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whumpypepsigal · 2 years

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MY HEART IS MOURNING. I AM NOT OKAY. about to vent my feelings out.

stranger things vol 2 spoilers ahead…

“I think it's my year, Henderson. ( struggling ) I think it's finally my year. I love you, man.”

eddie did not fucking deserve that ending. what was the purpose of killing him off like that? other than the duffer bros wanting to stick with their formula of killing off beloved characters they introduce in every season. like he didn’t need to redeem himself to die a hero like some sort of ‘heroic sacrifice”, he didn’t need a redemption arc. the man was GOOD-HEARTED from the get-go. as evident by his interaction with chrissy in the woods, his adoration and care to his club members of hellfire, he was a big bro to the hellfire kiddos, he just wanted to graduate and pass on his hellfire leadership to the kiddos, he went along to the upside down to help his friends, kill vecna, avenge chrissy and then clear his name. LIKE WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK DID HIS DEATH SERVE?

AND THIS LINE BROKE ME! BROKE! HE RAN AWAY FROM PROBLEMS HIS WHOLE LIFE AND THE ONE TIME HE DIDN’T THE ONE TIME HE DESERVED TO FEEL GOOD ABOUT HIS BRAVERY, INSTEAD HE GOT AN UNTIMELY DEATH? FUCK THAT SHIT, YOU HEAR ME DUFFER BROS? FUCK THAT. HE LITERALLY SACRIFICED HIMSELF FOR A CITY THAT HATED HIM.

the desperation and sadness from dustin, he was losing his big bro, I FELT HIS PAIN!

dustin breaking down after eddie becomes unresponsive— i cried, cried and cried. i don’t remember the last time cried this much tbh. (don’t get me started on that lucas and max scene, oh my heart! somebody sedate me!)

you know what angers me more? eddie didn’t even get a funeral. no one got his body from the upside down? i don’t get it. everybody seemed to move on quickly? the more i think about, the more it angers me. no one mourned for eddie except for dustin and his uncle wayne.

are they gonna bring him back like hopper? my gut says it’s final eddie is gone gone but my heart thinks it might be a s03 hopper situation. i’m clearly still in the denial stage. yeah, i am delusional. I JUST WANT EDDIE BACK.

it’s the way they get us attached to characters like alexei, bob and eddie just to kill them right after they are introduced and rip our hearts out. THIS IS NOT OKAY. THIS IS BULLSHIT.

vol 2 is such an emotional rollercoaster, jonathan being the emotional support overprotective big bro to will, max saying she is not ready to die and lucas cry-screaming for erica to call help, eddie dying, dustin crying and holding eddie till his last breath, dustin and uncle wayne mourning for eddie. yeah, what is pain.

in summary, I AM NOT OVER EDDIE’S UNTIMELY DEMISE. IF MAX IS ALIVE AFTER GETTING HER BONES BROKEN IN MULTIPLE PLACES AND HER HEART RESTARTED, EDDIE CAN SURVIVE FROM BEING MAULED BY DEMOBATS FOR FUCKS SAKE. I HAVE A TINY HOPE DURING THIS GRIEVING PERIOD. AND THAT HOPE SHALL SUSTAIN ME UNTILL MY HEART HEALS AND I COME BACK TO REALITY. p/s: joseph quinn did a beautiful job. he turned eddie into a beloved and an unforgettable character. not only good-looking and have the most beautiful big ol’ brown eyes, he is very very talented actor. hope he continues to flourish and get more acting gigs. i’m gonna go search and watch his other roles… that might help mend my heart me thinks.

#stranger things spoilers #stranger things 4 #stranger things volume 2 #stranger things vol 2 #stranger things #my gifs #screencaps #it’s been awhile since i have been attached to a character like eddie #i am so glad steve is alive but killing eddie instead was not it #eddie playing the guitar was so sexy i gasped... feel in love with him even more right then and there #sigh!#eddie munson #dustin henderson #joesph quinn #gaten matarazzo #at least hopper and joyce got together at last #i planned to start obi wan kenobi after finishing st but heard the series is emotional...#i am taking a sabbatical from feelings right now so gonna wait for awhile before i start another series #ok phew

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birdshifts · 3 months

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Hi I just want to ramble and work out some thoughts/realizations I've had about my likely DR S/Os through tarot, reflecting, and memories

So I don't really script relationships per se. I script 'love interests' and that those I am attracted to or have feelings for return them. I am personally neither committed to polyamory or monogamy and in my DRs I take a 'polyamory is on the table but whatever is right for us' approach. I know who I am hoping to be with in my DRs but also maybe I meet them and they crack their knuckles and I hate their sense of humor or just see them as a friend.

I'm realizing that while my instincts on who I think I will be with has not been ... wrong entirely. But the assumptions I have made about those relationships have been.

My Marauders DR is multifandom and I've scripted characters from a lot of fandoms into it. I have been pretty sure for awhile that Eddie Munson in that DR will be the person I fall in love with, but I have also been realizing how little I knew. First, I figured since I scripted out poverty, systemic injustice, and the canon plot of Stranger Things, Eddie would be fairly well adjusted. And the last month or so I have been realizing NO. Eddie is working through a fucking lot and he hasn't been doing the self work at all until he meets me. He is going to hurt me and push me away. Not unforgivably, not cruelly I think. But I might have to eventually give him the space to figure things out for himself.

I have also realized that there were probably be a third person in our relationship and that that person is on a surprisingly similar journey from a very different background: Sirius. In my DR, Eddie is a nomaj-born from America, but he and Sirius are both working to unpack mirrored generational cycles that hurt their relationships with the people closest to them. They're almost foils to each other. I keep drawing the same card for the two of them, a version of the chariot showing two horses (with opposite colors) turned towards each other as they move together. Ironically, I think they may even get together before they get together with me after bonding over shared hatred over my ex (Frank Longbottom, who is lovely, has not and will never do anything wrong and is one of my very good friends in that DR).

In my journaling and tarot, I've realized this is going to be hard and it is going to challenge some unhealthy patterns I have in this reality too. I am a terrible partner here. I have disorganized attachment and I tend to be ready to bolt at the first sign of major feelings or disruption in the water. We are all going to have to work through things together. This is why I haven't decided to script things differently. I genuinely think I will grow and be better person here on the other side.

In contrast, my OUATxPokemon DR is a complete reversal. I've been pretty sure my S/O will be Killian Jones. In that DR, the only changes to his background I have made are that he hasn't killed innocent people, his father, or David's. He still has all his other experiences and he has still done some terrible things. He still is teamed up with Cora when I meet him. I figured this was the least likely relationship to be confident in, that it would be the most tumultuous of any of my planned DRs. I didn't even script whether he stays on our side after the beanstalk or not.

Oh my god, I was wrong. I was so wrong. In my own tarot readings, in the channeled readings of different people who don't know about the other readings, in the memories I have gotten. I don't think anyone has ever in any reality loved me so purely, so consistently. He decides he is all in so soon. He sees me - the good and the hard - and none of it scares him. He believes in fighting for what he wants and when he realizes he has to fight the darkest parts of himself ... he does. So readily. He knows I'm not weak or fragile, but he loves me so gently.

It's not that there's no hardships or struggles or barriers to work out. But coming together? Loving each other? Building something good and real and lasting? He makes that easy as breathing.

In two different channeled readings, he said of us meeting that I am his favorite inconvenience.

Anyways, there isn't a real point to this. But I'm realizing how wrong I was and how much (in so many other ways) both of these DRs are going to heal different parts of me here.

#dr: marauders #dr: ouatxpokemon

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hiro-gari · 3 years

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I have this thought lingering on my mind for awhile. It's actually more of Garou-centric headcanon, but also could be interpreted as Batarou headcanon since the implication is also there:

What if instead of watching tokusatsu or heroic live-action film like Kamen Rider, Power Rangers, Ultraman, etc, kid Garou likes to watch Godzilla movies? Since it's heavily focused on the monster beings rather than the heroes and having the cool big monster as the main protagonist? That's why he prefers it a lot more than any hero live-action shows. Kid Garou had lost his interest on watching any hero-centric shows after the bullying happened, believing that heroes are just the same as bullies.

Because he was really fond of Godzilla movies, kid Garou had been collecting all the VHS for the movie series since childhood days. And Garou even tried to bring them when he was moving into Badd's house since Badd has the VHS player that still working.

Although Badd has already got DVD/Bluray player or even Netflix account, he wanted Garou to reminisce his childhood memories of watching his favorite movies now that Garou has someone to watch along with him together. Back then Garou only watching it by himself since nobody liked the movie enough, now he has Badd accompanying him gushing on how awesome and cool the monsters are.

Fortunately, Badd also starting to like the movies, too, despite only had seen some of them when he was still a kid. Of course Badd likes heroic live-action shows, but it doesn't mean he couldn't enjoy some monster movies. Also, Badd admitted that Garou has a real good taste on choosing good films. Now that Garou has the complete series, they could watched them every weekend night at home together.

By the way, I thought it would be ironic if they both found out that Genos likes Robocop movies as childhood day movies when them three have sleepover at Badd's house, knowing how similar the story plot with his own fate. But of course they wont judged Genos and let him enjoyed the movie again.

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On the other hand..

For the newer monsters-related movies, I've seen someone headcanoned that Garou and Badd would like The Shape of Water since the story somehow resembled their love story. But what if they also like Venom, too?

Since Garou love some badass Anti-Hero alien monster protagonist and Badd is secretly a monsterfucker? Not to mention, the movie itself was considered as rom-com, and the pair is basically canon couple, too.

Imagine Garou teasing Badd the whole time when they watched the movie, asking what would it be if they're become one just like Venom and Eddie. With Garou protecting Badd for the rest of life as long as Badd still loving him and willing to taking care of him. Or them both, since Badd's well-being is also Garou's well-being, too.

I've made a Venom AU headcanon last year, if you interested: •kaincuro.tumblr.com/post/190838909632/ •kaincuro.tumblr.com/post/190843078702/

And the illustration by @the-goddessfighter for the AU: •the-goddessfighter.tumblr.com/post/190841857828/

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That's all I can offer for Garou's favorite monster movies! I'm so sorry if it's not really good, but I hope this tiny little headcanon can entertain you 😅💦

Thanks alot always for: @hiro-gari, @the-goddessfighter, @kaincuro, @garous-nipple, @jusqu-une-etudiante, @guby1620, and @lovelybutnot-ablankcanvas, also all of Batarou shippers in the fandom! Because of you all, I still writing these dumb silly af headcanons until now! Thank youuuu-- 😭🙏💖💖💝💐

Hope you have a great weekend~ 😘❤💜💙🌸🌺🌷🌻

-Little1993lamb-

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~Lilia:

AWWE YES!! I’ve always thought about this 🥺 Since he always seems to get so attached to the villain characters in his shows, just to be heartbroken when they lose :// OF COURSE he’d love a good monster movie!! “The scarier the better” ;)

I am totally imagining Garou setting up the old, dusty asf VHS player at Badd’s place, and Badd being like fr, we have streaming?? But, for Nostaligia™️ purposes, he’s like 🤷‍♂️ aight fine but we’re doing it the right way. And so he sets up a lil projector facing a white sheet the old school way so it feels like they’re in a movie theater :’) Thus Badd’s house becomes the old movie night hangout for the Shitty Teens

Garou is fr really missing out on all the villain-centric movies these days tho!! He'd literally be the BIGGEST Venom stan lmfao 😭

Thank you so much anon, this is so precious 💗💕 Hope you are having a great weekend too 😚

#symbiote garou 🥵🥵#br o #i always kinda thought he’d love megamind too lol #they have the same energy #submission #anon #batarou #garou #metal bat #headcanon

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gobeepmyself · 4 years

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i tend to write a lot of characters who experience either a lack of love or loss of it (also w/ parent issues but what’s good we talkin’ bout THIS rn) and richie is so profound in his loss. but it’s very different from another character i write, and i think a lot of it has to rest in the concept of what could have been as opposed to what was.

richie is a grown ass man who lived a life without eddie more than he did with. he forgot that bitch. he was GONE. but imagine the turmoil and whiplash of coming back to defeat an evil clown (ok, hard to do that but) and regaining a multitude of memories. in the book it just happens as a recall but in the films it feels like a relearning. richie was remembering an infatuation that was strong enough to leave him feeling wrecked and whether that bond was amplified by the act of battling and temporarily beating pennywise or not; it was significant enough to impact him in his later, more established life.

which brings me thinking about how stephen tackles memory and nostalgia. it’s been awhile since i read the book and since we’re on the topic, i have terrible memory. as a twenty-seven year old, i can’t remember most of what i did in my childhood. but i remember people - some names i don’t retain but i remember certain, very random moments. and the feelings in those moments. i remember bethany and her sister and they had a mickey mouse game that TO THIS DAY i have no been able to find, but i remember the giddy frustration of playing it and constantly failing. i remember laying on this curved rock on the elementary playground while school was in session but it wasn’t recess because i felt an incredible amount of adrenaline. being naughty!! in this militant family?

i remember bad things because i remember how strongly i felt and i remember my first kiss because of how nervous i was and that is the strong dictator. richie might have thought of the kids he was friends with over the years in that same, distant way. maybe (with different circumstances) he would’ve checked eddie out on facebook and went over his elementary school pictures - you know the ones they made you take of your class and the year??

in that hypothetical vision, we could say richie remembered eddie (and by proxy all the losers) because he had a strong affinity for them. most people (baring mental illness/conditions that keep memory frail and/or out of reach) remember their childhood and their feelings. and if eddie was richie’s first crush, especially with how we’ve seen it presented film wise (bc i can’t remember that damn ass book to save my LIFE but i remember fucking brittany and her POOL), then richie’s mourning what could have been.

maybe he remembered on a sunday morning the way eddie would react when he teased him. that rush of swoopy gut bats. that’s nostalgia, if they were kids when it happened and richie is thirty-eight. even when they reunite to kil that fucking clown and richie endures reliving his feelings, everything from that point on is what could have been and glides easily into saudade. i think richie is a fairly relatable character, in that sense - especially if you’re experiencing it through the film because most people attach to that aspect and understand it viscerally when richie can’t help but weep.

i’m fucked up

#; I THINK YOU READ SHIT ON THE INTERNET ( ooc )#i have been in my thoughts and feelings #i write emma cullen from mag7 too and honestly anything with shit like this gets me GOING #fuck #this probably doesn't make any sense #i wrote it and didn't reread #i am TIRED and SAD and TOO GAY #i'm blaming this on celeste and ted #me being anxious about things translates into me writing big honking things like this #IF I THINK ABOUT THIS THEN I DON'T THINK ABOUT ANYTHING ELSE #that's how problems work right

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f-da-program · 7 years

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The Losers and D&D

So after I saw this post about Bill having a D&D poster on his wall I got to thinking what kind of characters the losers would play, so here are my thoughts.

Bill

Bill is obviously the dungeon master. There was no discussion about it, everyone just knew. Aside from his leadership skills, he is the best story teller that any of the losers know, so getting to be in one of his stories is super cool for everyone. And Bill is really great at coming up with stories but also making things up as they go along, so when someone does something unexpected Bill always come up with something else super quickly.

Eddie

Everyone thought Eddie would play something like a cleric, focusing more on healing than fighting. But Eddie actually immediately wanted to be a barbarian. Everyone was surprised, but Eddie just shrugged, “Not like I’m ever going to get to solve my problems in real life by punching stuff, so I’m doing it now.” Richie makes fun of him and asks if he’s going to be a stupid character too. Eddie smirks and tells Bill he wants to be a half-orc. “Not going to overthink anything. I’m just going to punch my problems until they go away.”

Eddie sometimes struggles with his characterization while playing because everyone Richie is making stupid decisions and his first instinct is to stop them, but he takes a deep breath and just goes with it. It’s good practice for trying to get better in real life at just chilling out.

Mike

Mike actually takes the role of cleric. He likes the idea of being able to heal his friends as well as fight with them. He also occasionally likes to make his friends beg him to heal them and not someone else. Bill originally wasn’t going to let the losers make bribes to Mike, but Mike requested to roll for it and got a natural 20. So Bill okay’d all forms of out of game bribery. He plays as a dragon-born (fire power) and is lawful-good. His character is very into doing the right thing. Mike is amazing at staying in character (except when taking bribes, but let a man live).

Richie

Richie is a bard and frankly it wasn’t even up for discussion. Bill asked Richie what he wanted to be and everyone in unison said “Bard.” Richie was just like, “Hell yeah I am.” His favorite spell is vicious mockery, in which he will roast anyone to cause damage. He also plays as a dwarf who got laid off from the mines and is really pissed about it and took up mandolin playing to get by. His dwarf accent is actually pretty good until he starts singing, then things go to shit.

Stan

Stan is an elf because they are beautiful and symmetrical and Stan loves them. When Bill asked him what he wanted his class to be Richie said he was obviously a rouge so he could steal money since he’s Jewish and all. The other losers immediately call him out but Stan just rolls his eyes. “No Richie, I’m not a rogue; I’m a noble. So I was born with money.” The losers laugh their asses off as Richie comments that Stan got off a good one. Stan is probably the most attached to his character, who he worked really hard to make and bought a really cool miniature of.

Beverly

Beverly is a tiefling rogue. When she first announced this Richie called her basic. She revealed that she’d pickpocketed him earlier and was just playing to her strengths. Really no one is surprised because being a cunning, badass thief is right down her ally. Beverly drew her character and everyone got super jealous because she looked so cool. She ended up doing a portrait of all their characters together with a doodle above them of Bill sitting on a cloud controlling their fate. Beverly sometimes draws their fight scenes if she gets super inspired. Also, she designs super rad d&d outfits. Everyone wants to wear the stuff she made for their characters.

Ben

Ben is a human warlock. He loves the idea of being a normal human able to do amazing things. He studies up on so much D&D material guys. Like he special orders D&D books at the library. He is the only one in the group who knows all of his spells and abilities without having to look down at his character sheet. He also knows everyone else’s skills. He’s the person in the middle of a fight who will suggest, “Oh, well don’t use you *such and such ability*.” And everyone is just like, “I have that power?”

In-game Relationships

-If Bill missed a session he would let someone else sit in as Dungeon Master. This led to a couple of sessions where Richie was gunning to kill Eddie’s character. In order to make saving him more realistic Mike had his character fall in love with Eddie’s. Eddie went with it so now they are in a very committed and ridiculous relationship (the intelligence gap is astounding). So it’s like, “AHH! I HURT! Make ouch go away so I hurt back!” and “Yeah, I’m casting a healing spell. You get ‘em babe, that’s my sexy buff half-orc.”

Bill came back to the game and found out this happened because he told everyone to get into character and Mike started nuzzling Eddie’s neck while Eddie screamed, “I LOVE DRAGON MAN!” Bill just looked at Richie, “Y-you pushed him in-into a-a-another m-man’s arms, didn’t y-you?” And then, “I sure did, Billy. I sure did.”

-Bev and Stan are also in a relationship in-game. They always sneak away together and it’s some Aladdin type shit because they’re a noble and a thief. But it’s also tragic because Stan’s character keeps trying to break things off with Beverly’s because she’s a tiefling and not beautiful enough for an elf like himself. But damn it, he just loves her so much and keeps coming back. Bev and Stan’s dramatic romance is hilarious and the two of them definitely plot stuff out of game to do for their next D&D session.

-Ben once jokingly asked Richie’s character if he wanted to get it on since everyone else was. Richie declined, but Bill demanded they roll for seduction. Ben got an 18, Richie got a 5. Their characters did the deed. It ended up becoming a running gag where Ben would ask, Richie would refuse, and then Ben would out roll him. Bill always came up with a story for how the seduction happened, but after awhile it happened so often that he started offering to let the other losers decide how Ben’s character seduced Richie’s this time.

Richie once tried to turn the tables by trying to seduce Ben. He rolled a 1. His character ended up crying and writing a song for Ben’s character on the mandolin. Bill made Richie come up with the song on the spot. It was the only time any of the losers had been glad to hear Richie sing. “How can he turn down an ass so fine! Does this mean he’s doing one that isn’t mine!

Basically these kids have a good time.

#It #Losers club #beverly marsh #bill denbrough #Eddie kaspbrak #richie tozier #ben hanscom #mike hanlon #Stan Uris #d&d

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