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dakota1616 · 3 months

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girls after they get back into an old hyperfixation that's kind of embarrassing (it starts again)

#dan vs #dan vs revival #dan vs elise #dan vs chris #dan vs dan #dan vs phil #old hyperfixation #im way too old for this bullshit #dear lord i cant do this again #!#i also got way more deep into my lain hyperfix if it helps #sorry im hyperfixating #adhd hyperfixation #hyperfixation

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bonefall · 4 months

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Maybe I'll make a post on this at some point but like, something deeply fucked up about TNP and Po3 that people have totally forgotten about is how badly they try to whine that "Tigerstar Had Good Traits :("

Firestar does it, Brambleclaw does it, and they keep doing this after it becomes this GRAND irony that Firestar almost gets Tiger'd to death in a fox trap because he was too trusting. Bramble gets his pity award of keeping deputyship and then cries to his son about how No One Saw The Good In Tigerstar :(

And it's wiiiiild that no one else in this fandom has done anything with the fact that Leopardstar broke the Warrior Code to appoint Hawkfrost, who had no apprentice, an extremely aggressive and warmongering Tigerclone who says things like "Tigerstar wasn't the worst cat to look up to." ONLY qualifying trait was being kinda like Tigerstar.

And she practically did that the SECOND Mistyfoot went missing. And then Leopardstar continued to be one of the most violent and xenophobic leaders through Po3, joining with WindClan to attack ThunderClan.

What I'm getting at is that like, a few years ago, with books like "Blackfoot's Reckoning" and "Shadow in RiverClan" it's like they suddenly decided to retcon in a bunch of "redemption arcs" in hindsight. They just pretended like there was this grand high reckoning with TigerClan, when there literally wasn't, and if anything that caused SERIOUS problems for the cast that the authors didn't fully acknowledge as such.

And now ppl haven't actually read the main series and are just working with their recent memory of all these retcon books.

But TNP and PO3 are still there, and you can go and see the ACTUAL timeline where Leopardstar is really not apologetic at all, and Blackstar is a useful stooge for the very next wannabe dictator that strolls in, in spite of the new side content that COMPLETELY mischaracterized them for their plots to work.

#I just wish people could be more critical of this #And im not entirely anti-retcon. Mind you #But I am here because i think these retcons make them WORSE characters. It's BAD for a character to GET a book with a redemption arc and--#Then they don't change at all and act like totally different people later in the timeline #And Leopardstar is the worse one between her and Blackstar BECAUSE she has sooo many active choices here #Im confident in my choice for BB the more I think about it. Leopardstar's dismantling of the bonehill was good #But it works better as a tragedy imo with the rest of the series in mind #That for a brief moment. A fleeting whim. She could have changed.#But she never did.#And Blackstar who was FAR less repentant at the time DID eventually turn around.#At the end of the day one of them appointed Hawkfrost as codebreaking deputy.#And the other did not.#And I think it's fucking bullshit the way that Leopardstar's retcondemption implies that Hawkfrost was just so tricky he mislead her #The old and experienced leader who had been fooled by a tiger before and was soso sorry for it. Just got tricked.#Like fuck off. She never had a redemption. Stop trying to tell me she did 15 years later #She's a girlboss who empires too close to the sun in pursuit of power and drags everyone down with her #Not a sad weepy smolbean #Bone babble #Warrior cats analysis

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opens-up-4-nobody · 21 days

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#it's an old frustration. an old pattern of thought.#i just feel that i have a brain that doesn't hold information. that lacks the discipline to gain knowledge. that is incapable of deeper #thought. and i cant teel you how maddening that is. to sit in a room and listen to other people discuss a paper you read in depth 5 times #like it's the 1st time you ever heard anything about it. how is that possible? how do i work with that? i read and nothing sticks.#nothing stays with me. how??? i was talking to a prof recently who ive heard is hard on her students with disability accommodation. and she #was saying how she doesnt see these things as a disability. how we're just different not disabled. ive heard the phrase differently abled #a lot of times. and i get what she's saying. i do. ad i get why she's hard on them. she wants to push them. but there comes a point where #you are quote unquote differently abled and you run into a wall that other people dont have. then what are you supposed to do? work harder?#but what if that doesn't help? what if that just compounds the hurt that's always been there? what if that leaches away all the wonder? what #then? at what point does a thing become too much of a barrier? i think there's a reason i dont run into many other dyslexic grad student.#everyone has adhd. it's a place where those with adhd prosper. but dyslexia not so much. at least not with the level of hanicap i have #and everyone's really nice. they want to help. but there's nothing anyone can do for me at this stage. it's up to me to compensate for my #leaky head. and i kno im not stupid. ive got a piece of paper stating my iq is above average after correcting for uneven intelligence. but #i dont feel very smart most of the time. i feel more like my uncorrected iq score that comes out at just below average even with me trying #my very best. iq is bullshit but there's something to be said for that gap. im smart if unconstrained by language and time. but were bound #by language and we're bound by time so what am i supposed to do? is there anything i can do? im stuck with this forever. theres no getting #better or making it easier. my brain is wired in a way that gives me the reading skills of a child. forever. and i just have to accept that #and im trying to swallow around that idea easier because the only other option is to choke on it. but maybe i chose the wrong career path.#one of my lab mates said she wants challenges all the time and ive chosen a path that's challenges all the time but im jsut trying to do #what everyone else can without a second thought. it's deeply demoralizing. yet here i am. trying to be easier abt it.#maybe im just nit cut out for this. doing a job im not built for.#unrelated

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bootyful-seventeen · 8 months

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hey y'all, anyone have any good stress relief tehniques or habits they'd like to share cuz I've been more stressed in the last 3 weeks then I was in the last 6 months

#to cut the long story short my mom had to sell the old house cuz her broke ass couldnt afford to keep it up #eventho it is a whole ass hoarders house and was in shambles with a flooded basement a collapsing ceiling in at least 2 rooms plus mold #and the stench a dirt and dog piss and shit all over the floor really made it worse then it was #but yeah so shes been staying with me and my grandma and its been awful #she hasnt been taking any of the medicine the doctors gave her when she snapped and started a fight and also started screaming at neighbour #so shes been terrorizing us here while the house has become her second hoarders den since she dragged so much crap here #my backyard side entrance and front porch are full of her shit and my grandma hates it since she can barely step into the house #so since she kept looking for places way out of her budget i had to go do house hunting since my useless sister is busy getting lit again #so ive been showing her shit in her price range that was under 420k cuz im not a moron who looks at 800k homes when i have 570k #and each time she has a new complaint saying its too expenive or its too small or its too old when she said she wants to do renovations #but shes saying she wants to renovate a newly renovated place instead of an old one #so i just showed her a house near my sisters uni and she liked the inside & backyard but she complained that 400k for newly renovated 3 bed #that is literally a 9 minute drive from my sisters uni is too expensive when shes the one who was looking at an old ass unrenovated bungalo #that is a street over from us that is 800k and she says it looks like garbage cuz an old lady previously owned it before dying #like no shit it looks old cuz older people lived those decades and like it and she just keeps doing her bullshit again & again #cuz when i tell you her mind is gone i mean it is GONE and she starts up all these wild stories to just explain some shit #like something goes missing? the neighbours are hungarian and stole it and left the hoard of junk in her old house #she has more stupid stories to harass and stress us out with but if im gonna share that ill have to write a book about it cuz fuck #and you know its bad when no one else can stand being in any contact with her cuz she starts screaming at people about it #so the only one who even likes her anymore is my sister and thats cuz shes deep in denial about just how insane she is & how abusive she is #so yeah i need some stress relief help that maybe isnt constantly hitting up maryjane cuz i dont do weed often especially since shes here #cuz weed 'burns your brain & makes you crazy like this' when shes the only one whos ever infuriated me to astronimical levels #i know retail therapy helped before she came here but i dont want to keep spending money i dont really have #it would be great tho but shes refusing to give me the 70k she said was mine from the house sale so i can cut her out for good

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widevibratobitch · 8 months

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listening to don carlo for the first time in months and it. it's. it is. it is so. it is soooooo. it's such. it's. sorry it's. yknow. it's such. yknow. you know. so much. it's just. such. sorry it's just soooo. it's.

#the moste opera frfr #do as many opera brackets and polls and whatever bullshit you like. i know my truth.#god. it just hits. so hard. every moment of it.#i listen to it and i just go. i get it. i get why i was so obsessed with it. still am in a way. it's a part of me at this point.#both literally and figuratively #since i do have those two hopeless bitches tattoed on my body forever lmao #don carlo #opera tag #having said that. verdi i will never. ever ever ever forgive you for not including the posa-elisabeth scene.#i should reread the play. but im too much of a responsible adult with actual reading goals i cant keep coming back to my old hyperfixations

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tea-kettlezz · 5 months

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Zoey is the one you'd rip to pieces but not the guy who potentially spends the entire passing obsessing over her?? Interesting. Very interesting that ZOEY is the "problem" and not the guy obsessing over her. Ellis shows interest in Zoey, but you want Zoey to stay away from him?? I see

Surely this isn't a result of an inherent bias against women who "get in the way" of your gay ship or queer Ellis headcanons?? Surely you don't see Zoey as "competition"?? I sure hope that's the case

#idc if im looking into it too much #they better not be a fucking n/llis shipper #rlly out here pitting a 19 yr old against a 35 yr old man for some loser who thinks the mona lisa is a statue 😭#and shitting on her bc one of the men in your yoai likes her #cmon now #its a shame i was about to rb the art piece then i saw that tag #tbh even if the poster doesnt like n/llis its still weird that theyre pointing at zoey as the one who 'needs to stay away from ellis'#and not the other way around #given she doesnt show nearly as much interest in him as he does her #if anything you SHOULD be ripping ellis to pieces since hes the one interested #and dont be going on about some whole 'being with her makes him straight' biphobic ass bullshit #update: the poster does/did in fact ship n/llis #istg ppl who ship n/llis are either very chill or the most misogynistic annoying motherfuckers in the way that only fandom mfs can be

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beeseverywhen · 9 months

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god the duality between 'I don't want someone in my house' and 'yeah I'd like my own kids and no way I'm doing that alone'

#like ppl who don't want kids should be free to live their lives without ppl being like 'watch out! your biological clock is ticking!'#that's bullshit ppl shouldn't say that. but also. i would like kids and #after so many years trying not to get pregnant and that seeming like a worst case scenario. so desperately wanting to not become my parents #now i am an age where I'd happily have a kid if i were in the right life situation & i don't feel I've got all the time in the world anymore #lol like. the space in between 'too young to have a baby' and 'old enough that i risk more health issues/ will be an older parent'#feels way way narrower than i ever would have assumed lol. esp. because all the parents in my family are so young. the idea of being an #older parent is so strange to me. I'm so aware of the things you can't do when you're older and how it's harder work to run after them #and like my body is already wearing out way faster than anyone elses. my health's only gonna get worse so.#being an older parent just doesn't seem an option. not to mention like. the older i am the less generations I'll get to see.#i want to be a great grandmother damnit. lol.#like I'm on a clock. to get over my commitment issues or it legit won't happen. but yeah. can't think of anything worse than having #to have someone in my house. if i was rich enough to have lots of space that's one thing but. I'm not lol.#and rich ppl rub me up the wrong way whenever they try and chat me up so doubt I'm gonna marry in to money looool #like i have come to terms with the fact that. if it doesn't happen it doesn't happen. id rather not get to be a mother than to settle #like that whole 'looking for a partner' dating life is not for me i can't think of anything worse. if it happens it happens #I'll either meet the right person who im willing to give up an empty house for or i won't looool #and it's not like im giving up the whole raising kids thing completely.#like I've got to play a significant hand in raising my siblings even if i didn't ask for that. I've got to see them grow and #help them reach those milestones. and whatever the circumstances I'm blessed to have had them in my life #even if i don't have my own kids I'm always gonna have kids in my life even if I'm an aunt rather than grandmother you know #I'm lucky to be in a family where raising kids is a communal thing. but yeah id love to have my own kids & have someone that looks like me #but I'm not willing to bring someone in to the world in non opportune circumstances deliberately.#like if it's up to me i want them to have 2 parents to look out for them and 2 parents that at least stand a chance of liking each other lol

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chaotictomtom · 11 months

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it feels like i'm paying for never breaking a bone or having any accidents, by just having random excruciating pain out of nowhere. wtf man

#old dude voice my joiiiiints my joiiiiints (will be 23 in september)#like ive been handling my bad knee for like 5 years now as it is the only joint that is still acting up the others that had weird crisis #are okayish now. but lately my hip is just 💀 bad.#but it doesn't come from the weird inflammatory crisis I have so i have no idea why this side is always hell to like. move with sometimes #like laying down can hurt if i have the audacity to position my leg a certain way???? wtf man #i have no idea how a joint popping off out of its place feels but it kinda feels like it's almost getting there any time i doing smth my #hip doesn't like 💀💀💀 what do you wanttttt #sitting crisscross on my chair is the only way ive found to not have my knee hury after 30min in the sae position but now the right side #if my hips hurt so bad if i stay too long like this...... i can never win #i actually don't have any other position while sat that can make no harm to my bod this is bullshit #tomtom_is_rambling #writing bad cos im rabling in the tags as always im so sorry no one gives a shit

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mooshkat · 1 year

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lmao

#seeing twitter get so grossed out and overly dramatic abt t*rlos+others is so funny at this point #like...y'all are so boring lmao. ship or don't ship whatever but to act like it's the most disgusting thing you've ever come across is 😂😂#ur faves fucking someone else in sometimes the most vanilla ways is nowhere even close to being the weirdest thing on ao3 #learn how to have fun! stop shaming fics online just because you don't like them! learn to use a fucking mute button!#im still v hesitate abt posting my own fics like that and subjecting myself to that bullshit but man.#what happened to don't like don't read from the old days. maybe tack on a shut the fuck up about it if you don't read it onto there too #katie.txt #tbd.later

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pendraegon · 2 years

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girl help why do i feel so bad like 🧍🫣😭😵‍💫😶😐

#i thought at first it was bc of like. lack of food but i ate and it's not that #so im like...........oh. it's been a while since ive stared down #the vortex of churning hollowness. except like..what even triggered this why is this happening 💀#me to myself: arent you too old for hiding under ur blanket all day in a depressive haze.#also me to myself: oh go fuck yourself with your sanctimonious bullshit #but. hm! anyways. um. hopefully i snap out of it soon it's just...been....a hot minute since i've had this feeling #on the other hand it's incredible considering that the way i feel now is not even a blip on the radar of #my 8 year span of somehow sinking lower than rock bottom from the ages of 16-24 so ?? improvement? yay?

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opens-up-4-nobody · 5 months

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#ok. this is the fucking bullshit thing abt grad school. u go to fucking grad school bc u r a fucking tryhard nerd freak #who is either naturally very smart or ur so fucking anxious u r incapable of allowing urself to get a bad grad #and then u go to fucking grad school and everyone's like: man fuck ur classes. if youre getting streight As then u aren't focusing on ur #research. and theyre right. but u still cant fucking let go of the idea that if u get a bad grad the world is gonna fucking end and u r a #bad person. u didnt try hard enough. all this to say i have a final project that i put way too much energy into and not even in a good way #i would just open the document. start sobbing. and then close it and spiral abt how i didn't want to work on it. so its bullshit #i mean. its a good project idea ans i probably sound like i kno wtf im talking abt bc i do. i worked on that topic for 4 years but like #i could make it wayyyyy better. its bullshit. i didnt even number the citations to give more page space. i made section headers. i didnt #wrap text. i could add like 4 more lines of text if i wanted but i think im not gotta bc fuck it. ugh. i dont even. i fucking avoide #stochastic stuff altogether which i kno im gonna have to fight abt but like fuck it who cares abt randomness. i just wanna focus on the #predictably aspect of community composition. fuck u. i shouldnt have picked this topic. i mean. i had to bc its like the one microbe thing #i could do but its also like the exact topic that makes me wanna rip my hair out and start screaming. like jesus christ who tf cares? ugh.#i think id give myself a B if it was an undergrad class. but the standard is higher in an all grad class. ugh. i hate this. i should just #send it abd be done. i dont even kno when its due tomorrow. before class i guess. idk i felt like garbage today. fucking vertigo bby. i feel #ok now tho. so maybe the allergic reacting is over???? fingers r still arthritisy tho. jesus. im falling apart #ive got a pretty good sounding excuse for being lazy tho: owo i had an allergic reaction to my antidepressants 🥳 but nah no excuses we run #this body into the ground. like the good old days.#unrelated

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asteraceaye · 1 year

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Why is it so fucking hard to get evaluated for dyslexia

#im already diagnosed too!!! i just need a reevaluation so i can get accomodations at university #but nooo its all schools and people in my area that do not seem like actual doctors and 'dont bill insurance directly'#hello????#also its all for children!! all the photos are kids and the places i look at only talk about elementary ages #please im an adult 😭 i don't want to drive an hour away to get an evaluation for something i already have documented #its such bullshit that those papers get old #its not like you can cure dyslexia #i still write and spell like shit but at least i have autocorrect and a dictionary on hand at all times #ugh i don't know who to look at for this #im pretty sure im just going to go down to my campus disability center and see if they cant help me #if not the councilors might have an idea #its funny too because i didnt realize you could get accommodations for dyslexia until i was in English 1302 class writing an essay by hand #and was like uhh prof can i use my phone to look up how to spell a word because im dyslexic and hes like oh i didnt see that you had that #and i was like what? you can get one?#anyways this just leads to me saying i want my ass covered in any way especially since im going to have to take more math classes #and oh OH my dyslexia comes out there #catch me flipping numbers left and right and not realizing it until my answer is wrong and i know i did all the steps right #sIGH this is just a long winded mini rant in the tags ajdjbd dont mind me im stressed about transferring #it shouldn't be a problem but i still have anxiety #anyways its a struggle to get diagnosed with dyslexia as an adult who knew #aster rambles

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mobiues · 2 years

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i am going to be so controversial right now but i think episode 1 of the loki series might just be my favourite simply because the premise of the first episode was so promising. in fact, critically analysing the show, the theme of loki having had to outrun the title of villainy and yet not quite folding into the mold of a hero would have been so outrageously gorgeous to explore. people praise agent of asgard, and honestly, i don’t see that much of a difference between what the loki series wanted to do vs. what has been written — until the writers of the series completely forgot what it was that made loki so appealing in the first place (his ambiguous alignment and his overall morally grey character), and many heavier themes are sacrificed for a warped romantic story that hadn’t needed to be told in the first place

#i am once again back on my bullshit because i think the idea that self love #needed to be visualised the way it had been with the whole s*lvie and l*ki is so unnecessary #because there are TONS of movies and stories out there #about individuals struggling with self-acceptance and self-love #and they react in such a questionable or damaging ways #that would've been so fun to explore in l*ki's perspective #from loki's questionable character #like coming out of age-ish genre?? would've been so fun to infuse #even if tom is already well in his 40s #because what if the discovery of sense of self if not you feeling too young and too old in your own skin #and thinking about it now... s*lvie's character would've been such a nice contrast #of a l*ki who has went too rogue; too deep-set in her revenge to come back #vs. this l*ki whom after the invasion of new york is still particularly new from the wounds #we know he carried in the mcu since hasn't experienced it yet; not by himself #like i could go on and on #people are so insistent that s*lvie is her own character #which is fine! but u have to understand she too is a l*ki and i wish she would've written more with that in mind #because l*kis are so interesting to explore in and of itself; in whatever version they existed with or upon #like im not sure if im making sense but ..... i just wish people care more to explore character study when they say they want to #anyways ep 2 shouldve been my fave cause of mobius' gorgeous gorgeous involvement #but ep 1 is so chef's kiss... i love the potential.#that would for sure be my favourite #gen: out of character.

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