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ok ok ok shy virgin law.. imagine giving him a blow job for the first time. he’d be such a mess, not knowing what to do, where to put his hands.. he’d probably be such a moaning mess

Oh my god…. This is so 🥴 and I think abt this ALL THE TIME too…. Law really has me in a chokehold bc I’ve always disliked the thought of giving a bj to a man…. And yet I’d gladly do it for him 😭 I hope this lines up with what you want, I kinda got carried away lol.

Warnings: obviously smut, oral sex, afab reader (no pronouns)

I’m gonna go with this happening before he and reader have actual p-in-v sex, just to make it so much more… idk, better? Can’t think of words lol.

Anyway, Law would be terrified and yet embarrassingly excited. You promised early in the day to do it that evening, after everyone else had gone to bed. Law hadn’t even asked, either. You simply noticed the way he stared at your lips with lust, the obvious and poorly hidden hard on he had from the idea, giving everything away to you.

Law’s sitting in his desk chair, waiting for you to get out of the shower. When you emerge from the bathroom, you’re only wearing a bra and shorts that don’t hide much, hair still wet from your shower. Law grips the sides of his chair, biting down on his lip as he grows embarrassingly hard.

You approach him, cupping his face in your hands and kissing him, running a hand through his hair soothingly, before you slowly sink down to your knees, placing your hands on Law’s jeans as you now kneel before him.

“Just breathe, baby,” you say, trying to comfort him. “I’ll take care of you, okay?”

Law nods, though he’s hesitant and his ears are turning red. His cock is straining against his jeans, practically begging to be freed. With a sultry giggle, you unzip his jeans and get down to his length, freeing it. “All this for me? So cute,” you lick your lips as you stare at his cock.

He’s painfully hard, his tip hot and red as it’s already leaking pre-cum. You can hear Law panting and you haven’t even properly touched him yet. You place one hand near the top, rubbing your thumb over his tip and smearing the pre-cum around. Your other hand lands near the base of him, holding onto his length firmly. “Such a pretty cock,” you say, the words nearly coming out as a moan.

With that, you lick a stripe up his shaft, and when you reach the top, your tongue darts out to give him little kitten licks, lapping up the pre-cum which oozes out of him. You kiss the tip and wrap your lips around it, swirling your tongue around it as you slowly begin to suck.

Law’s already a mess, and you’ve barely gotten started. He’s watching you intently, face burning red, body tense and hands gripping onto his chair for dear life. You bring a little more of his cock into your mouth, before looking up at him. You moan around his cock, sending vibrations throughout him. Law’s head falls backward, a whimper escaping his lips. You take this as a sign to keep going, and so you sink further down, taking more and more of him into your mouth. He’s basically in your throat now, and you decide to give Law a few moments to get used to it.

He’s shaking, weak moans leaving him as he writhes underneath your touch. He quickly brings a hand to his mouth, trying to cover up the embarrassing noises. You decide to reach up, grabbing his wrist as you guide his hand lower to rest in your hair.

His fingers tangle into your hair, holding on a bit too tightly, but really, that makes it all the more exciting.

Deciding it’s time, you begin to move your head, sliding your lips around his length as you struggle to fit all of him. It’s evident that you can’t, so you take one hand away from his thighs and wrap it around the bottom part of his cock, gently squeezing him.

Choosing to push your limits, you try opening your mouth as wide as possible, pushing your head down as he slides into your throat. Law moans and begs, your name falling from his lips like a prayer. He hesitantly places his other hand onto your head, so you decide to place your free hand onto his, pushing him slightly to encourage him more. If anything, you want him to grab you by the hair and fuck your throat.

“Y/n… I can’t- fuck, feels- good,” he whines, involuntarily bucking his hips upwards, sending his cock further into your throat. You gag, wet noises leaving you as you almost struggle to breathe. But it’s not enough. You want more.

You need to speak, though, so you pull away, his cock falling out of your mouth with a loud ‘pop’ saliva spilling from your lips and dripping from his wet cock.

“Fuck my face, Law,” you beg, resting your ass on your feet to lower yourself even more. “I wanna choke on your cock, baby. Stand up.”

He obeys, and a loud, guttural moan leaves Law’s mouth as he hears your filthy words, but you don’t waste any time, wrapping your lips around his length once again, taking all of him back inside as he now stands before you.

When you’re situated, Law hesitantly thrusts just a little bit, his hands fisted into your hair, tugging on it tightly. He hardly moves within your mouth, though, so you try moaning to encourage him.

The feeling makes him thrust again, but much more harshly this time. Law begins to lose control, a mixture of crying moans, whimpers, and babbles of how good you feel leaving him as he fucks your mouth.

You’re choking on his cock, just like you wanted. Tears start to slip from your eyes, but you don’t mind. Your cunt is throbbing with need, aching as you’re so incredibly turned on from having your mouth used like a toy.

Law’s movements become much more sloppy than before, and through his moans he’s panting, heavy breaths leaving him. You know he’s close, so you start moaning again, the noises creating more good feelings within his cock.

With one particularly loud, whiny cry, Law slams your head down before holding you in place, his body trembling and hips shaking as his hot cum begins to spill into your throat.

When he stops cumming, Law pulls back, his cock sliding out of your mouth. You start to cough, a mixture of cum and spit spilling from your lips and onto your chin, then dripping down to your chest.

“You came so much, baby… was it that good?”

Law nods, though he’s trying to hide his face as he’s clearly embarrassed.

“Don’t be shy, Law,” you giggle, giving his soaked cock one more kiss before standing up and wrapping your arms around him. “How will you get inside my cunt if you’re trying to hide from me?”

Law freezes, his body still tense and hot as you hold him. “I’m kidding, we can wait.”

But Law shocks himself, “n-no. I- I wanna feel your i-insides, y/n. Fuck, that was so good.” He hardly sounds like himself as he speaks, and you giggle in response. Now you’ve got Law craving to be deep inside you.

And you’ll gladly let him in.

OMG OMG ok so like what if sev like was dealing with a really drunk reader and (when you say things when your drunk their sober thoughts) SO LIKE reader is saying all these nice things about Sevika and how much they want her baby’s and get married to her and how drop dead gorgeous she really is while laying in her bed and then at the end reader climbs on top of sev and raps their arms around her neck nuzzling their head into the crook of her neck. And whispers to her “I really mean all of this cause Ik you think I’m only saying it cause I’m sooooooo tipsyyyy *giggle* goodnight sevyyyy” and they like pass out. I wonder how sev would react. I was wondering if you could write this thought I have into like scenarios or a fanfic if not that’s totally fine I completely understand YOUR WRITINGS ARE AMAZING I LOVE THEM 💗💗💗💗 sending lots of loveee to youuu hun!

a/n: I love love love love this pls 😭 i would have done modern!sevika but.... also, sorry this is taking so long to get out, im not okay mentally, and the amount of times I have redone this bc it sucked makes me sick. slightly tweaked some stuff but it's there i swear. Idk how i feel about this i won't lie. ilysm w/c: 1.1k

───── LIQUORED UP

First of all, out of the two, Sevika can handle her alcohol so much better than you. So after a few glasses of whatever you had chosen to drink, you're already giggly and hammered by her side, mumbling out random sentences that make no sense but, you're happy, she can see you're happy and enjoying yourself.

"C'mon Sweetheart, drink some water then we can go home yeah? That's it, gotta take care of my girl"

You're extra clingy whenever you drink, so even though you were drunk out of your mind, you both knew it was going to take a little longer to leave the bar, and go home. she's protective of you anyway, but knowing you're drunk she's more protective, holding you close to her, keeping her hand on your lower back. although if you can barely stand, then she's carrying you in her strong arms. (yummy)

You know when a kid likes to run off because they've seen something that makes them happy? You're like that, all excited and gushy about everything, so she has to make sure to hold onto you just a little tighter, pushing people away just to be able to get you out the bar, and on the right path to your home. she could literally lose you amongst people so she needs to take extra precaution.

"Vika, don't wanna move.."

"Hey, i know, but won't it feel good to get home and be warm? it's not that much further"

I can imagine the slow walk home, she's holding you up and guiding you the whole way. chuckling but smiling at how much you're stumbling, obviously she won't let you fall but she just thinks it's cute :( and the way you're rambling about stuff that still makes no sense? girl got it bad for you.

drunk as hell, giggly as fuck but to her you looked so free and so beautiful. sure your makeup was now ruined because of how much you laughed and the tears staining your now rosy cheeks from crying because you had laughed so much, so hard but she's never seen you be such a free spirit in this world. you were truly the definition of perfection.

it wasn't long until she had taken it upon herself to carry you the rest of the way home like she did every time you got drunk. worried you'd end up falling and severely hurting yourself. it was like having your guardian angel. she truly did protect you, even more in a vulnerable state. "you're so strong, Vika.." You'd mutter, giggling into the skin of her neck, oblivious to the sudden heat rising there.

"yeah? does it impress you, Sweet?"

"mhm, all the time.."

it was a gentlewoman thing she did, she will neve lets you untie or take off your own shoes. that was her job, and always do things for you when you weren't completely 100% there. your drunk brain had you swaying, hand on her broad shoulder, trying to keep yourself up as she carefully slipped them off your sore feet, shoving them by the door. so gentle and caring towards you. "so kind to me, what would i do without you, Sev?"

"sleep without me pestering you for a kiss before i go to work every morning is a start. Go and get these clothes off, I'll bring you some water and something to eat, sober you up a little alright?"

the room was cold, too cold for your liking but that was your own fault for leaving the window wide open, knowing Sevika would complain about the chill, still though without a doubt would cuddle you to warm you up. she was so loving towards you, even if you did have days where you were a brat, endlessly annoying the shit out of her. she never shouted at you, or complained, she just loved you and took care of you.

"Hey, got your snacks and water. lemme take your makeup first then you can eat this, and sleep, okay?"

Another thing she did, won't even let you take your own makeup because she simply enjoyed doing that for you. you were also drunk as fuck so you would miss every patch. you watched in awe, watched the way she was quick to rush into the bathroom, coming back seconds later with a damp cloth. "Vika, can i tell you something..?"

She found it amusing you spoke like you were trying to tell her some sort of secret, but shook her head amused anyway. "give me a minute Sweetness, gotta get this off your face. you'll wakeup and cry if i don't"

the movement of the cloth against your face was slow, gentle even. she never rushed this part, she adored the way you looked at her with soft wide eyes, a small pout and overly entranced with her. loved to stroke your face, admiring you. booping your nose, adored the giggle she gained from her action. "You're so beautiful Vika.." you sigh, poking her cheek.

"Me? you should see you, angel"

alcohol made you more tired than usual, so it wasn't a surprise to Sevika when you crawled onto her body, snuggling your face into her neck, that deep blush returning on your face when she pulls you more into her chest. "Vika can i tell you now?"

"Right, of course Sweet"

"Just really want you to know that i think you are so beautiful.. i don't know why you don't accept my compliments or whatever.. but i hope you know that I'm telling the truth.. I'd never lie to you.. you're so pretty.. so pretty i want to cry when someone else looks at you, but i can't blame them.. you're the prettiest of all pretty things.. you wanna know something else? wanna marry you Vika, you make me feel so safe and loved.. you're so kind and gentle with me.. i wanna wake up to know you're my wife.. wanna have children with you.. grow up so they can be strong like you are.. kind like you are.. really want a family with you Vika.. love you so much.."

the abrupt end to your giggle told her your ass somehow quickly fell asleep, head snuggled right in the crook of her neck, your breath fanning her now hot skin. she didn't ignore your compliments, she loved them but she kept it hidden because she's never been told how beautiful she is. until she met you.

her heart was beating way too fast, the heat on her face was oblivious to you in your deep slumber but she felt warm. your words warmed her heart. you have had this feeling and thought for a while? to marry her? you wanted to start a family with her? have children together? the hand on your back halted, and lips grazed your forehead.

"I'd marry and have a family with you in a heartbeat, Sweetheart"

Such a weird outing, we went to Michaels which was a first for both of us, stores are still doing Black Friday sales but it’s midday on a Wednesday so yknow not a lot of people are at stores at that time. Still pretty busy though but not too bad

She nailed walking through the doorway and not sniffing the carpet, we did some back and forths along the exterior to get the store smells before entering and that seemed to help her a lot. She took about 30 seconds to just observe the environment and scent the air then clicked right in to work mode. The store was dead quiet which meant that every product falling, machine beeping, and cart clattering was random and startling- after the first two random sounds she realized it was normal and didn’t have any further issues/ losing focus due to clattering sudden sounds.

She was more unfocused than usual today, needed me to cue some leave it’s, pause walking to have her fix her position, and actually cue focus a couple of times. Each time I cued she immediately responded and adjusted as needed so I’m really happy about that, she was just very interested in the environment today. She was seeming a bit exciteable and like she had some pent up energy when we got started to I believe that’s what was making this so hard for her.

The bane of my existence today was a single red floor pom pom, food on the floor? Not an issue. People calling to her? Not an issue. Scented products and potpourris? Easy peasy. A single pom pom on the floor? WHAT IS THAT I GO SEE IT?????

She did great ignoring people, even the one who just reached down to greet her for no apparent reason. But this ONE person she really struggled with????? They were minding their own business and she just had such a hard time disengaging and ignoring them idk what it was with this person but man it was HARD for her.

They were restocking so she got some good practice ignoring things on the floor and in her walkway, sniffed one box then realized what the goal was and ignored the rest, plus got some practice for squeezing in tight spaces when we both can’t fit.

She held some downs while I looked for stuff really well, no issues with things crinkling above her head or me stepping a few steps away (I don’t like going further than that personally, people do dumb shit).

She successfully alerted to a 150hr which I ended up catching on camera (above) and then I did have to sit down while she did some DPT, she did all of that flawlessly.

Finished off with her holding a down while I did the self checkout which I’m super proud of her for bc it was busy, people were zooming by closely, and the worker monitoring the zone would pop by to gather peoples baskets so they popped right next to Yo to ask to take ours and Yoshi maintained her position well unfazed/ uninterested in the person. A little bit of her drifting forwards towards the exit which is a big area we’re working on but she is showing a lot of improvement there.

Just a weird day with a lot of things I wish were better but also? She literally did her job despite being pretty effin distracted today? So I don’t know how mad I can really be about that 😂

Also honestly wondering if maybe she wasn’t That Bad it’s just that my anxiety was high in a new place and PA is new for us so Imposter Syndrome. Realistically it wasn’t that bad I just know it can be better so yknow, we’ll work on making it better and figuring out what went wrong today.

(But also look how stress free and happy n peppy she looks! Love a joyous working lil lady)

Yuna x you theme park date, fluff prompt/idea

i literally love you lily this is so soft <3 let's try a fall carnival bc its fall and i'm pretty sure there are mini carnivals out there where people make cute memories from uwu enjoy~

if you had one goal it would be to win your girlfriend a stuffed animal at the carnival the one she always talked about and pointed at everytime you would passby. after saving some money you eagerly countdown the days until it opened and you both had a free day. "don't we look like the cutest girlfriends ever~ i can't wait to show you off this time button." (shit i'm soft for this nickname now T_T) rolling your eyes you let yuna drag you inside the fall themed event. "what should we do first? get some pumpkin pie, play in the bumper cars, go on the ferris wheel-" putting a finger to her lips you shake your head and smile.

"nope! i'm going to do the thing i've always watned to do for you~" cupping her face you place a light peck on her lips before drawing her attention to the infamous game yuna's eyes widen as she looks at you.

"button…you're-you're going to get it finally? my dream teddy? are you serious? is that why you've been practicing your pitching skills with ryujin unnie all this time?" nodding yuna pecks your lips back and smiles. "you know…even if you don't get it its fine i'll always love you…just a tad a less." in a teasing voice she escapes your grip and rushes over to the stall. following after her you pay the worker for some balls and warm up your hands. taking a look at your excited girlfriend you hope and wish that all those weeks of practice would be worth it to see her beaming with pride. closing your eyes you take a deep breath, aim for the already rigged tin cans and throw the ball with all your might…

"…kill me…please yuna just do it, i'm tired of living."

"button it's just a teddy bear. it's not worth all of your savings, i could buy the bear off amazon or something-"

"nooooo i wanted to be the one to win and hand it to you, i'm your girlfriend and i had one job-" cupping your face in her hands she makes you look at her straight in the eye with a serious look.

"button, listen to the words that ar going to come out of my mouth right now- i didn't fall in love with your pitching skills i fell for the annoyingly stubborn girl with the pretty eyes that can match my stubborness and keep me in check." blinking you take a look into her geunine eyes and feel a smile slowly grow on your face. "so stop being so negative and lets go eat some candy apples and crash your stress away with some bumper cars ok?" giving her a small nod yuna's serious face turns upside down, taking your hand she starts dragging you toward the food booths and together

enjoying your time together you feed each other candy apples and enjoy a very sweet kiss while waiting in line for the bumper cars. yuna shows you no mercy as you crash multiple times against each other with you almost losing your phone as she literally rear ends you while you try to record her having a good time to upload to SNS. taking a bathroom break yuna runs off leaving you alone for a few minutes, looking around the fairly crowded carnival you spot the same booth from before and feeling the last of your funds in you pocket. debating you decide to give it one last try and either the worker was showing you pity from spending an hour there earlier or you got some ryujin like strength but you manage to knock out all the tins and win the prize your girlfriend wanted. beaming with joy you quickly rush back to where you had left her and hide the toy behind your back the best you could.

"hey button i-" pausing her steps she sees some fur stick out from behind you. "um…what is-OMG BUTTON YOU DIDN'T!!!" covering her mouth yuna squeals as you reveal the stuffed teddy and hold it out for her.

"i did!! yuna my love, my angel, my spoiled princess i got you the teddy! who's the best-umph!" unable to finish your sentence yuna engufls both you and the toy in a big hug and messy lip lock laughing the whole time. pulling away you hold her waist as she hugs the bear.

"button oh my gosh you're amazing!! you're the best girlfriend ever~ this day just got 3000% times more better!! i love you so much right now!" kissing your lips once more her squeals get louder drawing the attention of the crowd around you. too excited to care you spin her around smiling.

"i love you even more yuna, but now….shall we find our new child a sibling~?”

“BUTTON!!!”

Okay, like, Matt’s been in AH videos BEFORE he was even hired. Wasn’t the first Minecraft we saw him in Griffball? And everyone in AH immediately liked him bc he smacked Gavin? Like, we as a community knew axialmatt, and were excited when the guys played one of his maps! And then he and Jeremy (AH fan artist AND fan fiction extraordinaire) get hired to do their DREAM job! And I hate to say a good chunk of the community took a LONG time to warm up to them (especially Matt, but Ray leaving soon after they were hired I think really threw a wrench in things too), but eventually they got comfortable and clicked into their places in AH, and it was like they were there the whole time!

And especially recently, Matt specifically has been KILLING it! He’s so creative, and funny, and his humor is sarcastic and dry, but he’s GENUINELY so kind, you can just tell. Like, this sucks, everyone’s pissed, WB are burning their company to the ground and idk if RT has any way of getting out of there, but they really need to, bc this is only the beginning.

Challenge Accepted and the Randomizers are, imo, the best content in AH right now. I even watched the Raft series, even though I have no interest in that game, bc Matt kept me there! Shark mage was the best! I love the rest of the cast, I really do, but at this point in AH’s life, Matt and Michael are def my fav members. It just sucks, I’m taking it better than when Ray left (I was a damn mess through that;;), but maybe that’s bc he’s still PT? We’ll see how long that lasts, I’ve really been enjoying seeing him in Chilled’s Among Us lobbys, and if he had more time to devote to streaming, he’ll prob hang out with that crowd more, which would be awesome tbh.

Does anyone know if he has a YT VOD channel? I have a thing, I don’t know why, but I don’t like watching livestreams. They make me anxious for whatever reason;; So VODs are a lifesaver for me, so please let me know if you know! 🧡

And yeah, that’s my jumbled thoughts on the matter. WB is ruining RTAH, and it sucks to see, and I really, really, really hope they SOMEHOW get out of that company. Easier said than done, I know, but it just sucks to have had to see all of the obvious change they’ve had to go through since they were put under them, and are still going through. AH cast and content used to be so colorful and bright and happy, but as much as I enjoy how they’ve matured, and still have fun together, the contrast from the past, more care-free AH is drastic. The past however many years, it’s just noticeable how dark their spaces have been, like, it’s kind of dreary looking at them compared to, let’s say, their tiny OG office. Like, that room was always so full of life! And their past few spaces have just been… sad looking.. and also, they’re not quiet about scheduling. Matt and Michael talked about how Sarah had been breathing down their necks for like, half the Wind Waker randomizers bc they were taking too long, and every time they brought it up it bummed because out, bc I HATE they’re being rushed to make content! Idk who thought a Zelda randomizer was going to be less than like, 8 episodes anyway! But that just suggests to me they’re not enjoying playing the game as much as they could be, bc they’re being bitched at about it behind the scenes. Plus other random, too-businesslike things I smell just bc I’m an employee of a big business, and like, I can TELL they don’t have as much freedom as they should have, and it sucks.

like, I really don’t like getting into the “AH was better when it was just the OG cast 😤”, because those people annoy me (I don’t know why they just don’t stop watching if they just complain every video how they hate current AH? But that’s a can of worms I don’t want to open), BUT I do hate what big business has been doing to them, I hope Matt settles into the path that is right for him, the AH members someday gain their freedom back, and WB burns in hell. It’s 3:30am, I got a bit off track with this post, goodnight.

Edit:

After seeing more information come out, Big Yikes, looks like RT has been shitty even before WB sunk their claws in. I know back in 2013 they would make shitty, offensive jokes and call people babies for being upset when they were called out on them, but as I said before, one of the biggest things I’m thankful for is the vast majority of them [AH] have matured, and realized slurs aren’t funny. The community still, for the most part, gets on my nerves for MANY reasons, but I never get too into any kind of community anyway (so I can actually enjoy the media I’m consuming). All that being said, this looks like the beginning of a real big garbage fire, and I just hope all the good RT/AH people find their way to a happier life, and all the shitty assholes get what’s coming to them.

hi! i find myself in a situation where i have the opportunity to totally “leave the world alone” for at least a few months and focus on my inner world. i’m leaving my job for now, i have almost no responsibilities to friends and family, no pressing outside circumstances that need my attention. my overarching desire is to spend quality time really focusing my consciousness inward and being fulfilled in my imagination and cultivating genuine absolute faith in god and the law because i know that i don’t have to lift a single human finger to make my desires happen. my question is how do i make sure i’m engaging in this practice in a healthy way? i’m not deliberately trying to put my human life on hold and i want to go about this from a place of love wholeness ease and fun!!, not because i’m trying to control everything. i want to genuinely be fulfilled by my imagination and feel good without worrying if the physical manifestation actually happens. any help? sending so much love to you ❤️

hi !

wow that is lovely ! a few months of sweet solititude. tbh i think theres plenty of wonderful ways to truly use that time in a healthy and wonderful way for yourself.

i think the first thing would be, to be careful youre not like. making the outerworld a big deal while youre spending time within. i think thats a mistake i made a lot for a while. always going within, while secretly having the outerworld as my primary focus. in other words, dont play urself. lol be pure and honest about ur intentions, bc the god within will never be mocked. if u find urself actually being more worried about controlling everything, don't be afraid to confront it and let it go little by little. thats what this space is for !

secondly, spend this time for you ! you can grow and learn so much about yourself, using all this 1 on 1 time with you :3 pick up new and old hobbies, try new things, journal, get to truly know yourself and who you are and what you believe and what feels good to you. everyday will be a new adventure, a new day of exploration to get to know... you ! no matter how you want to go about it. rly just dedicate each day to urself and even feel free to have days where u dont do much at all and actually take that time to be still and comfortable with who you are and where youre at in that very moment.

anyway ! i hope this helps a lil as a guide. i'm rly excited for u ! it all sounds so lovely. sending so much love right back to u !! 💓

Yo, I hope you're good and feel free to answer this whenever coz I feel like world's working against us and just dumping anything to not let us rest (with that said, my university is currently speed running it's way to finals, bro we only had like 2 fucking weeks after our prelims and then bam. 3 am here and at 11, my first exam starts :)

With that said, I'm thirsty for some toxic fiction. In silhouetted bonds, if things didn't work the way Namjoon wanted it to be, what would change? What would happen? Like I'm imagining the mc still agreeing to the plea and going back to that place but I'm imagining her that within two months, she'll suddenly ask to visit him and say that he can do whatever he wants, he can get his pricey attorney whatever, but she's done and that she wish that he'd live a happy life away from her then walk out.

Thanks for indulging me miss ma'am. 🥴😘

Ugh literally you're so right😩 im slowly finishing the other stuff I need to finish to free up some writing time and I'm like vibrating with excitement lmao! I hope things slow down for you too!! And good luck on your exams pls get some rest or promise yourself an immaculate nap after!!!

Also LMAO toxic fiction is just fun to read so I get it! First off, very bold to assume SB!MC would wish him a good life, she is violently vengeful on a good day, buuut her not falling in love with him was a very real possibility for them. If Namjoon hadn't thought of every possible word to say and every possible way she'd react and absolutely fumbled, here's how it would go down:

-He'd take a deep breathe, silence would fill the air until he speaks, "Fine. I'll never force you into anything. I'll leave you alone." They bargain back and forth until he's promised to not meddle in her life more than once. He gets one chance to make an impact on her and that's it. It all ends with him saying a simple, "You know I'll always love you, right?"

-Namjoon would, as a result of the plea bargain not being held up, get out of prison almost immediately

-And then.... nothing.

-A year, maybe two, would go by. Enough time for MC to start to feel comfortable in living life again. She might even make some friends from work, maybe even go on a date here and there because it's been nothing but crickets from Namjoon.

-She would be partially disappointed (bc she's also p unhinged) that he didn't love her as much as she said, but either way, she would move on and get a really great job as an editor for a popular newsite

-Then, only when the time is right, only when she's really found a friend that she loves, only when she's found a friend group both in and out of work that bring her joy, only when she feels like she's found a real life of her own to lead, all hell breaks loose.

-She wakes up on a Monday way earlier than usual because her phone is buzzing like crazy. Something's... wrong.

-That friend she loves so dearly? Hates her now. Their partner is lying and saying MC came onto them, and her friend believes them.

-There's nothing else MC can say, she's blocked before she can get a word in, and everyone else in the friend group feel the same. After all, she never talks about her past, how do they know anything she's said is the truth?

-She had no choice but to face them at work- well, what was her work afterall.

-Turns out, the other slew of texts were that her huge newsite company is filled to the brim with corruption. All around MC she's seen CEOs and politicians drop like flies, she knew something was going on but didn't know what, and she had hoped her workplace reporting on all these scandals just might be safe.

-Protestors scream at her and employees trailing behind her as they walk in to work. Not that she's met with anymore warmth inside with her fellow coworker friends turning their back to her.

-Her whole life in one morning and one haphazard meeting, has fallen apart. The higher-ups want her to lie, to sign off on blatant lies, to pretend nothing is wrong, but she can't. Of course, her coworkers have no problem with it. She's the only fool who walks out of the building.

-She's alone, jobless, and lost in a city that knows her better than she knows it. Once again. All of a sudden, she's 18 again. All by herself, betrayed by the people she cherished.

-A couple months go by and she can't find a job in her industry. She's been predictably black listed after writing an op-ed for a rival paper about the corruption at her old newsite. The hype for that story came abd went and now she's on her way to look at a new, cheaper, apartment to live in when she bumps into... him

-Namjoon looks her up and down, genuine surprise on his face as he greets her with a shy smile on his face.

-He insists on walking her to wherever she's going and well, in her fragile state of solitude, it's like no time has passed at all.

-The pieces fall into place pretty quickly and in no time, she's right where she should've always been. Right by his side, as his Queen.

-He doesn't lie to her when he says the only thing he did in their time apart was ensure she got an interview the first job she applied for... He decides to omit the fact that he knew it was only a matter of time before that corrupt newsite was going to suffer from the change to his leadership. He decides to omit the fact that he knew you were going to be placed on a team with a ton of liars with their own baggage. He decides to onit that fact that he was only genuinely surprised when he saw you again because he didn't expect everything to fall into place so soon 💖

The end lmao I hope this made sense???? Idk im a mess and all the couples I write are too 🤪 Thank you for the ask and good luck again!!!!!

Clementine Pennyfeather deserves better.

*spoilers ahead*

okay so i don’t normally do posts like this bc i only come on here to reblog, post my gifs, then go, but i have been thinking about this since i finished watching the finale. angela sarafyan is such a good actress. i’ve been going through her filmography since i started watching westworld a few months ago and she is just so immensely talented in everything she’s in. and i’ll be honest she’s been some weird stuff. But she’s so capable that you could give her literally the worst script of all time and she would take it and give an oscar worthy performance. Even if she only has like 2 minutes of screen time, that ends up being the best 2 minutes of the entire movie or show she’s in. she’s just that good. She’s proven (especially in westworld!) that you could give her any kind of material and she will perform the fuck out of it. (not to mention she is flat out gorgeous and could probably make wearing a trash bag look good) but ANYWAYS that being said, i am so sick of the writers wasting her character in every season. clementine is the definition of wasted potential. i really truly think that if they gave her some good fucking material and a bigger role other than a mindless drone whose only purpose is to serve the villain she could be even better. don’t get me wrong, i love seeing clem be a badass and her fight scenes are my favorite but like?? can’t they just.. give her more to do??😭 we’ve have been doing this dance for years now. they bring her back only for her to be under someone else’s control, kill her, bring her back, and then you guessed it! they kill her again. would it kill them to write literally ANYTHING else for her? seriously, can they come up with something else??? i feel like she is constantly being used and abused by the characters and the writers (i mean all the other hosts are) but its just DIFFERENT w her somehow because it feels like such a slap in the face. for example, in the finale she was literally talking about leaving and finding a place where she can be free and i was like yes queen! go live your life and then BOOM they kill her… again. just like in episode 2 of this season she was just vibing, living her best life in a little village, and then before you know it she’s a ruthless killing machine under someone else’s control. again. its just so crazy to me why can’t they let her live lmfao??

i was so excited and surprised that she was coming back this season bc she was only in literally one scene for like 3 minutes last season and i really thought that was the last we’d see of her. but i don’t understand why they keep bringing her back if they’re gonna do the same thing over and over. i think maybe they do that because people love seeing her pop up from time to time but if they know that a lot of people like her, why not give her a story with substance, idk something she can do that doesn’t revolve around someone else??? i’m sure the audience would love that! (i know i would!) i really feel like they just use clem as a prop and don’t actually care about her like they do the other characters. so why bring her back at all if it’s clear they have no plans to give her any sort of story/character development? if they’re not gonna give her better material i wish they would just leave her alone. it’s sucks bc Angela does such an insanely good job with this role too. her robotic/animated mannerisms and line delivery (not that she’s given that much dialogue to begin with lmao) are so realistic it’s actually fascinating to watch. i still think she is the most realistic and scariest of all the hosts in terms of her looks and performance. i think she really catches peoples attention in a good way! but i really wish they would give her more bc Clementine is such an intriguing character with so much potential. Angela is definitely capable and more than talented enough to do whatever the writers give her. i just wish they’d give her MORE TO DO!!!

!! VENT !!

this is a vry venty post abt my struggles with high school, mental health & family so this is ur warning to only look if u want to see my problems lols

So I'm in my last year of high school rn, finally made it all that good stuff so proud of myself blah blah. At the same time though, I've had one sister get pregnant and move out, a new secret sister move in and we've had to deal with relationships imploding all around, especially my parents who are on the verge of divorce. So I am reasonably (imo at least) stressed tf out. Now my dumbass decided to take Italian for my last two years (so this year + next year until I graduate) but bc I live in the middle of nowhere I have to do it through something called distance education, which is pretty much covid school but if u transferred the day of lockdown, and that makes it a hard course. I was warned abt how hard it was but I was also a cocky lil shit that believed I could breeze through it bc I had Duolingo. I was wrong and now I'm struggling so much that i kinda just want to leave it all behind, and normally I could do this bc my school lets us drop a subject as soon as we go into our last year. Except I already dropped a subject, and we can't undo that. so now I'm stuck. There's three things I could do here that would leave me in school. 1 is fail out of the class, but not my school, which would be me not doing any of the work until they kicked me out of the class, 2 would be begging the school to let me drop it & just not graduating (p much I would attend my other classes but I wouldn't revive our version of a diploma & wouldn't be held back) which may be impossible with how the school is run, or 3, switch out my Italian course with a trade course, the only problem with that is the fact that I would be losing out of the rest of my classes by doing that, plus I would have to do mandatory work placement which is quite litarally getting a job for at least 2 weeks but not getting paid for any of it, and since it's a trade it would be manual labour, which I'm not too excited to do for free.

on top of my schooling troubles and trying to figure out what I should do, I've been depressed. tbf I've been depressed for years, not diagnosed but I've been suicidal so there's that, and last week I sought out a doctor so I can begin seeing a psychologist to deal with my mental health issues.

so the idea I came up with, which I have thought about plenty, is to get a job and drop out. This is the best plan I can see for myself. My family is a long line of drop outs, so even if I asked for help they couldn't give it to me, and I figured that since I'll have a job, my parents will for sure let me drop out, I mean, my sister (who is only a year older) dropped out without a job, so surely they would let me, right?

nope. I've only spoken to my mother about this bc she's the one that saw me having a panic attack over school, and she believes that I can 'push through and do it' and that if I did drop out, it would just put more stress on me and that I haven't thought it through. I have though. I was never planning on uni, so getting my diploma will only slightly boost me compared to the level I'm currently at, I'm trying to get my licence so I can drive myself to and from work, but ofc as a minor I can't order my own birth certificate and my mother has been putting it off for 2 years now, I'm really close to getting a job already, and I've been applying to every job I can in this tiny little town, but according to her, because I'm not going around and leaving my resume nailed to business doors it means I'm not actually trying (keep in mind this woman hasn't applied for a job in almost 6 years & runs her own cleaning business) she also says my dad will never sign off on it bc he doesn't think I'm putting in an effort either, but he doesn't even know what year I'm in or what classes I'm taking so I don't think he would even notice if I was going around like a Mormon and offering my services to everyone. She also bought up the fact that I don't know what I want to do with my life. I want to be a writer. She doesn't know what I want to do with my life. They all thought I still had my dream of owning a cafe from 3 years ago, even though I've told them all how much I hate making coffees. I've even thought about things like taxes and rent, my dad plans to start charging me rent as soon as I turn 18, so I figure a year of working and saving could help with that, and I've helped my mum do taxes for years (plus she's always done my sister's taxes, but I don't see her offering that kind of help to me) the only two things I don't have that are keeping me from dropping out are two things out of my control: a job and a licence. I can't control who hires me, and I can't access my birth certificate. I don't mind that though, I'm still applying places, and I'm more than willing to catch a taxi to my job out of the money I've already saved. I'm old enough that if I went to the school and told them I wanted to drop out, they would immediately start the process, my parents agreeing is the only possible thing that could stop me.

aside from my family, I've also received some mixed messages from my friends. 1 is definitely dropping out, she's also moving, and 1 is definitely staying in school, but there's another. He said he also wanted to drop out, but then when I joked abt dropping out he said it was a bad idea, so I'm getting pulled in different directions there.

I do love school, but the stress is too much. I also understand that working is stressful, trust me I do, but for me it's either Work or School And Work, so I would rather cut down one of the causes of my stress.

I just don't see the point in staying any longer. The thought of my classes sends me into near panic attacks and meltdowns, and I would rather work a shitty retail job that pays the minimum wage than continue in this school. Work might make me more stressed, school definitely will, to a fatal level.

My mother has also taken to telling me I need to just 'get happy' since I've been so depressed and on edge for so long. Clearly the resolution to this is to just smile more instead of talking about my problems or even trying to solve them.

I'm so so sick of all of this. I thought I was just having a bad week last week, but it's snowballing. I don't want to know what happens when it blows up. I'm not expecting to drop out and suddenly have so much free time, or to drop out and only work on weekends. I'm willing to go straight into full time, I'm not expecting my parents to fund me living in their house doing nothing all day, I know better than that, but I was expecting maybe some support, or at least a good reason to not quit school other than just asking me why.

thank you for reading my vent, if you did. these will probably become more common if I can't get out of this damned school. But for now, I'm off do go fill out my DASS21 form so I can get referred to a psychologist 😋♥️

huge vent feel free to ignore

okay day is now becoming kinda bad day esp with everything that’s happened recently i haven’t worked in like two weeks bc quit old job to go to new job bc i got a car which is literally everything i worked for at old job like saving 550-650 per check so i could get a car and then i got in an accident so i have no car which is the whole reason i went to new job interview and got the job that o was so happy and so excited for and now i have no car so i got all used to having my own time and doing things in my own not asking if i can be dropped of here or if i can be brought there i could just do it on my own and i was able to see bf twice a week instead of once bc he wasn’t the only one driving all the way to me and back every week but now i get more info on new job just to find out my kinda ex friend at this point that works there told me ppl wear jewelry and have their nails and lashes done blah blah so i give myself a fresh set of acrylic nails this past weekend, i would have had lashes but that was the day of the accident just for the email to say no perfume/cologne, no jewelry whatsoever (rings of any sort, earrings, bracelets,watches) no makeup, no hair or eyelash extensions, no acrylic nails or nail polish, and above all that said that if you violate any part of the dress code you’ll be sent home and have training rescheduled for the next week which mine was already rescheduled bc the class i was supposed to be in on the 5th got too full so they moved me to the 12th now i have to remove a basically full fresh set of acrylics and take off all of my jewelry including my ring from my boyfriend which means the most to me i literally cried the one day i forgot to put it back on a couple weeks ago after washing my cat and then take out all 3 sets of earrings i have and possibly lose the 3rd holes entirely that i only got making sure with that friend that i would be able to wear at least just regular plain earrings and not have to take them out and she said yes they shouldn’t say anything so not only was i basically fully lied to but i have only a few days to figure out what to do with all my stuff idk if they’ll let me in with clear piercing retainers or not i’ll have to see how they look cause i’m not sure if i’ll have my hair up or not this is all so disappointing and upsetting with the fact that i’m pretty sure all week i’m gonna have to uber home too cause they’re doing it on a tuesday when my regular schedule has me off from sunday -tuesday and alternating wednesdays i’m happy i have the job and it’s a better working place than the last job i had especially since i know i won’t be doing 3diff ppls jobs and playing manager through the week but i wish the stupid accident didn’t happen and my stupid friend wasn’t so stupid if i can even call her a friend at this point we had this not rlly huge but idk falling out argument whatever that she complains how she feels like i don’t want hang out with her anymore or that i spend all my time with my bf who i’ve only been able to see 2-3 times a week IF IM LUCKY but normally once a week on tuesdays for over a year but she thinks i spend all my time and days off with him when he lives 45mins away from me or that i don’t wanna hang out with her when she leaves me on seen and delivered for weeks and at time and she thinks it’s like a hehe oopsies i did to that didn’t i like it’s so annoying and irritating i’ve actually fully stopped talking to her bc of it she said she was gonna be better about it and she hasn’t changed anything so i just stopped talking to her fully because it’s sad and annoying esp seeing as we were best friends since we were like 10-11 and now she just pretty much lies or pays so little attention and practically ignores me everything g is so upsetting recently i just wish i still had my car and never made that stupid appointment and that i had better friends when at this point my only friend is my boyfriend if he even really counts and maybe one other person but we can’t even really hang out now cause i don’t have a car anymore

Before I ask for a reading, I wanna hear how you're doing and what is new! I've been off tumblr for a few months and I feel like I missed out on a lot just by reading your pinned post. How are you and what's on your mind? 💛

I'd like to know what you're picking up for me career wise, when you have the time. I've been practically unemployed (contract work + part-time work, but I don't think I make minimum wage combined) for the past 2-3 years. I have dreams of doing something more 'artsy', as well as starting a business but those feel so far away. I've just been very lost and stressed, living with my parents and seeing their disappointment makes me even sadder. Anything you pick up is good, thank you! -E

I also wanna ask about your thoughts on name change and name numerology. I got mine officially changed to a name most people call me by (esp if they don't speak my dialect) about 3 years ago, which makes me wonder if it has anything to do with.... where I am now since it's been quite a low point in my life in comparison. Someone brought up name numerology and I've been thinking about it since! Thank you again <3

Aww thank you!! I've been well <33 I am moving, finally, to Alberta at the end of August, which I am super excited for. I've been spending a lot of time partying with friends haha, wanna leave with good memories, ya know?? I found out that I am eligible for free tuition, I BELIEVE, in BC, so I have some more concrete goals in mind for the future. Idk, it has been a busy time, but I am very happy & excited, despite all the sad stuff going on! How are you?

Six of Wands reversed - This card speaks to potentially working jobs that are "below us" in order to get where we need/want to go. But eventually, you will get where you are going! Maybe start working on trying to figure out the path you need to take to get into your dream career, and in the meantime, keep working at what you are doing, and save up everything you can.

I don't know too much about numerology, tbh! I know a very basic amount, but I have wondered the same thing as you, especially since I've gone by Alex for almost as long as I used my birth name. I really don't know how it would affect it however, unfortunately!! Maybe one of my followers has some more insight there?

on some real tho, it’s been 5 months since my assault and im doing better than I was before. I still think about it from time to time but the pain isn’t as bad as it used to be. I thought I would’ve never been able to look at sex/intimacy, drinking or dating the same way again. I gave myself the space to heal and even though all the pain isn’t gone, im definitely not where I was in sept or oct or nov or even december. god that was so fucking miserable. I thought of ways to kill myself everyday. going through the trial with my school was extremely traumatizing. dealing with the pain and betrayal of my old associates made me feel like burning down the world. and having to see my abuser go on with life and not take accountability felt like the nail in the coffin.

it’s been weird since I left home. nothing has gone as planned except the act of leaving home itself. beyond everything I’ve gone thru, present me is doing super well. I start my new job soon. im going to school to major in sonography in the summer, which I’m so excited for omg 🤍. I’ve made a couple of new friends along the way. now that I’ve moved to another city I’m allowed to be more independent and free. public transpo is a dream. im trying to put myself out there and not let my trauma hold me back from dating, so now im on dating apps LMAO. which is funny bc im getting a lot of matches surprisingly.

even tho it was the worst time of my life, im happy that im not in that place anymore. I hate HATE that I had to go through that. I didn’t deserve to get assaulted. and some days I find myself getting triggered and feeling emotional. healing isn’t linear though. even when I was suicidal, I was still healing. october me would not believe that this is where I am now. that I actually want to date and have sex again. october me didn’t even feel connected to her body, let alone other people. I am so proud of myself for surviving. I can’t imagine who im gonna be in another 5 months.

ALRIGHT i’d like to preface that this is most likely gonna be really rambly (mostly due to excitement), but i promise that some questions will be sprinkled here and there as well, just bear with me LMAO ANYWAYS

with that out the way, i just finished reading all the chapters you’ve released of Cracked Snowglobes so far, and WOW you’ve done such an amazing job with it!! seriously, the way you’ve characterized everyone, especially octavio, just makes my heart sing. i feel like nintendo’s slept on developing octavio within splatoon’s story modes when there’s SO much available that they could work with, so reading your interpretation is such a fresh breath of air. what inspired you to write it from his perspective?

also, i love how splatoon’s silliness and flair is still present without interrupting the genuine and heartfelt scenes; the story naturally ebbs and flows (sorry not sorry :)) between the two wonderfully, it’s really a treat to read. speaking of the pacing, you’ve done the cuttletavio content SO WELL. i really appreciate the seeds you’ve planted throughout the story, because it creates a solid foundation for their relationship to grow from and, well, make their development believable! after all, the two of them have been through a LOT, so it makes sense that’d it take a while to work through it all.

before i finish, here’s some misc. questions for you! what have you learned about yourself while writing this fic? did of any scenes leave you stumped on how you were gonna approach it? what’s your greatest strength and weakness as a writer? and lastly, what’s your favorite scene you’ve written so far? feel free to answer as many or as few of those questions as you’d like!

thank you so much for the time and effort you’ve put into the fic so far!! it’s evident you’ve done your research, and i can’t wait to read what comes next! wherever the story goes, i’ll be there for the ride!! :))

OMG HI!! sorry this took like a day to get to but holy shit this is such a thorough and well thought out ask im like. in awe thank u so much for sending all of this in

if i thanked you for every incredibly kind thing u said throughout this entire ask i would fr be typing for like. hours so i will consolidate that all here; THANK U SO MUCH FOR UR KIND WORDS OMG !! i am so glad that youre enjoying the fic so far, and that you think so highly of it ?? i am absolutely blown away every time yall give me such encouraging feedback like this thank u so much!

ok on to the questions though!

what inspired you to write it from [octavio's] perspective? ok well funnily enough, you sort of answered your own question, (at least, the second half of what my reasoning is lol,) in the paragraph before you even asked it nintendo has ABSOLUTELY slept on octavio's more indepth nuances, i totally agree! i think to fully contextualize why i chose to write his perspective specifically, i do need to let myself be a little smug and say that i just so happened to revisit and reread Dissonant Melody in its entirety this summer, long before the b-sides were ever being posted. it. oh my god it fuckign awoke something in my brain and gave me cuttletavio brainrot BAD up until the new game was released and even then that absolutely did NOT help considering how our beloved dj got such an awesome spot in the limelight during the final boss. to summarize, though, i decided to stick with his pov partly because i felt i was not alone in my own personal sentiments over him and how silly and interesting of a guy he is, that others would also probably enjoy to see his pov, (as well as the octarian pov as a whole,) quite a lot. the other part is just that i had baaad brainrot and also that he is so silly and i wanted to write him interacting w cap'n more. bc, again, nintendo!!! youre sleeping on these two!!!! quit making us writers and artists do all the work for you tell us what they were like before the war!!!

ok i said i wouldnt repeat myself over and over again thanking you but!!! ahhh im so glad that the humorous beats i wrote landed. ive genuinely always been someone who cannot handle something serious without it being just a little silly and goofy on the side, just to make it feel. believable i guess? that the world isn't as dark as it sometimes seems? that and just. most people who know who i am as a person know where a lot of my influences lie and that a lot of it is in comedic source material, so there's that as well.

what have you learned about yourself while writing this fic? did of any scenes leave you stumped on how you were gonna approach it? i am going to lump these two questions together bc i think my answer will go hand in hand. i have been very much humbled to the fact that i am naught but a humble young adult who has yet to truly drop the young part and quote, unquote, "grow up" as they say. …by which i mean; my scope of the world is very very limited, and for as much research as i am able to do about a fictional, sci-fi-esque, futuristic society dominated by evolved mollusks, there is just as much real life experience that i feel would change the entire trajectory of this fic, were i to have it under my belt. perhaps some future plot points i have prewritten would theoretically play out much differently? perhaps some characters would be characterized differently, leading to said different plot points? perhaps, we will never know… perhaps, though, there are some experiences that i will never feasibly be able to live through to then incorporate into my writing. like living for over a century to reunite with my scorned, ex-whatever the hell these two are! specifically addressing the second question with that in mind, i can say, without spoilers, that there is indeed a scene that i'm working on right now funnily enough that is. stumping me quite a bit. i'll let your mind and the context i provided before to fill in the blanks on what could possibly be in store that i'm trying to figure out how to approach next.

what’s your greatest strength and weakness as a writer? and lastly, what’s your favorite scene you’ve written so far? i'll group these last two questions together as well because i have both a short and a long answer to at least part both of them; DIALOGUE!!!! i adore writing dialogue so much i love it when characters interact and say things and when i am able to study and practice their vocal quirks and nuances in such a way that it paints not just a picture of two plot devices talking to move the story along, but two very much matching or opposing sides to a discussion that has been thoroughly baked into the narrative. that and i like making nintendo characters say things that the NA localizers would never have the balls to make them say. not just in a swearing way but in an actually natural and not trying-and-failing-to-be-hip-with-the-kids type of way. (sorry NA team i still love yalls work but sometimes it doesnt seem like yall even read the JP text at all </3) to answer the second half of the question though, i do think that my weakness is feeling a bit too comfortable writing dialogue and the like. as someone who got got their start in writing from roleplaying online, whether as canon characters or ocs, i can say for certain that it is physically impossible for someone to perfectly mimic how a character acts in canon, down to a T. you can absolutely get close, don't get me wrong! but everyone's always going to view their fave or their muse in a different light than how someone else views them. humans are perfectly imperfect, and the things that we create and put out into the world are equally such. there are most definitely a lot of times where i will let my own preferences and biases for how a scene should play out cloud my judgement, and, as a result, i write myself into a future plot hole when it comes to consistent characterization. still love dialogue though <3 speaking of things i love! that last question… hmm… i think i had the most fun writing callie's final scene in chapter 3, but genuinely everything that involved the octarians in chapter 2 is a close close close second! esp stella's little scene. i talked about this a little bit in the comments on ao3, but, without spoilers i can absolutely promise yall that she is coming back. she has evolved from just a side character to my dear sweet little scrumply munchkin she is my scrimblo. sorry shes just really fun to think about and im excited to write her more </3

hello there! Could I please request a twilight polyamory kings x reader on how’d they react when they realize their mate threatens to leave them because she doesn’t feel noticed or praised in the relationship bc they are always working and never with her

Me and my unhealed abandonment issues loves this writing idea! <3

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Volturi Kings x GN!Reader

Summary: Request up top

Warning: Mate Threatens to Leave, Not Being Noticed or Praised, Heart broken, Tears, Sadness, Crying, Established Relationship

You wake up with the sun on your face with the smell of warm tea on the nightstand. Looking around, hoping to see at least one of your mates, but Jane stood in the room waiting. She greeted you a "Morning" then poured your morning tea, something that Marcus or Aro always did.

Surprised not to have them by your side in the morning, you brush past and give a "Good morning," watching as she puts the teapot down on the nightstand. "The lords had an early trial this morning," she says with a sorry look before walking out for you to enjoy your tea. You look at it sitting there and decide to skip it with it not feeling the same. 'They could have left a note or a rose even' You thought to yourself while getting out of bed then making your way to the bathroom to change into your daily wear.

Finshing up and then into the hall, you walked closer to their courtroom, hearing the pleas of the vampire on trial. Sitting down back against the wall, you watch as Felix and Demetri look over, then go back to business. Looking at the vampire on trial, a pale man with red eyes. He looked scared. You listened carefully, wanting to know about the man's crimes. "Please, I didn't mean to hurt her." "I didn't kill her. It was a man with an axe. Please read my thoughts, please!" He cries out like an animal in its final moments.

You stand up, knowing that Aro would listen to you if you talked to him. Putting your hand on Aro's arm then looking into his red eyesyou tell him you feelings, he returned his gaze to the man and extended his hand. The man takes quickly grabbing with a gasp, Aro pulls his hand back seeing the truth in the man. "I see." He says then nods to Felix and Demetri. Closing your eyes hearing the man thanking you's as he was dragged away out of the big doors. Looking at Marcus and Caius, then back at Aro, you could see disappointment in their faces as they turned their attention to you.

"Tesoro mio"My Darling, Aro says, with worry in his eyes as he looks at you, "Why didn't you give that man a fair trial like you give everyone else?" You said while looking at him with an eyebrow raised not letting him have a chance to get another word in. He pushes you out lightly, wanting you out of the room. Turing around you plant your feet on the ground, wanting an explanation. 

You see Caius next to you, along with Marcus. "We didn't want him to get free as he likes to roam the streets looking for prey in the daytime. He is a liability." Holding your hand, Caius says, before you could say anything, "My lords, there is a problem in the gardens." A guard says from behind you. They vanished out of the room and into the gardens. You knew this would be a challenging day for you, as trying to get your mates attention was always so hard as their work filled up their days, but when you did, it was a rewarding experience.  - Throughout the day, you found ways to entertain yourself without them. You started to paint in the garden. You could hear footsteps coming from the hall. You peeked out of the door and saw one of your mates. "Marcus, look, I painted the new flower we put in the garden," you say, with excitement filling your tone. He smiles at you before looking over at the painting. "Oh, I see." He looks at your painting and then back at the flower. 

But instead of the usual kiss and "good job" that you would get if he wasn't in a hurry his face turned into confusion. "My dear, this isn't the same flower, see," he said, pointing out the flaws in the painting. He goes on about how you need to get better, you feel your heart break a bit. 

Even if he did tell you that something was off, he would never be this blunt with his words. "Oh okay, Thank you love," You say, turning back to the painting hearing as he left the room, 'Maybe he-' You cut your thoughts off not wanting to give him an excuse to treat you like that. Wipping the hot tears from your cheek then looking around your room "I'll come back later," you say before walking out of the room.

Finding yourself walking up to Caius's study room. You smile as you start to run up to the door. Opening it hoping that he will be able to make your sad feelings go away. Caius looked up then back down at his book, "Hello love, I-" "Please Y/N go spend time with Marcus. I'm sure he would love to see throughts of your painting more than me." He said it before you could finish your welcome. You nod and walk away, feeling even worse. 

Shutting the door behind you trying to stay silent. Walking around the corner, you see Aro walking down the hall, "Aro!" You say, trying to brighten up for him. He smiles and walks past you. You stand there confused then running back beside him, "I was thinking maybe we could have lunch together if you're not busy." You say this as you link your arm with his. He smiles at you as he pulls his arm back from you and says, "I'm sorry, I have too much work today. I'm sure Caius is up for lunch. I think he said something about 'walking with you in the garden'." Before you can respond to his lie, he runs off. You huff as you stand there, your heart pounding with tear ready to spill over. - You find yourself walking to Marcus's library. You always find something to cheer you up in there, whether it be a book or Marcus himself. You pushed the events that have been happening with your mates to the back of your head as much as you could before walking into the room. You look in to see Marcus standing in front of one of the many bookshelves in the room, his back facing you. He walks past you to the table with the books you had picked up and piled up yesterday. An idea popped into your head as you picked up the first book you saw.

You start to walk to Marcus almost skipping to him, and ask, "Can you read this to me?" You say, holding out the book. He looks at you for a second before looking back at the book. "Sorry love, I don't have time to read that." He says, and takes another look at it before laughing out, "You wanted me to read you a fairy tale book?" With an eyebrow raised, you feel tears welling up in your eyes from his words.

You thought as he always did, now chuckling to himself, "You've done it before." He ignores you. He takes another book off of the shelf and opens it. You walk away in pieces, making it to the doorway of your bedroom.

Opening your door then locking it you wasted no time letting your tears out, , you couldn't hold it back anymore. You could feel your love for them fade away. You had made your decision after the pain and embarrassment they had caused you and after ignoring you for so long.

Pushing yourself out of bed to your closet, where you found the suitcase you hadn't touched since you arrived. Unzipping it you threw what could fit in there while wiping your tears away then continuing. After you finished, you could feel the air leave your lungs as you saw all the lovely pictures of your mates and you with smiles planted on your faces. "We had no idea," you whispered, looking back at your actions that were taking place in front of your eyes.

Making your way out of the room that was once shared with you and your mates, all the happy moments flashing before your eyes. Wiping your last tears with a sigh as you made your way out the back through the garden. There was no use in facing them. They would only brush you off. You were irrelevant to them. Vision blurred by more tears streaming down your face; the thought of your mates thinking you're nothing more than the floor they walk on was too much for you to bear. 

Walking on your feet became more difficult as you saw the exit. All the love you gave them in the good days is nothing now. Looking back on the dates and kisses you shared with them as you finally step out of the garden that was once your favorite spot hurts you even more. You turn your back, not wanting to feel the pain of looking back. If only they made more time for you if only they showed their love a bit more. Surely they knew they were tearing you apart.

Making your way a bit farther, a pain in your chest starts, before you could turn your mates blurred in front of you making you step back and look down, not wanting meet their cold eyes. "Amore mio my love, why are you out here with-" "Don't!" You yell You hear cutting Aro's words cut off as he sees the state you are in. You made Aro speechless for the second time in your lifetime. You still remember the first time.

It was when you looked at him when he was talking to Carlisle that you were a friend of Bella's and came to play and hang with the Cullens. The Volturi came to pay a surprise visit before Aro could talk. You walked into his line of sight, and he stood there speechless. On another occasion, you would have smiled at the memory; but here you are broken and leaving him and the others.

"Tesoro mio" My Darling  You hear Caius, "Please just ignore me like you've been doing. It'll be easier for all of us. " You say, trying to hold your tears back. You look up to see their faces filled with worry and hurt. You look away once again. "We have hurt you," Marcus says, with a soft tone. 

Struggling now to hold your tears "That's fucking obvious isn't it" you scoff. "I thought that maybe you would give me at least a minute of your love or attention today, and the other days I've tried, but I can see that your work is far more important than me." You bite back "We didn't-" "Didn't notice, yeah, that's why I'm here leaving. I just hope maybe someone else will appreciate my love because none of you did." You yell, cutting off Aro. Your tears and sobs that were once suppressed came spilling out. If only they had loved you as much as they loved their work if only they had realized how much they had broken you.

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Ben 10 lore that exists in my heart regardless of canon

- Ben’s personality in his mid-late teens is a mix of his Alien Force and Omniverse self. On the surface, he’s very cheerful and kind even if he is a bit of arrogant showoff. He makes jokes and plays around and acts as if he isn’t bothered by the things in his life. Those who know him best understand a good portion of his outward confidence and cockiness is just a facade to cover up his insecurities and to project the ideal, effortless hero. While sometimes seen as immature, most beings know Ben 10 means business as he takes his unofficial job and people’s safety very seriously. He’s clever, adaptable, charismatic and empathetic which makes him a formidable opponent and a loyal friend. Doesn’t open up easily but if you get to him, he become so dearly attached. 

- Drinks smoothies so much for several reasons. Comfort food go brrr, reminds him of the good easy times with him Gwen and Kev. It’s also a light but generally nutritous food to give him energy for heroing. Anything too heavy and he’ll be puking (both from physical and emotional stress). Though he jokes about his mom’s health foods, his are a crazy concoction of add in proteins and vitamins/minerals bc he knows he’ll out and out collapse without it. (Still has on occasion bc boy still doesn’t eat right/enough)

- While Fame is exciting for him at first he soon begins to detest it. Not the fans, no, he can’t bring himself to hate the people who look up to him. But he hates the constant attention, that he can’t walk outside without being mobbed. the only place he feels safe is his hometown where most people are so used to him and his weirdness that they don’t react much anymore. Takes to wearing a cape and face shield when going out anywhere so he can actually get things done without being recognized and mobbed.

- Part of the reason Bellwood isn’t concerned with Ben is partially because ben’s been weird and alien for as long as they can remember but also many don’t realize how famous/powerful he is. Yeah that’s just Ben Tennyson over there, sometimes he turns into funny creatures- wait what do you MEAN he’s the savior of the universe?? He cried over a spilled smoothie the other day.

- Does mostly online schooling by the time he’s 15. At first he tries to do half day things to maintain something of a normal life but it quickly becomes overwhelming and dangerous him/the school. Finishes his GED early but the Plumbers and Azmuth make him take additional college level and alien courses to prepare him for his future role. Ben gripes but really does love learning all these things, especially on his terms (ADHD and stress + the public school system do not always go hand in hand). He’s a quick learner when he deems the information important and is made accessible to his learning needs.

- Ben definitely has ADHD speaking of which, it was nearly uncontrollable as a child bc his free-spirited parents didn’t believe in medicating. Ben convinced them he needed it and after some trial and error, found meds that worked. As he became more involved in heroics/growing up he had to change his medicine regimen (resulting in him being a bit more off the rails in OV) and needed antidepressants and therapy to manage it better. As an adult he has a whole litany of coping mechanisms (good and bad yes) and regularly checks in with his therapist and doctors to keep things under control. 

- Has a complicated relationship with his necrofriggian children. Considers himself their mother and worries after them. They too feel a connection to their parent despite this being unusual for their species. A few visit (some more than others) while they grow while others maintain distance. Ben never breathes a word of them to the media for fear of them being targeted. Still he keeps an eye on them and ensures all 14 mature to adulthood (another rarity for the species). Checks in every now and again with the ones who don’t want to see him and those that do. Two join the Plumbers and Ben is both proud and worried. His youngest becomes partners with Rook Ben.

- Just in general loves kids, they’re his favorite fans and while he’ll grumble at pushy adult fans he always smiles and kneels down for the little ones. Not so secretly wanted to have children of his own but knew it was a risk overall and used a lot of that energy with mentoring and teaching. Eventually had Kenny later in life (late 30s-40s) and was over the moon, becoming such a loving and doing parent or as much as he could be with his hectic schedule. 

- Omnitrix can’t come off, never has at any point since it first latched onto Ben’s arm. Azmuth tried and failed to get the device off, doesn’t let Ben know for many years as he feared the consequences. The watch loves and protects Ben even beyond it’s programming making him much more durable to damage and releasing energy charges when he’s threatened. Not even removing Ben’s arm would separate them. They’re stuck for life.

- Ben does have Anodite heritage but the Omnitrix actively suppresses it and uses the built up energy to power the transformations which is why ben is mostly unaffected by what should cause a massive energy drain on him. Theoretically if Ben learned to harness and safely use his Mana at an early age like Gwen he would have been fine but letting it build up without safe outlet meant activation would have killed him. Omnitrix Ben, however, went his whole life not knowing of his latent abilities and how the watch saved his life.

- Ben’s eyes get more green and glowy as time passes from the Omnitrix. At first they think its a trick of the light but by the time he’s an adult his eyes are pretty much glow in the dark. His veins light up too after long stretches of using the Omnitrix. Its vaguely unsettling to people who aren’t used to Ben.

- Max and the Earth Plumbers work so, so hard to keep teen Ben on Earth when half the universe is blowing up their comm lines asking for The Ben 10 to help with whatever problem of the day. Ben himself doesn’t quite understand when he’s younger the prestige and expectations on his shoulders. Max throws up a million and one roadblocks so Ben can live as normal a life as possible while he still can. Still, while doing that he Still overloads Ben with expectations and responsibilities on earth and beyond. He becomes a soldier again with Ben as their greatest weapon. He never forgave himself of losing sight of his grandson underneath the hero esp after Ben’s breakdown. 

- Rook partnership with Ben ends not long after Omniverse with his promotion to Magister. Ben tries to play it cool but the thought of another loved one/teammate leaving his tears him apart. Max revealing that Ben most likely wouldn’t get a new Plumber assigned partner since he’s almost an adult and won’t need it and Rook accidentally missing their last smoothie run due to a scheduling mishap causes Ben to snap and have the nervous breakdown that had been building for almost a decade. He completely loses it for a little while and needs to take an extended leave of absence from school and heroics that lasts about a year. Spends time recovering both on Earth and Galvan Prime, does some diplomatic training, learns about aliens, actually confronts the stress and loneliness of his life. He comes out the other side stronger but still fragile and exhausted.

- Ben’s above mentioned breakdown brings him closer to all his friends who didn’t quite realize the extent of Ben’s burden. Rook had been under the impression Ben didn’t like him all that much so the knowledge that his departure was the final straw for friend/hero’s collapse was shocking. Ben and Azmuth also become closer, the Galvan becoming fiercely protective of the boy seeing as his Earth family didn’t do well to keep him safe. It takes years for him to get over his anger at Max for putting so much on his grandchild. Ben makes more friends, in and out of the hero business, finally gets a therapist and gets some of his burdens eased a bit. It’s not a sure fire fix and Ben has several smaller breakdowns the rest of his life but its something.

- Azmuth was straight up suicidal before he met Ben for the first time. Ben gave him back hope for the universe and his ability to create items for peace not weapons. The boy infuriates him, frightens him, frustrates him but Azmuth cannot deny in his heart of hearts that he loves Ben dearly. He’s very upset at Ben’s breakdown and doesn’t know how to handle the worst of the initail outbursts. Azmuth talks Ben down from a suicide attempt. He reaches out to Ben that he Too felt overwhelmed by pressure, thought himself only good for war. Ben’s arrival in his life saved him and now he will do the same for Ben. It’s the first positive step forward in Ben’s recovery.

- For no other reason than I like it, Azmuth primarily refers to Ben as Benjamin (mostly to annoy the kid but he likes the way it sounds too) and Ben in softer, more serious moments. 

- Professor Paradox continues to flit in and out of Ben’s life. He says its because Ben is the most equipped to handle universal peril (true) but he’s also just very fond of the boy. Ben, existing in so many forms and having such importance also exists a beat outside of normal reality which Paradox identifies with. Ben is naturally attuned to time related problems because of this (instantly IDing Spanner as from the future before being told later deducing him to be his unborn son). Plus Ben named him, way back when. He’s just drawn to Ben.

- Adult Ben, while being seen as an impressively skilled fighter and champion, really has his strength as a universal diplomat of sorts. Based out of Earth, he helps mediate and defuse conflicts, advocate against tyranny and overall preserve peace and balance. He’s not perfect, he makes mistakes and sometimes is forced to become violent (and yes kill) but overall is regarded as a peacekeeper, something younger ben simply couldn’t understand. 

- Gwen gets her degree and primarily does work with advocacy and teaching about magic/alien culture. While she and Ben are still close, there’s a bit of a frustrated divide in that she isn’t helping him share the burden of the universe. Gwen never wanted to be a hero and has enough worth to not shackle herself to a job that’ll burn her out. Ben loves heroing but gives too much of himself away trying to fix everything. They get into screaming arguments that it wouldn’t be so bad out there if she just helped him but she refuses to budge and says he shouldn’t make himself do so much. They always make up and thy still are each other’s closest relationships.

- Ben marries Kai in a political move, Kai is Asexual and Ben Aromantic. They didn’t love each other but they got on well enough and Ben was really feeling the stress of carrying the hero burden so Kai also being involved made him feel like he wasn’t alone. Both were also so tired of the universe constantly asking about their love life and said ‘fuck it we’re married leave us alone’. Gwen was always mad about it feeling Ben deserved better but the two of them were happy with it. They had separate rooms, mostly separate lives but they became strong friends and supports with their strictly platonic marriage. They had Ken via Invitro in an incubator and were loving if extremely busy parents. 

- Also from the moment he appeared, Ben knew that Spanner was his future son, Kenny. He played ignorant and then was kind of deliberately teasing him in future encounters. He knew the rules of time and didn’t want to disrupt things further even if he was angry and worried as heck about why Ken felt the need to time travel. When future Ben catches up in the timeline, Kenny gets SUCH a lecture. 

- Ben isn’t quite immortal but he’s also not entirely human anymore either. The Omnitrix not only keeps him safe from most harm but it lightens the effect of aging. Ben 10 is active many, many years when most humans would have been forced to retire. He’s not sure how long the watch will keep him alive and it terrifies him. Gwen too is functionally immortal however she ages like a normal human, then when her natural death came, shed her skin and became a fulltime Anodite. So in the end, it was her and Ben together wondering which of them will die first. Gwen has trouble retaining her humanity as pure energy and swears she’ll let herself fizzle out when Ben goes. When that’ll be however...