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this-daydream-is-dangerous-13 · 7 months

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First of all, I can't thank you enough for all the work you have put out on Haylor. Also, I was relieved to see your analogy of TK and agree with it. My question to you is do you think that Blondie knows that she's hurting Harry by getting with someone else so quickly? I never imagined that she would do this after the fiasco with MH. I'm also afraid that she's looking for an excuse to not make a commitment to Harry.

TYSM for your kind words, Anon. It is a lot of fun to have somewhere to outline all these thoughts and discuss them because I don’t have IRL, local friends who want to discuss Haylor with me. It’s been a joy interacting with you all here.

On to your questions: I think Blondie is the queen of compartmentalization and keeping her shit held close to her chest. If she lets herself think about it, she would for sure realize her choices hurt H. I just don’t think she is letting herself think about that right now.

In my social media avoidance, I am listening to the audiobook of Jennette McCurdy’s harrowing “I’m Glad My Mom Died”. One particular passage jumped out at me earlier today:

- while her Mom was in hospice and dying, McCurdy broke up with her the guy she’d been seeing. Looking back, she admitted that it was so much easier to just pursue the heady, infatuation stages of relationships and run away when things started to get serious because that required honesty and compromise and vulnerability and hard work. And I thought: bingo!

For weeks, I have been saying TK is uncomplicated. We know that Blondie sure loves the “delicate beginning rush” (and H adores that delicate point of view) because it’s FUN! And carefree! And all the discussions about “how do we merge lives? Deal with communication issues? Etc.” are all well in the future.

The May MH fiasco was a reunion of sorts, and I bet early on Blondie was like “and thaasaaaat’s why it didn’t work out last time. Shit.” I speak from personal experience when I say that reunions are initially amazing, but very quickly force some hard conversations about all the things that led to the breakdown in the first place. And that is scary and hard. And doable, sure, but complicated.

Story time: when we were 17 and 19, I fell deeply in love with my best male friend. We dated for a couple years but broke up because we needed to grow up and figure our shit out. The in between times were messy (and included me drunkenly enacting the song Question….? when he dated someone I hated despite me having a different LT boyfriend). We reunited at 22 and 24, and it was amazing at first and then quickly became fraught. We legit had a discussion where we agreed: “our options are (a) this goes the distance or (b) we cannot speak again” because we couldn’t just be friends anymore. We figured out shit out and are happily (and beautifully imperfectly) married, but it took and takes work. It is absolutely worth it but it is hard! And it really could have gone either way.

So the prospect an actual, official public reunion—knowing that they’ve publicly cultivated the “peaceful friendship” Tree told us all about after the Grammys—is scary and risky. It might be too much for them ever to contemplate, even if they want to be together otherwise. And Blondie has been through what many people (me included) would consider a divorce. Hell, same with HS and the OW coparenting stuff. They’ve both been vulnerable then badly burned in the recent past.

So I think Blondie continues to run (which @womanexile tells me is often what one TF does). And new relationships have no baggage, at least at first. So here we are.

What do you think, besties?

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sallysavestheday · 10 months

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✿ - Sex headcanon for Maglor 😇

-- and for Oromë (or your thots on Valar and sex in general!!)

Thanks for the ask, @samarqqand! From this list, which I am enjoying enormously.

Maglor: Solo time only. Not consistent with most fanon, I know, but also not counter to canon, which is the line I try to tread. His canon marriage was the result of some giggly but actually very serious trying-this-out with a much-loved colleague that ended in a bond that surprised them both, and that experiment was not repeated. They enjoyed a long and loving artistic and personal collaboration that was only ruptured by the Oath (the volume of Maglor's mail to and from Formenos during the first exile was the subject of much familial amusement and envy). In both Valinor and in Middle-earth, though, Maglor gets most of what he needs from the Music, both formally in practicing his art/craft, and informally from being generally even more tapped into Song than most Eldar. A wild gallop or a plunge under a waterfall or a night flat on his back under the stars or a perfect orange are all eminently satisfying for him. I do headcanon him as wildly romantic, with a deep well of fidelity for those he loves, but the only hands he wants on his body are his own.

Oromë: I write Oromë as corporeally ambiguous in Beloved, Forsaken, Redeemed, and I see the other Ainur as the same (except when they are holding a form for a particular purpose, like Olorin/Gandalf in Middle-earth). And I don't think they have the same connection to bodies, and the various ways those bodies can feel, as the Eldar. My Celegorm gets enormous physical satisfaction from being embraced by Oromë, but I leave it up to the reader to determine whether or not there's actually something that might be recognizable as sex going on. I don't think there is, personally -- I think it's more about the fulfillment of a spiritual connection and being intimately known, but I had fun writing them with plenty of room for imagination.

I'm glad you asked!

Send more, folks. This one's fun.

#asks and answers #maglor #orome #celegorm

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pancake-breakfast · 11 months

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Trigun Book Club! Maybe Wolfwood will show up in today's reading....

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Trigun Volume 1: Covers + 1-3, 3 Detailed Thoughts, 4, 4 DT, 5-6, 5-6 + DT, 6 DT, 7-8, 9-10

Trigun Volume 2: Covers + Extras, 1, 1 Supplemental Research

Stream-of-consciousness thoughts for Trigun Vol. 2, Chapters 2-4 below.

Chapter 2: Diablo

Ok, Legato Bluesummers is a HUGE problem child, but I LOVE LOVE LOVE his character design. This guy would adore goth fashion.

I wonder who's decided Vash deserves this particular hell. Also, it's noteworthy that the fact that they're sending TWELVE assassins after him (presumably one at a time) suggests they expect at least the first few to fail.

"Anyone in their right mind would keep that man locked up!" Hahahahahahahaha, try it.

Ugh, poor Vash.... He looks so sad and angry... and a bit scary. I'm worried for him.

It would be absolutely understandable if his feelings here were toward the humans unjustly locking him up, but the text goes on to let us know that the primary thing on his mind... the source of all his feelings right now... is Knives.

Flashback time!

Ohhhh, this is a place where '98 hard deviated, but Stampede stayed the course. '98 had Vash, Knives, and Rem running around with a handful of other characters back then, but here, it's just them.

Honestly, I feel like this panel is hitting on more story themes than are immediately apparent.

How sad that loneliness drove her to join Project Seeds. Sad, but understandable.

Oh, Vash, babygirl. Someone hug him.

You know, there's another character who wears an outfit that looks very similar to this in present day. And it's not Vash.

Full-on mom mode here in telling them what to do.

Vash looks older in this scene than he did in either anime adaptation.

Obscuring Knives's face. Smart. Can't see too much of him until it's Time.

TBH, Knives's argument here feels like justification after the fact. Like he needs a reason for everything that just happened to be right despite any elements of it going sideways.

For a pacifist, he sure can rock some serious murderface.

The ease with which he flips from murderface to softboi face is a bit disturbing.

He says this, but babygirl here looks SO TIRED. Whether or not he believes what he's saying, I think he really needs their kindness right now.

I don't know what Milly is trying to say/do here, but I wish her the best!

I just want to note that knowing my kana has made the sound effects a LOT more fun for me than they'd be otherwise.

Mmmmmm, something tells me Vash is likely to be out of there before morning. It might be this big guy who just showed up and opened fire, it might not. Who can say?

Oh, honey. Vash is NEVER unarmed. Even when he's literally missing an arm.

Hi, Monev! Thank you for introducing yourself to the class! You can sit down now. There's an empty seat right over there.

Yeah, the LAST thing Vash needs is to be trying to protect some bystanders against anyone making this level of posturing.

Good question, Monev. I don't think Vash is quite sure what he's up against, but he's clearly not going to underestimate you or take any chances. Not after meeting Legato.

Goshdarnit, the girls are still here.

Yeah, this could get messy.

I feel like Meryl taking a hit here was kind of nodded to in Stampede, where she also rushed in against Monev and nearly got herself killed.

See? Gun arm. Vash is never unarmed.

Annnd he's no longer chained down, either.

Not sure what's going on here, but I doubt it will be good for the building.

Yep. Sayonara, windows. We barely knew thee.

What's wrong, Monev? Looks like you might have bit off more than you can chew.

Oh, man. This end panel, though. Current favorite Vash murder pose.

Something something Hellsing something Alucard something aesthetic inspiration.

Chapter 3: Fragile

(The title makes me think of this song.)

Oof, little Meryl. I'm glad Milly's taking care of her.

I wish it was apparent who was thinking they can't let Vash go. I'm guessing it's Meryl, but that's based on metagame knowledge.

Iconic Vash pose.

Oof, goodbye, buildings. May you meet up with the windows from the previous chapter in whatever afterlife architecture ends up in.

Ok, this pause, though. This deliberate pause. The way the panels move from Vash shouting as loud as he can, to this almost peaceful pose of his back with the "ooooo" hum being the only indication of movement as he looks at a literal wall, to the GIANT SWISS CHEESE EXPLOSION. That's such a good build.

Ahhhh, and then this show of him focusing on the next page. People are getting shot, the world is exploding, and his gun is PERFECTLY LEVEL, his eyes are open. He's watching and waiting like a freaking ambush predator.

Aaaand he's injured. Darnit.

BUT HE MADE THE SHOT. TWICE. And Monev knows it.

Milly, still trying to help. <3

Heh, Vash might have lost the arm, but he didn't lose the arm. Hahahahahahahaha

Babygirl, remember the lesson you were trying to impress on Katie in the last volume. Don't get so caught up in your memories that you forget to be in the moment. The past is already fixed. The moment is where you can do the most good.

Something something it may seem silly something will to survive.

Uhhhh, why are we going to the bank now? Maybe something about that vault being thick and potentially safe?

Dang, we can just follow the blood trail, can't we?

Oof, trying to reload one-handed like this. Hands shaking. Trying to remember his own potential despite everything.

Uhhh... why was there just a bag of weapons hanging out there? Did Monev put it there earlier? It looks like something you'd find in a video game.

Honestly, this security guard should just take the night off.

Can't have Trigun without the bigass guns...

Vash is using the door as a shield. Just not the way one would suspect.

Again, with that perfectly steady hand.

Goodbye, Monev tough-guy mask. Hello, knee to the face.

Even after all this, Vash's resolve immediately cracks when he sees Monev's genuine fear of dying.

Again, with Rem's form blending into his and dominating the page. Meanwhile, he's just a shadow in the corner. Again, with the heavenly imagery of her, where here the only think keeping her from looking like a traditional angel is the lack of wings. But her hair, the way the cloth flows around her, and her whole pose speaks of angel's flight.

And, shaking, his gun dripping with blood from the force with which he shoved it in Monev's eye, he comes back to himself. And loses it in an entirely different way.

I love this last panel. It makes Vash seem so small and so alone. At the same time, literally everyone else in the panel aside from Monev is coming toward him to help. He might feel alone, but he's far from it.

Chapter 4: Scars

Ah, yes. Fragile things do end up with scars, if they don't break.

Honestly, what Meryl is typing here sounds far more journalistic than insurance agent-y.

She's starting to realize that, while Vash himself is a nice and gentle soul, there's a lot about him she doesn't know. I'm reminded of that quote, "No one will ever know the violence it took to become this gentle."

(BTW, I'm listening to the Stampede soundtrack and it's currently playing the version of Knives's theme with vocals and it's NOT HELPING.)

(Also, it sounds like SOMEONE is developing a bit of a crush on Mr. The Stampede.)

Monev seems to have grown some respect for Vash.

Ha, they gave this line to Wolfwood in Stampede.

I appreciate Vash's response. It says a lot about his character. Even when he seems like he's trusting, he's generally being far more cautious than people think he's being.

Quest #1: Complete! You've acquired a Coin Half!

*sigh* Everyone's scared, but he saved them all. But... their concerns aren't unjustified. If one assassin found him, the others likely will, too. And it's not like they'd send their biggest guns for Round 1.

You really shouldn't just walk straight into people's rooms. Even if you knock. Lucky for everyone he already had pants on.

Ugh, he's such a mess....

LOL, buddy. I hope that's not why you're turning down the opportunity for sex. And... if a partner really cared about you, it's not like she'd think less of you for them. Hasn't anyone ever told you chicks dig scars? Good on Meryl for calling him out.

Vash might have initially been put off by them seeing his scars, but now that they have, he doesn't seem to see a reason to hide them.

I don't think Vash could live a quiet life if he wanted to. Not with the Gung-Ho Guns hunting him. We'll not get into Ericks for the time being.

This is such a thing, though. I don't think she would fault him or think any less of him if he never bothered to settle that score. Then again, all things considered, him taking a back seat in all this would kind of be ignoring a ticking time bomb that might undo all she sacrificed for.

Huh, it's a bit of a surprise they let Monev stay for a few days, too.

There's something hilarious about Meryl's roller suitcase in the middle of the desert here.

LOLOLOL, Milly calling out Meryl for her intense interest in Vash.

Milly is a lot more devious than she looks....

Uhhhhh, what's with the cross? What's with Vash's panic?

Ohhhh, shit. Is that Monev??

Yep, it's Monev. Is... is he still alive??? Crucifixion is specifically designed to 1) be IMMENSELY painful (the spikes are generally hammered not through the palms, where they'd just rip out, but through the nerve bundle that runs up the forearm between the bones, which are holding the majority of your weight), and 2) slowly kill via exposure.

Nooooo, I don't like this guy alreadyyyyyyy....

I... I don't think Monev had a home. Not really. Not like the Gung-Ho Guns were gonna welcome him back to the mansion basement. He'd need to make a new path for himself in the world.

Yyyyep, it's E.G. Mine. Please send him back where you found him. I don't like him.

Vash, staying focused in this.

TBH, that get-up looks EXTREMELY uncomfortable.

I agree, Vash. I agree. I hope you can dodge this trolley problem with an Option 3.

Hahahaha, Vash manages to disable E.G. before his bag has a chance to drop to below shoulder level.

Howwww. How did he know Legato was watching?!

Oh, good. Legato's surprised by it all, too. And almost got shot. He's taking it pretty well, though.

Go for the source of the problem rather than the riffraff it's kicking up. Wise. Legato doesn't look pleased by this change of plans. But I think Vash is right to decide this quest is shit.

I feel very Two Cakes-y about manga Monev vs. TriStamp Monev.

(Warning: Spoilers for Trigun: Stampede ahead.)

There are things I like about both. And while TriStamp wrapping Vash directly into his backstory and mucking much more clearly with Monev's head might be a bit off-putting to some, I appreciated how much more personal they made his arc to Vash. You have all the same elements; a boy betrayed and trained to be a monster, released primarily to cause Vash pain, and then just as it seems he might be saved from everything he's been through, his life is cut short in a way that does NOT endear Vash to his killer.

But in Stampede, Monev's arc also holds the full weight of 20 years of Vash being too late. Too late to save the town. Too late to save the boy. To short-sighted to see the consequences of just trying to help. Too slow to save the man.

It makes it hit in a far more meaningful fashion... but I don't know that it would be right for manga Vash at this point in his story arc. Right now, he needs to recognize and reconcile what he is and isn't. We've seen far more of him being silly than we've seen of him being dangerous, and here, we see him leaning into his more dangerous side. Through his arc in the manga, we too must start to ask the questions Meryl asks, and might begin to wonder if, perhaps, the Humanoid Typhoon is far closer to the edge than he immediately appears.

#poor vash has had to spend too much time being serious in these chapters #though for SOME REASON i think that trend is likely to continue...#trigunbookclub #trigun manga #volume 2 #pancake analysis

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bellysoupset · 2 years

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ABOUT THE GIRL WHO CALLED VINCE AN ASSHOLE

Okay now hear me out… Vince throwing up from a stomach bug so bad he needs to get an IV at the hospital and guess who happens to be in her clinicals at that time and gets him as a patient?

It would be SO fun to have another med student in the universe some Jonah is a wimp about puking… she could be a friend on call to help someone who’s sick or hurt!

This ask got out of hand, but I was having too much fun with the bickering hehe. Thank you so much for the ask and for such a warm welcome to Wendy!

Vince was no stranger to puking. Not just in general, but in particular today, he was well acquainted with it.

What had started as a general nausea during gym had quickly progressed to throwing up everything he had ever eaten by dinner and it hadn't stopped once he was empty.

His roommate, Matt, had fucked off to some friend's place, in order not to catch his bug and he was glad for the privacy it gave him, but also this meant the responsibility to act level headed was entirely on him and well...

Vince groaned as his stomach seized again, sending up the water he had just drank. He felt dizzy and shaky, covered in cold sweat... Black spots danced before his eyes and he coughed up more bile, making his throat burn.

He needed help, medical help. His first instinct was to call Lucas, so he crawled back to the room and, still sitting on the floor, reached blindly to get his phone on the bedside table. He couldn't get up, he was too dizzy.

The phone rang once, before "If You Like Piña Colada" blasted in his ear and Vince was painfully reminded Lucas had gone down to the beach with Bell, making it very clear he had no plans to pick up his phone during the mini vacations.

Plan B was Leo, but Leo had off handedly mentioned a date and Vince didn't want to mess that up for him. Jonah?

It rang and rang and then Jon picked up with, "make it quick, I'm busy."

He took a minute to swallow back down more bile and his pride, "I'm... Jon, I need a ride to the hospital."

There was a pause, a sharp inhale, then, "If this is a prank, its. not. funny."

Vince groaned, his head was throbbing and he was struggling to remain sitting up, "Jon, I'm serious."

Another heavy silence, then Jonah grumbled, "I'll be there in five, don't die" and hung up the phone.

Vince could've cried with relief, if he had tears to produce. Instead he gagged weakly and puked to his side on the floor, nothing but cloudy water his body refused to keep down.

He hung awkwardly to the side, dizzy, until there was a bang on the door, followed by cursing and steps pacing back and forth. Vince tried to get up to answer it, or at least crawl over to unlock it, but all he managed was to lean back, nape meeting his bed's mattress.

More cursing, Jonah using his business voice and then the supervisor got his door unlocked.

Vince sighed in relief as he felt Jonah's hand immediately coming to cup his neck, two fingers planted on his pulse point. His friend wasn't looking at him, but at the ceiling like he was counting.

"Jon...?"

"Shut up," he snapped, then glanced down and retched, squeezing his eyes shut to try and avoid gagging again over the little puddle of sick, "c'mon, Vin-" he grabbed Vince's arm and threw it over his shoulder, then snapped at the supervisor, "don't just stand there, help me get him up!"

Vince groaned loudly as the change in positions made cramps hit him like being stabbed. He let hi head hang, unable to close his mouth, "..'m dyin"

"No, you're not, you big drama queen" Jonah scoffed, dragging him for the door, "when did the vomiting start?"

"After gym" Vince's knees were trembling with the effort to keep him up, "after gym yesterday."

"Yesterday was a Sunday, there was no gym" Jonah's voice sounded distant and angry, like Vince was hearing him from underwater. He grabbed his friend's shoulder.

"Gon passsoout," Vince slurred, then sank to his knees, bringing Jon and the supervisor down with him.

*******

He woke up in a moving car, but was too out of it to make sense of what was going on. Jonah was driving and it was his super fancy car, which caused a chuckle to roll out of Vince as he imagined his friend's face if he ended up hurling in there.

"Thank fucking God you're awake," Jonah sighed, but didn't turn to look at him, "we're almost at the hospital, two minutes tops."

"Uhm," was all Vince managed through the nausea. He felt carsick now, to top it off. Vince pressed his forehead to the window and shuddered with the cold.

"Can you-" he interrupted himself with a gag, then reached blindly trying to turn on the heat, only for Jonah to push his hand away from the panel.

"you're running a fever, no heat for you" Jonah said sharply, then pulled the car to park on the emergency spot before the ER, "okay, I need you to help me here, Vin."

He circled the car and all but hugged Vince's torso to pull him up, causing the taller man to groan, stomach convulsing with an empty heave, "Jon, stop squeezing me-"

"If you throw up on me, I'm going to kill you," Jonah huffed, voice strained with the effort to keep him up. Finally he dropped Vin on a wheelchair a security guard had brought to the front upon seeing them and pushed him inside the hospital.

However, instead of stopping in the packed full waiting room, he kept pushing the wheelchair to the elevators, causing Vince to frown. His head was pounding and he cupped his forehead, rubbed his eye with a thumb, "Jonah, where are you taking me?" he asked, trying to sound just confused and not as bone-tired as he was.

"To get checked in," Jonah shrugged, pressing a button to the first underground, "my friend's in clinic today."

"You have other friends besides us?"

"Bold of you to count yourself my friend," he replied coldly, causing Vince to snort, but the friendly teasing was lost on him, he was too miserable and tired. His empty, sour stomach was still cramping, a tight sensation at the base of his throat alerting him the urge to dry heave was far from done.

The elevator doors opened again and Jonah kept pushing his chair. They passed by a hallway lined with chairs on one side, a bunch of people waiting and Vince cringed in sympathy and embarrassment. If he wasn't feeling so goddamn awful, he would've felt even worse about cutting the line.

Jonah knocked on a closed office door and waited until a woman's voice said, "come in!"

Vince's stomach turned, perfect timing, as Jonah pushed the door open and let out a sigh in relief.

"Hey Wendy," he said in a tone Vince had heard hardly five or six times during the three years they had known each other. His voice was all open and soft, "sorry to cut in your queue like that, but it's an emergency."

"No prob-" Wendy waved him off, but then she actually saw Vince and scoffed, "you."

Vince frowned, while Jonah echoed his confusion, "you two know each other?"

"Oh yeah," Wendy replied bitterly, "Pussy Magnet over here made me work the Hospital fundraiser all by myself while he flirted with every moving thing."

Jonah scoffed, Vince cringed: because of her line, but also because his nausea chose this moment to double down.

"Sounds like him alright," Jonah said and Vince turned his head to glare at him.

"I didn't let her work all by herself, I had heatstroke!" He defended himself, "I wasn't feeling well!"

"And whose fault was that?" Wendy rolled her eyes, getting up and circling her office's table. She had a stethoscope hanging around her neck like a scarf and a white coat closed over her deep blue scrubs. Her hair was down, it was chocolate brown, wavy and chin length, framing her heart shaped face, "so why are you here today, Pussy Magnet?"

Vince scoffed and glared at her, he was feeling miserable but she was pushing it, "I think I rather wait in the ER for a different doct-" Jonah interrupted him by flicking his ear.

"Shut up," he said, then to Wendy, "he's been throwing up for two days straight, at least. Said it started after gym, but gym last opened Saturday. Arrhythmic and passe-"

"Jonah, what the fuck, man!"

"passed out when I was bringing him here. He's running a low grade fever too. I think it's most likely just dehydration, but best to give him a check up before hooking him to an IV."

"Any diarrhea?" Wendy asked, completely unbothered by Vince's scowl. He pouted and Jonah shoved his shoulder.

"So?"

Vince's cheeks burned with the humiliation, more than just the fever, "some," he grumbled, "before the puking started."

Wendy raised her eyebrows, "it's a miracle you're this coherent at all, Pussy Magnet."

"Oh fuck yo-"

"Can you lie down on the bed? I need to check your stomach, but-"

"Fuck no, I'm not letting you touch me, doc," Vince glared at her, too humiliated and feverish to give a fuck. He just wanted to sleep and was already regretting ever calling Jonah.

"Okaay," Wendy rolled her eyes, "big macho man, either you let me do the check up or you can go back to ER, let the nurses file you in, get charged, then wait four hours because we're packed full and then get checked up by me anyway because I'm the one in clinic tonight. What's gonna be?"

"I'm going to go down to the ER and wait until your shift ends," Vince bit out, because he was nothing if not incredibly stubborn. Hell, he'd just go back to the dorms and sleep it off, black dots, raging headache and dizziness be damned. People didn't die from the stomach flu, right?

"Oh for fuck's sake, Vince!" Jonah snapped, pushing his chair and grabbing his bicep, "get on the damn bed!"

He tried to complain, but Jonah was much stronger than him in the current situation, forcing him up by wrapping an arm around his back and then taking the chair from under him, so Vince had no choice but to lean on his friend.

His stomach churned fiercely, from embarrassment and annoyance, and Jon propped him against the bed, shooing him into a lying down position. Once Vince's head hit the flimsy excuse for a pillow that the cot had built into it, all the exhaustion of the simple movement hit him at once.

His head swam and there were colorful dots pulsing in front of his eyes, a horrid ringing in his ears that told him he might pass out. He had the vague idea Doctor Bitch-a-lot was saying something to Jon, but he couldn't make out what.

"....-kay?"

"Uh?"

"Alright," she took his confusion as a confirmation and then his shirt was rolled up to his chest and her cold fingers touched his stomach. It was beyond uncomfortable and Vince squirmed, trying to get her hands off of him, while swallowing down convulsively as saliva started pooling in his mouth.

"Hurts more when I press or when I pull my hand back?" she asked, palm gently digging into his lower right, and Vince shook his head, trying to sit up on the bed. He was gonna throw up.

She pulled her hand back - no added pain -, just as Jonah let out a little, "shit," as he realized what was going on and grabbed Vince's shoulder, helping him sit up.

He dry heaved, retched loudly, whole back arching with its intensity. A metal basin appeared before him, just in time for another strong heave to bring a tiny amount of brightly colored bile. Vince let out a groan, head hanging in shame, drooling over the basin.

It took him a moment to realize Wendy was the one holding the basin in front of him, her other hand was cupping his neck, firm but gentle, "you good?"

He shook his head and the lights in the room danced too, "...izzy."

"I know," her tone was much softer than before, her thumb rubbed little circles on his nape, "we're gonna get you hooked on an IV and you'll feel better really soon."

"Uhm," Vince gagged again, wincing with a sharp stomach cramp. He wanted to vocalize he didn't think he could stand up again, but thankfully no one asked him to. Wendy put the basin away, then grabbed his legs and slowly turned him so he was facing the side again. This time she joined Jonah as they wrapped an arm around his torso, helping him sit back down on the chair. Even then, the simple movement left him completely spent and Vince squeezed his eyes shut, leaning his head back.

He knew Jon was saying something, giving more details, something about concussions - then a device was wrapped around his bicep, squeezing it to measure his blood pressure. Vince was too fucking tired to care, the ringing in his ears was worse than before and he felt Jonah's torso behind him, so he leaned his head back to rest on his stomach and let exhaustion pull him under again.

*******

He came back to in a secluded area of the shared station. The curtains had been drawn around his bed and Jonah was planted on his side, yawning on his hand, but still very alert with a plastic cup filled with coffee in his hands.

"How many coffees have you had?" Vince whispered, voice shot from all the puking.

Jonah's head snapped up and he couldn't contain a smile at seeing his friend awake, one he was too tired to cover up now, "lost count around six," he answered, "how are you feeling, Vin?"

"Like hell," he sighed, "what time is it?"

"Uhm, Monday-" Jonah yawned, checking his phone, "well, technically Tuesday now, 3 AM. You got admitted in Monday at 9 PM."

"Great," Vince winced as he scooted up in the bed. His stomach ached like he had done way too many crunches. Jonah held up a water cup for him and the water settled heavily, but with no nausea. Small win.

"I called Atwood, he's gonna pick you up in the morning."

"You called Lucas?" Vince whined, "why?"

"Because there's no fucking way you're going back to the dorms and I didn't think you'd want to stay at my place. You can though, doors ope-"

Vince's brows furrowed even further. Why was Jonah being so damn nice? "shit Jon, I really scared you, uh?"

Jonah's mouth snapped shut and he glared at him, but didn't deny it. He looked away, "you passed out twice, Vince, c'mon. You scared everyone, Wendy too."

Vince would've blushed if he sill had it in him. Instead, he said, "Wendy uh? You were hella cozy with her, man."

Jonah's eyebrows shot up, confusion written on his face where Vince had expected friendly annoyance, "I'm sorry?"

"I'm just saying, you're all sweet with her," Vince grinned, so tired and relieved there was no extra nausea, he was feeling a little high, "it's cute."

"I... You think I'm into her?" Jonah's voice was so incredulous that Vince frowned at him.

"Hey, she's super pretty, wh-"

"Vince, I'm gay!" Jonah scoffed, "I've been gay the entire three years we've known each other. I've been out since day one- Vince, honestly! Wendy?!"

"You don't have to sound that offended at the prospect of hitting on me," Wendy's voice traveled through the curtain as she pulled it back and poked her head in.

Vince's mouth snapped shut and he glared at Jon, "I just thought you were bi..."

"Christ," Jonah wrinkled his nose, but he sounded amused, "you're hopeless."

Wendy chuckled, attracting Vince's attention and she smiled at him. She was no longer in her scrubs, but was still wearing the lab coat over her normal clothes. A pink blouse tucked into her jeans.

"How are you holding up, Pussy Magnet?" she asked lightly, "you scared the crap out of us."

"I'm better, thanks," he answered and he didn't mean to sound pissed off, but embarrassment was catching up and her lovely nickname wasn't helping.

She made a face like a kicked puppy, but just said, "that's good. Uhm - I'll see you around," then she squeezed Jonah's shoulder in a soft manner, "you too, Jon."

"Thank you, Wendy" Jonah squeezed her wrist back and all that softness was back to his voice. Vince felt dizzy with this whole development. They weren't just acquaintances, they were friends. A friend Jonah apparently didn't hate.

"Don't mention it," she smiled sweetly, then looked at Vin, "feel better, Vince," and left.

Vince worked his jaw, kept shut until he felt she was far away and then sighed, leaning his head back, "I really don't like her."

Jonah scoffed, "go back to sleep, Vin."

"I'm just saying, she's super cocky," Vince kept ranting, closing his eyes, "full of herself."

"Sounds familiar?"

"-Can't read a room for shit. Pussy Magnet," he mimicked her voice, listening as Jonah let out a heavy sigh, "it was one throwaway line. She can't tell when a joke has run its course? I don't like her at all."

"Shut. Up. and sleep," Jonah shoved his shoulder, causing Vin to shut up, but not before he added.

"I don't like her at all."

#mywriting #emetophilia #emeto #stomach bug #vince monacelli

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3dnygma · 3 months

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Fave TV and Films of 2023

Thank you so much for tagging me @stvlti !!

Here are my 9 fave first watches (not necessarily first releases) of 2023! I listed them in no particular order.

Orange is the New Black: My girlfriend and I finished watching it in 2023 and I was amazed by the quality of the show and how many wonderful things it achieved that so many shows nowadays still struggle with.

Once Upon a Time: We needed another show to binge after OITNB so we moved onto this one. I love the characters + ridiculous plotlines lol. It kinda reminds me of Gotham in that regard. We're at season 4 rn and binging it currently makes up a big part of my weekly routine!

GOTG vol. 3: Been looking forward to that one for years and loved it <3

Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes: Did not initially intend on seeing that one at the movies but so many friends recommended it that I simply had to. It delivered :) Great story and performances.

The Last Voyage of the Demeter: Dracula is one of my fave novels of all time whose epistolary storytelling has deeply influenced me and my studies over the years. The portion on the Demeter was always my favourite chapter in the novel and I'm glad that someone decided to turn it into a movie on its own because it often gets ignored in other Dracula adaptations.

May December: Starting watching it for Cory Michael Smith but really enjoyed the movie as a whole.

Across the Spider-Verse: Soooo fun and energetic with great characters and animation. Looking forward to the final one.

Five Nights at Freddy's: Once again, been waiting for that one for ages and the fact that the Henson Company worked on it made me even more excited for it. 100% how I expected that movie to go and I'm glad for it.

One Piece: My gf is a huge fan of the anime and it was fun watching that adaptation with her :) Also a good introduction to ppl like me who are only vaguely familiar with the characters.

This just made me realize how much my 2023 was defined by "fun" media haha. There are not that many "serious" movies to be found here. But I'm guessing that's because I just find "fun" first-time viewing experiences more memorable.

If you feel like doing this challenge, consider yourselves tagged!!

#tagged #about me

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savrenim · 1 year

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I've got to say it's wild seriously working on ifmlam again and realizing that, like...... I've actually missed it quite a lot? and am actively happy to be writing it again?

pretty much all of my works post-ifmlam have had a quality that I was talking to a friend and finally realized that maybe the best word for it is 'anime bullshit', albeit of different flavors. but it is kind of characterized by vastly overpowered characters Causing Chaos and Living Their Best Lives, and then a cast of not-quite-so-powerful-characters scrambling to Deal With The Chaos as the Chaos sort of Accidentally Totally Fixes The Plot. we raise it up and as if it must be pure are absolutely quintessential examples of this, and you guys haven't seen it yet, but my first original novel, Opus I, does it to the upmost degree as well.

and I can point to the exact reasons why it happened! there are kind of three, although they overlap:

I had just started a really overpowered DnD campaign In Their Footsteps We Shall Follow gay murder elf bachelorette and realized that I was having the time of my life and actually this was the kind of story that I was really interested in telling at this particular moment in my life;

honestly it's kind of the ultimate power fantasy of just, like, gods I wish I could be stupidly overpowered but instead of it being my job to save the world I could just run around causing chaos with my friends that accidentally more than anything else ends up saving the world; it tackles both the immediate circumstances of being a graduate student and looking at going into academia not only are you Poor but the degree to which your career and your whole future is in the hands of advisors who have vast amounts of power over you, but even if that step goes well, you're going to have to try to claw yourself up for years and years before you reach any kind of security and just the idea of being Powerful Enough to Not Have To Give A Damn About Anything and it's actually everyone around you who needs to be Scrambling To Keep Up With Your Bullshit was. so appealing.

I really do from a generalized storytelling standpoint actually legit enjoy Anime Bullshit, which, I'm specifically talking about the commitment to the bit of utterly extreme stakes and by not taking themselves as seriously in the setup of the stakes they take themselves way more seriously and have way more sincerity in the emotional impact and execution of them? Promare and Redline are my anime examples of what I'm talking about, but another really solid example is Pacific Rim: they commit to the bit of "no we are a movie about giant robots punching giant monsters" and then deliver something so heartfelt and so sincere and so badass and so fun because they don't waste time trying to convince you that the premise is serious, they just take themselves the exact correct amount of seriously inside that utterly ridiculous premise.

and that stuff is fun to write and I love it! but one of the things that I've noticed is that, like, you make your characters powerful and ridiculous enough to the degree that I have been doing, and you kind of lose some to all of the ability for Plot to Actually Threaten Them and hence to set up any narrative tension? and the workaround at least that I've discovered is that the tension comes from the perspective of that characters that are at the edges of the Chaos attempting to Deal With The Chaos, but it means that instead of writing a story about Dealing With Serious Threats, you are writing a story about Attempting To Wrangle Cats (Who Can And Will Fix Anything If You Wrangle Them Properly But Oh God Is It Very Nontrivial To Wrangle Them)

which is fun! and I'm not going to stop writing that! but there is also a sincerity to writing entirely about humans who don't have the ability to fix everything, whether or not they can be wrangled into fixing it. it's a more human struggle and it's a different emotional tone and I like it a lot. and I'm really glad that I get to be writing it again. and that I'm getting to revisit characters and a story that had been such a huge part of my life for so long, even if I don't regret the reasons I wanted to take a step away.

#my life #my writing

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flightofthefaeriedragon · 1 year

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Hey, I wanna babble about Kaidan and Zeeyla (my Asari Engineer in our ME5E ttrpg)! I've had fun playing with the 6 month interim between campaigns, and I feel like sharing their basic outline somewhere. 💜

They first saw each other outside Ambassador Anderson's office. Zeeyla's friend and crewmate is Alliance Commander Maria Florentino, who would often report back to Anderson. (They are not, however, an Alliance crew, and despite being registered as Alliance, their ship, The Victor, does not belong to the Alliance military. Zeeyla is Very Serious about this point and is glad that Maria holds the same stance.)

Kaidan was intrigued by the Asari and her fantastical drone (which looks like a winged darwinius in Bisexual jewel tones, with ultra-soft synthetic fur), and the melancholy in her pinged his protective streak. Zeeyla figured he recognized her from her extranet videos, and gave him an awkward wave with the plushie in her hand: a keeper. They were interrupted before they could talk.

(Her videos are a combination of educational sci-comm, hobby/personal rambles, and live accounts of their missions. Her videos and other social media posts often include a plushie along for the adventure.)

They actually met a little while later in the Wards, hit it off, and spent the rest of the day talking with each other. He complimented her by comparing something she said to Carl Sagan, and that's how he found out she's fascinated with first contact communications and the Golden Record in particular. They kept in contact, becoming the first person each wanted to talk to about things.

Neither of them was looking for a romantic relationship. Kaidan was focused on work and preparing for the reapers, and Zeeyla was disinterested in romance in general. After testing out the idea many decades ago, she came to the conclusion that it's just not for her. That doesn't stop Tali from teasing Kaidan: "You think I'd like her? Sounds like you like her!"

The Victor crew starts getting missions from Hackett rather than Anderson, and there's an attitude shift there. Anderson inspired loyalty. Hackett inspires ire.

I'm playing with the idea that several weeks later, they have overlapping visits to Arcturus, and Kaidan takes her to an exhibit on The Golden Record. Or possibly it's done via vid call while she's on Arcturus and he has some free time on Earth.

After that, she starts inadvertently, unconsciously being flirtatious with him. He tries to maintain platonic feelings, but they've both been falling hard without really realizing it.

When Zeeyla finds out the anniversary of Alchera is coming up, she insists on going to Earth to support him. She's been running errands for Hackett for months and she's taking time to do what she wants to do. Kaidan insists he'll be fine, but says he'd love to see her if she wants to come.

They initially have a few days together, just squeezing in visits around Kaidan's work schedule. They walk along the beach in Rio at lunchtime, eating street snacks and taking in the view. When they stop to watch the waves, he reaches for her hand, then hesitates, but she offers it to him and he takes it. It occurs to her how nice it would be to meld with him--platonically, obviously.

He turns her down at first. There's intel in his mind that needs to be kept secret, and he knows she has trouble keeping secrets (some might say it's her biggest Flaw). She assures him he's not obligated, and he doesn't have to justify himself. She also assures him, for future reference, that there are ways of maintaining privacy. They talk through how melds work, what steps can and should be taken to protect oneself and others. She's very protective in how she talks about it, and he ends up changing his mind.

The next day, they join their minds, sharing memories and introducing loved ones. They also share some troubled memories, including the trauma that Zeeyla's been carrying for the past several months, past the wall she's run into when trying to talk to him about it. Her escape from the Prothean homeworld--filled with such horrors as paralyzing indoctrination swarms, slime-filled underground caverns, a lake of doom, Collector mermaids, and a dead banshee at her feet--came at the cost of releasing a reaper, and she doesn't think her survival is worth the lives Imperator might destroy.

Their meld also revealed hints of romantic attraction between the two of them. With Kaidan, it manifested as golden light coming from behind a closed door, meant just for her, and she lingered in its warmth without pushing past the set boundary. Zeeyla's manifested as soft, nebulous wisps of dark energy, unknowable, but his.

Afterward, he admitted he wanted to kiss her...so she kissed him. They talked about building a romantic relationship together. Her flight response kicks in a little bit -- she's used to being an expert at what she does, she doesn't like feeling so inept, she doesn't want to ruin their relationship or hurt him, but she's invested in getting it right.

Shortly after, she takes an opportunity to go up to Mexico City to meet Maria's Tio Benito and attend his lectures on xenotechnologies, something she's wanted to do almost as long as she and Maria have been friends. She assures Kaidan she's not running away, and she'll be back soon...sooner if he needs her. He encourages her to go, and she sends him a lot of excited updates about the lectures, her lovely new friend, and the delicious food.

While she's away, Kaidan secures time off for the days surrounding the Alchera anniversary, and gets them a room at small beachside boutique hotel, a private base to return to. (There's only one bed!...but keep your hopes in check. lol) When she returns, they steal away, they explore the national park, they visit the Museum of Tomorrow (what does that look like in 2186?), they have dinner at a mountaintop restaurant, they drink caipirinhas together on the beach. She contentedly wears his hoodie, even though it has an Alliance logo on it.

They share a bed, but they keep their clothes on. They kiss and cuddle a lot, but back off a bit when things get too heated. Zeeyla finds herself wondering who made this rule, who set this boundary? (It was Zeeyla. Zeeyla did that.)

As Kaidan honors the memory of the Normandy and those who were lost, Zeeyla provides comfort or distraction, as needed. They drink to the Normandy. She offers another toast: to survival, and to building something together with the chance they've been given. She absolutely means it...but she also too-quickly finishes her drink. Shenanigans ensue, followed by a hangover, a migraine, and a lazy, blustery day.

The days run out too soon, and they both return to work.

In the weeks that follow, her flight response dissipates. She frequently teases Kaidan, "Tell your Mister Hackett to send us to Earth!" They eventually agree that after her next mission, she'll go back to Earth, Vancouver this time. The Victor crew visits Arcturus so Maria can get their orders.

The reapers arrive.

#zeeyla and kaidan #zeeyla d'niala #otp something beautiful #long post #flights of the faerie dragon #with a nod to imasithduh <3 #me5e #sorry for the tense shift #my eyes aren't working and I'm too tired to fix it #her other crewmates are awesome too!#I love our group <3 #in game canon is subject to DM's approval #but I'm having fun playing in the blank space #I think about this way too much #lol

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sopebubbles · 2 years

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ready for more Friendly Fighter Fodder???

Good. Glad to hear it. Love the enthusiasm.

This post will be a rambly and is no way needed to enjoy the Fighter series, so if you rather skip it feel free! This discourse takes place after Chapter 9 and assumes that you've looked over the character chart. Masterlist Character Chart Friendly Fighter Fodder (vol. 1)

First of all, I really appreciate how kind and understanding everyone has been since I started managing Sopebubbles' blog. It's been a lot of fun for me to interact with you guys and see you react to this story that I really love. For this Friendly Fighter Fodder, I got to interview our lovely and talented author. Without further ado, please allow me to introduce her. You know her best for such works as Serendipity, A Sea Without You, 21st Century Girl and so many more. Maddie, welcome. We are honored to have you with us today.

Thank you! Its a pleasure to be here! It's okay if I call you Maddie, right? You can call me whatever you like. I'm not used to sitting in front of genius. Oh, you're too kind. So let's jump right in. Why is Val's birthday important? Both beastie and I are very interested in astrology. I think about it at least a little bit with most of my characters, though not all. Sometimes I like to deliberately build characters around a zodiac sign. For example, Yn in The Pact was created as a Gemini to complement Jin's Sagittarius because it's one of astrology's great pairings.

However, with Val, I needed to choose a birthday. So I decided what zodiac sign suited her best and we ended up in April as an Aries because she's very action-oriented and pretty impulsive. I think her Aries sun and Tae's Aries moon really allowed for their explosiveness.

For awhile we were really stuck between Scorpio and Aries, because she is really intense and has a secret and this deep emotional world that she's trying to understand. The birthday we chose actually has her moon as Scorpio, which is why we ultimately settled on that particular date.

Also, my moon is in Scorpio so it made it easy to project onto her. 😂

And I happen to love scorpio moon folks, so it's perfect. Can you talk a little bit about the relationship dynamics within Bangtan? I know some of them have been touched on in the story, but they all seem very open. How does it work? Namkook: Namjoon wasn't super serious about anyone before Jungkook. Partially it was that he didn't want to get anyone invested in his lifestyle. His parents weren't exactly a role model couple (because his dad was a jerk). He knew pretty early on that he was bisexual, but never pursued anyone of either gender very seriously until he met Jungkook. As Kook tell us, it was Jin who got him to stop fooling around and put him to use. After a couple of years of working the streets for Jin, and after finishing high school, he began to work more closely with Jin and that's how he met Namjoon. They hit it off pretty quickly! Namjoon new his dad wouldn't approve of the relationship because of toxic masculinity, so they kept it secret for the most part until his father was killed and he took over. They are still pretty low key. While they love each other deeply and are very committed, they do indulge in (mostly) sexual encounters both in and outside the relationship. Jungkook keeps a separate bedroom because Namjoon snores too loud sometimes and they both like their space. I really like this pair together. We had talked about before how they complemented each other really well. Namjoon has a tendency to think everything through very deeply and choose the best course of action. While Jungkook can be entirely thoughtless, but then just kind of…do the right thing?? I think Namjoon is very taken with Jungkook's instincts and ability to be carefree and capable.

And Namjoon also appreciates how physically unbreakable Jungkook is. Maybe he thinks about that with Val, too. Allow your mind to wander where it will with that piece of information. What about 2seok? As discussed in chapter 8, Hoseok first met Jin on the streets of Seoul when he (accidentally) killed for the first time. But it was hardly the first time Jin had seen him. Seokjin thinks that one of his talents is finding people with potential. He's a pretty big fan of diamonds in the rough and fixing broken toys. He had been following Hobi around the streets for at least a couple of weeks. He wasnt necessarily supposed to be there; it wasn't exactly Bangtan territory. But he had been looking for a way to approach Hoseok, and the moment presented himself. Since Hobi really had nowhere to go and was worried about being sought out by the other gang, he stayed with Jin. They became deeply devoted to one another. When Jin was assigned to go to LA, there was no way he would leave Hoseok behind. They are very much a part of each other. Oh. And they are open to possibilities, but generally both too busy and not interested enough to pursue anything outside of each other, but they might be able to make some time 👀

I always saw Jin as someone who puts Hoseok before anyone else. In terms of being on the queer spectrum, in my mind (and I don't know if you'd agree with this) he had the strongest preference for men. That being said, he is deeply in love with Hoseok who knows things about Seokjin that no one else does. In a lot of ways, I think Seokjin is grateful to Hoseok for accepting him completely and he wants to do the same in return. So if someone was important to Hoseok or Hoseok wanted to explore, then Jin would be more than willing to let and encourage that happening. With or without him being there also. I haven't really thought much about how much Jin prefers men, but I agree he has a strong preference for Hoseok. I think Jin is someone who spends a lot of time trying to get to the very bottom of someone's being, which is part of why he doesn't trust Val immediately. I think once he's explored the depths of her, he'll be disappointed in himself for not having been the one to discover her. 😂 But yes, absolutely, he would let Hoseok have whatever or whoever he wanted. On to Vmin... Yes, now Vmin...theirs is the least like a relationship. They met while attending the same expensive private school. Jimin was…a trouble maker and entirely too smart for his own good. Tae was, well pretty much how Tae is. They were friends and that was pretty much it. Fast forward a couple of years after graduation and Jimin is being held by the FBI for some very less than legal computer activities. Tae finds out and appeals to Namjoon, who convinces his dad that getting Jimin out of trouble and under their organization will be well worth the cost of a bribe—which it was. Afterward, Jimin introduced Taehyung to the BDSM scene and the two began a casual, open sexual relationship. They both freely sleep with other people as we have seen, but they do tend to see each other as a constant.

I have thought a lot about Jimin’s character specifically! I don’t know if as authors we’re allowed to have favorites, but if we were allowed he would definitely be among the contenders! You may have noticed that Jimin’s header was used for Chapter Nine despite the fact that the focus was mostly on Y/n. However, this was the first time we started to see Jimin’s character through his interactions with other people. We start to get a sense of what he values and what he doesn’t and what motivates him. Jimin is aromantic and alexithymic. An important thing to note is one does not cause the other. You can be uninterested in romance and not have alexithymia and you can have alexithymia and be interested in romance. Jimin just happens to be both. I included Jimin’s aromanticism on his character chart because if you asked Jimin directly if he was interested in romance, he would flat out tell you, “No.” However, if you asked Jimin if he was alexithymic, he’d have no idea what you were talking about. Jimin is comfortable. Bangtan accepts him for who he is and he feels safe with his friends. Thus, he doesn’t feel the need to go looking for answers. He understands that on some level, he’s different but he also knows that while he doesn’t understand his emotions, other people don’t understand how to code. And to him, it’s more ridiculous to not understand how to code or hack into a government mainframe, because those things are much easier than emotions. Both intentionally and unintentionally, Jimin has developed coping mechanisms for his alexithymia. Because he doesn’t trust his understanding of emotions, he looks for behavior to guide his actions. He values compassion and loyalty most of all. Taehyung has displayed those qualities to him more than any other person, so he values Taehyung more than any other person. In return, he tries to show a similar amount of compassion and loyalty. The other thing too is that Jimin likes caring for people. He gets a great deal of satisfaction knowing someone else is enjoying themselves. That was what got him into the BDSM scene. He liked knowing what the rules to everything were and fulfilling expectations as a Dom. He liked knowing that he was giving people what they were asking for. And if he seems a little callous at times, well then, that's just part of his persona. And in case you’re wondering, Tae finds that bit particularly hot.

And as far as not wanting romance, he just doesn’t care for those behaviors. They look contrived to him, so he rather not participate. Easy as that.

If this is your first time hearing about aromanticism or alexithymia, I encourage you to look them up! And if you have more questions about how this affects Jimin or his relationships, please let me know. 😊 One more thought, I didn't want to have your typical giant ot7 love puddle. Not that I don't love those stories, because I do! It just didn't feel right for the story for me. I felt like it would be very intimidating for Val. And I liked the idea of getting to explore different kinds of relationships instead of one. Tell me about Yoongi. Ah Yoongi! Is it wrong to say he's my favorite and he's not in a relationship because he's just too wonderful? Okay, that's not the real reason. I imagine Yoongi probably really liked a girl in undergrad. They were friends for a long time, both premed, studied together a lot. He didn't get the courage to ask her out until senior year and she said yes, but then they went to different medical schools and, well we know that could never work. Med school is a busy time, too busy to invest in someone else. Then once he realized he would be part of the gang, there was no point, in his mind, of involving anyone in his life who he would just make vulnerable. If Jin has the strongest preference for men, then Yoongi has the strongest preference for women. Not that he wouldnt ever be interested or have sex with a man, but he's honestly fairly disinterested in the whole thing in general. He needs that spark. And I can't think of any brighter spark than our Val. She's so sparkly, sparkly, isn't she? 🤩 She sure is. Speaking of Val, does she know about all these dynamics? What does she think of them? I think this will come up soon in a few chapters, so instead of discussing what she thinks of them directly maybe I should tell you why she probably doesn't really know about them. Firstly, she does know about vmin, but she still doesn't fully understand that. Tae is not very good at explaining things. He'd rather just make out, tbh. But Val is someone who really needs things laid out explicitly, particularly when it comes to feelings and interpersonal relationships. She barely remembers her mom, much less what her parents' relationship dynamics were like. Her most intimate interpersonal relationship in her whole life was with Joaquin. Yikes. Honestly, she probably expects a certainly level of unhealthy behavior because she doesn't know anything else, even though she does know it doesn't feel good. She hasn't seen much of anything that wasn't a heterosexual, abusive relationship up close. I think she has absolutely no context to bisexuality or polyamory. And I think it's really going to throw her for a loop. She has a lot to learn! Luckily, she's a quick study. Yeah, I think she'll catch on! I know a lot of people were here for Taehyung and Val. We know that Val thinks everything was a lie, and it's clear Taehyung is starting to process some very complicated things about their previous relationship. Is there any hope for them moving forward? What do you think is the biggest lesson they need to learn, either together or separately? I know that's been confusing to a lot of people including Tae! When she says it was a lie, it's because she knew she was lying. She thinks she tricked Tae into believing she was someone she isn't, and that who she is isn't lovable. Obviously she has to learn that she is lovable, but the guys will take care of that. I think she needs to learn that she can be the person she wants to be simply by embodying it. She had to accept her own duality, and all the different parts of herself. She is traumatized and also naive, strong and vulnerable. Tae needs to learn how to communicate, honestly. In some cases, words are actions and actions that aren't properly explained or justified only do harm. I have a lot of hope for them! 🥺💕

Well, that is it for this episode of Friendly Fighter Fodder. Thanks again to Sopebubbles who indulged my whim for an "interview" and painstakingly typed out her thoughts!

As usual, we love to hear your thoughts too! If you want to know more about anything or have an opinion you'd like to share or your own hot take, feel free to let us know!

Thank you so much for reading! 🤗

#beastie 🐾#Friendly Fighter Fodder #Part 2 #bts mafia au #thoughts on thoughts on thoughts #Fighter Spoilers #if you haven't read up to Chapter 9

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bonesandthebees · 2 years

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Honey and tangerines!! The beach town setting is so beautiful, and the visuals in my head are making me want to sketch this.

The descriptive phrases like "passenger in his own mind" and "giant machine that ebbed and flowed" which are sprinkled all throughout the chapter are so beautiful! I absolutely live for connections and metaphors and these were such a delight to read. I love your writing.

Tommy's awkwardness around Phil was so understandable and, sort of natural in it's depiction? You really nailed the feeling, and even other things such as the atmosphere around Wilbur being off but also not quite completely bad, and the odd feeling Tommy has around everyone of liking them but not quite feeling at home.

Can we talk about the beach description? Yes. Literally beautiful.

Puffy!! Tommy once again chooses to work in an establishment run by Puffy and we're here for it. Your writing of her character is so pleasing, the reasonable yet understanding vibe is so sweet. I can't wait to see how that goes.

And of course, Tubbo! The chaotic feels their duo has was there right from the start. I mean, a fireball thrower? I'm instantly sold hahah

The vibe of this fic feels so, calm and chill in a way that most slice of life settings do, and it's really nice to see that after high stakes settings such as stars! I do like your rendition of this as well, and the natural feel of it all is so pleasant. Thank you for the chapter!!

What made you come up with this particular beach town setting, and what inspired you to write this? I'm so curious because it's rather different from your usual fics but it's still so fun to read. <3<3

Hugs and cookies, hope you have a good day :D

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aa thank you for the kind words snowflake!! i love using fun metaphors like that in my writing and i'm trying to do more of that because it's still not a method i'm super used to, so i'm glad you like those lines :)

very glad i got the awkward atmosphere across. it's not fear necessarily, but more just that tense anxiety. this place is nice, but he's still new and out of place and it's just making things a bit strange. he just needs time to adjust!

i love writing puffy as just this very understanding and kind boss, plus I thought of the mcpuffy's reference and thought it was too fun not to include. and yes tubbo is very chaotic as always, i've missed clingyduo they're so good

well, I came up with the beach town setting mostly because I live in a beach town. I'm a southern california native, and while I didn't grow up in a beach town, I've been living near the coast for most of my adult years so far so it's an atmosphere I'm quite familiar with at this point. I thought just a sleepy small beach town really fit the vibes and aesthetic I wanted to have with this fic, and so far i'm really enjoying writing it!

the initial concept for this fic popped in my head when I had a very out of the blue realization that my ex-stepbrother, who I haven't seen in over a decade, is the same age as cc!wilbur. idk what sparked that realization, it occurred to me and then that got me thinking about my ex-stepbrother again, and the few attempts we made to reconnect which never really lead anywhere. then I started thinking, 'man, that's a unique dynamic I haven't seen written in a crimeboys fic before' so I started brainstorming the idea into a story lol.

I've also been wanting to write a fic that feels like a coming of age style indie movie with a lot of calm slice of life vibes for ages now because I love that genre, and my fic vanderlyle crybaby cry was my first attempt at that, but it ended up being far more serious than I originally intended it to be. I'm still really proud of the end product, but it's not what I initially set out to do. the similarities between honey and vanderlyle though is that there's a lot of projection of my irl experiences onto the story itself, but heavily exaggerated to create a more compelling story and to differentiate it from myself. like vanderlyle!wilbur's struggles were based off my own crisis with uni i had in my junior year, but my mental health at that point in my life didn't get as bad as wilbur's is depicted in the fic. for honey, while I like the idea of reconnecting with my ex-stepbrother, I don't have a super strong desire to do that. also, I don't hold any resentment towards my ex-stepfather and never wished he stayed with my mother, unlike honey!tommy who definitely has some unresolved issues regarding phil.

so basically my inspo was a combination of projection and wanting to write a coming of age indie slice of life fic lmao

#sorry for how long this got lol #long post #snowflake anon #ask #honey and tangerines

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random-french-girl · 3 years

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Okey so I don't know the name of the friendship thing you do, maybe BroTP game or whatever that's called.

Also I don't know the rules (sorry, I'm not American and English is not my native language) But I loved Scylla x Tally one so can I ask for Scylla and Abigail one? Like they act like they hate each other but we all know that's the first step of them being best friends.

Anyways, thanks in advance. And please excuse my poor English.

Thank you, dear Anon! And please, never apologize for your English! I'm not a native speaker either :)

What in-jokes do they have with each other?

I don’t think they have in-jokes, unless you count “playfully insulting each other every chance we get to show our affection”.

Are they the “I’ll pay this time if you pay next time”-type friends, or the “I’ll pay for my food and you’ll pay for yours”-type friends?

Ordinarily, Scylla wouldn't care, but Abigail activates her ego and her stubbornness Big Time, so she always insists on paying, or sharing the bill. Abigail's just like: "Don't be ridiculous." They argue for a while, Abigail usually ends up winning this particular fight, Scylla is very grumpy about it.

Who’s more prone to pranking, or otherwise messing with, the other?

Pranks, neither. Messing with each other? Both of them. Constantly.

How do they text/message each other? Proper punctuation and capital letters, egregious overuse of emojis, mostly in meme format…?

Not applicable! But I know, in my heart, that if she could Scylla would use only emojis, just to annoy Abigail. And it would work.

Do they exchange jokey birthday presents, or deeply thought-out and meaningful presents? Or both?

Only jokey, vaguely insulting gifts for a while (Abigail buys Scylla a book that’s called “Ethics for Dummies” or something. Scylla gives her a list of all accredited therapists in the area with a note that just says “first one’s on me <3″.) But then eventually they start giving each other real presents - very little things, but it’s nice. Abigail give Scylla a tiny succulent. Scylla gives her a box of fancy chocolates. They’re never going to be effusive in their gift-giving, but they Know each other enough to understand these small gestures mean a lot.

They go on a road trip together. Who drives, who picks the music, who’s in charge of snacks?

They are insufferable on a road trip together. They can't agree on anything: not the directions, not who should drive, or when to stop, or what music to play, or the snacks. It’s either five hours of Tense Angry Silence, or five hours of Constant Bickering. They only behave if Raelle’s is the car with them.

What do they think of each other’s family?

Oof, loaded question. Abigail has trouble, still, respecting Dodgers (but she’s getting there). Scylla still feels resentful of the Bellweather name (but she trusts Abigail, and respects Petra a bit more than she used to, and she’s also getting there). They’ve spent their childhood being told to despise everything about each other’s family, so it’s. Complicated.

Do they have any nicknames for each other?

DO THEY EVER. The funniest thing is it starts as “necro” (derogatory) but now it’s “necro” (affectionate), and they won’t admit it, but everyone knows.

Who’d be the first to try and patch things up if they had a fight?

The real answer is: neither. Raelle and Tally stage an intervention and force them both to apologize and move on.

One of their phones goes off in the middle of the night. Who’s calling whom, and why?

Not really applicable.

What’s their favourite funny story about something that happened to the two of them?

They love the fact that they tried to kill each other that one time. It’s funny in retrospect, they promise.

Would they do a joint cosplay? If so, who would they dress up as?

NOPE.

Do they have any TV shows that they watch together? Are there any shows they have wildly different opinions on?

Not really.

Which one is the “fight me” friend and which one is the one who tries to keep the peace and prevent their friend from punching a total stranger?

Abigail is the “fight me” friend, and Scylla has to be the voice of reason, a role she is NOT used to. Also they’re the kind of friends who’re like... if somebody else insults the other, or starts a fight, they’ll lose it. “Only I get to be mean to her!”

One of them comes up with an ill-advised but mostly harmless idea. Does the other one egg them on because they think it’ll be funny, or try and talk them out of it?

Scylla has terrible ideas, historically. Abigail would never try to talk her out of it, because where’s the fun in that?

Who would win if they arm-wrestled?

LOL Abigail, without a doubt.

Who’s better at what type of video games, and how competitive are they when they play together?

Abigail is very competitive. Scylla pretends she’s not, but she actually is. They both suck at video games cause they never played much, unfortunately.

One of them ends up in hospital for something serious but not life-threatening. What does the other bring along when they visit in order to cheer them up?

Abigail... brings Raelle to Scylla’s hospital room. Gives Scylla a little nod, that manages to convey “I know you need her more than anything else” and “I’m glad you’re okay”. And then promptly gets out.

How huggy are they?

Oh, not huggy at all. Except that one time they almost die, and Scylla just impulsively grabs Abigail, and hugs her, very tight, and Abigail is frozen for half a second before she reciprocates the hug, gingerly. They don’t move for a while. They never talk about it afterwards,

What was the moment when they first realized that they’d become friends?

IT HAS NOT HAPPENED YET BUT SEASON 3 I’M COUNTING ON YOU.

#abigail bellweather #scylla ramshorn #abigail x scylla #motherland fort salem #random meta #anonymous

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i was just reading your old dumbing of age posts, and also i've been carlaposting (see my #carla rutten tag if interested). There's still not a lot of carla appearances but she's been on my mind (maybe cause I always latch on to the most transhumanist character, even though they're usually not that transhumanist?) so I wonder if you have any carla thoughts you'd like to share from the four years since you made those doa posts

oh hi there! Glad those old livereads are still entertaining people. lessee...

ngl, when I read this ask I mostly just thought "who?" since I have definitely not been keeping up with Dumbing of Age in that period (or webcomics in general really - K6BD is the only one I check semi-regularly nowadays.)

I really need to add some of the webcomics I used to read to Tachiyomi (assuming they're supported), but they're in that awkward place where I remember the early strips well enough that they're not super exciting to reread, but I don't remember the later strips well enough to find my place or indeed, remember who any of these people are. some point I just need to lie down with, say, Gunnerkrigg Court or Honey Crab and catch up on what I've been missing.

anyway! you asked about Carla! a quick check of the wiki confirms she was the acerbic, roller skating, trans girl character, who I was very taken with at the time I read it. I guess she had a lasting impact on me, in that Dumbing of Age reminded me that 1. roller derby exists and 2. they let trans girls play it, which I have since made a couple of attempts to do (the most recent being cut off by the pandemic, but hopefully I won't have lost too much when it's safe to skate once more). so thanks for that one Carla! I wonder what sarcastic comment you'd make.

since I don't really remember this comic very well, that's about all I can say, but let me go on anyway.

I guess I'm no longer in a place where I fixate on any and all trans girl characters in fiction, and instead come at them from something of a more analytical perspective these days. Carla seems fun though!

I was totally unaware that she was based on a robot car who became a gynoid from It's Walky!; all that went right over my head so at the time I read the comic, she was just a surprisingly cool character. obviously a lot of trans girls identify with inanimate objects in some way - robots most often, but really can be anything - so if she does have a car TF fetish going on later, good for her lmao. sure hope someone showed her Adolescence of Utena.

from the handful of strips I re-sampled, I don't think I'd get along great with Carla - no doubt I'd take some of her constant stream of mean-but-not-serious jokes to heart, and we'd both get frustrated with each other. I guess you could argue some of that would be Willis's particular voice, and the somewhat affected, sharp exchanges of a gag-a-day webcomic, rather than something 'essential' to the character. it's curious to imagine how my own personality might get simplified and abstracted if I had to be a webcomic character.

uh, what else, what else? the business model of Dumbing of Age is pretty curious to me - not the patreon part, that's pretty universal now, but the part where he draws porn of his characters and sells it on Slipshine. I feel like it wouldn't be too difficult develop that into some kind of analysis of how the emotional connections we form with fictional characters factor into erotica, a niche that often goes unfulfilled hence fanfiction etc.; in any case Willis approaches it with a certain irony (you go on slipshine and the thumbnail says 'Walky does a sex'), I guess to puncture the likely embarassment of someone paying money for porn of a webcomic they like?

in any case, idk if it's just something he does for fun or like, a major source of income, but in any case it's unusual, since in my experience webcomics are usually either strictly sfw (the vast majority), strictly porn/sex comedy (e.g. I Roved Out, Oglaf, basically all the other content on Slipshine), or mostly sfw stories aimed at adults with the occasional nsfw scene as fits the narrative (e.g. Souls Foreclosed, Kill Six Billion Demons, The Less Than Epic Adventures of TJ and Amal, The Meek). 'read the story, now wanna pay for the porn?' seems like a model that makes some kind of cynical sense, so I'm surprised more authors don't adopt it.

Anyway, this is a little interesting because I have been wondering about making another attempt at creating a webcomic, since animation takes approximately forever to do so if I want to tell an original story, 'webcomic with occasional animation' in the manner of Homestuck, Honey Crab or Ava's Demon may work as a compromise. I don't think I could manage a perpetual, years-long webcomic. I have no idea how someone like Willis or the Schlock Mercenary guy (is that still going?) manages to keep producing enough material to fill up the buffer for all those years of daily comics but it's very impressive. Still, the comics I would aspire to draw like are the more 'graphic novel' kind, with big pages, varied panel layouts and camera angles, maybe even playing around with web tech to add a little interactivity and motion. Stuff that would keep it interesting and novel to create, punch through that ADHD.

Though thinking about it, Willis's strength is, I guess, much like Hussie - developing a huge cast of reasonably fleshed out characters, drawing them quickly on model with a variety of expressions, and having the confidence to synthesise storylines and let them play off each other. Many of the most successful webcomics lean on something similar: you can use all the gimmicky 'infinite canvas' techniques you want, and that can really accentuate a project and take it to another level, but the artistic Cordyceps that really worms its way into peoples' brains is "just" that character writing. Without that you still have nothing... good to remember...

#webcomics

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theintentioncraft · 3 years

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To continue supporting content makers, this tag game is meant to show the entire process of making creative content: this can be for any creation.

RULES - When your work is tagged, show the process of its creation from planning to posting, then tag up to 5 people with a specific link to one of their creative works you’d like to see the process of. Use the tag #showyourprocess so we can find yours.

I've been tagged by @lordbelacqua (thank you Dea! <3) to talk about Backlead aka: that one Masriel fic I wrote where I got massively carried away...

Rambling/essay under the cut - fair warning, it's a long one!

Okay so first of all just a little disclaimer that Backlead did not follow my usual writing process - the idea was 110% borne out of self-indulgence and it was also both my first foray into HDM fanfic and my return to fanfic as a whole after a long hiatus from writing, so for me this was really a chance to just get back into the swing of things. Everything from Heavenly Guard through to Swansong and all of my current WIPs follow a more structured process and I'm happy to discuss any of them in a separate post!

PLANNING: I tend to find with my fics that I either have a nice little timeline of events planned out pre-writing or I have a very specific event in my head and I just take that and see how things unravel from there and Backlead was 100% the latter.

All I had in my head initially was the ballroom dance scene and so a lot of my admittedly-minimal planning was around the technicalities of that particular section, as well as some of the more general details e.g Marisa's outfit, the setting of the ball, etc. Planning the dance was the most fun part because it was a chance for me to put a lot of my dance knowledge to good use and think up something that fits the back-and-forth way in which Marisa and Asriel frequently navigate their encounters. In a way though I'm actually very glad that a lot of this fic Just Happened instead of being planned out, sometimes it's nice to just run away with an idea!

MUSIC: This gets its own section because this is one of the most important things in my process. Every single fic I write is written to various pieces of music that just help me to put myself in the right headspace for whatever I'm writing at the time - sometimes its just a single piece of music (I wrote Swansong in one hour with just one track from the Unforgotten - a TV show in the UK for those of you not familiar with it - soundtrack on repeat) and sometimes its entire playlists. I do love geeking out about my music choices for fic writing so happy to talk more in a separate post about music for some of my other fics if anyone's curious!

For Backlead I found a couple of playlist-vids from the lovely raviolae on youtube that really worked wonders for my writing. This comes with a disclaimer that I did not necessarily attribute any of these specific songs to either dance scene and I wanted to leave that open for people's imagination - but it's still brilliant vibes for thinking about two once-lovers-now-enemies trying to one-up each other whilst ignoring how much they still find each other attractive.

The two playlist-vids in question are here: you're stuck on the dance floor with your rival and find out they're an annoyingly good dancer and you're dancing with your rival and both of you want to lead

WRITING: First step every time is to figure out who's POV I'm going to cover because that makes a major difference in the way I'm going to write. Characterisation is the big thing for me and there's nothing I love more than to really get inside a character's head and basically think like them, and figure out what makes them tick and how they'll react to the story I'm putting them in. With my initial idea for Backlead being basically about the subtle power dynamics of a ballroom dance, Marisa felt like the natural go-to for this one and I found it much easier in this instance to write in her headspace than in Asriel's.

I wrote this fic in a very out-of-order fashion. The first dance (the slower, waltz-style dance) was the first part I finished, then I did as hinted at above get very carried away and move onto the section in the hallway, then I went right to the start and covered the entire section leading up to that first dance. Then I revisited the hallway scene because I wanted to rework it (the initial version was planned to be more explicit and involved less dialogue - but I wasn't comfortable with writing out the former at that time and the latter got changed by way of me having a sudden burst of dialogue-themed inspiration). The second, more set piece style dance came last in terms of the 'major events' that I wrote purely because I spent a lot of time racking with my dance knowledge to try and make it work in a way that didn't feel forced.

My final major writing stage is to write the 'transitions' between each major part - small pieces where nothing particularly noteworthy happens but it helps the fic to flow from one conversation/event to the next and also sometimes allows me to sneak in a bit of characterisation that I couldn't fit in elsewhere.

Along the way I often leave sentences half-finished with a bracket indicator so I know to go back to it later or I make little notes if I've added something in that needs explaining earlier in the fic, and I make sure to sort those parts out before I jump to the self review/beta reader stage. A couple of examples are below:

Although sometimes this method does also annoy future me too 😂:

SELF REVIEW/BETA REVIEW: Whenever I finish a fic, it gets put away for a day or two and I stop thinking about it completely - if I'm using a beta reader (usually @thatlavanderbard but I sometimes enlist help from friends on discord), I'll send them a copy of my draft at this point so they can start going through and leaving comments for me to work on, but the idea is that when I go back to my work a few days later I'm looking at it with semi-fresh eyes and can properly sift through each sentence to make sure things make sense.

When I'm self-reviewing I generally tend to follow this order of operations: spelling/grammar check (via docs') -> flow check (making sure any deliberate time skips/POV changes/etc in my fic flow smoothly from one part to the next) -> address beta reader comments (because they almost always pick up on things I myself would've picked up on anyway) -> general detailed final read through to make sure I'm happy with every single line and it all makes sense.

Backlead didn't get a full beta read because I had hit a point with it where I just wanted it up ASAP and my impatience got the better of me, but the rest of the above self-review stages still happened and I still spent a fair few evenings going through it properly and also running the occasional sentence or two by some helpful discord friends if I didn't like the way it flowed but couldn't quite figure out how to remedy it!

POSTING: First step was to reset my AO3 password because I forgot it yet again whoops

On a more serious note this part is pretty straightforward - once I'm ready to post a new fic I generally just go on autopilot for this part of the process (other than when I get to 'additional tags' and immediately get brain freeze...). As soon as it's up on AO3 I swing by here to make a post about it, then swing by discord to drop the link to friends who may be interested in reading it and then I normally nervously scuttle away from my notifications for a while out of fear that people hate it lmao.

That last part was especially true for Backlead because of it being my first trip into HDM fanfic and I always get extra nervous when posting my first fanfic for a new show/game/etc. Thankfully I got quite a few nice comments both on here and on discord that provided good motivation to stick around and post a few more things!

I always panic when asked to tag people lmao but I'll tag @fortheloveofwii for any part of the Onward, Onward series, @lyracordelia for any chapter in Hiraeth or the fic as a whole, and @glassrunner for this absolutely gorgeous gifset of beautiful game soundtracks. Please don't feel like you have to do this if you don't want to though!

#stel talks #showyourprocess #y'all thought i rambled in my fics just look at me rambling here #i'm hoping this makes sense!#it was nice to dive into how my brain works when i try to write things #my writing

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serendipitybutterfly · 4 years

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BTS Tarot Valentines Day Special:

BTS' Future Marriages...

I know... Unusual for me since I tend to focus more on advice than predictions for the most part... But, as it's this lovey dovey season, I decided to do a marriage themed reading as a special treat as I've gotten asks surrounding this kind of question before... This is going to be a mammoth post... Omg..

This is my Valentines Day present for you guys who follow and like my readings! Thank you!!!! I 💜 you!

So, without further ado... Let's get it!

*Disclaimer- the way i see it, although this is a prediction reading, I'm only working with the energies of the present moment. If one of the boys wakes up tomorrow and firmly decides he never wants to get married, then his path will change and future readings would reflect that. For the most part, the future is in flux and can be changed... If something is a huge, fateful, set in stone kind of event then the cards will let me know. Also, in this particular reading, rather than focusing on the physical appearance of their future partners, I'm intending to focus more on personality and only mention physical appearance if something strongly comes to mind or their looks come forward as a major message of the reading. Ok done! Let's really get it! 💜

Oh wait... before anything else, I was going to call this future Marriages or life partners (because, obviously, not everyone gets married) but I just decided to ask first off if they'd all get married for the sake of clarity and got a resounding yes for them all so... Yeah... As of now, all of the boys are likely to actually get married in the future. Although... Some are closer to that future than others. Also, I was going to put all of the readings into one big post but then I realised how ridiculously long that would be and decided to split the hyung line and maknae line up into two separate posts. I'm starting with the maknae line and hopefully the hyung line post will follow soon...

Maknae line:

Starting with Park Jimin...

Character profile - The archetype cards that popped out gave me an interesting message... I'm getting the image of someone that had quite a hard life, possibly even a somehow traumatic past (cards like bully and victim in particular stood out to me as being indicative of a troubled past), but managed to retain a sweetness and childlike innocence despite it... I'm also definitely getting the image of an introvert. Someone quite soft spoken, gentle and who comes across as a bit shy. She might feel more comfortable with animals and young children than with most people. Physically I feel like she will be younger than him, and somewhat innocent and fragile looking but at the same time there's something kind of edgy and / or sexy in her style... She might wear a lot of dark colours. Yeah... I know I said I wouldn't focus on looks... But I'm definitely also getting East Asian features coming through visually... I'm also seeing long, straight, black hair and fair skin. This is the kind of person who tends to inspire protective feelings in others... But at the same time has a lot of inner strength that they can use to heal and bolster other people's confidence in themselves.

Relationship- With the Dawn card, I feel like she will give Jimin a whole new fresh perspective on life... I'm hearing 'clean slate' and 'washing away'... I'm just feeling a lovely, pure, soothing, watery kind of energy to this connection overall. I mean, the romance angels oracle deck threw out 'True Love' to describe this connection so... I mean, if Jimin still has those romantic dreams of meeting his one true love like he used to... He can definitely have that wish granted! It's just... Going to take some time... With the Chariot in reverse here, I feel like he will have to wait quite some time before they meet...hmm... How old will he be in another 7 years? About 32? Could be around then or after... But, at this point, it's unlikely to be before...

The tarot here couldn't paint a rosier picture tbh... I really hope Jimin does meet this person in the future because it looks like this marriage could genuinely be the making of true and lasting happiness for him. Just look at these beautiful cards! 10 of cups... Happy family with a loving home environment and playing children! The star because this really is a dream come true, a wish answered. Then you have a reversed queen of wands (👀 omg why does Queen of wands energy always come up with anything to do with romance with Jimin??). However... Interestingly enough, here I'm seeing her as a soft spoken young woman who comes across as quite shy and introverted but who possesses a great deal of inner strength and power... (which is why context matters in tarot guys... Cards mean something different to me basically every time!). This is next to the knight of swords who I see as our lovely libra boy Jimin himself... I'm literally see this as a Knight in shining armor rushing in to the rescue. That's how he'll feel in this relationship. Not at all in a burdensome way... But like that feeling gives him this great deal of strength and confidence in himself. She makes him feel strong and capable and in control... Like a hero. Why is this making me emo? ...

Anyway, then the high priestess is here to sum this connection up and I feel strongly that this is an extremely deep, intuitive connection... The meeting of souls... They can look at each other and just... Know what the other is feeling... Could even be a soul mate / past life connection I think... Wow.

All in all... This is great news for Jimin's future in terms of marriage at this point. Although I do think it'll be a while before they meet and longer before actually getting married... It looks pretty rosy from then on! I'm not saying there will be no bumps in the road at all (I can sense that there are certainly some deep personal issues on both sides that actually need to be dealt with through this union... Which is some soul journey stuff... ) however overall this seems like it will be an amazing match! I'm so glad! 💜 💜 💜

Kim Taehyung:

Character profile:... Uh... Haha... You just had to be different huh Tae... Lol... Ok... So here's the thing... Where marriage is concerned, Tae has that interesting fate where he actually has a choice (I mean, everyone has a choice... But most people don't actually recognise it as a choice... It just kinda happens because it's their fate. Tae has the opportunity to make a conscious choice here regarding his fate because it's like either way he can learn important lessons and grow... Both are fated partners for him. Like a real diverging path kind of thing. He will get to a point where he can choose one path or another with basically full awareness of this as a choice... This is really interesting actually. I mean, either way, he will get married and he can be happy either way too... Although in different ways for different reasons... It's very interesting...

As far as personality goes... I see two distinct personalities coming through... On one side you have someone quite mature, serious, artistic, intellectual, quiet and spiritual and on the other side I see someone very young, pretty, flirty, fun loving, popular and witty... Also very wealthy and a little bit haughty... But kinda 'cute' and funny with it?? Idk why I'm getting that... Like a kind of sly sense of humour...

Unfortunately... This is weirdly up in the air because of this aspect of choice. I can see that both will appeal greatly to different sides of him... If only they could be one person... But alas...

Relationship: Again... The tarot shows how up in the air this is because there is not yet a set path. Tae hasn't even met them yet. He's not thinking seriously of marriage at all yet. However, with the Wheel of Fortune reversed here we can see that though this is not yet set in motion, it is fated either way. Death in reverse and the Hanged Man are also giving me that up in the air, 'paused', kind of feeling... Like this fate is just waiting, biding its time to be set in motion... Right now he's on a solo path, pursuing his career and furthering his goals... It's when he's ready to let some of that go that this will be set in motion... It feels like a few years into the future to me... Not too far but not too close either... I'm not getting a definite time frame. It could be within two to three years or around him going into his early 30s...

You'll notice on one side of the 'up in the air fate' cards we've got the 4 of wands and on the other side we've got the 10 of pentacles representing the two different connections. Both are really auspicious cards for marriage. Both connections are also signified by the two of cups... Both are deep love connections... Again because this is up the air, I'm not getting specifics about the outcomes of either choice, but it does seem atleast like he has the potential to be happy in either marriage. However it looks like in one he can have the big family and legacy (in terms of children and grandchildren and leaving a home and inheritance to them) he desires, while the other relationship seems more quiet and more just about them as a couple being happy together.

I feel like the card Solitude: Island speaks of that connection (them being alone and peaceful together... Perhaps travelling to faraway countries together... And that calmer more serious vibe in that connection) while the card Playfulness is speaking of the other connection (way more youthful, energetic, playful, and flirty energy... And also literal children- and puppies!- incoming!).

So yeah *shrug*... Decisions decisions Tae... He can only make the right choice when the time comes at the end of the day (and he has a lot of spiritual guidance on his side if he chooses to tune in). It's quite likely that by then his priorities and desires for what he really wants out of life will become clearer to him and that will make the decision easier... At this point, it seems like neither of them are a particularly bad choice... Though neither is necessarily perfect either... That's what makes this such a big, fateful decision I suppose... Good luck Tae! 💜 🙏

Now for Jungkook:

Character profile: Wow... Whatta boss... Lol. I'm kinda blown away by this energy to be honest. This is like... The best way I can describe it after looking at all the cards is... This is the kind of woman that both men and women are really attracted to and tend to like (regardless of sexuality). Like... Total 'girl crush', role model, material but also super attractive and sexy... Especially to men who like strong, capable women who have that 'boss' energy... Which is apparently future Jungkook I guess...

Actually these cards really make sense just based on what kind of people Jungkook seems to like to associate with anyway... I feel a sense that she will be older than him by at least a few years (if not, extremely mature and successful for her age). This is someone wise beyond their years who actively seeks knowledge and also goes further to implement what they've learnt to help others who are vulnerable. Something else that's coming through strongly is that this person is extremely creative and artistic... They have to be involved in the arts in some way, even if it isn't their main job. Actually, what I think is that she may work in one creative field (like say, a writer cause Scribe is there) but also does alot of other artistic and creative things as hobbies, like painting, drawing, dancing, singing... This is someone who delights in expressing her creativity so it doesn't have to make her money... She just loves it. Actually there's a kind of free spirited, bohemian, hippyish vibe here which is an interesting contrast to the boss energy... (I honestly want to be her best friend??).

Again, I know I said i wasn't focusing on looks but here looks are coming through really strongly... Like her attractiveness is really a major thing people notice about her so it has to be mentioned. I'm seeing long, wavy or curly black or dark brown hair (although she might also sometimes colour it... Especially red or reddish brown). She has a really great body... Like really fit and toned but also curvy (look at that goddess card! like I said... She's sexy). Also, probably a bit above average height. I'm also seeing that this is someone who's likely to have tanned or darker skin or who tans really easily in the sun... Like in the winter she might get quite pale but then in the summer sun gets a lot darker. She's definitely someone really natural, active and outdoorsy who's likely to get out in the sun as much as possible... I think she probably doesn't wear a lot of makeup... I'm just seeing a really natural beauty... Wow.

Relationship- With the Dreamtime: Creation card I'm getting two things coming through strongly. One is that I really think these two (certainly Jungkook) will actively be manifesting each other before they meet and will (or have already) dreamt about each other. Two is that, once again, I'm getting really highly charged creative energy. These are two extremely talented artists getting together and their relationship and home will reflect that. They encourage and push each other to improve. Really unique and quirky relationship actually... In fact, you'll notice that these cards aren't exactly overtly romantic... And yet... I'm still feeling the love?? Theirs isn't exactly a mushy kind of love but it's still very strong and extremely confident and secure. It's based firmly in actions that show love in a more practical way...

With the Sun shining on this marriage it's clear that they'll be really happy with one another (I see happy children here too... Another aspect of their mutual creativity... 😏 ) but there's also a lot of freedom and space. I see a lot of travelling and a lot of respect and understanding between them. That they are forgiving and don't hold grudges is coming through. This isnt a 'tit for tat' kind of relationship where they hold things over one another or only are nice to each other if the other person is nice first... It feels like they work through arguments maturely, quickly forgive everything and move on to being loving again.

With the page and 8 of Pentacles I see that they learn and grow together as people and work hard to make their relationship and bond extremely strong and they're successful in that. With the engagement card, I'm seeing two things, both strong commitment and loyalty to each other and also that they'll probably get married surprisingly quickly after they start dating. This is another case where I think it'll be a long wait for Jungkook... With the king of swords here... I feel like he'll be a definite MAN when he gets married... Like fully grown, probably rocking both longer hair and a beard... Lol... Older and wiser... Like around his mid 30's or even a little later... However, because he'll have been manifesting and dreaming of her for years (probably even already started guys) he'll just know from the time they meet that she's the one... So why hang about?

Conclusion... I kinda want to be bestfriends with Jungkook's future wife... She's really cool... 😭

OK... This has been the maknae line future marriages reading... I will try to drop the hyung line's readings before, on or just after valentines day so stay tuned! Hope you guys enjoyed!!! 💜 💜 💜

#So... This was interesting...#Here's to me doing the hyung line readings before valentines!#This is my Valentines pressie to my followers so i hope you like it... I purple you!#Bts tarot reading #Maknae line future marriages reading #Bts marriage reading #bts tarot reading #tarot reading #Tarot #Bts #maknae line #park jimin #kim taehyung #jeon jungkook

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solacefruit · 4 years

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i'm in love with your writing! it's so detailed and elegant and the worldbuilding is incredible! if you'd like to share, if not it's totally fine, are you willing to reveal how your suffix system works? with -feather being a sacred seer name in thunderclan and being a different suffix in windclan and the inclusion of the -flight suffix, etc. i just love the worldbuilding and i would love to hear what you have to say!

Hello there and thank you very much for such lovely compliments! I’m so glad you’ve been enjoying my work so far and I hope you’ll continue to enjoy the far too many stories I’d like to write for this fandom in the future.

I’m afraid I’m not willing to talk about these kinds of things yet, though. I’m not comfortable talking about narrative details or world-building before they happen in the text, which is in part because I don’t like to lock myself into having to write any particular thing before I’m ready; and in part because it’s frankly just not good business to give out buckets of milk fascinating world-building tidbits on your blog when you’re trying to sell a cow get people to read your story.

If I say, “in this world, x happens” before that story exists, then I have to write that story, because otherwise I’m just... making things up for notes. It’s frankly so much easier to come up with fun hypotheticals and say what you would write than it is to actually write, and that’s not how I like to do things. I believe firmly in “don’t tell them your plans, show them your results.” It’s also just smart to not make more pressure for yourself: it’s easy to talk a big game, and so much harder to actually deliver on it. Since I’m doing all this writing purely for fun, I’m keeping it breezy on my end so it stays fun.

Don’t get me wrong: talking about world-building can be super fun too and gets a lot of instant gratification from friends and readers, but I can’t recommend indulging that urge too often, if you’re serious about cranking out that wonderful world you’ve envisioned. That’s (unfortunately for everyone) part of what people mean when they talk about being disciplined when writing.

I know of many writers who frequently find that they lose interest or motivation in bringing their stories to life after they talk about them or share too many details, because your brain gets that hit of feel good chemical from the validation and positive response and goes, [tuxedo mask voice] “well, my work here is done.” The same can happen with readers: they get to learn about the cool idea and go, “I’m going to go play with this in my own head, I don’t need to read the story now.”

So yeah, a long way to say: sorry, not now but maybe one day!

However, I can say that -flight actually isn’t a part of my canon: it’s just there because it was easier and had broader appeal to leave Squirrelflight’s name as it was, given that she’s a core character in some stories. I don’t like to change protagonists’ names, so that’s why Squirrelflight and Talltail remain with their canonical names; it makes the stories more friendly to less traditional readers or readers who are really attached to those characters. Side characters I let myself have more fun with, since they’re less important to readers and it’s usually less jarring for them to be different than they are in canon.

Thank you again for writing in with those kind words. It always brings me so much joy to hear people are enjoying my work.

#reply #it's honestly so hard sometimes not to blurt out everything i'm working on but alas. that's how it has to be.

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