obsessively detailed DNIs and lack of good faith reading of strangers' words and discussing the rights to exclude xyz for being too weird for your (public) space and this person reblogged a post from a person who follows a person who follows a person who's suspect and righteous anger over any and every misstep of performance and waiting to catch people out and complete lack of trust and...

are you guys... happy?

do you have people around you that form a community? people who aren't carbon copies of yourself or online yes men? do you know people who aren't your age/gender/race/ethnicity/body/brain/don't have the same financial background, educational story, etc?

not all of these all at once all at the same time, but do you go outside your head, is what I mean?

do you remember that other people are people? have you had the opportunity to train yourself to have grace for the fact that everyone has faults and blindspots and perspectives that come from a life led differently, and that to hear and take in those differences make you richer, more understanding, less shut off?

are you able to discuss things while understanding that there is a middle ground? do you think anger and despair are the only emotions worth accessing in order to be a "good" person?

do you have people around you that aren't like you?

are you happy?

i know sunny isnt canon to welcome home anymore but after looking at a bunch of clown’s older posts… something something sunny’s favourite neighbour was frank and that he was a whistleblower. something something we can reasonably assume eddie and frank’s relationship to each other is going to be important at some point, something something eddie’s job is to pass information (so he’s the only neighbor who could communicate with other people without being watched), something something frank with that red envelope, something about how eddie has something to hide. honestly im just adding fuel to what you’ve already speculated but y’know. just some thoughts.

i'm sure i'm preaching to the choir here, but while we're on this train of thought, it's probably worth mentioning that frank wasn't just sunny's favorite neighbor in beta!welcome home - he was sunny's love interest. while i agree we can't really rely on pre-2020 concepts for serious speculation, i do think it's interesting to look at from a thematic standpoint. i was going to make a joke about how frank's Type seems to have always been "man who knows more than he should,” but it's interesting to me that even in this primordial, (allegedly) 3edgy5me prototype, it seems that frank's connections to the truth of their world come not from alienation from his peers, but from a new form of connection with one of them.

also idk how to work this into the rest of the response but one of the original concepts for eddie was that he was gonna be the resident Huge Bug instead of howdy. no idea what that would've meant but hey isn't that fucked up

this may become a sort of rant but i realised after reading your post about qcellbit that I kinda wish purgatory wasn't canon to the events of the qsmp ... like I thought purgatory would be The Event that brings everyone's individual lore together by forcing them to work together to save the eggs while also making them confront each characters association with the federation... which is why its called purgatory.

but the purgatory we got was lowkey minecraft punishment for 2 weeks. It was fun to watch! I just wish none of it was canon/had anything to do with the disappearance of the eggs

who are the eye workers? hows this relevant to everything we previously knew about the island? i wanna know if the eggs are real and alive outside the island but instead we got egg attacks with these eye fuckers which was happening with the codes anyway. sooo many unanswered questions and purgatory brought even more confusion

you are preaching to the choir nonnie lmao i don't want to be overly negative on here so ive tried to keep my complaining to a minimum but narratively i hated purgatory and yes it felt like two weeks of pure punishment. there were little to no rp opportunities, the lack of player agency was exhausting, and it felt like they were playtesting an event on server members rather than creating an event that would work for lore and be a fun event itself. two weeks was far too long, what does this have to do with the regular island, why did it have to interrupt so many people's lore, why the actual hell did cucurucho save the eggs and not the players (this one ill give some grace to bc so many people were on break and frankly i just needed the eggs back period. but it is one of the most disappointing story choices for me). i liked people getting to play together in new ways, but i wish it hadn't been so long and had been a non-canonical event in the first place. similar to the eggs going missing, i think the rp that has come out of it has been brilliant, but i think it did not need to happen this way.

for a while now it feels like players are no longer the main characters and in an attempt to make overarching lore make more sense and be more cohesive, there's been too much focus on federation npcs and the eye and cucurevil-- there's too many parties at play, and none of them should be the actual focus of the story. this is livestreamed roleplay. the server members should be the main characters. it is less entertaining and less meaningful narratively otherwise. i wish players had more agency again and there were more small, character focused bits of lore going on that weren't so focused on making sure everything is interconnected. i DO have faith that this could be the case again, i there's just been a rough patch for a bit that hopefully gets better.

also listen i do not call myself a cellbit main for a reason i watch a lot of different people and i think that's a better way to go at this type of medium. however, i think im allowed to acknowledge that for my preferred POV, which is cellbit, this has been torture. ive been avoiding talking about it because it felt like idk selfish or whatever or like I'm whining on his behalf which i don't need to do, but i think it's fair to be upset by how much this has fucked his lore because as a viewer it's been disappointing as hell (and not just for him but for other RP & investigation focused people). they helped him plan out the whole murder spree arc that was going somewhere before purgatory and then interrupted it entirely, they took away his best friend who he, atp, spends most of his time either building or investigating with and doesn't really want to play without, they did not provide any clues for finding the eggs nor any kind of investigation (until the minimes which. i don't need to tell you how that went but i can assure you it was the most negative cellbit has ever been about the server and he was still very polite about it).

i know he talked about the server moving from investigation centered storytelling to more pvp/conflict-centered storytelling, but, frankly, i don't think that's working out, especially not for him. and considering the break he's been on in part due to fatigue from purgatory i think this whole period of time has just not worked for what he wants to do with his character. i have faith he'll make it work, and i think the admin team is really good at addressing players' needs (especially cellbit who will just tell them all the stuff he wants), so i have faith in them as well. it's just frustrating considering how much it has sucked to be a qcellbit viewer for the last. idk two months if im being generous four if im not. it's hard bc im not a person who deals in idealism so i don't want to be like "i wish it all had never happened from this exact point" and i do like some of things that have come from rp post-eggs disappearing and even during and post-purgatory. so idk where im going with this anymore anyway i think there are ways to go about fixing this and making the narrative less clunky and focused on players again and allow for individual lore again, i just wish that that had remained the case continuously. sorry for the rant ill try to tag this appropriately

You’re so right about the Fyodor thing. Like, I think he’s interesting in concept but in execution he feel SO flat for me. It felt like it was taking forever to build up to how cool and smart he is and then he died. I get that maybe he isn’t dead but it’s definitely not good writing to have an entire arc that supposedly masterminded by him and his organization and every character except for him (and dazai) is doing something more interesting.

I love some plots, characters, experiences, etc. I’ve had regarding BSD but in my opinion, Fyodor is an example of one of the things I hate most about any media: stories that show off how clever/smart they are. Not everything has to be some great masterminded spectacle. Like you said, the perfect crime arc was really entertaining and it was much more self-contained and well thought out. Idk if Asagiri is just concerned about being predictable (lol sorry girl but you’re not doing well) but at this point it’s kinda like I’ll take predictable, well-written, thoughtful, “cliche” stories over whack ass bullshit that’s hanging together by a thread.

I know I’m preaching to the choir here but it was nice to see someone else talk about how Fyodor just did not work for them.

THANK YOU FOR THIS ASK this is us rn

anyway yeah i feel like fyodor couldve been a really cool character, and for me he kinda was in the beginning i guess but then it fell so flat!! i much more adored characters that were introduced by him like mushitarou and nikolai and i dont know if that was what asagiri was going for?

and for the record i do not think he's dead. so little is known about him, his ability, his backstory and bsd always makes sure to reveal these before the /villain/ gets busted. i may be talking out of my ass here but yeah i dont think he died (if he did then im a clown haha).

HOWEVER neither of these possibilities are good.

if he did die then what was the build up for?

if he didnt then we are still stuck in the neverending dazai vs fyodor cycle which im quite frankly sick of.

Hhkdjfghkjhdg I've been making posts about how amatonormativity can particularly affect gay people for AGES... People act like I'm makin shit up because I'm aro but I'm saying it because y'all gotta watch out for yourselves!! I'm tired of sitting around watching my friends destroy themselves from the inside out because no one ever told them their worth as human beings isn't dependent on if they're dating! But ofc if I say it everyone just ignores it because clearly I'm just ~ace discourseing~™

yeah that seems so crazy that ppl would try to act like that’s not an important factor in society!! like how can the same people talk about dismantling the nuclear family and the importance of community living and then in turn say that society doesn’t have an unhealthy preoccupation with settling into couples. i get the argument that society isn’t pushing gay people into same sex relationships, but while that’s true, there’s also a lot of social pressure to be in relationships to like “prove it”. like as a gay girl that’s only ever really dated casually, i feel more pressure on me to try to get a girlfriend to like “prove” im a valid lesbian.  while my straight friends are able to not be in a relationship for a while without it being a Thing (obviously my straight male friends more so than my straight female, because like... misogyny, babes!). 

and like, there’s a part of me, and other people im sure, that’s like “well, chloe you WANT to be in a relationship eventually. you’re a non-aromantic person who is not interested in always staying single or in polyamory, so social pressure can’t really affect you here, and it cant affect the billions of other people with similar feelings” but i really don’t think that’s true. there’s a difference between someone wanting something, and an outside force manipulating it to be a major priority. i can’t necessarily say that’s the case with me, but it has been at times and it is for plenty of others. 

i’ve known many of people (myself included) who have forced themselves into relationship levels they weren’t comfortable with with that person because they felt they needed to meet some kind of timeframe on their relationships in life, and its bad! yes part of this is definitely informed by other negative forces like misogyny and homophobia (this concept actually really reminds me of the original essay on compulsory heterosexuality), but the idea that that would somehow make amatonormativity less of a  thing.... is wack. sometimes two phenomena reinforce each other! but that would require a degree of nuance tumblr

im sure im preaching to the choir here but re: gender reveal parties my take is honestly as hot as that frankly the "gender" of your baby shouldn't even be something you're excited to learn, like it literally should not be important to you at all unless youre like that first ever gender reveal family and its just a situation where you're mainly excited that your pregnancy has even come this far. like what on earth could possibly be the reasoning behind like Happy Crying about having a girl - as opposed to a boy - other than being excited about the gender roles you *get* to impose on it? you're just excited that you get to dress that baby up like a doll and that no one will judge you for it. and obviously to most ppl it isn't that deep but that's exactly the issue! like isn't it fucked up how normalized it is to needlessly, forcibly gender EVERYTHING about a kid's life? literally if you think about it for more than 5 seconds and you're not homophobic or transphobic, it all falls apart. like shit I don't expect ppl to stop gendering babies en masse but idk the least we could do is not necessarily act so excited about it

Jimmy & Janis

Jimmy: What it is, right, your twin left her coat at CG earlier & it's my neck if it's not back in her hands by me next shift Jimmy: pass it on Janis: Hmm Janis: Are you sure you've got the right person here? Jimmy: Grace Cavante is your sister isn't she? One of Janis: Unfortunately Janis: No doubt she'd rather you gave it to her yourself and that feeling is mutual, like Janis: Get a clue, lad Janis: couldn't be less obvious 'less she left her knickers Jimmy: Stop your chatting, a sec Jimmy: nowt's mutual that's why I'm asking you to get it, not her Jimmy: The resale's nowt either, I had a look Janis: You're in my inbox? Janis: Knew you were lost Janis: Poor Gracie, first you pie her then you call her cheap, gutted Jimmy: I've been round your family tree about 4 times Jimmy: Can't call myself lost Jimmy: You gonna grab this or nah? Janis: Unlucky, but I ain't gonna cry for you Janis: Wrong twin, again like Janis: What's in it for me? Already told me I can't flog it Jimmy: 💔 Jimmy: well I'd shout you a muffin but if you're anything like her, I'll be the one eating it when you don't & I'm watching my figure meself Jimmy: guess the pleasure of my company works if you are? Janis: Tell you ain't from 'round here Janis: No 🍀 Janis: Nothing like her Jimmy: sounds more like my luck's finally in Jimmy: got enough stalkers Jimmy: more than I've done shifts Jimmy: what you want then, other twin? Janis: Not that I doubt how special you are Janis: I completely do, by the way Janis: You get to thinking how you can make me having to fucking regale every detail of this frankly riveting convo to my sister worthwhile and I'll get to walking, yeah? Jimmy: You wound me, girl 💔💔💔💔 Jimmy: I sought you out, whereas she's been in my inbox unread since my moving in date, that'd do for starters Janis: If the situation's a dire as you reckon, you'll have plenty consolation, boy Janis: Welcome Janis: State, honestly Jimmy: You're my consolation if you do me this delivery Jimmy: feeding me to the wolves in lipstick if you don't, basically Jimmy: 'ave it on your conscience if you want, mate Janis: Fucking Hell, if I start atoning for all her cringe or offering myself up as 'consolation' to every lad she makes a tit out of herself in front of I'll never get anything done Janis: Ugh, alright, brains, do your job for you as well, shall I? Just put your mate's number on her to-go 'stead of yours, yeah? Jimmy: alright but how many of 'em are coming to you direct for help, I'm making myself look as much of a tit here, aren't I? Jimmy: brutal you Jimmy: newbies don't have mates to throw under buses Janis: Well, don't be fooled by how available I seem Janis: phone never stops, like Jimmy: I'll find another way then Jimmy: if you stop by for coffee I'll misspell your name like we never chatted, don't worry Janis: Barista bants, how cute Janis: Whatever, it's on my route, I can get it tomorrow AM Jimmy: what you prefer, Janet or Janice? Let me know Janis: 😑 Janis: If you want my sister to ride you, keep on taking the piss, she'll love that, like Jimmy: if you want me to be nice to you, keep using your sister for that A+ excuse Jimmy: 'cause nah, there's nowt more appealing than her getting on her bike Janis: Ha, fuck off, you're the one with a tips jar and manager to keep happy, dickhead Janis: I'm not saying she's not fussy, I'm just saying it might take me several cups of coffee to give you enough 3rd degree burns for her to be #overit Jimmy: funny Jimmy: & im just saying I'd rather give me ex a bell & have her do her worst ruining my life long distance Janis: Worth a shot then, isn't it? Janis: Just try and be less Janis: this Janis: she might reckon you're a changed man Jimmy: is it gonna change your sister's mind about me if I do? Jimmy: 'cause her mates have homewrecker written all over 'em Janis: It was a poor choice of friendship tat, yeah but they ain't the brightest, bless Janis: idk, probably help if the girl was real, mate Jimmy: she is real but shes also real far away Jimmy: & really hates me Jimmy: that's mutual unlike the attraction your little twin is harboring 💔 Janis: 💔 Janis: fuck someone here then, ain't gotta be all 💕 just look enough like it that they write you off their hit lists, yeah Jimmy: proper romantic you Jimmy: I'll go back to the drawing board if its all the same Jimmy: don't need another lass falling for me, do I? Janis: 🙄 Janis: If I had such an easy out, I'd use it Janis: fucking blood ties, such bullshit, along with romance but there we go Jimmy: Easy? yeah alright, Juliet Janis: Not saying you've gotta off yourself with the poor bitch, steady on, though peak 💘 so it is Janis: You're either a 😻 magnet or you ain't, can't have it both ways Jimmy: I just wanna be left alone Jimmy: shouldn't be a lot to ask but until I master leprechaun for fuck off, it apparently is Janis: Preaching to the choir...nah, fuck that, preaching to the big man himself Janis: You work it out, you've got my details now you fucking stalker so hmu then and not before k Jimmy: you know the saying, get stalked enough, become fucked off enough by it to become the stalker Jimmy: or summat Janis: Tragic Janis: No doubt you coulda been something, kid Jimmy: 💔 Jimmy: still could Jimmy: if you help me Janis: I don't know how to make a latte, soz Jimmy: not a requirement of dating me, and yeah, my boss is gutted Janis: you what? Jimmy: go out with me Jimmy: you said yourself it don't have to be a love story Janis: um yeah but you should both at least be somewhat into it, ideal world Janis: know you already called me out as the romantic here but Jimmy: nah, you're what I need Jimmy: I won't get tempted Jimmy: keep it easy, like you also said Janis: 🖕 Janis: Like I said, show me how it's worth my time and I will Jimmy: your sister would hate it Jimmy: not like I'm asking you to marry me, you look enough like her that'd be like asking myself to honeymoon in Vietnam Janis: You're a cunt, also, obviously not well-traveled Janis: say what you like Janis: it would be amusing to piss her off and I'm always up for finding new ways Jimmy: so you in? Jimmy: 3 date minimum Janis: You mean I actually have to spend time with you? Jimmy: as long as people think you are, do what you want Janis: Fill your boots Janis: but don't just be saying I let you finger me on your lunch break, like, that isn't working on anyone, least of all my sister and her stupid mates Jimmy: come get your sister's coat and we'll make the magic happen Jimmy: coupley pics and #s will work Jimmy: all they do is sip & scroll Janis: How magical can you really be, then? 😏 Janis: Fuck it, worth it just to piss her grafting you down the drain Jimmy: I'll fake rock your world, Jasmine Janis: Sure 👌 Make me forget my name half as many times as you have and you'll have fucked enough brain cells out to make me a thick Northern twat, clearly Jimmy: 💔 Jimmy: hope you're a better actress than you are sweet talker, love Janis: That ain't the one, fucking hell Janis: pick a better petname if we ain't taking time to remember Jimmy: let me know what you want me to call you Jimmy: Baby, right? I bet you're one of them girls Janis: 😒 Hilarious Janis: My daddy issues are pretty non-existent, soz to report Jimmy: what then? Jimmy: Can't call you Juliet if you aren't ride or die for me, darling Janis: I'm remember your unfortunate accent now Janis: it's probably best you don't speak Jimmy: strong, silent type Jimmy: Alright Jimmy: 👍 Janis: It's your fantasy, kid Janis: Big yourself up however you gotta Jimmy: fantasy? nah Jimmy: necessity Janis: You've not gotta warn me Janis: Not swooning over this chat Jimmy: 💔 Janis: We're all gutted Janis: push that down and smile for the 'gram Jimmy: 😁 Janis: That's the spirit Jimmy: I know yours is more 😏 Jimmy: control yourself if you can, Jenna Janis: Make no promises to control myself so Janis: 👊 behave or deal Jimmy: make one or its off Jimmy: your sister & his mates break enough of my boundaries Janis: If the problem is they're swinging for you, I'm gonna go right ahead and victim blame Jimmy: probably keep that off the 'gram, girl Janis: We laying down ground rules here and now, yeah? Jimmy: you got something else on? Janis: It's the Easter hols Janis: so no Janis: fuck all Jimmy: then may as well Janis: Alright Janis: No posting without getting the other's go ahead first Jimmy: done Jimmy: same goes for agreeing to go somewhere/do something as the power couple we're pretending to be Janis: 'Course Jimmy: & if you tell your sister summat let me know too 'cause she loves questioning me over her coffee Janis: Ha Janis: I do my level best to avoid her but easy Jimmy: you're not gonna brag about what a good boyfriend I am 💔 Janis: We'll have to work out how good you are first, like Jimmy: good enough that I'm off limits your sister & her mates Jimmy: no more no less Janis: Can do that Jimmy: don't fall in love with me for real, can you do that? Janis: 😏 Are you for real? Janis: Ego to go with the accent, is it Jimmy: just checking you're not like your sister for real Jimmy: could be protesting too much for all I know Janis: And this could just be a really bad come on for all I know Janis: we'll have to trust on this one thing, deal? Jimmy: Yeah Janis: Sorted Janis: Make me sound good, as I will be for you Jimmy: how good? Jimmy: nobody knows my dating history, what's yours? Janis: Likewise Janis: all you gotta do is make it realistic enough that people stop asking if I'm a dyke Jimmy: Easy Jimmy: Are you a take it slow girl or hook up on date 1 type? Janis: Won't be getting that graphic on the 'gram, leave it out Jimmy: But it won't stay on the 'gram, will it? Jimmy: People chat Jimmy: what reputation do you want? Janis: Probably better to not be a slag init Jimmy: but don't be keeping me waiting too long if you don't wanna sound gay Janis: alright, irresistable Janis: 2nd date, like Jimmy: 👍 Janis: I ain't, by the way Jimmy: Don't matter Janis: Does Janis: Who needs the pressure of being a beard? This ain't what this is, got it Jimmy: It'd be less pressure, probably Jimmy: you'd be better at faking it Janis: Sorry to disappoint you and all the girls 😒 Jimmy: if its the only time you're gonna, I'll cope Janis: Naturally Janis: Aim to please Jimmy: save it for the 'gram, Judith Janis: Reckon I'm being nice rn? Janis: Poor boy 💔 Jimmy: nice matters less than gay Jimmy: Don't wanna be your mate Janis: Good thing too, aiming to please here, keep up Janis: just saying, starting to doubt how 😍 they are now Jimmy: come see for yourself Jimmy: I'm working as we speak Janis: 😏 Wow so hot Jimmy: it could be if you're ready to kick this off Janis: Why not? Janis: Sooner we get it done sooner we'll see results Jimmy: in a bit then Janis: Laters, babes Jimmy: Cute Janis: That's why you're with me Jimmy: I'm not yet Janis: You're gonna be salty 'cos I won't ride you in your hipster hangout today? 😂 Jimmy: I'm getting paid to be here, you're the one hanging out Janis: I'm picking up the bitch's coat, piss off Jimmy: You could do that when we close Jimmy: You're coming to see me Janis: You do this much? Janis: Suspiciously good at it Jimmy: Which bit? Janis: The bit where you fake a relationship Janis: Good tactic to get bare girls, like or what Jimmy: You're my first 💕 Jimmy: don't let it go to your head, Josephine Janis: as much as that'd get 'em throwing out the #goals Janis: secret's safe with me, boy Jimmy: 👍 Jimmy: don't have to go to these lengths up north Jimmy: girls just get if you're interested or nah Janis: 💔 it's a shithole, mate Janis: didn't you get told before leaving t'mines Jimmy: must've had too much coal in my ears or summat Janis: Don't know what you got 'til it's gone Janis: interested and interesting bitches included, obvs Jimmy: not only a pretty face you Jimmy: got it going on in your head too Jimmy: lucky me Jimmy: 😍😍😍😍 Janis: Yeah yeah Janis: Better take back what you said 'bout the leprechauns now you're coming up 🍀&🌹 Jimmy: if you save the humble for the #s I'll think about it Janis: Never been accused of being humble Janis: I guess the gay or nay is more pressing Jimmy: never checked a mirror or nowt, neither? Janis: 'Course, gotta spot myself at the gym, ain't I Jimmy: you can agree you're pretty then Jimmy: not an ugly duckling story either Janis: What's it matter, like Jimmy: im not fake dating one of them girls Jimmy: hates herself but still takes selfies Janis: that's another rule? i'll be thinking on my next then Jimmy: Can't prop up your self esteem Janis: Don't worry 'bout me, fake worry or otherwise ain't necessary Jimmy: I won't Jimmy: all worried out Jimmy: fake & real Janis: 🎻 Jimmy: customer service deserves a pity orchestra Jimmy: alright for you, rich girl Janis: I'll hire one out for date three if you earn it Janis: so 💸 Jimmy: just gimme the money Jimmy: if this was a naff teen rom com, I'd charge per date Janis: If I was richer, older and lonelier, you mean Janis: and you were desperate enough to be a rent boy Janis: you'd actually have to put out though so let's not Jimmy: only if I wanted top money Jimmy: the in it for the chit chat option would be more than I make at CG Janis: Then I hope to fuck you're a better fuck than you are bringing it with the chat, darling, no one is paying for this Jimmy: I'm not trying to impress you Jimmy: pay me and I'll be charming Janis: I'm not trying to pay Janis: Not that hard up, but tah Jimmy: don't complain about what you get then Janis: You ain't telling me what I can and can't do, babe Jimmy: I'm telling you I'm not here to listen to you whinge, babe Jimmy: Get a real boyfriend for that Janis: Have you tried talking to any of my sister's mates Janis: I really think it'll solve this whole thing Jimmy: I talk to 'em every shift Janis: That's not real Janis: that's wage slave robotics Jimmy: neither is this Janis: Whatever, do this at them then Janis: However fit you are, it ain't worth all this Janis: though, probably had worse, hm Jimmy: 💔 Jimmy: bad boy baristas are this year's...whatever last year's fad was Jimmy: whatever I say that's brutal I'm playing hard to get Jimmy: 🎻 Janis: 🤢 Ick Janis: last year's fad was the clap so like, careful Jimmy: I repeat, you're what I need Jimmy: nothing else has worked Janis: 😍 Janis: I said yes, didn't I Janis: it'll be sorted Jimmy: are you on your way? Jimmy: 'cause it won't be 'til then Janis: Keen Janis: Yeah, though, gimme 10 Jimmy: try and look like someone capable of getting my attention Janis: I'm not giving myself a shit fringe for you Janis: get some taste Jimmy: you don't know my tastes, Joanne Janis: I can guess Janis: and be right Jimmy: go for it Jimmy: try Janis: any bitch described in any indie song ever Janis: not like other girls 'cept like all the other girls at the shitty pub/gig drinking pints 'cos you'll think it's dead cool, like her tongue piercing and real leather jacket Jimmy: thats racist Jimmy: just 'cause I know all the lyrics to Wonderwall Janis: 😂 Janis: like glass, boy Jimmy: I hope you're better at pretending to know what I like Janis: I know I ain't wrong but you can have the automatic upgrade for free Jimmy: Funny Janis: What, now I'm TOO confident? Jimmy: Nah, too obvious Janis: Err, me or your lack of taste? Jimmy: you Janis: How Janis: Fucking cheek Jimmy: You've pulled the first cliche you could out of your arse Jimmy: is how Janis: I'm sooooo sorry Janis: sure she seemed really special and unique at the time Jimmy: I'm sorry that you're just like your sister Janis: Now who's chatting out their arse Jimmy: still you Jimmy: she don't know me either but she reckons she knows my tastes too Janis: and you don't know me, you barely know the bits of her she wants you to, like Jimmy: I'm not trying to even fake know you Janis: Mutual, hence idc what you fuck Janis: and it was a joke, fucking hell boy Jimmy: funny you Jimmy: like I said Janis: So you keep saying Janis: go do some work, i'm just killing time on the bus Jimmy: I'm working harder than you Jimmy: this chat is a slog without all the coffee I'm slinging between the lines Janis: Do one then? Save it for the 'gram, rule no.1 Jimmy: 👋 Janis: 🖕 Jimmy: 💕 Janis: what do you do that isn't shit coffee there Jimmy: drinks or food? Janis: Drinks Jimmy: shitter tea, tasteless milkshakes & minging smoothies Janis: 🙄 Joy Janis: if you can make the smoothie at least healthy as well as minging, do that Jimmy: I can make it taste alright if you keep that off the 'gram Janis: That's big talk, babe Jimmy: secret menus aren't just for starbucks Jimmy: I'm here all day I have to make some shit edible for myself Janis: Fair Janis: I'm willing to be impressed by the smoothie skillz at least Jimmy: Challenge accepted Janis: I'll be brutally honest, idc if you are bae Jimmy: calling me bae is more brutal Jimmy: hate that Janis: 😂 awh bae Jimmy: leave off, Jill Janis: hot and cold, you Jimmy: 💔 Janis: tell me 'bout it Janis: planning our fake breakup already Jimmy: Are you? Janis: that's the fun bit, right? Jimmy: make me look better than my ex did and it'll be a start Janis: i'll break your heart Janis: that's the reputation i'll take Jimmy: 😂 Jimmy: steady Janis: 🤷 Janis: i want what i want boy Jimmy: you think you're having my heart? how many dates we going on? Janis: work fast Janis: faster than i'm letting you Jimmy: up yourself you Janis: rich 😏 Jimmy: yeah you are, don't rub it in, girl Janis: I ain't though Janis: like you said, her coat's shit Jimmy: means she's got shit taste not a lack of funds Janis: You can't be rich with 10 kids Janis: trust Jimmy: you could Jimmy: could be a princess for all I know Janis: 😂 what kind of deep cover is this Janis: living in this hole Janis: going to that school, sure Jimmy: #humble Janis: funny Janis: you wish Jimmy: Why? Jimmy: I don't care what you are, do I Janis: 💸 and clout would be an undeniable bonus, regardless Jimmy: I told you, I wanna be left alone, clout is the opposite of that Jimmy: & I don't need your money, girl Janis: Okay so you can't be bought, get you Jimmy: that's not what we're doing here Janis: I know Janis: Serious Janis: you're just easy to take the piss outta Jimmy: piss off Janis: I'll turn around now, like Jimmy: go on then Jimmy: I'm not having the threat of you walking hanging over me head Janis: So serious Janis: Not a princess with a driver, there's no changing the bus route on the rest of this lot now Janis: no matter how moody you get Jimmy: I've got a kid sister I ain't babysitting you too Jimmy: Be serious Janis: Yeah yeah Jimmy: Or call it off Janis: Nah Jimmy: It's not a yeah or nah question Jimmy: it's me saying don't half arse fake dating me Janis: I ain't going to Janis: like you said, this ain't real, and ain't how it's gonna be but can't prove that 'til I get there Jimmy: 👌 Janis: That ain't a response either Janis: I ain't the only one with something to prove Jimmy: Show your face & I will Janis: Try not to look too disappointed Janis: don't doubt some of your fangirls will be watching Jimmy: How many times do you want me to tell you you're pretty when nobody's listening? Janis: Shut up Janis: That ain't what I meant Jimmy: 🙄 Janis: See? Don't start Janis: 😍 only dickhead Jimmy: calm down, dickhead Jimmy: I've got this Janis: First time, you admitted as much Jimmy: Faking it, yeah Jimmy: I've done it for real, that's harder Janis: You reckon Jimmy: I don't care what you think so yeah Jimmy: As long as it looks good it don't matter if it is Janis: That's same as the real thing let's not lie Jimmy: Nah Janis: Agree to disagree, darling Jimmy: Disagree and tell you to shut your face, Jodie Janis: Save it for your ex, Romeo Janis: 💘 such a romantic Jimmy: If I was, she wouldn't be an ex, would she? Janis: Giving you benefit of doubt Janis: LDR never works, you're a 15 year old boy Janis: got like what, 13 more before you find the one, isn't it? Jimmy: what makes you think long distance is what ex-ed her? Jimmy: I never said that Janis: Guess not Jimmy: You don't have to fake knowledge about me Jimmy: nobody's asking who came before Janis: You don't know girls if you think that Janis: undoubtly scoping their profiles as we speak Jimmy: don't doubt they have but they won't find owt Janis: not gutted for 'em Jimmy: only yourself Jimmy: you'll have to keep faking knowing everything Janis: suits me fine, boy Janis: the truth don't interest me none Jimmy: spoken like a decent liar Janis: you know it Janis: truly your lucky day Jimmy: 😍 Janis: Ready? Jimmy: If you are Janis: Fuck it Janis: Why not Jimmy: see, romance ain't dead 💕 Jimmy: how could I refuse? Janis: in it for the smoothie Jimmy: 💔 Jimmy: got time to spit in it still Janis: Don't you dare Janis: Will actually fuck you up Jimmy: Get used to it, you're gonna have to kiss me Janis: Disgusting Jimmy: Sweet talking again Jimmy: Jeez, June, steady on Janis: You're the one bringing up necking when I've not even got in the door Jimmy: Are you ready or aren't you? Janis: 'Course I am Jimmy: then I can talk about it, can't I? Jimmy: it's too late for a no kissing rule Janis: If that's how you deal with bricking it Jimmy: piss off Janis: Too late now, babe Jimmy: it's not Janis: ? Jimmy: we don't have to do this if you're shitting yourself Janis: bitch, please Jimmy: I'm not gonna be your bitch, babe Janis: Not the pet name you want then? Jimmy: 🖕 Janis: Have plenty of time to think on it when you're swooning 😉 Jimmy: It's so funny that you believe you'll able to think on anything Janis: 😏 Mhmm Janis: catch me mentally writing my shopping list to pass the time during Jimmy: You aren't even a good liar in private Jimmy: We're doomed Janis: Shut up Janis: Not seen such a romance since Kate and Leo Jimmy: 🎻 doomed, mate Janis: you wanna go down with the ship so bad Janis: drama 👑 Jimmy: I want you to put your riches where your big mouth is Jimmy: Stop your chatting and come on Janis: Keen as Janis: I'm nearly there, stop pining, it's embarrassing Jimmy: You're such a dickhead Jimmy: Maybe I should just date your sister Janis: Go on Janis: I ain't gonna save you from the literal slag pile of exes, you ain't deserve it Jimmy: 💔 Jimmy: you don't deserve me Jimmy: well snide you Janis: You love it Jimmy: not having my 💘 Joan, I told you Janis: i don't want it Janis: just gonna 💔 it and bounce Jimmy: 😂 Janis: k i'm coming in guard your 💘 and 👀 'cos i look 🔥 Jimmy: I'll judge that Janis: you forgot what we're doing here or what Jimmy: If we're dating you gotta bring it as my girlfriend Jimmy: so nah Janis: 🙄 Janis: 'cos you look so fit in your stupid uniform 👌 Jimmy: We're meant to be improving your rep not trashing mine Jimmy: & yeah I do 👌 Janis: Really? Nothing to do with how scared you are of these crazy bitches k Jimmy: fed up ain't scared Janis: still Janis: you need me Janis: don't forget it, pal Jimmy: I won't if you don't, mate

85 Statements Tag Game
I was tagged by my mom @elegant-suffering and I’ll tag a few of ya at the end here 
THE LAST…
1. Drink: Sweet tea
2. Phone call: @mr-puppy-the-puppy
3. Text message: my friend about this extra ass assignment we have to finish 
4. song you listened to: Selling Out by the American Psycho cast
5. Time you cried: Last Sunday
6. Time you’ve dated someone: about two months ago now…🤔
7. Time you’ve kissed someone and regretted it: the guy I broke up with two months ago…
8. time you’ve been cheated on: kinda but kinda not (it was complicated)
9. Time you lost someone special: One if my childhood friends back in 2012
10. time you’ve been depressed: just got off my antidepressants 😊 11. time you’ve gotten drunk and thrown up: I’ve never had alcohol in my life
FAVORITE COLORS
12. Pink
13. red
14. Baby blue and black
IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU
15. Made new friends: yea some lit ass people
16. fallen out of love: with the world? Yes
17. laughed until you cried: YESSSSSS
18. found out someone was talking about you: HELL YEA I WAS MAD AS A MOFO
19. Met someone who changed you: oh most definitely but he doesn’t know 
20. found out who your friends are: Eh I guess you could say that
21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: don’t really use Facebook tbh…
GENERAL
22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: all of them
23. do you have any pets: 5 neon fish
24. do you wanna change your name: Maya is nice enough for now
25. what did you do for your last birthday? Had a lovely dinner where I dressed up to look bomb af
26. what time did you wake up: I’m still awake but I have class at 11:30 so…
27. what were you doing at midnight last night: playing free cell solitaire 
28. Name something you can’t wait for: graduating for high school
29. when was the last time you saw your mom: 2 hours ago
30. what are you listening to right now: the pitch blackness of 3 am
31. Have you ever talked to a person named tom: my grandfather’s name is tom
32. something that is getting on your nerves: the fact that I have to go back to WonderBead Central™ that is my school 😊😊😊😊😊
33. most visited website: Instagram, Tumblr, YouTube, and canvas 
34. hair color: dark brown 
35. do you have a crush on someone: oh boy do it!!!!!!!
36. Long or short hair: medium 
37. what do you like about yourself: My singing voice, acting, artistic, smart I guess, my empathic nature 
38. Piercings: double ear piercing 
39: blood type: idk mate
40: nickname: Mayita Mama Cita
41. relationship status: single but only would date one person atm
42. zodiac: Taurus af
43. pronouns-she/her/
44. favorite tV show: The Nanny, The Addams Family, RPDR, Dead Like Me, and Pushing Daisies
45. tattoos: not yet but I’m getting a giant rose on my upper thigh, the reference Philippians 4:6-7 on my arm and the names of my children on my ankles 
46. Right or left handed: right
47. surgery: none yet thankfully
48. Sport: swimming
49: Holiday: Halloween and Christmas equally 
50. pair of trainers: I have TONS of platform sneakers 51. eating: Italian, Mexican, anything with eggs, salads
52. drinking: tea, coffee, water
53: im about to: take my ass to bed
54: waiting for: my new eyeshadow palette to ship
55: want: Urban Decay naked heat, sanity, clarity, a life for the Lord, a nice family, and a job where I get to help people
56: Get married: yes YES A HUUUUUGE WEDDING IN A CATHEDRAL OR ON A TROPICAL ISLAND!!!!
57: career: journalist or child psychiatrist/author on psychology
58: hugs or kisses: both are nice 
59: lips or eyes: eyes
60: shorter or taller: taller 61: older or younger: younger
62. Nice arms or nice stomach: nice stomach definitely 
63. Hook up or relationship: relationships are waaaaay better 
64: troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant yet opinionated and loud at times 
65: kissed a stranger: no?
66: drank hard liquor: nope!
67: lost glasses or contacts: lol yesssss
68: turned someone down: once
69: sex on the first date: nah
70: broken someone’s heart: not yet and hopefully never
71: had your heart broken: oh GOD yes…
72: been arrested: no
73: cried when someone died: yes
74: fallen for a friend: 👏🏽PREACHING👏🏽TO👏🏽THE👏🏽MUTHA👏🏽FUCKIN👏🏽CHOIR👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽
DO YOU BELIEVE IN…
75: Yourself: yes but I have to remind myself to keep it up sometimes
76: miracles: they’ve happened to me 
77: love at first sight: sure I guess but never consciously
78: kiss on the first date: hell yea
79: angels: Yes
80: current best friend’s name: Taylor
81: eye color: dark brown
82: favorite movie: Addams Family Movies, Coming to America, Kids, The Shining, Rocky Horror Picture Show, Repo! The Genetic Opera, The Avengers, Dancer in the Dark, The Hobbit Trilogy, the Fall, a HELL of a lot more 
83: Favorite music genre: experimental, rock, trip hop, vaporwave, rap, r&b, anything 80s
84: favorite item of clothing: my PVC red mini skirt
85: favorite friends character: phoebe (but I fuckin hate that show)

I’m tagging @mr-puppy-the-puppy @mildred-hubble-bubble @rockyhorrorpictureshowstyle

important note abt art usage

ok so i've been meaning to say and type this out for a while (im probably preaching to the choir since if you're reading this you're probably a really nice person that credits art and stuff and none of the bad stuff might apply to you at all!!) i think everyone is at least mildly aware of the art community artists create art for themselves, other's appreciation, for fun whatever and that's great theres also a content creator side on youtube that goes along well with the art side, as art can be used for thumbnails however there's sometimes issues that pop up with art crediting and maybe some other issues in other parts of the community for content creators on yt and other places specifically:

1. please credit the artists for their works. like even if you use a tiny chunk of their art or something it's still their art that you're using like, mention their name and link their twitter, their tumblr, anything it's just courtesy!! 2. please at least ask them if it's ok to use it like i know it might be annoying to have to wait for a response but it definitely causes a lot less um bad blood i think? if you at least give them a heads up sometimes certain art pieces cannot be used freely because they're created for someone/something specific and the free usage stuff doesn't extend to random people's thumbnails and all sometimes this one doesnt apply as much because some artists are lax with their art being used for things but it's always to play it safe and ask them beforehand also regarding art in the community in general that i've seen:

1. reposting - ok this one has been a pretty big issue for a while and specifically on steam, but please ask an artist before reposting their art somewhere like maybe its ok if its on discord or something and you're like "wow check out this cool art i found by so and so" but on steam theres kind of a little tick mark you have to check to verify you created the art you're posting?? like uhh no you didn't make it some artists are mostly ok with it as long as you credit ask them beforehand if it's ok that's also just a courtesy thing 2. using as headers/profile pics/whatever - i doubt this one is as big of an issue because you aren't exactly claiming it or whatever and its overall pretty harmless like it's cool if you credit the artist on your profile (that'd be encouraged) but i'm mostly ok with my art being used for stuff like that 3. editing artwork - it really depends on how one edits the work i think like if you just edit it mildly to emphasize contrast or edit in some effects thats probably fine if you credit the artist if you edit a sfw art into nsfw tho that's kinda not really that ok but if you ask it should be fine? idk this one hasn't really been that big of an issue art theft

1. reposting without credit - unintentional or not and malicious or not, this is the point where it becomes theft. if you post on deviantart or on steam without credit, you are taking away attention from the artist. especially if the artist is someone like me who likes to leave their signature off their work (i dont mind my art being used as a profile pic and leaving my sig off makes it nicer for the harmless people who just use it for personal stuff, but some artists do not share this view) some signatures link back to an artist's website or social media but some do not and even if the signature is visible, it may or may not be impossible to find the original piece without some extra steps that most people won't bother taking. in the end reposting even WITH credit can hurt an artist 2. claiming art as your own/erasing signatures/using for personal financial gain - absolutely not and never ok some people argue that because an artist doesn't sign their art it deserves to be stolen or whatever but that's??? just no this not only hurts the artist but is actually pretty scummy to do in general just please never do this like why would you ever in general stuff to keep in mind

1. art requests - some artists take these and that's fine but if they're offering commissions (aka you pay the artist to draw something) they're probably not taking requests unless they're feeling up to it its kinda rude to message an artist for a request if you've never even interacted with them in your life ask them if they take commissions (please have money on hand and able to be used eg. paypal and inquire what payment options work for them because stuff like paysafecards might not work in the us etc.) before trying to request anything AND if they're taking you up on a request, please have patience and don't badger the artist for it since they're doing it at their time and their expense and it's not costing you a penny 2. art commissioning - please dont try to haggle with an artist's prices they have their rates and usually they're underpricing themselves haggling is very rude in general and double whammy if someone says stuff like "this should only take like an hour so i'll pay you insert minimum wage here" also please tell the artist if you dont want your commissioned work posted publically because that can clear up miscommunication and stuff also please pay for your commissions. please. they know if you're short a dollar or five if you don't pay the full thing immediately and promise to pay the remaining later if the artist has a policy where they ask for money after, please pay them for their work if you don't, you're basically scamming them. for most artists, they will be willing to make edits to the work if you're unhappy and some will make edits until the client is fully pleased with the piece and some will even redraw it, but to not pay them at all because you're unhappy with the piece is incredibly disrespectful and you're essentially scamming them 3. tracing work/redrawing - if it closely resembles their work uhhh sometimes it's ok if for practice but make sure to credit the work of the artist that you're looking off of - - - - the important tl;dr from all of this is that if you're ever in doubt PLEASE ASK THE ARTIST AND CREDIT THEM FOR THEIR WORK artists love people appreciating our art but there is a right and wrong way to do it! cheers!!

do u ever miss being a GA viewer. im a tad over being angry over everything and miss the gold old mindlelss enjoyment of my faves.

YOU ARE PREACHING TO THE CHOIR.

Let me say a few things though because this is something I’ve actually been thinking about for a while, (the difference between a GA viewer and fandom viewer).

I made this tumblr what, a year ago, I think? I was a GA viewer for a long while. I think I joined mid season five. And here’s something that Ive realized recently. Analyzing characters on here means OVER ANALYZING them as well. Here on tumblr we REALLY REALLY see the faults in characters. We critique down to the last morsel of sand. And because of this I really feel like we dehumanize characters. We get angry at them for not being perfect or hold them up to higher levels than we hold ourselves or others in the real world up to.

For instance a lot of people have (over) analyzed Killian’s recent actions to the point that they view them as these VILE reprehensible things that are unforgivable. And all the dude did was keep a secret out of fear and embarrassment of his past and handle it wrong. We (not all of us) act like we are incapable of of understanding what it’s like for a human to mess up and be afraid and have poor visceral reactions to things. Essentially nit picking and dwelling on something tends to turn it into something greater and more severe than it actually is.

Idk, I just miss being a part of an audience that view the characters on a very human and empathetic level. I know a lot of us still do that but a whole lot of us don’t. 

Not sure if this at all made sense, but I guess what I’m saying is, I FEEL YA MY DUDE.