I’m making a demo reel for my birthday this year.

I’m saying this now. I’m saying this out loud and telling the internet in an effort to keep myself to it. I’ve always wanted to make a demo reel for years! YEARS! If you’ve been an active mutual of mine, you would most likely remember me saying these things every year for a while and then chickening out last minute. 

I’m not gonna wuss out this time! I’m totally going to do it! Because now that my voice is changing, I feel POWERFUL!!! I’d like to think the reason I got too nervous to make one before I came out and got my proper medicine was that I kinda really hated my voice. I hated playing female characters and knowing that they would be sexualized and I’d inevitably historically would have creepy DMs saying they wanna fuck my characters. I had my former lover tell me I could make asmr pr0n with my own voice. 

Like yeah that is an incredible compliment and I indeed felt very complimented at the time especially because it was my then partner expressing that I could be desirable. Who WOULDN’T want that?? 

But then I started to feel...gross? I mean personally I never got being flirty/sultry/sexy/etc etc...It always just made me feel weird and gross and like...no thank you.

I tried to break out of that mentality because people would think its weird that I as an adult would think sex stuff was weird. Like I really tried real hard for honestly way too long to break out of my comfort zone and keep up with allosexual people around me so that I wouldn’t be infantilized and thought of as “too pure for this world”. I tried to keep up with my allosexual ex so that she wouldn’t feel the need to talk to other guys. So that I could prove I’d be man enough to please her only to later realize that it took her over a year to even accept my transition as something that factually is happening and I was being serious when I came out to her. I accepted her when she was questioning and I helped her every single step of the way but it takes more than a year plus a random youtuber for her to take my identity seriously...That’s getting away from my point here...

The point is that now that I’m transitioning and I’m gaining the relaxed elasticity I can finally sound cartoony enough for western animation! Something my ex was also so helpfully critical about. I wasn’t rubbery like her. I wasn’t cartoony enough but I could totally be a down to earth anime character! I could be the ditzy, yandere, princessy, uwu cutesy, bitchy, annoying, tsundere, sexy, sultry, fuckable, etc etc etc...All the things that made me feel both constrained and gross!

But now...NOW NO ONE CAN STOP ME!!!! I can sound femme, masc, and all the in between! I can be creepy or kooky or crazy or funny. Overly theatrical or nerdy and just fun. I can be fun! I can be characters that wont be immediately fuckable! I can finally be the sorts of voices that wont net in so many creepy anon DMs.

I can be ace and enjoy it. I CAN BE A CARTOON AND ENJOY IT

I CAN BE AN ASEXUAL MENACE CARTOONY WHIMSICAL SON OF A BITCH AND NOT FEEL GROSS

I CAN LOVE MY VOICE AND MY JOB JOURNEY AND NO ONE CAN FUCKING STOP ME!!!!!

why has no one mentioned that writing x readers is so hard. omg

in the hour or so it took me to draw this op turned reblogs off

EDIT: reblogs are STAYING OFF. op was right and correct and i have never regretted making a post as much as this one. if you want to reblog my art you can reblog something else from my blog. or commission me, lord knows i deserve financial compensation for the nightmare this post has put me through

can't believe we're all adults being forced into the club penguin level of censorship in 2024

If my mom sees a significant amount of blood she gets lightheaded, and has fainted on some occasions. Once it happened when we were kids, I wasn't there to witness it but I heard the story from my dad. Basically my brothers, around 7 or 8 at the time, were playing outside while my mom was making their lunch, and she accidentally cut her finger. It wasn't anything serious, but it drew a fair bit of blood and she passed out. My dad saw this and rushed over, but he didn't really know what to do so he just sort of started slapping her to wake her up (not recommended, but he had no idea and panicked)

At that exact moment my brothers both came in from playing, and all they saw was our mom unconscious on the floor and our dad slapping her. So, like, without even saying a word to each other they both just INSTANTLY start whaling on him, like, full blown attack mode to defend our mom. Which obviously didn't help the situation, but she did wake up and everything was fine.

Now our dad says that he's actually really glad they attacked him over what they thought was going on, because it means he raised good boys. And I still think that's true, they're very good boys.

Keep seeing that post where OP starts like 'Thinking about...grieving the undead' and then adds on about like. Real life situations where people have not died but have left your life and you would have reason to grieve them.

All respect, that's an important concept, but that is not what I am thinking about when I read 'grieving the undead'.

"what's the appeal of drag kings" because women are my favorite guy next question

full offence but I do NOT watch movies so I can "turn my brain off" I take this shit so seriously

personal rules for winter ❄

had a fucking hilarious dream that tumblr replaced the "block" function with the far funnier "glock" function, which did the exact same thing except whenever anyone blocked you a random bullet hole, like a png of a bullet hole, would appear on your blog. discourse blogs were unreadable bc you'd go to the page and the sheer amount of bullet hole pngs stacked over the blogs obscured everything. I woke myself up laughing

aaron bushnell knew exactly what he was doing. he states his intentions with total lucidity and sense of purpose. he knows what he's about to do is extreme--he says so. he speaks calmly, but he's clearly terrified. he takes a deep breath after pouring the accelerant over himself. he has to psyche himself up to light the flame. he struggles with the lighter. he says "free palestine" normally once before he starts to scream it. even through his agony he manages to say it one last time before he stops being able to speak at all. this is a man with total conviction. he wanted to help people, in any way possible. this action was a moral one, and any news outlet painting this as simply a mental health issue is a disservice to his memory. he knew what he was doing when he burned himself in uniform. he knew that there was a chance that sacrificing his own life could go on to save many others. this was the ultimate act of selflessness, and it should be treated as such. may he rest in peace.

make a cohost account, make a blue skies account, make a pillow fort account, make a artfol account, share your discord, make a back-up account, make another account, make another account, make another account-

I think we should have a turn of phrase for "I'm not in the right, but I AM annoyed with this situation, so I just need to go bitch to a friend about this before I suck it up and go do the right thing" because more and more I'm finding this is a critical element of functional adulthood.