TŘI OŘÍŠKY PRO POPELKU/DREI HASELNÜSSE FÜR ASCHENBRÖDEL 1973 | dir. Václav Vorlíček

GIRLFRIEND PROJECT DAY 1

You were mean to me on our first meeting. Why are you talking impolitely? You were worse than me. Maybe? But...why are you still here with me while you think I’m mocking you? Well...

A Logical Love Doesn’t Exist

In this episode, Lomfon wants to know how he feels, who he likes. Sometimes the person we feel most unfamiliar with is ourselves, and for a person as logical as Lomfon, it can be hard to wrap his head around his feelings especially when they don’t make sense to him. He shares similar interests with Tai, they get along easily, so why does he also feel drawn to Tien? The concept of soulmates also doesn’t make total sense to him, but if he is soulmates with Tai, then that provides him an answer to who he should be in love with. He’s searching for some way to navigate his confusion, and although its an imperfect compass, being soulmates with Tai provides an answer, even if it’s not necessarily an emotionally honest answer.

Earlier in the series we also see Tien confront this question of how he feels. He goes around holding other people’s hands because he doesn’t understand what he felt when Lomfon held his hand in the classroom. They argue. They don’t get along. Liking Lomfon doesn’t make sense, but he can’t deny how he feels around him; he can’t help that he cares about him.

Tien has no hearing loss, no soulmate, nothing to guide him or influence his thinking but his heart. So he accepts his feelings for Lomfon.

And then we have this shitshow.

Lomfon is hurt and confused, and he lashes out at Tien, one of the sources of his confusion. It doesn’t make sense to love Tien. It makes more sense to love Tai, which is how Lomfon ends up on this date with Tai. And Tien is left behind. Because Lomfon doesn’t want to love him. He wants his love to be logical. But that’s not how the heart works. And so he is left confused, Tai and Phat are left sad and angry, and Tien is left heartbroken.

No one asks Tien how hurt he is. Tien doesn’t even elaborate on his pain. He’s angry at Lomfon for throwing Tai’s relationship into chaos, but he pauses when Lomfon says that he’s hurting. Ultimately, he doesn’t want any of the people he loves to be in pain, whether that be Tai or Lomfon. And he doesn’t mention his feelings until Lomfon tells him that this is none of his business:

(This scene just shatters me. My heart will be here, broken with Tien, for the rest of the week. The fact that now is the time when he confesses his feelings, when he’s so sure that Lomfon doesn’t love him, or at least doesn’t want to love him… I just… can’t.)

The concept of soulmates in his universe isn’t something inherently romantic. It’s something that creates confusion, causes doubt and fear. It becomes a crutch and an excuse in some cases. Lomfon doesn’t know how he feels? Well, he can avoid thinking about his feelings for Tien if he just accepts that Tai is his soulmate. Phat is afraid of his relationship failing like what happened with Nara? Well, he doesn’t have to worry about that with Tai since Tai is his soulmate. But both of them are forced to face these things in this episode, when their status as “soulmates” is ripped away from them. There is no magic answer. There is no perfect fix. Confusion and fear are things that they have to work through themselves. Tien already worked through his confusion about his feelings. Tai worked through his fears about being in a relationship that has no guarantees of a happily-ever-after. And now its Lomfon and Phat’s turns to do the same.

i'm not super into star trek novels and the beta canon and whatnot but i'm so glad that i read Last Best Hope because it really makes Picard s1 infinitely better on rewatch (and i say this as a Picard enjoyer/defender). like 100% recommend if you're even a little bit interested in Picard era worldbuilding.

Finished Miles Morales again while of course cried and losing my mind were Phin and Miles foreshadowing Peter and Harry. Is it so. Are our best friends our greatest enemies but we still love them anyway. Will Peter forgive Harry for all the destruction but still have to lose him. MJ will also be there.

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saw dune 2 and it was fantastic. my no-spoiler review is they really went nuts making the harkonnen as creepy and gross as they possible could and i respect them for that. also. Big Worm.

no more woobification make your faves worse .

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I will only look at you forever. I will only make you happy. I will only love you.

Will you be my queen?

((I'm still super salty that a long time mutual labeled me as transphobic cuz I didn't care if people played that stupid Hogwartz game. They wanted me to watch a hour long video about how it's transphobic to play it or something, and then when I no longer wanted to talk about it, she got really upset and kept pushing the topic. And then when I ignored it she blocked me everywhere.

I'm trans.. I'm genderfluid / NB.

Episode 24 – A Piece of the Puzzle is (finally) out now

With 38% of the votes, our story continues on the 2nd path once more.

Rena and her companions split up to figure out what's going on with Silac and the Crow. Rena accompanies Rodrick to Hrevim's library to learn more about the inscription on the bird figurine and the Crow's other practices, but she'll find out much more than initially thought.

I truly apologize for how late this episode is. It somehow ended up taking way longer to edit than previous episodes. Also if some of the characters sound sick that is an artistic choice and definitely not because I’ve been sick for over a week ….

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I finished rewatching Total Drama Island (and I only almost threw up five or so times. All on episode 25. I only had to stop watching for, like, five minutes though. Whoever came up with that episode is seriously fucked up, but I can’t help but to respect it.)

I just think that rewatching Island is hilarious with the foresight of World Tour existing. They could not have set up Heather’s future narrative mirror any better if they tried, like, it’s kind of amazing! I mean, I’m sure the creators had some idea that the show would continue, but that had to be near the end right? Otherwise, I’d have to assume that the creators gave so many of the characters nice, happy endings with the intention to fuck them up. Which, the creators did create TDI episode 25, so it isn’t outside the realm of possibility, but-

Anyway, none of that’s the point. Heather having to deal with Heather 2: Electric Boogaloo is the funniest thing they could have made happen in World Tour. I know it’s a redemption arc, and I think they couldn’t have given Heather a redemption arc if they tried anything else. Like, if Heather was antagonized and antagonizing Alejandro, who Noah says best is just like Heather only prettier more socially adept, Heather would never be redeemed. Some of the stuff she does in the first season is just cruel for the sake of being cruel. If they tried to redeem her any other way than making her deal with herself 2.0, it just wouldn’t have worked.

(And it wouldn’t have been as funny)

I really liked a lot of the episodes. It really takes me back to my childhood, you know? I was only 6 when Island first premiered. I didn’t understand a single thing going on. I think I liked Leshawna because I liked her shirt. And, Leshawna, I feel, definitely has the least second-hand embarrassmant scenes, so that was probably a part of it. I liked DJ because I could relate to his anxiety. Even at 6. That’s probably a bad thing, huh…

Anyway, point being, I totally watched this show as a kid and I absolutely hated every other moment and wanted to die and understood approximately none of what was going on (as a kid andanadultcoughcough I tended to zone out. I missed a lot of plot in movies and tv shows. I was busy thinking about something else) and I think I only watched the show because I wasn’t supposed to. My brothers told me not to, so I went out of my way to. Success.

I do think the series’ humour peaked in World Tour (“If it’s any consolation, you do get *gestures to Tyler falling down the side of a pyramid*” This makes me laugh every time. The line delivery, the timing, even the animation- everything is wonderful. Not to mention Tyler climbing the fence in Area 51 and getting electrocuted and Duncan and Alejandro going in through the open gate. Tyler is the funniest character in all of Total Drama (that I know of, which is seasons 1-3) and I will fight you on that.) but Island is still very amusing. DJ screaming at Heather, her saying “stop, it’s me, Heather,” he stops, then starts screaming again. A little joke I don’t see people mention a lot is Chef saying “25 of us went in, only 5 of us came out,” twice. The second time always gets me. Chef telling Chris he’s an inspiration while cradling Chris in his arms is only as funny as it is because of Chris awkwardly saying “thanks, dude.”

I really like all the characters. Watching it again, there really aren’t any characters I actively hate. I mean, Ezekiel just isn’t in the show long enough for me to hate him, and even Heather has her most redeeming quality (being very funny). The characters are fun to watch interact. I really like Geoff, who was voted off for being too good of a person. Of course I really like Leshawna, who connected the sewage pipe to the showers while Heather was showering to get revenge, which was just really satisfying. I like Gwen and Owen, especially because they’re just the most unlikely duo of all time and their friendship is kinda cute. Noah is fun if only because he is very obviously a 2007 stereotype of a gay man: calling people “honey,” being sarcastic, his voice, hanging around mostly with girls, not liking traditionally masculine things (sports), limp wrist, the scathing way he talks to people (he did kiss a dude that one time but it was in his sleep, so I’ll give him a pass on that one. Plus, it wasn’t even the only scene of a dude kissing another dude. Owen kisses dudes. Kissing someone’s ear and people’s cheeks, I just don’t know if I buy that being significant in any way other than the creators making gay jokes). Noah was obviously meant to be a gay caricature only for the creators to figure out he was a fan favourite and give him a girlfriend, most likely at the behest of the studio. Honestly, I wouldn’t be surprised if Noah’s popularity in the first season stemmed entirely from him being a gay caricature. 2007, man. Things were wild.

I guess you could say that I sort of understand Noah’s popularity, especially coming from seasons where he was not the third person to be booted, but also I don’t? He’s funny, which is enough for me to like him, but I don’t know if others agree. In fact, I can almost guarantee there are people who disagree, because I like Heather for the same reason, and people have claimed that no one should like Heather. Unfortunately, she made me giggle once, and now I will defend her to the death. That’s just the way I am, sadly, and I can’t change it, nor do I particularly want to.

Speaking of Heather, I really enjoyed the running gag of Chef being a good chef who purposefully makes terrible food for the campers. I like when he complains about no one showing any gratitude for him slaving over a hot stove all day. I really like that he seems to hate Owen, because he just can’t gross Owen out, but he also seems to like Owen, because Owen compliments his cooking.

Owen is such a weird character, because he is the butt (pun intended) of so many gay jokes. But my favourite Owen bit is him in the confessional spilling all of his secrets because the confessional makes him want to confess everything. Also, Mr. Coconut. Also also, Owen easily defeating the snake keeping them up in the treehouse and, upon being asked why he didn’t do it earlier, him saying “What, and miss out on all of this bonding?” I love Owen.

I quite enjoyed watching the show. It is nice to understand what’s going on. And to understand the jokes. And to realize how weird it is that Lindsay couldn’t talk about eating disorders or boob jobs but Harold could talk about seeing boobies (on American television). And now I get how weird it is that they aged down the cast, yet kept the adult themes. I mean, the teens very rarely act like teenagers, they more act like college students than high school ones, and the discrepancy between their ages and the ages they were meant to be portrayed as is incredibly funny to me.

All in all, I will continue to watch the show’s seasons. Because it’s either that, or pull my hair out trying to get myself to hyperfixate on something else. I can’t guide my hyperfixations, I can only ride them. And this is what my mind wants to focus on. I don’t really have a choice, y’know? If I did, I think I would choose literally any other show (any other show that didn’t make me almost throw up a dozen times). There are worse shows to fixate on, but there are definitely better ones too.

Anybody else ship Buffy/Oz?

Anyone?

...Bueller?

Okay, on the off chance it's not just me out here - Heterosexual Lesbians (Enjoy Yourself) by gloss is very good. Sweet, smutty, and incredibly hot.

save me night dew serenade....save me.....

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