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siggiedraws · 1 year

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Opened a Ko-fi and I’m now taking commissions! Check it outttt

#commissions #really nervous about this ngl #feedback is always welcome #like are the options good? the prices?#it's been forever since i've tried this

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yououghtaknow · 1 month

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genuinely kind of terrified as to what will happen to me when i see bare live in three (three!!!!!!!!) days. i will either go fully insane or transcend mortality or perhaps both. either way i will most likely end up full weeping.

#going to see bare with my mother will be on par with seeing deh with her in regards to our [gestures vaguely] relationship #we will hold hands. we will cry. we will have emotionally intense conversations on the walk back to the hotel.#but guys. i genuinely tried to listen to a clip of just an instrumental from the show and teared up.#bare is just. Such a big part of who i am. i literally wouldn't be anything like i am today without it and the people it brought me.#and i laugh and joke but this is Such a full circle moment for tvp nation.#like i am currently about to self-produce a workshop of my play that has professional theatre companies interested.#and all of that started from writing a silly little show about bare when i was 14 to make cool people online laugh.#and since then the plot of bare (peter's version) Has Happened To Me Twice but i have been so so brave about it #i haven't listened to the full soundtrack since last year and i've been going cold turkey in Anticipation #i just Know my ***** is going to have the most insane reactions on it.#god. it's so crazy to me. what if you were gay and catholic and an angsty pop rock punk opera teen and you grew up to be happy.#anyways. in my feels. going to have lunch and listen to bway breakdown before class.#BECAUSE I GO TO A CLASS NOW!!! EXCITING!!! it's for writing and marketing stuff :) which is super helpful and fun #anyways haven't done a tumblr rant in a while. miss you guys in my phone <3 if you're reading this i love you forever mwah

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the-prince-of-professors · 2 months

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“Well, Bunny,” he said, and reached out his hand with a melancholy smile. “I suppose this is it. Thank you very much for your help—today, and on all the rest. I could not have wished for a better partner, you know,” he added, and winked. Bunny took his hand, but hesitated. “I’d like to stay until the train leaves, if you don’t mind,” he said.

Raffles/Bunny // School days era // 1 881 words

#rafflesweek2024 #crime and cricket #raffles and bunny #my writing #i've tried to finish and post this every day since sunday....... still don't feel completely satisfied but enough is enough #this is not for a particular prompt (though i guess it fits into one or two)#just one of two wips that have been lying around since forever and that i really wanted to finish at last #(i wanna write the other one too for rafflesweek buuuuuut we'll see what happens)

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kiuroo · 8 months

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My pastel princess ꒰⁠⑅⁠ᵕ⁠༚⁠ᵕ⁠꒱⁠˖⁠♡

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two-thrones · 3 months

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Leaned half-in and half-out of the vehicle as he is, torso craned to one side to fit between the doorframe and the folded passenger seat, Zeke can catch enough of the words to get the gist— and sympathize with not only the hint of frustration that he thinks he might detect but also the undercurrent of anxiety running just beneath them.

The last place you want a flat tire is, well, anywhere, honestly, but you especially didn't want one in the middle of a secluded park nearing civil twilight, with seemingly one other soul around. And yet, here they are, with not one or two but eight flat tires. A fact that went well above and beyond being a mere coincidence. A healthy amount of concern wasn't simply reasonable; it was called for in this situation.

Stretching out his arm, fingertips graze the corner of the beige-colored blanket left right where he thought it would be. But before he can grab it (or think about how the cramped space was making it a little hard to breathe— this sensation existing wholly in his head), a single gunshot instantly makes the evening pivot from all-too-quiet to suddenly deafening.

The single, large caliber bullet shatters the open car door's window, spraying glass out onto the concrete entirely too close to Zeke for comfort and, perhaps, as she had already been in the process of moving closer, a little too close to Merris' person, as well.

There is no time to react in the moment apart from instinctively turning his face away.

@ghxstfrxquxncies, continued from here

#then came the first hint of fog; THREAD #king of blades; Zeke; INTERACTION #beauty of the city; MODERN VERSE #ghxstfrxquxncies #( i know i've written this out before but i lost it so here you go dammit i'm escalating.#if this doesn't work for you please do let me know! i tried to sprinkle in little reminders since i know it's been literally forever. )

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fortune-maiden · 1 year

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I went back to rewatch the Brotherhood scenes and grab some screencaps, and honestly I was quite surprised that this line was from Quirin! I had misremembered it as one of Hector’s

I love it though. Quirin’s role in the Brotherhood is criminally underutilized a little bit of a mixed one between Hector’s stark loyalty and Adira’s dissatisfaction with the current state. On the one hand, Quirin has by all signs seeming left the Brotherhood - he’s settled down in another kingdom, started a family, is happily living a farmer’s life.

But at the same time - he has been doing his duty behind the scenes. He’s the one who finds the Sundrop and while he seemingly breaks his oath to warn Frederic about removing it, for all we know he never mentions the Moonstone or the DK - just that removing the flower is a Bad Idea because this scroll says so. (and given that both the scroll & Corona’s ties to Demanitus, I wonder if that’s what led him there)

He probably chose to settle in Old Corona because the flower was removed to keep an eye on things. Probably lots of regrets about the Sundrop being real all along, only for it to be immediately lost. (I wonder if he told Adira)

Then all is quiet for 18 years. And then a year before BEA, the rocks suddenly appear where the flower was (really wonder what the catalyst for this is). Then 6 months later, the lost princess appears. Then 6 more months later her magic hair is back. And the rocks are spreading.

He’s the first one aware of it and.... he does nothing. Says nothing to anyone, just asks for more land when the situation gets bad enough. I think there’s a combination of things preventing him from speaking, but I’d like to think that at least one is him being lawful stupid - He is a knight of the Brotherhood. He will not reveal anything about the Moonstone ever.

#tangled the series #tts quirin #i feel like the effect is slightly weakened by this not being edmund's *dying* wish #since edmund was there to send them off #there's just a certain poignancy to thinking you're fulfilling your duty to the dead while the living in front of you suffer #i feel like i can talk about quirin forever. i feel like he is the brotherhood blorbo i've latched onto the most #these rambles are probably incoherent but i had a lot of thoughts to sort through xD #between this scene and realizing that quirin had a cameo in BEA #on a side note this rewatch has also me notice a couple of things #one being that hector says adira will be a traitor if she leaves the dark kingdom - they haven't been forced to leave yet #so that must stung a lot for him later. i'd like to imagine hector was especially adamant about not leaving #and when he couldn't sway edmund that was when he went into overdrive in his loyalty #since edmund doesn't want anyone in the DK he'll make sure no one gets past him to the DK #and the other thing... Quirin and Adira were both present when Edmund tried to destroy the stone and nearly died. Hector was not :D #no clue where he was but that must have been a hell of a thing to come home to! :D

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jianqzai · 1 year

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Waiting....

A penelope-inspired art. I just think that her loyalty to the one she loved, is very similar to lwj's. Dedicated to my friend @/sonderstarlight in twitter. (The whole composition was inspired by the painting Penelope by Thomas Seddon)

I have to admit, I cheated with that tapestry. I was just so tired of trying to simulate weaving myself, so I pasted an official art of the Cloud Recesses and edited it with a brush to look like that lol

Lastly, here are a few close-ups, because this piece took me weeks and several re-paintings, so please appreciate how I finally managed to make the details work

#lan wangji #mdzs #I was so close to give up on this and keep it a wip forever but I tried one last time and that was the winner #so happy I didn't give up bc I'm really happy with how it turned out #I was in love with the sketch and miraculously coloring it worked out at the end #I saw here a post comparing wangxian to oddyseus and penelope and i've never been the same since #milo art

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kyouka-supremacy · 10 months

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#random rambles #The last ask sent me on five different tangents I wasted the whole afternoon over #I opted against adding this to the ask because it'd be unrespectful to Anon but if I don't let it out somewhere I'll die #Everyone knows how beyond what it may look like that I don't like bsd and that includes Beast #But the ask touches the exact reason why I think Beast ultimately fails as a story #because it constantly tries to frame Akutagawa as evil and heartless; but what's framed as his most cruel action #- the one of mindlessly slaughtering his enemies at the start - is itself moved by love #And I know someone in the wings is already arguing #“that's the whole point. the reader is supposed to see through it‚ and see that Akutagawa wasn't inherently evil to begin with”#… But I don't think that's the case. This is not the place to talk about it but at the same time I don't want to make a post about it #but at the same time I feel like I won't have peace untill I've brought this up.#That's not the case because 1) Dazai says it's not the case‚ and Dazai is the character with most authority in the entire franchise #and 2) Ryuunosuke's later scene with Gin reinforces the fact that Akutagawa's action was cruel and inhuman #But it's not true. It's just that the author is a little nihilist that doesn't believe humans are inherently good.#So please let's just stop pretending they aren't? Because bsd fans. in my very humble opinion - are in severe need of someone #to remember them they are free to like aspects of the franchise even without acting like its morals aren't completely fucked up #Sorry for derailing it's been tormenting me since forever I desperately needed to mention it somewhere.#I've recently read someone say that bsd sustained that humans are inherently good and like... What the fuck. What the fuck. What the fuck.#Like there ARE series that do that? T/pn is one of them? Read t/pn if you want that? It's good?#But bsd definitely doesn't c'mon it's not that hard #Ugh. sorry for this. It was just to say #I love Beast but I don't like bsd and Beast is part of bsd and Beast does ultimately adhere to bsd's fucked up morals Kyotag out #I'm just saying we should all be able to recognize where our personal worldviwes end and where the author's start.#If you don't you aren't reading you're projecting #I'm not even rereading this #if I'll overthink it a second more I know it'll end up together with my millions black posts at the bottom of my drafts #Post

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running-in-the-dark · 7 months

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I have like... two days (max) to come up with a new research question for my bachelor thesis. I HAVE TO officially register/sign up or whatever next week. that's the only way I'll be able to finish it + the oral examination part before my course stops existing at the end of February (my advisor basically assured me that the examination office wouldn't let me register after the end of October).

fuck, I was so motivated last month! I felt ready, I felt good about it, I was sure I'd be able to do it! and then that stupid fucking meeting with my advisor happened and now I feel more defeated and hopeless than ever before. I feel stupid. I feel like I can't possibly do this.

there's just nothing in my brain. it's empty. all knowledge from my entire time at uni (and school) has vanished. the last, oh I don't know, eight fucking years have just been too much. I really don't know if I can do this. I don't know if I'm able to. I don't know how to start over again.

#like I've gone from crisis to crisis #everything since my second semester in 2015 has been hell #like literally #I didn't learn much because I only had enough capacity to study for exams and not to actually remember any of it #and what little I did know I can't recall anymore #my brain is so useless now. I can't fucking think! I can't think about my thesis without wanting to die! I don't want to do this!#but if I don't. I won't get my degree. I'll have wasted so much money (not us levels of money but still a lot) and time and I'll have #nothing #I'll be fucked. I won't have a future. I'll be stuck staying at home and never having my own money. forever.#because there's no way I can do another degree. I can't do it. I can't.#I don't have work experience. I don't have any skills. I'm 31 and my body is a piece of shit and my brain is even worse #I couldn't even work as a cashier (I tried. it was bad.) or anything #I need this degree to have *any* chance of getting a job and I just.#yeah idk maybe that's why this is so goddamn overwhelming #personal

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disdaidal · 1 year

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Sorry for coming to you for this. A mutual I've been following for years posted "If you still like harry potter in 2023 you deserve the electric chair" and tbh it's...scary. Tumblr is more hostile everyday. First the withhaunt for Billy fans now even HP. Can't one enjoy anything anymore in this world???? I don't follow JKR. I Don't support JKR. Demonizing a whole fandom and franchise though wishing death upon fans is going too far imho. Everyday I'm thinking on leaving tumblr for good.

As a long-time (unapologetic) Harry Potter fan and a fan of Billy, I feel ya there. I've had to unfollow and block people for posts like that because guess what: I don't come here to be judged over a fictional thing that I happen to like. 😒 Nor do I actually care about JK Rowling, so my bad I guess.

Wanting to leave Tumblr (or Twitter etc. etc.) under these circumstances is understandable. Fandoms and being a fan should be fun. Not an excuse to bully other people online or tell them to kill themselves because they disagree with you. 🤷‍♀️ Your own comfort and well-being should always come first.

#replies #anon #discourse #thanks for sending me this. please don't apologize #because truthfully i've been having similar thoughts lately #i don't think i'll ever quit my tumblr because i've been here forever #but i've definitely spent less time here since october #hardly participating in any of my fandoms (besides letting my queue run daily)#and not even feeling that guilty about it #i guess it was my path to finally understanding that I need to look better after myself and doing stuff that actually matters irl #and right now it feels good #i miss interacting with certain tumblr ppl ofc #but at the same time what i really don't miss is coming here every day just to see the same old billy discourse repeat every few days #or reading these posts on my dash saying that liking hp makes me a degenerate or a supporter of the Current Bad Thing™#i just don't have the energy or even interest in these complex pretentious woke mental gymnastics. because it's fucking pointless #so i've tried to focus on my real life instead and i've managed to get stuff done and it actually feels good for a change

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thegrandharveyspecter · 9 months

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Trip to a Coffee Shop; a Harvey & Scott Drabble Part Thirteen: The Sick Ant

"Harvey? Tell me that's you." Scott's voice, hoarse and scratchy, called from behind the counter seconds after Harvey entered the coffee shop. Harvey couldn't see him. "I need help."

Harvey tried to squash the worry as he hurried behind the counter. Sitting on the floor, slumped against the counter, was Scott Lang looking absolutely miserable. He was coated in sweat, there were bags under his eyes, his hair was a scruffy mess and there were splats of vomit on his shirt.

"Jesus, you look like shit," Harvey said, kneeling in front of him. "How long have you been sitting here?"

"Too long. Waaay too long," Scott groaned. "I tried to make my way to my room but I collapsed halfway. I kept throwing up and my body feels numb and..."

"It's okay, kid. I'll get you to your room," Harvey said, schooling his voice into something gentle. "We'll change your shirt too. Come on."

Harvey stood and held his hand out for Scott to take, and he did so with a poor excuse of a grip. Harvey slowly helped Scott stand, though he still slouched and he had to take a few deep breaths to calm himself before they could move.

Thankfully, Scott's room was right behind the counter so they didn't have to walk that far to his bed. It still took a little time thanks to how slow they had to move, and it was clear that Scott was struggling to not throw up again. Harvey carefully sat Scott on his bed.

"Lift your arms for me," he instructed.

The fact that Scott did so without protesting or complaining was a testament to how miserable he really was. Harvey pulled Scott's dirty shirt off and threw it in the laundry basket. He went to his small wardrobe and searched until he found a muscle shirt. Scott was able to slip it on himself.

While Scott laid on his back, Harvey went to the storage room/kitchen and got a bowl for Scott to throw up in. Before leaving, he grabbed an icepack from the freezer and a hand towel.

"You don't have to stay," Scott said when Harvey came back. "I just needed to get back to my room."

"I'm staying whether you like it or not," Harvey replied. He put the bowl and hand towel on the nightstand.

He placed the icepack on Scott's forehead and the guy practically jumped out of his skin. "COLD!"

"Obviously," Harvey said, dryly. "Keep that on your forehead. It'll help. Do you have any medicine here?"

Scott shook his head. Harvey sighed. "Alright, I'll be back in a bit with some medicine then. Stay here, don't get up from bed. There's a bowl on the nightstand for when you need to throw up."

"Thank you, Harvey..."

Harvey shrugged, lightly ruffled Scott's sweat-soaked hair. "Get some rest. I'll be back soon."

With that, Harvey's day of taking care of a Sick Scott Lang started. He bought cough syrup, Tylenol, different cans of soup, other cold medicine. Was it a bit excessive? Maybe. But it was just in case Scott got another fever. This way, he wouldn't run out quickly.

Throughout the day, Scott was in and out of consciousness. Most times when he woke up, he'd vomit, complain about the cough syrup, and pass out again. He was never awake long enough for Harvey to ask if he was willing to try some soup.

There was a time where Scott started freaking out, claiming that he was dying. He didn't want to die yet, he had to live and watch Cassie grow up because he missed time. He freaked out so bad, Harvey called Cassie and had her talk Scott to sleep. The poor child was scared for her dad. It took a while for Harvey to assure her that her dad wasn't really dying.

Around 10:30PM, Harvey tried to get Scott to eat some soup. Of course, the kid was pouting and whining, saying he'd only throw it up. Harvey agreed with that, but Scott still needed to eat. It took a whole fifteen minutes to convince Scott to have a couple spoonful's.

Somehow, Scott managed to keep it down but he passed out shortly after. When he was out again, Harvey cleaned up the vomit bowl, replaced Scott's icepack, and put the rest of the soup in the microwave for later. He turned all the lights off in the shop, locked the front door and sat next to Scott's bed.

XXX

Scott still felt miserable when he woke up the next afternoon, but it wasn't nearly as bad as the day before. He didn't even throw up as soon as he woke up. He wasn't as hot, probably because he had two icepacks on him now. It was hard to keep his eyes open but he didn't want to drift into a nightmare about dying.

He licked his dry lips, shifted onto his side, one of his icepacks sliding down his forehead. He adjusted it and yawned loudly. It felt great to be awake and not want to throw up. When Scott looked up, he blinked, surprised at the sight.

Harvey was still sitting in the same chair, out like a light, no doubt exhausted from caring for Scott the day prior. Thankfully, the man didn't look like he was getting sick.

There was a comfortable warmth in Scott's chest. He smiled at the thought that Harvey stayed the whole time. Down the line, whenever Harvey needed his assistance, Scott was going to stay as long as he needed.

If only everyone knew that Harvey Specter wasn't as rough and cold as people thought he was.

#Harvey Specter #Suits #antvnger #Scott Lang #Coffee Shop Owner Scott Lang #Normal Harvey Specter #Harvey cares for a Sick Scott #it's been forever since I've written anything omg #you can thank Google docs for that #this is also a long one #I tried to have it be short but sickfics are hard to keep short #at least for me lmao #vomit tw #fever tw #coffee shop au #drabble

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gh-0-stcup · 9 months

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Holy shit.

I've been on mobile since the update, just got a chance to take a look at what they did tonight.

Who the actual fuck thought this would be a good idea?

#i thought it was an exaggeration #i've been on tumblr since 2010 - been through some very dramatic changes over the years #but this is...wow.#putting aside how cluttered things are now (you'd get used to that)#it's just broken #like why did the t disappear when i was on my activity page?#took forever to get back home #the horrid bubble that pops up for you activity?!#tried to reply to a message - horrid bubble plus a list of usernames that obscured THEIR name while i was trying to @ them #who the fuck did this #just complete trash omg #tumblr update #anyway my dreamwidth's gh0stcup i did a hysteria liveblog thing tonight #lol

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glompcat · 1 year

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Episode 3 of The Last of Us was amazing.

#I literally just spent a recent therapy session #telling my therapist how much I hate how most media tries to sell you on keeping loved ones alive #even when they want to go #and how much that hurts #how every story that says to keep fighting for forever even when the person dying told you to stop #and says that is what love is #feels like a direct jab saying I don't really love my mom #or rather if I really loved her I'd override her autonomy #since I've known my whole life my mom WANTS me to help her when she is ready to go #and it feels like there is nowhere where I can find any affirming messages that helping her is an expression of my love #that it isn't evil or horrible #she's been so clear on this front since I was very young #and there is paperwork involved now too #so I am legally bound to respect things like how she never wants to be on any form of life support etc #so to have this love story?#this story that culminates in helping Frank leave as an expression of how much Bill loves him?#(and then of course becomes a double suicide but I mean they live in the post-apocalypse and Frank is Bill's world)#FUUUUUCK #THIS EPISODE MEANS THE WORLD TO ME #also also I can not state enough how much better this version of events are than what was in the game #I loved seeing their life together so fucking much #ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh #tlou #tlou hbo #tlou hbo spoilers

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keeps-ache · 1 year

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help i found the dot brush

#art #my art #artists on tumblr #digital art #help who's style is this #help i forgot to do the inks for this comic page and ended up with this piece w/ full colours #//WHAT HAPPENED #i'm Really looking at it now and WHO MADE THIS ???#the hair ??? wha ???#it's been forever since i've bothered to put the blush on fingers. ???#the colours are so muted ?????#i was 1 step away from shading this. hng #//any. anyway-#it's not bad! i'm definitely gonna try to experiment w/ the brushes some more cuz i've just been using the defaults lol #and then i found my love for the turnip brush. my beloved #also turnip is a nice word imo #speaking of vegetables this character has been dubbed Asparagus automatically by my Brain. they are also called Green Bean #turnip turnip turnip #what Is a turnip actually #i've seen/tried radish but turnip? i don't know nip #after a quick google i've don't think that vegi smells very good #yes i'm judging a vegi by its skin. it looks like an onion i'm sorry </3 #it looks like an onion AND a cabbage. i'm never going to eat that </33 #//anyway the vegi-tables thoughts have finally overtaken me #ohhhh i'm fading! i can see the light!! it looks suspiciously like a waxy lemon.... ohhhhhhhh.............. !!!#tell....... my brother................... to delete my microsoft account........................... bleghhhh !

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skidrowflorist · 1 year

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ooc;; happy munday! i know i’ve been quiet, but i’ve been tending to my own little shop of horrors, and it’s finally time for venus flytraps to come out of dormancy! so here’s a side-by-side of one of my flytrap pots showing dormancy (left) versus them now, waking up (right)! as more plants wake up and put on that fresh spring growth i’ll try to share them <3

plant: dionaea muscipula

#it's been forever since i have tried to post here... i run my finger across this blog and pull it back absolutely caked with dust...#but don't be fooled - i'm ALWAYS thinking about audrey. i've just had lots to do on other accounts #[ munday ]#❦ SOMEWHERE THAT'S GREEN [ plants & flowers ]

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snallavanta · 1 year

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i'm going to be honest: i dislike daisy jones and think she's an annoying brat

#daisy jones and the six #idk am i supposed to like her?#she's so fucking annoying. she thinks the world revolves around her. if something doesn't go her way then she'll throw a tantrum #her need for drugs is annoying as hell and she doesn't have an ounce of personality #she's just a pretty girl who can sing. that's it #i tried to like her in the beginning but she's just an awful person #i think the thing i can't stand about her the most is when she gets angry at billy for not loving her back #as if he doesn't have a wife and kids? who the hell does she think she is #she's so fucking entitled that she thinks he should cheat on his wife for HER #and then she says shit about him to the whole world just because he didn't want to kiss her? bffr #on a brighter note i only have 2 hours of the audiobook left!!!!! feel like this book has been going on since forever 😮‍💨#i've had ENOUGH

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