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soups-archive · 6 months

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Thoughts on Purgatory Day 4:

God what a fun day, and yet funnily enough a much more relaxed one.

It's gonna be interesting to see what the ramifications of blue's logout strat are gonna be because it's definitely going to be banned, but, from my understanding, blue used this strat to prove a point: that red's strategy was unfair.

Which is true, or at least I think it was true.

Personally, I feel like it was mostly unfair due to how difficult it used to be to get to global, but I feel like the admins have pretty fairly counteracted that and balanced things with today's introduction of the spawn portals.

Because with red's strat players HAD to physically travel to global and turn in the contracts within at least the last 30 minutes of gameplay. The portals now easily allow other teams to show up and at least put up a good fight, and we actually got to see how effective they are today with cellbit and charlie's assist they pulled for roier. If they had been just slightly quicker, green might've been able to steal back the win.

Which I think brings me to the other potentially unfair part of red's strat that I've seen be brought up which is that it isn't fair for streamers in European timezones/streamers who play earlier. Which is a fair criticism, but honestly I haven't personally been able to think of a way for the admins to balance the contracts around that without either: A) completely changing how contracts work, or B) unfairly punishing later streamers.

I think it's complicated, and I feel like the main thing that's gonna result from today isn't going to be them banning turning in tasks late but instead banning logging out right in front of the global NPCs. Knowing the admins, they'll probably figure out something I hadn't thought of and make the whole thing more fair for everyone.

Competition and lore wise, tomorrow is gonna be really interesting as well. A small alliance might be blooming between red and green and that might have massive ramifications going forward. That and I think (???????) that players might be getting their eggs tomorrow (?????). I know they described a period in which they had to keep them alive and the actual event ends on the 10th so I'm guessing they're arriving tomorrow. If they are, that shit is going to be crazy.

(Side note: It was also a delight to see teams casually hanging out more together today. As much as I enjoy the competition, I missed them all just chilling)

Overall, congrats blue on the win! Cheesy as fuck and they knew it but it was absolutely deserved! They worked their asses off! And green put up a hell of a fight! I hope they get their chance to win as well tomorrow!

#qsmp #soup speaks #it could be perceived that way but this really isnt meant to be a discourse post #i just like thinking about strategy and gameplay balancing lol #this event has been so delightful for me i love disecting possible tactics and ways the admins can make things more fair #while still rewarding interesting and smart strategies #because red's strategy WAS smart #and with the addition of the portals its a lot more fair and opens up opportunities for some sick ass skirmishes over global tasks #i think it also opens up a lot of opportunities for teams to get creative #because all the teams DO have streamers who log in later #even if theyre not their pvp heavy ones #off the top of my head blue has tina missa and rivers #and green has bagi quackity and roier #and not all of those people are the best at pvp but thats where creativity and strategy come in #id love to see blue team come running in with a bunch of explosives or poisoned arrows or other ranged attack methods #to try and stop red team or green team without getting too close contact #like AHHH!!!! i wanna see teams get really creative with this!!! i love fun strategies!!!!#theres so much fun bullshit you can do in this scenario #like god i could sing red's praises so much theyre so tactical and think so strategically its fucking awesome #their cave base made specifically so that it would be less detectable using cave layers? and convincing people they still live at spawn?#delightful #and shoutout blue team for the way they've let people play to their strengths #they caught on to so many good strats early on like moving their base off island and tea being the best food source #and god the way green really came back together today was such a delight to watch #i hadn't caught much of their pov prior to today but i tuned in while they were grinding to fight blue and it was so much fun #i hope them and red actually commit to the little alliance they've formed and try to secure green the win tomorrow #god this event spawns such shit discourse but also im so delighted by it #sorry for the fucking essay in the tags i just have so much to gush about this event kudos to the admins this is sick #qsmp purgatory #really putting the blog back in tumblr blog with this one huh

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baby-honeyy · 2 years

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Warning: im ranting about asexuality and mention sexual assault and othe sex talk

Probably tmi but im really upset. Someone I thought really cared about me keeps asking how being asexual has ever been an issue. She keeps asking how I could ever have had anything negative happen just from my lack of sexual interest. At first it seemed like an innocent question, something she was genuinely curious about. But the more she asks the more I realize she isnt asking in order to educate herself, she's asking because she doesn't believe that my life as an asexual person could be all that different from a straight cis person.

Well. Apart from the fact that I am neither straight nor cis, there are plenty of negative experiences that center around my asexuality or really, the lack of general knowledge or acceptance of asexuality in general.

First off, I grew up believing that there was something seriously medically wrong with me. Everyone around me was so focused on sex that the only time I ever heard of someone not wanting sex was when it was a symptom of a mental illness or medication. I thought (as early as the later years of elementary school) that because I never wanted to have a first kiss or a first time I must be ill.

In middleschool, as we started sex ed, all my friends started talking about their first sexual experiences. Their first kisses, their first time getting off, first time going all the way. And I started getting physically ill at the thought that I would have to do the same. I forced myself to masterbate even though I hated it because I thought I had to. I was convinced that if I didn't then when It actually came time for me to have sex It would be much worse.

In 6th grade I told my mom I wanted to be a nun because to me that was the only way I'd never be forced to have sex. Im not even catholic.

In 8th grade I hoped that my first time having sex would be when I was too drunk to actually experience it.

In my freshman year my mom told me no one would ever really be able to love me unless I was able to give them sex.

And when I finally learned what asexuality was I felt so relieved. Because not only was there a word that perfectly described me, but it came with a community of people who could understand me better than anyone else.

I joined my first lgbtqia club my sophomore year, i came out as bi and asexual. I was kicked out of the club, because being both bi and ace apparently meant I was a "transphobic straight attention seeker"

Every person I've ever had a Romantic interest in has asked me the question "but have you tried it"

My stepmom told me that it was unfair of me to "withhold that intimate connection" from my future partner. That "relationships are two way streets" and that "you need to prepare yourself to be able to love them that way"

While my experience with asexuality isn't going to be the same as everyone's, I know that there are things I've mentioned here that other ace people will resonate with. I also know that my trauma surrounding sexual assault has influenced how I perceive sex. Not every asexual person is sex repulsed.

Something I hear a lot around ace discourse is "no one has ever killed someone for being asexual" and technically that true.

But there is "Correctional" rape, Physical assault, Verbal harrasment, Suicide, and much more.

The amount of times someone has gotten physically aggressive with me or my friends for "leading them on" in a relationship even AFTER explaining Asexuality is sad.

I honestly thought that we'd grown out of the "my trauma is worse than yours" phase and realized that way of thinking is harmful.

I know that there will always be someone worse off than me. I was lucky enough to be born white. I was lucky enough to have friends who support me. I was lucky that I wasn't born in the middle of a war. I was lucky enough to be born into a Christian family who didn't ever have to face religious persecution. In so many ways I know I am privileged and I am lucky and I am better off. But that doesn't erase the shit I was unlucky enough to have to experience.

#asexuality #asexual #ace problems #yes i am bi and ace that is possible #tw sex assault #tw sex mention #tw suicide #tw violence #tw acephobia #sex repulsed #im just tired of being told that im overreacting #im trans asexual and bi #i happen to be a walking kick me sign to some people

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