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cerise-on-top · 2 months

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how long do you think it takes Kate and Valeria to day ‘I love you’ to their s/o’s? love ur stuff fyi!!! 💚

Hello! Thank you for liking my stuff, I hope this is enjoyable to you as well! I think it would take the both of them quite a while to say it!

When do Valeria and Laswell Finally Say “I Love You”?

Valeria: It would take her a while to say it. I mean, once she’s with you, she’s already smitten, but she says “I love you” in different ways that aren’t just saying those three words. Valeria courts you with lots of gifts, that much is true, but the closest thing you’ll ever hear from her that resembles a “You have my heart, I love you more than the sun loves the moon, than the ocean loves the land” would be her spending a day with you where she isn’t spending copious amounts of money on you. But that’s not what you asked. Valeria will tell you that she loves you when you’re feeling insecure since she never says it, but on her own accord? It would likely be a year or longer into your relationship, on one of those nights where the two of you are lying in bed together, just talking about your lives, what you’ve been through and how it’s shaped you as people. Just venting your worries, voicing your appreciation for each other and how you’ve helped one another. It’s during such a night, when you’ve gone quiet for a moment, that Valeria would hold you close and tell you, in a voice softer than what you’re used to normally from her, that she loves you.

Laswell: Like Valeria, she shows her love for you through different means. While she may be a gift giver as well, she also shows you how much she loves you by doing anything you may or may not ask of her. From chores, to walking your pet, to cooking you some stew when you’re sick. Laswell doesn’t say that she loves you from the get go either, it would take her several months to a year for her to say it. But when she does, it doesn’t seem like a special moment to anyone else. You’re probably hanging up your freshly washed clothes while she’s sitting at the table, a cup of coffee in hand. Laswell would get up, give you a kiss on your cheek, and tell you that she loves you so very dearly. She was overcome with adoration for you during that moment and needed to show you that she loves you. It’s afterwards that you get a lot more I love yous from her. Not on the daily still, but they would be more common. She will always, and I mean always, accompany her I love yous with some form of affectionate gesture, regardless of whether it be a kiss to your temple, a hug from behind, or a small lovely rose she found in a flower shop. You will always be taken care of and loved.

#cod #cod x reader #valeria garza #valeria garza x reader #kate laswell #kate laswell x reader #neither of them are too vocal when it comes to showing they love you but that's alright too #because one of them would watch the world burn down to warm you up with its flames #and the other one would break the world apart just to find you again in one of its crevices #they're not the most romantic people verbally but they'll always make sure that you feel loved and cared for #writing about the girls really makes me yearn for a girlfriend again!! where is my gf!!! I want one!!!#it's so sad that I've never met another lesbian irl either 😔 that is so sad I deserve a cute girl to hug in return for that #the yearning has been especially strong again as of late. especially since I saw a commission again yesterday #now I wish Valeria was way taller than me so she would look hot while looking down at me. but alas she's probably the same height as me #no amount of cute gir's love manga could ever cure my yearning I feel as though it's terminal 😔#will I continue to be cringe in the tags? absolutely! I've got another request for one of the girls. a really fun one too #looking forward to writing that one!#I'm gonna post three times today so I can get out all the requests again and be left to me imagining giving a cute girl a hug

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cartoonpigeon · 9 days

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if i was a hazbin fan would you guys still love meeee (/j lmao)

anyways, here's my hazbin redesigns :3 hopefully tumblr doesn't destroy the resolution so the text is still readable, but either way there'll be a transcription of it under the cut :3

the text around Husk reads:

simplified his design quite a bit - i feel like the clutter didn't really match his character and personality

tried to keep the yellows of his suspender buttons in the buttons of his shirt and fly

kept his colour pallet v. similar to the show - just shifted it sightly darker - I feel it fits him well already

I feel like he'd wear more old-fashioned clothing (and clothing in general) than he does in the show - I also feel like the magician type fit doesnt really match husk's character?

PUT THOSE GRIPPERS AWAY!! /j, but I didn't add shoes because i find it funny & I like drawing paws

the text around Angel reads:

more kinky looking choker than a fabric one

was wearing his rosary when he OD'd - either a heritage rosary or a cheap one b/c although he could afford it now, he couldn't then (idk how much they cost in 1910s-40s NY, but in the Vatican city and Roma they go for around (euro sign (I don't have one on my puters keyboard)) 100<) - he still wears it despite no longer practicing since he was 20ish (he doesnt wear it while working tho)

didn't simplify his design like i did with husk - i feel the cluttered look fits him better

fashion kinda based around "office siren" & alt accetics - I feel like he would continue to change his fashion choices & clothing as fashion progressed rather than sitting with 1930s/40s fashion that he wore when he was alive (unlike Husk or Alastor) - I think this is also in part influenced by Val's need to constantly shift in order to get more money

[next to the the right mini drawing] lil mockup for figuring his design out lmao

[next to the left mini drawing] casual clothes mockup

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jichanxo · 5 months

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kitakata sensei au stuff [from sept/2023]

#kuwagami #kuwana jin #yagami takayuki #lost judgment #kitakata sensei #jichanart #you ever look at two guys who do nothing but fight and go “ah... but what if they were... domestic”#anyway truly shocked that i dont see more kitakata sensei content out in the wild idk i think it's a fun concept #like hear me out yagami helps out the mrc like canon except he meets kitakata there and they proceed to have the pettiest beef ever #and a nice mundane enemies to lovers romance #like i love the high stakes of canon but having them fight over pointless shit is also good #yagami complains to all his friends about this dickhead he met at his volunteering work and then is forced to admit he wants to kiss him #“kiss” lol. fucking is also an acceptable option (and kaito will say it even if yagami refuses to)#also yeah i gave him his kuwana hair instead i'm not giving him that cringe ass canon haircut lmao #ALSO also kitakata sensei vapes on the school roof absolutely #ive thought a lot about this au can you tell #(looks at my unfinished fanfiction)

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larrylimericks · 2 years

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23Jul22

It’s 12 years since 1D’s formation! (Revealed to be Scherzy’s creation!) Five bright little stars Aligned in our hearts; Our worlds lit up by their constellation.

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elytrafemme · 1 month

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i have at this point talked to at least a few of my college friends about cough syrup, only two of them knowing it by explicit name. and i find it incredibly funny because one of them was an actual committed fan who dropped after the major hiatus, and the other one only read five chapters in before giving up 😭 i have much love for the hiatus survivors because my dear close friends were NOT committing to that shit

#nightmare.cough-syrup #one of these people is on tumblr and if you see this Hi i miss you. also get away from here !!!#i've reached a point in college where i am fully rejecting 'cringe culture' and am just pretty open about this shit #like i do talk about my d+p hyperfix on main and i do allude to my fandom history. Whatever. it's interesting yk #finding out one of them got only five chapters in is so funny because i am not a fan of the beginning of CS #so i'm like yeah no i would absolutely do the same LMFAO #also neither of them were cs!ranboo enjoyers which i find SO fucking funny #like yes it's no secret that their chapters are harder to write but bro did not [CRASHING NOISES] for this slander!!! yk #(i've avoided saying the actual name of the fic because i am clear about wanting none of my college friends to read it-#-if they hadn't in the past. BUT i think if i told my best friend who blissfully never got into this community #he would kind of just sigh but support me. he's my no.1 defender i'm so serious. i am a nightmare to him though <3)

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plushiehamuko · 10 months

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if i just like. wrote some short little fics about shinji and hamuko being happy and doing silly cute little things together in a not-necessarily-ship-but-you-can-view-it-as-ship-if-you-want way. would that be cringe

#squishy talks too much #cause like. i could turn this into a series. but like. GRRRAHHHGHHHH I'M so cringe #i also need to get through hamuko's route first i'm currently kinda just. looking at her characterization in fanon comics and going off tha #ok but absolutely nothing on ao3 is like. even close to how i want them to be #i still need to write my p5 fic i prommy i haven't forgotten about that #it's just that p3 is on my mind and this is much more low-effort #bc like. none of this is a canon rewrite it's more of a. canon be quiet for a sec and let them be happy #reminding myself. i can do what i want and write what i want and it doesn't have to be particularly good if i am doing it for fun #but i can't get through 2 seconds of that without being like. NO IT'S CRINGE YOU'RE CRINGE #about shinji <3 #about hamuko <3

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glambots · 11 months

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"Okay, but to REALLY understand the lore of Security Breach you have to read the "Tales from the Pizzaplex" series for it to really make sense--"

#me trying to watch a single 'fnaf lore/theory' video in this our year of the lord 2023 #absolutely not no thank you #what the fuck are the books #what are the comics #they're just...they come across as such a mess #no hate to anyone who loves them! my sister owns several and she adores the book series but #god i can't even hear the plots secondhand without cringing #mr. cawthon have you ever heard the phrase 'less is more'?#if you think i'm going to take any of the lore from the books into my hcs you are sorely mistaken #aside from the brief throwaway line about sun/moon being performance bots before they were reprogrammed for the daycare #bc that makes sense to me and it's a fun idea #everything else is...hoo boy. it's a Lot.#is this considered discourse?? god i hope not #once again i am rambling in the tags

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04tenno · 11 months

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It's a good list of grievances, print them out and nail them to people's doors. But about people making fun of Mine's accent- he's honestly speaking pretty clearly? That scene is still goofy and brings me great joy (obviously), but the awkward dialogue has always been the good bit. It's one of those scenes where there is clearly nothing being said on the other end of the line, and ending a call with Richardson with just "bye"?? Gold. Dogging on his accent alone is not only cringe but also missing the actual funniest part of the entire exchange

EXACTLY... It's about the delivery and the absurdity of the situation... it's about Mine not even giving Richardson enough time to hypothetically respond before moving on to the next thing he wants to say... it's about The JDrama Of It All, of course the rich CEO is bilingual... it's about the fact Richardson speaks Japanese anyway so this was totally gratuitous... it's about Everything Other Than The Accent

#asks #esotericephemera #guy literally delivers his lines with just as much clarity as the actual native speaker anyway the fuck is “the ruff”#also nakamura's not reading them that way by choice.#that IS his accent in real life. just think once before you speak please #unspeakably cringe all around thank u for being sane #ALSO GHSDGSLHGSL @ YOUR OPENER #really i'm split on talking about this stuff publicly #like i'm. kind of embarrassed about the few times i responded to people when i didn't really need to engage and make myself more angry #so. y'know. tumblr is my receptacle. But Is This Wise is what i'm always thinking to myself...#it's at least nice to have the solidarity #ALSO HI KINSEY I DID ABSOLUTELY STEAL SOME OF THIS FROM CONVO WITH YOU AND THE OTHERS <333

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look-at-the-stars-tonight · 2 months

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one of my friends and i were talking about life and where we would be in a few years and it made me a lil bit sad

#we were driving somewhere and i said something about how she was going to move away one day #(she doesn't wanna live in texas forever esp cause she's lived here most of her life)#and we talked about how one day we'd both probably just be fond memories to each other #like just people to look back on when thinking about your early 20s or whatever #SHE said this not me. i think it's so fucking morbid #but like she's not wrong and i keep thinking about it #how everyone you ever love will leave u some day?? isn't that just so absolutely fucked #but like. we're probably gonna part ways someday #and then we'll just start talking less and less and less and one day not at all #cause that's how life is isn't it #someone can mean the absolute WORLD to you one day #and a few years later you might not even think about them unless something prompts it #and i DO Try to talk to my besties as often as i can #but maybe i should get on real social media or something idk #it's literally impossible to talk to every single person who has meant something to you on a regular basis #and i think that's what social media is for??? idkkkkk #i'm being melancholy and CRINGE today ig #idk it's weird how u can go from 'we're going to be at each other's weddings' to 'eh we probably won't see each other much if ever #in another five years'#she's said both of those things. one of them is more realistic than the other.#delete later #you just gotta leave before u get left ig #sorry for quoting taylor swift

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smile-files · 1 year

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i should have my gmail privileges revoked

#melonposting #spoof #sometimes i look through my sent emails on my school gmail account and cringe at the ridiculously long email chains i would have with peopl #like there's this friend whose phone number i didn't have at the time #so we would 'chat' exclusively over email #and i'm the type of person to write horrifically long emails musing about god knows what #and so is he #so we'd write entire tomes of the stuff #i did this in middle school too as i didn't have a phone at all then #and this friend and i kept having to make new email chains cuz we'd fill them up #like we'd have 99 emails per chain #it was astounding #of course we'd also use google hangouts and google classroom comments as a genuine means of social interaction within our friend group #like absolute lunatics #people at school these days still tease me for using gmail as the main way of communicating with my parents lolol

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cerise-on-top · 5 months

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I love the Against PDA Laswell/Valeria x Jealous fem reader! Thank you so much!

Kate Laswell x GN reader

After a bad marriage, Kate never thought she would have another chance for a relationship

Then 💥BOOM💥 reader appears in her life!

But there's a problem....

Kate and her Ex partner have a daughter (Kate LOVES her daughter)

But she doesn't like the reader...

No pressure, take your time 🫶 and take care

You're welcome! That was a lot of fun to write! I got a bit carried away on this one, so it's quite long, sorry about that! This idea was really cute, inspiration really struck me on that one! Thank you for requesting it! Thank you for requesting in general, especially for the girls! I love them, but it's a genuine shame they don't seem to get as much love as the guys!!

Reader is gn. Only thing I can think of is that Kate's daughter, Luna, was about to get abducted, but reader saved her, so nothing bad happens aside from that. Luna and reader get along later, though, because I'm a sucker for happy endings and want Laswell, reader and their daughter to have a lovely future together. Some parts are almost like a drabble, other parts are more headcanon-y.

Remarried!Laswell, her daughter and Reader

It’s one thing to have the love of your life leave, all the memories, the good and bad, the small trinkets here and there, even just a small dessert call upon feelings that are much better left behind, left in the dark where no one could find them. If only it was that easy. During spring cleanings, Kate would find something to remind her of her ex wife every time. A brooch with a sapphire in the middle, an old recipe book, the very first wooly hat Kate’s wife picked out for their daughter, Luna. It was tiny, bearing the motive of snowflakes on a pink background. And to think their daughter has long since grown out of it. Time really does pass, regardless of whether you’re enjoying the moment or wishing the past had never happened. A few years ago, Kate’s heart would have been torn upon finding it, slashed open to show the insides of a still beating and bleeding heart. But that was the past. She had always been a strong woman, she had no choice, after all.

It was her wife, who gave birth to Luna, and it shows. She took after her so much, from the color of her eyes, her height, even her nose was reminiscent of her ex wife. She was absolutely gorgeous in Kate’s eyes. Her little girl grew and grew, but no matter how old she was, that was still her little girl. While Kate may not get the chance to see her all that often, a few times a year at most, both of them are usually overjoyed when they do get to spend time with each other. Even at 14, when it’s almost embarrassing to be seen with your parents, her daughter couldn’t hide her growing smile whenever she saw her mother. It was familial love in its purest form.

And eventually, you came along. Beautiful you, who was patient and understanding towards Kate. Caring you, who wouldn’t rush her into something she wasn’t ready for just yet while listening to her every woe whenever the melancholy of her ex wife caught up with her. Dazzling you, who gave her another chance at romantic love, slowly mending the holes in her heart. It was a give and take, always: No matter what it was you gave Kate, she’d return it tenfold. You, in turn, would do so as well. A kiss would turn into a necklace bearing a genuine ruby, an intimate and loving night into a vacation on the mountains or the beach. It took a while, but eventually Kate was sure you were the one. Someone, who would never betray her, someone, who would stay by her side, even when the world would stand against her. She was willing to arrange the most dangerous of missions for her most trusted people if something would ever happen to you. Kate was capable of pulling just about any string, get a favorable outcome eventually.

But no matter what she did, Luna simply didn’t seem to approve of you.

It started off with a simple mention of you. First, a friend. Her daughter didn’t seem to mind. She was glad someone was able to make her mother smile again. But when it turned into something more, something more serious, she would frown. An annoyed quip, a passive-aggressive remark, it was evident that no matter what Kate would tell her about you, the latter would react negatively. Regardless of whether you tripped while taking out the trash or proposing to your then girlfriend.

It would take a while for you to actually meet her daughter, but when you did she seemed distant at best and annoyed at worst. Anger wasn’t the solution to anything, so you tried to engage in conversation with her, give her small gifts you thought she might like. Christmas, Easter, Halloween, her birthday, you never forgot about her. But no matter how much effort you put into slowly building a relationship with her, you were rejected. She had two parents, she didn’t need a third one. You knew Luna was Kate’s everything, which is why it hurt twice as much when she seemed to hate you. Afraid of making things potentially worse, you were unsure whether or not you should keep going, it seemed almost pointless. Even when Kate told her daughter to be nice to you, to give you a chance at the very least, it didn’t seem to help.

In a cruel turn of events, disaster has struck. You were tasked to escort Luna home, you and Kate did live together, after all. A young girl and her “parent” usually wasn't something many people would look at twice, it was among the most ordinary things. After dusk, when the sun was barely enveloping the world in its warm rays, three men walked in your direction. Maybe it was your gut feeling telling you to be more aware of your surroundings, maybe Kate had told you to be extra careful these days and nights. Either way, they stopped walking when the two of you got closer. By then, even Luna seemed to realize something awful was about to happen. Just as you were about to walk towards the other street, two of the men lunged out at you, going after her.

This wasn’t something that should have happened, so for a split second you froze before reacting, Luna screaming out already. Even though both of you were shocked, scared out of your mind as she was dragged away into the nearest alley, something within you sparked. You were hoping you’d never need them, but Kate had given you lessons on how to defend yourself if you ever needed to, and this time was as drastic as it could possibly be. Using your knowledge on martial arts, you were able to take one of them down as quickly as possible, having him writhe in pain on the ground, unable to compose himself anymore. The third guy advanced towards you, thinking you to be easy prey still. He was taken care of even more quickly than the first one, adrenaline coursing through you. Your legs carried you at a speed even the raging storms would envy, Luna looking back at you, yelling for help still. Her mother wasn’t around, you were the only safer person left, the only aid in a battle she likely would have never won on her own.

She struggled, resisted the creep to the best of her abilities, flailing, biting, screaming. It was enough to buy you time to get to her. As he turned to you, you jabbed your index and middle finger on the spot underneath the larynx. Curses escaped him as he released her, holding onto his throat while gagging. Barely put together, he stretched his arm backwards, an obvious attempt at hitting you, the perfect opening. In a swift motion, you deflected him, taking his arm instead while using your knee to kick him in the groin. A direct hit, leaving him incapable of doing much else aside from whining on the ground, making the most pathetic noises imaginable to man. It mattered not, Luna was more important than anything else. Despite being aware of her dislike for you, this was an exception: You grabbed her by the arm, dragging her out of the alley and to the nearest light post.

She was quaking, her eyes watery as she bit back tears. This was no moment to show weakness in front of you. As she bit her lip, the force was enough to make it bleed, she took a deep breath while you looked her over, making sure she wasn’t injured. A few bruises would form from the rough treatment, but she’d be alright. You wanted to comfort her right now, tell her that she was safe, that you’d make sure not a single pig on this planet would harm her, but you couldn’t focus on that solely. What you had to do was make sure she’d get back home safely to her mother. Kate would kill you if something happened to her, or worse.

You hurried home, never letting go of her, your eyes darting around the streets. Barely anyone was out. Apologies and promises of safety, you spoke them all in a determined tone.

Luna looked at you as you pulled her along. Your touch wasn’t dreadful this time, it was far from detestable. Your hand was warm on her arm, your presence comforting. Maybe you weren’t such a horrible person to have around. And maybe, just maybe, you could keep Kate safe, too. Keep her happy, make sure she can smile forever, give her the solace you gave Luna just now. She wanted to stop, stand still and apologize for the treatment she had given you, it wasn’t fair. Not to you, not to her mother. But she kept going, her home perhaps a minute from where she currently was.

Only when the door fell closed behind you, after you locked it, could you finally take a breather. Luna was still shaken, but nowhere close to tears. Uneven breathing was all that plagued her, but she was finally safe again.

It was time to release her, apologizing for touching her without her consent. But for once, those eyes that seemed to show but resentment for you, they were tired. Although you had let go of her, it was her turn to hold your wrist, a small plea, almost silent, begging for you to not go just yet. It wasn’t your place to refuse and thus you gave her a nod, calming down from your own high. Your voice was so much more gentle than before. How was she feeling? Where was she hurt? Would she be alright?

There was barely a response, only one you could really understand.

You weren’t a monster, you weren’t going to drain the happiness from everyone she ever loved, Luna finally understood that. While your voice may have just barely reached you, she stood completely still for a few seconds before wrapping her arms around you, face buried in your shoulder. You were a good person, she was going to be okay. Everything was okay. She had her mothers and you.

A tight hug, you’d return it any day, looking to the corner of your eye as you noticed some movement there. It was Kate, shocked and worried, immediately rushing to her girl’s side, asking her what’s wrong. This wasn’t something Kate shouldn’t have known about, so with as much calmness as you could muster, you explained the situation to her. Luna carefully turned to her mother, Kate instinctively took her into her arms.

Sitting her down onto the couch, both of you stayed with her the entire night, even when she had fallen asleep. Small conversations sound through the living room. Kate couldn’t thank you enough. Her world was with her still, unscathed and mostly unharmed, because of your quick judgment and your capabilities. This was something she could never repay you for, even if you gave her an eternity of time. It was a rare sight to see Kate in any amount of disarray. She was of calm mind anytime, no matter what. Strong-willed, cunning, brave. Even she had her weaknesses.

But as concerned as she was during that night, she could notice a change in the atmosphere soon enough. Luna’s words weren’t malicious towards you anymore. A smile here, a chuckle there. When the suggestion of getting you a birthday present came, Kate was stunned for a moment. Her little girl and her spouse getting along, it seemed so far out. But any destination was reachable if you gave it enough time, if the circumstances were right. By no means would she ever wish anything horrible upon her girl, willing to kill those men in the same way a lion would kill its prey, but the situation had improved. Luna would ask about you, how you were doing, how the marriage was going, even giving you the present yourself. Almost shy, she handed it to you. You, too, seemed a bit surprised, but the scene was lovely. You and Luna finally got along. It was like something out of a pleasant dream. As you opened the present, your face glowing with glee, Kate, too, couldn’t help but smile.

#cod #cod x reader #kate laswell #kate laswell x reader #gn!reader #I am so gay for women and I was swooning during mw2 whenever laswell was on screen #I was so happy when she was a playable character in mw3 even if I can't play the game #started watching mw for Valeria and got absolutely hooked because of Laswell Farah Alex and Gaz #although I'm not hoping for a mw4 I am on my knees for more of the girls #because not to be cringe on main but the girls sort of have me in a chokehold #the things I'd do for a kiss on the cheek from them #having them praise me for doing well on something would actually just slam dunk my mental illness into the ground and kill it instantly #how did those tags go again?#not to be a lesbian etc etc #anyway thanks for requesting again!!#if you have any more ideas brewing feel free to come again! I love hearing about them <3

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laplacemail · 2 years

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the all-seeing eye and the all-knowing mind.

by g_djungarian @ skeb

#the all seeing eye and the all knowing mind;#reposting my own commissions! cringe! but i wanted to put them together :)#black roses for the wicked one ; aliah #something about how they are soulmates. something about how theyre both above their peers #and how faust for millennia sought companionship. someone that could understand him #and his search took him to aliah. two people who seek knowledge at all costs #and how i keep thinking about how they will at the end of it all fuse together into one being :)#how aliah is also isolated from everyone else due to his intellect. due to his obsession #and faust is the one to drag him through things not to humiliate him. but to examine him further #to prove his worth. even though he already knows aliah is worthy. but even reduced to ash aliah will still rise and continue his #endless pursuit for knowledge. oh my god they are so married #i almost forgot to tag #kesil #there.#i'm normal about them #i'm normal thinking about faust stopping aliah from blowing up the universe and fusing their bodies together. to aliahs absolute disgust #congratulations on your marriage. he WILL try to explode the universe again

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v-iv-rusty · 2 years

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I could go to bed at a reasonable hour, but why would I do that when I could stay up and make myself sad over characters that I made up literally 5 minutes ago instead

#misc.txt #3 in the morning is peak oc creating hours #was doodling an er oc I have #and offhandedly wondering what they'd be like if they were an npc with a traditional soulsborne tragic quest. yes I know I am cringe btw #but now I'm sad :( and also dealing with the fact that this character only exists in my head and matters only to me hdfjskhd #it's like whenever I make a character where like. I want to write them a sad story I guess? idk how to put it but you know #I get to a point where I'm like 'idk this just seems kind of boring and bland' and then I get. a tiny idea #which then just snowballs from there until I'm reduced to the human version of a crying cat meme #AND NOBODY ELSE WOULD FULLY UNDERSTAND BECAUSE THEY ONLY EXIST IN MY HEAD. torture :)#honestly I never post about my ocs (fully original ones and then ones like this one) even though I have them but. whatever #his story arc and questline are not real but I could absolutely break your heart with subtle details and item descriptions if they were <3 #ok actually I want to talk about this though. so like #I think it's less so like 'I want to make a character in this universe' but I really love the fromsoft method of storytelling #by giving you tiny details and hints and things you might not notice at first. and then when you do it just HITS you and it hits different #than if it were just spelled out for you. like if you fully understand a character from the start that's great and all #but there's something about absentmindedly connecting the dots in the shower or something and going 'OH.'#idk if I'm wording this right probably not it's late but. thinking about how to tell a character's story through those methods is very fun

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lizardthelizard · 2 years

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4 & 22 <333

Hi Minni!!! <3 Thank you so much for the ask 🥺💗

get to know your author asks

4) favorite character you’ve written

I would say August Puppet Man Booth but, as much as I physically need to like including him in my fic, I constantly worry about writing him out of character (more so than any other character) which can sometimes take away the enjoyment.

Therefore... Characters that I can be a bit looser with (but whom I still actually care about) are probably my faves to write. A.k.a. Lizard + Lampwick + probably Tinker Bell too. Also...Ned, Rumple + Leroy are all fun to write.

22) are there any subjects that make you uncomfortable to write?

You know, despite the fact that I have written fic with romance in several times now (and will continue to do so in the future), it's still not something that comes very naturally to me. I have a HUGE preference for reading gen fic and those preferences feed into my writing as well. idk it's just...something I'm still getting used to writing :')

Similarly, you'll never catch me writing smut. Just not my thing, sorry. I think I would burst out laughing after every sentence if I ever tried.

Also, I'm not big of anything super gory or anything in a medical setting.

#jsnlkdfjosdfnsdfsdf who KNOWS how things will play out for lizard + her sailor bf #because I'm sure I'll struggle when the time comes + they start interacting a little more intimately #the idiot guys are fine because I care them and also I've written them before so..................no trouble there :^)#asks #benedctsbafta #thank you again!! <333 #though really....it's all just about pratice right?#cause I found puppet strings SUPER hard to write at the start of writing it #but you get over the initial 'ough this is cringe' and then it's......it's absolutely fine

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because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

#almost wrote the champagne line as ''effervescent'' but legit could not write it without saying ''effervescent like a snail''#ah tumblr...#writeblr #warm up #idk . having trouble writing rn #ps i don't like to talk about it . it is my medical information. but before you ask. yes this is about being on the spectrum #i really don't like when ppl make my writing about how im [whatever ID]. i want it to ring true for the people who it rings true for #i don't want it to be like ''awwwww look at this person!!! she's the EXCEPTION!!! :)" .....#no.... not really.....#idk something gross happens whenever i admit to certain conditions and i turn into like inspiration p*rnography #like yes they actually let us use keyboards these days #furthermore i just... dont feel comfortable talking about this part of me. i had too bad of a childhood. adhd is one thing...#this one im like. still coming to terms with. which is like. my own journey.#idk. just please be kind. some things are more private than others. this one feels private to me.#i do not know how to help others w/this . and i do not know how to help myself. i will talk about it if im ever ready. idk if that will #actually ever happen #ty in advance i love u im kissing you we are kissing somewhere on the spectrum

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