months ago and decided to finish in one sitting

After this incident early in their friendship, Undyne would find out that

1. BOTH of the skeleton brothers can break the laws of physics, and 90% of the time its in really mundane ways

2. She IS still buffer than Papyrus, she was just shocked he had any "muscle mass" at all

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imaybe5tupid · 15 days

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Touden observations

(I hc them as fantasy Norwegian)

#laios touden #falin touden #toshiro nakamoto #shuro dungeon meshi #edited slightly I think its funnier and cuter and more fitting if theyre not speaking the common tongue #its probably nice for the siblings to be together again they probably had no one else to talk to in their own language for years #and still only have each other #i strongly rebuke the idea that their native language is the common tongue #they are norwegians bro #shuro is just hearing intense hinga dinga durgen ing here #I talk so much about the Toudens being Norwegian comparatively since I rarely give much context on my posts #but always clarify that whenever their culture is mentioned or alluded to I wonder if people think I’m Norwegian lmfao #im asian im just an Ibsen fan 😂#Also they’re explicitly from the mountains #And I like to imagine that laios has psychological issues about not being agile enough to do hallingkast with all the other village boys #also the way their village is described reminds me of the village in Peer Gynt #My comics

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oneday-yourside · 17 days

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Harry's world/Bad end

Inspired by Christina's world by Andrew Wyeth

#I dont think people talk about the bad end enough #this is the social murder game you guys #i dunno #my health took a bit of a decline recently and my doctor forgot to get me a refill on my meds in time and it got me thinking #disability puts a person in such a vulnerable position #it doesnt matter how well Harry solves the case or how upstanding of an officer he tries to be #one drink is all it takes and he is left to die #he cant even run after them anymore... he doesnt even know where he lives #he's nothing but an addict to them #reduced to an animal... grovelling in the dirt #used for all hes worth and then thrown away once he cant work anymore #ive written about the bad end before and ill get back to it(after my fic about his mom is done) when i get the energy for it #its just so compelling!!#does anybody hear me???#disco elysium #harry du bois #disco elyisum fanart #my art #illustration #also some people in the fandom do NOT see disabled ppl and addicts as people and it shows #ITS THE SOCIAL MURDER GAME

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mamawasatesttube · 10 months

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when people act like the only problems kon ever has are a) tim dating bernard and b) lex luthor

#rimi talks #every time i see another of those posts its just ben affleck with cig.png #deep fried ben with cig.png #i love my little boy more than you i dare you i dare you etc #lex can be an interesting and fun villain in kon's life but so many people are just... geofflike about it.#and they always fuck the kon&clark relationship which always makes me want to bite.#and as for tim/ber its just like.... do w/e idc but leave kon out of it if ur just gonna treat him as an accessory to tim lmao #hes his own character not just tims abandoned love interest #and i say this as someone who LIKES timkon!!!#but the timkon i like is like. yknow. the canon comic book interactions they have. where they have like. mutual respect and shit #not cardboard cutout kon who's only there to prop up wishy washy drippy pathetic nothing tim #tough to like timkon while the entire fucking timkon tag is my enemy

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skitskatdacat63 · 8 months

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2011 Italian Grand Prix - Vettonso

#SORRY. I AM GOING THROUGH IT.#this is why i had to put vettonso merchant in my bio bcs if i dont post them at least 5x a week ill die #their dynamic in this race is like actually indecipherable to me #cause this is the race where fernando 'allegedly' said fuck you my boy #but their dynamic is so odd????#like they have that happen in the cooldown room #and then generally ignore each other on the podium #and then we randomly get this cute moment and then they INSTANTLY go back to being awkward #but then in the press con they keep talking about each other and looking at each other???? okay :)#sometimes im just like. yeah no i give up on trying to understand them #not rly noticeable in these buts its so funny how seb pats him to get his attention #and then immediately goes to cheer as if to be like 'huh what i didnt touch uou'#to ref that one post about this race said: he didnt wanna embarrass himself again by getting turned on #stealing this from c cough cough but hes like 'oh no!! if he looks at me im gonna embrass myself on broadcast again!!'#anyways i love this moment and the pics from this are like my fav ever 2010s pics of them so yeah <3 #f1 #formula 1 #sebastian vettel #fernando alonso #vettonso #we do a little bit of f1 #*its so odd i completely remember finishing this and scheduling it last night #*but when i woke up it was only half done??? im still confused #2011 italian gp

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nomidreams · 18 days

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something something about dead boy detectives what edwin's and charles' friendship is actually works in show so half of fandom won't even care if they end up romantic or stay friends. (almost won't care. we all love queer stuff. can't judge.) I, personally, just love their whole dynamic and for me it's totally understandable that charles went into hell for his friend and stayed on earth as a ghost so he can be with edwin. and I think edwin actually meant it when he said "he did not feel the same way but i think we're better friends because of it".

idk for me they're just love each other so purely. what's even a difference between romantic and platonic love?

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becauseplot · 11 months

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Okay so something about the spiderbit wedding has been sitting in the back of my mind for awhile now and I don't know if anyone's talked about it but I just recently figured out the words to articulate it (kind of) so here we go!

Prior to the q!spiderbit wedding, a lot of the fanart/fanfics I saw/read depicted Cellbit waiting at the altar while Roier is walked down the aisle by either Foolish or Vegetta. Which makes sense! It keeps with the idea of the father "giving away" the bride (or in this case, the groom) at the wedding, which wouldn't be possible for Cellbit since he doesn't have any parental figures on the island. So, I was a little surprised when the wedding day came and Cellbit was the one to walk down the aisle while Roier waited at the altar. I was a bit disappointed at first---they missed a chance to do a sweet little spin on a wedding tradition! (Found family* my beloved <3)

But then I kept thinking---something about Cellbit walking down the aisle. Something about Cellbit walking down the aisle. Something about Cellbit walking down the aisle to the altar where Roier, his soon-to-be husband and trusted confidant, stands; where Felps, his best friend whom he just got back from an unknown fate, stands; where Forever, the friend he wronged but never lost faith in and wants to do right by going forward, stands.

Something about Cellbit being alone and walking himself down the aisle towards them like he is making an active choice. After the fear and the isolation, pushing others away and hurting those close to him so he could make himself a martyr because he felt like he had to face the Federation alone and that he could only rely on himself---now choosing to walk towards the altar where they stand---walking towards his happy ending.

Because this is his happy ending. I'm not at all an advocate for the idea of "oh romance/marriage is the only thing that will make you happy in life" but not only is being married to Roier something Cellbit desperately wants, this wedding means so much more than just getting married.

Of course, this isn't really the end, but for someone like Cellbit, it's a start. A new beginning. A brand new chapter of love, friendship, and trust. So yes, Cellbit walks down the aisle at his wedding, and he does it alone, and he does it because he deserves it, and he does it because he wants to, and he does it because he has to, and he does it because he needs this.

*I would just like to note that found family does not have to follow a nuclear formula with parent-child roles and I don't wish to propagate this misconception. That's just how Roier's family is structured in canon. Foolish and Vegetta are boyfriends and Roier calls them (or at least Foolish) "dad" that's just how it is and it is beautiful <3

Also apologies if I get any lore wrong. I'm not a Roier or Cellbit main viewer but I learn a lot through what I do watch of their streams and what I absorb through my dash. Hopefully this still makes sense.

#qsmp #qsmp spiderbit wedding #spiderbit #guapoduo #qsmp cellbit #q!cellbit #spiderbit wedding #yeah i know that everyone's talking about the debates right now but ive been busy all week and im behind on vods #so here have a spiderbit wedding word-vomit post and ill talk about the debates later (maybe)#im reading this back to myself after posting and boy i sure do love italics huh lmao #edit: tiny amendment to this post (bc my brain wont shut up) but i should note that ofc jaiden is also part of roier's little family-#-but i didn't include her in the footnotes bc this post was already getting long and tbh the different kinds of families-#-on the island deserves its own post but i dont have any Big thoughts on the matter apart from it's vvvvv nice to see <3 #dont mind me im just rambling

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quietwingsinthesky · 7 months

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it ever hit you out of nowhere that castiel is living in a dead guy's body and the show just does not care. it does not care. jimmy novak might as well not exist the moment he or claire is out of sight. cas stole a guy's body and his face and his life, and we can't ever talk about it or discuss it in detail because of how fucking horrifying it is that sam and dean's best friend just walks around in a dead guy suit. there's not even a human soul in there anymore. it's just a corpse. stone-cold body snatcher indeed.

#castiel spn #spn #this is not like a Castiel Crime (tm) to be clear. this is more me being (un)surprised that the show is Like This.#castiel is a horror story he is so much a horror story in the rapture #and then they just uh. never bring up again how horrifying and fucked up this is for another like 7 seasons #and when they do its to briefly go :( claire lost her dad :) but its okay! she forgives cas for it!#which!! NO SHE SHOULD FUCKING NOT!!!#but we can't have that discussion. we can't talk about that. because to acknowledge that it's fucked up would mean making cas kind of. evil #in a way that would vastly improve his later character arcs btw. if we had to reckon with not only this massive transgression #but with the fact that cas himself STILL DOESN'T SEE IT AS ONE.#that on a lot of fundamental levels. he is still functioning as he did in s4. a lot of that base programming is still there.#something something how cas never changes out of his suit under his trenchcoat #but it's like. jimmy said yes. so it's fine. that's what it is to him.#anyway. i wish they hadn't been scared of making all three of the boys more fucked up in later seasons.#thank GOD for dean being interesting in how he becomes Worse <3 because they were not bringing that for castiel.#again. good version of spn where jimmy's bloodline is an off-shoot of the lucifer vessel bloodline. explaining a) how lucifer Got In There #and b) letting lucifer possess claire later so that the two of them can have daddy issues together.#something about cas being the monster-not monster that jimmy let in that destroyed his life.#something about lucifer being the monster-not monster that castiel lets in later. the cycles. they are cycling.

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incorrect-ikevamp-quotes · 7 months

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EVERYBODY BEHOLD THE CUTEST BOY E V E R OMG I SQUEALED, BABY MAN!!!!! NEW CYBIRD ART OF THE SILLY DROPPED THIS MORNING FOR HIS BIRTHDAY:

Link to the original post below!

#ikevamp #ikemen vampire #ikevamp comte #ikevamp saint germain #LOOK AT HIS ADORABLE LITTLE SPARKLY FACE HE'S SO HAPPY #A DRESS IN EACH HAND #what is it about chibis that just. initiate my babying instinct #I WANNA SMUSH HIS CHEEKS BETWEEN MY HANDS CUTIE #that may be the feral comte stan in me talking BUT ANYWHO #he has no business at all being this adorable #sir you are under arrest for cuteness crimes #only way to atone is a life sentence. IN MY ARMS--#i will never get over how he's just like 'nothing can stop me dresses will be procured; jewelry bestowed'#literally its always just mc: 'i love you just as you are.' comte: 'and I love you just as you are. new bracelet be upon ye'#october is the best month ever i LOVE it here #i haven't seen him rendered this precious in a long time muah muah abel #my entire morning has just been that vine where its like 'i want to see my little boy! HERE HE C O M E S'

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arom-antix · 5 months

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Happy birthday to the man, the myth, the legend, trophy husband of Yuuri Katsuki, Viktor Nikiforov!

#oh and fuck that post #HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BOI YOU DESERVE THE WORLD #christmas ends on the 24th here so GUESS WHAT #THE 25TH IS ALL ABOUT VIKTOR BABYYY #also theyre married your honour idc what plaintiff has to say because im right they have no grounds to sue #anyway i drew this before yuuris birthday and has been sitting on it for a month now and i am SO glad to get it posted #and despite having that much time to prepare this post im sitting here on christmas eve and typing this out while hiding from festivities #also IGNORE THAT THE COAT ISNT ACCURATE I JUST DREW IT OKAY #its embarrassing as someone who lives in a cold country to draw a winter coat wrong #people from warm countries have no idea what im talking about probably and if you do or are from a cold country and know then no you dont #the coat is perfect youre just imagining things #also lemme tell you those eyelashes made me so happy to draw #i ADORE pale lashes theyre so fun #tbh i adore all colours but im particularly fond of white grey and black hair and white lashes #its just so chefs kiss #if you have pale invisible lashes that you think make you look weird no they dont they make you look incredible #also yes this is ABSOLUTELY a companion piece to the birthday piece i did for yuuri #i said i liked to imagine that piece being how viktor sees yuuri #well heres viktor looking at yuuri #yuri on ice #yuri on ice fanart #fanart #art #arom antix art #arom antix #viktor nikiforov

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daily-hanamura · 9 months

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#persona 4 #p4 #persona 4 magician manga #hanamura yosuke #yosuke hanamura #you know despite all the evidence i dont think yosuke actually realises that he's actually quite attractive and good looking #kou talks about girls coming over to check him out and sure maybe it's just the novelty of him being a new student #but his hometown friend katsuragi FOR SURE has a crush on him look at this classic shoujo scene where katsuragi sees a text from yosuke and #smiles in a way that has him being teased like ooooh is that from a girl #getting a text from yosuke makes katsuragi smile in a way like one would when they havr a crush OK I DONT HAVE TO EXPLAIN THIS FURTHER #ITS TOO OBVIOUS AND I LOVE IT BUT #this is a yosuke centric blog and all these to say.... i wonder if yosuke is actually just seriously oblivious #to when people are interested in him #i think it stems from a place of low self esteem like “oh who could possibly like me” even when hes actually quite a solid catch #yosuke probably receives letters of confession in his shoebox and thinks they were placed in the wrong box so he politely returns them #when they actually have his name on it he just laughs and says wow theres another yosuke/hanamura in this school?#or assumes its a prank by someone else #i swear this boy had the most OUT THERE mental gymnastics going on #yosuke talks endlessly about how he wants a girlfriend but i bet you if a girl asks him out his response will be “go where?”#“oh maybe later? i have a shift today but if it's a junes related issue you can find me at the grocery dept! seeya!”#theres the whole “disappointment the moment he opens his mouth” thing but come on #theres going to be at least some confessions from people who have only seen him from afar #not to mention that yosuke canonically likes fashion and always dresses well #honestly maybe yosuke's rizz lvl is so high that it just circles down into the negatives #only joking i think he does get interest but he doesnt realise #and because everytime he does attempt to flirt hes immediately rejected he thinks hes never had any interest #which i think is just not true #and i havent even started talking about yu lmao #anyway the magician manga was devastating for my mental health and i beseech all of you to resd it as well and then cry about it with me #he's good with his queue

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grandcovenant · 5 months

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carlo's inherent tragedy as a character means that if he hadn't died young he would've gone through something worse. the horrifying realization that he inherited his father's personality <3

#lies of p #geppetto is over and over mentioned and shown to be a very stubborn man.#and the little we see of carlo.... it works.... he was in fact kind of a bull-headed little brat.#and everyone knows how much parents with strong personalities ~loooooooove~ when their kids. get it from them.#i'm not ragging on carlo. the basis of personality that is inherited is not the sole defining factor in what a person is like--#--and what is developed & changed by one's experiences would make them very different people still.#THAT SAID: i do think carlo achieving his little dream of being The Best Stalker In The World WOULD put him at risk of.#going down the same path his dear old man did :^)#there's something about being at the top of your field and what being the unquestioned authority in all that pertains to it can--#--very easily make one close-minded and set in their ways. it's probably what happened with geppetto.#i mean if my timeline is right he fucked with venigni's grand covenant long before he needed to enact mass murder to resurrect his son.#which to me speaks of him considering only himself as a trustworthy authority for a long time.#the tags in these posts really are the main feature now huh. sorry about that i just like talking here better.👍its like a secret post.#anyway. LOVE YOU DEAD BOY

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spoonmoment119 · 1 year

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I have no clue if we can request something non-minecraft so I'll just sent two:

Can I request a character from the Mandela Catalogue? (Preferably Mark but I'm not picky)

If not then I'll just have a Scott in any flavour

#you certainly CAN request non-minecraft things #but just be prepared for me to have no fucking clue what youre talking about ^_^#unfortunately i dont know what the mandela catalogue is #youd be surprised by how little i know #but whoooo boy if you ever request something i DO know #its over for everyone >:)#but thanks for asking ^_^#spoon responds #spoon doodles #scott smajor

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mist-cat · 8 months

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CrookedStar and Leafpool

Two cats who put loyalty to their clan above everything! Who gave up so much for their family and loved them with their whole hearts no matter how much it hurt! Cats who were lead astray and screwed over by dead people they trusted, who were lead in so many different directions by so many forces and endured it all because they just wanted to do the right thing! Cats who would genuinely do ANYTHING for their siblings, who were so so proud of them. They were shamed by those closest to them for perceived shortcomings they could do nothing about! They stood up for themselves and decided to forge their own paths!

AUGH I'M SO NORMAL ABOUT THEM!! If CrookedStar lived a stupidly long time, she'd remind him of his daughter and would've stood up for her during HollyLeaf's speech.

If the Erins weren't COWARDS they would've had CrookedStar talk to LeafPool in her dreams. They would talk for hours and hours and he'd be such a good listener. I think they deserved to be besties.

He would've loved MothFlight and Leafpool's relationship.

#leafpool #crookedstar #crookedjaw #not ship art #don't tag as such #warrior cats #warrior cat fanart #fanart #BrambleStar is so insecure its good that he never met CrookedStar #that's what a REAL good dad and leader looks like #he was just. the best. AND THE ERINS DID MY BOY SO DIRTY #I talk about this like any of the main events in the first arc would've happened with CrookedStar as leader and not LeopardStar #let me have my daydreams #my two favorite kitties #LOOK AT THEMMMM #I haven't read a book in ages #im talking at least 6 years #but my love for these silly sad blorbos remains as strong as ever

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