Hi, I hope this is all right asking like this. I found your blog and fics recently and they're amazing, I love them. I was wondering, do you have a meet cute for Ceberus and Kia, and if you don't is that something you would maybe consider writing some time? Thank you!

Hey, anon, and thank you back for the lovely compliment! ❤️ So...I do have a meet cute - well, a meet, anyway; you get to decide whether it's cute or not, I guess 😅 - but it's vanilla, I'm afraid. This is not the first time I've been asked about how they met, though, so I'm finally activating the "vanilla fic holding place" sideblog I've thought about activating for, uh...quite a while. Anyhow, if you've got any interest in that at all, I actually have a whole series of this stuff and if you still want to check it out you can find the fic of first time they meet here.

You know, I think I'm starting to understand why the sharing culture on this site is such dogshit now.

As I mentioned earlier in the week, I spent several solid hours going through my art and writing tags as far back as 2012 and manually deleting everything I found, including all of my own reblogs, because I don't expect my opt out from having my blogs' data scraped to be honoured, and seeing the difference in the way people interacted with my work back then and the way they interact with it now (or the way they don't interact with it at all, more specifically) was deeply and tragically enlightening.

tl;dr, despite having had a fraction of the followers back then that I have now, as well as being an objectively better artist and writer than I used to be 10+ years ago, my work travelled further and people engaged with it more, and they also sent me asks with drabble prompts and questions about my OCs all the time, whereas none of that happens at all anymore. This place was a lot more communal back in that pre-2016 era and generally a lot more rewarding and fun.

There's been plenty of posts going around over the last few years begging people to reblog because that's how this site works, but every one of those posts always winds up lousy with people saying they just click "Like" on things because they like them but not enough to put them on their own blog, or because they don't want to clutter their blog, or because tagging things is too much effort or whatever, and I'm noticing a pattern. There's something that all of these common responses have in common:

All of these people are wholly concerned with themselves and the way their blog looks, or what their blog is supposed to be for, or some other similarly entirely self-centred point of focus.

Listen. Other people have already tried to explain to you that that's not what this place is about or what this place is for or that you can make as many sideblogs as you want if you're trying to curate something specific, and they've had little success in emparting understanding to you, so I'm going to try a different approach.

Here are ten (10) benefits of reblogging that will make this site more fun and engaging for you, personally! ( b ._.)b

You get to keep the thing for yourself, but you also get to pass it along for other people to play with, too! Best of all worlds. How often do you get to keep a thing and share it?

Look in your Activity after you reblog something you enjoy to find other people who like the same things that you do! This is a terrific way to find new people to follow.

Sometimes you'll make a comment when you reblog something and later find that an awful lot of strangers are reblogging it from you directly for some reason. This is usually because someone else later down the line made a much stupider and worse comment and those strangers are now all clicking on your reblog so that they can reblog the post without that other person's stupider and worse comment on it. I like it a lot when this happens. You can get a lot of new followers this way, too!

Even if you don't have the time or spoons to play with jpegs like dolls yourself, your reblog can put the post in front of those folks who do. Playing with jpegs like dolls is half of what makes this site function; give it a bit of time, and the jpegs will cross your dash again with new additions. As it is with anything you love, set it free, and the love will come back to you one hundredfold. 💜

Look in your Activity after reblogging some art or writing to see people going nuts in the tags. You can also go nuts in the tags if you want; everyone loves seeing this when it happens, especially the artist or writer themselves.

Commenting with your reblog is like raising your hand to share your opinion with the whole room, whereas reblogging with your comment in the tags is more like whispering to the person next to you and keeping it between yourselves. Contrary to what you might have been told by others, both are perfectly fine and good and they each have their place. You can do both on the same reblog, even! Take part in the conversation!

If you're too shy to talk, reblogging without commentary is a lot like parallel play. You're all enjoying the same thing quietly together!

When you reblog things a lot, you'll start to see the same people popping up in your Activity feed all the time. These people are your friends whether you actually talk to them or not.

Stuck for something to say? Point out something you liked about the post! It can be something small! Acknowledging things that make you happy out loud is good for your mental health and also your soul.

Reblogging also invites other people who are doing all of these things to find and follow you!

There's so much to do on here beyond checking your dash and occasionally looking at the For You tab. You can discover all kinds of people and things by making a bit of an effort and having a poke around in your Activity feed and on the blogs of people who interact with the posts you're seeing and passing along! I promise you don't need an algorithm to do this for you; the action of exploring the landscape around you on this website is fun in its own right!

Get out there and see who your neighbours are. 💜

hello sir, i honestly found ur blog thru a really nice horny post (gotta draft insane tags because waow) and rushed to your blog to follow and maybe even put more of your posts on my sideblog

but your latest post, the longer one about how u feel not really cares for in your own space really stopped me in my tracks

like i know you said in your intro and even in ur post that you're still welcoming subs to leave messages in your asks and even dms, but idk, just having my first interaction with your blog be a full on kittyboy sub hornydump felt really shitty

I'm really sorry u experienced uncomfortable or weird or creepy subs on here, leaving shit you don't want to engage and not caring about doms and tops, nor aftercare for them, i wish u only had interactions from subs n bottoms properly respecting others, although it's not really something on me or u or anyone other than them ehhh

sorry about getting rambly, I'm just sorry u have to deal with that, i wish i could do something to make u feel better or just less shitty, u seem really cool, outside of the kink space too (from ur intro)

i know this ask is way too long and mostly not really in the proper tone for an anon ask on a kink horny blog on tumblr, i don't expect you to answer it or even read it fully tbh i guess i just wanted to let u know that even tho i just found your blog properly, and not thru random reblogs from other, even tho we never interacted, i appreciate you as a top and person outside of kink horny stuff too? and i think u deserve better than creepy guys not even caring about aftercare or basic respect

can't really send asks from my kink sideblog, so ig I'll just sign it woth good old anon emoji hihi

Holy 🪽 (he/him)

Thank you for that! I really appreciate it :]

Honestly that post wasn’t from a place of “you guys suck and should be ashamed” but truly from a place of hope that kink spaces and kink blogs can be comfortable for everyone! I’ve curated this space in a particular way, and I’m very lucky that I have the option to not respond to certain asks or delete dms or not interact with blogs that say off putting things.

It’s hard to exist in a kink space as a dom or a sub because sadly, as with anything in life, there will be people who don’t act with comportment and are unable or unwilling to follow the etiquette laid out.

I cherish and enjoy a solid 98% of interactions that I have with people on this blog! But I think it’s also important to be transparent about my experiences. I know that there are other doms and tops out there just like me who are harassed or who are put in positions that are uncomfortable. It is my hope that speaking about what it’s like to be on the other end of that will allow us all the understanding that while we operate in different roles- we still have the same flesh and blood and sinew coursing through us. The same feelings that can get hurt. The same hope that we are respected and enjoyed not for what we’re offering or for our bodies or roles but simply because people enjoy the content we make and may also enjoy who we are.

I’m not going into this with the unrealistic expectation that everyone that reblogs my post wants to know more about me as a person. Hell, I reblog a bunch of posts from blogs that I never see again!

I enjoy being a kink blog, I enjoy the content I make, I enjoy the people I talk to, I enjoy the asks, the dms, (I enjoy the attention a hell of a lot lmao!) And I also enjoy the rules and limits that I have placed. I enjoy my personal space. I enjoy feeling safe. These things can coexist and should coexist.

And y’know what. I’m not angry at the people who are weird. Maybe it was a horny brain-addled misjudgment!

But kink spaces should be safe for everyone, and the more I talk about proper etiquette with doms and tops- the more bottoms and subs that follow me are able to understand our perspective and see us as human beings :]

Thank you for your ask, I appreciate it! And I appreciate you!

hey sam! i was just ruminating that it's a fantastic time for authors to do dvd commentaries, and other 'ask the author' memes. it's additional material and feedback all in one package! (after we explain what a dvd extra is)

I suppose I'm of two minds about it. My immediate thought was that authors have always done Q&As, but it's true that they used to be less accessible both to readers and to the authors if they weren't big names, because they required travel (and in the reader's case, knowing the author would be traveling, plus having to go out to wherever they were doing the reading). Authors still do book tours and signings for that kind of purpose, but being able to do that kind of thing online as well now makes it easier and cheaper. Although I wonder whether there's less sense of connection because it's not face-to-face. But yeah, I would imagine it's pretty great for gauging what the overall readership is interested in. Certainly in dialogue with readers when I put my books up for review, I always learn a lot.

The idea of a DVD commentary is kind of interesting because I was like "How would that work with a book, though?" and I guess you could annotate an ebook -- like, offer a version with little widgets where if you clicked them you'd get the author adding notes about the book. I've never been a fan of actual DVD commentaries -- I don't like filmed interviews because they take so fucking long to actually say anything, and with a DVD commentary you've now got the addition of "talking over the story". But I could see how if you loved a book you might like having a version where you've got extra notes.

I struggle with the idea of "additional material" somewhat. I suppose that's ironic given how much I discuss outside-of-book on this blog, but that's just....I don't know, it's answering questions, it's not like "building the canon outside of the canon", and if I think something is good enough, it always goes into the books. The whole "They speak English with a Welsh accent" thing was amusing, but then I was like "Yeah let's actually put that in the text, why should it live on Tumblr alone?"

There's so much media now where it feels like if you aren't spending every waking moment interacting with every aspect of it, you just don't get to...be a fan, in an active sense. There are podcasts I follow where if you want to do anything other than listen to the episodes, even if you just want to attend a live show or buy merchandise, you have to dedicate significant time weekly to following them on all the social media and actively read their Patreon. And I just can't. I really like that creators can put that kind of thing out there, I think overall that's to the good, but it feels like something I'm blocked from participating in.

So, I keep all my shit here. I've had it suggested that I'd benefit as a writer from having a newsletter, which I actually agree with, and it seems like it could be entertaining to do. But I get caught up in this dichotomy of "Well, won't people be mad that they have to go subscribe to this thing instead of just reading my tumblr?" and/or "Won't subscribers be aware they can just find all this on my tumblr?" and I get real in my head about it. Because I'd struggle with having to go two separate places for stuff like that.

Uh, to circle back to your actual ask, however, because all that was just like...IDK, weird anxiety digression, I do think it's a great era for extra-canonical material, and while it does mean creators have to be much better at boundary-setting than they used to be, I like that they can adjust their level of interaction as they see fit.

Oh and uh. It's felt awkward to actually talk about it, but if you guys do want more material I do have a sideblog, @shivadh, which is where I stash everything I want to make note of for the books -- research, imagery, stuff I've talked about here that hasn't got a place to go in googledocs yet, that kind of thing. It's not extra material per se, it's just me shoving shit into a filing cabinet, and I don't do image IDs like I do here because it's more for me, plus I do delete posts once I've made use of them. But folks are welcome to follow if they want to.

My pinned I guess?

//Ongoing Arc: Beautifly and the Beast!

//Finished Arcs: Dragon Pains, Blood of Blackthorn.

Hi, before you say anything about my name. One) DragonsAreOverrated was taken, and two) I dislike dragon types for very personal reasons that are related to my damn genetics donor of a father, so before you go on and tell me 'Dragons are great actually because-!' I dont wanna fucking hear it.

Alright, now that thats out of the way.

My name is Ichika and my pronouns are she/her, call me anything other than that and I will find you and bite you, or my Crobat will, which ever one of us gets to you first.

I'm the champ of the Naljo, don't know what that region is? Its in between Johto and Kanto, but it's a shithole here so don't come.

... I mean, I cant stop you if you want to visit me, I dont mind visitors...

I'm 23 years old, birthday April 22 (Marianne made me put this here), and am dating my girlfriend who… I think is what you guys would call a faller? She's not from here, but she's still from a place that had pokemon. She's 23 and named Marianne, she was originally from Kalos, moved to Hoenn, beat the league, and then got sucked up into another dimension which is mine.

She sometimes will pop up and write in pink, all her stuff will be tagged with #Mon Amour, which is what I asked to to put it as. I don't know that much Kalosion. She also has her own intro post here.

My team is Kage my Tyranitar (She/Her), Doku my Crobat (He/Him), Yuki my Mamoswine (She/They), Zappu my Ampharos (He/It), Noyaki my Ninetails (She/Her) and Ame my Vaporeon (He/They).

If you wanna battle, schedule it with the league, Im busy trying to fix this stupid region.

Update: I have an assortment of dragons I am taking care of for the foreseeable future.

Any care tips would be appreciated-

I call the Noibat Midori (He/it), the others finally gave me names-

Monterio (He/him), Kin (She/her), Daitan (She/Him), Hoshi (They/It), and Nagisa (She/They)

//Ask games that are open!

//A important note for Pelipper Mail and Musharna Mail

//Naljo Dex Logs Masterlist!

//Ooc info under the cut!

//How she looks!

//This is a sideblog! Unreality. Mod is an adult and goes by she/her he/him pronouns All art I use is my own! I follow from @theshadowqueenofthedistortion, more info about me on my main! Here's some of my other accounts as well!

//Semi-Serious blog, I will participate in active silliness and also write serious stuff. Will sometimes touch on death, abuse and a few other things, I will tag the serious stuff with their appropriate tw/cw tags.

//No Shipping, a lot of the stuff in here is closed off.

//I am very open to crossover stuff!

//Pokemon in this universe have human levels of sentience, though multiverses that don't are well known and won't be questioned.

//Real life animals exist along side Pokemon in her universe, like divergent evolution (not the pokemon thing, the science thing)

//A warning that this character is rather antagonistic but not evil. If you are actually able to get her to like you she will chill out a bit, but you're gonna have to work to that. Also please tell me if she's being too much at all, this is my first time writing a fully bitchy character-

//Magic anons are on! But I am picky about what I let through.

//What the tags mean. //Shadow Mod Speaks: Mod speaking. //Mod Reference: Me and/or Zorana making references for this account //Shadow Art: Art by me that isn't a ref/finished. Stony Ground: Her post/response tag. Stone Edge: Her closed and/or serious RP. I will also use this tag when responding seriously to something. What's with the dragons?: When Ichika is mainly talking to herself. Prismatic Rival (Prism): Ichika talking about her Rival who is a jerk Broken Eggshells (Hatch): Hatchling Posts and Ichika talking about her!

//Marianne related tags will be in her intro post

\o/

hi! it's me, nana / koinotame!

if you're wondering why i went inactive and then deleted, my mental health kind of (really) tanked... and i ended up deleting my blog in a fit.

it's getting better bit by bit though! and i've been wanting to get back into writing (and talking abt my unhinged/yan ideas i can't really talk to anyone else abt), so. here i am! for now, at least

as for my previously posted writing, there's some good news and some bad news: the bad news is that everything i wrote directly into tumblr (99% of snippets, a lot of ask answers, most exact content warnings, etc) is gone. the slightly less bad news is that iirc there were very very few posts of mine that weren't reblogged by anyone at all, so they're probably still out there? feel free to send them my way if you find any and i'll rb them. @/midnight-remembrance also has reblogged a couple of them! there's a couple snippets i have saved in some places, so i might repost those on my own as i find them, but there's very few of those. the good news is that anything longer (proper writing — oneshots, hcs, yan alphabet responses and so on, prompt responses, etc) is safely backed up where i originally wrote it! some of it is also on my ao3, which is the same username. feel free to send me asks about any you'd like to see again and i'll repost them! i might not post them if i feel too embarrassed about/wish i hadn't posted them, and i might rewrite/heavily edit some of them, but i think there's only a handful that fall into the former category and none of them were particularly popular. either way, no harm in asking!

as for some other updates: i'm a little divided on whether i want to keep posting explicit nsfw or not so we'll see. i might just keep it out of main tags. idk yet. regardless of what decision i make, this blog is still strictly 18+ and that will not be changing. since we can reply from sideblogs now, this is a sideblog and not my main now. why? sometimes i prefer to check up on a blog frequently instead of following them for a couple of reasons, but this felt very awkward when they were following me. so this being a sideblog relieves a bit of that stress. if this makes it sound like i have severe brain worms, it's because i do. to that effect though, if we interact every so often feel free to consider us mutuals regardless of whether or not i'm actually following you =w=b tbh i.............. am not really into genshin anymore. i might post about it here and there but i just Do Not (really) Care about it anymore. scara aside to some degree i also have no clue what's going on post inazuma lol whatever projects or commitments to writing or etc i had made beforehand. i forgot all of them so just pretend that never happened ok? ok i'll also probably be posting more sparsely, but we'll see! and (this is obviously the most important bit) i have no clue where i put the mika edit so we're back to my og classic pfp. the header scales terribly and is temporary, please ignore that too

all that aside, as a treat for anyone who sees this in time,

*roughly 6/22 done, but fairly quick to write. roughly one paragraph per character (sneak peek line: "it's not too hard to be discreet with his unique magic when someone really deserves to fall face down a flight of stairs. or three. oopsie. odd they don't remember it, huh? well, he had nothing to do with that.") **more realistic isn't quite the right word(s)... probably won't post this one to the main tags regardless. won't be doing all of the characters (only important/relevant ones) and won't be writing more about/expanding on, so this one is just like. a one off experiment sort of thing. overall less violent than most takes on the au + leans a bit (or lot, depending on how you look at it) more on the religious aspect of self aware aus. i wrote a couple paragraphs a while ago, then rewrote them, but i'll only finish/post them if there's interest for it (sneak peek line: "aether has deluded himself and cast You aside entirely on his own—and when You finally grace them with Your real presence, zhongli is certain aether will be the first to fall from Your grace.")

i have one other new thing immediately ready for posting that'll get posted in a couple of days but that one's pretty silly

so hi! if ur seeing this that means my queue is actually officially empty and this is the last thing that's gonna post. i am ditching tumblr so fast because simply put i do not enjoy using it anymore and it actually like actively makes me mad being on here nowadays, and i decided i'd rather just like. use my time to do literally anything else lol

i know i have that other post up but i'm turning notifications off for tumblr bc i'm sick of getting daily (and multiple throughout the day as well) notifications of bots following me ^_^ so i will just put my discord here now since i won't actually see any messages: my venus wenus of course#6436 (i never updated my username and as of me writing this that still works so TEEHEE) feel free to add me on there :^)

as for other places i've ended up using twitter a bit more of all things? it will never be x to me sorry. still not on there a lot but i'm there more than i am here so lol i'm petalblast over there. i probably won't ever post art there tho so my instagram risa.onda would be a good place to keep up with that instead (of course it's entirely at the mercy of. me making art, i'm working on getting back into the groove)

THAT SAID...i thought abt it and my story/oc sideblog here (url of @petalblast as Well) i'll probably still use to post story/oc specific stuff for the sake of keeping it all in a place together but again, that's at the mercy of me making any of that. i'd prefer to be on here as little as possible at this point so whenever it does come up i'll most likely just drop a post and then dip out again. but i definitely do want to go back to working on that so who knows, maybe i'll hit a burst of inspiration and have a lot to post in the future

this blog will still be up of course but it just probably won't post anything from this point on. rip to a legend, absolute ride and i love u all hope to keep in touch, hopefully everything everywhere gets better at some point or at least stops absolutely barrelling down the hill at the speed of light bc i know i'm not the only one so so tired LOL. sorry this was so much more text than i expected to write anyway byeeeeeee <3

Couple of thoughts on the changing social media landscape etc...

This blog is, and always has been, a public/mostly professional space. The nature of Tumblr means I can have sideblogs for personal venting and off-topic posts, as many of them as I want, and this blog is fairly carefully curated to be a public-facing page. My mum looks at it sometimes, after all, so anything I post has to be something I'm willing for her to see.

(Note: I think sideblogs and stuff are very important. Everybody needs a space on the internet where they're not being observed by colleagues, supervisors, managers, readers, anyone to whom they owe professional responsibility. A place to be Weird and know that it's not going to impact on their job the next day. If you don't yet have those spaces and you're someone who uses the internet in a professional capacity, I recommend creating them; it's freeing. If you think you've found somebody else's sideblog and they haven't indicated that they want to share it with you, it's polite to pretend you don't know and let them have their Weird Place Space in peace.)

This is a LESS professional space than, say, my website, and I have different rules for myself than I did on other social media. My Twitter policy has long been not to swear on there, and to keep my account reasonably suitable to be read by teenage readers, current/future employers, and other authors alike. Here, I tend to keep my own swearing to a minimum but I'm more relaxed about sharing others' sweary content, and I'll reblog slightly more risqué things (usually relating to the vampire novel).

I've been happy with that balance. It's a place people can follow me as an author, as an academic, and as a person, and get a reasonable mix of my research, my thoughts, and updates on my books, without being unduly formal and without me ever feeling like I couldn't be myself here. And it's a place where I both create my own material and share that of others, tending towards sharing things that are educational or that relate to my own work, but also just vibing.

I've always known, though, that this was not a space for publicity per se. While I do share links to my books here and I know that a few people have bought TBA, I've never been under any illusions about the possibility of Tumblr as a place to advertise myself. Nor do I WANT to do that. Honestly, I've come to resent the pressure to use Twitter as a "brand", as a "promotion" opportunity, when for years it was just a place I hung out as a person. But I'd rather do that there than here, partly because it actually worked there.

If this truly is the decline of Twitter, I don't mind my online socialising becoming more Tumblr-focused. I'm sad about the loss, because I think I'll lose a lot of academic community and opportunities to learn that I previously found on Tumblr, and it's going to be a lot harder to connect with other authors, but it won't be impossible; I have both academic and author friends here. But what I DON'T want is for Tumblr to have to become my Professional Space to the detriment of the fun, low-key vibe I've had going here for the last 11 years.

I'm worried that, if all of my professional contacts migrate here, I will have to start putting a mask on here as well, and I'll feel more pressure to self promote. It'll start to feel like the chore that other social media has become ever since I got published and have had to start using the internet As An Author and not just as a person who also writes books. I am very happy for more people to join this site, but I don't want the side effect of that to be that suddenly all my colleagues are here and I'm in Work Mode all the time.

One of the things I've found hardest about the internet in recent years is the switch from what it was in my teens (place to be weird and unique and unselfconscious) to what it is now (place where I'm expected to be professional and might be observed by my boss, academic colleagues, publisher, readers etc at any time). And Tumblr was for a long time the last bastion against that, even if my mum looks at it. I'll be sad if that goes, because all the sideblogs in the world won't help if actually being here starts to feel like something I do for work.

Crucially, I think the problem is that for career reasons, I need something that does for me what Twitter was doing, but also I was not enjoying that aspect of Twitter and it was not feeling like a fun place to do that, so what I REALLY need is for my career not to rely on me managing to virtually hand-sell my book to people on the internet while I'm just trying to live my life...

Anyway. Just something I'm thinking about as I face down the possibility of this being the main place where I as an author can communicate with potential readers. I don't really want it to be... that, but it might have to be that, and I'm going to be thinking hard about how I navigate that.

𝙲𝙰𝚁𝚁𝙳 ⋙ 𝙰𝚁𝙲 ( 𝚂𝚄𝙱 𝙰𝚁𝙲 ) ⋙ 𝙽𝙿𝙲 𝙻𝙸𝚂𝚃 ⋙ 𝙲𝙷𝙰𝚁𝙰𝙲𝚃𝙴𝚁 ⋙ 𝙹𝙾𝙺𝙴𝚁

☠ 𝙰𝚄𝚃𝙷𝙾𝚁𝙸𝚉𝙴𝙳 𝙿𝙴𝚁𝚂𝙾𝙽𝙽𝙴𝙻 𝙾𝙽𝙻𝚈 ☠

In the name of love

#𝙱𝙰𝙽𝚂𝙲𝙷𝙸𝚅𝚂 ⋙ independent   𝙽𝙸𝚇 𝙳𝙴𝙶𝚁𝙰𝚅𝙴𝚂  of 2019′s guns akimbo.  post-canon,  and developed far beyond it now.  affiliated with 2019′s JOKER and 2022′s the batman.  other half of @jokethur. violence and substance abuse present front and centre,  not tagged.  written by abigail,  twenty-one plus.

KILLER QUEEN

𝙿𝙾𝚁𝚃𝚁𝙰𝚈𝙰𝙻: tied heavily to 2019′s Joker and, as of 2022, The Batman. Shrapnel City is Gotham, Gotham is Shrapnel City. Meaning that all the context of Joker and The Batman have taken place within Nix’s understanding and canon. Nix's own canon from Guns Akimbo is now in the past, and further details regarding her and where she's been can be found on her carrd/in-universe fansite as well as dataclaw, the in-universe Court of Owls database.

Given that she is such a niche character, you're always more than welcome to hit me with any questions in regards to plotting and/or tossing out something random. I'm aware that most people haven't seen the film, and that's totally fine!

𝚂𝙴𝚃𝚃𝙸𝙽𝙶 & 𝚂𝙷𝙸𝙿𝙿𝙸𝙽𝙶: single ship, single story-driven. exclusive to @jokethur's Arthur Fleck, who Nix is married to. They have three children together who are likely to be featured. Romance and nsfw are present with Arthur on main — as an adult writing an adult, the whole nsfw sideblog trend is just weird to me. It is all tagged, and you're welcome to block that tag.

@jokethur and I have operated as one giant blog for many years and are a real-life couple ourselves. Everything between us is shared, one's interactions are canon to the other, everything we do is interconnected.

I am happy to write with other versions of Joker even if plotting would need be involved, but no more Arthur Fleck's, please and thank-you.

𝙳𝙽𝙸: I won't be following any characters related to the 2024 Joker musical, nor will I follow any blogs using Gaga as an fc or who are in support of said musical. I will not budge on this, and will block.

I will softblock any Joker-specific personal fan blogs as soon as I see them in my follows, especially any self-shippers as I've had terrible experiences in the past with these types of blogs. In addition please don't breathe near me if you rp or rp any MCU Wanda Maximoffs, or any other whitewashed roles — following from that I have a zero-strike policy on seeing the word g*psy. I'm Romanichal myself; i see it used, you're gone. It's not my job to educate you.

𝙸𝙼𝙿𝙾𝚁𝚃𝙰𝙽𝚃: 𝙿𝙻𝙴𝙰𝚂𝙴 𝚄𝚂𝙴 𝙳𝙸𝚂𝙲𝚁𝙴𝚃𝙸𝙾𝙽

If you follow me, you need to be aware Nix is a killer, en masse. She is criminally insane, lacks empathy, and is ultimately selfish in her end-goal. She is a drug addict, and an addict in general. All things problematic, before even going into her own origins or exactly what made her. Bear the above in mind when following. She's also just really weird and often crude. If this isn't your scene, you don't need to stick around. Respect all this this when we are roleplaying, I don't want to be measuring dicks with you.

I suffer from Irlens Syndrome which can decidedly effect both my reading comprehension and general cognitive functionality on a daily basis. As said above, i’m not fast, and I'm tired a lot, and can go a while without doing much of anything. In extension to this i do ask that you don't put any screenshotted or photoshop-style image replies on my dash. I cannot process them and it causes me a lot of problems. If this isn't something you can adhere to, then this might not be the blog for you. See this post for a more extensive explanation, this is very important for me to be able to use my dashboard.

I dare you to try

I was gonna put these tags in tumblr's feedback form but like. if I was someone reading feedback, I'd honestly rather read something that's actionable (because sentiment is easy to understand but hard to make solutions for) so I'm just gonna draft here some suggestions before sending, because apparently, I have opinions. anyway this'll just be one of many, I'm sure staff will see a lot of suggestions in their time, so I'm not really expecting anything to come out of this. but uh, my two cents:

okay, first of all, what is tumblr? (I promise I'm going somewhere with this, it informs the actionable points later). I think it's obvious now that the tumblr userbase wants tumblr to stay true to what makes tumblr unique instead of copying what other social media sites are doing. but what is it that makes tumblr unique? why did people come here, and why have users stayed on this platform? a lot of us have been here for more than a decade now despite this site "slowly dying" and just hanging on by a miracle.

for me, what I like is how different tumblr culture is. tags function as community hubs, as ways to archive and organize individual blogs, and as quiet commentary. blogs are not treated like social media "user accounts" tied to an identity and one way of socializing. they are pseudonymous and flexible enough to function as a portfolio, a diary, an account to interact with other accounts, a collection of essays, anything really! it's a blog! you can do whatever you want! as much as we engage with other users, blogs are also a personal space just for you. this is your own little place on the internet, your own bulletin board. it can be anything you want it to be. and like, the pseudonymity thing (and not making follower count public) is important, I think, because it informs how users interact. nobody here gets influencer points. just do you. it's freeing in a way other sites aren't.

also, you can queue posts. how neat is that? I think it's cool because posts have longevity in this site, which also builds into site culture. this is why we have homegrown memes and inside jokes. posts don't disappear after 24 hours. you can reblog 10 year old posts if you think the art is really cool or the joke is really funny or the post is still relatable, and no one will find that weird.

and that's the thing, isn't it? tumblr is a microblogging site before it is a "social media" site. customizability is built into the platform. don't want an algorithm? you can opt-out on so many ways your dashboard can show posts. you can customize your blog theme and create your own tags to organize posts. you can change your dashboard colors. posts don't have a character limit and they give you so many tools for formatting. you can make sideblogs!! double, triple the blogs!! maybe you have a public fandom blog, an aesthetic blog, and a personal diary that you keep private. so many tools to make your experience flexible.

okay, so what are actionable things we can do to double down on what makes tumblr special? mind you, these are all just suggestions and like, I didn't really think of how easy or fast they will be to implement nor how much money this will rake in. but like. also, even if these suggestions are stupid hard to do, I believe that just showing the general direction of changes to do and prioritize should be reflected on showing off what makes tumblr different. and I hope to illustrate that here.

so, sticking on that theme of blogging and customizability:

we have a blog system. cool! you know what blogs have? about pages. tag pages. we used to make custom pages for this, now newer users just link their carrd. yeah, that's easier, but what if all tumblr blogs just had a default about page and tag page? like, you know what frustrates me about the mobile view for blogs? I have to manually link about and tag pages there (or carrd links, but I don't have a carrd). why can't it be a default thing? make all blogs have an about page and a tags page. users can turn it off if they don't want it. users can customize the pages further if they want to make it fancy. the tags page can list your top 10 tags or whatever as a start. we already show popular tags in a blog's search bar, so just take that to the next level. and this has the added benefit of reminding people that, hey, you have a blog and this is your playground for self expression. playgrounds are fun when there are toys! give users toys for their blogs, tumblr!

a functioning blog navigation system. what do all blogs have? well they have submissions and asks, and users will usually have some custom tags for them. blogs have a whole archive system that's underutilized and rather hidden. why not create a system that makes it easier to find all of these when scrolling through a blog? let users set their custom tag for asks and make that visible in the blog navigation menu, or just make them more accessible and easier to find. I don't want to go to the web version and type /archive in the url anymore. also, users can decide which ones to enable/disable in the nav system (maybe users don't want submissions or archives there, that's cool too).

users can see the top posts for a blog. cool! how about we make a customizable version of that? like, we can still keep the tumblr-generated top posts, but what if we let blogs have a user-generated highlights page as well? keep the highlights page limited to a couple of posts, maybe 10. artists can put their favorite art there. writers with their fics. fandom blogs with their meta essays and funny posts. aesthetic blogs with gifs and moodboards they're proud of. random posts about their day that they want people to know. maybe a blog has a combination of all of them to show the variety in their blog. give users a way to show what's generally on their blog in a flash. like top posts, but users decide which ones are the top one. like pinned posts, but longer.

we have a badge system. cool! how about we let users create their own custom badges? and let them share those badges with others? heck we can even make it a paid feature. I buy a badge from the marketplace, tumblr gets a small cut for distributing, but the creator gets most of the payment (this is important! pay your artists!). I mean, this is already a thing with blog themes (though idk, do people actually pay for themes these days?)

this one is just a personal thing, but aside from badges, can we get little hats for our icon/pfp/avatar/whatever people call it these days? like the top hat from that one april fools'. just a lil hat on the dashboard, I think that would be cute. :)

create an onboarding experience for new users. show users a guided tutorial on what settings they can opt in or out of, what they can customize on their blog, how to follow tags, and so on. maybe we don't need to appeal to how users from other sites use those sites. we want them to see what makes tumblr unique and how to actually see it. and I know what you're going to say. "oh, but the friction, protect-namine. the onboarding experience means it takes longer for users to start using the site". one: make it optional then. two: honestly, we probably should have more friction because we have a spambot problem. one of the best deterrents for spam is making it harder for them to start using the site.

tumblr is a playground and playgrounds need toys that are fun. tumblr live/tv? hate it. polls? love it, it builds community and everyone likes clicking buttons. layout change? don't like it, it makes tumblr look like other sites and it looks cluttered and takes attention away from the dashboard. ability to set popular tags in a blog search bar? love that, it makes my blog mine, now can we just extend this concept to every other change we can do for the site?

I am suggesting these things with love. maybe some of these suggestions are too hard or we don't have resources for them, maybe some of them are already in progress. I have no fucking idea. but I just think tumblr already has something going on for itself, and I would really like for that thing to keep going and be prioritized instead of seeing this site be cannibalized into something it isn't (a twitter clone).

Things Ephemeral

Not entirely She-Ra here... A grim and serious post about online estate-management. Relation to this blog, though.

If you've been following my blog lately, you know what's going on in my life that's not directly She-Ra because I've chosen to put a little personal stuff here. If you're new to it or haven't been following lately... my 39 year old beloved fellow-geek nephew fucking died almost a month ago unexpectedly. So, today, over on Facebook / a game adjacent to Facebook, I was wondering if there was a way to get into my nephew's account or to inform someone to close it. We both played a game called "Mousehunt," which is just a little "set-it-and-leave-it" game about catching weird mice in a fantasy kingdom. Both my partner and I openly wondered what would happen with his account on a phone-game he played, some kind of Marvel War game that he played at set times on certain days with a crew from around the world (he tended to play late at night). His other uncle took charge of his cell phone and doesn't know anything of his game accounts (neither do we) - so there's the Marvel game where there are people we didn't know and have no way of informing who are probably wondering "What happened to our General?" Then there's Pokemon Go that's just Pokemon Go-ing.

It makes me wonder about the digital ghosts we leave in the modern age.

It's the kind of thing that would happen to me here if I suffered death, or a dire accident / injury or a financial problem that would knock me offline indefinitely, and I suspect the same with a lot of tumblerinas... there's be just a vanishing. In fact there are a few people I follow here who seem to have up and disappeared and I don't know what happened to them. Could be anything ranging from tragedy to "person just got bored, left their blog for another blog or left tumblr in favor of some other social media" or "too busy for social media because they have a life." Such is the ambiguity of the Internet. I have informed my partner of my tumblr blogs, but he doesn't like tumblr, doesn't use tumblr and would not know how to navigate this "it takes getting used to" posting system, especially for sideblogs. It took me asking people how to do things to figure out how to work sideblogs. I suspect that if I ever vanish for a long, long time and people have no idea what happened to me, that it's probably something bad. It makes me wonder if I should give my Facebook to a trusted friend / mutual on here to "go check the Facebook if I'm gone for more than a month." And here is where I am not sure if even that is reliable. Once upon a time - a few in this fandom probably know, although I suspect it is largely forgotten, save by me because I own the trauma, I fought with some people and got really manic and suicidal. This is actually why I get more spooked when someone I know or know of deletes a blog and pulls up stakes on their fandom stuff. This happened recently with someone I did not get along with, saw from the sidelines and was very concerned. They might be my enemy, but they used to be my friend, or someone that at least tried to be such once upon a time. I heard from someone who knows us both that they were alive. I was relieved. In any case, I was thinking of just pulling up stakes on all my work in this specific fandom at the time I was really bad, my fics at Ao3 and everything - and was convinced to leave them up, but did delete my old blog. I had shown someone whom I thought I could trust my Facebook in a private discord-Discussion, but I don't think she ever checked it because she basically sided with the person who was claiming that my problems were fake in a callout-post. Maybe she was shielding herself, was at a place where she wanted to believe the worst of me rather than potential tragedy, I do not know. I don't think this once "trusted friend" even looked to see what my relations were saying on my Facebook to know ANYTHING. I don't want to show off my hospital records to prove what I've been through, but, you know, the whole thing showed me I can't always trust people who are "fandom-friends." (In fact, I don't think ANYONE cared when I was gone for a month. People seemed disappointed when I came back / showed I was still alive). Yes, I am still bitter about it. I know I screwed up things for myself, but trust was broken both ways between me and a lot of people. My nephew... we didn't know his Facebook password, but if you go to his Facebook, you know he's gone because of all the memorial posts his friends and family have been leaving. There's an entire bereft anime-club and we still tag him with things he would have liked sometimes, with melancholic messages. And, yeah, if something happened to me, Facebook would be the best bet for knowing these things - but I obviously do not want to give out my real name to anyone I don't trust. And here? Tumblr in general and this fandom that I am most active in specifically? Do I bother to trust anyone? I am... not suicidal right now. In fact, I'm realizing how much of a hole a random death leaves in people's lives and don't want to do that to the few people in this world still around who know and love the real me. But, you know, I don't put it past my body to do a grief-stress heart attack or something dumb like that. Or a medication-interaction. (We still don't know what exactly happened to my nephew, his known health problems aside).

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Hearts for my thoughts. | Accepting | @hybridgear

You're asking me to give my thoughts about my blog? I'm putting this under a read more because I've got a bit to say. More about myself than my blog, though it does tie into it and my writing.

The rules, all the about pages, and the verses page could've looked way better than they do, but I don't know enough about Google Docs to actually fix things the way I want them. I only started using Docs four years ago, and it was mostly as basic backups for my characters' about pages in case anything happened to a blog or for the purpose of Discord RP servers.

I'm not great at messaging others either. Not because I'm shy, but more often than not because I don't want to bug. Like, over half the people on my Discord list have left their profiles on Do Not Disturb or appear offline damn near 24/7, and the messaging here is a broken, buggy mess and I don't want to unintentionally spam someone because I have no idea if a message went through or not. People are always like "no it's fine, come talk to me whenever", but I'm not going to gamble and take the chance of accidentally pissing someone off. Happened enough over the years.

Then there's my reply times. I can be slow as molasses, and I know it. Everyone knows that whole spiel about roleplaying here is a hobby, real life comes before here, yadda yadda. The issue there is I'm a space cadet with bad ADHD and an ever-shifting sleep schedule. I could be awake or asleep at any time of day depending on the circumstances around the house. I could be halfway through writing a massive draft when something as simple as a single song can derail my entire train of thought. And this isn't including all the spontaneous parts of life causing distractions either. That's why I could be here finishing dozens of drafts in one afternoon or radio silent for almost a week with maybe one post. Not much of a surprise that I constantly apologize for how late they can be.

Muses are another big problem of mine. They're all over the place, with inspiration coming and going like ocean tides. Doesn't help that music or playing a new game or damn near anything can spontaneously send me down the idea phase of creating a new one. Back when I was in the RWBY fandom, I had eight sideblogs because my mind was dedicated to thinking outside the box from the run-of-the-mill OCs everyone used. Hell, it's still a bit of an issue. Just this month, my mind's thought about adding my FF14 character to the roster despite knowing little about the lore, as well as running a trial with my revamped take on Algol from Soul Calibur 4, putting Tino back into his RWBY verse as an AU even though it'll go unused, an old OC who was based on or even secretly Dionysus, and my take on the MC of a nigh-dead MMOJRPG called Onigiri. Not gonna happen though. Last thing I want is to flood this blog with six shallow characters I came up with in two days.

Tying in with the previous bit, getting into the headspace of writing certain muses is another issue for the same reasons. It's entirely sporadic.

I can go on and on and on. Some of these things can be improved or fixed. Others, they're just personal issues. You can say I'm being hard on myself or whatever else you might think, but I'm just being honest.

3, 8, 11, 12, 14, 47, and 58! dealer's choice of ship, and also hi this is rxttenfish, i am just trapped in sideblog hell

I'm going to answer with both of Ash's "ships" (I use the term relationship much loosely than most people I've found out)

Under the cut because this response is QUITE long (could be longer but I'll go insane going into too much detail, I can always answer follow up questions in the future lmao)

3. Do they wear the other’s clothes? (sweatshirt, bandana, necklace, etc.)

For Ash, they are ABSOLUTELY too small compared to their partners for the other to wear their clothes. Something about them makes me want to pair them with people twice their size.

For Noi… her clothes are too caked with viscera or too feminine for them to be appealing enough for Ash to want to steal. Though they ABSOLUTELY would steal one of her hoodies (if she had one), and she would love seeing them wear such an oversized piece of clothing - I’d suppose it’s like seeing a poor tiny sickly dog wearing a child’s sweater.

ACTUALLY THROWING THIS IN AT THE VERY END Noi absolutely steals and wears Ash’s glasses and she looks so cute doing it, but every time she forgets that putting on their glasses gives her an awful headache, guaranteed.

Ash absolutely will steal Jotaro’s jacket if they can, especially because of how much attention he gives them when they do it (even if it’s negative attention); though they’ve learned the hard way to not mess with his hat unless he gives permission otherwise. If they’re in a relatively public place and Ash is melting down due to a traumatic flashback or a particularly difficult/close fight, he’ll offer his hat to hide their face in, since Ash REALLY hates it when people see them upset and it’s the way he personally calms himself down (and it keeps his shirt clean from tears and snot).

8. What happens if one of them gets sick?

I haven’t really thought about this much tbh. I’m not even sure if Noi is capable of getting sick due to her magic

Ash however would be the most overbearing caregiver - all they want is attention from other people, and with someone being sick they have a captive audience. Even someone who is clingy might find them overbearing. I’d imagine that it would get to the point where Ash gets sick themselves because they were too close for too long, and they don’t exactly care about their own health.

Jotaro has a pretty short chain for recieving affection (especially physical affection, which Ash gives a lot), especially when sick I’d imagine, he would get overstimulated quickly and kick them out for a few hours lmao

11. Do either try to hide their emotions if upset? Can the other still tell?

Ash usually hides their emotions when upset on account that they dislike asking for help (despite being attention-seeking, they want the attention on their terms), wanting to be as self-sufficient as possible; even if it leads to self-destructive behavior like substance abuse or socially isolating themself. Their partners are usually unaware enough to not be able to tell when they’re upset, unless they are literally in tears breaking down.

However, Ash is also very very good at reading peoples’ emotions, mostly so they can figure out how to gain their trust or get a rise out of them. 

Noi doesn’t hide her emotions at all, and though she doesn’t get upset often she will simply find a quiet place to calm down, or cling to the first acquaintance nearby. Ash is very quick to calm her down since they don’t like seeing her upset, even if they have to come up with a lie to do so.

Jotaro is a champion at hiding negative emotions. He is already very difficult to read emotionally when he isn’t upset, but the trauma of losing so many close friends (and nearly losing family members) on his way to Egypt made this 500x worse; he would rather shut down than deal with anything that makes him feel grief, to the point he will even push away his own wife and kid if he thought it made them even remotely safer. 

A large part of the reason any and all of his relationships are/would be touch and go (even with Ash, who eventually finds out about Everything) is because of this; nobody can force him to deal with his own issues, and he will often isolate himself with his work for weeks or months without warning because of this. Even though Ash tries to help him when they can, they know they can only do so much and also respect the terms of their weird relationship with who might as well just be their colleague.

12. Do they have many heated arguments? How do they smooth things over?

WHEN I TELL YOU I WAS ABOUT TO POST THIS ASK AND I SAW I SKIPPED THIS QUESTION I’ll keep it short, for my sanity.

Ash and Noi, no they don’t get into heated arguments. Noi doesn’t get pressed about ANYTHING and if it’s any kind of conversation that they can’t agree on a resolution to it’s always Ash who is walking away steaming. Things between them kind of get ignored eventually rather than resolved but it’s not nearly enough to threaten their relationship.

With Jotaro… Fffff Ash definitely has some pretty intense arguments with him, all for his sake, but he’s not really the one to get heated, he can kind of just walk away. The one time Ash forced him to talk, it got the two of them into a ton of trouble (something I’m going more into depth in another ask lmfao), and it did take them a long, long time to resolve that. Always smoothed over by short and calm apologies, sharing a drink or a smoke together and eventually talking until they both fall asleep.

14. How do their personalities compliment each other? How do they clash?

I COULD WRITE NOVELS ABOUT THIS BECAUSE IT’S ALL I THINK ABOUT BUT I’LL (TRY TO) KEEP IT SHORT

So… Ash and Noi… pretty much the archetypal brains and brawn, though both of them can be impulsive and not very perceptive, leading them to get into some pretty dumb situations. Ash can’t do much by themself, because even with their uncanny ability to read and manipulate people, they don’t have much leverage; but with Noi around, she is a powerful magician, not to mention also a nearly 7 feet tall brick shithouse of a woman - even if she’s not being threatening directly, her sheer presence makes Ash much more influential, which they both LOVE and hate. Ash faced a lot of neglect when they were younger, as a social outcast, and this causes them to constantly seek attention, constantly finding ways to get people to listen to them, whether that means they talk loudly to strangers or being rude. Noi is completely oblivious to either of these things, and just generally wants to protect loved ones she sees as weak (which, Ash really hates being seen as weak).

The two don’t argue much at all, but that does lead to some issues. Ash doesn’t like dwelling on negativity, and Noi doesn’t think seriously about anything at all; sometimes Ash does get frustrated when they’re trying to describe a sensitive situation to her and she misunderstands it or doesn’t want to engage with it mentally. Noi doesn’t get upset about anything, even if something bad happens to Ash, and that irritates them (because in her mind, if anything goes wrong she can just heal or forget about it… she is a bit spoiled).

Ash and Jotaro look a bit the same visually, but both are really smart (maybe too much for their own good lmao). It’s actually quite scary how much the two match up + are foils of each other considering I did not make Ash for the purpose of pairing with him lmao. The two definitely hit it off by both being kind of isolated weirdos, for their own reasons, smoking together at work (by at work I mean they were both in graduate school lmao). Jotaro’s lack of expression and extreme tolerance of weird people combined with Ash’s uncanny ability to read emotion and being able to talk for hours without expecting conversation kind of stuck them together. They also have a lot of emotional baggage they halfway-help the other with (in a platonic, but eventually co-dependent way until Jotaro kind of cut both of them off for their own sakes). Also like, they both definitely enjoy biology more than people, this counts as a personality trait. Most importantly, they are both generally mean/rude people who don’t mean to be, they just try to do good but can’t for whatever reason.

Like I said earlier they also weirdly foil each other a lot; firstly, Ash is kind of just pathetic all around especially compared to Jotaro: physically they’re completely non-threatening, they’re not as easy on the eyes, they had a hard time economically due to getting kicked out of the house at 18 and living in a van for a few years, and even when they get a Stand it’s almost completely useless… and Ash really doesn’t like being seen as helpless, but it’s hard for them to NOT seem that way with such juxtaposition (really all they have over him is they don’t have an estranged wife and kid lmfao). Also, as I said earlier, Ash is just an affectionate, impulsive person while Jotaro is very much not, not that he actually minds touch that much as long as it is mindful (and if he doesn’t want to be touched, he gently swats Ash’s hands away, and they don’t take it personally) but if Ash wants attention they kind of just have to find some way to get it. 

I could maybe go into more detail about both but I might go insane talking about it at length, lmao.

47. Does either of them have a secret that could potentially ruin their relationship?

Ohhhh yeah OHHHH YEAH.

The entire point of Ash’s character (at least, original Ash. They were originally made to be a Dorohedoro self insert lmao) is that they are a human who’s pretending to be a sorcerer in order to study them - to the point they surgically mutilate themself just so they can run a miniature lighter through their arm out their finger, in order to masquerade as a fire magician. However… Noi is a very, very oblivious and short-sighted person (maybe even literally, it wouldn’t surprise me), and Ash is able to have a close and happy (platonic) relationship with her despite being human.

Eventually when the two start crossing certain boundaries, Ash considers how much longer they can, or should, keep up the facade (possibly the first time they consider their morals regarding their relationships with other people). Noi works right under one of the most powerful sorcerers, she could easily get away with so much if this lie made her upset. I wonder how it turns out for them :) 

(Ash and Jotaro are in another ask)

58. Who’s more likely to hold a grudge after an argument?

I haven’t thought much about this, since I don’t really hold grudges much IRL, but I think Ash would be a bit petty after an argument. They definitely want closure and some sort of acknowledgement or apology afterwards (if it’s with someone they care about that is: they piss off strangers all the time and don’t fuckin’ care). I don’t think it would be something they would milk for attention (again: they want attention, but only if it’s entirely on their own terms), and they don’t really enjoy dwelling on negative things… but they’re still kind of an annoying bitch about arguments sometimes, maybe even in a playful or obnoxious way.

Noi straight up would never hold a grudge. She greets people joyfully even if said person tried to kill her previously. These ask prompts are making me realize she’s a very simple, straightforward character and I’m okay with that lmao. I don’t even know if Ash COULD hold a grudge against her, she’s too peppy about everything for them to stay mad at (maybe to both of their detriment???).

Jotaro doesn’t really… hold grudges, but he is very bad at apologizing; not because he’s an asshole (well, sometimes he is), he’s just really REALLY bad with words, especially under pressure. He’ll especially be bad apologizing if someone’s accusing him of something he didn’t do or had no control over (which especially pisses him off), it might take him an extra long time to formulate what he wants to say as to not say the wrong thing. If Jotaro hasn’t settled stuff with someone and he sees them he is leaving that situation so god damn fast he will come up with any excuse to not deal with that until he’s ready. Ash used to be VERY insistent and annoying about getting him to talk things out with them ASAP, but then learned (the hard way) that it will just make things way worse if they rush things along.

Hello again Pen! To risk sounding like pretty much everybody from a day-ish ago, it’s lovely to have You back. Your return improved an already fine day a good deal.

I’m incredibly sorry to hear about Your injury and experience with covid (I’ve had it too, recently, and it’s absolutely awful, I hope Yours came and went smoothly like mine had and that You’re taking care of Yourself) but it’s relieving to know You’re doing alright even if it’s a gradual improvement.

As for myself, everything is going well! Not much to complain about, especially since the podcasts I went on about last time are very easy to hyperfixate on.

I’m unsure how to word this next part honestly (and also unsure whether it reads as melodramatic, I’m not fantastic with tone unfortunately. Apologies 😅) Point: I’ve wanted to come off anon for a little while now, but needed to convince myself a bit first. While I’d like to think I’m more open online than in real life, my blog is still ‘me.’ It feels like sharing something rather personal. I’m sure You understand.

My other name (online, at least) is Coryn. I don’t mind which name is used or if You just use my username instead, it’s all fine. I’m not expecting anything to change with our interactions of course, I just wanted to talk more openly. I think I’ll feel more genuine this way.

Once again, incredibly happy to see You back okay, and I hope Your health improves quickly and easily. Good timezone wherever You are and thanks for reading my overly wordy rambles. ❤️

-El/Coryn

Hehe, even if a lot of people have been saying it, that actually makes Me incredibly happy! It means I actually have a genuine place in people's minds, y'know? As opposed to the one I make for Myself when hypnotizing others.

My covid experience was...Not ideal in the slightest, hahaha. Besides the on and off fever, I also lost my voice for over a month and had a cough that persisted for even longer. There were some other symptoms as well, but those I'll keep private. However, I'm very glad to put it behind Me and focus on more fun things again now that I've recovered fully!

Glad you're still fixated on your podcasts!! I never actually got around to trying magnus archives as it didn't really vibe with what I look for in content, but I'm still very happy for you ~

I understand why it can be difficult to post about this stuff on your blog. This is a separate identity from My "main" online presence as well. I'm quite fond of the slight anonymity and the different ways one can present themselves online, and for Me while each one is genuine, I still don't really want too much overlap. If you think it would be valuable to you, you could always make a sideblog for your explorations in hypnokink!

Thank you, though, for trusting Me enough to come off anon and to tell Me the other name you enjoy going by. As you are aware, names have quite a bit of meaning to Us Fae, and it's quite the honor to obtain yours when I've adored you and your writing for such a long time. <3 I re-read our past exchanges rather frequently!

I look forward to seeing you around again, in whatever capacity helps you feel most comfortable and allows you to enjoy the Garden the most 💖

You can't be new to Tumblr and Black comfortably. I have been here something like 11 years and outside of mutuals content, if ever I'm specifically looking for Black things? Oh no.

It becomes a mission. You gotta scrape through white girls tagging "black socks" with they goofy ass or some other article of clothing or in b&w,so that whether you want Black women, fairies, mermaids, whatever, if you're in the search it gives you anything with "Black" anywhere in the post.

And you motherfuckers who post hundreds of Sirius Black posts a day? I hate y'all more than anything on this site. I hate y'all fucking guts.

Tumblr, where the fuck is my content blocker? I at least was able to put in stuff like THAT, but if its not a tag, I no longer see where to filter from my phone. Y'all showed me an ugly white man all day today talking about a face reveal. And I couldn't even filter him away because nobody tagged his name and I don't know white people.

This site gets increasingly more frustrating to navigate all the time. It was an ongoing joke forever. But I'm getting "fuck this shit I'm out" pissed again. Maybe a break can do me some good. I never have to see as many random white people as I have in the past couple of years that I've been using the search feature a lot to try to find sideblog content.

If I was a new nigga here, I'd just sign back out and leave. Because this place is atrocious and all the Black people keep getting booted or leaving. And the rest of y'all circumvent filters or clog tags.

Fuck Tumblr everyday, but especially when it takes hours to find maybe 3 posts that are what I want to see. I wish I could take my fucking mutuals and go. Shit is ridiculous.

Are we doing this now

I guess we are.

The mandatory presentation (and a place to keep all my current tags)

So, it is I, Hel Phoenyx. You'll see my partners, friends and metamours calling me by my real name but if we are not well acquainted please don't. This is making me uncomfy.

I'm a 2000. It will be better than to update my age. So both on the old and young part, and I get either the best or the worst of both worlds-

Currently in a big-ass polycule that are worth mentionning here because I flirt, laugh with them or callout them quite regularly, even if one of my gfs out of two partners is not on Tumblr. What can I say, I love trashtalking (/pos) the metamours~

I have one sideblog, @creator-from-hel, where I keep all my art and only my art (and this is mostly with this account that I interact with reblogs of said art). Other than that, everything is a complete shithole and my tags are not enough to track down my content.

I use #hel is talking for my rambles, #hel got asks for my asks, #hel ocs for when I ramble about Emerens talk about my babies, #hel stories for when I talk about my universes, #hel's writer life when I rant about being a writer, #hel writing for my lil texts, and #hel polls when I make polls (that doesn't happen often).

Fandoms and things I post and reblog about under the cut :

My interests (what you're here for I presume)

As for my interests, the only thing not going away after a few weeks are my own creations. So that's also the only thing I tag.

Currently I have three fully fledged universes, one my own only and two shared with my friends.

For a quick little presentation :

We got Lysara IbRu'Aël, Azilis' Chronicles and La Peste Moderne.

Lysara IbRu'Ael is a fantasy saga stemmed from the deepest darkest dephts of Wattpad. Originally created with four people (me, @azeler and two other people I don't have the tumblr) it evolved until the Almighty Gf, @thal-ent and some other people that I do not go out with joined, and that's when we started truly writing the saga. Only one left active on that group are currently me, Az, Thal and the gf. The metamours came here later to do ttrpg campaigns in the universe or help us expand on the lore.

End with the creation story, let's start with the story : Lysara is a fantasy world heavily litterature-based where gods are Words and Words shape the world. The main saga follows my character Lina Frosilaen through an epic quest (several, in fact) but Lysara as a whole is a complete universe with LOADS of lore.

Next, Azilis Chronicles, is my personal trilogy. Its roots are very close from Lysara but Azilis took a whole other direction in terms of lore and construction of the world, so even if the characters are the same, fundamentally they are not.

It's still a fantasy world tho, with the same core principles as Lysara, but less litterature-based and more developped in the direction I would have taken Lysara, would I be the only one behind it.

And lastly my second shared universe with the partners, the metamours and LOTS of friends, a heavily-Danganronpa-inspired real world setting named La Peste Moderne !

To put the basis, La Peste Moderne is a world where geniuses are more and more common. But geniuses are also afflicted with a disease that nobody can comprehend, powerful enough to make them aggressive and push the world towards its end : Despair.

To counter that, the Japanese gouvernment had an idea (there is more lore behind it but no spoilers) : Organize each year experimental killing games, where sixteen geniuses are forced to kill each other and navigate through an incredibly hostile setting. This would allow to control the population of geniuses, and see how they react to Despair to at the end of it, give a solution against the world ending.

My stories in there are Le Bal des Pantins, The Art of Creating Hope and Abyss of Despair, but I also had involvment in three others as of right now.

Tags are #lysara for anything Lysara-related, #azilis chronicles for the Chronicles and #la peste moderne for everything that falls under La Peste Moderne. in there I have specific tags for my three stories but they're kind of irrelevant.

As for the rest... I am a ttrpg player, enjoy a lot of video games, is very into Pokemon Black and White, was an avid reader but now is more of an avid writer, and my fandoms can vary a lot so I don't tag them.