luo binghe better than me fr i think i would've gone fucking apeshit if the person i loved with my entire soul pretty much said "fuck you" because of my race and pushed me down into literal hell for me to suffer for years

i've said it before and i'll say it again, i really don't think we give binghe enough credit. that man was on concerning levels of forgiving all the way from the start

"what would your character be like without their trauma?" is such a hard question for me because it makes me feel like a massive asshole LMAO

(im attaching a picture of a tundra literally to add context to my ramble in the tags because my posts are structured by a sane person) (you should read the ramble in the tags i talk so much about rivers fsr)

I kinda feel like I've just hard erased any happiness or elation I had from being done with school all just so I wouldnt get asked a stupid question anymore I hate this I hate this

okay one level deeper in indie 80s comics and your just fucked for trying to find info online. but i thought ppl would really like this image

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Doré's original illustration, sans Orson.

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Silly goofy thing about me is that I will get the urge to move far away and get a gf. Everytime I have that phase it's a diffrent imaginary gf too. Sometimes I imagine myself abroad. Meeting her parents and laughing at the cultural diffrences together. Her making fun of me for being weirded out by the local foods.

But I think I'm certain that it's just an urge. If I tried I'd not only be unhappy and burned out after a week but also no one would really love me long term, not with how much of a freak I am overall. If I pursued this future I'd just end up in an unfamiliar place getting rejected over and over.

Hm. I am getting the distinct feeling that either revanced broke or some apps are doing smth real shitty

I fucking hate my fucking house so fucking bad. It's not even one thing it's everything. The people are insufferable, it's messy as fuck, it's old and coming apart, and no matter what I do to try and fix it or clean it up, my efforts are gone like THAT. NO one gives a shit. I fucking hate everything about this stupid fucking house I hate it so fucking much

I HAVE a Thought about jay walker and his comeback specifically in the next season. trying to understand the Psychology of these writers like i have a PHD in Ninjago writerology

i already have said that i really think cole is going to be the one to find jay, because of the whole set up in which nya said 'wu's voice led me to kai.' when cole starts hearing ghost wu talk. right. listen i will re-iterate that they genuinely wouldn't have had nya say this, if cole wasn't going to find..someone, because we (the audience) saw nya find kai! we watched it happen! we don't need to be told this disposition twice, unless its a reminder. which is also supported by how many times they mention something along the lines of '___ is still missing!'. and we know only two team members who are missing at this point. (three if you include Pixal, but i'd be so suprised if anyone but Zane finds her, if i know nj writers) i dont think it's going to be wu, because why would wu lead one of the ninja to himself when one of the team is still missing? wu will be found last, that is, if at all. so that leaves our guy.

but why cole? what is significant about cole finding jay? initially my one thing that was debunking this was this thought.. like why would they let cole run off on his own to get the silly guy back. especially if he made such a big deal out of staying back to protect geo and The Kids? but maybe the answer is actually pretty simple. maybe wu chose cole to do this, to get jay back, because it's canonly established that they are..they're just best friends? and guys, we all know what they say..

the best way to defeat ur enemy. yeah. u guys know. is to make them ur friend. micrdrop

maybe wu knows that jay has lost his memories, or his sense of self, and knowns that what it'll take to win him back is a close friend. we know cole canonly understands jay the best, (backed when he says 'dont try to lie to me, i know you two well')

another thing. it kind of just.. works? at the moment, cole is seperate from the rest of the team. like.. kai lloyd arin wildfyre nya sora are off doing their thing, zane and frohicky are back holding the fort, and cole is kinda rawdogging the merge by himself (+the found family). it makes sense for him to do this alone- plotwise (it's just neater. can u imagine the entire aformentioned gang pulling back up to admin trying to get him back? nightmare. wouldnt work) but also just because he's been basically separated this whole time.

i'd also like to imagine another crazy scene at the admin, where cole has to use his new powers to save jay out of corporate hell in some intense but also quite comedic way. but this is me getting ahead of myself. for now id like to leave this here

marshscott dialogue (1/???)

content: nathans working on trust issues

kate: ive never…like had any… uhh- *clear throat* lets just say…that im 'inexperienced' and youre my ‘first’ guy, so being with you.. is a new thing to me. ive always been distant myself around boys, my parents... they would be angry and disappointed if they knew about us…because they want me to be doing this sort of stuff...when im actually married *small sigh*

nathan: so youve been savin’ yourself for marriage this whole time? *chuckle* you hid this side of you cuz' you were scared that your parents might caught you breaking religious rules? yeah, that makes sense.. so why'd u agree to do it with me if you knew that being with me is kinda 'sinful' and it will only make it only worse? i dont understan-

kate: w-well...! i believe that...m-maybe we both gonna work this out and we eventually- *stop talking for awhile* nathan...why do u wanna be with me though? im a religious freak, and youre an atheist… is there.. any reason?

nathan: i have no fucking clue... i really dont okay? y'kno i dont really believe in any of those religious crap u mention about, i just think you were fun to hangout with, guess ive always had thing for religious girls anyway… *chuckle softly* maybe i like to experience with someone whos ACTUALLY different from me y'kno what i mean? i dont know how to word it well..but theres just something.. something about you that i really like alright? so tell me why u sticking with a douche guy like me anyway?

kate: mhm... youve got unique personalities... sure you can be a bit freaky sometimes but i tend to be the freakiest too so we're even *giggle* youre also look so gentle and charming when youre not being such a jerk to me... its like im talking to a different person..

nathan: maybe you should get your eyes checked then...still, that doesnt make any fucking sense right? i mean why the hell would u go that far with me though? its hard for me to give 100% trust on you...just wanna make sure you werent after me for damn money alright?

kate: good God nathan no! of course not! im not like those gold diggers youve been slept with! i-i swear okay..? believe me.. i never even saw you as my 'sugar daddy' i-i mean yeah sure youre rich, you have everything but that's not the reason i-

nathan: stop lying to me katie, the only reason you stuck with me cuz' im just a dumbass jock whos nothing but a spoiled prick little rich kid, just like any other stupid bimbos out there who kept using me for money. so yeah… i dont buy it, youre probably just using me too... *look away*

kate: *sigh* you right, youre such a dumb jock. cant u see that im being genuine this whole time? if you werent rich, id still want to be with you okay?? maybe i'd like you even more, so i wouldnt have to worry about you chasing me like im some kind of prey and treating me like one of your trophies collection... *frown*

nathan: you know what? big fucking thanks for giving me that ideas. maybe i should just go fuck around with other whore out there who isnt much loose as you, who can actually stand me, who isnt a clingy.. or someone who wont keeps whining being sensitive about everything like a fucking toodler. at least them hot chicks are wayyy more experienced more than you though.. youre all the same, just wanting me for cash! because thats what girls like you always do; an attention-starved whore who begged herself like a fucking dog in a heat!

kate: at least i still have some goddamn self-respect! you know what? maybe you should just be GAY instead because you sound like misogynist at this point. *sarcastic tone* and guess what? maybe i am clingy and sensitive; its one of those female traits you just have to deal with it but you cant! you know why?? because youre the most sexist guy ive ever met! and goodluck finding another dumb ho who can put up with your bullshit! *walk away*

note: i want them to at least hv a proper conversation afterward but hv no idea how to make it happen its a bit stretch to do so i just gave up lol

It will only ever be abuser logic for Lily to believe that it’s everybody else AROUND her that’s always been the problem, and never she herself.

its a mix of that and what was sold to her as a kid growing up.

Like yea lily is responsible for who she is today But it didnt help matters that the adults around her were saying all the same things.

Nothing ever WAS her fault, not if you asked our dad, or our mom, or the doctors, or the social workers. It was always "well she has xyz diagnosis so....."

thats why she clings so heavily to that kind of thinking now, its what she was taught growing up.

I was held responsible for my actions as a kid. If i did something wrong i was lectured for hours on end. And i got lectured A LOT. I was the "good kid" but thats COMPARED to lily. I still talked back to my parents all the time, called their bluff, didnt treat them as my parents other than on a surface level that we all knew was pretend.

I still skipped school, id just soften the blow of the lecture by cleaning the entire house while i was home alone. And its not like my grades suffered when i skipped school, i was a good student and had solid marks until my last year.

Hells i had a whole incident where my father searched around the trailer park for me in his car because the school called him and told him i had skipped ( i called in sick for myself it was SO OBVIOUS ) I hid in and cut through backyards to keep out of his sight while i watched him search for me.

Till I had my fill of the excitement of evading someone searching for you and walked the main road home so he could find me easy

i got screamed at that night. i also cry at the drop of a hat, its not something i like its actually really frustrating but its not something i can control. Any emotion extreme enough will activate my tear ducts. So id cry when i got lectured, wouldnt make a show of it would just keep my head down and try to hold the tears back

"stop crying or ill give you something to cry about" was something i heard OFTEN, from the man who used to hit me as a "game"

I got called a whore by my mother when i was 16 because i spent the day and evening with my at the time boyfriend (we dated for a hot minute in highschool i dont actually count it as a relationship) cuz he had a car, i MUST have been taking my pants off

didnt matter that i had a cell phone, was answering her texts AND calls while i was with him all day. Didnt matter that i had told her where id be and called her an hour before dinner to tell her i wouldnt be home for dinner because Wesley was taking me out.

"You were off doing gods knows what with that guy in his car" is what i got when i walked in the door

"Sorry mom, i may be your daughter but that doesnt mean im the whore you were. I dont open my legs for a car door" was my response

(Courtney thats mean) yea well dont slut shame your daughter after you told her you fucked dudes in parks without knowing their names

All because i went to dinner with my bf, after working all weekend and before i had to go back to school the next day

i always had to weigh the consequences of my actions against the outcome before doing them, because i was always going be lectured at the end of it. Even if i did the right thing it wasnt "right enough"

but Lily? oh well its not her fault you see, its the diagnosis whether shes threatening you with a knife or failing english class molesting you in your sleep or struggling with social cues

i think if i was the mayor of helsinki id host a huge music festival may of next year or something. i wouldnt give a damn lol. im not even sure mayors do that actually, maybe if i was a finnish event manager or something

Yle and Vantaa (Käärijä's hometown) were already planning a huge party for Käärijä, but it didn't happen from Käärijä's wish. He said it didn't feel right to have a marketplace party (Finland's way of celebrating winning, known as torijuhla) because he got silver.

Though I am fairly sure YLE will still be throwing some sort of a celebration party for him. And they are streaming his saturday consert for free!

But yeah a huge musical festivals would be so cool. Finland will not shut up about this years Eurovision for at least 100 years (were still talking about Juha Mieto's skiing lost from 1980, were long bitter) so why the hell not? I'm sure finns would love it, and we could invite Slovenia there. And everyone else who wants to come (expect Sweden cause their busy with Eurovision). Yeah sure, let's host a reunion party with a bunch of finnish music as a bonus. Maybe we could get Nightwish there too. And Lordi obviously. It's no Eurovision party without Lordi.

And honestly let's not end it there. This summer YLE should do a "whole Finland dances" event again during Juhannus (finnish midsummer holiday). We did it once with Robin's hula hula, and we definetly should do it with Cha cha cha. Basically all finns recorded a video of them dancing, sent it to YLE and then it was made into a tv show.

We need a Käärijä statue to Vantaa. They are already going to make a mural for him so why not go straight to the long lasting opinion? I want to have a Käärijä statue of him doing the human centipede.

And Käärijä obviously needs to be a quest at the Presidents house next december. We got to have him in a green bolero on that long ass line of people shaking hands (our way of celebrating independence day, we watch as people shake hands with our president)

Honestly we should just continue on with our Käärijä madness and ignore Sweden. Because in a way, Käärijä won the contest. And since we are already dressing all our statues as him, we should just continue on with this and maybe be even more unhinged. Our seal could really use some green boleros instead of an lion, you know.

hi cas!!

im gonna rant at you for a bit if you dont mind :)

Im a minor that lives in a super tight night, close minded community. Super religious, super homophobic transphobic ect. Seeing as im a teenage girl whose questioning their gender and is definitely attracted to women thats kinda problematic lols. Honestly idek how to explain the situation without a bunch of details, but basically, theres a fifty-fifty chance of me being sent to conversion therapy or just cut off from any internet access (and i mean ANY. i have a flip phone for fucks sake.)if my fam finds out im queer, i have no support system outside of some internet friends who know nothing about my situation, and within the next few years(so like once i turn 20ish, thats in like 4 years but whatever) my family is going to expect me to get married to a man and start popping out babies asap. Btw thats whats expected of me in this community, marriage under the age of 25, have like as many kids as physically possible and god forbid higher education. And im not okay with that . Ffs i want to go to college, major in fine arts, meet a person i like and fall desperately in love or maybe not just have a bunch of close platonic relationships i want cats and a dog and a cute studio in a big city where i can dye my hair whatever color i want aand get an obsene amount of piercings, i want to wear pants!! I just want to live. Without expectations or limits or people who love me hating everything they dont know about me. Is that truly so much to ask for?

And im incredibly dramatic cuz i literally have the dream life. My family loves me, my parents are upper middle class, theyve never hurt me before(besides for all the anti everything rants haha) i literally have a full sized bed, which for some reason i see as the peak of being spoiled idk why. I go to school, not even public, a private religious school that prob costs thousands of dollars, i have friends(who are all part of this community btw and id bet my entire savings that most of them think gay is only a word that ppl use to mean happy lol) close ones even!! I have adorable neices and nephews(my 3 sisters all were married by the age of 20, so i have 11 niecesand nephews while my oldest sister is 31) im living the dream life. But i hate it and i have no way out. No hope of college to get on my feet and find someway out, no people that'll help me fucking run away or some bullshit like that, hell ive considered it and then felt like shit, cuz what am i even running from? Im probably attracted to men it wont kill me to marry one. And i like kids, i wouldnt mind having any either. But.... i dont want to be trapped anymore. Cuz ill be honest thats what i am.if some one asked me to run away with them rn i would, no hesitation.

God im a mess😭😭 anyway this was me ranting in my notes app, im just apologizing for dumping this on a complete stranger(we're moots actually!!) albeit a very kind one :) i dont know what im looking for, but ill take whatever your comfortable giving ig.

I love and appreciate you<333

And hey this has been oddly cathartic so lmk if its okay for me to do this again sometime :))

"im living the dream life. But i hate it and i have no way out."

Hon, you're not living the dream life...there's a difference between financial privilege and being happy, you know? It's pretty clear that this isn't what you want.

I'm not sure if you're asking for my advice here, or if you just want to vent. But I care about you, and if you want me to research some things to try to help you, I'm more than willing to (that way it's not on your search history.) Just say the word!

Until then, you are ALWAYS allowed to vent to me.

I'm naming you venting anon in case you write again!

im in the closet and so is my bi bff. im genderfluid/pan and sometimes we joke about coming out to our parents (mostly me) but doubt itll ever happen due to how religious it would be (sometimes i dream about it tho... maybe more than her idk) and hypothetically just think about cutting everyone off and flying out to avoid the backlash (just being silly) and the "interventions" of spiels of how gays go to hell and God wouldnt like That (i am still a christian... somewhat i think and its not uncommon in the spaces ive been to have gay/trans people in the church spaces something about Anglican churches etc, in my country. i just dont have the same exact beliefs as my parents)

sometimes i lie awake about the implications of coming out, the worst case scenario, how id probably no one to tell my achievements anymore, no one to be happy for me the way they had, no one to comfort me or be there when i get married etc. and i joked about how id just get up and leave and fuckall if i die alone to my friend even tho it fills me with loneliness and sadness ;w; anyway um she suddenly took one of my jokes seriously one night and say to me that she'll probably never come out because she loves her parents too much and i just idk. felt hurt. did she think i didnt love them either? i think she didnt mean it that way and i cleared it out that i was just joking about my plans bcuz idk if i want to do it actually (tho i feel like its an inevitable canon plot point with every trans ppl atp) but i just think about it sometimes. i love them but yk. i want to live.

maybe i wont actually cut them off as they try to process that but idk.

i dont think they'll like hurt me or anything but mentally and emotionally probably yes. i dont think i want to be in the closet forever?? idk im just sad about what she said ngl. and my future.

sorry just had to vent

don't be sorry

it sucks that your parents arnt supportive, but your friend is wrong, coming out DOES NOT mean you dont love them!

im in the closet and so is my bi bff. im genderfluid/pan and sometimes we joke about coming out to our parents (mostly me) but doubt itll ever happen due to how religious it would be (sometimes i dream about it tho... maybe more than her idk) and hypothetically just think about cutting everyone off and flying out to avoid the backlash (just being silly) and the "interventions" of spiels of how gays go to hell and God wouldnt like That (i am still a christian... somewhat i think and its not uncommon in the spaces ive been to have gay/trans people in the church spaces something about Anglican churches etc, in my country. i just dont have the same exact beliefs as my parents)

sometimes i lie awake about the implications of coming out, the worst case scenario, how id probably no one to tell my achievements anymore, no one to be happy for me the way they had, no one to comfort me or be there when i get married etc. and i joked about how id just get up and leave and fuckall if i die alone to my friend even tho it fills me with loneliness and sadness ;w; anyway um she suddenly took one of my jokes seriously one night and say to me that she'll probably never come out because she loves her parents too much and i just idk. felt hurt. did she think i didnt love them either? i think she didnt mean it that way and i cleared it out that i was just joking about my plans bcuz idk if i want to do it actually (tho i feel like its an inevitable canon plot point with every trans ppl atp) but i just think about it sometimes. i love them but yk. i want to live.

maybe i wont actually cut them off as they try to process that but idk.

i dont think they'll like hurt me or anything but mentally and emotionally probably yes even if they probably mean well. i dont think i want to be in the closet forever?? idk im just sad about what she said ngl. and my future.

sorry just had to vent

i just dont think she gets how painful itd be to me. my parents and their extended family are Baptists. she has mostly catholic relatives (which in my experience from school and friends and gay teachers etc is more accepting ngl) and her dad is pretty accepting, having a brother who is gay and stuff. i dont wanna do a suffering olympics here but the more i think about forever in the closet the more i wanna puke lol

I have a religious family (Catholic), and I'm still religious as well. You wanting to come out to your family is not selfish or "proving you don't love them" in any way. You are who you are and you can't change that. You don't always have to rely on your family to get those feelings of achievement, love, happiness. You can make some friends who will basically become a second family, and they will be there to be happy for you and support you.

Catholics may be a bit more supportive than Baptists (idk I haven't met anyone who's Baptist), but they aren't super supportive (maybe that's just my family idk), but my family probably isn't the best example.

Anyway, you won't be stuck in the closet forever. Once you get old enough to move out, you aren't under your parents' rules anymore. If you ever need to vent some more, you can send me a message or an ask 💖

what do you think would happen if characters who are not Araragi helped clean Kanbaru's bedroom?

oh hell yea asks like these are so fun

well we see what at least one of these is. in the light novels ougi shows up to "help clean her room" which he mostly does not do but any of it that he does do is him throwing her stuff around completely carelessly and putting a hole in her wall, basically

characters who would help... hanekawa, hachikuji, karen, tsukihi, nadeko, and sodachi. itd all be in different ways though. hanekawa would be the most efficient, organizing piles and labeling systems, and even finding a way to keep things from getting messy in the future (which kanbaru would try to follow out of guilt if she didnt go along with tsubasa's efforts). hachikuji would help but she'd be bantering a lot which would decrease the speed and she wouldn't really put things away she'd just stack piles of things. it would be really good banter though. karen would be reverent for her master and help with all the fire of a pyromaniac. shed be fast but youd have to direct her Exactly What To Do otherwise she'd probably do something silly that doesnt help at all. or she'd peek into a book and get caught up in it. karen yaoi initiation tsukihi would be good at it. she would help kanbaru clean up her room and be uncannily good at it. she wouldnt give kanbaru an organization system like tsubasa though. shed just have a nice conversation while she was doing it nadeko wouldnt want to help, but she would out of a sense of obligation to kanbaru. she wouldnt be particularly good at it but it would get the job done. sodachi i think would actually help post naoetsu. maybe as a strategy to get to know kanba better, or try to look cool. she wouldnt really be that good at it either id imagine

looks like kanbaru has options... many desired effects to choose from

and then there are those who would not help. senjougahara, shinobu, yotsugi. uh yeah. they wouldnt help. senjo wouldnt deign to (and kanbaru wouldnt ask her), shinobu would see it as beneath her (and/or break things), and yotsugi would use unlimited rulebook and like bust a hole in her wall

the difference b/w any one of these and koyomi is that shed have to ask for help. koyomi just cleans it all on his own. ougi would also help unprompted, but that's ""help"" with extremely cautionary quotation marks. tsukihi might also offer