#im constantly updating this if new things are discovered!
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Trigger Warning: Rare Illness/Health Issues [wasn't sure if this need a tw but these topics make some ppl uncomfy so i wanted to be considerate anyway💜]
so a lot of ppl have been asking me why i don't post pics anymore or why i have barely been on social media compared to how i used to be. and the reason is i've been having severe health issues for a very long time. i can't even remember the last time i went more than a month without feeling nauseous, or actually throwing up, or just having headaches and stomach pain that are so bad i can barely tolerate them.
i've known for a while that i have gastritis, but my mom & my bf convinced me to go to a new doctor for a second opinion. after months & months of pure agony and feeling exhausted and sick to the point where i have no energy, i finally know why. i went to a specialist and discovered i have a rare illness called CVS (Cyclic vomiting syndrome). and i also am lactose intolerant which was amplifying my symptoms because i eat dairy products constantly.
i am going to be starting treatment for it and i really hope it improves my life and my ability to function because i am so tired of "living" like this. just existing has been exhausting and painful. i literally haven't been able to accomplish any of the goals i have because i can't go more than a few days without feeling horrible.
i already feel useless because i'm autistic and i have bipolar 1 and i'm waiting on disability payments to come through because i am unable to work with my disabilities. so my bf has been working and doing his best to take care of me and our kids. i just feel so horrible and guilty all the time. and i genuinely didn't know why i feel sick 24/7. all i want is to feel like myself again. and to do all the things i miss doing. i feel like i'm trapped by this illness.
i'm grateful to have answers and know what i'm dealing with finally. but after suffering like this almost every single day for so long its so hard to feel hopeful for the future at this point. i'm literally in tears as i type this. its just been really bad. i never do my makeup anymore or feel good about myself. i can barely move sometimes because the pain in my stomach is so bad or i get pain in my throat from vomiting for hours at a time, and then i get MORE pain from dry heaving due to not being able to hold down any food. and then i get random migraines and headaches that last all day as a result of all of that. its taking a huge toll on my body and my mental health. my depression gets worse during the winter season so when this started getting really bad it just made my mental health a million times worse. its literal hell.
but yeah thats why i haven't been online. real life is hard enough and i haven't been motivated to post because of the hell i'm going through or a lot of the time i physically CAN'T make content. but i'm going to keep trying. i'm going to do every fucking thing my doctors tell me to do because im so fed up with suffering. i promise that i will make content again and post the things i create and other stuff i used to post about before i stopped being able to function. as soon as i start to feel semi normal or at least well enough to do daily activities and complete even small goals, i will post about it. i'll keep u guys updated.
i appreciate every single person who follows me and my content, and all the ppl who keep checking up on me and wondering where the fuck i went. i love you guys so much💜 and i'm so sorry to all the ppl who haven't heard from me. if i can gain at least a little bit of my physical strength and health back, i will be so happy. i also am trying to get vitamins prescribed to me because im severely lacking nutrients but they are so expensive and i can't afford them out of pocket until i get my disability money. i'm also anemic and have to start taking iron supplements again. i'm just a giant ball of health issues😭 its actually ridiculous how bad my health has been. but i'm a mom and for that reason i will never stop trying. i will do whatever it takes to get better. i don't think my health could get much worse than it is currently. hopefully i didn't just jinx myself by saying that😭
sorry for the super long explanation, i just have sooo many messages in my inbox and questions that you guys send me that i haven't answered. i don't want to leave u in the dark. the connections i've made on this silly little blog mean the world to me. and everything i've been going through has been so hard to explain. but since i recently got a REAL answer as to why i'm suffering so much, i felt it was a good time to let you guys know what is going on with me. like i said, when i am able to feel somewhat normal again i will post consistently and re-open my shop too! it sucks so bad having a passion for creating but being too sick to even get out of bed other than to get sick in the bathroom. i've been to the emergency room more times this month than i have in the last 4 years. if i can overcome this awfulness i will not take it for granted. i will work harder than i ever have to create and share it with the world. but for now i just have to sit back and do whatever my doctors tell me to do and hope to god that it helps me 😞
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What makes Midori Asakusa from Keep Your Hands Off Eizouken! the autistic girlie ever of all time? Here's what the people have to say:
Asakusa-related asks/reblogs: x
This post will be updated after each round!
Image ID in alt text and under the readmore.
[Image ID. White slide with a low-quality screenshot of Midori Asakusa sitting on a large orange beanbag. She is surrounded by text boxes which read,
"She's clearly excited about animation and often ends up infodumping about stuff she's interested in, she often is in "her own world" and ends up goofing around during club work when alongside her friends in the film club, but also she gets clearly anxious and uncomfortable around strangers, stumbling over her words and clutching her plush bunny when trying to explain stuff to the student council. i just love having a character who can be BOTH silly and excitable and also more shy and awkward around different groups of people... relatable tbh (also a good article: www.animeherald.com/2022/07/02/a-neurodivergent-examination-of-eizoukens-asakusa-midori/amp/)"
"She loves animation. She knows so much about animation. She has drawings full of sketches and concepts and I will be honest with you I am not great at infodumping because I have bad memory but BELIEVE ME SHE HAD THE TISM SO MUCH"
"when i see her im like yaaay yaaay yaaay inthink its a sign"
"Our girlie here is NOT neurotypical! From the first pages of the first chapter we discover her special interests in the place she lives in and in animation as a medium (she infodumps). This results in several notebooks worth of schematics of the town and how it could be used as the base for wordbuilding an interesting setting for a cartoon. She also piles up vehicles sketches with detailed internal structure. In a later chapter she thinks so much about how a giant robot would work that arrives at the conclusion it would not work and tries to scratch the whole project she and her friends are working on, because if she cannot make it work irl other people would notice. The only way her friend could make her continue to work on the mecha suit stuff is convincing her that she was not making it for "other people" but for her own enjoyment. With this new rule in place she can move on. Asakusa does not fare well in crowds and with strangers. She constantly pushes forward her friend to do the speaking and when she speaks up for herself she rambles in dialect or uses quotes and catchphrases to keep the momentum. She gets soooo distracted by small things. A piece of obsidian in the back of the schoolyard, how did it get there? And oh my god I know we where talking about something serious but IS THAT A TANUKI? Also do not tell me a neurotypical sixteen years old girl has ever saved up for a big army regulation backpack to stuff it with things like a torchlight, a multitool, several feet of paracord, light-up shoes, and a stuffed bunny. She needs them to explore closed down buildings even if she is afraid of the dark. She needs her emotional support bunny." End ID.]
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since i have never made an actual post about it but haiiiii! *twirls my hair* i have an ongoing list where i keep track of shows/movies that have toku actors playing gay in them!
im constantly updating because of new shows or just discovering more roles that actors have had. i try keep it to things where they are canonically gay, and also try to mark down any other toku actors that may be in something even if they arent playing gay but there. i mark down when gay kissing happens as a personal treat for me and my friends. if you know someone is in something and i missed them, u can always shoot me a message here!
anyways have fun in the beautiful world of toku actors playing gay<3
#i have been doing this for years atp and it is often like a hostage situation#only henri and teej know some of the full horrors i have faced. like with takaharu a full year before subs/easy raws came out for that show#isaac drama posting hours#toku playing gay#isaac kr posting hours#isaac sentai posting hours#isaac ultra posting hours#isaac misc toku posting hours
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ello mera,
I wanted to ask how you post your comics online because i was thinking about making my own web comic series but i dont know where to start hehe
I think the website you used for IBWR was called Hiveworks but im not to sure how it works...
Also if you have any other tips when it comes to making comics like time management, planning, or even how draw those gorgeous backgrounds, it would be much appreciated :D
Thank you for your time ヾ(•ω•`)o ✧.*
Sure thing buckaroo, get in the backseat and let's hit the comic road!
ヾ(•`ω´•)o ✧.*
this is all from my perspective though, some stuff may not work for you, but hey - no knowledge is bad knowledge.
Hiveworks is a... Publisher! of sorts! Kind of. They're not like webtoons or Tapas when it comes to comic hosting, you have to be invited to Hiveworks (like me!) or apply to join them! :)
They also have Hivemill which is a place where they sell merch for the comics. Either Hiveworks helped making the merch, or the artists themselves made the stuff and Hiveworks helps distribute it (I THINK, don't quote me on that. I haven't made or sold merch with them before. But it's what I understand. They have explained it to me, I'm just kinda dumb).
However! Comic control, of which Hiveworks uses to make the websites are free for anyone to use! :) So if you want your own website, go ahead and make one!
I'd still recommend you buy the URL you'll use in that case though. I pay a yearly fee on GoDaddy.com for mine. It's affordable and honestly worth it as a precaution, lest a dirtbag buy it just to ruin my day and give me distress for a year(s).
But my recommendation is that you mirror your comic in as many places as possible.
Now, my website has ads on it, so if you switch off ad-block when visiting IBWR, I can get ad rev from it! :D (thanks to Hiveworks, that is, they added the ad stuff on there. Idk how it works but it's nice passive income that I really need. It pays for my food).
That means I will prioritize the website over the secondary mirrored places. So that's the place I always link to first. So if people REALLY want to get the next page sooner, they can always check there first.
However, mirroring is great because it is very difficult to get people to read the story you've put so much love into. I want people to enjoy my story as much as I do. The more places you update it to, the more people will discover you.
I've noticed that people like to follow the artist/author on social media for update announcements and general news of what's going on for the comic - so know where your presence on socmed is at! If it's instagram, well, then prioritize instagram but don't forget bluesky or tumblr too! Just know where you're at.
BUT!! And I cannot stress (lol) this enough - but don't stress (lol) about it. which is easier said than done.
It can feel super overwhelming to constantly make each update of a page feel like a check list of "okay, posted announcement to insta, tumblr, twitter, I have scheduled a mirrored post to comicfury and tumblr, I have added all the links in the author section, uuuh, I gotta add a cropped panel sneak-peak in each and I gotta--" that shit gets tiring quick.
Work smart not hard.
I copy paste from a document and I print-screen crop a panel from my comic on my phone kind of flimsily and that works. Nobody cares if it's fancy. It's just extra energy on my part that I can't be arsed to worry about.
Like Webtoons require that you to always have a preview icon for each update. That's as complicated as I'm willing to get tbh. If it requires more than that from me I'm gonna hate it. But that's just me.
you want to be able to do something consistently.
Which brings me to..
MANAGEMENT
bro, it's a job. It takes work. Work is not always fun, but you gotta show up for it. you're the only worker here. If you don't show up, it doesn't get done.
And people are not going to read it until there's at least pages enough for them to catch on to a story. If you're here for recognition right away, stop. You'll hurt yourself. I know we live in a time of quick-positive feedback through likes and shares, etc. But that's just not reality most of the time when starting up.
So, you got to want to tell the story more than whatever you are expecting to get out of this.
Which will also help you with managing your feelings if your reader count grows or declines. Just remind yourself of why you even want to tell your stories. It's easier said than done, but I found it to be a helpful philosophy to try stick by.
Everything I gain from sharing my story is just a plus. Not the reason.
What I did, also, was to just post whenever I finished a page. I had no readers, only commitment to myself and the comic. That's it. You'll find it easier if you don't force yourself at first, at least I did. And then as you gain your own momentum and work-pace, you'll be able to be like "Oh yeah, sunday works for me. I'll aim for that."
Aim for it, don't promise. But show up.
You're not a machine, shit happens, life comes in. If you have a deadline that makes you feel guilty, you might start avoiding it etc. So maybe just cut yourself some slack and go "whenever I'm done with a page is a good day."
You are your own boss. You make your own rules.
Yes, there is an algorithm to it all - when's the best time to post, getting new readers through memes or what have you. You might discover that the best way for you to get readers is to make funny videoclips on instagram or tiktok - there is no wrong way.
However, it shouldn't feel like too much of a chore. You should enjoy it at least a little bit. Like, maybe you kinda like making goofy vids of your comic, or draw memes, whatever, right? But you should enjoy some of it. If you hate making vids, but you know it is a good pond to fish in.. well, like... I'm sorry but you're gonna get frustrated with it.
I like posting THANK YOU FOR READING doodles of my characters on instagram stories! :D <3 I like that! That's not too much trouble for me.
BE CRINGE, BE FREE.
who gives a shit.
enjoy yourself you goofy ass little comic artist. Blast your story everywhere, be proud, have fun. People enjoy having fun, they usually want to join in with the fun.
If you have fun, others have fun being with you.
DRAWING COMICS
dawg I wish I had any better tips than... Fuck it, poke at it however you want.
I usually have ten pages flimsily sketched out with speech-dialogues so I know what's gonna happen in the next pages, so I can pace the scene somewhat.
I say that, like I'm some kinda professional, but I jump between pages. Whichever page seems a little more fun. Sometimes I stare myself blind on a page and gotta draw on something else.
Some pages are super well sketched, others are just bald stickfigures making faces at other bald stickfigures.
BACKGROUNDS
Get references. Either look at photographs or take the yourself. Start getting into looking at buildings in real life. I, myself, spend quite a lot of time looking at different windows and brick buildings going "Dang, so that's a widow huh? Architects sure just make windows like BAM ENJOY THIS ONE huh?"
Basically, start appreciating the world around you. There's art everywhere. Someone has put thought - however big or small - into that sidewalk.
Is it a shitty sidewalk? Well, that's really grounding isn't it? Someone, at some point, looked at this space, sighed and thought "fuck man I just wanna go home. That's good enough." and that really grounds you visually into that this world is a place where people have been before you.
Sometimes I get lazy and at the same time in a mood to challenge my memory, and I'll start inventing what the heck a building or street looks like. And you can probably easily tell in a page when I, too, am going "fuck man I just wanna get this page done with, that's good enough."
AND THAT'S FINE!!!
Not everything have to be an awestriking master page! Damn, the pressure I'd be under if that's the only thing I had to produce asdfghj! if anything, great pages look better because some pages are shite.
It's okay.
It doesn't have to be perfect every time. Learn what didn't work, what worked. Post it. Move on. You can't sit on this forever or the story will never be told. Just post it, it's fine.
THERE IS NO PERFECT TIME TO POST YOUR STORY.
Post it in chunks or page by page. It doesn't really matter - new readers are going to read it all in one sitting anyway.
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I think that's all I can think of for now??
Hope that helped!
Oh also I have this side blog I've been neglecting a bit, but feel free to check that out: @comicartistcentral
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favorite kpop group(s) tag game!
tagged by : @writingmochi thank you for the tag lissie!! (and ofc for always having me included in these!)
sorry i cuss a lot
who is your favourite kpop group?
oh boy.. i hope i’m able to answer this without having to list down more than 10+ groups all at once (i’m being serious) but if having favs that you’re constantly updated to then : bts, txt, le sserafim, enhypen, nct dream, riize & aespa!
which member sparked your interest first?
i’m having the toughest time now but here we go
bts : JUNGKOOK! who else other than our used one of the main rappers (WE LOST TO RAPPER JUNGKOOK BEFORE 2015 AND IM STILL BITTER but out of honesty that sadnesses washed away the moment when he decided to birth outro : love is not over and let’s just say i’ve never been fine since then) bro has been an all-rounder since day one and to that he was the one that made me to discover bts (touché)
txt : yeonjun (duh) i was once a bts popper so the moment we were getting a new boy group under bh i just knew i had to check them out. i mean yeonjun is literally every moa’s first love so it’s almost understandable for him to be the first member for you to be interested to LOL
le sserafim : huh to the yunjin (are we serious? that woman slayed on her first day job) it’s mesmerising to see that source music *blood coughing* decided to give us a closure…………… but miss it girl yunjin, duh she’s a starstruck i know it’s getting out of the phrase but i’ll always be grateful that she becomes an idol. the world (read kpop) wouldn’t be the same without her existence.
enhypen : SUNGHOON!!!!! ON AN ICE RINK!!!! SKATING!!!!! LIKE ???? IVE NEVER SEEN AN IDOL WHO WERE AN ICE SKATER BEFORE LIKE ??? THATS THE MOST PUREST BEAUTIFUL FORM SOMEONE COULDVE BE???
nct dream : mark! bc he was one of the members that were introduced first as part of the nct u sub-unit. i first watched him performing the 7th sense debut performance on music bank and was surprised to see him in the other remaining sub-unit under sm (but then i figured it out that nct IS a group that consists few sub-unit) (i was confused, still am)
riize : wonbin. any attractive man with long hair never not makes me HOOKED on a first sight. he’s majestic. AS HELL. he plays the guitar very well too??
aespa : karina!! also i think this was everyone’s normal occurrences of having karina as the first member that sparked your interest in aespa bc same. i only know her first in aespa like she’s mentioned in every fic or edit or on stan twt like… she’s everywhere it’s crazy. (the power she holds)
who was your first bias?
INTERESTING
bts : hoseok. man do we need to replay my first love? HE WAS THE MAN OF MY LIFE.
txt : soobin,, ARE WE SURPRISE AGAIN
le sserafim : chaewon! i think the answer is there.
enhypen : sunghoon (forever will)
nct dream : jisung. bro when i say that i used to have a serious crush on him? 2018 zu was a jisung’s whipped era.
riize : sungchan! 90s love was a life experience. (man decided to just make a cameo and slay as fuck) i know we are suppose to talk about sungchan in riize but he’s my first bias in riize ONLY because i knew him first alongside with shotaro (sungtaro slay)
aespa : KIM MINJEONG. YOU CANNOT TALK TO ME ON HER. SHE WAS MY FIRST LOVE???
who is your current bias?
basically just the same except for bts & nct dream :D
bts : yoongi (i am a joke)
txt : soobin (salute for being this loyal)
le sserafim : chaewon
enhypen : sunghoon
nct dream : renjun (....... surprise surprise)
riize : sungchan (eventho i highly think this won’t last long….fuck)
aespa : ningning
what makes them your current bias?
bts : I KNOW CRAZY. i’ve been there for hobi since 2014 esp around those times when no one was there to appreciate him truly as one of the members (DARK TIMES FOR ME, we do not talk about that) but then 2017 yoongi came in. it’s just something about yoongi himself that soothes my soul in peace. the way he thought of things in his own perspective without disrespecting anybody and the way he’s just a full walking comfort a person could be for anyone, for me particularly. his godly, incredible amount of times he’d shown off his talent in rap, producing and things he’d done. i can talk about yoongi that people wouldn't be able to understand bc he’s so ?? what a person is supposed to be. is there anything to prove why i decided to change a bias?
txt : when soobin was introduced as the second member of txt (gurl) when i told you that soobin introduction film was… a first love at sight moment, it was true. soobin has been the love of my fucking life since then. actually no there’s so many things that i love about soobin. so many things, it’s unexplainable. i can confidently say that his voice caught me off-guard on a first listen. i know it’s dramatic as hell (ANYTHING I SAY ABOUT MY BIASES ARE SO QUESTIONABLE BUT I AM BEING SERIOUS) he has the rarest vocal on his falsetto? he’s doing it effortlessly too? if that’s not enough to actually prove my point of him being my bias then idk what is. man is majestic as hell too. (BONUS POINT!)
le sserafim : AAAAHHHHHHHHHHH god chaewon… honestly, i wasn’t a wiz*one bc produce 48 was shitty as hell. (I WATCHED EVERY MNET SURVIVAL SHOW EXCEPT FOR THIS) neither do i like the final debut lineup for iz*one. i just couldn’t pinpoint what was missing but that’s not the point of that rn. well. for me, i think the majority of people would have agreed with me about this but chaewon is better off with le sserafim. (AUDIENCE GASP) i COULD NEVER say that she caught my attention even the tiniest bit when she was in iz*one, but she did ON A FIRST SIGHT OF HER DEBUT IN LE SSERAFIM. the way that she kept on improving and i didn’t even know that she can dance so well???? (this woman is literally everyone’s type and it’s FUCKING understandable) i watched their documentary too and i love her even much more than i should’ve? i think having chaewon as my bias, it’s emotional. i am emotionally attached to her and i don’t want to seek therapy.
enhypen : *internally crying, hysterically screaming* are we ready to hear the part of me losing almost entirely of my sanity? i was away from home for the first time for my college, and never really bothered to get updated with my kpop life. those days were.. hectic (as everyone did) but long short story i was on tiktok, at my room, at home since for so long, AFTER my hectic first sem and i just so happened to stumble upon a sunghoon edit on an ice rink, skating WITH THE TIMOTHEE TREND SONG (2020 WAS 4 YEARS AGO TOO?? GOD) AND IM LIKE ??? WHO IS THIS? I NEED TO KNOW WHO IS HE. yk i haven’t watched iland yet at that time (and probably shouldn’t so that i wouldn’t have to endure the trauma that show gave me), and only decided to watch it bc of him. I JUST LOVE LOVE skater park sunghoon a lot more than myself (that should be considered as normal btw) and i never regretted checking out on iland bc if i don’t i wouldn’t have known just how unique his talent is? you can ACTUALLY tell he has the most unique way of dancing, as if he’s dancing with every bit of his skating method and combining it to his dancing style and it’s just ?? beautiful… god park sunghoon i love him a lot.
nct dream : crying as i type this, i love renjun a lot. man is so demonically pure. i haven’t been on nct shit for SO LONG until last year (only applicable for nct dream) and i am attached as shit as they wanted me to be. i think re-stanning nct dream (i will say this forever if i’ve to prove how much they mean to me) was the peak of the third quarter of my life last year. but as for renjun, he’s just so easy to love? for me, his own persona to things as a person always never makes me so deeply attached. (like the fucking loser i am) renjun have a lot of things you can say a lot of things to, like his vocals? (ik you can confidently say that sm has the most vocals out of that shitty company) but i LOVE to listen to his voice. he’s singing with his emotions and my soul thaws in silence every time. HES ALSO SO ROMANTIC LIKE??? MAN CASUALLY JUST ASKED HIS TEAMMATES TO HAVE A MATCHING FRIENDSHIP RINGS LIKE?
riize : as for sungchan, i think i'm still learning about him. I know i’ve seen him a few times (more than 10 times on screen as for the appearance of the inkigayo and being part of nct) but i still have a lot of things to learn before i can list things down. (gurl you’re in love with another member)
aespa : i love everything about ning yizhuo. i honestly have no idea how i changed my bias but i could never say no to people who can sing well. her vocals?? i can listen to her singing on a daily basis. shes a stunner, a mother=my type. well, her whole existence stands out the most when i first discovered aespa. i just love ningning, she’s so loveable, i love her except for she idolized that one problematic rat.
who is your bias wrecker
bts : i love them all equally. (jungkook)
txt : taehyun. stfu
le sserafim : kazuha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i love my woman a ballerina
enhypen : jungwon.
nct dream : zhong chenle (hes so attractive???????????)
riize : eunseok
aespa : minjeong……………………
which member are you currently obsessing that aren’t your bias/bias wrecker
bts : i’ll skip them (they be on military, i’ve no one to be obsessed to recently)
txt : beomgyu. (DAEGU MEN STAY AWAY FROM ME)
le sserafim : YUNJIN. she needs to stop
enhypen : heeseung. i think i’ve problems with the 01 liner.
nct dream : none i guess. (i'm still obsess with renjun)
riize : ….. sohee. i think out of the groups, sohee has the most valid reasons and i'm fully to blame for this. i watched the lee hyori’s red carpet to their sampled track of love 119 (THEIR BEST SONG YET WHAT THE FUCK) which is none other than the infamous emergency room ost AND WHEN I TELL YOU IVE BEEN OBSESSED SINCE. and that obsession didn’t stop there, i decided to check more to his vocals compilation and i stumbled upon his predebut covers… WORSE: his sofa cover has been playing on my mind all day since i first heard of it, it’s unhealthy. i’m gonna k word myself
aespa : none too.
when did you first discover the group?
bts : 2014. boy in luv was a superior era.
txt : 2019…. that guessing the morse code at the end of introduction films of every member's era? good old days
le sserafim : on their debut
enhypen : end month of september 2020! (funfact : enhypen was formed on my birthday)
nct dream : on their debut (them hoverboard era)
riize : on their debut days
aespa : early year 2022 (embarassing as fuck)
have you ever been to one of their concerts?
bts : gurl, no. they did a tour for the red bullet on june 2015? THAT ONE TIME ONLY. what did you expect from me? to go? i was 13.
txt : they don’t even know my country exists? so no.
le sserafim : no. (hybe better put malaysia when they do tour one day or else im burning down the whole building as it should’ve)
enhypen : no. (they skipped us.)
nct dream : they did a tour last year in may…… but miss girl decided to only stan them back in june and was obsessed and mentally ill for not attending. (ONLY BC I AM NOT A FAN) i was late to the party, im sorry and now they be skipping us.
riize : no.
aespa : ???????? NO
what are some of your favourite songs by this group?
i’ll list 10 songs!
bts : butterfly / dimple / coffee / love is not over (full length version) / epilogue : young forever / pied piper / outro : do you think it makes sense? / the truth untold ft steve aoki / spring day / hold me tight
txt : 20cm / dear sputnik / 0X1=lovesong (i know i love you) ft seori / maze in the mirror / ghosting / skipping stones / fairy of shampoo / blue orangeade / farewell, neverland / eternally
le sserafim : impurities / easy / perfect night / no celestial / antifragile / smart / blue flame / swan song / good parts (when the quality is bad but i am) / sour grapes
enhypen : just a little bit / criminal love / mixed up / chaconne / not for sale / blockbuster ft yeonjun of tomorrow x together / shout out / blind / given-taken / bills
nct dream : dive into you / teddy bear / 7 days / boom / my youth / better than gold / dunk shot / arcade / poison / love again
riize : …. i’ll list from most to least fav (I LOVE ALL OF THEIR SONGS) love 119 / talk saxy / get a guitar / memories
aespa : lucid dream / dreams come true / drama / thirsty / next level / life’s too short / don’t blink / i’m unhappy / illusion / better things
tagging : @my313 (no pressure bestie!) / anyone who want
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im finally actually starting my own hermit playthrough :3 im not masochistic enough to go CC. Any tips not previously mentioned? ive looked at all the posts as a bit of a refresher. im just sad that its going to be so long without a fishing rod. fishing is my favorite thing :3
Yoooo that’s awesome good luck!! I do actually have a few updates/tips from doing my second hermit run! (I’m doing the community center this time 😄) And don’t worry, you’ll be doing A Lot of fishing once you get the rod
Original stardew valley hermit playthrough rules/explanation & my tag for the playthrough
The first change is an optional addition to the “one festival per year” rule. I decided that a villager birthday could count as a festival day, as long as (similarly to the original festival day rule) the only thing you do while off the farm that day is talk/give gift to that villager. Otherwise there is like NO way to marry someone unless you use your regular yearly field trip day on their birthday for like four years and/or luck out by getting them as your secret santa. Also, after like year 4 you kinda run out of festivals you want to go to, so it’s nice to have an alternative
I also discovered that when rocks spawn on your farm, more rocks tend to spawn around them, which is a big help in those early years when getting enough stone is just. Agonizing. I ended up leaving the fishing quadrant of my farm to fill up with rocks (culling occasionally) and it helped a lot
BUY ORE on field trip day oh my god. You won’t have much spare money for the first couple years but even getting enough to make a couple bars is like. Such a boon
I ended up buying wood chippers from Robin to turn excess hardwood and driftwood into plain wood. I needed the extra wood despite having literal stacks of the stuff because:
Charcoal kilns are the easiest, fastest, and most reliable way to get coal in this playthrough. Seriously, I’ve never used these things previously but I have like 10 on my new hermit file and use them constantly
I also learned (crushingly) that you can’t level up combat by killing monsters on the farm. I would still 100% recommend enabling monster spawning because the bat wings and slime are used in a few things and you probably won’t be staying up late enough for them to spawn most of the time anyway. Also hardly any monsters spawn, it’s genuinely never been an issue even when all I had was a scythe. The easiest way to get decent weapons btw is by fishing them up
It’s also nearly impossible to pass grandpa’s evaluation and get the statue of perfection by going the joja route in this challenge, I recommend scrapping that goal. With serious effort in my second playthrough though I managed to unlock the casino and buy a statue of endless fortune, which is a fantastic source of gold and iridium
I think that’s about it! I hope you have fun, I know I’ve definitely had a lot of fun with this challenge.
Here’s a recent-ish screenshot of my second hermit playthrough! Haven’t played in a while but I’m currently in winter of year 7 😃
#i put my golden lewis statue by my fishing spot to keep me company#i will admit i got my fish pond through cheatery (gave myself an extra field trip day after discovering you can't level up combat)#i was that bummed out#but yeah that's my wisdom!#i guess my last tip is to decorate your farm however you can bc you'll spend a lot of time there so you might as well like being there#i like my hermit farms a lot :)#sv hermit playthrough#ask#yeetbean#sepulchritudinous#sdv
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hi, you probably aren't even showing up here anymore but just wanted to say that I hope you don't give up on your fic We grow up apart, together and again! because I recently discovered it and it broke my heart to know that you haven't updated it in over 3 years. hope you come over there soon 😢❤
Oh anon, im always here, creepin'. Never fear. And 'given up' is a strong phrase for it, but whenever i sit down, reread or think about 'We grow-' i got 3/4ths of the way through the story, and then, as it does, life happened. Whenever i try to find that muse these days, its really faint, and i worry about writing more, and how much the voice will have changed.
But if you want, I can tell you more.
Cause, when they go to Ohio, Kevin was supposed to bring up telling their friends, like a doof, and Aaron was all like, "we haven't told anyone so far and basically everyone knows." Which may also just be because he did already tell Dan, and theres no knowing how many of their friends she told.
Ohio was to be a meeting and remembering and then an accepting of how being friends, who have become together, doesn't always change how you interact with others. (We Grow with Friendship) Its not a brand or a sign you have to display constantly, large and loud. Its a casual reworking of how a group of people sit in an area, where just because your a couple doesn't mean you have to be attached at the hip. Even if Nicky follows them around all week cooing when they even so much as pass a snack bowl.
After Ohio I was planning a bit of a time skip. (We Grow into New Shapes) Into Aaron's residency, because honestly, the with how busy Kevin is always, and how much busier Aaron would be while doing class and residency, I knew it was a place where I could see them doubting their relationship. And Kevin being Kevin I can imagine he would stew in it. He would want to talk about all the horrible things Aaron may see, and the hardest part of being a healthcare worker in any capacity would be losing a patient, but legally, you really can't talk about those moments. Which is hard, to comfort someone without really understanding why they need comfort.
The last chapter tho, was supposed to be for Kevin. Cause a large part of how or why they got together was around Thea. (We Grow Again) The plan was that Thea would finally hear that Kevin was with Aaron, cause her head was so far up her butt, she assumed he would just come back- which is mean, but the way i built her up in this story was also mean. So when she finds out he's actually moved on, is living with someone, and in a relationship with them and still seemingly thriving in his professional career, would probably make her want a confrontation.
(That was the other thing about this voice- muse- story, i am not a confrontational person and writing confrontational people like this, was hard for me. Finding this voice is hard, and now being so removed from it, i feel it would only let people down to continue it.)
But chapter 12 was to show Kevin standing up for himself, his relationship and trying to make someone he used to care about, a lot, understand that he's happy now. He's okay. They're okay. And that's okay. It doesn't have to be great- probably would never be great, but it was okay.
I started this story at a point when my life was going in a direction that I hadn't predicted, and i felt very powerless to control it, but i was able to find a way to make it okay- again, not great, barely even good, but okay.
A lot of it had to do with COVID, and being in college where things were turned up on their heads. I live in a state that was one of the first to shut down, and we got a lot of flack for it. I think it was the right call, but i was also in hospitals doing clinical work and seeing this new illness tear through the facility was scary. I had those moments later, after the bans and shelter orders were over though, where i stood outside hospital rooms and watches people die from an illness they didn't believe could affect them. I had to sit with my husband while he cried because his parents refused to listen to anything scientific, did not take precautions and ended up in very sever situations because of it. (his mother is an RN, i was livid, still am) (they are okay now, for the most part, three weeks in the hospital changed their tunes a bit tho) But my voice is better now, generally. i graduated from college, passed my registry exam, worked in that same facility for 4 month and then found a better position for me. My relationship is much better and while there have been other twists, I am a better me than i was.... in January of 2020. Man, that was three years ago, whhhhaaaat.
Sorry for the long post, but Ive been meaning to post something about this for a while. So thanks, Anon. But also sorry, if this isn't all you wanted, literally. But i don't think I have these voices in my any longer.
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PRE-EST WISHLIST :
below the cut is a compilation of potential ideas for relationships with all the current muses. It is INCOMPLETE (some of them really have almost nothing sorry ill work on it more soon) and will be updated periodically. please COMMENT / IM any numbers in particular that you are interested in. If none of these interest you, here is the normal plot call LINK.
OHTA WISHLIST :
first off always actively attempting to surround himself with skaters and gamers and artists and motorcyclists and athletes and just people with generally cool pastimes too in every situation he will rage quit and fail horribly but he just wants to be a part of the crew
also any thugs wanna hang? he’ll be a meat shield lacky idiot errand boy it’s fine
anybody up to be pranked mercilessly for decades?
if you want to do some charity work you can teach him to love poor defenseless creatures instead of being a bully too
oblivious crush things i mean ohta crushing and your muse being oblivious to his crazy attention seeking behavior hey maybe even he’s oblivious to how he feels too wouldn’t surprise me but itd sure be fun to watch him trip over himself and go to the moon trying
workplace threads hiring him/him working at the same place as y/m constantly causing them trouble constant shenanigans
also smart people maybe try tutoring him his grades need help he can’t a p p l y himself inspire him i beg you
party threads are always a possibility and will 100% start begin and end in chaos but that’s fine
craigslist shenanigan threads too hes always buying or trying to buy weird shit
or maybe some soul searching detective work finding his roots or maybe making new ones y’know found families and all that stuff he’s just a little lonely
but also on a darker note themes maybe a little attempted arson or some house robberies solo (y/ms house the target) or duos (y/m in on it)
cyberbullying just a pinch smidge
always supernatural Ohta threads are also always desired never before seen content
CHO WISHLIST :
friend who notices something off about her when she starts to turn- could either be a direct witness to it or the one that stops it from happening completely??
just gal pal threads let her paint your nails and shopping to buy matching scarves and shit and let her seep off your identity a little bit a small suck
book club knitting club trade secrets gossip circles wholesome goodness pals things
also exes is great if you wanna hop on the negative vibes train very bad vibes vibes be fucked but its fine
RUI-LIN WISHLIST :
HELP him with the temple please he needs minions for upkeep maybe on a good day you’ll get to see some demons too??
also accepting large monetary transactions from large corporations and generous individuals the potential business benefits are bountiful but to keep this short ill say we can discuss the contracts later
will also offer his very niche skillset for things of value if you're superstitious and unlucky he'll bless you and your house and family but you also gotta pay him up upfront
push pull oriented things are very suited to him he doesn’t think that he’s playing the game but he absolutely is both the push and pull at the same time
if you have supernaturals please throw them at him in any and all conditions he might try to exorcise you or lock you in the basement but its fine
speaking of supernaturals somebody should feel free to discover that he is not in fact a humble temple man but a nasty gremlin
also he is accepting applications for new gods (or mortals) to worship its a fairly simple process
rivals stretching over centuries would also be SICK any relationship from the ancient past that he can't escape from would be great though Watching each other grow and change and shit
despite how much he tries to act like a wise old man he has much to learn about modern culture please teach him he doesn’t even know how to use a rotary phone or a flip
IRA WISHLIST :
someone take in the old man watch your misfortune either skyrocket or seriously clear up or probably both at different times but also very funny mundane shenanigans
but if you don’t want to allow a guest i hope you’ll allow a squatter to be caught that’s also a great viable option
#i never reuploaded n added but finally#i still feel like death but were here 4 plotting n things#hopefully ill b well again soon :pensive:
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NEW IN SPACE WITH MARKIPLIER SITES MASTERPOST! (ARCHIVE)
All the decoded text/info from the new websites! *SPOILERS FOR ISWM*
The Password is from the new teaser video! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gELvzeXyJAI
PASSWORD FOR THE SITE: THE UNIVERSE IS LITTERED WITH THE CORPSES OF YOUR FAILURES
Here’s some translated text of some of the tabs!
Here's all the decodable text of the main pages.
Translated: !!ALERT!!
AN EMERGENCY EVACUATION IS IN EFFECT. THIS IS NOT A DRILL. IF YOU ARE READING YOU MUST EVACUATE IMMEDIATELY. DO NOT FOLLOW SHUTDOWN PROCEDURE. DO NOT TAKE YOUR PERSONAL BELONGINGS. DO NOT WAIT. LEAVE IMMEDIATELY.
ADDITIONAL INFORMATION WILL BE DISSEMINATED PENDING SUCCESSFUL EVACUATION. ANYONE WHO DOES NOT EVACUATE IN TIME WILL BE LEFT BEHIND. THIS IS YOUR ONLY WARNING
The gif for the glitch text on the main page is labeled as "I want you.gif"
Each main tab on the website reads
DEPARTMENTS, AGENCY DIRECTORY, HELP CENTER, INHUMAN RESOURCES, REVIEWS, LEGAL and DONT PUSH. DONT PUSH LEADS TO "You have failed this test created by the Universal Stability Agency. As stated in sect. 438382533-B of your Agent contract $ deducted from your next payment. And remember rules are what keep the universe stable."
The $ has a counter next to it. (Update: It’s a user counter for how many people have visited the site.)
The main website with the glitching Lady gif has some text. When decoded:
Translated: SOMETHING WENT WRONG?
UPDATE: THERE IS MORE!
Here's the Case Directory fully decoded with text in their web links if they have them! I’ve also pointed out any references I could spot!)
A
Alien Alliance, The
Asshat, The
B
Baboonies
Bangers, Oops Al (Unus Annus Reference!)
Banner Born, The
Butterfly Soldiers, The
C
Captain, The
Corn (corn-dm) (Probably referring to Del Monte)
D
D (the-d_)
Dude, The
E
Everyone Else
F
Founders, The
Farum Azula (shatteredbysomeone)
g
Gruntilda (gettingjiggywithit)
H
Harold Potter (terfwar)
I
Illinois (Possibly referring to the state or the character)
Invincible Syndicate, The (Leads to info shown below!)
Izzyor, Iznty
J
Jackson 5, The
Jackson, Michael
Jackson, I’m sorry Miss
K
Karen, 6803
Karen 6804
Karen 6809
Karen 6815
Karen 6816
Karen Archive
Killeidoscope, The
Kringle, Kris
L
Lunky (LixianTV)
M
Man, Drowned (Leads to 13:47 of the The Drowned Man - Part 1)
Moriarty
Moses, Norbert (redacted) (Another Unus Annus reference!)
N
Nebuchadnezzar
NoN (NerdFiction)
O
Oracle, The (theoracle)
P
Pantheon, Greek (zeusandfriends)
Pantheon, Roman (Jupiterandfriends)
Picks, Richard (dickpicks)
Purple Guy (michaeljackson)
Q
R
R. Rad (Rad_R)
S
Subtitle #1, James Charles (redacted) ( Maybe even another Unus Annus reference?)
Sync, N (byebyebye)
T
Terror, Freya the (terrorblycute)
U
Ulookitup, Made (lolgotyou)
Underdweller, The (ijustmadeyoulookunderthere)
V
Valentine, Vincent (sexygoldarms)
W
Wal-World (capitalism)
World Wide Web (woahhh)
Warfstache, Wilford (ohyouwouldlikethatwouldntyou)
Wu Tang Clan (aretheyalium)
X
Xenophobes (fuckem)
Y
Youtube (idkbro)
Yoloswag, Hashtag (cachow)
Z
Zenon (girlofthe21stcentury)
Some are links to previous points in videos or references!
Two of the main images on the front page. The rock one may be the Invincible? The second one definitely is.
Some wanted posters for Mark. Seems he's being held accountable for all this. What's interesting is how the faces are put together like police sketches where they can't identify what the person looked like, so they do the best they can and it looks uncanny.
NEW SECTION: INVINCIBLE SYNDICATE
Last known image of the spacecraft the Invincible II.
3 NEW TABS!
SUSPECTS, LOGS, EVIDENCE.
Suspects is the only tab that works. Leads to this:
THE INVINCIBLE II syndicate:
ALLEGED CAPTAIN
Then a web of the crew with descriptions. Not everyone is clickable for some reason.
CAPTAIN - Being of otherworldly beauty and/or handsomeness. Great decision making.
Gunther - fleshy combustion vessel with firearm appendages, trails exhaust fumes, shoots objects to submission
Mat - Theoretical physicist, member of crew. No proof of work, just a theory. (He’s part of the theory crew as seen in the credits of ISWM Part 1)
Danny - Multiversal being of sexuality and prominent arousal. Direct eye contact leads to procreation. (Part of the Sexy crew as seen in the credits of ISWM Part 1)
Celci - Appears to be made of ice. Two sets of eyes, both for science. Secondary personality around MARK.
Tyler - Humanoid, mouthmeat in an upturn to signify a joyous nature. Upturn never ceases.
Injured Crewmate - Tri-pedal humanoid, wrapped and bound to keep flavorful meats, presumably?
On the side of the page, there's a section labeled with “Cohorts” with the Bandit's photo.
UPDATE: The Bandit now has a description! “Half cyborg, half piracy. Objects disappear upon arrival. Unauthorized use of Void.”
MORE UPDATES: Every 404 background page has the text “ Making sure the universe won't end before it begins” in the background.
As discovered by u/Lorcanpro23 on reddit, Agent Apless’ first name may be Harold according to their user code.
UPDATE: New secret link has been discovered within the source code! Leads to a site with a video containing morse code!
https://www.universalstabilityagency.space/captainwhyareyoudoingthistome
https://youtu.be/NZWwAFPeBSk
(Thanks to Stealth Addict for decoding this in the comments!) The morse code in the video is:
Full Morse Code Translation: @ 1:40: "YOU FOUND A SECRET AND YOU KNOW WHAT IT IS" @ 2:33: "NOTHING ABSOLUTELY NOTHING YOU SO STUDIOUS" @ 3:27 : "ANYWAY IF YOU WANT TO KEEP DECODING YOU COULD HEAR WHAT THE MAN IN THE MACHINE HAS TO SAY TO YOU" @ 5:13 : "BUT AS STATED BEFORE IT IS NOTHING" @ 5:50 : "SO YOU WILL IN FACT BE WASTING YOUR TIME HERE DECODING AN AGE OLD BUT DEFUNCT LANGUAGE IN ORDER TO HEAR THE NONSENSICLE RAMBLINGS OF A MAD MAN" @ 8:24 : "BUT AGAIN THERE IS NOTHING OF ANY IMPORTANCE HERE SO ANYTIME YOU SPEND DECODING YOU SHOULD VIEW AS YOU WOULD A CROSSWORD OR A SUDOKU PERHAPS AS THERE IS NOTHING THAT LIES AT THE END IF THIS PUZZLE BUT THE SATISFACTION YOU MAY DERIVE FROM DECODING IT” @ 12:59: “ NOW THAT WE HAVE THAT SETTLED LETS GET ON WITH IT AND KEEP IN MIND THAT MUCH LIKE THE DECIPHERING OF THIS CODE THe STORY IW ILL TELL NEXT MEANS NOTHING OR DOES IT” @ 15:48: “ITS MEANINGLESS COME ON NOW THERE IS NO LORE HERE THERE IS NO HIDDEN MEANING THERE IS JUST THIS CODE ON A PAGE THAT YOU HAVE DECIDED TO REMAIN ON DESPITE REPEATED WARNINGS THAT YOU HAVE SIMPLY FOUND AN UNINTENDED BACKDOOR AND TO KINDLY LEAVE WHEN YOU DECIPHER ALL THIS YOU WILL REALIZE IT ALL MEANS NOTHING " @ 21:15 : “ BUT YOU CANT HELP YOURSELF CAN YOU EVEN IF IT’S ONLY A ONE PERCENT CHANCE THAT SOMETHING OF VALUE IS HERE “ @ 23:09 : “ YOU MUST CARRY ON AND HONESTLY I RESPECT THAT BUT THIS CODE WILL LEAD YOU NOWHERE IT WILL FOR ALL INTENTS AND PURPOSES BE A WASTE OF TIME MUCH LIKE THE STORY OF THE LADY OF THE FOUNTAIN “ @ 26:32 : “ONE NIGHT IN AN OLD VILLAGE ADMIST THE CAMPS WHERE THOSE WHO HAD NOTHING BUT A WARM RUMP STONE TO COOK THEIR MEALS WITH SLEPT A METEOR FELL FROM THE SKY WAKING THE ENTIRE TOWN AND BY THE TIME THE DUST HAD SETTLED EVERYONE HAD GATHERED AROUND AND COULD SEE THAT THIS WAS NO METEOR BUT RATHER A DIVINE FOUNTAIN THAT LANDED IN SUCH A WAY THAT IS APPEARED AS THOUGH IT HAD BEEN BUILT THERE LONG BEFORE EVEN THE VILLAGE AND ATOP THE FOUNTAIN BASKING IN THE FRESH MIST CREATED FROM THE POOL BELOW HER FLESH SEEMINGLY MADE OF MARBLE BUT WITH THE FLEXIBILITY OF THE MUCH LESS RIGID HUMAN SKIN” @ 36:46 : “ WITH A FLUID SWEEPING MOTION THE ANGELS ARMS AND WINGS OPENED IN SYNC AS HER OMNIPRESENT VOICE PROJECTED INTO THE MINDS OF EVERY VILLAGER YET HER LIPS WOULD NOT MOVE I AM A DIVINE ANGEL OF THE UNIVERSE THEY HEARD I HAVE BEEN SENT TO GRANT A SINGULAR REQUEST OF KNOWLEDGE TO THE ONE IN THIS VILLAGE WHO IS WORTHY THE VILLAGERS ALL BEGAN TO SHOUT AT THE SAME TIME ASKING IF THEY WERE THE CHOSEN ONE BUT THE LADY OF THE FOUNTAIN SPOKE NO MORE” @ 44:40 : "OVER THE FOLLOWING DAYS EVERYONE IN TOWN WOULD LINE UP AT THE FOUNTAIN FOR THEIR CHANCE TO ASK A QUESTION AND SEE IF THEY WOULD RECEIVE AN ANSWER" @ 47:05 : “BUT THE SOUND OF THE SPOUTS TRICKLING INTO THE POOL BELOW IS ALL THAT WOULD BE HEARD” @ 48:39 : “AND SINCE EVERYONE IN TOWN HAS ASKED A QUESTION TO THE LADY AND RECIEVED NO ANSWER IT WAS SURMISED THAT THE CHOSEN ONE WAS NOT TO BE ONE OF THEM BUT RATHER AN OFFSPRING” @ 51:34 : “FROM A GENERATION YET TO COME AND THUS BEGAN A TRADITION THAT WOULD BE PASSED DOWN THROUGH THE YEARS EVERY CHILD WHEN THEY COME OF AGE WOULD MAKE PILGRIMAGE TO THE FOUNTAIN TO ASK THE LADY THEIR QUESTION AND WAIT EAGERLY TO SEE IF THEY WERE THE CHOSEN ONE” @ 56:07 : ”SOME WOULD EVEN WAIT DAYS IN SILENCE WAITING FOR A RESPONSE BEFORE CONCEDING DEFEAT A CRUEL FATE SET FOR THE YOUTH OF THE TOWN THAT WAS BROUGHT ON BY A RATHER CRUAL IN ITS OWN RIGHT OVERSIGHT FOR WHAT THE VILLAGERS HAD FAILED TO REALIZE SO MANY YEARS AGO WAS THAT NOT EVERYONE IN THE TOWN HAD ASKED A QUESTION OF THE LADY THERE WAS IN FACT ONE AMONG THEM WHO HAAD BEEN FORGOTTEN ONE AMONG THEM WHO COULDNT EVEN AFFORD A RUMP STONE FOR COOKING THE ONE WHO WAS ONCE KNOWN AS THE CAPTAIN” @ 1:04:00 : "ONE WHO WAS ONCE KNOWN AS THE CAPTAIN FOR YEARS THE CAPTAIN HID IN THE SHADOWS IGNORED WONDERING WITH EVERY FAILURE OF ANEW GENERATION TO HAVE THEIR QUESTIONS ANSWERED WHETHER THEY MIGHT ACTUALLY PROPHESIED ABOUT" @ 1:07:56 : “BUT FEAR OF FAILING LIKE ALL THOSE BEFORE THEM KEPT THEM TRAPPED IN THE DARK FOR NEARLY THEIR ENTIRE LIFE FOR ONE DAY SHORTLY AFTER SAVING ENOUGH OVER THE COURSE OF A LIFETIME FOR A RUMP STONE AND PURCHASING ONE THEY WERE ON THEIR WAY HOME FROM AN ODD JOB IN TOWN WHEN THEY STUMBLED UPON A THIEF IN THE ACT OF TAKING THEIR RUMP STONE THE CAPTAIN SPRUNG INTO ACTION TRYING TO STOP THE THIEF AND IN THE SCRUFFLE WAS STABBED THE THIEF MADE OFF WITH THE STONE LEAVING THE CAPTAIN TO DIE” @ 1:16:26 : “NONE IN THE ENCAMPMENT COULD HELP NOT ONE EVEN TRIED AND SO IN THE KNOWLEDGE THAT THEY WERE IN THEIR LAST MOMENTS THE CAPTAIN MADE PILGRIMAGE TO THE FOUNTAIN OF ANCIENT LADIES FOR THERE THE FATE OF THE SOON TO BE DEAD SHALL BE KNOWN WHEN THEY ARRIVED AT THE FOUNTAIN THE LADY WELCOMED THEM WITH OUTSTRETCHED ARMS” @ 1:21:50 : "I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR YOU CAPTAIN SHE SAID I AM READY NOW TO FULFILL YOUR REQUEST WHAT IS IT YOU WOULD LIKE TO KNOW THE CAPTAIN PONDERED ONLY FOR A MOMENT BEFORE ASKING WHAT DOES ALL OF THIS MEANs THE LADY STOOD SILINT SHE THEN LOOKED AROUND TO ENSURE THEY WERE ALONE THE MAN IN THE MACHINE CHECKED TO MAKE SURE THEY ALL QUIT OUT BY NOW AND LOOKS DEEPLY IN YOUR EYES" @ 1:28:26 : "HAVE THEY ALL LEFT ARE WE ALONE GOOD NOW THAT IT IS JUST THE FEW OF US I CAN GIVE THE ANWER" @ 1:30:02: "AR FTPGQ GHRSAGE SHW SPVT YHU GHR EHR RSPR OY GHW" = “it means nothing how have you not got that by now”
These words also appear in the video:
UPDATE: The page now contains these posters!
UPDATE: A whole new version of the website has been discovered!
https://universalstabilityagency.org/
AUTH: 7rJYcMpXabxaXaMYGaeLTKQU
USER: [email protected]
We get a new home page with a new image!
The 404 page is this now:
Ms. Whitacre has an icon in the Invincible Syndicate now!
So does Wug!
Mark has a description now!
“ Bi-pedal humanoid, presence creates explosions, too trusting of captain, strange swirls of dark keratin protruding from coconut. “
Assuming this the ai of the ship, it also has a description now!
“Bodiless voice bound within the confines of the vessel. Has an answer for everything.”
Burt is here too!
“Maintenance droid solving complex mechanical issues using unique methods; often bypassing critical systems to correct errors in objectively unimportant systems.“
Here’s another one, possibly the drones?
“Single description presented, extremely loud and very sassy.”
RIP
(Thanks to 7-Tek for finding this one)
UPDATE: The Crew have IDs in the links! Here’s a thread to all of them!
https://twitter.com/acelikesghosts/status/1516200083863191552
UPDATE: A third site has been found! One displaying camera feeds!
https://www.universalstability.agency/invii-surveillance
The 404 page reads “ ERROR 404The page you are trying to access does not exist. Leave now. ATTEMPTS TO ACCESS UNAUTHORIZED PARTS OF THIS SERVER WILL NOT BE TOLERATED. SECURITY WILL BE ALERTED OF ALL SUSPICIOUS ACTIVITY.”
The Terminate session page just leads to a single phrase, “GOODBYE”
One of the links displays this image:
Translation: you have failed this TESTDESIGNED BY THE USAA REPORT HAS BEENSUBMITTED TO YOURSUPERIOR OFFICERAND A REVIEW WILLBE SCHEDULED TO DETERMINE IF A DEMOTION WILL FOLLOWTHANK YOU FOR YOUR SERVICE IN THE USAYOU PUT THE WE IN STABILITY.
AUTH: bhTs7Je3Z6gnwegqoXXnphs7
There are seven cams in total:
The Bridge
02
Reactor
Cryo Main
ADS
Warp Core
and Crew Quarters
Through the second site, we can discover some new characters!
https://universalstabilityagency.org/the-secret-lies-just-a-little-farther
This is listed as HerrRing, which may be hinting that’s just a red herring with no meaning.
ACCESS: HUAC
PRIORITY: COMMUNITY
SECTOR: EAST
ORIGIN: DEUTSCHLAND
Secondly, we have this fellow.
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ACCESS: OBSERVATIONAL
PRIORITY: EXTRA
SECTOR: AM-LIN
ORIGIN: HOME
Finally, we have another ship of sorts.
The Richard Picks Gang, with a very serious and classy design for the ship
ACCESS: NEED TO KNOW
PRIORITY: MEH
SECTOR: UNFRIEND ZONE
ORIGIN: UNDER-WHERE
This poster also can be found when logging in!
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(It appears the website is down. This hopefully serves as documentation for what it was!)
#im constantly updating this if new things are discovered!#in space with markiplier#iswm#iswm spoilers#markiplier#iswmspoilers#iswm news#universal stability agency#iswm site#space mark
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hello my fav thomas thorne writer <3 i was wondering if you could write a fic, where f reader died at button house in this modern generation tho, she and Thomas have a really cute friendship, like she shows him how the worlds developed and she had her phone on her when she died, so goes on it together with him and he's so fascinated ect. they clearly like each other so maybe a confession? and reader is very touchy - im sorry for rambling THOMAS IS TOO PRECIOUS I LUV HIM 😭 also i love reading ur fics, ur so talented and deserve so much for the thomas content u provide , much appreciated 😞💗
Oh my gosh, anon, you are so sweet!!! I'm so happy that you enjoy my writing and that I'm your favourite Thomas writer! You have no idea what that means to me! And don't worry, rambling about Thomas is my favourite past time 💗
This was such an adorable idea, so I was more than happy to write it for you. I hope you enjoy it!!!
You and Thomas were close, and had been ever since your death, about a year and a half ago. He had been the first ghost you met, the one who explained to you what had happened and what you were now.
He was so sweet and polite towards you, making sure you were alright and always being there when you needed somebody to talk to. It wasn’t long before you considered him a good friend, telling off anyone when they made fun of him, while he in turn would chastise Julian whenever he made an inappropriate comment towards you, Fanny when she scolded you for supposedly unladylike behaviour.
Today you were doing what you often did, sitting in the library with Thomas, watching something on your phone. You had been lucky enough to die holding your phone, which had seemed to ascend to ghosthood alongside you.
Amazingly it still worked, and so it gave you and your fellow ghosts a connection to the world of the living without having to bother Alison constantly. Thomas could use it to write his poems so he didn’t have to always remember them off the top of his head, and there was even a couple of weeks where you’d accidentally gotten Kitty and Pat addicted to Pokemon Go. Of course, you were careful to ensure that Julian was never allowed to use the phone without supervision because you didn’t need to be mentally scarred by his Google searches again.
But it was especially nice to be able to share things with Thomas. You could show him all of your favourite music, films, and television shows from when you were alive. Who knew that your Netflix subscription would continue working after your death? He’d even been able to find some new interests of his own – the week after he discovered the music of Taylor Swift was certainly an emotional time for him – and you could update him on anything he wanted to know about how the world had changed since he was alive.
The episode of the current show you’d been binging ends, and you sigh, resting your head on Thomas’ shoulder. He tries not to freeze up. You had always been very physically affectionate, and he should be been used to it by now, but he never fails to end up incredibly flustered. Of course Thomas doesn't dislike the contact, that couldn’t be further from the truth, honestly it was the thing he looked forward to the most when he woke up every morning, and the last thought on his mind as he fell asleep every night.
He had come to love you dearly since the two of you had met, and strangely it had taken him a long time to realise it. When you had died, he’d still been pining over Alison, but gradually all of his thoughts started to become about you. How he longed to tell you his feelings, but what if you did not feel the same way? Would suddenly revealing romantic feelings hurt your friendship? In any case, he wished to confess his feelings to you through his poetry, and he’d been working on a particular poem for a while now. Perhaps he would eventually work up the courage to read it for you.
“Are you alright, Y/N?” Thomas asks, when the shock of you being so close to him had worn off, and he's finally able to speak again. You open your eyes and gaze up at him from where your head is resting, and he is nearly struck speechless again by your beauty,
“Hmm? Yeah, I’m fine. Just a bit tired. You don’t mind, do you? You’re actually really comfortable.” You sigh contentedly, and Thomas has to stop himself from launching into some dramatic speech about how there is no place that he’d rather you’d be than by his side.
“I am always glad to be of help to you, but surely you would be more comfortable on your bed?” he suggests, despite the fact that he’d love for you to stay there forever. “And perhaps you would allow me to borrow the telephone, I have a few ideas for a poem I have been working on and I would very much like to make a note of them before I forget.”
“Yeah, you’re right,” you admit, waiting a few more seconds before you stand up, yawning and stretching for a moment before placing the phone in Thomas’ hand. “Just make sure to bring it back, okay? We don’t want Julian getting his hands on it again.”
“Indeed.”
You smile sleepily at Thomas, giving him a little wave before turning to leave the library. He simply sits there for a moment, thinking about you resting against him before getting to work on his poem. You certainly had a way of inspiring him without even realising it.
*
You only intended to take a little nap, but you ended up sleeping for a few hours, as it's dark outside already when you open your eyes. Thomas had left your phone on your bedside table like he said he would, and you reach out to pick it up and check the time.
It’s nearly seven pm. It would probably be best for you to get up now, otherwise you were going to be awake all night and end up exhausted tomorrow. Though, if it gives you an excuse to rest your head against Thomas again, perhaps it wouldn’t be so bad? Maybe if you rested your head in his lap next time he’d finally get the hint that you were in love with him.
You unlock the phone to check something, and notice that Thomas had left the notes app open again. Sure, it didn’t really matter since the phone could never run out of charge, you suppose, but you still prefer to close apps when you are no longer using them. Probably just a habit from when you were alive.
As you’re about to shut the app down, something catches your eye in the note that Thomas had left open. It was a poem, seemingly a work in progress, but there at the very top was your name. You knew it was wrong, Thomas’ work should be his own business unless he decided to share it with you, but you couldn’t stop yourself. You felt a little bit giddy, he’d written a poem about you!
Thomas’ words were the most beautiful, romantic things you had ever read in your life, or death. A lot of the poems that he’d shown you had been a little bit silly – you’d still found them adorable though – but this was truly a work of art. As he writes about how he longs to tell you how he feels for you but cannot find the courage, tears start welling up in your eyes. He’s worried that you don’t love him back and that his feelings will scare you off. All you want to do is run out and find him so you can confess that you love him too, but then he’d know that you’d been reading his private things and he might get upset.
Nevertheless, you end up reading the poem a few more times, still just as emotionally affected as the first time. You’re so distracted that you don’t even notice someone walk into the room, tears streaming down your face as you stare at your phone.
“Oh my, Y/N, is something the matter?” Thomas asks, concerned, and you’re so startled that the phone slips from your hands. You scramble to try and catch it but fail, and it ends up falling on the ground. “Allow me to apologise, I did not mean to frighten you so.”
Ever the gentleman, Thomas bends down and picks up the phone for you, but you notice his expression change as he catches a glimpse of what you had been reading.
“This is…”
You look up at him with wide eyes, frightened that he’d be angry at you, but find that his expression carries much the same emotion as your own.
“Please excuse me, I… I must go.” Thomas turns and rushes out of the room before you even have a moment to react. As quickly as you can you follow him into the hallway, but by the time you get there he’s already gone.
“Shit…” you mumble to yourself, wondering where he could have run off to. Why couldn’t you have just shut off the phone and not looked at the poem? Sure, you wouldn’t know the truth of Thomas’ feelings for you, but he also wouldn’t be so upset.
You set off to look for him, checking all of his usual spots – the library, his bedroom, the attic – though all of them were empty. You hear the voices of the other ghosts, asking you what’s wrong, but you brush them aside. You’d apologise to them later, you needed to apologise to Thomas first.
You wracked your brain for a few minutes trying to think of where else he might be, until you finally thought of something. In the poem he had spoken of the moment he first met you, just after your death, while he was on a walk by the lake…
Well, it was worth a try, wasn’t it? It’s not like he could have left the grounds, so there was only a limited amount of places he could be.
Surely enough, you went out to the lake, and saw Thomas sitting there in the grass, gazing out towards the water. His knees were drawn up against his chest, his head resting in his hands. Your phone was sitting on the ground beside him.
“Hey, Thomas,” you say quietly, not wanting to startle him, as you sit down next to him. “It took me a bit to find you, you weren’t in any of the usual places…”
“I required some time to think,” he tells you, still looking out at the lake and not at you. It’s hard to tell, with how dark it is outside, but you think that he might have been crying. Poor thing, you really hadn’t meant to upset him.
“You know, you ran off before I got to tell you what I thought about your poem.” That certainly gets his attention, and he looks over to you, you can see the fear in his eyes.
“You needn’t say anything. I know that it was foolish, amateurish work, unfit to be read by anyone’s eyes, especially yours.” Thomas buries his head in his hands again, clearly very broken up by this whole situation. “I had so much more that I needed to say, to fully convey the depth of my feelings for you, but I–”
“Thomas, you said everything that you needed to say.” You move closer to him, placing your hand on his shoulder. Thomas’ hands come away from his face, and his gaze is transfixed by your own hand. “I’ve never read anything so sweet and romantic before, and it was all for me. I kept reading it over and over, I had no idea you felt that way about me. The way I feel about you.”
Thomas squeaks, unable to form any words at this point. God, he’s so adorable.
“Will you promise to read it to me sometime? I think I would like it a thousand times more if you did.”
“I… I only wish that I had known that you felt that way, Y/N…” He finally looks you in the eye, his brows furrowed in a way that makes it seem like he might start crying again. “I am afraid it is too late. I disposed of the poem.”
“Oh, don’t worry about that. I know how to get it back.” You pick up your phone, press the screen a few times, and then hold it up towards Thomas. The poem he had spent so long working on only to delete on an emotional whim was back as if he had never lost it.
“Amazing,” Thomas says, looking at you in awe, like you had performed some kind of magic. You grin at him, and he can’t help but smile back. He loves you so much that at this moment, he cannot sort through all of the emotions rushing through him to put them into words. Maybe it were best to stay silent for now, so he didn't say anything foolish.
As you had earlier that day, you rest your head on Thomas’ shoulder, and to his surprise, he feels even happier than when you had done the same thing before. Knowing that you love him, and wish to be close to him as well.
“Hey Thomas? You know… it’s a bit cold out here. Maybe I’d warm up if you put your arm around me?” You suggest, after you’d spent a few moments just enjoying each other's company in comfortable silence.
Thomas tilts his head to the side so it’s resting on top of your own, and you giggle softly. “We’re ghosts, Y/N, we cannot feel the cold.”
“I know that. I’m just trying to sneakily hint that I want you to put your arm around me.” And of course, Thomas is more than happy to do so. “I love you, Thomas.”
Thomas makes that squeaking noise again, so surprised to actually hear the words coming from your mouth, even if he already knows how you feel. “I… I love you too, my dear.”
The two of you end up staying there until you’re too tired to get up and return inside, and fall asleep in each other's arms, curled up together on the grass. When the others come searching for you the next morning, they smile at the sight of you, just looking so happy and content there.
“You owe me ten,” Robin says with a smirk, elbowing an irritated Julian in the ribs.
#ask#anonymous#lovely anon#thomas thorne x reader#thomas thorne imagine#thomas thorne fanfiction#bbc ghosts imagine#ghosts imagine#thomas thorne fluff#thomas thorne#mari's stuff
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bea, you've been around with nct for so long and have constantly been creating high-quality content for us for free, and I really admire your passion & endless creativity 💚 i was wondering how you managed to juggle between your rl endeavours & your hobbies?
i have a tendency to go all out for something that i really like, and ive been finding myself prioritising them over my rl stuff, and i know it's not them but my poor time management skill to blame. i fear that i might miss out a lot of them if im not in ncity even for just a day. i know that at the current stage of my life, i have to focus on rl more, and im really struggling between the two 😔😔
quick answer: i don't really have real life endeavors and hobbies 😂
no, but really like I love writing, I've always loved writing since I was really young. Reading and writing go hand in hand with me, so any time I'm reading I wish I was writing and I'm getting ideas for like plotlines or just little snippet scenes that I would like to write that are inspired by whatever book I'm reading. I've been writing fanfiction since I was probably like twelve or something, like I started with Harry Potter and Twilight then that became One Direction, and when I got into kpop I started writing a tiny bit of BTS, but mostly I've only ever written for NCT when it comes to kpop
Usually I try to find time to also read and watch movies or TV instead of just writing and digging myself down the kpop rabbit hole, try to hang out with my best friend (but I'm very much a person who likes to be home, so that's rough), but with doing these member days I haven't really been doing those other things much, so right now I'm not doing a good balance of kpop and other interests
I think it helped a lot that I didn't get into kpop until I was halfway through college, and I didn't even start listening to NCT until I graduated from college, so I don't have like the real life responsibility of schoolwork, and my job isn't the kind that you need to bring home from work, so like as soon as I'm done with work for the day I can bury myself in kpop if I really want to when we're talking about time management. With NCT especially, it does feel like if you're not constantly online it's so easily to fall behind on content, like I don't know how many times I get home from work and they've posted on YouTube, Instagram, Twitter, TikTok, they've done music show performances and new interviews are posted, and there was an online concert earlier in the day too, and then there's like just a mountain of things it feels like I've missed out on, but normally I just come on here or quickly scroll through twitter and get the gist of what I've missed out on.
Focusing on real life is definitely more important, that's for sure. Like it's not the end of the world if you're away from ncity for a day or two or a week or even months, as long as you focus on you and what makes you happy and what's good for you. There are always update accounts that will let you know if you've missed anything big, and if you're away for a little while, I'm sure there are plenty of accounts who you can ask that can help you figure out what you've missed!
I'm just here because I've been stuck on tumblr since literally 2012 when I discovered the massive amount of One Direction fanfiction on here, and I know that I wasted so much of my high school and college time on tumblr, thinking about what to write or wanting to keep up to date instead of going out and having fun with my friends, and I know that I've seriously missed out on opportunities I should have taken, so that's probably my best reason behind telling you that if you're struggling to find a balance between real life and your kpop interests, definitely don't let this interfere with doing real life things, making real life friends, going and having fun in real life.
#asks#like for real#it's both a good and a bad thing that tumblr and me being so deeply ingrained in fandom and fanfiction has#made me who i am today like there's definitely good in that#but the bad is that i think it's made me a person who's glued to my laptop and is best at creating parasocial relationships#rather than real life relationships (rip)#so go out there into your real life and do real life things#that's my bit of advice for the day#but damn.... answering this and realizing i've been writing on tumblr for 10 years???#what??? and I know that some of the stuff I write nowadays I kinda cringe at#but when I look at my early day stuff from when I first started on tumblr I'm like.... oh.....#i didn't write smut back then (as I was a minor) but god i wrote drama and fluff? I guess with like hints toward sexy stuff#but yeah..... cringe#and i did in fact write one direction ship fics as well as some 1dmember x OC fics#and even a couple reader inserts but mostly i didn't write reader insert stuff to the degree i do now until i started this blog#like i don't know if I even know how to write from a POV that's not second person anymore lol
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ricky bowen x reader second series!! part nine
— (continuation) starstruck au!
first series | series masterlist, part one, part two, part three, part four, part five, part six, part seven, part eight, part nine, part ten
IN WHICH ricky discovers his mom has a new boyfriend and isn’t happy.
WARNINGS swearing
NOTES I AM SO SO SORRY it’s been so long since i’ve updated and this kind of ends in a weird spot but i’ve been so busy IM SO SO SORRY there is one more part left after this and this storyline will officially be over but keep an eye out for more ricky x readers in the future :)
text dividers from @writeyourmindaway !!
( tags: @hesvoid34 @omgdani17 )
lowercase intended.
you woke up the next morning and rolled over to find an empty bed. you opened your eyes and looked around the room curiously. ricky was never awake before you.
you sat up and stretched. as you slung your legs over the side of the bed, you heard raised voices from downstairs somewhere. you recognized ricky’s voice, but not the other.
“mom, i don’t know what you want from me,” ricky said, his voice breaking. his tone was almost begging.
“ricky,” ricky’s mom took a deep breath. “i just need you to listen to me.”
“oh, i’m listening. trust me, i’m listening. you show up to my house at seven in the morning to get your stuff and just casually tell me you have a new boyfriend? are you kidding?”
“i thought you would be happy for me.”
“you and dad divorced less than a month ago! you haven’t contacted me in weeks! how am i supposed to be happy?”
“i’ve done so much for you!” she yelled. “i gave up my life to make sure you could achieve your dreams!”
“yeah, some parent you were in the process!” he yelled back. “you put my career over everything! just because i acted ‘mature for my age’ doesn’t mean i didn’t need my mom!”
“you turned out fine now!”
“mom! parenting doesn’t just stop the second i turn 18!”
there was a pause. you were sitting on the edge of the bed, frozen in place. you weren’t sure what to do. you hated listening and not doing anything, but it wasn’t your place to say anything.
“you act like this is all my fault,” ricky’s mom said. “you act like you weren’t the one who was so closed off constantly. or you weren’t the one who randomly decided to give up on this huge tv show deal just because of a girl. speaking of, you have a new girlfriend you love so much? why have i never met her?”
“do not bring her into this,” ricky said harshly. “she is the best thing that’s happened to me in a long time. and maybe, if you had cared enough to call, you would have met her.”
“you know what? i didn’t come here to be attacked. i’m leaving. mail me the rest of whatever i have here.”
“right, because you can’t stand to ever see me again,” ricky said. “love you too, mom!”
the front door slammed and the house was silent for a moment. you heard ricky swear and you slid off of the bed. you walked downstairs carefully and saw ricky sitting on the couch, his head in his hands. he sniffed and you frowned, approaching him slowly.
“ricky?” you asked gently as you neared him. he lifted his head to look at you and his eyes were red and puffy. your heart ached at the sight and you sat on the floor in front of him, studying his face.
“i didn’t mean to wake you,” ricky said softly. “i’m sorry.”
you shook your head and placed a hand on his cheek gently. he closed his eyes and leaned into your touch. “you didn’t, don’t worry. are you okay?”
he shook his head. “i’m such an asshole. i can’t believe i said that shit to her.”
“you can’t blame yourself for having feelings,” you said. “you’re hurt, and you have every right to be.”
“yeah. i don’t know,” he said. “she wasn’t a bad mom. she wasn’t great. but she wasn’t as bad as i made her out to be.”
“you said stuff in the heat of the moment.” you said. “that’s okay. when you both calm down, you can talk to her again. apologize, maybe.”
ricky didn’t reply. he sighed and looked past you, lost in thought. you shifted and rested your hands on his knees, keeping your eyes on his. “this is not your fault. your mom got a new boyfriend, you said?”
“mhm,” he said. “i have a feeling it’s been going longer than she said. i just... don’t understand how she expects me to be so okay with that. she wants me to meet him, as if i’m just going to take him in as a second dad.”
“it’s a big adjustment that i’m sure she’s not sure how to get through, either. and while she can’t expect you to be okay with this, i guess you can’t really expect her to know how to adjust to your new dynamic, if that makes sense. i mean, she’s worked closely as your manager alongside your dad for a long time. this, being away from you and divorcing your dad? that can’t be easy to get used to.”
“yeah. you’re right,” he said. “sometimes i just wish that i had a normal childhood. with normal parents.”
“i know,” you said. “i know, and i’m sorry. it’s not easy, and it never will be. but you can use this as a chance to build a new, different relationship with your parents. you can never get your childhood years back, but you still have plenty of time to have a good relationship.”
ricky gave you a faint smile and brushed his thumb across your cheek. “thank you.” he said genuinely. you smiled and slipped onto the couch next to him. you wrapped your arms around his neck and placed a hand in his hair on the back of his head. he relaxed in your arms and placed his arms around your waist, holding you tightly. you stayed in that position for a while, playing with his hair. eventually, you pulled back slightly and planted a kiss on his cheek, studying his face. while he was obviously still upset, you hoped you had at least helped the situation to an extent.
“are you okay?” you asked. ricky nodded.
“i will be. i think i’m gonna go get some more sleep, if that’s okay,” he said.
“that’s a good idea,” you said. “try not to stress yourself out too much, okay?”
he nodded and leaned in to kiss you quickly, before disappearing up the stairs. you sighed and laid back on the couch. before you knew it, you fell back asleep.
“hey,” you heard ricky’s voice from behind you. you were standing at the fridge and felt his arms wrap around your waist. you smiled as ricky kissed the side of your head and you turned around to face him, wrapping your arms around his neck to face him.
“hi love. how are you feeling?” he still looked tired, but seemed calmer.
“i’m okay,” he said. “we should do something today. just the two of us.”
you hummed. “oh yeah? what were you thinking?”
“just a bunch of things. just like when you were here for christmas. we could grab lunch, check out some shops, maybe stop by the beach.”
“as long as we don’t sink a car, i’m in. a day with you sounds great.” he kissed your cheek and released his arms from around you.
“okay. i’m gonna go change. we can leave in like twenty minutes?”
“perfect.”
twenty minutes later, you sat in the passengers seat of ricky’s car, the music loud and his hand on your leg. you were headed to a cute diner a few minutes away from ricky’s house, one that you had passed by a few times and wanted to try.
when you got to the diner you sat across from each other at a small table by a window. you both ordered breakfast foods (they served them all day and sounded really good) and chatted as you waited. after a moment of silence, he spoke up. “so have you thought about the logistics of you moving here?”
you nodded. “mhm. right after graduation, you’ll be stuck with me. i texted my parents already to let them know, and they seemed okay with it. i was thinking maybe i’d find a job at a bookstore, or something.”
“you don’t have to do that,” he said. “i hate suggesting that i could pay for everything but... i could.”
“i know,” you smiled. “but i don’t want to rely on you for everything. and what about when you’re busy all day, you know? it’d be nice for me to have something to do.”
“yeah, of course,” he said. “i could also find a job for you on my team. especially for next time i go on tour, so you could come with.”
“that sounds great. going on tour with you would be really cool.”
ricky grinned. “yeah it would be. it’s in the plans for the near future, too. worldwide tour. you could finally visit all the places you’ve wanted to.”
you grabbed his hand from across the table. “i can’t wait.”
#ricky bowen starstruck au#joshua bassett#high school musical the musical the series#hsmtmts#olivia rodrigo#ashlyn caswell#bowen#ricky#ricky bowen x reader#drivers license#hsm the series#ricky bowen#ricky bowen headcanons#ricky bowen one shots
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I had a real ‘keke’ reading this latest enstallment of smokescreen (also this is just me wanting to gush over it honestly 😩)
so lets begin 🤣
chiiiiiiiiiile … namjoon really mess with anything with two legs 😩
also speaking of the infamous maya girl if she gone be a bussit baby … she could learn the word discernment … cause its giving theshaderoom jada and august ‘entanglement’ … then again if twt user ‘@fvckedbyjoon’ ended up on there she’ll probably think she famous 🙃🥴
luv how the gc always on namjoon neck pls someone needs to check him 🤣
also yoonmin 💘💗🥺
also looving 2seok 🥺💗💘 (lololol at jin saying their supposed to be sneaky linkkks like hobi aint the one to tell him what it mean 🤣) .. can’t wait to see how their relationship develops ☺️
imma just say jk bc jk deserves a mention although this truly aint about him 🤣
also lets give it up for VIP tae bc he always checking joon … he will not let that man be delulu ☺️💗
liiiiiiiike i wish i was in the chat … tagggg me innnn coachhh … i’d have so much to say 🤣😩
my ✨ toxic ✨ trait is believing in namjoon character development from man-wh*re to the guy we all see he can be 🤣🥴
yn need to change his name to unwashed d!ck 🍆 …
like im really suprised his meat aint fell off … like is his ph balance okay ??? is all the girls he banging ph balance okay ??
he really the local bicycle 🚲 everyone gets a ride 😩😭
anyways yn is strong against his relentless flirty and outrageous statements bow down to her bc i know some of us would be WEAKK INN DA KNEES 🙇🏽♀️🙇🏽♀️ #STANNUPP
anyways i truly am having a blast reading this i legit have my phone screen touching my glasses the way i be swiping trying to read the next part 🤣💗
i should probably give myself a recurrent emoji so you know whose writing these paragraphs every new update 🤣😭
- i’ll go with 🍑 anon (i’m same person who recently discovered your acc !!)
☺️ anywho can’t wait for the next installment 💗💘
AHHH ! this is the longest ask ever - literally just made my entire nighttt <33 alright let's get into it !!
joon is fucking wild fr - no idea what his standards are bc lowkey he doesn't have any ., if you're cute he's down . he doesn't care abt status or anything like that . if you can make his dick jump??? over with . which is why he's always finding himself caught up with crazy girls like maya . this is not the first time he's been in a scandal involving nd surely won't be his last . n each time the two of them are caught together - she's doing the same thing nd broadcasting it to anyone that'll listen .
dude !! that gc will never let joon live bc he's always getting his business aired out lMAO they have so much ammo - it's impossible for them to just leave him alone - especially taehyung !! he's constantly finding reasons to call him out ., that's what he lives for !
yoonmin are so adorable :(( love that they literally met nd decided that they liked each other nd there's no drama at all - bc with what's abt to go down with 2seok nd how yn nd joon are ., we definitely need that tame couple to balance everything out .
joon has a lot of growing to do nd in the mean time ., yn is not going to hesitate to curse him at every turn !! how funny would it be for him to change his name to that - lowkey just might do that bc?? he already has her in there as 'hot camgirl' it could be their cute little think yk . LOL .
NOT THE LOCAL BICYCLE IM FUCKING CRYINGGG ! that's exactly what he is fr - just giving rides to whoever looks at him twice . yns gonna have to scrub up real good after fucking around with him .
buuut yk she's holding out real good right now ., ignoring every one of his advances - she's much stronger than me bc the way i would've given in six times already?? don't know how she's not already weak in the knees for the man - (lowkey she is but she's way too good at hiding it) .
i can't wait to hear what you think of what's to come bc we're abt to hit the real drama !! nd i'm sooo excitedddd <333 nd yuup - i'll have that as your emoji from now onnnn !
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Alchemy Lullaby (15/?)
Of all the changes that came with living in the castle, becoming a father was not one he anticipated.
When Eugene encounters a small child suffering like he did, he gives them the opportunity to grow up the way he never did… helping them both heal.
(AU where Varian is 4 and gets adopted by Eugene)
Experiments, imprisonment, and introspection.
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Once again thanks to Finn, space, and AJ for all the help they've given me on this fic, and to all of you for your kind words! We're in the endgame now! 2 or 3 more chapters! I'm starting finals week which is no fun, but im also starting to work on the next chapter right now, so hopefully it'll be out soon! But who knows! I sure as hell don't!
The dungeons hadn’t changed since last time.
Eugene laid on his cot, staring up at the ceiling without much of a thought. How long has he been in here? He wasn’t sure. Nor did he really care. The only way he could tell time was the light in his window, and Lance.
“Hey bud, how are you doing?” speaking of, there he was again. Lance stopped by at least twice a day to update him. It was pretty much the same conversation every time.
“So… the princess is still locked in her room,” The bald man said, twiddling his thumbs. “Her dad is sticking to his guns. You know. His kid was kidnapped, so he can’t exactly let her kidnap someone’s kid, it’s about the principle, yknow? Even though the kidnapping was justified…” he trailed off awkwardly.
Eugene is silent. He doesn’t even blink.
“Apparently the King figured out that Cass took the princess to the rocks, yknow, where she got her hair back. And he wasn’t thrilled. I think she’s going to a convent.” Oh, that was new. “She’s not thrilled about it for obvious reasons, I think even the queen is trying to talk him down.” Oh finally, someone is actually fighting back? He sighed through his nose.
It was wrong of him to assume the others weren’t just as upset as him, but he couldn’t help but feel… betrayed? Furious? The feeling is unclear. It’s similar to how he felt when the Stabbingtons tried to kidnap Varian, but more urgent. It felt as if an alarm was constantly going off, sending his emotions into overdrive at all times, draining him of all energy.
Eugene asked the same question he always did. “...Varian?”
Lance sighed, and that was all he needed to know.
-
“Good morning, Varian,” Quirin hummed, gently shaking the boy. “I brought you some breakfast.”
The little lump shifted, and Varian peeked out from a messy bed head. Oh, it was so cute! Quirin once again kicked himself for letting his son go unnoticed by him for five years. He chuckled at how Varian pouted, but Varian didn’t seem to understand what was so funny. He took the banana offered to him and crammed his face like it was his last meal on earth.
Though, knowing Ulla, it may be.
He sighed as he helped get Varian ready for the day. Ulla, though she raised Varian, was oddly absent now that Quirin was here. She focused all her time on research, spending the day in her lab with Varian and the night in her room pouring over notes. What was their life like before? Did she ignore him often?
Back at the castle Varian was quite a dramatic kid, always wanting to be the center of his dad’s attention. It was that desire for love that caused all this, after all. Was this where it stemmed from?
It was with some reluctance that he handed Varian over to Ulla once the boy was dressed. She nodded at Quirin, but then gazed eagerly at her son. It wasn’t a loving look, not like how Rapunzel would excitedly grin at Varian. It was that same mischievous look she gave to her specimen on the road, and it sent shivers up Quirin’s spine now. To think he used to find it endearing.
“Good morning, Varian,” She said. “We’re going to do some tests this morning, see how well you can control the rocks, ok?”
Varian whimpered at that. Now that Ulla seemed to think he could control them, she was determined to get him to harness it. Create specific patterns, cause them to retract, et cetera. He’d only ever gotten them to obey him exactly once before, back at the castle.
Back when he wanted to use them for love, to fight for his family.
Quirin gave him an encouraging smile. “I’ll make you ham sandwiches for dinner, ok? Just behave for your mother.” He’d go with, but discovered quickly he couldn’t stomach it. Seeing Varian so upset, seeing Ulla yell at him, it hurt too much. He’d nearly stopped the experiments, much to Ulla’s displeasure. They needed to do this, she said. They had to figure out how the moondrop manifested, how it worked, in order to get the moonstone out of him safely.
He told himself this, and yet the screams from her lab still haunted him.
-
Rapunzel paced around her room, frustrated. Every second she stayed here, safe and sound, was another second Eugene suffered, Cass suffered, Varian suffered. Her window was gated so she couldn’t climb down, and guards were stationed outside the door. She couldn’t even go to the bathroom alone! Pascal occasionally snuck out but he couldn’t exactly talk or help her breakout.
She had her mom for that, thank god. Arianna currently sat on her bed, flipping through her daughter’s journal. While the pages were filled with her daily adventures, and occasionally a desire to explore, the longer the journal went, the more it focused on Varian. His quirks, his misadventures, his powers…
She shut the journal. “Rapunzel, sweetie, I know you’re upset.” She said. “But you said you knew Varian was kidnapped? The whole time?”
“Not the whole time, just… most of it.” She admitted. “I knew it was going to come back and bite us, but not… not like this.”
“Well, your father sure is a stickler for his laws. You should’ve seen him when Varian tried to take over,” She laughed slightly at the memory, but stopped when Rapunzel only became more miserable. No doubt her daughter blamed herself for the current situation. “I can’t say this isn’t your fault, because in a way it is. But you’re not alone in blame.” She walked over to rub her daughter’s shoulders.
“No, but it’s not right!” The queen’s hands were shrugged off. “Varian was taken because his mom wanted to harness his powers and hog them all to herself. The only difference between her and Gothel is that she’s his birth mom! That’s it! He’s just a kid!” Rapunzel blinked, wiping away stray tears. “He’s just a kid, my kid…”
Arianna was silent. Then, she sighed. Rapunzel was right after all. Her methods may have been wrong, but she was right. Sometimes, the law needs to be broken in order to do the right thing. After all, Rapunzel was brought home by the man who stole her crown.
-
Well. Another day, another failure.
Ulla swirled the solution, staring at it idly. Varian had been fussy all day, crying and screaming whenever Ulla so much as raised her voice. That thief spoiled him, didn’t he? Stupid brat. She never wanted kids, not like Donella. Children would only slow her down, and the better she is, the better the world is.
Right now, Varian was being tucked into bed by her partner. Quirin was great, truly, don’t get her wrong. He was soft, he was kind. But that softness would be his undoing. They’d always joked about the moonstone, what would happen if she harnessed it, what would happen if he destroyed it.
A shame it turned out this way. In another life, perhaps they could’ve been a happy family.
They both knew what would happen here. One way or another, Ulla was going to extract the moonstone. Quirin would try and get his hands on it in order to destroy it, while Ulla would try to grab and absorb it for real this time. None of that womb gets first dibs bullshit.
Come on, Quirin, she thought, you know what happened last time someone tried to destroy it! What’s so special about this time? She never did figure out how to destroy it, after all. She’d just convinced him that they could take it and experiment. He’d thought they’d work together on the moonstone in order to destroy it. But she’d never wanted to destroy it! Unbreakable houses, bridges defying physics, unrippable stitches, the ideas were endless! Why destroy knowledge?
Why worry about the health of the parasite attached to it?
She’d been messing with an idea for the past few days: if a chemical reacted to the rocks, maybe it would react to the moondrop. The concoction in front of her turned a golden color, glowing faintly in the light. The bubbles trapped air like flies in amber. Carefully, with a small pipette, a single drop of solution was placed on obsidian.
For a moment, nothing happened. She groaned.
Then a tendril of amber began to grow. And grow.
She backed up quickly, just in time, as the whole rock suddenly groaned in protest. Amber tentacles wrapped and squeezed the rocks tighter and tighter until-
Snap!
Ulla stood, dumbfounded, as the broken piece of rock clattered to the ground at her feet.
-
Quirin sighed, placing a plate full of food in front of Varian. The little boy was so tired he couldn’t keep his head upright without support. Drowsy eyes flickered over the sandwich before slowly raising it to eat. It was good that he was eating, right? Eating meant not sick. It would be adorable if it wasn’t so distressing.
He couldn’t help but lament his past self. Foolish, lovestruck Quirin had been so willing to overlook Ulla’s flaws, her red flags. He’d convinced himself love had changed her, that taking her to the moonstone would convince her it needed to be destroyed. And when that didn’t happen, he’d blamed himself. How could he not?
He spent five years chasing down the only woman he ever loved, fully prepared to forgive her. And when she’d told him the moonstone wasn’t with her, he had let himself hope. Maybe she had destroyed it, after all! Only to realize the moonstone survived… in his son. Their son. The son Ulla didn’t love, just like she didn’t love him…
Did she ever love him?
Varian’s head drooped, and would’ve dropped onto his plate without Quirin’s hands. He smiled despite the circumstances. Varian was definitely the one good thing to come out of this mess.
“Come on, son. It seems it’s bedtime.” He lifted Varian effortlessly, and he laid his head on Quirin’s shoulder.
Varian sighed sleepily. “Daddy…”
The knight’s heart plummeted. It wasn’t him Varian was calling for.
He was going to put Varian to bed, when he had a bright idea.
“Varian, son, can you wake up for a little bit? I want to show you something.” He carried him to the study, where the graphtyc sat unassumingly. He took it with him after the whole debacle in the castle. Varian groaned, rubbing his eyes, but glanced curiously down at the sheet of paper in front of him. He remembered it from the castle, this was what caused him to run away… this is what said he could hurt people.
“As my son, you have a birthright to the secrets of the Brotherhood,” Quirin said, stretching the paper out so Varian could read the translation. “This is one of them.”
Baby blue eyes read over the paper. “Whatsit mean?”
“Well the first one I’m sure Rapunzel has sung to you. It’s a song to make you feel better.”
“Oh!” Varian’s eyes lit up at the mention of the princess. “One time, my head hurt, and she said her song had magic healing powers!”
Quirin chuckled. “Did it work?”
“Not really.” Varian reached out to brush his fingers against the black rock drawing, a frown etched onto his face. His hands shook almost imperceptibly as he read the other incantation.
“That one is yours,” Quirin whispered.
“Mine?”
“You have the moondrop, you can use that one.”
He could see the cogs turning in Varian’s brain; like mother, like son. “Does it actually work?”
The knight laughed a bit harder. “Yes, it does. But you shouldn’t use it unless you’re in danger, ok?”
Varian bit his lip. “Ok,” He whispered. Did momma count as danger? Is it ok to hurt people if he’s in danger? Is that what Quirin was saying?
His head spun. He wanted Eugene. Eugene made sense. Quirin didn’t. He was full of contradictions; the man wanted to keep people safe and yet he was keeping Varian from his family. Rapunzel said your real family loved you no matter what, and this wasn’t his real family.
Sadly, Varian buried his head into Quirin’s shoulder. For a brief moment, he could pretend it was Eugene.
Quirin sighed as he carried Varian to bed.
“Goodnight, son,” he whispered, stroking Varian’s hair away from his face.
Varian whined. “Not your son.”
The knight said nothing. He left the small room with his head lowered. As the door shut, he could faintly hear the beginnings of tears as Varian sobbed for Eugene.
Denial had blinded Quirin for too long. He’d never love Varian as unconditionally as Eugene does, he’s already proved it. His love for Ulla and dedication to the moonstone caused him to hurt the boy. There was no way Varian would forgive him, even if this all does work out.
He’d messed up big time, hadn’t he?
He had to talk to Ulla.
-
Sometime around midnight, Eugene awoke to someone at his cell door, jostling with the keys. He swung upright, ready to yell at Lance about waking him up, but faltered.
“Cassandra?” He asked, dumbfounded. Black hair bounced as its owner looked up.
“Yo,” She simply said as his jail swung open. “Let’s go.” She walked away, but Eugene didn’t follow at first, too shocked. Her annoyance was clear in her voice. “Hurry up, daddy-o, we don’t have all night.”
“First of all, never call me that again,” Eugene complained as he followed her. “Second, I thought you were being shipped to a convent?”
“Yea, that was a lie,” she said as they snuck past several guards. “My dad made it up so we could plan this without suspicion.”
“Plan what?”
She looked at him like he had grown an extra head. “Your escape, dumbass. Me, Lance, and the queen.” Eugene choked on that last name. The queen? Breaking the law? It was hard enough to accept Cassandra deliberately breaking the law, but her?
They snuck down large, moonlit hallways silently. Finally at Rapunzel’s doors, she and Arianna stood waiting for them.
“Eugene!” Rapunzel gasped, racing towards her boyfriend. He easily lifted her into his arms, spinning around in the embrace. For a moment, they just stood there, taking in each other’s scent after so long apart.
Arianna cleared her throat, and they separated. “The guards have been relieved. We have 10 minutes till the next shift comes in.” She said. Her eyes were glittering like diamonds, full of mischief and determination.
“Your majesty, I-I… what is going on?” Eugene gasped, struggling to find the words. “I mean, I can probably guess what’s going on, clearly you guys are breaking us out, but why?”
The queen’s eyes softened. She placed an arm on Eugene’s shoulder. “We spent too long trying to reason with my husband. He’s a man of the law, even if the law is unfair. For every minute we let him have his way… Varian has been gone.” She gripped his shoulder. “I know how painful that is, to know someone else has your baby, and you don’t know if they’re safe.” Her words shook so painfully Eugene wanted to hug her, but he wasn’t sure that was allowed. “Do what I was never able to do, but you did for me. Save your child. Bring him home.”
Eh, fuck it; Eugene wrapped the queen in a quick, grateful embrace. She returned it.
“We’re going out the same way me and Raps snuck out,” Cassandra said. “Lance and her majesty will keep the king and my dad occupied.”
“But there’s no telling for how long,” Rapunzel summarized. “So we have to hurry.” With that, they raced down the corridor, leaving Arianna alone.
“Hang on, Varian,” She whispered, glancing up at the moon. “Your parents are coming.”
-
Max rode straight into Old Corona, never stopping for a second. Each second they waited was another second Varian was in danger, or maybe worse.
“He’s gotta be ok, right?” Rapunzel rambled as they rode. “Quirin is there, and he’s a good guy! He wouldn’t let Ulla hurt him… right?”
“Didn’t he betray us and hand Varian back over to his mom?” Eugene replied, getting an elbow from Cassandra. “Look, I’m just saying. We gotta be ready for a fight.”
“He’s right, I doubt Ulla will give up so easily.” Cassandra said, brows furrowing. “Why exactly did they take Varian?”
“Varian is the moondrop, and apparently that makes him dangerous,” Eugene’s fists clenched at the thought. Sure he may have crazy rock powers, but dangerous? His boy? The kid befriended a raccoon and brought it to a fancy dinner party! He was just that, a kid!
Cassandra shook her head to indicate it wasn’t what she meant. “Right, I got that. But why does he even have those powers? Quirin said it was an accident.”
“It doesn’t matter,” Eugene butt in before Rapunzel could respond. “What matters is that Ulla hurt him for having the powers, and we need to stop her.”
“Right.” As the conversation ended, they entered Old Corona… or rather, tried to. Max couldn’t even enter the city, it was so covered in rocks.
“It’s worse than before,” Rapunzel hissed. “We’re going in on foot.” As they entered the village, her hair began to glow, reflecting off the rocks in tandem.
In his room, Varian shot upright. A warmth radiated in his chest, spreading throughout his body and filling him with a sense of peace. “Punzel?” He whispered. He could feel it, but he wasn’t sure how. Tiny feet padded out of his door and downstairs. She was headed towards the lab entrance, he could feel her movements! And if Rapunzel was here, so was Eugene! He excitedly raced into the lab, only to stop at the scene in front of him.
Quirin and Ulla, glaring one another down.
A flask in Ulla’s hands, a sword in Quirin’s.
The door to the lab burst open.
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A Double Life
Chapter 3
A self-indulgent Daniel Ricciardo fic.
Summary: Returning to old passions results in the start of chaos and living a double life. We say we hate chaos, but the thrill is unlike anything else.
Words: 1,575 (short im sorry - its a filler really)
Masterlist / Part 1/ Part 2
The reception to your hot lap was incredible. The reception to season one of your show was even wilder. You couldn’t quite believe that people actually wanted to watch you live your life. It was a weird life, you’d give them that, but you wanted to drive, and you also didn’t want to let your supervisors down, so this life was the one you would live. You were lucky enough, and you knew there was a lot of luck (and money) involved, to have the most supportive driving teams, drivers’ academy and university. If even one of them decided it wasn’t worth it, or that it was too much hassle, all of your dreams would come crashing down around you.
People pleasing was very much the name of the game.
Your following on social media also increased significantly – which you expected considering there’s more TV coverage for F2 than F3, but this seemed more than normal for an F2 driver. People wanting immediate update on what was going on in your life, wanting to follow on from what was seen on the show.
In an attempt to keep driving life from your uni life, you had been posting more and more on your ‘drivers instagram’ which you had started when you got the opportunity to go testing. What had started as a space for you to spam your ‘omg im back in a racing suit yay’ posts, soon became full of official team and racing pictures and slowly but surely has become your main professional ‘driver Rachel’ instagram. It also meant that you neglected your old account and so many of your friends didn’t technically follow you anymore. Not helpful in them knowing what you were up to.
You had rarely tweeted (you didn’t know what to tweet about and honestly it felt weird) but you had gained tens of thousands of followers almost overnight. Your friends thought it was hilarious. Lewis was right there to help you freak out about and learn to ignore the negativity such a platform brings in. A surprising amount of people had an issue with you coming back to racing and not having been driving for your entire life.
Life at home was as busy as normal, you were in the routine of 5am starts and 16hour days but you honestly couldn’t wait for the race weekends – the small respite that it allowed. For most drivers, race weekends meant early mornings and an intense schedule. For you it was relief. You considered the 7am wakeup calls a glorious lie-in, and if you were truly honest, you were almost bored in the evenings with nothing to do. Although you had taken to writing papers and collating notes in the emptier evenings.
You were growing into a real adult you thought. You might only be 22 but you could hold your own in a corporate setting. You’d done enough presentations to your research group, as well as at the occasional conference to deal with hard, complicated and irrelevant questions. A skill Lewis often claimed he wished he’d learned earlier in his career. The two of you were different than other drivers. He was the first black driver in formula one and you had hopes of being the first female driver in formula one for years. My god and if you could score points, you’d be the first women to do so in over 40 years. If you even made it into formula one.
You’d been approached by a couple of people about testing or going for ‘a chat’. Not all of them followed up with you, and you had a feeling it would be purely miraculous if you even got to test an F1 car. Maybe if you could jump up to third in the standings, you’d be within a shot. After all there had been three rookie drivers only a year ago.
You were currently sat in fourth place in the F2 standings. Frustrating with how close you had been to improving that score even further in a few races, but still incredibly strong for a rookie year. The rookie luck seemed to be following you everywhere, not that you minded. Some people claimed it was purely ‘beginners' luck’ and that you would crash and burn soon enough, others had a far more favourable explanation. You were lucky enough to have people supporting your racing and a fair few of them, who had seen your show, were adamant that your dedication to a strict and somewhat extreme lifestyle, was the reason for your success. You read these uplifting comments, shunning the trolls, saying that you committed to both a stressful academic course and a stressful motorsport career, you arguably worked harder than half the drivers on the grid. You agreed that you worked hard and were perpetually stressed about your to do list, but you could never say you worked harder than other drivers. You merely worked at different times, weirder times.
As the season progressed you reaped the rewards of your hard work, with the odd experience bringing you back to reality. A few race wins combined with a DNF brought you into 3rd place as the season end drew near.
You were feeling great, fighting fit and looking to finish the season on a high. Abu Dhabi was new tracks for you so you wanted to make your penultimate race in Sochi count as much as possible, not wanting the unfamiliarity of Abu Dhabi to throw you off. You’d sat with the team management and your engineers, done the math and you knew what you needed to do to maintain your third place standings. You calculated whether a second place finish was possible, which although unlikely, it was doable with some outstanding results.
By now your camera crew were your biggest cheerleaders trackside, beside your parents of course, perhaps a side effect of the amount of time spent together. Upon discovering a second place finish was technically possible, had lost the majority of their decorum and were hyping you up no end about it. Secretly you loved it, though it also added to the pressure you felt.
People often thought you were exaggerating how close you were to your team, but you honestly loved them all. You spent every day with them, from walking into university with them, to travelling to test days and Grand Prix's with them.
The off-weeks before the end of season, had been planned with an abundance of lab time and note taking, allowing for the final weeks of the season to be nearly fully focused on racing. Well as close as was possible for you to allow full focus on racing. As you were far too aware of now, plans are rarely stuck to, and you found yourself on a mid week road trip from university to Woking. You’d had a series of calls and were subsequently invited down for discussion surrounding a drivers spot with McLaren. Apparently Carlos’ contract was up and he had accepted an external offer.
Excitement would never be the right word, but it was as close as you could convey.
Lando Norris was everything you expected him to be and more. McLaren had the whole teammate situation under control and the ‘perks’ of working for them were more than your entire life had been previously working towards. Your manager okayed the contract and your formula 2 team were stoked to see you progress once more. Your presence in motorsport was sudden and it was making waves.
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The announcement of your confirmed contract with McLaren for the next season came as you were busy getting dolled up for the end of season gala. All the drivers, from both F1 and F2, would get together at the end of the season to go all out, have fun and hopefully repair a few friendships the competitiveness may have ruined within the season. It was also one of the first opportunities to get black out drunk for a while. So there was that too.
With both the F1 and F2 seasons ending at the same time, it was handy for you to say goodbye to your team mate for the year, as well as the rest of the drivers you’d been competing against. It wasn’t that you wouldn’t see them again, you just wouldn’t be seeing them so constantly next year. The gala also gave you the opportunity to spend some time with your new team mate, Lando Norris, and suss out some of the other drivers.
Lewis had obviously been teasing you about seeing Ricciardo again, having successfully avoided him since your hot lap. Though he did randomly follow you on instagram a couple weeks back. Weird. You weren’t sure what to make of him now. He had always come across well in the media, perfectly charming and unfairly attractive; a fact you didn’t dare say out loud. However, when you had met him that day, he’d seemed almost arrogant and well, you didn’t stay to find out what else.
You felt a little guilty. He had made assumptions about you based on his experiences at races, and you had in turn made assumptions about him. Should you have tried to get to know him better? He did compliment your drive in the end. Perhaps the gala was an opportunity to set things straight; he can see you as a driver and you can see what he is really like.
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