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bulldog-butch · 6 months

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i am absolutely bamboozled by the people having so few crushes. like are other people not getting random fleeting crushes all the time? this is a genuine question

#i swear every couple months i get a crush that lasts somewhere between 24 hours to a couple weeks #and then of course interspersed with the more rare crushes that last much longer #i’ve had crushes that lasted years #with other crushes happening within that time #bork bork!

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wildguarneres · 2 months

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not the Logan documentary making me cry 😭

#he’s worked so hard and it all seems to be spiralling out of control now #the hopefulness and positivity of this little doc vs how the last year has been for him (not to mention last weekend) is so crushing #i’m not denying he had quite a few self-inflicted struggles in 2023 but he’s also just been so unlucky #and the number of people hating him not even bc of last season but based on only TWO races of this season…..#a bunch of guys were stuck behind the kmag train in jeddah but unsurprisingly logan’s the only one i’ve seen get crap for it #cmon kid prove everyone wrong this year PLEASE 🙏🏼#may Williams’ humiliating decision last weekend light a fire under his butt like never before #logan sargeant #ls2 #formula one

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sexynetra · 5 months

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Mirage is so stupid pretty I can’t even stand it

#Also #I know in my heart of hearts that she’s gonna go out before top 10 #like sorry girl no you aren’t lasting #I can tell from the promo #but feel free to prove me wrong I’d love it if you did 😉#anyways I am kissing her forehead I am holding her waist I am stroking her hair #I’ve had a crush on her for a year #her being annoying won’t stop me #drag race #rpdr #rupaul’s drag race #drag race 16 #rpdr 16 #RuPaul’s drag race 16 #mirage amuro

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sailforvalinor · 3 months

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Val Is Pretty Sure She Might Be Losing Her Mind, more at 11

#okay so y’all. do you happen to remember Alcott Boy? the guy I had a crush on from school last year (or really the whole time I’ve been in #college honestly) who had Opinions on Little Women #yeah him. anyway I thought I was over my crush on him but GUESS WHAT it’s back and worse than ever #like I only have one class with him that’s once a week but guys guys I feel like I’m LOSING MY MIND like. I’ve never felt the urge to #actually go up to a guy and say ‘hey do you wanna go out with me?’!! like I would never actually do that but the urge is most definitely #there??? and it’s not even that he’s cute (although I mean I think he’s cute) but he’s really really intelligent and funny and very notably #always willing to bring up his faith in class discussions (and this isn’t really the campus for that) and I’ve always admired him for that #(this is also the boy that looked at something I wrote in fiction class and said ‘that’s it that’s what love is supposed to be like!!’ LIKE #) and I genuinely don’t know what to do #like should I be concerned that I feel this strongly so soon after The Boy?? should I be concerned that this might just be limerance???#my roommate has been offering to talk to him for me and ask if he’s single and is it insane that I’m actually considering it???#like if I’m going to now is the ideal time—I’ve already had my class with him this week and spring break is next week #and I’m certain he would never make me feel bad if he didn’t feel the same. but if he did wouldn’t he have said something by now? I don’t #know I don’t know I don’t knooowww #but I graduate in two months and I don’t want to regret it for the rest of my life

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scuffedcd · 22 days

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I’m gonna be pathetic real quick,

#I miss her so much #dealing with a one sided crush on one of my closest friends no less has not been easy #we haven’t really hung out this year not bc of the feelings stuff but bc I was tired of always being the one to plan hang outs and outreach #this has always been our dynamic #she’s just not the initiator type #which was fine at first #but for me the more I put into a friendship the more I expect in return #so it was hard not to take it personally when things didn’t change after we talked abt it #anyway she graduated college today #and idk if it just really sunk in that this is very likely the last time we will ever be in proximity to each other #but something abt it just kinda hit me today #a part of me wishes she had reached out #but maybe this is for the best #I feel I shouldn’t have to ask for what I need every single time #the down side is that knowing that doesn’t cancel out the years of friendship #I’ve always had a hard time letting people go #a part of me almost always cares about them for a long time #it’s hard bc my college experience was largely knowing that while I had friends I likely wasn’t their top choice #or part of their larger group #I floated around a lot which was cool sometimes and lonely other times #but if there was any person who I would have expected or I guess even just wanted to put in more of an effort it was her #personal #rambles #vent #it is complicated navigating friend expectations vs crush yearning #but I like to think that I can be rational enough to distinguish between the two #and so not ask for anything that is outside the reasonable expectation for friends #idk man it’s been an emo day overall ig

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fingertipsmp3 · 27 days

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Should I end my tolerance break tonight or should I continue and see how long this can go on for

#full disclosure it’s only been two days #i’ll be honest kitten; daddy might have a fucking problem #look it’s not even… weed is not addictive. obviously #BUT i am not in the greatest mental state right now. i am not exactly a shining example of perfect mental health #i’m a 28 year old loser who peaked in undergrad and is a self employed freelancer BUT is too lazy to make decent money freelancing #i really need a manager breathing down my neck to get me to do the bare minimum or more consistently #i’m also super not doing well regarding 1) my dad’s deathiversary 2) my ongoing grief over mabel (yes she was a dog but if you say she was #‘just a dog’ i will come to your house and throw up in your walls DON’T DO IT. DON’T TRY IT. I LOVED HER)#and also just. the crushing weight of it all.#if i have edibles i don’t have to think about the fact i thought i’d either be dead or successful by now and instead i’m alive and mediocre #am i really supposed to freeball THIS reality. THIS ONE???#but then it’s like it creates a vicious cycle because is the weed making me unproductive or do i want the weed BECAUSE i’m unproductive #and it helps me forget that i’m a complete and utter loser. 🧐#listen i’ve gotten less done during this tolerance break than i did last week when i pretty much had a weed gummy every night #i’m not saying there’s a correlation but what i AM saying is it’s suspicious #i could continue the break until the weekend. that seems like the best plan #personal

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trashbaget · 2 months

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tell me your failed/embarrassing flirting stories to make me feel better, i’ll go first: today i said “get out of my way” forgot to say “i’m kidding” then immediately said “bye”

#it is awful having feelings for someone you know and have an established friendship with #but crushing on someone i barely know is knew to me and i legit feel like an idiot every time i do something stupid like this #i can’t just. talk to the guy #if i say hey and he says sup i say ‘sup indeed’ like what the fuck is that #i can barely even say hello to him #don’t get me wrong i’ve DONE it but most days i’m like #ah fuck there he is #okay you can do it just say hi #just say what’s up #and then he’s already gone #also. like. the setting we’re in is soooo not good for talking or flirting realt because um. it’s work he’s my coworker.. so um. do i fuckin #ask him for his number?? or to hang out??? but like. he’s kind of a stranger to me what do i want to hang out for 🧍#but like. i dont want to do that until i have at least one successful interaction #or like. an actual conversation.#which is gonna be really hard to manage because he doesn’t talk much at all to anyone and i really only talk if someone talks to me first or #i’ll say something absolutely idiotic and ridiculous (and honestly i do that no matter what)#anyway so um. i guess i’m just gonna keep making a fool of myself until i get it right and hopefully i don’t screw it up 🥴#i lost all my confidence in the last year and i cant do anything chill or smooth anymore (i was never that good in the first place but at #least i could PRETEND i knew what i was doing. like i could sell it. the whole weird and lost bit.)#anyway. i felt better for like 5 minutes when some guy at the gas station flirt failed with me on the way home. but that’s partly my fault #too oops. in his defense he probably could not see that i had headphones on bc upon mirror inspection they were well blended with my hair #but i was waiting to cross the street and this guy tried to like nod and smile and i did not know it was to me until i got to the other side #where the gas station was and and like. tried again and i awkward half smiled and saw his face get all mushy and confused like mine FELT 20 #mins before when i’d flopped so hard trying to flirt and by the time i’d processed WAIT i think he was FLIRTING WITH ME i was already gone 🤡#but at least it ended better than the poor 14yo who very confidently asked for my number #who. i shit you not. SCREECHED for a solid 44.5 seconds and bolted the other direction when i said sorry im 21 #his friends were standing there like wtf too and one was like i am so sorry about him 🤦#cheers to being fools universe

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whenthegoldrays · 12 days

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Hmm

#pondering #I can’t believe it’s been a year since I gave up on my last crush #it seems like so long ago I feel like I’ve lived eight lifetimes since then #but it also feels like just yesterday #and yet I feel so…. distant from him #I mean I also never see him anymore #the only reason I did then is because I’d seek him out #and even then….#idk what I’m trying to say #just that things change #and myself of two years ago would be amazed #that I’m able to have a normal life and think about him minimally and painlessly #because two years ago I was in the DUMPS #I went through this intense phase where I just felt like I *had* to be with him and got to the point where I’d just cry out of fear that #that I’d die before I got a chance to make him fall in love with me #it was so bad I was so paranoid and lovesick and and and.. ough #I still remember that night so well #it was also a Wednesday like today and it had been an awful day and I had a headache #and I just thought. I can’t take this anymore. where are we even going. he’s never going to notice me never #i GIVE UP #it was mostly an impulse but looking back I’m so glad I followed that particular impulse #it’s like when Edmund walked out of Mary’s house not because he was super resolved but more on an impulse of the moment #just felt like the thing to do. and I may have regretted it once or twice afterwards but in the end it absolutely WAS the right call #and a couple months later YOU-KNOW-WHO showed up #absolutely insane events happening to me last year.#but now I feel like the girl from that one video #“girl who is going to be okay” djdjdhdh #but really! I will be!#and I am even! just taking it one day at a time #elly's posts

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milkstoner · 9 months

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you guyssssss… i have been surviving. here is my candlelit desk

#as for work #well #you guys need to know my lore to understand so i was married to a man 10 yrs older for 4 yrs #worst years of my life i need to emphasize that #a crush on a 20 y/o boy at work is not deep. I’m mature and that comes with honesty and transparency #i got rejected and I was FINE it hurt but I was FINE #but. you know how I’ve been carrying my team all summer and giving them feedback but some of them dgaf #yeah I had my last straw when that same guy abandoned his post #i decided to leave all work group chats and call in sick the next day #tell me why i found out my team was talking behind my back saying I ragequit bc i got rejected and bc i involved my feelings into work #this blatant disrespect after all the effort I put into the team dynamic omg i organized all our outings #i carry this team… and this is what I get omgg #I’ve been very kind to them all genuinely and I’m not judgemental at all but to know I’m not worthy of getting that kindness back #truly

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laracrofted · 3 months

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so would anyone like to hear about the rhett series i’m working on, or are we all ames, write baby, i’m high octane (vii) and/or one shots you’ve announced already?

#don’t worry biho (vii) haunts me at every moment that i’m not working on it #i am crushed under the weight of knowing i need to write it 😃#in my defense i’ve had this idea since january of last year it’s not new

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afieldinengland · 6 months

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there’s a lot of things i miss that i’ve never actually had

#small example so we don’t get too maudlin: sometimes i miss being romantically compared to dorian #or— well. being thin and young and beautiful enough to come anywhere near fitting that moniker too #(don’t). but did that really ever happen? in reality have i ever had the chance to do anything like that?#can’t miss what you never had. there’s a hedonist in me and he’s been starving for twenty years #i’m glad that there’s no real risk of me ever getting kissed again i’m far more trouble than it’s worth #the minute i’m taken out of myself through this wire-mother cage i’ve fashioned i’m fucked #but i never have been. not really. i have real trouble identifying the last time i genuinely had fun #i miss being kissed. i miss the bronze age. i miss the grapes i’ve never really crushed against my palate #twenty now and i know it’s absurd to feel old. i haven’t wasted my chance you could argue #but where’s lord henry coming dancing from? <- you see this is absurd. i’m a deep cynic in a coat i pose a foxier threat than dorian ever #did. he likes to think. if nobody minds the sheer inconvenience of leading me on do they mind kissing me. or hitting me hard in the head ti #i bleed. just for the record #and key point— dorian was beautiful. well dorian was a muse #what’s happening here? well i’d like to be loved. sorry. still #maybe i’ve never been a dorian. something wronger #all romance i’ve had in my real life has been terrible and i’ve been hurt. can you forgive me for that #<- this is him at his least maudlin

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followme-through · 1 year

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A boy kissed me last night like i was oxygen and he needed me to survive i am not even exaggerating it was so hot

#i’ve known this boy for nearly 8 years #we did our a levels together then didn’t see each other for 6 years #now we’re on the same masters course and that happened last night #he also said he’s had a crush on me since sixth form #bro am i in a fucking fanfiction #also he looks like dmitri from Anastasia #my literal childhood crush

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always-a-slut-4-ghouls · 1 year

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I know it’s not a reliable way to judge how things work for most alloromantics, but apparently you guys are having romantic feelings a few times a month, sometimes a few times a WEEK?! I just thought… you guys felt it every few years or when you have had a few dates or something. But huh?! A week?! Is that true?

I have literally only had crushes. I don’t feel little instances of quick attraction (which other people apparently do???) I’ll see someone and go “huh, they look nice” but it won’t really be romantic, just aesthetic. And even that only happens every once in awhile. The only time I ever really feel romantic attraction is when I get a strong crush. My feelings, annoyingly, have no in-between. They also can’t be prompted by me attempting to set them up, like a date. It just doesn’t do anything, and not “it doesn’t happen every time” that I think is normal, no, it just doesn’t happen at all. I wish it worked, I really do. It would make my life so much simpler, but it never does. Sometimes I’ll see someone do something and go like, “aww, that’s cute” but it’s more just general endearment or maybe affection. It doesn’t feel romantic. I’m so confused.

#emma posts #romantic orientation #alloromantic #I think I’m grayromantic #I’ve only recently realized that (as in yesterday)#I knew I was Demisexual but I didn’t know my ROMANTIC experience was unusual. I’ve gone SEVEN YEARS since my last crush #and I’m not romantically attracted unless I have a crush #when I do have a crush the feelings are strong #but it’s never worked out and I’ve learned how to kill the things over time if I have to #and then I’m just not super into the person again #I probably could be but I’ve never pushed it #I have had three maybe four crushes on actual people in my life and I’m 26 #and crushes on video game characters aren’t the same as on real people #but even those don’t average once a year #and you guys are just… feeling it whenever?#I’m having another revelation #I’m really oblivious aren’t i #and I’ve been reflecting on myself in therapy for a decade #apparently processing trauma and anxiety doesn’t make you understand your orientations and gender #unless the trauma or anxiety comes from those things I guess #but mine don’t and I know that for certain #the mortifying ordeal of being known buy #but it’s literally just you knowing yourself all of the sudden #I would be laying down staring at the ceiling but my hair is in a bun and I don’t want to fuck it up #I work hard on learning how to put it up in buns #every one is an accomplishment #and sometimes I don’t even get sexually attracted to a crush #which have only ever been the people I’ve gotten sexually attracted to #crushes I mean #but I like stories with romance. does that throw it off?

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happy10thousandyears · 1 year

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Also like w the amount of yuri I’ve drawn u would ve thought I’m immune to exclu bullshit but man.

#also calling myself bi lesbian is like rent lowering gunshot #because I’ve not liked men in like 5+ years and if ur chill ur just chill if ur like #judgemental about me I see u may have radfem tendencies #which is like ok. I don’t want u near me anyways #in my mind. men are bros #(men I know and r comfortable with)#like u can develop a bro crush!#I’m not gonna recount my girl crush experiences they are long and arduous #but I did have a crush on my best friend for 10 years it’s crazy actually in torment primary school to highschool #yeah she followed me on my last account but she isn’t here now so #and I told her like bruh. I had a crush on u I’m rly sorry if it’s any inconvenience but I’ll try my best to not have a crush on u anymore #so we can just be normal best friends without the tension and she’s like :o okay! and now we r still friends :D 13 years strong yippee!!

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diari0deglierrori · 10 months

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My sister joking about setting me up with her boyfriend’s best friend and internally I’m like my sister in Christ I haven’t really been that much into a man in ages

#I mean truly madly deeply the last time was 3 to 4 years ago #but other than that I’ve mostly had crushes on girls #and Albi doesn’t count he’s my girl my life pe quanno nun ce staije my city my weed #and if it helps I also have a crush on his girlfriend so it almost cancels it out #also I always thought she would be the first one to take a girlfriend home and open up the path #now it’s all on my shoulders huh #well if you insist #(I’m unlovable so it won’t happen but still would be funny)#not sure they’d see that coming

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fingertipsmp3 · 2 years

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I’ve just discovered something absolutely fucking crazy and now I’m experiencing emotions previously known only to shrimp

#right so there’s this guy who i’ve kind of had a crush on since uhhh the beginning of time. or it feels that way at least #it’s never going to happen. he lives in hawaii and even when he didn’t; he barely cared that i was alive #i’m normal about it most of the time (or like.. as normal as i ever am about anything i guess) but sometimes the mental illness strikes #and i end up on his fb page. and i did that today but he hadn’t updated his fb since the last time i was on there (months ago. he’s not #very active) soooo i felt starved for new images of him so i used my tried and tested method of checking his mom’s profile. his mom posts #a lot of stuff for the world to see and is especially proud of her two sons #so this seemed like a good idea. right? WRONG. i really shouldn’t have clicked onto there because the most recent picture she posted was #a photo of him and this girl sitting on a bench together and they’re not kissing or anything but they look undeniably coupley #and the thing is I RECOGNISE THIS BITCH. she organised his fucking birthday party last year and i thought it was a normal platonic thing to #do!! but it wasn’t!!!! and what’s worse is these two have known each other for so long but they have just now got together and the reason #i know this is because she’s literally been married. 10 years ago she got fucking married AND HE WAS ONE OF THE GROOMSMEN #HE WAS BEST FRIENDS WITH HER HUSBAND IN HIGH SCHOOL AND HE WAS A GROOMSMAN. IN A TUX!!!!!#like this is sending me. the betrayal. she had a boyfriend in between so i think she’s been divorced from her husband for like 5 years plus #but like….. this shit is making me CRAZY because in one of the wedding photos (which must be her favourite because she posted it like twice #as a ‘memory’) he looks really melancholy #it’s making me so mad i could eat the fucking drywall and i can’t tell anybody because they’ll be like ‘ellen go to bed’#but like. SERIOUSLY #and the thing is i really should’ve known this was going to happen sooner or later but i had convinced myself it wouldn’t #even though he literally can pull anyone. like. he’s basically roger from 101 dalmatians but with an american accent. he can pull ANYONE #men shouldn’t be allowed to put ‘single’ in their profile if they’re not. the daydream of one day buying a one-way plane ticket to hawaii #and asking him out like i should’ve done 5 years ago has been keeping me going for longer than i would like to admit #and i really hate to say it but what bothers me most is this woman is so bland. like. i guess she has a nice face? but she’s SO BLAND #it makes me SICK #i’m going to have to rant to someone about this irl or i’m going to burst a blood vessel in my eye #hopefully my friend answers the phone tomorrow morning otherwise i’m liable to tell the doctor at my appointment lmao #at least they might take my mental health concerns seriously.#anyway. if you need me i’m going to go to bed but probably not sleep because WHAT THE FUCK. WHAT THE FUCK #personal #**i feel like i didn’t adequately explain but that one photo isn’t my only proof they’re together. there was proof from BOTH OF THEIR MOMS #i am SICK

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