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kii2me2ii2 · 2 years

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actually "happy ending" cals both living on earth c or whatever dont have seperate bodies. I don't like it.

#it stresses me out to all hell man #species swap aus too -_- but only smtimes. cus i have au/oc idea but it is... silly #its jus human born troll lliope yk the works maybe a bit like guardianstuck #anyways they have dif bodies obviously #but thinking about the cals as relatively canon compliant characters. i dont think them being in separate bodies is like. the move.#idk it jus makes me uncomfortable #like whats the fucking purpose man #if they gotta deal w each other they gotta deal w the whole THING man #its jus how it is #so like if ur characters that are 'sharing a body' happy ending is that they no longer have to share a body i think that is objectively #the less awesome decision. first of all. body sharing fiction is fucking awesome man.#and secondly i think. its nice to have fiction that doesn't say that its always better to seperate from this person youre like legit #sharing a life w. ya know. especially when the work itself directly opposes the idea that its the inherently better choice #for a character who DOES want to have their own life [their own body]#and i think if you were specifically going to explore caliborn with this is mind and how his entire existence is defined by calliope #and him dealing w the consequences of his alleged 'predomination' and jus having his own body now ig that could be. a good thing to explore #ill prolly think about that later lol #but if were talking most basic 'happy ending' outcome w both cals intact #theyre sharing a body guys cm one #idc it doesnt make any sense its rhe works #i am a nonsense speaker. dont listen to me. ok.

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runawaymun · 11 days

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#sorry let me rant real quick in the tags #cw personal #once again hitting an insurance pothole bc the psych says she accepts my OHP plan HOWEVER the therapy group she is contacted with says #THEY don't #they only accept the insurance if it's through my employer but NOT through the government??????????????#so there's still some kind of payment???#anyway I want to scream why is this so complicated #like will she take my insurance or not who's right here #anyway called her back directly and went to voicemail so now I've done all I can for now #why the hell is this so hard man #the person on the phone didn't know really how to explain #once again no one knows what they're talking about #like can y'all not communicate and figure this out?#AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #i need to get an ADHD eval before my next PCP appointment in june so that they will continue giving me my meds #and the psychiatry through the hospital has a limited number of visits that insurance will cover #*contracted #not retyping all of that #and once again the only reason this is so stressful is because the psychiatry group at the hospital fumbled the communication ball last tim #and the psychiatrist I was with never put the ADHD on the chart #and now somehow it's MY responsibility to fix that>#UGH #like I am grateful to have some kind of coverage but holy shit is the US healthcare system in shambles #the bureaucracy is INSANE #i had to just sit down and put my head in my hands for a second #and then go 'right okay nothing i can do about that rn moving on'#uGH #literally said 'what the FUCK' out loud a couple times #like not on the phone after I hung up obvs

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astriiformes · 1 year

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Me, gritting my teeth as I do my best to ignore the fact that I have been battling my own brain particularly intensely (a mental health crisis that is ongoing, due to life circumstances that cannot be changed) and the many other responsibilities that have been stressing me out as of late so I can instead throw myself into the middle of a complex, inflammatory conflict between two groups I care about that is threatening to have a horrific amount of emotional collateral in part due to the fact that no one else has been willing to step up as a mediator: Wow, just like in Pentiment

#everything's fine. we're all fine here. how are you #almost like having a bunch of marginalized students running their own organizations at school can lead to a lot of stress sometimes #when you inevitability end up with bunch of traumatized people pointing fingers at each other instead of actually like. talking #i think i was able to help defuse things today but also. everything is a little bit on fire and not enough people are putting out the fires #and also like. guys. please do not let me. the most mentally ill man in the world. be one of your only sources of conflict resolution #(not the only one at least. i am wearily handshaking with one of my close friends in the queer student group. but like. they're struggling)#but i have uhhh seen groups i care about explode before for similar reasons and i'm not willing to let it happen again #and more than a few people thanked me today and i have a big dumb heart too [gestures] like this for my own good so. i'm not about to stop #genuinely i do not mind being the person who does the mediation so long as people are like. grateful when all is said and done #and they seemed to be today #still. screaming tiredly etc etc #please picture me full on crying as i somehow managed to talk a really awful shouting argument in the queer student center down anyways #cursed are the peacemakers because they will be the ones constantly going 'what the hell guys. please do not' everywhere they go

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thatsmimi · 1 month

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cannot watch fh bc of work the scary jokes toynbee tiles riz gukgak animatic in my mind save meeeeeee

#riz gukgak #can someone hear me!!!!!!!!#fh #d20 #mimi.txt #sweet dreams ill see u in the morning all we need is a few hours of sleep and tomorrow we’ll keep looking for clues #to the riddles spelt out in our soup #cant help but wonder if ur still my pal but u told me once you would follow me into hell but oh man that place is far behind me now #there once was a time when we walked crooked lines but thats all over now #i’ll walk with you into the blue #g rghhhhhgghhghh #<- i squeeze him like a stress ball

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ironmanstan · 1 year

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the dichotomy of man (need to get out of this fuckin house but if i go then i can not see my cats)

#JUST realized this and now i want to kill and explode and throw up #WHAT THE HELL WILL I DO . WHAT THE FUCK DO I DO ABOUT MY FISH ok i can probably take the fish with me #but MAN #thats such a FUCKING HASSLE #ill just stay here this is fine <- tormented by the horrors. ball and chained to familiarity #the gamer speaks uwu #guy who is terminally stressed and sick about change but desperately needs it to live a life #oooo i need to be in a hamster ball everything new can just be out of arms reach and i will be safe and contained forever #no more new experiences and life changes ill cry we should all just die actually so i never have to break out of my shell #sometimes im like im therapized i dont need to go to therapy i am sooo normal and then i say shit like all that n im like nvm #the desperately averse to change braincell is funny like is it the autism. is it the ptsd. probably both #bc i sure did like have a moment of like i should just drop out of school all of this is too much i cant do it anymore #wired in juuust the right way where i can live so much better than i ever have but itll stress me out enough where i still feel the urge #to throw it all away bc it is strange and weird. and then i have to resist that urge constantly bc ill be fully like cidal again if i do th #its so weird actually. oh u have friends? u take meds? u have irls now? strange and unfamiliar and scary get rid of it all <- the insanity #anyway sucks how there isnt a word i can use in place of men/women when im like 'women will x' but for being nonbinary #nonbinary mfs doesnt hit the same . enbies doesnt hit the same either #nonbinaries b like i am free from the horrors and then go down a whole spiral at the very thought of moving out of their nightmare house #vent #i guess oops what did this turn into

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seilon · 1 year

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my mom was just talking to a friend on the phone and she was complaining about how all zoomers either can’t hold conversations without them being stilted and shallow or they basically traumadump and talk too much about their emotions and im just…… she is a psychologist. specifically a college counsellor. almost all of the zoomers she talks to are. literally university students assigned to her to seek out long term therapy for trauma, stress, anxiety, depression, behavioral and social issues, etc……….

what does she…expect……… to hear…….????