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Hiii, I saw your self-ship ask event and omg, it's so cute! Anyway, I wanted to ramble about me and none other than Ran Haitani (doing so makes me really happy and warm) Thank you so much for doing this event :")
I'm allergic to showing the people I like/love that I like/love them. So this means I can be kinda "tsundere" in a way as a panic response when someone notices that I like them? It goes a little like this:
Person: "Aww, you did [favor] for me! Are you going soft for me?"
Me: "I only did it because I had nothing else to do." (lying)
You can already see how that'll go with Ran lmao. I feel like he'd just smile and say "If you say so~" because he can see right through me.
I'm the type to do something drastic when I get really angry. While me and Ran are both generally calm people, he's the calmer one of the two of us. I'm all rational and reasonable until I get angry which is why it's Ran who has to hold me back.
I don't know what to do with myself when someone shows romantic interest in me. If someone is trying to hint that they like me in that way, I will act like the most dense motherfucker ever. Giggling at the thought of Ran being entertained at first and then getting frustrated the longer it goes on.
I'm likely to write/make art about the people I love. (I may or may not have written poems and created concept playlists about Ran) That's one of my love languages along with Quality Time and Acts of Service, I guess. I never show the poems and artworks to my muses, though. I would die before I ever do that lol. I think Ran would have a knack for finding my work and knowing when it's about him. I'll never hear the end of it.
I'm down for just sitting in silence or napping together which I bet Ran would be very happy to do. I feel like we can both stop caring about being interesting when together alone and just exist.
I don't have a playlist but the songs that give me the most Ran feels are:
Don't Delete the Kisses - Wolf Alice
Tokyo Love Hotel - Rina Sawayama
R.E.M. - Ariana Grande
That's all, thank you!
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A second birthday special! Happy birthday!
□ Ran adores your playlists and lets you curate the music on every drive you take together. Sometimes he listens closely to the lyrics and will tease you if there's a chance you're playing it because it reminds you of him.
□ Ran doesn't snoop. He doesn't! But sometimes he does drop a sketchbook/notebook and he happens to notice a doodle of a person that looks suspiciously like him. And sometimes he likes to pull poem books off the shelf to take a peek at any loose leaf sheets poking out.
□ He wishes sometimes that he could express his feelings that way for you, but he opts instead for tugging you to bed to cuddle and nap. You can usually guess he's found something when he gets EXTRA physically clingy <3.
□ Ran also loves quality time, I think it might be one of his top two love languages. You know, he's such a gossip lol. I think he loves to spend chatty time before naps, arms wrapped around your back, tugging you to half lay on him,,,
□ I feel like Ran loves PDA and doing silly grand gestures that he knows fluster you. Eventually he gets a feel for the lines he cannot cross, but honestly, here and there, his antics (a little slap to your ass in front of the guys or a big dramatic sign and flowers to pick you up at any public transport or event.
□ He will scoop you up and leave kisses up and down your face and you'll be blushing FURIOUSLY and you probably pull him by his hand to leave as quickly as possible because such histrionics are probably uncomfortable for you (same tho)
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Consider Ran (before you're together) having a week where he get's frustrated with the chase. And you part on rocky terms. But through it all, my god he's really genuinely grown so attached to you and he needs to find a way to fix stuff. For ease, lets assume he has some myspace/discord portal to see what you're listening to and he finds you listening to don't delete the kisses on repeat. He leaves a note in you bag the next time you see him, he leaves a note in his weirdly neat handwriting:
"Get over it and take me out.
It's meant for you.
-r"
It's the most romantic this he's done and that he may ever do but shit. Maybe it won't be too hard to hit him up at least....casually...right?
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Come make my day, tell me about your self ship, and get some hcs of your own.
#SelfVi's Event#normally i ask something!#but i got too excited!#so feel free to interact a lil hehe#i try to build that in but oops#i hope you liked it!#happy birthday!#another meatier for the birthday hehehe#ill try to get more out soon!
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ren fair stuff
#i might do more shit posts for this cause i’m just such a fan of dressing them up#thinly veiled self insert terezi oops (autistic butches let’s goooo)#vrisrezi#my stuff#vriska serket#terezi pyrope#homestuck#i am the biggest vrisrezi fan i can’t even begin to explain to you all#also this is so very inspired by my fiancée and i (crowd goes oooo?) and i smirk and i say yeah sorry ladies the j man is to be wed#also i can’t stand the sight of women that aren’t my girlfriend#are you still reading the tags? this is awkward… hope you’ve had a good day… if u wanna request anything send me an anon or something#trying to build my social standing as a lesbian only homestuck artist lmfao
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Tbh I think the whole class should get to smooch hajime. It’s what he deserves
im imagining hajime sitting in a kissing booth looking like lucy from peanuts in her psychiatrist booth. kisses are 5 cents. the hajime is IN.
#hajime deserves the love <3#LMAO im trying to imagine the line up>>#teruteru BOLTS for the front but quickly gets crowd surfed to the back of the line. chiaki is in line too but she's getting distracted#by her game and isn't moving forward so whoever's behind her just cuts. kazuichi is like 3rd in line bc logically speaking#if he's FIRST in line he'll look THIRSTY for his BRO and that would be CRAZY! BUT!!! no way he's gonna be LAST that's his SOUL BRO ok#if anybody deserves haji bro kisses around here it's HIM!!! 😤#nekomaru finds it to be a great team building exercise!! remember to kiss with your CHEST!!! 💪🏼 akane thinks it's a competition of sorts#OOPS so she tries to give hajime the Strongest Kiss Ever. does not go well but her enthusiasm is appreciated 👍🏼#ibuki will get a kiss and then run BACK in line to see if she can sneak another one :3c#gundham kisses hajime WITH TONGUE!!!!! lmao jk gundham would definitely be like 'nobody touch me >://(' but eventually....#he sends his sneakiest Dark Deva to run up to hajime and steal a kiss when nobody is looking... >://)c kheheheh!!#nagito is content with remaining last in line bc he's just happy to see his classmates having their little hopeful moment :) without him :)#(he does eventually get his kiss tho dw)#and uhh if you give mahiru like a dollar she'll take a pic of the kiss LMAO#ALRIGHR ALRIGHT I GOTTA STOP this is too long. god. appreciate this fucking post anon 🙏🏼#sdr2#danganronpa
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someone requested an enemies to lovers fic with lorenzo and i promised myself i'll try to write something below 5k words so that i can post it faster but i've reached 8.5k AND IT'S NOT EVEN DONE YET
#i seemed to have created some unintentional slowburn#idk what it is with me but whenever i try to write anything enemies to lovers i can't make it short#it just kills me if there's no build up#but it also kills me that it takes ages for them to get together#it's a love hate relationship#pray for me#lorenzo berkshire#lorenzo berkshire x reader#i ramble a lot oops
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Lost my mind thinking about the Vyer Estate (Patreon)
#Doodles#SCII#Helix#Max Vyer#Dexter Favin#So while I'm not usually one to draw backgrounds I am actually Really into architecture and a little into decor and room design haha#Do I know much more than the basics? Nope! But I'm still fascinated by it :)#Some of these rooms have a very strong image in my head and some are fuzzier - it's been a bit since I reread#And I also haven't read with the layout in mind I don't think so there's that as well haha#I'll also freely admit to being very influenced by The Sims 2's build limitations when working these lol - spacing and density of items#Trying to map all these pieces of scenes into a continuous singular building is difficult! There are windows that butt up into other rooms!#It's a fun exercise tho :3#Update: I have now reread with the layout in mind lol#My mental ears pricked every time there was a mention of furniture or layout lol#Like Max's couch! And a carpet in the foyer >:3c#And Dex's room also being upstairs :0 To think I almost made my first floorplan a single-story!#Silly me#I'm pretty sure this is the first time I've doodled Max's mom also :0 From memory - again - oops lol#I have always imagined that final scene with her as having this large-room/small in the frame kind of energy to it#All natural lighting and kind of dim and hazy - coming down from the high vibes#Actually pinning down a back wall is a whole other thing lol - sometimes the stairs are right there and sometimes they're in an alcove#It's always those tricky windows! And then actually populating a mansion with rooms that are useful lol#Dexter mentions that Max could've asked the cook but Max says he's asleep - how many people live on-site I wonder!#I'm also deeply enamoured with Max padding around in the middle of the night - a house he grew up in and feels safe wandering around in <3#In his element ♥ Comfortable ♪♫
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kinda wild to me that one of the most compelling aspects of both Chuuya and Kunikida's characters to me, that I never really see talked about, is how they're heavily set on a doomed crash course towards complete and utter destruction, and how I am so, so worried for them both.....
#bungou stray dogs#been thinking a lot about chuuya lately (shocking for me i know (said with no sarcasm truly lmao it is rare for me))#cause of the 15 manga and also playing the fucking jeht quest in genshin impact ugh (where's the one dual genshin bsd fan who Understands)#but like this pressure has been building up for chuuya for so long due to being used and manipulated by all these people#first the sheep then mori then verlaine then still mori now#he was groomed since childhood just like dazai#but unlike dazai he didn't have an oda to help him get out of the mafia........ he's still stuck there#and his personality is different from dazai's. dazai was more self-aware imo (but still a groomed emotionally abused kid don't get me wrong#but chuuya's whole thing is needing to belong and wanting a leader to be loyal to but ending up in positions of leadership himself#which makes him feel pressured but he accepts and stifles any negative feelings just because he wants to belong#and all this crushed him with the events in the light novels and yeah he went through character growth but he's...... Still In The Mafia...#and that fucking scene asagiri added to the cannibalism stage play i don't think hardly anyone even knows about bc IT'S NOT DISCUSSED ANYMO#where mori emotionally manipulates him with the flags!!! and it deeply hurts him!!! and he presumably deals with that shit all the time!!!#it is WORRISOME. it WORRIES ME okay.#chuuya doesn't have anyone who can save him from the mafia (dazai is in no position to okay; it's all he can do just to try to save himself#and it's so so scary. it spells awful things for him.#didn't asagiri say he'd have a rough path or something??? and he added that fucking scene in the play!!! it haunts me!!#i fully expected this shit to hit a turning point in the meursault arc but we can't have nice things i guess#and as for kunikida a;lskdfl (took me this long to get to him oop) literally the ending of Entrance Exam (the novel) is just#One Big Foreshadowing for Kunikida's downfall#he's compared to the azure king for a reason. Sasaki saw the azure king in him for a reason. it's fucking worrying!!!!!#there hasn't really been anything like that since in the manga (just like for chuuya lol ugh) but he's TERRIBLE at coping with his trauma#and it only gets more apparent once shit hit the fan in the doa/hunting dogs/meursault arc#it's not good!!! i'm worried for kunikida too!!!!#even if the manga isn't focusing on this these worries are always in the back of my mind man#both kunikida and chuuya are doomed to hit some kind of breaking point eventually and i await those moments with dread yet anticipation#i want dazai to be able to save kunikida from the despair being too good a person brings the way he couldn't save oda#and chuuya.... if we get a scene with him & mori mirroring the one in dark era where dazai finds out that mori orchestrated the kids' death#oh man i think i'll fucking die (give it to me i need to cry)
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i am Attempting to build.
#it's not the worst i suppose#the floorplan gave me a headache tho and thats just bc i suck at floorplans LMAO#was trying to build a house that fit into the hopewell hills area <3 thank god for deco buildings being my inspiration <#<3* oops
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- What's with the hat?
- I don't know. Found it in the science lab. Thought it would help.
Day 11 - The Hunter
Knows the killer’s weakness and the best way to beat them. The Final Girl typically teams up with them to finally nail the killer. Usually, they’re considered the other final character to survive.
from @windbrook's Slashed Challenge.
#okay so i don't know if i like this line but it was meant to kind of explain his “armor”#since he's been putting it together since the incident started#but i'm not sure if i like the line or the hat anymore so... oops#(also it was meant to be in a conversation with the final girl#they don't meant until closer to the end of the plot#aka after most of the rest of the cast has already died and she's left mostly alone#but they team up to make it through the end#which also involves probably teaming up with the detective who's been free roaming and occasionally causing problems)#anyway i love keaton he's chill#i didn't ever decide what his major was or why he was in the building but he was probably working on a project or something#and when the incident started all of his survival training from his outdoorsy survival enthusiast parents taught him kicked in#so he found a weird hat in the science lab and “armor” in the art studios#also he has a service dog because I wanted a dog and I think this vest swatch looks a lot like the vests used by service dogs#(although it's not really prefect and in the future I'll try and find one that's cc and more accurate)#sorry that was long but I really like him he's cool#keaton kendrick#scout the dog#day 11#the hunter#windbrookslashed#sims 4#ts4#sims 4 screenshots#ts4 screenshots#tw injury#tw death mention#tw illness#tw illness mention
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😍😍😍
#accidentally slept through my only class today#which whoops sorry. (my 9am english)#which kind of killed step 1 of a plan of mine but thats okay#anyways THEN i had to go downtown to pick up this award bc i forgot to show up to the ceremony like a dumb dumb#but the building was like a 25 minute walk and it was COLD (punishment for my dumb dumbness tbh) but anyways i got there early so i walked#around the block and then went inside and picked up my medal#and i was already far downtown so then i popped my head in a couple of stores as i slowly walked back#got a few things from target. new hair clip nail polish m&ms pens and then a mango. very excited to eat that either later today or tomorrow#then i popped in the calligraphy store and then the comic shop and looked around. saw some white ribbon in the calligraphy store which ive#been looking for but didnt get it because it was a bit wide and kind of expensive and i want a lot for my project idea#(want to write out some of my favorite poems on them in sharpie and then use it to accessorize)#and then i went to the comic shop and peeked around. saw a nubia issue and a few gl 2021s in the discount bin but i didnt get them bc#they were all middle issues and i havent read those books yet although i do want to someday bc my guys were in them. one of the gl 21s even#had simon on the cover so i was very !!!!!!!! thats my guy!!!!!#didnt buy anything there but i did ask the guy to make sure to order a copy of the spirit world tpb so ill stop by to get that in a few wks#and then i went to the bookstore cafe and got a cold brew and did a but of English there. they have tables in the stacks its nice. the one i#grabbed was just surrounded by old paperbacks of sci fi and thrillers lol. didnt see anything id read but recognized a few author names like#card (no enders game though) and the pern lady (idk her name i havent read it). anyways did half a blog post thats technically late (ill#backdate though dw) and then packed up and i grabbed a gyro from the halal cart on that block which i just finished back at my dorm <3333#anyways good times. now im gonna try and spam some work and go to freaking trivia team for the first time in a month later. oops#blah#oh and i think the halal cart guy may have given me a free soda. unsure abt that though bc its possible it came with and i was just being#silly again. so anyways i had a ginger ale too
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The group confronts Kagha about her connection to the Shadow Druids. Sage is almost glad when the fighting starts; having to listen to Kagha defending her choices is grating on their nerves.
The fight ends predictably: with Kagha, the Shadow Druids and whoever else joined her side dead. Rath isn't happy and neither are most of the other druids. Sage doesn't particularly care at that point. The tieflings won't have to worry about getting kicked out before Sage and the others manage to take out the goblin threat anymore. The kids are somewhat safe for now.
When they leave the grove again, Wyll speaks up: "I have to say, I'm a tad surprised you didn't try talking her out of it. You've been surprisingly successful so far whenever you do."
Sage looks back at him, then past him at the gate receding in the distance. They shrug. "Even if I had convinced her, it probably wouldn't have changed the beliefs of the others there. And besides, she was trying to get a child killed. If we hadn't intervened that first time, Arabella would probably be dead. I don't forgive that. A better person might be glad if she changed her ways but I don't care."
They turn back, leaving the grove further behind them.
"I suppose you could be right," Wyll says, voice trailing off.
Sage shrugs again.
For everyone's sake, they hope Halsin will be alive and actually able to bring the druids back to their senses.
For some reason, Sage had always assumed druids were kinder people than most. The whole connection to nature thing and all that. Of course, that assumption had been quickly proven wrong. We don't allow drow in here this, foulbloods and outsiders and parasites that. They scoff. "Let's hope this Halsin is a better guy than most of the druids we've met so far."
On that point at least, they can all agree.
#oops what's this#another sage snippet?#was not planning on this#was thinking all day about the conclusion to their personal story in act 3 (there will be pain :3 and very deserved murder >:3)#but I played this and for the first time didn't even try convincing kagha#because sage wouldn't#they really really wouldn't#and it's a lot easier for me to roleplay now that I've finished the game twice and seen act 1 many more times#easier to let go of the compulsive 'I have to be the best possible person' thing#and tbh#in the end#it was kind of gratifying to kill the other two druids that fight alongside kagha and the shadow druids#especially that elf guy#can't stand him#glad he's dead lol#also#I'm thinking about putting these snippets on ao3 but I'm unsure if it would be better as one work with multiple chapters or a series#technically they're not chapters that build on each other but just random scenes that all revolve around sage#but posting many individual short works feels also kinda unnecessary and spammy#bg3#bg3 tav sage#my writing
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It's never a good sign for the length of a story (or the ambition of the project) when I start writing down story goals to hit...
#writing tag#please don't wake me series#'Oh this will be a short one with no weight' I said#'The big stuff is out of the way'#Meanwhile now dude's gone from sucking a guy off and enjoying it but feeling weird about it#To wondering whether he should give the whole therapy thing an honest try#And also hey look bonus dad baggage#I'm not gonna reach Iconoclast levels of intense with this one#But it's starting to build in ambition#Often I get feedback like 'you have the ability to say so much with so few words'#And I promise I actually am very good at being concise (not that you'd know it from iconoclast)#But something about this dude makes all the words fall out and stick to the page#there are officially like 7 different things this story is juggling so that can't be good#i just wanted to show how jonathan's attempts at hooking up in college worked out#but actually now it's just about jonathan's first few months in college so like#oops#memorized your smile lines pdwm
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i have *counts on my fingers* seven aus with blade but ive only written for two
#idt u guys could handle hi3 crossover au its soo powerful#too** how did i mistype that badly 💀#but its fun to think ab that one#riddler au i want more info before i do anything w it 😭#i wanna try c-53 au again which is sort of a marvel crossover but only world building wise#its purely humor#well. sorta#then ofc main au and fwb/stoner au ive posted for#i forgot old money au oops
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God is putting me through trials LMAO
#currently in Boston helping my wife move in to get apartment#drove for 6.5 hours to get here 😭 helped her move stuff out of the truck and clean up the apartment washed the dishes drove us to target#the target in question? NO MOPS... we came back with half the groceries we were looking for- on the way back? got lost twice looking for#the parking lot and then looking for the entrance to the apt building 😭 whole time I'm late for DnD which started at 7#i was drove her back and got on the call at like 7:38 or smth-- played DnD on my PHONE in my CAR in a GARAGE that smelled like PISS#because her parents were also there at the studio apartment she was moving to 😭 then the next day we went to get groceries at GreatWall#bought train tickets coolcool first time swiping in? ERROR. try again. then it works on the other gate but I swiped twice??? how can I#swip a second time before the gate closes 😭 god HOW#BUT WAIT when we went to target the day before I couldnt leave the garage because I came in through the delivery gate and couldnt get out#the exit because I didnt have a TICKET.... so I had to call assistance and they buzzed me out after paying the full price 😭-- back to GW#GW is CLOSED? under renovation which we didn't realize until we walked the block twice 😭 no worries off to HMart#HMart is open! Godbless. We get 4 full bags of groceries that fit in dear's totebags and lug them back to the train and to the apartment--#girl... the HEAVIEST bags you've seen including rice 😭 I'm carrying 3 bags like a refugee through these streets including like a 10-15 min#walk from the train to the apartment- after missing the apartment entrance AGAIN and walking an extra block 😭 but its okay we get back and#take a break for a bit before going back out for lunch-- Udon was great! found a REAL target and then visited the Boston Public Library gr8#We head back and take a break for a bit- Wifi is now on!! also win. Then we head out for dinner and I need to get my car jumped because ha#while I was playing DnD in the car with the AC in (but the engine off because I was in an underground garage) I used up my battery LMAO BUT#We called for assistance and got it jumped thank you random attendant time to head out but OOPS I LOST MY TICKET LMAO OK#have to ask for help again and oh no its the same attendant I'm so sorry I'll pay full price 😭 oh its extra because I stayed overnight?#no prob boss just let me pay oh god stop explaining it to me just let me pay and be on my WAY... the price? $109 LMAOOOOO#BUT we head to dinner and happy days! theres a parking lot nearby with the gate up! Could I risk parking there for free? I did. And we had#great Thai food :) The waitress even asked if we wanted more water- yes please! julie's water gets refilled and then waitress leaves HUHHH#no water for me then LMAO AND? WE FIND TWO HAIRS IN OUR FOOD??? No worries king 😭 the one entree is free thank you#God willing my car is still in the lot (not towed!) and the gate is still up so we drive back to the apartment and park- get it- in the#same lot as before 😇 I CANNOT PARK ANYWHERE ELSE!!! THIS IS THE GARAGE NEXT TO THE APARTMENT AND BOSTON PARKING SUUUUCKS#we get back to the lobby and oh? is that a coffee machine? lemme check it out.... OH? Hot chocolate? I deserve a hot chocolate lemme get 1#HAHAHAHAHHAA JUST KIDDING! THERE ARE NO CUPS. BITCH. YOU DONT DESERVE HOT CHOCOLATE!!!#me on the elevator up to the room on my hands and knees apologizing to God for whatever I'm being punished for LMAO yall...#please pray for me 😭 🙏🙏#booboop
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shoutout to my sibling for enabling me bc homie is going to wake up to a shitton of messages, many of which were sent at 2 am and one notable message sent at 4, we are Having a Normal One
#you don't want to know when the rest of those messages were sent :))#not kpop#shut up vic#i am going through it hyperfixation go brrrr#me: i will experience this media through tiktok clips ONLY#me: ok maybe i will watch this one section of this one vod#me: ok maybe i will watch this other perspective of this one moment in this one vod#me: well perhaps i will go watch this other moment in this other vod#me: oops well i watched the rest of that vod and then started over from the beginning and watched again#me: ok but what if i watched this alternate perspective vod of the same moment#anyway now my brain's like hey what if we watched a third perspective of this moment#send help i can't go back the last time i tried this one of them literally went to jail for ten years#but ughhh i am Enjoying Myself >:((#i don't want to see more people i like go to actual prison for being horrible people off camera#like why is this a very real situation to fear holy shit it is so simple to just NOT be a p*do grrr but some people can't limbo under that#the bar is in the stratosphere but my god they're building spaceships like LADS YOU LIMBO BY GOING UNDER FOR GODS SAKE OR MINE PLEASE#anyway i am having fun and i think it's funny and i am having thoughts and my sibling gets to hear them lol#i'm trying to pretend to myself that i'm not enjoying this as much as i probably am bc :(#but that's a problem for when it's not 4 am lmfao gnight tag readers
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Was doing some paw practice and working out how to make paws more useful, to actually craft and make things for a fantasy setting yknow?
I went for a more lion like approach as well as making the toes a little more able to grab onto things. While trying to keep them still cat like. I might shift them a tad but I kinda like how they look and it’s much easier to draw then the mitten like paws real cats have
#the collective#trying to get the technical things smoothed out before sharing anything about smth#sorry I’ve been so busy and haven’t drawn much but I’ve been drawing a lot more in my notebook so i can post some more sketchy things#I have a few things I really like but I don’t know if I should settle on them#my handwriting is pretty bad oops#nightly sketches#cat paws#technical tag#<- for the less fantasy and more buildings things I’ll post about
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I really hate how much my brain hates to do new things sometimes
#oops i’m ranting in the tags apparently#tw for uhh depression and anxiety and eating difficulties in the tags if you read them#i made it to the door of a cafe two blocks from my flat#i’ve walked past it a dozen times in the six months i’ve lived here#and the menu looks good it’s coffee and breakfast foods and sandwiches#and they have donuts from a donut place i like#but it’s in a building with like three doors right next to each other and i didn’t know which one it was#and now i do bc i thought to check the address online#and made it to the door but it looks small and there were People there because it’s like noon duh#and i couldn’t see if there was more table just by peeking through the window while trying to look like i wasn’t peeking in#so i stood a foot away from the door and then left and went to my normal coffee place one block in the other direction#but i still haven’t gotten FOOD which is … not great i haven’t eaten anything in a couple days#i mean i had chinese food that i split between sat and sun as my lunch at work#but i should probably eat something but i’m tired of only going to the chipotle near safeway or the pizza bar which isn’t open yet anyway#which leads us back to i hate my brain and i’ll probably just end up getting chipotle again#but there are so many local restaurants that i want to try!! but i’m so picky about food while also hating to ask for modifications#and i used up most of the energy today dragging myself into the shower for the first time in dayss#and i need to do laundry and go grocery shopping and do the dishes and and and#and i’m still fucking exhausted even though i passed out on the couch last night and didn’t drag myself out until like 11 am#and i have work tomorrow so laundry NEEDS to happen because i worked eight days in a row and have zero clean work clothes#and i can hear my stomach growling at me because coffee was not enough and i know better and i’m really not trying to starve myself to death#but goddamn i just don’t want to have to do anything#i hate this#why brain why#mental health: deteriorating#my ramblings
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