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fakeoutbf · 12 days

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five stages of grief but it’s five stages of social anxiety

#walk with me #this morning i got a bouquet delivered to me at work randomly out of nowhere #the note basically said that i could count of the person even if for just some words of advice or a gesture that could make me laugh or mad #count on the person**#i immediately knew it’s from one of my coworkers and ngl i have a very charged?? relationship with them #in the sense that it’s very intense and we can be laughing joking and teasing or we can be really angry and pissed with each other #it can have very extreme emotions even if we just chill most of the time #idk why i think this whole year i’ve been leaning on them more?? and we started texting more often too #so we’ve been more properly friends lately #and for one i was SO EMBARRASSED for getting flowers bc my coworkers tease the shit out of everyone myself included and i’m not used to #gestures like that so obviously they were on my ass all day about it #and everyone asked about them and it’s EMBARRASSING to get that much attention #(me: i wanna be a singer / also me: can’t stand to be the center of attention)#anyway the person that sent them avoided me yesterday out of nowhere??? idk if they thought i was mad bc i didn’t reply to their texts all #weekend but i literally never reply to anyone and pms was a bitch and i just wanted to be alone #so they didn’t talk to me on monday i was mostly just working listening to music bc i was still emotional whatever #and today i did talk to my other coworkers bc it’s the day when my favorite coworker comes in and i talk to them a lot so i engaged more #and they were still ignoring me and then the flowers came in and we didn’t say a single word to each other today we just texted #they told me they sent them and that ‘they forgot’ what they sent and that it was just meant to be a nice gesture #and that bc they wanted to ‘surprise’ me and make me feel better bc i said i was sad at one point?? idek #i literally just want to tell them I HAD PMS ITS FINE I FEEL SUICIDAL ALL THE TIME and move on #bc now i’m second guessing everything they’re saying bc i thought we were friends and there’s no reason why friends can’t send each other #flowers or whatever but they’ve been avoiding me and then they keep answering my texts really weirdly and i always misinterpret flirting bc #i’m never outright romantic with anyone?? plus we’re FRIENDS i should have no reason to think that’s changed #but they’re being so weird and why get me FLOWERS??? idk get me a chocolate or a coffee i don’t NEED flowers #and then i said it was random to give me flowers out of nowhere and they’re like no it’s serious bro what’s serious??????#your feelings towards me?? or just your will to cheer me up???#if they don’t reply straight up in their next texts i’m gonna flat out say but it was a platonic gesture right???#so yeah i’m overthink getting flowers bc what’s the social code for that and what is one supposed to do when they get flowers from a friend #delivered to their joint workplace where everyone can see them and think they’re from a partner or something

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seiwas · 8 months

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hope everyone’s had/is having a lovely day so far!! 🥺💗 here is some extra love!!!

#what’s smth that u’re grateful for today!!!#mine r good conversations and kind people 🥺#bought matcha this morning and the barista was so nice!! 🥺#i asked if he could remove the sugar and he rllY DID a lot of places will usually lie and say theres no sugar akksksks but #when i drink it its super sweet.. so wdym theres no sugar BUT ANYWAY #he drew a lil heart after my name too!!!! 🥺 makes me wanna experience being a barista some day so i can write cute things on peoples cups!#and hopefully make their days 🫶🏻#an establishment also let us use their parking while we bought coffee 🥺#and and!! a good friend i haven’t hung out with in a while dropped by!! to spend time w us for my bf’s bday (we r a group)#and!!!!!!! had dinner with my bf’s family and i love his parents so much 🥺#they’ve always been so so welcoming and kind to me !!! rlly showering me in so much love 🥺 and conversations over dinner were so nice !!!#i can ask them anything i’m curious abt and they’ll always answer sincerely #his mom is also a finance god i think … she always has so much wisdom when it comes to finances ajsnsjs #anyway!! thats me rambling!!! i am full of love today!!! so i want to pass it on!!#i talked so much again

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kylominis · 1 year

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what now, mr. weasley? [♡]

#garreth weasley #hogwarts legacy #hogwarts legacy fanart #he was actually quite fun to draw!#his hair was definitely much more easy to draw than seb's #i should sleep but i think i had too much coffee today #i'm not tired at all...#mydrawings

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longagoitwastuesday · 1 year

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I was tagged by @13eyond13. Thanks! I was very excited because the style was different and beautiful, but to be honest it's kinda limiting. Nonetheless, it was fun. So, yes, thank you very much!

I tag @eyeciclez , @wearileigh, @faintingheroine, @eroshiyda, @blackwoodbanshee, @theimpossiblescheme and @onedivinemisfit. Here is the link, if you feel like doing it.

#I was wearing a ponytail today. The other version just 🤷🏻‍♂️#I love yellow roses‚ and since it was looking kind of simple...#Everything I got was like Too Pretty™. Which fits the watercolor style but I just couldn't get anything that felt close to me #I did think the eye colour was quite realistic in any case!#I tried to make Cathy Earnshaw and a couple other characters but I didn't like what I got either so this will do #It was fun though. I liked that you could stain the paper. It's been a bit nostalgic #I used to paint my notebooks with coffee and ink when I had notebooks with good paper. It's been years #I also liked to burn the pages but there was no burnt option unfortunately #I talk too much #I should probably delete this later #Tag game #About me #?#I never remember how I tagged these things

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guyfierbee · 11 months

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I have my first actual real therapy session w this lady today and I am so ✨️anxious✨️

#would be having anxiety At Someone typically but #but ppl are busy at work and/or i haven't talked to them today #(and if i send an anxiety text that gets no response because they too are busy i think i will surely die)#plus also it is literally Just Therapy but i did also promise myself i wouldnt stonewall this one #which makes it So Much Scarier believe it or not #agh she's nice and has picked up on some stuff already #and we have a good progress plan that seems achievable #but god fuck shit what if i say something and she's just like 'you're beyond help actually bye'#AAAAAAAAAAAA FUCK #shouldn't have had that large iced coffee this morning #that's on me #well #anyway how are you guys

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cantankerouscatfish · 4 months

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sometimes, work involves (valentines edition) :

we sold out of a lot of stuff yaaay 🎉

selling things involves dealing with customers... yaaay...... NO UH it's fine, no one (that I saw/heard about) was mean this year. which is really nice! no yelling in the shop except excitedly about silly things!!! 🎉

the florists do enjoy the knife valentine. nice.

the newer office lady brought a box of donuts and coffee to the snacks pile (next to my work station) going 'these were brought in by... A Guy.' and we were all like, oh. a guy. alright. thanks, guy. it was the floral shop manager's future son-in-law lmao. most of us know him by name. new office lady does not. I woulda gone up to wave hi!

DJ brought in a box of bud vase boxes, and literally the moment I cut it open, I started sneezing nonstop. for like 5 entire minutes. it stopped as suddenly as it started. ???

M the office lady walked down to the wrapping station, got my attention, then flicked me (gently) with a rubberband. said 'Ro said to say that that's from her.' so I yelled up the length of the back workroom up the stairs to her. 'YOU'RE OUTSOURCING YOUR VIOLENCE NOW??' 'YES! :)' they did this a few more times. thing is, Ro was busier than me, so I could spare a moment to actually run over to the bottom of the stairs with the rubberband to fire back with more force. she did get me directly a couple times. namely on the ear AGAIN...

a guy came in with a funny long scarf and it turns out he's a preacherman. the floral shop manager made some comment about it being the ashes day, and he literally pulled a thing of it out of his pocket?? and she and a few other coworkers came over to get dirt put on their faces on purpose while the rest of us were like... awkwardly still working and sharing Looks. the dirt stays on all day...? christians are weird.

THE SUN CAME OUT and I caught up on wrapping stuff for delivery, so I took it an excuse to putz around out in the greenhouses for a bit. helped a couple customers but mostly just checked on plants. the Anacampseros rufescens seeds have germinated. :D

also some of the fern 288 trays have leaves on them now. most of each tray is still covered by the uhhh fern larvae. reeks of algae like a slow creek. it reminds me fondly of fishing, but makes one coworker super nauseous. odd to find someone more grossed out by a smell than me. and it's a shame bc it means she can't get her face real close to see the funny little slimes. u_u

#that box of boxes held a curse I think. it didn't look dusty. :I #I had. entirely too much coffee yesterday and today. oopsies.

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cinna-bunnie · 1 year

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i didn't immediately get a follow-up text saying someone i hung out with had a good time

#😔 my brain is sooooo annoying #i hope there is a Next Time™ though 🥲 i had a rly nice time and.. i don't have reason to Not think they didn't have a good time #👉👈 but ppl can b nice and still ghost u. i just hope that's not the case this time 😭 I've rly been hoping this friendship works out #and if it doesn't tbh I'll be SO upset about it 😭 like if this doesn't work then idk what will man #just give up and be a shut in who does god knows what all day because being a person is too hard #this is like the longest I've talked w anyone from tinder and the most I've actually carried conversation on discord #and we hung out yesterday for the first time and it Seemed good but i haven't heard from them today #and i feel dumb and silly for feeling this way..? being anxious and hopeful has a girl holding her breath all the time 😔#any step forward feels like my last ykwim? u do something simple and small but always feel like it's Too Much #and like Anything u do is enough to push or scare ppl away 😬 but no one will ever tell u what's wrong!!#so u don't know what u did or what to look out for or idk. it just makes u feel like literally everything and anything is Too Much #and like u shouldn't even try.. but u Should or else you'll be alone frfr. 😮‍💨 idk i feel crazy lol I'm gonna go grab a coffee n draw

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fingertipsmp3 · 7 months

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One thing about me is I will buy myself treats I literally do not deserve because I didn’t do anything whatsoever

#so you know that job interview i had today? yeah i cancelled it #i looked at reviews for the company and they had legit HORRIBLE reviews on both glassdoor and indeed #and so many of them and so recent that i was like. i can’t discount this #plus the fact that i don’t even really want to work in this field… like why would i do this to myself #scheduled to work 10 days in a row; back to back 12-15 hour shifts #for MINIMUM WAGE are you actually shitting me. i think the fuck not #you know what my last job was? making coffee. you know what i got paid? 50p an hour above minimum wage. you know what my shifts were?#4-8 hours. you know how many days i worked in a week? 4-5. you know how many breaks i got? lots #i rest my fucking case #(breaks were unpaid lol and i didn’t get much holiday or sick pay but you can’t have everything!)#i also saw like… management is rude; disorganised; disrespectful etc and i was like okay. that’s not going to go well #i mean there is something very wrong with me so i’d more than likely end up being about thrice as rude to management. but still #anyway. the treats! i ordered myself a new leather jacket because idk i don’t care about my credit score i guess #i also bought a lot of chocolate. like a lot a lot. they didn’t have my favourite ice cream so i compensated #by raiding the christmas display and also buying sweets and cookies and aero bars and THEN i noticed they had chocolate yoghurt on offer #so i obviously had to buy those. i did also buy the necessities #well i didn’t buy cheese but honestly i was too bamboozled by the display and the fact that they only had mild cheddar and light cheddar #and lightER cheddar which? 🧐 just buy milk at that point man #so basically if you need me i think i am going to eat haribos and play my game #there will be other job interviews. i literally have one next week. the one today was just not it #personal

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thisstableground · 2 years

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you ever have those weeks where it’s like, wow, this is probably what i’d be like without all the ADHD and OCD but you have no idea what caused all this sudden competence and so have no way of knowing how to maintain or regain it

#i sent like 109 emails yesterday #thats a terrifying amount of emails #and today i went to the DENTIST and i sent EVEN MORE EMAILS and then SORTED OUT ALL MY UPCOMING PAYMENTS #and CONTACTED MY BANK #and still had time to go for a lil iced coffee #and i simply have not felt anxious about any of it? or sat around thinking about it for hours before actually doing it?#life's better when you don't think too much really

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faerociousbeast · 1 year

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i hate people other than my tumblr mutuals perceiving me bc everyone else is just So fucking wrong

#and its so RANDOM and INTENSE too like #theyre always SO certaim #the thing i was vaguing about. so in guitar we all had to put a fun fact ab ourselves on a sticky note #nd everyday one of them is read out loud and you have to point at whoever you think wrote it #todays was. yeah 'i played violin for 10 years!'#and i KID YOU NOT i had 6 people pointing at me and i didnt even look around that much #its been 4 days?? you know nothing???? where is this coming from???? help??#where is this coming from #do i give violinist karate master genius coffee drinker vibes tf

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lavender---sunshine · 2 years

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Had a big day but I'm desperately needing more small days