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Unfortunate for me it seems like I have another night in the straitjacket ahead of me (double arm hot pad event)
#speculation nation#the cold is doing horrible things for my chronic pain 😭😭😭#it's not even that cold but my arms just Hate me#also yes. it's both of them now. has been since last night.#gonna have to keep them both wrapped in the hot pad again. together.#which creates a restrained experience reminiscent of a straitjacket. and thus. the joke.#i cant do fucking Anything when i have my arms like that but it's that or being in pain. as i am right now.#ive finished eating so i think im just going to go to bed early#better than having to deal with the feeling of my bones being carved into (metaphorically)#negative/#adding it bc i am losing my mind i am LOSING my mind i HATE the arm aches i HATE when they show up and i HATE! THE! COLD!!!#i bought arm warmers tho to hopefully help with this. at least at home.#i get the aches sometimes even when it's warm but i sure get them a hell of a lot more when it's cold.#it feels like someone is taking a nail to a chalk board except the chalk board is the bone of my forearm. just. SKREEEEEEEEE of the nail#that agony of the sound. that's how my arm feels like rn.#like ok i wouldnt say it's Agony but it's a level of pain where i struggle to think of Anything else#i was scatterbrained as hell during my manager meeting bc i am just. In Pain.#when the chronic pain is flaring up well that just becomes my personality. AGHHHHH
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btw. i dont think i'll forget, but Just In Case, i DO have art (nothing crazy) i wanna post for the 16th. but i also have a lot to take care of right before then. so if you dont see it by like 6pm EST please yell at me bc i probably got busy and forgot
#6pm is a fine time bc all my stuff is due at 5pm so it wont be interrupting me. i have a meeting i have to go to at 9pm tho#i could just queue the posts but i might make some last second changes once i get a good look at them#(cant get a good look rn. i am posting on tumblr between writing capstone stuff to keep my sanity up)#i would love to log on and like. reminisce on stuff. but idk if i'll have the time or the energy :/#but i WILL reblog a bunch of old posts on this blog. you've seen them 20 times already but one more wont hurt#kjfhdg i love reblogging old posts#again i'll be busy and exhausted probably so idk when but it Will happen. even if it's at like 11pm#resistance day hehe :]#chat#i have like. one more section to write. but it's so information heavy aaaaaaaugh#im on page 12 (single spaced btw. hell) but i wanted to hit like 14 :( oh well hopefully it wont be a big deal#my draft was also 12 pages... but in my defense. i did choose to write my draft in full sentences for some reason#so i feel like that padded the size out a lot#12 pages is probably fine right-#i feel like the final should be longer than the draft but. man i lined out exactly what i'd be saying in that draft. u get what u see#YOU made the mistake of telling me my draft was fantastic. cant fix perfection amen (i hate this paper)
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#apologies for being whiny yet again but alas humans r social creatures and i have no desire to interact with physical ppl lmao#its just that im so so tired. ive been working on this manuscript for the last 2 weeks and i hate it so much. so i spend all week like i#cant wait for the weekend when i can avoid this. but my obsessive brain must have something to get obsessive abt and if its not work then#its something else and rn i can feel it creeping into my drawing. like i just want to draw all the time. more and more and more. i can feel#the goalpost shifting on what's qualities as acceptable and on one hand i feel like ive gotten a lot better in a short period of time but#but also it means i sit there for like 6hrs coloring until my legs hurt and ive wasted so much time and i spend hours filpping back and#forth. unable to commit to drawing any one thing. which is very annoying. idk its just exhausting bc all i can think abt is all the things#i should be doing instead but im stuck there until i can get x thing done#and i put so much pressure on the time i have to draw that most of the time im too paralyzed to do anything#bc executive dysfunction annoyingness. and my brain makes me stay up so late and wake up so early. im just tired#so im making myself miserable in all aspects of life. like no. stop that. pls#its just this like crazy frantic anxious energy constantly spinning in my chest#and its like oh u should make friends or something so u can get out of ur own head but like idk ppl are exhausting and i dont like#listening to myself talk. i find it personally annoying lol. i feel like some sort of alien when i go to lab meetings. like i see what's#happening and i understand the structure but like in a synical way. like im not reacting how im supposed to. the interactions dont make me#feel anything. i feel the same way when i go to the zoo or something. like im supposed to feel something but its not there. im forming#memories but then when i hear ppl reminisce abt it. its like oh yea i guess that did happen. i dont have the fond memories u seem to have.#i dont feel anything abt it. so then whats the point of doing things like that? its just a waste of time and money if im not gonna enjoy it#my emotions seem to shift between light misery and an obsessive almost manic focus. so ill smile abt thing but something deep in my chest#feels wrong. weird emotional disonace. agh. idk its just annoying and ive gotta sort myself out b4 i have to take a like 18hr car ride with#my boss in like 3 weeks or something. blah! i should just sleep more. that would prob help#unrelated#in a lab meeting once i got asked what i do to relax and im like. i dont. and my boss was like what abt drawing?#and i was like ahah i like to draw but im so obsessive abt it that its something i have to do#so its not so much fun as it is stressful so yeah i dont relax
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౨ৎ HOW YOU GET THE GIRL PT.2
“remind me how it used to be, pictures in frames of kisses on cheeks… and say you want me” - taylor swift (smau)
contains: charlie bushnell x fem!reader (part 1 here)
description: i just watched an edward scissorhands ballet and its made me reminiscent of my dance days… why did angsty teen me quit!!
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yn.ln last little photo dump, with taylor stealing my phone and taking a selfie which is something i never thought would happen?!
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user1 charlies been REAL quiet since the comment
↳ user2 I dont think its awkward between them bc otherwise she wouldnt be posting them together
dior.n.goodjohn imagine having THE TAYLOR SWIFT hijack ur phone
↳ yn.ln ikr like i mean she can keep it if she wants idm 🤷♀️
user3 me trying to figure out if the post is from the mv or behind the scenes
↳ user4 yeeah like it IS a scene but from a phone camera… and they r pretty close
user13 HE WANTS U FOR WORSE OR FOR BETTER!!!!
user5 well, she isnt fighting the dating allegations is she
↳ user6 why would she have to?
taylorswift 😘😘😘
user7 R THEY TOGETHER??!!
↳ user8 i dont think so, just rly close
user9 why is it the end of the photo dumps 😃
↳ user10 probs bc thats all the photos she has from it 🙄
user11 ok NOW get her cast on percy jackson
user12 they better be dating or im going to kms
Direct Messages:
You: Heyy charlie, what was that comment about that walker sent?
Charlie: Ohh did u see that?
You: Yeah sorryyyy!
Charlie: No dont be sorry, it was just walker yk? he goes on about random stuff to annoy people a bit
Yn: So.. its not true?
Charlie: I think it was just a joke 😄
Yn: Oh okayy! Sorry! Are we still on for the weekend then? Maybe we can chat ab it
Charlie: Of course!!!! … whats there to talk about tho?
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yn.ln we in fact had A LOT to talk about
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user5 why do i feel like we missed a chapter
dior.n.goodjohn if i had to sit through one more session of you two yearning for eachover i might have gone crazy
↳ user6 why can i envision this perfectly
user1 talk about, or kiss about?
↳ yn.ln WOWOWOW
user2 HE GOT THE GIRL!!
walker.scobell i take full credit for this
↳ user4 everyone say thank u to walker!
↳ user3 thank u walker 🙏
↳ iamcharliebushnell thank you walker
↳ yn.ln aint no way charlie, u were in so much denial about his comment its embarassing
↳ iamcharliebushnell 😣😣😣
leahsavajeffries FINALLY!!!
user7 OMGOMGOMG
taylorswift i feel like im a matchmaker rn
↳ yn.ln you are, and a very good one at that
user8 ON VALENTINES DAY TOO? SOMEONE GRAB ME A GUN RN
user9 jokes aside her hairband is super cute
↳ yn.ln its my prized possession, i will wear it any chance i get
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yn.ln omgomg, still in awe that our how you get the girl music video won an AWARD?! It was all u taylor boo 🩷🩷
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user1 THE OUTFITS? THE HAIR? THEY ALL ATE SO HARD THERES NOT EVEN A KITCHEN ANYMORE
taylorswift all ME?! u ARE how u get the girl
↳ yn.ln STOP THIS MADNESS
↳ iamcharliebushnell what about mee?? 😣
↳ yn.ln oh! 😄 well ur a guy so…
↳ user3 me he heee
↳ user4 yns so real
sabrinacarpenter ahh congrats!! So well deserved!! 🎉🎉
user2 i cant believe this is real, yn, taylor, and charlie ?!?!
dior.n.goodjohn I WAS ROOTING FOR U!!
↳ iamcharliebushnell I WOULD HOPE SO?!
user5 charlie got the girl and got the award !
↳ user6 that was so cringey
user7 yn and taylor are my new fav duo
gracieabrams YESS!! WELL DONE 🥳🥳
taglist: @highfidelities @lostinhisworld @lizziesfirstwife @auttumnsayshi @silkenthusiasts @taygrls @kidkrowk @kanojous @niktwazny303 @m00ng4z3r
#charlie bushnell x reader#luke castellan x reader#percy jackon and the olympians#smau#social media au#aesthetic#charlie bushnell#in the know#x reader#taylor swift#how you get the girl
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Hey Peg! 👋
Hope you've been doing alright this month. Sooo, I got this sudden urge to doodle yesterday, and I wanted to try my hand at making an original shirt design for Chai in Hi-Fi Rush. And (predictably) the first prompt that came to mind was your AU, lol. So here's my take on an alternate shirt design for Security!Chai:
Titled: "Security's Super Star"
Base Design
"Spotlight" (variant)
I can't believe I made this on a whim, lol (do I actually have some semblance of skill after all?!). Some fun little notes:
Since he normally wears a lot of cool colors (with the exception of his shoes) as an inversion of his original design, I tried to stick to a palette that mainly consisted of varying shades of blue and purple (while trying not to blend in with his scarf much)
The stripe pattern in the lighting bolt is meant to be reminiscent of his electronic, battery themed shirt (which felt necessary, since that symbolism is technically part of his brand in-universe). Though I'm not sure if it gives off the same vibe, lol.
The Vandelay "V" acts as the center piece, and serves as the lightning's "impact" effect.
The star as a whole is meant to vaguely look like it's on some sort of stage (with "light" illuminating from behind, and the start of it's "shadow" being cast near the bottom).
I decided to fill out the remaining parts of the star with a circuit board pattern, just as another reference to his primary job. Honestly, I think the duality between being a security enforcer and a high profile stage performer is something that could spawn a really unique looking character design in general. Like just as an art prompt, it'd be an interesting challenge such radically different professions through a single outfit.
Anywho, I gotta get to sleep now, but I hope this was able to brighten your day somewhat 🙏
YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
IM NEVER GOING TO SHUT UP ABOUT THIS ITS SO COOOOOOOLL
You’re so fucking good at art holy shit. I’m screaming I’m shouting I’m overjoyed!!! I’m so happy rn this has made my day. Joy!!
I also appreciate getting to see your thoughts bc they make me appreciate it more. This is so clever and visually appealing and it looks so nice. You did an amazing job!! Task fulfilled successfully!! I’m running out of words to use to express joy but I’m not just gonna scream on main.
Thank you for making all this cool stuff based on the words I put out. I care them lots and they make me happy and I hope you have a good day!! You’re very skilled and it shows holy shit—
#and then I kept screaming for hours#you popped off#i speak#i reply#security!chai au#hi fi rush#hi-fi rush#the spotlight variant *fucks*
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the backing track to the song is very reminiscent of old one direction songs and just late 2000’s & early 2010’s pop in general imo which might be why so many people feel like it’s familiar sounding (some examples off the top of my head are best song ever by one direction and last friday night by katy perry but there are countless others im sure). which i think is a really cool stylistic choice because 1) that kind of style is getting a lot of nostalgia hype rn because the people who had that music in middle and high school are nostalgic for it now and 2) i think it’s really cool for a song that’s obviously meant to be a tribute to a friend who’s passed to have a familiar and nostalgic feel to it. overall really cool and im so so excited to hear the whole thing
#i saw people saying it sounded familiar so i thought i’d put my 2¢ in#one direction was the first thing off the top of my head because iw as obsessed with them at that time#but a lot of artists used that sound
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i'd love to hear any behind the scenes you have on 'say it's here where our pieces fall in place' bc i read it and loved it and i want to know about it 💜
Welp, I've been thinking about this since you sent it and I feel I won't do it justice! I feel like I could say a lot if I went chapter by chapter, but many tabs of unread fics stare back at me. I'll skim and try to say something, though.
Some commentary on say it's here where our pieces fall in place under the cut! I am sick and rambly. And lbr I can never shut up anyway, but this might be too incoherent even for me. (Original ask post here)
It was sort of an unofficial NaNoWriMo project, in that I set myself a goal to tackle “longer fics” or ideas I wanted to cover but hadn't. From my notes, I had this idea to write a ficlet per year because I always enjoy this kind of story, and I know I'd tried to approach different ones in the past. I started writing in late October/finished in Nov 2021. (The other fic I started was never finished, even if dammit, it hits.) I posted it in January, so it wasn't that bad, considering I'll often take months.
It's maybe important to note that I had only finished writing “The Monster (affectionate)” (aka the 148k-ish word IM AU) in early September and I felt a bit burned out after spending five months writing that (would’ve been less but the struggle was real for the last third of the story. Oddly reminiscing of you-know-what story these days). This arbitrary deadline helped me get back into writing. Granted, I wrote a couple of fics in those five months, but I wanted to try another multichapter.
Anyway. I picked some random, perhaps not obvious choices for the vignettes. It was partly to avoid writing something I might have potentially covered at one point, and also a challenge. Some are also strange (the dream!), but I kinda loved it? (Fun fact: the fic references the Sherry-Netherland, whose exterior is the establishing shot in Internal Displacement. I swear there is some thought put into my writing.) And as the A/N I wrote to myself, I definitely wrote and rewrote bits and pieces of this on my way to and from therapy, haha.
Let me find a fun fact about each of the chapters, if I can think of any.
1998: actually repurposed some campaign fic idea I distinctly remember writing in spring 2018, while I was still in uni. It also has GLOVES. I live for that.
1999: I like the idea of exploring Danny and Abbey's relationship! They presumably have a good one and yet, I don't think we ever see them interact. (And god. Danny's recent, pre-campaign breakup is a recurring theme in my campaign stories too, loool.)
2000: Danny and Josh are an underrated friendship, and I like the references to Rosslyn. There was so much in those months in Midterms that we didn't see, and I like thinking Danny visited his friend.
We also got two back-to-back chapters focused on Danny - I remember trying to make it even, so that the focus was more or less evenly split.
2001: the Manchester fuckup! And it's one of the dream chapters! There were two of them? (We're 3 out of 4 in which I was surprised by the focus, but now I kinda want to re-read it all properly?) I'll say that I can see some vague, unconscious inspo from Freefall by KadeeFalls in this chapter (esp since I was just talking to you about it)... But I'm mostly obsessed with the magical realism (there's another term that my foggy brain cannot think of rn) of dreams, and how it can help us clear our heads.
2002: I remembered this was set after Simon! I know it's probably an odd, controversial choice but they both tried to move on (at least, we know CJ did), and it felt disingenuous not to include it. There are moments when she almost admits to her previous (?) feelings for Danny, but stops.
As with most thus far, there were fluffier and probably better choices for 2002 (Christmas!!), but... My brain wanted it to appear like CJ couldn't really bring herself to think about Danny.
2003: Aw, the specialty store is inspired by a franchise over here that had Goldfish (not many flavors) and I took a dramatic license and added it over there. I also added a small flashback because I love thinking Danny doesn't think they're all that but likes them. (But will tease CJ about it.) Plus, some more resolution to moving on!
2004: Yeah, the formatting is weird. (This is one I'd have to go back and do a blockquote or something.) Danny winning a Pulitzer for the Shareef stuff is a mostly accepted headcanon. CJ seeing his picture on the paper and having feels is just something I love, especially if he mentions someone else. (Look. I'm all for letting him pine, but he deserves to move on and fail too.) Plus Josh teasing her!
2005: The Sherry-Netherland! fwiw, I'm sure I had finally figured out this was the place and decided it would be so cheeky to add it here. I'm so sMaRt. Flowers when she gets promoted! And my spin (in this story) of CJ vaguely shunning him. This is the angst before the fluff.
2006: I remembered this one was a dream at some restaurant! (Again the formatting is not great, but I didn't want to tip my obvious hand.) The same way I think CJ's dream in 2001 was about her wondering how Danny would have reacted, this is about Danny realizing he needs to reach out to her... But with the added family ~tale~. Def inspired by that lyric in "Sad Beautiful Tragic."
2007: I feel like having it at some random dinner with Josh and Donna was an odd choice, but I loved the idea of a double date! The scarf scene is just so! And the chaos siblings energy is great. It was a reprieve from the angst.
Meeting at LAX was right there! I had written a story or two trying to do it justice, so I'm guessing that's why it's not. And fwiw the airport story I wrote shortly after that is the one being posted ~soon~. (A rewritten, slightly expanded version.)
2008: Pregnancy mood swings! It hurt to make them fight, but it's so fluffy otherwise. From what I remember, it has various references to things that happen in the story (particularly from the first two chapters) but it still manages to close it rather nicely, showing how strong their marriage is. I hope.
Okay. This has gotten way too long and it's probably useless.
I've always said I could have written another 11 chapters using different scenes, because there are just so many, even outside the obvious ones... Though I feel I wouldn't be able to recapture the magic.
I do definitely want to reread this for real. As with many fics, it's one of those I used to reread often before posting it (especially the last quarter/third) and then just ignored after. See some other recent examples, such as memoir fic, Portland fic.
Thank you for asking, Ally! God, I used to be a good writer. What happened?!??!
#fanfic director's cut#ask games#onekisstotakewithme#asks#it's taken me an hour or so to write it alskdjasdasd
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hi it’s me again sorry for being so open and forward i probs shouldn’t have dumped on you like that but ty for being so kind ily , i’m a lil better now it’s like 11pm here so i just came out to our living room to sit w my dad and hopefully ill feel a lil better soon, i also have food poisoning and i have emetephobia so that never helps, i’ve also been thinking a lot about the past and how i miss my old house and i’ve been thinking abt it for the past like 3 days so it’s been giving me a lotta stress and stuff, ty for checking on me mina i rlly love and appreciate you , i’m always here for you as well😭🙏🏻
https://www.tumblr.com/mangoposts/745600652453068800/guys-i-have-really-bad-anxiety-rn-wooo-who
OH NOOOOOO i know that fear all too well😭😭 I hope you feel better soon im sorry 💔 Thinking about the past house is relatable it’s very normal to reminisce and stuff but it’ll get better when you make better memories 🙏 But again i hope you feel better soon you’re so welcome ily2😙
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hi em! i was gonna make this anonymous but ta heck w tht LOL okay so this is gonna b a long one js bc i wanna b as clear as possible for u but i jus wanna kno ur opinion on this n im sorry if this sounds redundant (given what ur whole acc is abt) but i saw this tiktok that was basically talking abt how ppl who read rp (real person) fanfics r weird , disgusting , and freaks (that one hurt ngl😭) and ig bc i never interacted w ppl who read them i had no idea this was such a controversial thing yk? so it kinda hurt and i got hella defensive bc these fics have helped me thru some hard times n r my safe space (esp ur acc i love it sm ur fics r quick n easy reads but so so good! and i love tht u write wholesome sfw fics i don’t like / can’t read nsfw rp fics) and r good when i need a quick romance fix bc i have none irl (tmi fr sorry!) but honestly it made me feel horrible abt myself bc im like damn am i sick freak for reading this even tho i read the sfw n wholesome ones?? n they were sayin the y/n , self inserts were even worse! 😭 n idk if this makes me ignorant but for the life of me i couldn’t figure out what made it weird! nsfw ones r different but regular romance or fantasy? esp since i never see this take when ppl mention they used to read one direction fanfics or mindless behavior & august alsina ones (these were popular among the black community for context!) like everyone laughs n reminisces i feel like ppl r a lot more critical n harsh on kpop stans tbh but i even thought abt deleting my tumblr bc i felt wrong for doing so it made me question myself for awhile just being honest anyways i’ll get off my soapbox im so sorry this is so long i jus wanted to give as much context and detail as possible! if this is too much please disregard but idk i just wanted an opinion on this take from a fix writer and i assume u read some too correct me if i’m wrong! thanks so incredibly much in advance and i hope we can b friends one day! 🧸🎀✨💌💕🫶🏽
this is so real of you omg ok first of all, thank you for going out of your comfort zone to do this! things like this make me so happy cuz you coming out of your way to do this (comfort wise and time wise since it must’ve taken you a while to write sm, esp considering the technical difficulties 😭) makes it all the more meaningful. and i rlly appreciate you coming to me of all ppl too! so thank you!
secondly, i agree with you on all the things you had to say !! i was once in your shoes, and if i’m being completely honest, a part of me is still navigating this as well. like some things i still question for example is if there is rlly nothing wrong with this, why do i feel the need to hide that i read/write? but for the most part, rn i am definitely set on there being absolutely nothing wrong with this! i can definitely see where these other ppl are coming from if they had never thought much of fanfiction or reader inserts etc. bc it’s probably similar to how i felt before being more exposed to fanfiction. but imo these are fantasies i just imagine in my head anyway and are almost like dreams to me yk? and so imo, they’re harmless. in fact, writing and reading ffs help grow my creativity, which is smth i value. cuz not only am i doing this for entertainment, i’m also doing it for the art (this is in terms of writing more so than reading but can still apply to both). however, similar to you, i do believe that imagines can be taken too far, as that is what aligns with my beliefs, such as nsfw fics (which is not anything personal at all to nsfw writers!). that imo can be harmful for the mind and spirit etc. (sorry if this is getting too deep and personal 😭)
ugh this is honestly so nice to talk about and have someone relate to on this cuz literally the things you are saying describe me !!! and dw, i have and never had any love life,, it’s non existent, believe it or not! so dw, you’re not alone 😭 like we can be delulu tgt 😭😭 and ahahaha yesss like i can’t tell you the amount of times i considered deleting this app or stopping writing/reading. it was challenging to process. but after doing so, i have come to the conclusions i mentioned earlier (how i think reading sfw fics are harmless). it’s literally just a form of harmless entertainment lol so i don’t see why ppl have to be so judgmental about it and can’t just mind their own business 😭 so dw, coming from a fellow reader and someone who has faced the same dilemma, you are not at all a freak 😭 and don’t let anyone let you think otherwise 😤☹️
also i can’t go without saying a huge thank you for all the kind things you had to say about my works :((( <3 that is so sweet of you to say and is so encouraging. it’s smth i’m finding i need a lot of, esp lately, so i rlly appreciate that and it means a lot. this whole ask and talking about this is rlly quite meaningful to me tbh 😭 so thank you for coming to me and being so brave to bring this up! 🫶🏻 also, yes let’s be friends omg !! i’d love that 🥹🫶🏻
#thank you for this truly 😭#i feel so…. not alone anymore loll#em answers#thatsadoutsider <3#also if you’re comfortable lmk your name!#i want to give you a more personal tag :>#only if you’re comfortable ofc! <3
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i dont mean to reminisce on DAI/DA in general so much rn as some kinda jab to bg3, just nostalgic and there arent many high fantasy rpg (or any rpgs) that have details branching relationships. i am super biased for Dorian but thats because his romance was SO good imo. and again, it was unique for not falling into the often bland 'everyone is bi just because'.
but rn after getting to the first major stage of Astarion's relationship i think i can also agree w those who are saying the romances seem less romance and more sex. and i love sex, i want to fuck these guys a lot, really. but its the fact *everyone* is like that. they ask on the end of act 1 if you want to fuck anyone, and everyone has the option to. and thats cool sometimes but lets be serious, its not realistic and it kinda takes weight off of some characters if they all wanna fuck with barely knowing you. you get next to no options to converse with them in detail through the first act. especially in Astarion's case, i didnt get anymore options until he bit me, and even that was not long before closing act 1. it is def harder to get higher approval with some characters just in act one. but even prior i somehow got Lae zel high enough she was eager to fuck just because i killed some people. and she was hardly in my party at all.
like okay, i have more acts, so im sure i will learn more about Astarion but its still the fact that the first relationship anything i could do was just led by asking for sex? regardless of my stance on sex (and i love it), i want variety. and variety can't just be their backstories, it has to be their stand on relationships, intimacy, sex, etc. if you game if going to take pride in its romances. remember DAI? remember all the stuff you could ask back at your base? questions about them that honestly had a decent amount of branches or at the very least there were a good number of topics? their impressions affecting options and story choices coming up quite often. you still had to get to know them but i felt like their approval was well paced and obvious.
not getting anything else to ask Astarion through almost all of act 1 except "what can you tell me about yourself" to which he says nothing was kinda lame. i can ask Shadowheart what she thinks of the current situation, etc... you can ask Gale a good amount about his condition. and my approval was neutral too. But even for them, there was very little you could get out of those choices anyways. and additionally with DAI not jumping right to sex, i liked how you could like... you could have small intimate interactions with them outside of the big scenes. and the pacing felt good, the story quests for them also coming in 'acts' with the overall story.
idk man, i just hope the romance storylines in bg3 pick up. i did see complaints coming from ppl before i started but i kinda wished they were exaggerated, but i care about writing and pacing so its kinda hitting me that its not wrong.
#also. astarion's first sex scene was so short compared to minthara#which i did and reloaded#i know you can be any gender w these guys but like.... come on man
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im back bc i consider you the literature (and orv) mutual, idk why but since starting accounting i put everything in goddamn spreadsheets and now im planning my reading for 2024 so i wont freeze like a deer in headlights when deciding what to read HWUSHWH
IVE ORDERED BOTH DEMIAN AND NARCISSUS AND GOLDMUND YAY (rip shopping restraint) and the narcissus n goldmund one arrived already hehe i remember u saying it's still very reminiscent of demian so why not read one right after the other uwu
however im also interested in ursula k. leguin’s works and i think ive seen u talk about/reblog le guin and,,,ever since i saw her quote about kindness from the left hand of darkness and how when stripped of everything it's the only thing we have etc. etc. AND IDK IF IT'S FROM THE SAME BOOK BUT IT'S DEFINITELY LEGUIN’S WORK the ‘what if there is no end? all we have is the means’ and i feel like puncturing a wooden door with my head whenever i remember both IM LOSING TRACK OF WHAT I WANNA ASK SO ILL ASK RN IM SORRY HSUWHS
do u have leguin recs? or any leguin ur also interested in reading in the future?
no pressure to answer/ gen also i hope the holidays are memorable for you in a good way, something to look back on n feel warmth <333
Hiii i hope you have a great holiday too!! omg the reading list spreadsheet is such a mood 😭😭❤️❤️
I'M SO GLAD YOU GOT DEMIAN AND NARCISSUS & GOLDMUND!!!! I recommend reading demian first but yes they're both very good!
As for Le Guin, i 1000% recommend The Left Hand of Darkness, it's the only book i gave 5 stars to that i've read this year and i'm not kidding when i say it changed my life. I haven't read her other stuff yet but i've heard that The Word For World Is Forest is also a good one and apparently it's something of an allegory or commentary on the Vietnam War. and i've heard a lot of good things about The Dispossessed that i've also been meaning to read next! I think these three are all set in the same universe too.
Wish you a wonderful and peaceful rest of the year 💗
#and christmas too if you celebrate!#i don't really so idk#but the holidays are certainly holidaying!
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This isn't a request or a question or anything like that. Honestly, I don't usually do things like this (and im not entirely sure if this is even the place to do it😭🙏) but I was feeling v emotional and brave💀 Mists of Celeste is by far the best fanfiction I've read. Genuinely. I think I started reading it around this time last year and now I cannot associate winter with anything else. You know how when autumn comes, people start pushing out those little twilight edits? When winter comes I start up that little Mists of Celeste playlist and reminisce. The world building is sooo good. When I think about it, I get this feeling in the pit of my stomach and tears start forming. I wish I could pinpoint all the things I really love about the story but when I try my brain goes blank and I start thinking about planets and stars and really aesthetic pinterest boards. I am word vomiting rn but you did that. You really did.
ah thank you for sending me this omg!! i'm always shocked when people tell me moc is their fave or the best they've read especially when i've read so many legendary and incredible works out there, to even be considered to be among those is such!! high praise!! you're so so kind pls i think of moc a lot in the winter as well though this year moreso out of upset at how little i've written this year!? but wow to think that just the thought of my work evokes such an emotion in people is truly amazing and i'm so thankful for your words this made me tear up a lot and is super inspiring to me so thank you thank you thank you 😭💘💗💘💗
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More headcannons if you will, I can literally go on forever. Is it better to send a separate ask for each headcannon/oneshot? Skdnejhxia
-aki and reader going on a road trip. Before they go reader makes him stop at a gas station and she’s like snacks! And so she gets a lot of them and asks him what he wants and he just like grabs one thing and she’s checking out and trying to pay but then akis like dont even think about it and pays for it instead and she’s just in the car like :| with all the food surrounding her thinking she was gonna buy it all but aki did so now she feels kind of bad cause it was expensive but aki doesn’t mind he just wants to dote on her (she ends up feeding him gummy worms while he drives) (her legs are thrown across his lap after awhile) (she’s blasting the music and aki can’t help but smile because the sun is shining and his soulmate is singing and life is good) (they arrive to their destination and take lots of pictures and touristy stuff) (aki keeps a Polaroid of her that day in his wallet and looks at it every day)
-more beach content. Reader gets a new swim suit and shows off for him. They go to the same beach they went to in childhood and they stay there the whole day, perhaps reminiscing about childhood and her mom. They float in the water until the sun is going down. Aki talking about sharks coming cause of night time and readers like ???? Are you 2
-picnic! One of them is having a hard day (honestly no idea who should do what) and the other picks up on it. As soon as person A returns home from work after the bad day person B is like I have a surprise for you. They blindfold them and lead them to a backyard/park/forest (NOW THAT IM WRITING THIS I WOULD SAY FOREST) and they take off the blindfold and are like tada! And there’s a nice blanket laid out and some candles and a basket with food. They sit and feed each other strawberries and eat sandwiches. Reader throws grapes into akis mouth and he catches them. Reader maybe bites into a watermelon and the juice runs down her chin to her chest and akis like *suddenly I’m bricked up* then they fuck outside by their picnic
Someone needs to restrain me I’m so down bad for these two -rem
ANSWERING THIS FRESH AFTER WATCHING THE NEW EP SO THE AKI BRAINROT IS STRONG RN!! REM, I HOPE U ARE BUCKLED IN!
FIRST OFF..... ohhhh boy, are u going to get more beach content... BUT NOT IN THE WHOLESOME WAY U DESCRIBED! I SHOULD BE ASHAMED.. beating down the horny demons rn... reader is running straight for the water like always and aki is covered in spf and hiding out under the big umbrella (skin cancer is no joke). you finally manage to lure him in by refusing to come out, even if your skin gets all pruny, so you make aki come get you <3
AND THE ROAD TRIP WAHH... aki driving one of those cars that has a bench in the front seat, no center console separating you, so you get to throw your legs over his lap and feed him snacks while he drives and be a good lil passenger princess... he would pay for anything and everything you want, but he'd see the piles of sugary junk and make a note to pick up some real food on the way. ALSO THE BIT ABOUT THE POLAROID MAKES ME WANT TO CRY!!! he would cherish it forever and ever,, he isn't convincing anyone when they see the polaroid of your smiling face displayed in his wallet and he tells them you're just a good friend. this man is head over heels.
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okay i wanted to listen to the album before sending another ask and i did and you’re so right!!!! like our season and always is so good ??? also i feel like their stuff is so new to me? like ive never heard this style of music before so im gonna need to check out the members bc rn i only know matthew (bc he had a cousin post about voting for him i think) ricky and jiwoong
OKAY BABE YES OMG OKAY
SO ppl have said online that zb1’s music and dance is reminiscent of svt and iz*one. and i don’t disagree!!! i think if you liked either of these two groups you would like their music. they have the budget that svt quite frankly didn’t have with their music at debut but iz*one did, but they also have a youthful freshness that i think a lot of bgs rn don’t have. it makes them stand out imo!!!! they also!!! have vocals for days!! i recommend watching some of their boys planet performances to get more on this (i can rec too) but they’ve got such lovely voices
and all of the members are sooooo dear n precious to me. matthew’s older sister posted and promoted him on tiktok!!!!! and she was there when his debut was announced with his mom sob. he wants to prove himself so badly but he’s so sweet n cute and protective, and he’s soooo smiley!!!!! n he’s also really curious keke jiwoong is such a classically handsome man but he’s so cute and clumsy!!!! he’s been thru a lot but that doesn’t stop him from being a kind person :( ricky is suave and confident but he’s also snarky n likeable. and then sung hanbin i’m convinced is genuinely one of the nicest people in the world. he is so kind and lovely!!!! zhang hao is a musical GENIUS (he has a degree in music education and was going to teach high school music!!!!) and sassy!!!! taerae has a golden voice and is so fucking sassy n always the first person to call someone out kekeke. gunwook is going to be the it boy for fucking SURE that boy!!! is something special!!!!!! he’s so charming but he’s adorable too and he takes advantage of it kekeke and yujin and gyubin 🥺🥺🥺 gyubin is like a puppy but is extremely warm hearted. he cries a lot. he cried when yujin leveled down in boys planet, cried when he and yujin got in. he’s extremely empathetic!!! and yujin actually reminds me of jeon jungkook??? in the way he talks and is an immensely talented kid and i genuinely believe this boy will grow into a monster of an idol
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ohh ok moon mod again, sending as an ask both so I don't have to spam the others but also I do have more questions actually! mostly abt gameplay, bc if it does genuinely go on sale (i saw it's at like $10 rn omg?) i might look into buying and playing it myself
ill bullet point these lmao
what exactly is the gameplay: turn-based, open world, fighting game where it's open-world but not im not sure how to put it, puzzle solving, etc? I'm assuming it's like a fighting game that pulls you in a small arena, but elaboration is appreciated :0
does it,, go on sale on steam or is it purely for the switch it goes on sale? if you know, i totally understand why you might not
thank you once again :'D !!
hello hello!! thank you for asking!!
tov's gameplay uses a "linear motion battle system" which is reminiscent of a fighting game, but you have 4 characters fighting agsinst the enemy. you control one either on semi-auto (which leaves you Locked onto your target), or manual, where controls are harder but it means making a Huge fancy combo out of your controlled character!
the game is open world consisting of the following: the field, towns, and dungeons. you walk around the field (you may encounter enemies as you make your way in the world), you interact with npc and whatnot in towns, while you travel in dungeons and encounter enemies there too.
theres a lot of freedom in how to manage your party members in battles, including the skill system, equipable weapons, battle settings where you can tell the ai how to attack/where to move/etc, and you can even toggle which Attacks they can use. its pretty flexible and each character fullfils different roles! judith for example is aerial combos but is also close combat that you canbhave fun running with!
fights themselves occur in a small circular space when an Encounter happens which does remind a bit of an arena! but only boss fights take a while to beat. some dungeons have a tiny bit of puzzle solving and whatnot but even if you get stuck we have folk online who have put out solutions readily.
honestly the most puzzling aspect of the game is one thing it has kept from Ye Olde style of jrpgs: needing a guide if you want to 100%. not even just to 100%! the game has a few infamous instances of missable sidequests, events that have a limit as to when you can trigger them at latest. one of which is ACTUALLY a judith sidequest. i have done a 100% playthrough twice and i personally did not mind it much but in that regard i am not reliable, i like the challenge of it LMAO
i have good news for you: steam is where it almost always goes on sale! now i have to say that apparently its the steam port that has had the most difficulties with lag and all but ive only played less than 10 hours on the steam version so far. i would say its fine but its definitely better suited for a controller though o7
on the steam version someone managed to create a little file you can put into the steam files that lets you have character outfits from unused and cut content, or even outfits that did not make it from the ps3 version of the game (karol, a boy in the party, had a literal keroro outfit. huge frog outfit really changes the atmosphere of some scenes its hilarious)
feel free to ask more if desired :D
#woe joystick be upon ye#i love LOVE beinf able to impart tov knowledge its enrichment. i can talk about many things all day#if you end up playing i hope you enjoy it moon mod! its been an honor
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well hello anyone who is actually on tumblr and hasnt forgotten about me. ive been offline for a year or so, had personal issues in my life, and also started high school so i wanted to focus on that. life update:
- im in 10th grade now :)) high school isnt that bad and there actually isnt as much fights as there was in past years. also im in a lot of advanced classes now
- i got new friends, and dumped my old ones(they were toxic)
- got into some new fandoms(call of duty, genshin[sorta i barely tolerate some people, I just try to play the game without interacting with the fandom], tmnt[i’ve always loved it], and others that I can't rlly think about rn
- got my working permit today :D after new years I'm gonna look for a job
- well I figured out I'm trans now (f-t-m), after years of question my gender and making excuses, I'm also pansexual :)
- the name I want my legal name to be is kaisen(kai is just a nickname and I dont use j anymore)
- body image stuff, sucks to suck but I'm trying everyday, slowly
- i actually have a girlfriend, we have been together for 3 months, and known each other for around 1 or 2 years. We are long distance(she lives in another country), time zones suck, but we make it work. We also met on genshin, so i guess i owe the game for that.
- im teaching myself how to draw, and also have been reading a lot of books lately
- family life isnt the best, im not gonna elaborate, but i just try to ignore it
it seems like a dream with how i acted a year ago. i seemed way more immature than what i do act now. i was so innocent i guess you could say, and i guess you could also say that i was just figuring myself out. and as im sitting in my bed, listening to The Neighborhood, im reminiscing. i do miss the friends that i had before i dropped them, and i really wish that i didnt push everyone away whenever i was in a depressive episode, but its the past. if i cant get over the past i’ll never be able to move on into the future. im just so glad that past me could get that experience of exploring themselves and meeting new people. also i was very very cringey i realize now, i feel like i was acting a sort of way to get recognition from people.
well anyways i dont think i’ll be writing anything anytime soon, i dont feel the passion i used to back then. maybe someday, but not today, and not the next. also thank you for 300 followers, that might not seem alot compared to other people, but it is for me. also thank you for all the support with the dsmp stuff even tho i stopped writing about them. i rlly didnt expect my stuff to blow up like that :))
well signing off:
kaisen(kai), have a fantastic day/night 😊
(ps: ive never deleted tumblr, and i was reading fanfics on here, i just was being lazy and didnt feel like responding to messages and updating my profile 😉 so to all the people who commented on my posts, i wasnt ignoring u, im too tired and my brain cells are the equivalent of 1 at the moment, but i’ll try to respond)
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