one of my favourite pastimes is imaging shadow saying the contrarian and misanthropic shit i think on the daily. i think shadow would say things like “i don’t like soup” or “i hate sunny days” with his full chest and not give any explanation cause he fully doesn’t care if people think he’s difficult

"Get to know my character" asks - for Hadriel; 03, 42, Lotus; 30, 38, Sabreas; 27, 37 ♥

Hadriel: 03. What would be their favorite physical trait about themselves?- Can I say everything? I feel like everything is the answer Hadriel would give you. He definitely has a few insecurities, but none of them are about his body or his appearance in any way. He thinks he’s fucking hot! Hadriel is basically over here like:

42. Is there anything in your character’s past that they regret, haunts them, or they wish they could change?- I’m not so sure about regrets, at least not at this point in his life. He’s haunted not so much by his past mistakes as by the things that has happened to him, like witnessing the death of his mother and being rejected by the only family left to him at 16 and the abuse occasionally suffered by former patrons, stuff like that. I think it’s really only when he gets sick that the regrets start catching up to him. Suddenly he’s forced to reconsider pretty much everything. Who he wants to be and what he wants to do with whatever time he has left. He wishes he could have been a better father to his daughter Elenia. He questions why he hasn’t tried to forgive and reconnect with his aunt (who was like a second mother to him growing up and whose love and support he has always yearned for). And perhaps most of all he regrets the way he has treated the two people he loves the most, Tahir and Lotus, taking them for granted, forcing them into impossible, unfair situations and causing them both a lot of pain and grief.  And to his credit, he actually does something about it, getting most of his shit together before dying. Lotus: 30. When it comes to the arts (music, film, theater, etc), what does your character like?- Lotus loves music, it’s one of the few things he’s genuinely passionate about. He’s a fan of string instruments in particular, and he loves the challenge of figuring out a new instrument. He probably has a pretty impressive collection at this point (because someone likes to spoil him). He sings too, although it’s something he has a slightly more complicated relationship to. He appreciates dance, but he prefers watching over engaging in it himself. He’s probably a pretty good dancer, but it’s always been very performative to him, almost mechanical, his heart just isn’t in it in the same way it is with music. Watching it is pretty nice though! He can absolutely appreciate the visual arts too, and I’m sure his rooms are filled with exquisite murals and sculptures and tapestries, but it’s not something he’s particularly knowledgeable about, and he probably has zero talent for any of it.38. What kind of weather does your character like? Cloudy skies, rainy days, sunshine, etc?- Obviously sunny days aren’t exactly ideal for him, his skin is incredibly sensitive and he doesn’t do very well with the heat. So he tends to stay indoors as much as possible during the day, especially during the harsh spring and summer months. But he doesn’t really like rain much either, and grey, cloudy days tend to get him in a pretty sullen mood. I think a clear and mild, perhaps even slightly chilly, autumn or winter day would be ideal in his eyes. Chamyreen winters rarely get very cold, but the heat isn’t unbearable and the sun isn’t as harsh as in the summers. Sabreas: 27. If your character was going to get arrested, what would be the most likely reason for it?- Probably pissing of the wrong people. For all the crap that is done to him by other people, he can definitely be his own worst enemy XD37. What are some of your character’s pet peeves? What are some things that annoy them or disgust them?- I have to repeat my answer to the first question: can I say everything? XDIt doesn’t take very much to annoy him, frankly. For specifics, hm… I think things like people talking over/interrupting him and invading his personal space would be at the very top of the list. People laughing at him/making jokes at his expense even more so. I can definitely see him hating annoying sounds of all sorts. Like, I can’t imagine him being able to stand a crying baby for more than 2 seconds before wanting to murder someone. Also, he’s such a snobby little shit, and having grown up as a pampered, spoiled prince, I’m sure he’s used to certain standards, and while he can deal with those standards not being met, he doesn’t like it. He hates being dirty, he hates bad food, he hates ratty clothes, etc, etc. Also, he’s surprisingly squeamish about blood and gore. Like, he wouldn’t show it, proud warrior prince that he is, but he finds it revolting. And that’s just scratching the surface, I’m sure I could go on all day. Thanks for the ask, it was just what I needed! ♥Sorry it took me so long to reply to, my brain has been soup lately ^^;

I thought we were best friends (Part 7)

She-ra Masterlist

Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6 

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Catra sniffed the bowl of soup curiously, her tail swishing from side to side on the couch. The wind and rain lashed outside and she felt her hair stand on end. She was wearing one of Angella’s large yellow knit sweaters that hit her knees because of how tall the professor was. Besides that she also had not one, but two fluffy blankets covering her body. Her usual clothes were drying next to a heater.

Her wet clothes were in the washing machine and Angella had allowed Catra to take a warm shower. She hated getting wet in the rain and the weather had only gotten worse since she had arrived at the professor’s house. It was warm and cosy, the heater next to her making her feel content. She picked up the spoon and took a sip of the soup, her stomach growling loudly.

“How’s the soup?” Angella asked as she took off her apron as she walked out from the kitchen. Catra looked down, not wanting to meet Angella’s eyes. The professor was tall with long lilac hair and had an impeccable fashion sense.

“It’s good...could use some pepper though,” she murmured and Angella smiled.

“I thought something was missing. Hold on,” Angella said she went back to the kitchen and came back with a pepper shaker. She handed it to Catra and the feline added it to the soup before handing it back. She mixed it in and tasted it and nodded.

“Yeah...that’s what was missing,” Catra said as she began to eat the soup quickly, her hunger taking over.

“Slow down Catra, I don’t want you to get sick,” Angella said quickly.

Catra paused and began to eat slower, feeling a little weird to be under her professor’s gaze. Angella, satisfied that Catra had taken her advice, sat down in a leather chair opposite her and picked up a stack of essays and began to mark them. Catra’s mind was in overdrive.

What is she going to do?

Well, she invited you back to her house and gave you soup.

Maybe she’s trying to be nice…? No. It’s a trick. Shadow Weaver would do the same thing and then she’d hurt you-

Catra shut her eyes tightly and tried to regulate her quickening breathing.

Breathe, you are far away from her. Just...focus on the moment in front of you...Angella is right there.

She eventually finished her soup and Angella took her bowl to the kitchen. Catra nervous and felt her stomach squeeze.

It’s just Angella. She can’t hurt you...

Angella walked back into the lounge area and sat down on the same leather chair opposite Catra.

“Okay Catra, do you want to tell me what’s going on?”

Catra looked down, not really knowing of she could trust Angella.

“Look Angella...it’s nice that you care and want to solve my problem but I’m okay now.”

Angella nodded,“Okay Catra, I’m not going to force you to tell me anything but...I do think talking to someone would be a good idea for you. Do you have someone to talk to?”

Catra opened her mouth but froze.

Scorpia probably hated her.

Adora would never forgive her.

Entrapta...Entrapta would probably side with Scorpia.

And Catra didn’t blame her. She had been an awful person and she... she had no one.

She had no one.

Catra started to tremble and her vision became blurry. Before she could stop the tears, she felt a hand on her shoulder.

“Catra, it’s okay to cry,” Angella said soothingly and Catra clenched the knit fabric in between her hands.

“Crying is a sign of weakness. I have no one. I don’t have anyone to talk too,” she sobbed as she pulled her legs close and laid her head on her knees.

“I am here, Catra. If you ever feel up to talking, I am a licensed psychologist, so if that eases your mind about me prying then it’s because I want you feel better.”

“You...you do?” Angella nodded and gently placed a hand on Catra’s hand.

“I don’t know what you’re going through but I would like to help you Catra. Glimmer only told me about her fight with you and when the incident at Mystacor happened.”

Catra was quiet.

“This...this is all confidential right?”

“Yes, unless I think that you’re in danger of harming yourself or others, everything that gets said between us is confidential.”

Catra nodded and looked up at Angella for the first time since she had found her in the park.

“I...I was an orphan...I went to Shadow Weaver’s Orphanage.”

“Shadow Weaver?”

“Oh, that’s not her real name. It’s some complicated sounding surname but...her hair is this inky black that looks like shadows and it always seems to be...I don’t know...floating? The name stuck and I’ve called her that ever since. I guess she never corrected me because it sounded so similar to her own surname”

“Okay...did Shadow Weaver have any sort of impact on your life?”

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“Catra! Please come to my office immediately. I need to give you something for doing well in today’s exercise.”

Catra’s eyes widened as she dropped the ball she was about to throw back to Adora. It was a sunny day and all the kids had been allowed to go outside.

I...I did something right and Shadow Weaver noticed? She finally noticed me? Yay!

Catra looked at Adora who nudged her to follow Shadow Weaver. She looked back at Adora, who gave her a thumbs up and toothy smile. Catra was only ten and keeping up with the tall woman was tiring. Finally, they got to her office and Shadow Weaver walked in and gestured for Catra to follow. She walked in and looked around, the bare walls a drab green colour.

“Catra, I called you in for a very important reason.”

The butterflies in Catra’s stomach were going crazy and she had to wrap her tail around her one leg to keep it from swishing around in excitement. “You see Catra, a family came in wanting to adopt you today. They watched you on the obstacle course and how you played with Adora. They were very impressed”

Catra’s heart was beating fast.

Am I...Am I going to be adopted?

“I advised against it of course.”

As quick has her hope had come it was gone. She felt something inside her break and her body was frozen.

“But...but...why?” Catra stuttered.

“Because you are a troublemaker. Constant temper, back talk, impulsive, breaking things, shoplifting- “

-That was one time! And I’ve stopped since then!”

“-Silence! The fact is that you stole and I had to come in to bail you out! Wasted money on getting you out when I should’ve just left you there! No one will ever want you.”

Catra was slowly breaking inside. Each word hurt more than the last and she was struggling to breathe properly. “

Despite all of that I still chose to keep you here, so be grateful. You need to work harder to prove that you can fit in with another family. You can leave now.”

Don’t let her see you cry. Crying is a sign of weakness.

Catra felt tears sting her eyes but looked down and began to walk out of the office when Shadow Weaver’s voice rang into her sensitive ears before she closed the door.

“Oh and could you please tell Adora to come to me now? I have some good news for her.”

Catra walked slowly to the bathroom first and let the silent tears drip down her face. She gripped the sink with such force she thought she was going to break it. She eventually walked back to her dorm and saw Adora sitting on the bottom bunk bed.

“Hey! So, how was it?” she asked excitedly.

“Nothing, she wants to see you though,”

Catra swallowed and prayed that Adora didn’t see how sad she was. Thankfully she didn’t.

“Okay! I’ll be back soon!”

Adora opened her arms and glanced at Catra with a pleading look.

“Okay fine, I’ll give you a good luck hug,” Catra said with a eye roll but she needed the hug too more than ever.

Especially after what Shadow Weaver had said to her. Adora wrapped her arms around the feline and hugged her tightly before running off to Shadow Weaver’s office. Catra had always had problems with people being too close to her but Adora was the only exception even though she had never told her that. She loved getting hugs from Adora and felt whole whenever she was with her.

“I wonder what Shadow Weaver is gonna tell her? Maybe she finally gets to be dorm captain, she’s always wanted that,” Catra sighed.

No one will ever want you.

Shadow Weaver’s voice echoed in her head and she tried to bury it, deeper and deeper into her.

“You’ll be fine. You have Adora. Together, you’ll be fine.”

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Catra’s throat was dry and the tears were constant. Angella offered her a box of tissues and she grabbed a few.

“Adora left a month later. Shadow Weaver told her she was getting adopted. She was ecstatic but wanted me to be with her. The family could only take in one child though. The count down to the date that she left to her new home was like a timebomb waiting to go off. I couldn’t stand the chance of her not waking up to see her in the morning...”

Catra sniffed and blew her nose.

“Adora promised to write and visit me. Her saying goodbye was one of the most difficult things I’ve ever had to do.”

Angella hesitantly placed a hand on Catra’s shoulder.

“What happened after that?”

“She never visited. She never wrote back. It’s like she forgot all about me. And I had to deal with Shadow Weaver for the next fours years of my life by myself. We met for the first time at our first volleyball match when we were 14 and we just clicked. I forgot all about the anger I had felt for her and I fell in love with her all over again. I asked her out. We dated for four years and I could finally leave the orphanage when I turned 18. Adora and I applied to Brightmoon University and...that leads us to now. I fucked up everything between us and dragged Scorpia into it and I’ve lost everyone I love.”

Catra broke down and sobbed into the tissues, her whole body heaving. Angella was quiet as she moved her hand to gently rub Catra’s back.

“It sounds like you’ve suffered immense mental and psychological abuse while growing up in the orphanage Catra,” Angella said worryingly.

“Look, I know. Shadow Weaver was a terrible person. But I got through it for four years on my own. I should be able to deal with my own problems,” huffed Catra as she sunk into the blankets.

“Catra, I understand your frustration. You want to be strong enough for yourself and to show others you aren’t weak but letting it fester inside you is what caused this problem in the first place.”

Catra glared at Angella.

“Oh really? And what would you know about pain and frustration? You’re a professor! You have Glimmer and a house!”

Angella sighed and walked to a cabinet that stood on one side of the room. She picked up a picture frame and handed it to the feline. Catra realized it was a picture of Angella, Glimmer and a man she had never seen before.

“The man is Micah. He...he died a few years ago. He worked for the military and was about to finish his quota for service but he was asked to do one more job to save refugees. I urged him to do it because it would’ve been his last one. They were ambushed and killed.”

Catra stared at the photograph.

“I blamed myself for years, feeling like it was my fault for sending Micah to go and it ate away at me for a long time. I eventually sought out help and I have managed to come to terms with it and move on. It was a long process but...I definitely am in a happier space than was a few years ago.”

Catra handed the photo back to Angella and she sighed.

“I’m sorry...I never should’ve assumed.”

“It’s alright Catra. But what I’m telling you is that seeking help and sorting through your problems is the best thing to do. Otherwise you might never move forward.”

Catra looked Angella for the longest time before nodding.

“Okay...I...I want to move forward. Can you please help me?”

“Of course. I can schedule to see you once or twice a week but at least once a week. Oh, and tell me one more thing, is Shadow Weaver still running the orphanage?”

Catra nodded and Angella clenched her jaw. She jotted down in her notebook to sort that out before giving her full attention to Catra.

“Let’s continue. What did you do for the next four years of your life without Adora?”

*******

The session felt like it had gone for hours but when Catra checked the clock hanging on the lounge wall, only two hours had passed.

"Okay, Catra. I'll see you next week?" Angella said as she walked Catra to the door.

The storm had stopped and all that remained were the dark clouds and rain puddles. Catra's clothes had gotten dry and Angella had lent her a jacket to keep her warm.

"Yeah...next week. I...um...thank you, For everything. I know there's still a lot to talk about and this won't be easy but...I feel lighter," Catra admitted, a small smile on her face.

"Do you have any idea how you're going to talk to Scorpia when you get home?"

Catra thought for a moment.

"Tell her I'm sorry and that I made a huge mistake. I need to prove that i will never do something like that ever again."

"And?"

"And that crying isn't a weakness, it's a natural human thing to do when experiencing many emotions at once. It is okay to cry," Catra finished.

Angella smiled.

"Goodbye Catra, I wish you all the best. And I will see you tomorrow."

"Tomorrow?"

"Yes. You have a Politics lecture at 10 and yes, I do expect you to be there," Angella winked and Catra groaned.

"Fine! I'll see you tomorrow!"

The professor watched the feline walk away and she smiled to herself.

"Don't worry Catra, I believe you can get yourself out of this mess. It might take a long time but...I know you can."

All 104 questions?

Omg I'm ready to answer all these!1. You woke up naked next to the last person you texted, what would you say?'I love you' probably. Since that's my bf2. What’s going on between you and the last person you kissed?Dating him!3. If your boyfriend or girlfriend was into drugs, would you care?Yes.4. Is your last name longer than six letters?Nope5. Was your last kiss drunk or sober?Sober6. Have you ever wanted to have someone but you messed it up?No7. What does your last received text say?'❤❤' My bf and I are just sending hearts to each other lol8. How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed?God, I've lost count, idk.9. Where was your last kiss at?At my front door10. When is the last time you saw your sister?Like an hour ago11. What do you drink in the morning?A monster probably12. Where did you sleep last night?In my bed13. Do you think relationships are hard?Yeah, a bit. I'm getting used to it. But to me, it's so worth it.14. If you could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would you?No, don't think so15. You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, any problems?Not at all lol16. Would you rather it be sunny or rainy?Rainy17. Do you know anyone with the same middle name as you?Nope, never met anyone with my middle name18. Are you wearing jeans,sweatpants,or pajama pants?Jeans currently19. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 years from now?I'd hope so20. Does anyone like you?My boyfriend is the only one lol21. Have you ever kissed someone with a name that starts with an S?No22. Is the last person you kissed gay?No lol23. Is there a person you CANNOT stand?Hmm I just don't like people in general, so I dunno.24. Have you ever considered getting a tattoo?Yeah, idk maybe one day. 25. In the past week have you cried?Yeah just yesterday lmao. I cry often26. What breed was the last dog you saw? Pekingese27. Do you dry off in the shower or out of the shower?Out of the shower28. Have you ever kissed a football player?No29. Do you think you’re old?No, but I feel old lol30. Do you like text messaging?Ehh not usually. It stresses me out so much when I don't get replies right away. Also I don't really have anyone to text other than my bf and brother. But I prefer texting to express my feelings, if something is hard for me to say face to face. Also I cannot handle phone calls, so I prefer texts to that. Except calls with my boyfriend, that's an exception, I prefer talking on the phone with him rather than texting.31. What type of day are you having?Kinda tiring. Worked at 7 this morning, so I'm tired. 32. Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?Nah33. Do you prefer warm or cold weather? Cold definitely!34. Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?My boyfriend. As well as my brother. Those are the first two that come to mind.35. Would you prefer a relationship or a fling?Relationship hands down. I honestly don't think I could emotionally ever handle a fling. Mostly cuz I can't just fuck anyone, I have to be emotionally connected to the person and would want more than sex. Cuz there's more important things. Also, never had sex before, so there's that.36. Are you a simple or complicated person?Hm, complicated probably. Idk tho.37. What song are you listening to?All Night by Parov Stelar 38. When you say you’re sorry do you mean it?Yes usually. I apologize constantly.39. Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everything about you?Hm no actually I don't think so. My sister knows a bit. Out of any girls I ever talk to, I probably talk to her the most. 40. What made you start liking the person you like now?Honestly.. most of it was his sense of humor, his voice, his laugh, his smile. I thought he was really cute when I first met him, but I was slightly scared of him, so I can't say when I actually started to like him. It didn't take long after we became friends that I developed a crush on him, I know that lol41. When did you last receive a text message?4 minutes ago my bf texted me he misses me42. What is wrong with you right now?Just super tired ugh. Also I am cold. And miss him a lot right now43. How well do you know the last female you texted?My sister.. so I'd say pretty well44. Does anyone disgust you?Hmm yeah kinda. At work I get customers that just gross me out, but idk anyone in particular45. Would you date someone right now if they asked?No. Honestly only want to date my boyfriend46. Are you in a good mood right now?I'm in a decent mood I guess. I'm tired... but my sister made potato soup for dinner, which is my favorite homemade meal, so I'm happy about that. Also listening to music, so it's not too bad.47. Who was the last person you talked to in person?My sister.48. What color shirt are you wearing?Blue, my favorite color.49. Has someone recently told you something you didn’t want to hear?Lmao people tell me things I don't wanna hear every single day. Particularly my family was saying stuff yesterday that upset me and I didn't want to hear it.50. Anyone you’re giving up on?Besides myself? Nah.51. Do you hate the person you fell hardest for?No. I love my bf, he's the only person I've ever fallen in love with.52. Have you ever thought about giving up on someone but couldn’t?Nope53. Do you like rain?Love it, except that I wear glasses and it drives me crazy to have them rained on. 54. Do you care if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks?No55. Have you ever liked somebody and never told them?Yeah, I liked my bf before dating him, since I was 15. I'm 19 now and figured he'd never like me, so never really told him, I mean, until after he said he had a crush on me. 56. Do you like to cuddle?Omfg it's like my favorite thing in the world.57. Are you shy?Yeah 58. Do you get along with girls?Yeah usually. It's guys that are a bit harder for me to trust and feel comfortable with.59. Have you dated the person you texted last?Dating him lol 60. What do you carry with you at all times?My phone always. And I almost always have my bag with me, which has my medications and wallet, those are the other things I always feel I need. 61. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you?Yeah omg 62. Do you think you can last in a relationship for five months?Yeah 63. Think back to October, were you in a relationship?No. I began my first relationship in January of this year, so never dated anyone before that. 64. The person you like kisses you on the forehead, do you find this cute?Ugh yes65. Did anything “cute” happen in the last week?Last night I was texting my bf and basically told him how he's special to me and the only person I've ever wanted to fuck and the only person I've felt sexually attracted to and that made him happy and then we were being all lovey dovey and stuff, it made me super happy.66. How old are the last three people you kissed?I've only ever kissed my boyfriend. And he's 21.67. Would you rather pay to get your nails done or do them yourself?    Do them myself probably68. Which do you like better- Zebra print or leopard print?    Leopard probably, idk, not a fan of either really69. Do you have any stickers on your car?    I don't have a car lol70. Would you rather listen to Luke Bryan or Lil Wayne?  Lil Wayne, ugh but I don't like either at all71. Blackberry, Android, or iPhone?    Android72. When’s the last time you had pizza from Pizza Hut?    Hm problem not that long ago. I eat pizza often.73. Do you like diet soda? Yes usually I kinda prefer it. Depends on what I'm feeling though.74. What color are the walls in your room?    White75. Are you 16 or older?    Yep, 1976. Do you watch Pretty Little Liars?    No lmao77. Do you have a job?    Yep  78. What are your initials?    CRB79. Did you ever have braces?Yeah I had them for like 3 and a half years.80. Are you from the south?    Technically speaking, Virginia is south. But I don't really think that Virginia is very southern compared to other states. I guess idk81. What does your last status on facebook say?    I honestly dunno, I really hate fb82. Do you still talk to the first person you ever kissed?    Dating him, of course lol83. Are you closer to your mom or your dad?    Hmm. My dad probably. Idk. I can get along better with my dad. But my dad isn't good at listening and talking about feelings, so in that aspect, I'm not that close to him. But I'm more emotionally closer to my mom, but we have a very stressed relationship.84. Have you ever done cheerleading or gymnastics?No85. What’s the last movie you saw in theaters?    I cannot remember. It's been a while lol86. Do you smoke?No, never have, never will.87. Would you rather wear heels or flip flops?Ugh neither please. But I'd say flip flops. Both are bad tho lol88. Is your phone touch screen?Lol yes89. Do you normally wear your hair straight or curly?    I normally straighten my hair90. Have you ever snuck out of your house?    No I don't think so91. Would you rather swim in a river, lake, or pool?    Is none an option? Not a fan of swimming92. Have you ever made out in a car?No, but I would be down for it93. …Had sex in a car? Never had sex ever lol94. Are you single or in a relationship? In a relationship95. What were you doing last night at midnight?    Playing Bioshock and texting the boyfriend96. When’s the last time you saw fireworks?    Been like 2 years I think97. Do you like the camera on your phone?    Idk I don't take many pictures. I guess. It takes good pictures of my cats, so I'm happy with it98. Have you ever had a friend with benefits?    No and I wouldn't want to either99. Have you ever passed out from drinking?    Nope100. Are you friends with people on facebook that you actually hate?  No101. Have you ever had a pregnancy scare?    Lmao no102. Name your favorite Kesha song:Take it Off, prolly103. Do you have any tan lines right now?    Hahahahaha! Ha. No. I'm literally so pale, I look kinda sick, as I've been told. I don't tan.104. Would you ever wear cowboy boots with shorts?   Oh jesus noThank you so much!!