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took a break from cult of the lamb to play through fallout 4 so I can motivate myself some more. have some highlights. I wrote down all my thoughts while playing! ofc spoilers for fallout 4.
"if I don't answer the door, we won't be bombed, surely"
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"I love codsworth but I went to retrieve nick valentine and codsworth kept getting stuck. he's too bulky to fit through some of the spaces in there so I was basically on my own until he decided to teleport 😭"
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""it had been filled with fish-? or monsters? or- monster fish?? maybe, I don't know- i- we- da- not relevant! the minutemen are there now! thats good! for them. and I guess... everyone else too."
I love listening to Travis over the radio talk in between songs he's so amusing-"
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"just got a fat man and some ammo and stimpacks
should I be scared for what's coming-"
"Kellogg kept killing me so I delivered him a mini nuke to the face and got him right off the bat."
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"nick we just got here [goodneighbor] what the fuck are you drinking and where did you get it"
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"dogmeat uses the doghouse 😭💖 omg"
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"I GOT A VIDEO GAME IN THE VIDEO GAME!! Hold on, Nick. my son can wait. I have to game."
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"I got in my power armor and nick went "always wondered what you'd look like as a robot... not too shabby."
bRO. i love this man"
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"me: you took down 4 guys by yourself?
nick:"
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"I got to sanctuary and I couldn't find ANYONE even though I checked all the houses. nobody was asleep even tho it was the middle of the night. and so I was checking the house where nick likes to hammer the walls for some reason and I looked out the window. outside I saw jun and 2 settlers standing in the middle of the farm for no reason
...
I went outside to look and marcy, Preston, and mama Murphy were also outside in the farm standing in a line against the wall where I couldn't see them.
what. the fuck."
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"oh my goddddd I went and met the radio man in diamond city and he is so pathetic
I love him so much.
the big Russian bartender guy in the city and his brother asked me to help them raise his confidence
this is such a sweet questline
casually putting off getting Hancock for this-"
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"THERES A GHOUL IN THE BAR
WHAT
civilian: I think the mayor's okay, he's kept the ghouls out hasn't he?
the ghoul RIGHT BEHIND THEM:"
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"I got this off. a legendary radroach. imagine me charging through the commonwealth wielding a rolling pin.
ah... nice. I'll hold on to it."
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"YAY new friend ! Deacon can come follow me around now!!
I'm still gonna keep valentine around though."
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"it's perfect."
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"oh
oh god
I just realized it's called "Swan's Pond"
not "Swan Pond"
and when I initially passed it. Codsworth made note that "There's still a Swan boat here"
..........I hate everything. I have to go deal with this now. I can't not." (me who's actually never dealt with swan before)
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"mwah"
(I'll have to reblog cause I'm out of images to post LMAO)
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this theory will prolly be broken eventually, but i quite like to think of the federation as a government...
lets say quesadilla island is the name of the country. then we have the states, quesadilla island (think how the state of são paulo has a city also named são paulo) that is the tourism spot, and egg island
the host is kinda like the president, cucurucho is the 'mayor' of quesadilla island, and the eye... was the 'mayor' of egg island
maybe the eye was once part of the federation but decided to do its own thing and took egg island with it
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i think as an adult in communities with people under 18 i have a responsibility. not to sanitize myself or whatever, or to talk down to them. but i do have a responsibility to keep them safe, to forge spaces where adults can speak on mature topics and places that are safe for younger people to interact with each other and with those adults about whatever else. and i have a responsibility to understand that people can be stupid when they're teenagers and that doesnt make them evil, and I'm in the position to set my own boundaries. and I have the responsibility of awareness. I have to know, on some level, what's happening in and around my community and around others, I have to know who is part of that responsibility and who isnt. Like picking battles, we choose conversations. To me it feels so simple of a directive
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I just realized that all three canon ships share the obliviusness of one side of the pairings and how this deeply hurt the other part of the ships.
With Arkos we have Jaune being dense as fuck, onky coming to terms with his feelings for Pyrrah after her death.
With Renora thats their conflict, Ren is too oblivious/emotionally constipated to properly express himself and it ended in Nora questioning their relationship and feeling insecure about it.
With BB is less obvious, but I like to believe that Yang feel for Blake during the Beacon arc, but Blake was too busy with Sun to notice. When Beacon fell Blake was too focused on keeping Yang safe that she ignored those feelings and how it would hurt her being abandoned again.
Back to my usual RG thrutting, how wonder how this obliviousness thing will play for them. Is usually is jocked how dense is Ruby about Oscar's feelings for her, and sometimes how oblivious she is to her own feelings. What would it take for the realization to hit, if it hasn't hit yet. Maybe being at the verge to loose him, this time not as an illusion but for real.
#Rosegarden#Im just rambling dont mind me#I was listening to a song and one verse was like#If I had only listened this closely to the sounds of your heart#You hid your feeling behind a smile but my ignorance became my punishment#And i was like this rg coded#Then it hit me that all canon pairings fit it very well#And it gave me thoughts
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i saw someone say that undertaker isnt really a villain and he's a morally grey character which is crazy to me
i havent gotten to see everything hes done but i think the fact that he canonically said he made zombies to be used as a military force for an anonymous group and then set up an 'experiment' to see how effectively those zombies could kill a large group of innocent people in one go puts him into the pretty morally bad category in my mind 😭
#like a character can be morally bad and be likeable#hes just very obsessed with ciel and his family so of course hes not#going to actively try to murder him#that doesnt mean hes not a villain in the story who isnt doing awful things#honestly the fact that hes just completely off the deep end unhinged#but smart and sexy and analytical abt it makes him fucking great in my mind#im just rambling dont mind me#maybe im wrong here i still need to read a lot but.#campania arc sure was something man#devo speaks
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actually listened to owl city's newest (i think?) song, the tornado, cause people on tiktok kept on going feral about the bit in the middle (and then the nightmare started etc.) (which fucking slaps)
and im just in actual tears cause
no one really talked about literally. everything else afterwards
"That was when I saw my family with my eyes shut real tight / Would they know how much I loved them if this was how I died? / No, I vowed I'd not be murdered by a monster in the sky that night" ??
"it's always darkest before the dawn / So I kept hanging on" ????
"I blinked a tear back 'cause I felt lucky to be alive" ??????
"And that was how I learned to live when you can run but you can't hide / How to feel trapped in a tunnel but come out the other side / 'Cause with all the stormy weather in the world, you learn / To take life one storm at a time, you don't have to be afraid / And now when there's bad weather on the way, I stay calm / And I keep hanging on because it's always darkest before the dawn" ???????????????????
i mean, yea, its tiktok. but i cant believe the song has ALL OF THIS, and people fixated on that one bit, it kinda feels like a disservice
i was like "oh that sounds like a new direction for him" and then the whole staying hopeful bit started and i was like "oh. yeah. there he is."
#im just rambling dont mind me#i just. i heard that bit so much on tiktok and i was like huh ! he does talk about heavy topics in some songs but#this felt different#and i was right! it is different! because thats not all of what the song is about!#i thought id have another song to add to my depression list for when i feel like shit#and instead it gives me comfort and strength and hope#but then again thats why i love owl city.#Charlie chatters
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stories about extreme human survival (be it real or fiction) always touch my heart in such an interesting way. humans ultimately are animals and one's survivor is written to our genes.
#particularly love the scene in 127 hours where aaron cuts his hand off (be it is the peak of the whole movie and where it all boils down to)#and james francos acting brings it this animalistic feel to it#his mouth covered in blood which looks like he ate raw flesh but its actually his own blood#and the tense score that stops immediately as hes freed from the stone#at his lowest hes wriggling around in desperation and anger trying to get free from his prison#and his sudden return to humanity as the desperate need to get out of here ceases to exist#im just rambling dont mind me#i also love to think how i would react in such an extreme situation#would i have the balls to gut through my own forearm and break my bones and severe my nerves?#or would i have the knowledge of the basics of survival in that situation#or even if i would could the panic completely wash over me making me unable to act#nobody ever truly knows until they are in that specific situation
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Drakengard enstars AU where Eichi takes the role of Zero and Wataru the role of One however Wataru knows and trusts Eichi to leave this world himself but he doesn’t want to be the one to kill Eichi. In one route Wataru accidentally gets Eichi killed and the flower instead possesses him then and he has to live until the flower swallows the entire world :)
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Oh god I have to decide in two days whether I want to take Earth Science in person or Biology II online during the summer 🙃🙃🙃 when I'm barely passing biology I as it is
The only two reasons I have for not doing the in person earth science:
1. My chronic illness(es) cause me to faint and be highly fatigued when it's hot and I live in Texas
2. It would be a 5 week course so I would have an exam every week and my class would be 6 hours long 4x a week
Reasons for not doing biology ii:
1. I don't handle timed tests/quizzes well and it would all be timed
2. The lab professor that teaches it has terrible rate my professor reviews (though the lecture professor for it seems phenomenal)
I also refuse to do my science during the fall because sciences take up so much time in my school week and I want to be able to focus on my human development courses
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Me: Yo what the fuck is up with my dashboard? Why is this post my husband reblogged a week ago showing up midway through posts that it reblogged today?
Me: *checks my settings*
Tumblr: Best stuff first is on :]
Me: Well turn it the fuck off then?????? How am I supposed to read back through my dash like the morning news if it’s all scrambled based on some baseless algorithm instead of being in chronological order?????????????
-A
#a talks#im just rambling dont mind me#i swear to god i already had bsf off#yet here it was#on again#cbapk.txt
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just read Monday’s Not Coming by Tiffany D Jackson and.........
I have mixed emotions. That was an absolutely devastating read I didn’t expect. And I don’t know how I feel about any of the characterization and the way the plot unfolded in general. It was brutal and made me cry, but I didn’t leave the book with a sense of satisfaction. It feels like you build up to this DEVASTATING plot twist and theres a barely there resolution? Just “Oh guess I’m starting to remember again. Everything’s gonna be ok because Monday is always gonna be with me!”
And it just. Didn’t feel satisfying to me. I think the one scene that stuck out to me as being well done was when Claudia has to hand over the diary and breaks down “I’m not ready yet! I’m not ready!” and thats mainly because I just lost my dad and that is exactly what I’ve been screaming in my head since the moment it happened.
But nothing else about her reactions, her healing, felt real to me I guess? And maybe this is because I also just read Legendborn recently and its portrayal of grief was so REAL anything else pales in comparison. But in general the writing felt pretty weak? I felt like I had no reason to care about any of these characters, Claudia felt like a 9 year old not the 14 year old girl she is supposed to be mentally. idk i found it very meh. It didn’t feel like a BAD book.... necessarily. But it wasn’t great either.
Idk I’m disappointed cause a friend recommended it to me and they’ve never missed on their recs. Idk how I’m gonna tell them I really didn’t like this pick.
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trying to find queer stuff that I actually relate to is next to impossible because everything feels so cute and glamorized. and like I get it, I think people should boost themselves up, especially when it comes to debilitating issues like dysphoria and struggling with self-acceptance. especially if it's art! but damn I just wish I could find more stuff that fit how I feel, yknow? it's hard not to feel like such an outsider when so many things fit into the same mold, same ideas. I wanna see more of the raw shit that people are afraid to talk about. there's a lot of love when it comes to being queer but there's also a lot of anguish. it's OK to celebrate and shit obviously, but I just wish there was more REAL shit out there.
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a few weeks ago i was talkin to my gf, and she said cus my sleep is so Fucked i should try to get drugs for that. and when i said "lol the docs always just tell me to eat better and sleep better to fix my sleep schedule, they wont give me drugs", she said i should just get them to give me meds for my depression, cus her ones also help with her sleep.
she didnt seem to understand what i meant when i responded "NAH my depression isnt bad enough, they wont give me drugs for it"
she sorta went "but your therapist acknowledges you have depression?"
so i went like "yeah but its always been considered the Mildest form you can get, they wont give me shit for it. like,,, cus ive never been suicidal as a result of it, that means i dont need drugs."
and i could practically Hear her brain whirring at the idea that i am not suicidal over the voice call. like,,, she just paused in a Particular way she does when she WILDLY cant relate to what im saying.
and it pops into my head every so often and makes me sad. makes me sad when ANYONE feels that way. but i hate the idea that she couldnt relate to the idea of wanting to live? not just that she feels that way, but that im Literally helpless to do anything really. Like,, both of us have Royally fucked up health and sleep cycles, so its hard enough for us to find the time to voice chat (she doesnt particularly like messaging), and she doesnt drive, and tbh even if she COULD i dont think id want her coming to my house while i live with my mum. she struggled enough with the idea of her existence when she came to cheer me up after my dad died, i dont want to have my gf deal with her regularly. but i cant go to her often either, cus i have a cat to look after. wouldnt be so bad if it was JUST the one cat, but my sisters cat is here too, and the two hate each other. so while my sister cant have her cat, my mum looks after her cat, and i look after mine. i cant just leave my cat Alone for too many days thats not fair to her.
it just feels very much like im in a rock and a hard place and im Failing
im 99% sure im NOT failing, my gf is very much the type that would call me out if she was upset with me, its one of the things i love about her. but my brain is constantly in a war between Desperately Clingy Hopeless Romantic, and Extremely Distant Chronic Loner with Zero Dating Experience, and it starts to feel like EVERYTHING i do is wrong, no matter What that thing is.
i HAVE talked about this with her, and jfc i am Blessed she is so much more patient with me than i am tbh. but still im Frustrated by my constant desire to DO things for her, and my even MORE constant inability to do any of them. and the Only thing that makes me not freak out about that is that she has Directly told me she doesnt NEED me to do any of those things.
i dont want any advice for this really. im just very tired, procrastinating going to bed, and needed to scream a little. i didnt even know i needed to scream about this till i started, i went into this post thinkin itd be a "hahaha funni stori" about the differences in our depression and now im here WELP
#sucidal ideation mention i guess????#im just rambling dont mind me#DONT WORRY I AM NOT SUICIDAL THO QUITE THE OPPOSITE#just dont want anyone accidentally triggered
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qPhilza perching on people because bird
qFit: Mans is built like a brick shithouse—he can totally balance Phil’s additional weight. The first attempt is a bit shaky, sure, but nowadays Phil swoops down or hops up onto Fit’s shoulder and all Fit really has to do is jut out his elbow to give his friend a little more space for his talons to work with. Bam, he’s perched. Works out about 9.9 times out of 10, though Phil delights in trying to catch him off guard.
qEtoiles: He doesn’t have Fit’s bulk on his side, so he’s not as sturdy, but he is strong. The landing is usually a little rough since Etoiles has to work a bit harder to counterbalance the additional weight, but he always finds that center of gravity in no time flat. Phil usually perches with one talon on each of Etoiles’ shoulders since he’s not as w i d e, just so Phil can have a little extra grip. At some point, Etoiles tries fighting a mob while Phil is perched on him, and that goes exactly as well as you would expect.
qForever: Honestly, with all of the hard labor Forever does for his big builds, Phil was expecting him to do better, but the first (several) attempts end up with Forever stumbling over and knocking Phil off of him from his wild arm-pinwheeling. They eventually figure out it’s more doable if Forever himself has something to lean on (a wall, a chair, the butt of his pickaxe) and Phil puts one talon evenly spaced on each shoulder. Phil learns some new swears in Portuguese in the process.
qMissa: Flattened. Full-on face in the floor, mouth full of grass, wind knocked out of his lungs at Mach 5 the first time Phil tries. Phil apologizes profusely, but Missa—once he can breathe again—just rolls over onto his back and asks Phil if they can give it another try. It takes a long, LONG time, but they figure out that if Phil plants his talons on Missa’s shoulder pads and leans forward while Missa leans back, they have a small little window of time where they achieve balance. The best part? Phil gets a perfect view of Missa’s goofy little grin every single time.
#q!philza#idk what possessed me to write this i just think it’s funny#bird man perching on his friends/loved ones is so special to me actually#if you’re wondering how any of them could take the weight of a full grown man uhhhhhh bird bones. they hollow. yeah.#dont mind me im just rambling#qsmp philza#codebreakers#codebreaker duo#anarchy duo#sugar duo#death duo#pissa#(<-implied)#my writing
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the brainrot won
#GUY S i know i haven't posted anything in a while and thats because im working on a big cool project that i really want to finish without-#distractions. but uh. as you can see. ive been distracted 😔. still working on it tho!!!! and im very happy with it turns out its just-#super time and energy consuming so ive tried to limit my intake of other media to not make myself want to draw other stuff#i also haven't read the last two (two already?????) chapters of RnS and im very sad about it and i want to read it but you know that if i-#read it ill want to make fanart and then ill never finish my project :(#SO. sorrey for the lack of art itll be coming when im free to draw!!!!!!!#but also. yes ive watched new life because i dont want to go insane with nothing but this project on my mind and umm. had to take a little-#break to do a couple designs for fun... and to switch it up a bit because for real im going insane i think#ALSO. friend got me into zelda botw and i haven't played a whole lot yet (because project) but ive tried to take some inspiration for-#designs from there. at least for joel and scott. everyone else not so much...#WELL ANYWAYS this is getting long. i should really stop rambling in the tags and just make separate posts for all this but i dont want to#umm. tags.#new life smp#smallishbeans#mythical sausage#geminitay#pearlescentmoon#smajor1995#inthelittlewood#my art#sketch
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//why are all the cl.ovis br.ay takes on here some of the most boring takes I've ever read in my life lmao and SO OFTEN are just the same joke just worded differently 😴😴😴
like, the man was supposed to be a lot (if not still is?) things regarding to the darkness and a whole deal of things that if it wasnt for him literally a lot of things wouldnt have been done or if they were going to be, would it be done when it was needed? ya, we get it, he's a bastard there is no denying that but its SO WEIRD how hes treated like the worst thing ever even when there are characters just as bad or much worse than he is? I guess hes just popular to hate but I think its bc he doesnt give our guardian stuff and worship the ground the walk on or play cat and mouse with them?
#im just rambling dont mind me#but it also gets SO boring when the same stuff is constantly said#like PLEASE give us another take#i rly do think it is bc he doesnt treat us like a special person vs a lot of the other npcs do
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