Ok~ It's Confession time again~

If even ANY of these gorgeous men paid even a speck of attention to me - I would be an absolute MESS.

I would completely embarrass myself, or I'd run away or something and you wouldn't see me for DAYS.

Just DO NOT PERCEIVE ME PLEASE. />.<\

I'm ridiculous.

Also like; most of the time I feel like I'm pretty desperate to love, to touch, be loved and be touched up on, but sometimes even just the mere thought of it - of even being looked at, even being perceived is too much???

Like it's so overstimulating I actually want to run away and hide until they forget I even exist.

Does any of this make sense? 😩

Please tell I'm not alone in this weirdness that is currently me rn. />m<\???

Three questions Sephiroth asks Genesis every day?

"Why are you like this?"

"What the hell is wrong with you?"

"Will you marry me When will Lazard give me permission to throw you down seven flights of stairs?"

Feeling like I didn't prepare tomorrow's Therapy session well enough I'm scared I'm gonna get a bad grade at Therapy

sometimes i seriously wonder where to put all that love i have inside of me

me @ middle aged men on tumblr: baby?? baby girl??? hug? squeeze? steal gender??? me @ middle aged men irl: if you so much as breathe in my direction i will eviscerate you

I love cat!Harry hahahah. I know you said you're not sure if you'll be finishing the wip but I'm just so excited for it. Even for the little snippets you've shared. All the best wishes for you <3

Ahhhh, you have no idea how much this message meant to me this morning! My real life is going through a bit of a mess (plumbing, demoing, temporary displacement), so these well wishes are very much appreciated. 🥹

Here is another little snippet just for you:

He decided to go for the most straightforward method.

Ginny! I know this sounds crazy, but it’s me, Harry!

“Mwah! Maaorrao! Meeeow mew mrwar vrrrah!”

Ginny looked at him in alarm. She crouched down, her eyes intent. “What’s wrong?” 

Maybe if he tried harder with simpler words. Ginny! It’s me! Harry!

What came out was, “MRAH! MRAH AHH! AHH!”

She stared at him. His heart beat wildly in his chest, hoping by some miracle she would understand. 

She reached out, her hand rubbing his forehead and down his between his ears with a firm touch that sent pleasure tingling down his scalp. He blinked, overcome by the sensations. 

“What a needy kitty,” she murmured to herself.

Oh no, he was getting distracted again. It was hard to remained panicked when she was scratching just that right spot that he couldn’t seem to reach with his claws. Though maybe it was just as well… clearly, she wasn’t able to understand cat speech. Nor could he roll his tongue in many discernible way. 

Great.

not me about to scroll through 9k likes on twitter to find a very specific thread to help with my fic lmao

Me: I'm happy with my current legacy challenges. :)

Also me, frothing at the mouth: the joy of life challenge.... hhhhhhh

not me accidentally planning on starting my dbf!hotch series on tom's birthday bye

Not me reading a little vampire book for fun, but... Reading it in my head as though it was entirely narrated by Vincente Valtieri. 🫣 My brain. 🦇

I always knew about Lewy’s defects; about his conceit, his pride, his insecurities, his selfishness and his ambitious character. I tried to never idealize him although when you doesn’t know someone personally you always idealize him a little. I never had any faith in his good qualities but I had a lot in his defects. I always thought that his conceit would prevent him from exposing himself to ridicule, that his pride will prevent him from displaying ungratefulness and inelegance, that his thirst for love and attention would make him appreciate and value the devotion that the Bayern’s fan had for him, that his selfishness would make him want to stay in a club where everything is organized around him and that finally his ambition would guard him against any desire to go somewhere else. 

Also, for me, there always was a conflict in him between what I allegorically call his Bayern’s side and his Real’s side; a conflict between family, work, simplicity and glory... against exposure, marketing, ostentation and popularity... Lately I had the feeling that Bayern was winning the match and I don’t know if it was true or if it was just me imagining things because now it’s quite the reverse. Robert reminds of Mr. Crawford in Mansfield Park, he had a Fanny Price with Bayern and a Fanny Price who loves him. He has enough taste, intelligence and sensibility to admire her, understand her and love her but he is also unable to resist the temptation of leaving with a Maria Rushworth. Bayern, like Fanny could have offered long term happiness to Mr. Crawford, could have offered him something invaluable : eternity. He could have been deified; his name would have passed from generation to generation associated with respect, admiration and love; he would have been bathed in the eternal light of the glorious sun but he prefers the fake and brief lighting of the spotlights ! He needed to wait a few more years to obtain eternal glory but he doesn’t have the patience to wait. He wants immediate pleasure, immediate fame.

But despite all this, despite the fact that he disappointed me I still love him, i’m unable to held any true resentment against him, i’m not even sad anymore and I hate this. I want him to succeed wherever he goes, I can’t stand to see him sad or to hear people say that he never had any real talent and that all his achievements are just due to the fact that he was playing in a farmer league. But in an other hand I want his achievements to stay deeply connected with Bayern, I want him to understand that he couldn’t have been what he is without us and can’t be. I’m worried for him because no matter in which club he will go the fans will never sincerely love him, he will always be the enemy especially at Barcelona (he made them suffer so much), they will display exterior signs of affection but when he will retire they shall not cry or truly regret his departure, they will never keep any fond memories of him.

His departure from Bayern also alarm me because of someone else, and that someone is Thomas. During the last six years he has played for Robert, with Robert and because of Robert and I don’t how he is going to do without him. Lewy’s presence is what saved him in 2016/2017, what allowed him to reinvent his way of playing, is he able to change everything once again at this age? If Lewy had left in 2018 he could have done it but now, after all this years? On the pitch Robert is his landmark, his goal, his target, his everything... I’m so afraid that the end of Lewy at Bayern could also be the end of Thomas ! 

Is there something wrong with me that I can totally respect gender and sexuality experiences that I don't have or necessarily understand, but then somebody won't ship certain characters and it's like 'WHAT HOW CAN YOU NOT, HAVE YOU SEEN THEM, LOOK AT THEIR INTERACTIONS AND RELATIONSHIP-' and I have to remind myself that people have different perspectives and experiences, like how I can respect genders and sexualities, I can respect how they perceive fictional relationships. If I have to.

guillermo del toro’s pinocchio is a beautiful film but my god no one has adapted that story like neverafter. you can never look at it the same way again after listening to lou wilson, a black man, explaining that he chose to play as pinocchio because it’s a story about a little boy who isn’t allowed to make mistakes. that in pinocchio's story, he is fundamentally barred from childhood at once upon a time. he must earn something that everyone else is granted from birth. the other boys get to tell lies and play and get into trouble, but when pinocchio does the same thing there are grave and violent consequences. his pinocchio is trying to understand why the world is so unfair, why the rules are so different for him, why everyone else gets to be a real boy.

and I think about it every day.

Based off of this post

i saw some fanart of arien and tilion where arien was looking at tilion while tilion faced away and can i just say in the pettiest way possible that that annoyed me a lot bc textually arien does not care about him at all. the sun-lady just does what she does and moon-dude slips and slides around in much silliness. too much fan work making them equals when they're not

I really would like to be able to watch shameless without being triggered about almost every topic this show talks about