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anarchopuppy · 5 months

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I hate to do this again, but I'm out of options. I have to pay my $350 power bill by 5pm CST tomorrow (December 7th, 2023) or I'll be disconnected, and my account is currently over $500 in the red from December's rent. I still haven't been able to find a new job and things are getting really desperate

If I can get $350 within the next 24 hours, I can pay the bill directly through paypal and at least keep my lights on while keeping my bank account overdrawn for now. If you're able to help out, my ko-fi is here, and you can DM me for my paypal or venmo if necessary. Reblogs are also appreciated. Thanks y'all <3

$0/350

#i'm really embarrassed to be asking again already #to preemptively answer some questions: the last post was about November's (overdue) rent. that was paid. the overdraft is for December #and no i don't know why this one overdrafted my account but the last one bounced #and yes $350 is an unusually large power bill. there was an issue with my water heater that my landlord took his sweet time to come fix #ugh i really do hate doing this again so soon i'm sorry #it's almost making me regret giving so much to mutual aid when i had a well-paying job instead of saving #keyword almost - i'm still glad i did - but damn this situation sucks

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bloodbrown · 5 months

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P Reacting to Seeing You Cry Headcanons

This one is for the homie @fairy-grotto :)

• It shocks P at first, to see someone he loves in such a state. At this point in his journey to gaining humanity, he understands what tears mean, of course. But... he didn't know that you could cry? The thought simply has never crossed his mind. And because of that, he freezes up for a moment.

• P gets such a physical reaction seeing you cry. He experiences this tightness in his springs and a heavy feeling in his chest as he sees you there, so horribly upset. He's never felt this way over anything before now, and it freaks him out.

• Though whatever the problem is, and even if it's too human for him to comprehend fully, he understands that he wants to try to make things better. Helping is all he really knows.

• So, he starts by helping with the first thing he can think of. He brings you stuff that he knows will provide some comfort. Blankets, pillows, and maybe even his coat. He might also bring things you might not have any immediate use for but that he knows you like-- such as your favorite book.

• P just has this strong desire to protect and comfort you, and that especially comes through now. He will offer to hold you very close to him to keep you safe. Cuddles with P are very soothing, so I can't imagine why anyone would decline.

• If you're still struggling mentally and emotionally, P will want to calm you down. Being a puppet, he knows that he's not exactly an expert in emotional matters, but he will try.

• Since he isn't great with words (unless he's lying his ass off to someone) he opts to do his best to comfort you physically so that you'll be okay again.

• For example, P will bring his head closer to yours, and he'll give you a gentle kiss on the forehead or cheek. He likes to press his face against you in general, so he'll do a bit of that too, nuzzling into your shoulder.

• Because it really troubles him to see your face all wet and weird (to a puppet), he'll kiss away your tears if you'll let him.

• That sounds cute at first, I know, but P will literally just do it continuously until you stop crying. It becomes so genuinely (and unintentionally) hilarious that he's doing that every 2 seconds. You might become so distracted by how funny this situation is that it temporarily cancels out everything else at that moment.

• Even if he doesn't understand exactly why you might be smiling at him like that, or laughing, he's happy that he's apparently helped you for at least a little while.

#ive been sitting on this and changing it and redoing it for a WHILE and I'm really not happy with its existence #i sorta hate it? but ive been sitting on it so long.#and i also promised id do it #so im just dropping it #lies of p x reader #pinocchio x reader #p x reader #December 2023

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royalarchivist · 1 year

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Full video of Quackity and Wilbur singing “Perfume” from tonight’s LA Lovejoy concert!

(Videos shared by @sootsit, edited together by me)

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ragsy · 4 months

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ART VS ARTIST 2023

#ragsycon exclusive #ragsymakes #art vs artist #artists on tumblr #this is the first year in a long time where i've made enough that i'm proud of to fill out one of these :')#and there's MORE that didn't even fit on here!!!!#feels really nice bro!!!!!!!!!!#i waffled on putting my holding-the-dogman's-head-in-bisexual-lighting selfie as my artist portrait #but i feel like my lizardsona is more appropriate #especially because the other reason i rarely do art vs artist is because i always hated having to put a picture of myself in the middle #but i don't actually have to because the rules are all fake #anyway #happy december

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jackredfieldwasmyjacob · 3 months

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he picked literally the worst day in the year to visit the city lmao poor man

#no but really #do not come to madrid on constitution long weekend #(constitution day is december 6 i think so around that time)#it is pure chaos #i hate it so much

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songtwo · 2 months

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idk i think my bf might be developing a drinking problem and i just don’t know what to do…..

#it’s been going on for a couple of months now but he promised he would stop and he had been doing well until today….#and it’s like. on one hand i never wanted to be w an alcoholic and i told him straight so he promised it would stop #but on the other hand i can’t just abandon him #and it’s like we used to go out a lot and party but like. that was it but ever since he met this guy he just gets lost when he drinks w him #and the thing was he got like aggressive like he didn’t do anything to me and i can’t really explain it but he just wasn’t himself #and like. we talked about it a million times and it’s not like it happens every week #it’s been like 5 times since december #but 3 have been on the past month alone #and two weeks ago it got bad like he almost got into an accident #and like i’m not even physically w him anymore like we really only see each other once a week since i moved #and from the very first time it happened i told him i couldn’t be w him if it kept happening #and after that incident two weeks ago he swore it was the last time but it just happened again #by the way he and that guy get wasted it really is a miracle they get home alive #and like. idk what to do #i really don’t want to be w someone like this #and i hate feeling like this like if i were to think only about myself i don’t want this i hate feeling like this #but i also can’t abandon him #like not even bc i would miss him or whatever i just wouldn’t feel good leaving him alone #but like i don’t want to live like this #maybe i’ll ask for some time to just figure things out #but it’s gonna suck so bad bc we were supposed to see kendrick lamar next week and then we already had plans for his bday and omfg #i don’t wanna leave but i don’t want things to be like this either #and i asked him to stop and gave him multiple chances but idk #i just don’t know what to do #i love him endlessly but i need to put myself first but i can’t abandon him:(#and our 1.5 anniversary was also next week…..#but i think time is the sanest and safest thing right now

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petruchio · 4 months

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ugh its my friends birthday tonight and i just so deeply do not want to go because i'm so exhausted from the last few weeks and last night was my company holiday party and the night before i had client dinner and last week i was doing work client stuff all week and im just so burnt out of socializing but it's my best friend of 13 years' birthday and she wants to go out so i have to drag my ass to the club even though every muscle in my body is screaming to just crawl into bed and not move for like a month

#caroline speaks #IM SO GD TIRED #literally reminding myself i have to get through 3 more days and then i can fly home and hide for like 2 weeks #except not really because i have to do family stuff #low key i used to love december and im starting to hate it lol.#adulthood wins again!

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silenthillbunni · 7 months

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#anyway so yeah im so sick of hating myself. of missing out on things and being too scared to go after things i want when i have the chance #so sick of almost being 25 and having spent almost 6 years alone in my room missing out on life #and my mom and sister might be moving in the not too distant future #so i have to try to get my life together for real now!!! or homelessness will be awaiting me :D #what i will try to do.. is start going to the gym (w my mom so i dont have to deal w the anxiety of an unknown place by myself sksk)#i'll workout 3-5 times a week. every week. i like going to the gym so if i just get started i dont have a doubt i'll not be able to do it #i'll focus on finishing my english class. hopefully in december even if i have the possibility to get it extended a few months #then i'll start my other 4 classes in january #i'll be patient and wait for my ultrasound and get the gallstone situation fixed (latest in january if i need surgery)#(and i have to try to make sure i eat properly so i dont wind up with b12 deficiency... i cant eat anything without pain but i have to..)#also i have an appt at the psychiatric in mid october. and im still waiting on what my healthcare center says. hopefully i can get cbt #if possible i will really really try to apply for jobs as a personal assistant sometime between january-may #if i have a job instead of being on wellfare i will 1) have way more money 2) not feel constabtly anxious abt being rejected and homeless #i'll stop caring abt me being 'old' and a late bloomer. the planet is dying. who cares if im 28 and start university????#i'll take my time to finish high school. and the thing is i really should get a job before starting higher vocational education #bc the program i want to start i HAVE to have a laptop. and theres no way i can afford that now. cant even save up to it #also need to find and put myself up on waiting lists for student housing/apartments so i can actually move #i hate this city and i need to get the fuck out of here!!!!#but the world is crazy rn and it's super hard to find places to live and find jobs but it's not impossible so i need to try #i cant live like this & i have no idea how tf i'll manage to be a normal person and have a life but i need to try bc what else am i gnna do?

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zoekrystall · 2 months

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Did that fav pkmn thing on a whim and I'm sorry for all my babies I didn't choose bc I really like too many by some.

Love how it's mostly pretty ones and then there's clodsire. Even tho I got it in my team since the beginning of violet do I continuously forget its name bc I just call it by the nickname blobby (one of the rare times I didn't spend hours googling the perfect nickname but it nonetheless is a perfect one)

And for fun without any legendaries as fav

Reg nicknames I even write all down so I only spend decades once for each pkmn (unless I don't like the prev one anymore). Need to update that someday since it's mostly old revolution ones but hey. Blaze do I use for arcanine nowadays more and ninetails got others. Gardevoir got soteria nowadays which I prefer more. Etc.

#a wild lux appears #(made this in december but for whatev reason left it in drafts until now. prob bc I wanted to limit non important posting idk)#Maybe you think garchomp is there bc of other reasons but I use it since dpp bc cynthia made kid me go 'woah!'#I remember having looked up as a kid to cynthia and juniper a lot and that fact n reason behind it makes me also go yeah no I was a girl wh #one day decided to be happier otherwise. Bc the reason was 'oh wow female and cool so I can indeed be that :0' most importantly with junipe #bc I never cared for battles. ye ye ignore fictional professions I was like 8. reason I loath alola tbh I missed doing non battle side stuf #I vividly remember picking my first pkmn game up (hg) and just immediately going fuck being a trainer let me be a prof and it's so funny ho #my horrendous sieve brain has that laser ingrained. Sometimes still brainstorm and I would prob study ghost pkmn tbh who by sheer luck isn'#dead yet. That and maybe being v charismatic to that type idk. Why bc I like those lil fellas.#What I also find extremely funny is having went by sonia prior to swordshield and there being a prof sonia. Wish I still went by it when it #dropped. Imagine. Kid sonia wanting to be a prof and meeting swsh sonia being on her way to be one. I either would've made her my #personality (which I think I nonetheless did I think I changed my icons to her) or would've wildly shaking her going 'it should have been #meeee'. which ig I mentally do by every rival or friend group person that takes that route like take me w you I hate battles please. Insane #that only blueberry academy me start to hate em slightly less. After over a decade of battles. Ig alpharad's n others streams w nuzlockes n #all started to also show me the appeal of actually strategizing instead of brute forcing which I did.#*that only blueberry academy MADE me #Whatev. Also no I don't got anything else that another pkmn would kickstart talking abt. Just know I drag my 2013 xerneas everywhere w me #and it is a fucking crime that I can't throw it into violet. What is this. You clearly don't mind throwing others into regions they don't #belong to at all (which I personally really dislike hc lore wise but gameplay wise whatever let new trainers catch old legendaries)#To come back to fav pkmn yes I'm in the dragonair boat. I hate evolving mine. Dragonite is fine I like it standalone but I like the #aesthetic of dragonair more. Idfc abt logic or whatever this is aesthetic talk. Yes I prefer some fan evos more.#I keep wanting to play that fusion fangame and if you want to know what pkmn I like I found out I have a huge overlap w alpharad there #Which sucks for us both! We adore pkmn that get lewded the most and I hate my life. You do you idc some are humanoid I have to admit that #but I personally would prefer to not see any art or even just jokes abt ANY of that. Humanoid or not I Do Not See.#I don't block let alone report over that just. tag and don't bring that to my doorstep thx.#What I will at most block n judge is if you touch any of the kids idc in this franchise if they're just pixels.#Can you tell I am writing this close to midnight anyways this is all. This became like a completely dif post in the tags welp

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thiscatiscreepy · 5 months

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I've been feeling like shit for the last week or two.

#i had a really good work schedule and then one of the teachers (whos working part time) went away for December to do university stuff #and now a lot of her groups are on me. especially the Saturday ones. i hate working on Saturdays dude. feels like i have no weekend at all #cat talks

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mycological-mariner · 5 months

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*incoherent screams of frustration and tears of exhaustion*

#I bloody hate Christmas #imposter syndrome was so bad at the christmas dinner too I wanted to curl up and die #everyone is very sweet so I can’t complain #but re-enactment is very much a rich persons hobby or at least independently wealthy #I may drop out of doing actual events which. sucks lol #but I can’t afford it #I haven’t been able to afford food for two weeks let alone a bloody uniform #I can still help out. managing the website and etc #but all the things I want to do and love to do I can’t afford #no wonder most reenactors are older well off folk or younger people who’ve been brought up in it #not to mention coming home and finding empty beer bottles littered everywhere #my mums coming tomorrow and shes ain’t given a time for arrival #I gotta work out sleeping arrangements get food clean the house do dishes etc #I just want to sleep?#I really really bloody hate Christmas for many many reasons #but stress of planning and getting shit in order is top of the list #christ #I want December to be Over #just depressed bc now I may not even get to meet up with this group when they’ve been so lovely bc… well fuck man.#just so much on my plate rn. I haven’t been able to relax. oh well. no choice but to do what needs doing #I just wish it wasn’t so much that needed doing #no wonder I’ve been having heart troubles

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newjerseydevils · 5 months

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your advent calendars that's so cute 🥺

aaaaa thank you ! its 100% an excuse to just give them a bunch of cute lil stickers and pins and candy i think they'd like but what im really excited for is i put all the envelopes in these cute tote bags i picked out for each of them and im really hoping they like the ones i selected for them !!

#ask #anon #im also the worst at keeping secrets #so even though they don't know specifics #they do know the vague idea of gifts they're getting #aka stickers pins and some socks on the 7th as a lil chanukah gift #its genuinely rude that it's still december rn because i really want them to get to excitedly open a lil something every day #plus one of my roomies has a birthday in december so he has a special thing for that day in his calendar #and im so so excited for him to open that one especially #i love gift giving i have an entire spreadsheet i started in october for planning my holiday shopping and wrapping schedules #like i don't even like the holidays #absolutely hate xmas #and usually have a lowkey chanukah so my entire excitement is just about the gifts #had to tell jordi to slap me if i tried to give him any gifts early #and i have 😔#he just gave me a pitiful look though don't worry

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sonic-adventure-3 · 1 year

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one of my favourite pastimes is imaging shadow saying the contrarian and misanthropic shit i think on the daily. i think shadow would say things like “i don’t like soup” or “i hate sunny days” with his full chest and not give any explanation cause he fully doesn’t care if people think he’s difficult

#rambles #shadow #yeah i think those things #soup is complicated but i really do fucking hate sunny days #also i hate the entire month of december i hate winter i hate summer i hate holidays #i have actual fair reasons for thinking these things but idc to explain without being prompted to #such a burden having strong negative opinions on things a huge amount of people enjoy and make small talk about #ITS SO ANNOYING HAVING STONG OPINIONS ON SUNNY DAYS. CAN YOU FUCKING BELIEVE HOW OFTEN PEOPLE TALK ABOUT SUNNY DAYS

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vampireic · 7 months

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hello medical professionals why do i make up arguments in my head between me and my bf that always end up in us breaking up. why do i do that and why are they kind of realistic and why do they make sense and why won’t they stop????? i cant even think of us being cutesy and nice and lovey because it will spiral into an argument WHY DO I DO THAT PLEASE. how do i make them stop

#i literally get so angry i have to calm myself down and remind myself that it’s literally all in my head and it never happened like HELLO #like is this a sign????????? do i hate him????? i don’t. but like girl who is in my head hating him????#watch me come to the realization i’m a lesbian /j screams #i’ve been so scared of that too like what if i meet the woman of my dreams while my bf is gone……….. what if she makes me realize #like i don’t think i want that to happen but also i kind of do ???????????? i just want to know wtf is up with me and why i have so much->#animosity towards my bf……. am i not over what he did to me last year???? i really need to talk to him face to face #it’s not even about last year all that much but all the times he made me cry the first few months of dating. mf used to make me cry like ->#every other day…………. like damn wtf. i’m actually kind of processing that he really made me cry a lot #seeing him in december will help i think. give me clarity #i’ll ask my himbo friend for advice on monday or smth

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navramanan · 8 months

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I wish i could stop feeling pathetic and made to feel pathetic by the people around me it kills me

#i really really feel like i lucked out on friendships like a curse was put onto me the moment i was born #i have this one friend from uni it was december i last saw her & she told me she'd finish her degree this year & move back to her hometown #and she knew that would make me sad and said we should see each other more before i do #some months passed it was like may i think i asked her to hang out she was out of town #she didnt get back to me so a week later i asked again. she said she didnt have time. i didnt ask again. neither did she get back to me #she ignores messages doesnt react to memes i send didnt even react at all when i congratulated her on finishing her thesis #and it all makes me feel so pathetic and desperate bc i just dont get it vallahi i dont #i dont know what i did to attract such people as someone who really really hates messages being ignored n never replied to #i feel so so stupid worthless forgotten replaceable and i've been feeling this way all my life i keep trying and always fail #and it breaks my heart so so bad to watch people leave my life this way #nesi rants

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bo0zey · 1 year

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manic mixed depressive episode on my bday is so fun especially when ur going on 2 days no sleep n have a 12hr shift starting at the asscrack of dawn in 6hrs

#idk if i want to sleep like i do but i don’t i just keep walking in circles n staring off blankly #also bursted into tears for no reason bc i missed my mom and remembered how much i hate my fucking birthday #was in the middle of a borderline argument w my family then just zoned out n glanced at the time and tears welled #6:13???#then i pretended to go to the bathroom to hide my tears from my dad cuz he would’ve yelled at me if i went to my room w/o saying anything #so there i am crying like a pathetic loser on the toilet trying to suppress n swallow down ugly sobs #and there i am crying in my dumpster fire of a room on the floor #i literally go the entire year without crying abt her but every time december hits i always get into this weird funk #and idk why it’s still happening it’s been 7 years #i think my subconscious mind is influencing my body to release the trauma stored inside it bc i was never allowed to grieve her properly #so now in blips of time leading up to my birthday and the next day of her passing i’m 15 turning 16 again #i wish i didn’t have to work tomorrow so i could go visit her at her grave instead like i never go to the cemetery but i really want to #i guess i can go on her actual death day but i don’t want to go with my dad and brothers i just want to be alone #they don’t understand the feeling of losing your mom and best friend on your 16th bday #they don’t understand what it’s like carrying all this guilt and trauma and holding her hand and feeling her hand go limp at my words #i told her it was okay she could let go i would take care of my brothers and protect them from my father and i would be strong for everyone #meanwhile i’m listening to my dad n my aunt throwing all her clothes in trash bags upstairs #i didn’t even get to pick out what clothes i wanted to keep of hers im so angry my dad refused to let any of us miss her #“i miss mom-‘ ‘she’s dead get over it!’#i got over it alright but then this time of year rolls around and i’m under it all again #i miss her so much i wonder if she’d be proud of me i wonder what it would be like to feel her hand in mine again #ooos im crying again lol #im so pathetic i’m literally 23 in less than 30 minutes why am i behaving like a crybaby child #23:33 when i was typing that btw n 333 is my angel/life path number lol #i wanna saw my arm off but i won’t #i debated staring an iv on myself instead but i’m too drained i just want lay down n cry lol #pathetic loser crybaby girl can’t function can’t shut up making everyone uncomfortable with her sadnes n tears stupid stupid stupid #drown in them and die nobody here loves you anymore nobody cares you’re the problem always the problem #i can’t remember if my mom loved me or not everyone says she did but i forgot what it feels like #i wish i never told her it was okay to let go i lied to her i said i’d be okay but here i am manic depressive

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