i'll be very busy with york next week, so i probably won't be able to come here often, but its cockles-anniversary next week and i miss them, so i went though the cockles masterlist and added a lot of posts to my queue. So have fun with all the cockles content next week :)
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I should've been sleeping before my flight but instead I drew Seb as Antinous :D
Reference + Commentary:
SEB IS MY MODERN DAY ANTINOUS, OKAY!? I WOULD DEIFY HIM IF I COULD!!!
But seriously I spent like an hour obsessing over statues of Antinous just thinking; "holy fuck, he reminds me so much of Seb???"
Big, pretty eyes? Check. Magnificent curls? Check. Beautiful side profile? Check. Etc etc.
I read this description of a statue and was instantly struck with "this is so Seb.":
"The body and face of this sculpture are in idealized youth, with plump cheeks and round face, and his hair is usually unkempt. Antinous's hair has also been described as artificial looking, even wig-like, because of how similar the placement of his hair is across statues. His youthful appearance, large eyes, pouting lips, and layered locks of hair over his forehead are some of the iconography that can be used to identify him"(x)
Also which AU of mine is this hmmm. It can be either the Renaissance Muse AU(x) or the random Roman Caesar Fernando AU(x) I drew it with the latter in mind(bcs its basis is literally just Hadrian and Antinous), but it's fun to imagine the Martian version as well!! Maybe an AU of an AU, where Mark is Pygmalion, and Seb is Galatea 🤭🤭
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Hey babes, sorry I've been dead, but I coulda been literally dead if I had not gone.
I didn't hurt myself and we're still figuring things out. I would love to share but I've already forgotten what I've learned. I hope I get more guidance and time for healing and learning on how to lead my life in a better direction than where I was. But that takes time and effort.
I hope to get some rest, get some support, and get it together. But right now, I don't think it's healthy for me to worry about art in the way I do now. I may not express it here, but trying to maintain my art endeavors/projects while there's so much bullshit going on backstage is not helping me. Especially since I'm not even obligated to do so. But trying to force myself to do something I am currently unable to do will just make me feel worse. I'll follow my dreams and passions one day, but I've been putting off the healing process for years.
So I guess it's better to get better now so I can get the ball rolling again. Why drive on a flat tire?
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waiting to post the next to be apart chapter because i need to review One paragraph and my only writing friend is asleep.
im still pretty busy but gotta make the most of cringe day Wednesday amiright
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2/10/23
goal: 1000 / total: 821 / extra burned: 100 / net: 720 / weight: 94.5
disappointed in this. wouldve been less but i kinda blanked while eating goldfish and forgot to count them out bc i was too busy sorting them. oops. well its not that bad. i didnt end up getting to do my usual stuff so the day was very hard. i had planned to wait to eat till later or not at all but around 8pm i started feeling very ill and shakey so i decided to eat. unfortunate but whatever.
mad at myself for being hungry this morning since i had over 800 yesterday. my body is so pathetic. i fed it so much yesterday but even still.
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woke up in a cold sweat and wrote 1k kazumaji in Okinawa last night. got possessed by the ghost of Majima's longing i guess. 4am me left it without a proper resolution and i cant decide if i wanna write an ending or leave it hanging for thematic purposes
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PSA
HELLO BESTIES QUICK ANNOUNCEMENT FOR THE CROWD
I am moving to a new tumblr account!! come follow me at @siliconforbrains if you want to see me scream on your dashboard once again.
I don’t have any big reason behind this move, I’ve just had this blog for almost 8 years now and after being away from it for the last few months, I realized I needed a change. Plus I was tired of my “main” being technically a side blog, and my following list was way too cluttered for me to even begin tidying it up (1.8k blogs,,, can you tell I never went on an unfollowing spree in the 7 years I had this blog lmao).
So yeah, I’m gonna keep this one up as some sort of archive. But if you liked my content before and you want to see more of it, come say hi at @siliconforbrains !!
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